World Club 10s

yays! Rugby wkend.

we made history by being the first batch of ladies to be playing on the National Stadium! ahhahahs

cheap thrill. ahhas. its actually the World Club 10s... our match was just to showcase the Womens Rugby Teams. really enjoyed myself coz its not often that we all get to play together from different clubs. thank you for the opportunity and it was fun.

the Stadium is really nice. 

abit too much sand. hahas. i guess coz the grass hasn't grown so they used sand to soften it. 

World Club 10s. saw some awesome players from All Blacks. weepu is in da housee! ahhahas. The Blues got champion today! didn't go for it coz of the wedding.

and so. this morng had 7s trng. and the off to Josias and Delia's wedding! :)

good to see some of the old friends again. and found out that these couple know some of my other friends too!

an awesome couple. loved the vid and it reminded me alot of things; how i should really be keeping myself aligned and focused. grateful for their sharing and their love that has subtly taught me alot of big lessons.

better be sleeping early today.

not too bad.

lastly, wanna share an amazing view with u.  if i could freely take photos, it would be great but that's it for now. wanted to take a shot with a plane, but abit difficult.

whirlpool

these few days quite jia lat.
idky but the mind is in sucha mess
u're there at every space and gap of my synapses
and idk how to get you out.

for the record, i'm still sick. though not as bad, but the flu is still on. its been 2 long weeks of eating food without being able to taste and savour them properly.

work's been busy.
somehow it seems that i'm settling down. BUT. there's always that but right.
no news from the interview yet. that's good news to me, and i'm really hoping that they'll inform me that i dont make it so i know that that door of good prospects is closed.

i really dont know man.
even when i'm working, riding or eating, my mind suddenly get caught in those trains.
whenever i'm not thinking, or even, sometimes when i'm seriously thinking or evaluating work stuff, u just simply come and intercept that logical train of thoughts. day and night w/o stop and sometimes i feel that i'm gg crazy. once i thought i saw u, and it made my heart skipped a beat but i'm guessing its just a hallucination. ugh. i'm attributing it to the flu bug and all. i know i shouldn't be thinking of u, but it just comes. feeling likka werewolf at times, it guess worse especially when it rains or when the moon is shining brightly. hahas. but i guess its more controllable now, at least i dont go to unnecessary lengths and distances to sooth the desperation. hahaha.

i guess by now u should have long gone forgotten about me since i've put u through so much misery but i do hope that u're well. despite my individual storms, it is somehow considerably more peaceful overall. i'm just hoping that time can really do its wonders.
recently there's this person who's been paying quite a considerable amount of attention to me. at this point of time, whenever guys start to be like so, i get realllly paranoid, to a point of sheer fear. sometimes i hope its just me being over sensitive, but i'm quite afraid that my friendly-boyish character may falsely send off wrong signals. all in all to cut the long story short, i dont want to start loosing my circle of guy friends like that.

looking back at the failed, urm...one and a half serious tangled relationships/friendships, i might just be that center of all the problems. its only recently that i forced myself to go through a mental comparison of the forcefully tangible factors, and i realized everything seems uncannily & unfortunately familiar. my subconscious self-esteem issues may just be the prevailing factor. i mean like, how can i accept that someone can love me if i can't love myself right. perhaps for the rest of the year, i should focus on really loving myself and thinking that i'm really.... loveable. ahhahahahas. well well.




back at my job.
idk if i can really let go of this aviation industry.
i've been mentally trying to put myself in situations that i'll never be with planes and maintenance/ technical side of things and its really quite sad. perhaps all in all, i really should learn how to let go completely.

hahas! found this in the MRO magazine. cool huh. 

anyways, another exciting wkend. 

on sat i'll be one of the first few to be playing rugby in the new National Stadium! :D its not really a competition but sort of likka exhibition match for the World Club 10s. quite exciting!

and sunday is Josias' wedding! :D

i hope to be fully recovered ASAP pls. like by today.

2 weeks is enoughhhhh.

Maybe I'm in denìal,
Or,
in denial that I'm in denial.

And then I've forgotten the what is again.

So overwhelming
So consuming

/oh let's go back to the start
/running in circles, chasing up tails
/heads on the science apart

Really?
Can I?
Can we?

Now what is it again?

the drift

wah. been sick for the.whole.week.
quite poor thing uh. still went to work but on the verge of dropping dead. but work wasn't too bad this week.but thank God that mother poon is back home.

nothing much.

spent both the wkend days at home on the couch playing HayDay and all other stupid games.
didn't even have the energy to do some readings.

2 fridays ago, mother poon with the sis brought the 2 monkeys to the airport to pick their mother up, as well as to pick me up from work. For the moment, really felt like my dad. hahas. did some reminising of the past.

ok. one supposedly thing worth documenting down is the 5hr long interview i went last friday.
took half day off.
looking likka zombie with dark eye bags and a dripping nose, i still proceeded on with the interview, forgetting to bring and use my concealer (for the dark rings) with my usual clothes and safety boots. hahas
didn't expect the expectation to be at such a scale. its also my first time participating in a group interview.
hahas. all of them are fresh grads, some came in full suite and tie. felt likka experienced work pro (who looked like i didn't care about the presentation part of the interview) with my just over 1 yr work experience. HAHA. i dont mean to judge but..................... some of them are just tooooooo... naively textbook. some of them even did some serious preparations for the interview, quoting statistics and all. classic fresh local grad. there was this written test section which was 2 hrs long.. hahas. been quite a while since i've written essays. i wrote like 6 pages of ans for 4 qns. hahahs. the guy beside me like swiped out his notes and the company HR assistant told him to put away his notes. hahas. seriously.
i secretly wanted you to read all of them and  hear all ur awful critics about my thoughts though. but with that thought also comes with that fear of the imminent distance which tears us apart. but i guess since we're already at such a distance, i can't imagine the distance getting further.
ANYWAY. then was the discussions. during the discussion, some of them were like... competitive max when the interviewers are like watching our discussion. i was like.. chill man, stop ranting senseless facts when they all dont add up coz u're just trying to prove your knowledge. i enjoy discussions, but not when its just u trying to show off ur knowledge capacity instead of showing off ur analytic skills. no la, didn't verbalize my thoughts. ahhahas, they're rather harmless people though, wait till they meet office politics.

perhaps this was how i looked a year ago when i joined the company. no, not the competitive part, but the part where i immensely believed in the theory studied in the textbooks. well, i mean i still believe them to be useful, but i guess they're just tools to be inadequately sufficient in which, several other more important unwritten concepts that are probably more critical in the decision making can only be learnt/applied when u really start working and dealing with the people and numbers.


and so, written test, overview, discussion, presentation. quite an holistic interview. found the job from jobstreet. and statistics show that there are 116 other applicants just from that channel alone. spoke to some of the interviewees, they came to know abt it through their uni school portal. so i'm guessing there're probably like 250 over ppl to be shortlisted. looking at the A4 notice just outside the room where we had our interview to note the booking purpose of the room, there were 3 sessions. our sessions supposed to have 12 people (i think), but there were only 7 of us. so i'm guessing that there about 30 ppl being shortlisted. hahas. well done, resume. the presenter /main HR person came all the way from HK, she was late for the session due to her delayed flight. haha.i came from the airport too. haahahas.

ok, about the job, its actually a management trainee for the company for the regional arena in which they are penetrating. they started the recruitment in HK last year with just 3 trainees. this year, they're looking at hiring 30 people from all of their regional grounds, probably not more than 10 from sg. after this interview, there would probably be 2-3 interview stages. once in, the program will be for 2 years in which, there is a very high probability that u'll be posted out of the country to learn and work. they mentioned that once away, u'll be away from home for about a 9 month period. after the 2 yrs, there will be likka major project in which will be the final test to decide on ur positing and stuff. they also mentioned that u may be posted permanently away from home, but of course, we can voice out our constraints. their main business is in China, and spreading over HK, Taiwan, Japan, Korea, Msia, Thailand, Aussie and so on. i dun mind hk or jap or even aussie and thailand. hahahhas.


personally, i dont know.
prospects are good. jobscope not so bad coz its still very much operational and on the ground for the moment. i would like to travel overseas and learn about other company and their work culture/environment too, but 9 months  / permanent is quite a commitment for me. at this point of time, i'm willing to part of all my singapore commitments and probably even use this as a form of escapism from all the chains of my heart. however, one main this is mother poon. i cant bear the thought of her being alone for 9 months, without me to shop with her, no reason for her to go to the supermarket to buy groceries to cook, no one for her to nag and complain about the weather and trivial daily stuff like that. i did briefly tell her about the interview and the distance i have to make if i get the job, and she told me not to worry coz she can stay with the 2 monkeys since they always want her there. deep down, i know she can't live w/o me, either. the definition of 'live' is not just the intake of oxygen and water to function  bodily, but to just get on with life with a least bit of surviving purpose.


idk.
jobscope wise, this is where i distinctively need to distant myself from the Aviation industry. no more cmm, ipc, airlaw and so on.... gonna miss such kind of restrictions from the caas. haha. but sadly, no more smelling unpleasant hydraulic oil, and looking at the shinny planes just when the sun is rising from the night shifts. that also means to abandon my dream (again), and forget all that i've learnt over these past 2 yrs.and along with it, i probably need to seriously forget that one key person who made this whole journey worthwhile as well.


idk.
perhaps another 5-7 years i might wanna come back to the industry to move it. i guess the experiences and views from another industry/culture might be of a good use. but will i? can i?


perhaps i'm just thinking too much.
a part of me want to get the job, but in all honesty, a bigger part of me hopes that i fail the interview. i did think of not going for the interview. but knowing me, if i dont go, i'd always have that gap for the whatifs. so i'd rather get the door slam in my face than to question the whatifs of the untried route. idk if this is a selfish move since i'm closing up one space for a desperate applicant. but really, who really knows what we want?
well, there's also another job which i really hope to get is the one at Boeing, as an Operations Analyst. this is the kind of job i would also enjoy if i really cant have opportunities to do the maintenance work. this kind of job with opportunities for data analysis, problem based learning all for the improvements in the process and other aspects of the businesses do challenge me abit more.
its again, the times like this where i amount up all the words u've spoken to me in e past, replaying them to myself and deceiving myself that u're still within reach. be it good or bad, i just needed to hear them mentally and then reaching an inconclusive end, i'll have to snap back to reality and rmbr to face it with myself altogether.



sigh.
if only dad was around. i would want to hear his whacky comments. ok, my dad is never the 'educated' kind and so u'll never hear brilliant properly phrased advice of the economics / work of things. in his ways, he'll just say something stupid which will make everyone laugh, but still able to give u a penny for your thoughts which has been proven to be useful coming from sucha guy with huge aviation experience. its those of one u-think-its-useless comments until u consciously give some serious thought about it.
i really miss you.

Happy Father's Day boeingpoon. 

Ugh

Wanted to blog more happily, but i'm feeling v sick now and all my feverish head could do is to think of u. That, i cant manage.

the west life

ok, sudden changes to work plans because of some negotiations. feeling half half about it. ok, but not too enthusiastic.

finally went back to gym on wed and my thighs have been aching ever since.
been raining.

last night, just didnt feel like gg home.
i rode slowly.
cold roads.
lone rider.
light rain.
cool breeze.
westlife songs playing on Album shuffle mode.
i think it was on the 'World of our Own' album, starting with the song 'I Cry'... till this morng, my ipod stops at "Angel". hahahas. for some reasons, its just moments that u really pay attention to the lyrics and allow it to fill your aching soul and then seem to provide a form of comfort. all the songs man. but i think i'll just share those more intoyou ones. ahhahahs. Westlife. fav band when i was in primary school, together with my fav "boy.friend". HAHAH. memories.

I Cry

You said goodbye 

I fell apart 

I fell from all we had 

To I never knew 

I needed you so bad 

You need to let things go 

I know, you told me so 

I've been through hell 

To break the spell 

Why did I ever let you slip away 

Can't stand another day without you 

Without the feeling 

I once knew 

I cry silently 

I cry inside of me 

I cry hopelessly 

Cause I know I'll never breathe your love again 

I cry 

Cause you're not here with me 

I cry 

Cause I'm lonely as can be 

I cry hopelessly 

Cause I know I'll never breathe your love again 

If you could see me now 

You would know just how 

How hard I try 

Not to wonder why 

I wish I could believe in something new 

Oh please somebody tell me it's not true (oh girl) 

I'll never be over you 

Why did I ever let you slip away 

Can't stand another day without you 

Without the feeling 

I once knew 

I cry silently 

I cry inside of me 

I cry hopelessly 

Cause I know I'll never breathe your love again 

I cry 

Cause you're not here with me 

I cry 

Cause I'm lonely as can be 

I cry hopelessly 

Cause I know I'll never breathe your love again 

If I could have you back tomorrow 

If I could lose the pain and sorrow 

I would do just anything 

To make you see 

You still love me 

I cry silently 

I cry inside of me 

I cry hopelessly 

Cause I know I'll never breathe your love again 

I cry 

Cause you're not here with me 

I cry 

Cause I'm lonely as can be 

I cry hopelessly 

Cause I know I'll never breathe your love again

Why Do I Love You

Suddenly she's leaving

Suddenly the promise of love has gone

Suddenly, breathing seems so hard to do

Carefully you planned it

I got to know just a minute to late, oh girl

Now I understand it

All the times we made love together

Baby, you were thinking of him

Why do I love you? Don't even want to

Why do I love you like I do? Like I always do

You should've told me, why did you have to be untrue?

Love you like I do, why do I love you like I do?

Ain't gonna show no weakness

I'm gonna smile and tell the whole world I'm fine

I'm gonna keep my senses but deep down

When no one can hear me, baby I'll be crying for you

Why do I love you? Don't even want to

Why do I love you like I do? Like I always do

You should've told me, why did you have to be untrue?

Love you like I do, why do I love you like I do?

Can't go back, can't erase

Baby your smiling face oh no

I can think of nothing else but you

Suddenly, suddenly

Why do I love you? Don't even want to

Why do I love you like I do? Like I always do

You should've told me, why did you have to be untrue?

Love you like I do, why do I love you like I do?

Like I always do

Why do I love you? Don't even want to

Why do I love you like I do? Like I always do

You should've told me, why did you have to be untrue?

Love you like I do, why do I love you like I do?

Like I always do

Love you like I do? Like I always do

Love you like I do? Like I always do

Love you like I do? Like I always do

Why do I love you?

Don't even want to

Why do I love you like I do?

I Wanna Grow Old With You

Another day without your smile

Another day just passes by

But now I know how much it means

For you to stay right here with me

The time we spent apart will make our love grow stronger

But it hurt so bad, I can't take it any longer

I wanna grow old with you

I wanna die lyin' in your arms

I wanna grow old with you

I wanna be lookin' in your eyes

I wanna be there for you

Sharin' in everything you do

I wanna grow old with you

A thousand miles between us now

It causes me to wonder how

Our love tonight

(Our love tonight)

Remains so strong

(Remains so strong)

It makes our risk right all along

(It makes our risk)

The time we spent apart will make our love grow stronger

But it hurt so bad, I can't take it any longer

I wanna grow old with you

I wanna die lyin' in your arms

I wanna grow old with you

I wanna be lookin' in your eyes

I wanna be there for you

Sharin' in everything you do

I wanna grow old with you

Things can come and go, I know

(Things can come and go)

But baby I believe

Something's burnin' strong between us

It makes it clear to me

I wanna grow old with you

I wanna die lyin' in your arms

I wanna grow old with you

I wanna be lookin' in your eyes

I wanna be there for you

Sharin' in everything you do

I wanna grow old with you

I wanna die lyin' in your arms

I wanna grow old with you

I wanna be lookin' in your eyes

I wanna be there for you

Sharin' in everything you do

I wanna grow old with you

Evergreen

Eyes, like a sunrise

Like a rainfall

Down my soul

And I wonder

I wonder why you look at me like that

What you're thinking

What's behind

Don't tell me

But it feels like love

I'm gonna take this moment

And make it last forever

I'm gonna give my heart away

And pray we'll stay together

'Cause you're the one good reason

You're the only girl that I need

'Cause you're more beautiful than I have ever seen

I'm gonna take this night

And make it evergreen

Touch, like an angel

Like velvet to my skin

And I wonder

I wonder why you wanna stay the night

What you're dreaming

What's behind

Don't tell me

But it feels like love

I'm gonna take this moment

And make it last forever

I'm gonna give my heart away

And pray we'll stay together

'Cause you're the one good reason

You're the only girl that I need

'Cause you're more beautiful than I have ever seen

I'm gonna take this night

And make it evergreen

Oh, yeah, yeah, yeah

Don't tell me

But it feels like love

I'm gonna take this moment

And make it last forever

I'm gonna give my heart away

And pray we'll stay together

'Cause you're the one good reason

You're the only girl that I need

'Cause you're more beautiful than I have ever seen

I'm gonna take this moment

And make it last forever

I'm gonna give my heart away

And pray we'll stay together

'Cause you're the one good reason

You're the only girl that I need

'Cause you're more beautiful than I have ever seen

I'm gonna take this night

And make it evergreen

Ooh, make it evergreen

If Your Heart's Not In It

Ooh, oh yeah

Yeah yeah

I'm missing you

Girl even though you're right here by my side

'Cause lately it seems

The distance between us is growing too wide

I'm so afraid that you're sayin' it's over

It's the last thing that I wanna hear

But if your heart's not in it for real

Please don't try to fake what you don't feel

If love's already gone

It's not fair to lead me on

'Cause I would give the whole world for you

Anything you ask of me, I'd do

But I won't ask you to stay, I'd rather walk away

If your heart's not in it

You say that you love me but baby sometimes

You're just saying the words, saying the words

If you've got somethin' to tell me

Don't keep it inside, let it be heard

I'm so afraid that you're sayin' it's over

But girl, I'll make it easy for you

If your heart's not in it for real

Please don't try to fake what you don't feel

If love's already gone

It's not fair to lead me on

'Cause I would give the whole world for you

Anything you ask of me, I'd do

But I won't ask you to stay, I'd rather walk away

If your heart's not in it

How I wish I could take us back in time

But it's gone too far, now we can't rewind

There's nothing that I can do to stop me losin' you

I can't make you change your mind

No no

If your heart's not in it

Oh yeah

Oh oh

Oh baby, if your heart's not in it for real

Please don't try to fake what you don't feel

But I won't ask you to stay

I'd rather walk away, oh no

If your heart's not in it for real

Please don't try to fake what you don't feel

If love's already gone

It's not fair to lead me on

'Cause I would give the whole world for you

Anything you ask of me, I'd do

But I won't ask you to stay, I'd rather walk away

Dont Say It's Too Late

It doesn't take much to learn

When the bridges that you burn

Leave you stranded feeling alone

It doesn't take much to cry

When you're living in a lie

And deceiving that someone who cares

If I could turn back the time

I would put you first in my life

And I would risk it all for you

To prove my love is true

I'll build a wall around my heart

That would only break a part for you

Can change the way I feel

So tell me what's the deal

Don't say, don't say it's too late

And now the hills are getting hard to climb

I'm runnin' out of time

My decisions are pending on you

And I will accept the blame

For burnin' out the flame

Hoping the story will twist once again

And if I could turn back the time

I would put you first in my life

And I would risk it all for you

To prove my love is true

I'll build a wall around my heart

That would only break a part for you

Can change the way I feel

So tell me what's the deal

Don't say, don't say it's too late

Now I'm

Layin' it all on the line

For you

And I would risk it all for you

To prove my love is true

I'll build a wall around my heart

That would only break a part for you

Can change the way I feel

So tell me what's the deal

So don't say, don't say it's too late

Risk it all for you

To prove my love is true

I'll build a wall around my heart

That would only break a part for you

Can change the way I feel

So tell me what's the deal

So don't say, so don't say it's too late

Don't say, don't say it's too late

Dont Let Me Go

So much to say, but where do I start

Would you listen if I spoke from the heart

It's simple things, that keep us apart

You know it doesn't have to be this way

Can't you hear it in my voice?

(Oh baby)

Gotta listen when I say

Don't let me go when I'm this low

Why can't we talk about it?

Why can't we figure it out?

I wanna know as people grow

How do they sort it all out?

Work out what love is about?

So tell me now yeah I've gotta know

When this feeling I've got won't let go

Some people stop, and some people stare

I'm hearing whispers that you no longer care

Should I stay, should I turn away

Stop playing games now you know it's not fair oh baby

Can't you hear it in my voice?

(Oh baby)

Gotta listen when I say

Don't let me go when I'm this low

Why can't we talk about it?

Why can't we figure it out?

I wanna know as people grow

How do they sort it all out?

Work out what love is about?

So tell me now yeah I've gotta know

When this feeling I've got won't let go

You make me think I've got this feeling for you

I've tried so hard, won't you listen to me?

(Listen to me)

'Cause we can make it we can see this through

Let me start by telling you

Don't let me go when I'm this low

Why can't we talk about it?

Why can't we figure it out?

I wanna know as people grow

How do they sort it all out?

Work out what love is about

Don't let me go when I'm this low

Why can't we talk about it?

Why can't we figure it out?

I wanna know as people grow

How do they sort it all out?

Work out what love is about

So tell me now yeah I've gotta know

When this feeling I've got won't let go

Don't let me go

Love Crime

I didn't know what to say

Tried to look the other way

When I saw you there with him

Acting like I don't care

But you can read from how I stare

That I'm hurting deep inside

But even though you look so good tonight

I'll be fine

But I know that for you

To be here without me by your side

It's a love crime

Why you act so surprised

I can tell from the guilt in your eyes

It's a love crime to me

Love has never been good to me

Maybe it's just my destiny

To live my life alone

Who was I trying to fool

Thinking our love would break the rule

Still I'm standing on my own

And even though you look so good tonight

I'll be fine

But I know that for you

To be here without me by your side

It's a love crime

Why you act so surprised

I can tell from the guilt in your eyes

It's a love crime to me

It's a love crime

Here I am not knowing

Tell me what to do

But I know that for you

To be here without me by your side

It's a love crime

Why you act so surprised

I can tell from the guilt in your eyes

It's a love crime to me

But I know that for you

To be here without me by your side

It's a love crime

Why you act so surprised

I can tell from the guilt in your eyes, in your eyes

It's a love crime

But I know that for you

To be here without me by your side

It's a love crime

Why you act so surprised

I can tell from the guilt in your eyes, in your eyes

It's a love crime to me

ahhahas. boy.

why do i love you, dont even want to.

latters

because of the situation factors that u've tailored and given to me, i have no choice but to write another letter. probably one of the toughest letter i've written, trying hard to sound politcally sound, unchallenged and neutral. this put those tough love letters to level 1. hahas. and so, i do not know what lies ahead of me next week, but i just thank God for this journey thus far.
exhausted, but grateful.


speaking of politics, there's this whole saga about this guy vs the CPF vs the govt.
honestly, just give up la. how can u fight with the government. Not that we can't be heard, but do you honestly believe that u've got the best views of the general public from where you are now, or from whatever info you're getting. what's best is, u're using information, self-generated by ur skewed thought-processes as substantial info to support ur baseless acquisitions. yes, thank u for speaking up for Singaporeans but are u very sure what u're talking about?

anyways. no offence, but from young, i do believe all our Social Studies textbooks are propaganda-ish materials. however, its all for the good cause of this multi-racial country and also, our forefathers have indeed worked hard to get to where with are now .whatever means the PAP have taken, we're now an independent country w/o natural resources, so let's just be proud of that, work hard, support the ones that have been working hard to keep this small dot safe. our govrt do listens, u just need to find the right channel to amplify ur thoughts. i'm not saying to force urself to be conservative about everything, but i do urge to u think of the bigger picture before ur start rendering wrong vantage points to begin with.
i guess no matter how baseless ur actions are, i guess its also not tt bad coz at least u're allowing Singaporeans to be more involved/aware/concerned/knowledgeable about our CPFs and the good measures that the govt is taking for us to try the best to make this unfair world as fair as it can possibly go.
its really never easy to make a crooked line straight. its like u know those wired cable ties, however you try and straight it, u'll still see the imperfections. u try harder, but that's only so far you can go.

taking consistent advice from my workplace/everywhere that "everywhere you go is the same la", i guess at this point of time, its appropriate to be selectively lazy towards certain things in work in life. just work hard as how you should, get the money you deserve, be sad if you dont and then continue to work sufficiently harder, and thats about it. sometimes we give so much that we burn ourselves out in the process even if we dont ask for anything in return. and when we do go into flame out mode, no one's really gonna save you w/o leaving u indebted for life.
just like how christina perri says, we're only human.
yes, we can finally fly though we once didn't believe so, but its because the commercialized Wright brothers have taken the successful calculated risks + abit of faith and conviction. so, what kind of calculations have u taken today?



i've just painted my nails ytd and i've got pretty nails now.

"Human" - Christina Perri

I can hold my breath

I can bite my tongue

I can stay awake for days

If that's what you want

Be your number one

I can fake a smile

I can force a laugh

I can dance and play the part

If that's what you ask

Give you all I am

I can do it

I can do it

I can do it

But I'm only human

And I bleed when I fall down

I'm only human

And I crash and I break down

Your words in my head, knives in my heart

You build me up and then I fall apart

'Cause I'm only human

I can turn it on

Be a good machine

I can hold the weight of worlds

If that's what you need

Be your everything

I can do it

I can do it

I'll get through it

But I'm only human

And I bleed when I fall down

I'm only human

And I crash and I break down

Your words in my head, knives in my heart

You build me up and then I fall apart

'Cause I'm only human

I'm only human

I'm only human

Just a little human

I can take so much

'Til I've had enough

'Cause I'm only human

And I bleed when I fall down

I'm only human

And I crash and I break down

Your words in my head, knives in my heart

You build me up and then I fall apart

'Cause I'm only human