phew.

totally. horrendous bowling. nv bowled so horribly in any tournament in my entire life. i came in last? haha. totally. blistered my thoumb midway somemore. no feel at all. need mechatechtor. but die lar. dun have. *prays for miracle!
felt really depressed. avg like 100 plus?! crap. seriously man. after match, felt totally sian. like totally. nv felt so sian b4 leh. after psle, streaming and all, felt abit sian but fun. today was ultra mega sian. ahha. from 11 till 1pm. the time i seemed to be like crawling. didn't have the mood to do anything. but to eat.

zen is pro. 204 200 166.


so went to north point to eat wif zen and yl. ate young tou fu and ban mian. nice leh north point food court. food cheered me up.
last night till this morning, i felt that i was gonna die. as in not that i want, but by accident. choy lar. have this strange feeling that a sppeding red car will knock me, a gd pedestrain, crossing the road with the green man. totally. felt really uneasy. glad its kinda gone now. thank God.

anyways.
after makan. zen, yl and i were juz tokign and toking. totally lar. till about 4 plus? pro?
then yl went to get his bowling stuff back at occ. then after that headed to town.
the pics are below. so yea.
kinda fun. met shu neng and she lent us liquid paper. really fun.
then they got their caps and all. yea. its all below.

then met up wif mum for a gd dinner. loving her. =)

right.
and now, kinda having a heavy flu, and a sore throat. the sneezes are like mega, and i can't breathe. ahha. fun. mrs tang taught us this b4. ur lympnods are swollen, aka sore throat, and all and producing alot of mucus, causing flu.if not taken gd care of, fever might follow. well well. ahah. i forgot wads the explaination for fever. but anyways. taken medicine. feeling blech. body pain. arms, thighs, and back is acheing. ahha.



this whole wk is pack.
gotta do banner, meet up for meeting for the yishun pri thing, meet up to cheorograph steps for church camp and all... hmms.
and yes.
kinda hurt by a msg. furthermore, it was during my tournament sia!. brutal.
i cannot even find time to fulfill my priorities. not that ___ is not impt, juz tt i realy dun have time and energy to travel here and there.
and yet. "blank promises..". well, if u say so.
and seriously, God gave us a life to be happy wif. He love and has e best plans for us. pls be happy. i shall not say much lar. i guess u've heard me long enough and its becoming salt to wound. to u that is.
if this way of expression seems hurtful, sry i guess. i've tried my best alrdy. we have to be strong lors. can come on, we all play sports, betcha mentality is strong.
to share wif u, one person, hurt me by saying this.. "the world does not evolve around u. u gotta think. u are not the only one k" yes.word for word. straight into the face, during a meeting. to think of it. it builds me. all of us have flaws. that hurtful statement eventually becomes a reminder. (love that girl who said this sia. haha.). yeps. its a statement that made me reflect.
i dun wish u hurt u, neither do i wanna indirectly nag or 'control' anyone.


i'll pray. i'll keep praying.


i juz wanna thank God for this wk. sustain me. (:

this is the horror. innocent white piece of harmless paper. harmless.

nice right. ahha. its been serving me in my room for a faithful 4 yrs? or mayb 5. rock lar. the dinosaurs were free bk kids toy in 1999 or 2000? yar. haha. they glow in the dark k.

another one. ahhahaa. DELFI ROCKs! coz the prizes are loads n tons of delfi chocs. so ya. haha. a fine contribution. any delfi choc manager wuld be happy. =)

National Age Group. Yew liang, Poon marian, zen.haha. another contribution to the legalised graffitti at fareast.

the shop. really man. i asked other ppl in the shops surroundig it. they were like.. "its a haunted house! enter it! haa. juz go in, u'll see." aahaa. i scared lar. not say scared but unprepared. ahha. very whoa lar.s

in the shop. seriously man. the owner pays for space. its a boutique shop. space is used as a form of deco. its one whole part is empty. very cool. very. found this on one of the walls.

this one pro ar. nice ar. 204 200 166.

they got their long-awaited caps though. he looks like a faithful postman, doesn't he? cool cap ar.

ok. he's happy that he's finally being duplicated- proud owner of chipmunk.

dearest beloved chipmunk. yes. its becmoing an advertisement. payment payment!

2nd post in a day. whoa.

ahha. i think i've cathing a flu.
red eyes, dripping tap. ahha. right.

anyways. bowling.
horrendous. ahha. 1st shot, walked back, hand shaking. ahaha. tremble. subsequently, legs shiver. hwahhaha. effects of long time no bowl. went yishun with zen and lyn. and realised that we haven been there for 2 yrs? ever since last of b div. miss that place alot alot.

ywl was there with uncle paul and some other bowlers. ho yun, i think and hongliang. ahha and others.

i bowled an up down score. ahha. 99,123, 169, 121.. ahha. totally and tmr is wonderful Nationg Age Group. hahha. pray that we'll get smth though. aha.

after that was a nice dinner at amk. ang mo kio. ahha. the hawker there rock. the food is reasonablily charged and the food is gd. must go there. but the drinks eer.. don't have the hawker taste lar. milo peng was in those bubble tea-ish plastic cup. so yea.

uncle paul is one great thinker. he inspires me alot. to stand firm. alot of points to take note. serious man. an affluent leader.
he said this which made both of our hearts *freak out.

"when they called me, saying that some kc bowlers applied, i said yes. weere u the ones?"

haha. right. so hoho. zen, regina and i are erm..might me called for the trials? but yes, not high hopes. coz of L1R5 and he'll do wad he can lar.
dinner was long. he talked and we listened. really man. so much going on in the bowling circle. there is a need for young ones to rise up man. and also, after hearing, a step to SAJC will really change u. literally. it'll be a wholesome bonded team. MJC? i'll still dsa it. just for back up. haiya. juz be smart lar. get 6pts and u have a freedom of choice lors.

anyways. went home. and yes time spent again wif dear zen.


aha. special annoucement:
Wong Yew Liang's 50-cent Chipmunk is soo cute!
haha. totally.
(for those who know. surely, u will know that i'm forced to say such sugar stuff ar. ahaha.). shall be nice and elaborate.that chipmunk is hanging infront of his bowling bag. it was a price won at the arcade.*so cute!. (haiz... can't believe i'm doin this. ) haha. during april fool's day. haha. apirl fools day was a very fun day! right ah liang? seriously, it is sooo cute!. its brown and nice, isn't it.?

haha

ok end. wyl. happy? ahha. should charge u for this man. as in charge literally in terms of $$. aahha. ok lar.

had a gd day. and pls bear in mind. its not the end.... 8 more to go!........

ITS OVER! FINALLY.

1 down. 8 more to go!

haha.

well. paper 1 was superly easy. thanks to zhuo lao shi, bomarded us wif so many questions. glad that i did a "jing tui liang nan" compo and it came out.

paper 2.
not up to standard. tian xie han zhi, 2/5, oout of which, 1 is wrong. which is my norm. then for the rest sama-sama. until the compre.
both the question one and the open-ended one can die man. all out of text. felt that i was writting another chinese compo on lines lor.. but but but..


i wanna thank Big God for Big Peace.

b4 the paper, mrs lie prayed.
i prayed.
for Him to be with me. was literally tremblling looking at the scripts. almost couldn't write. ahaha. and guess wad.. i started off wif letter writting.. and the road name is "ping an lu" haha. peace road. ahhaha. God rocks lar. ahha.


and to top it all. i love all my peng you. pri sch friends whom like on the verge of loosing contact msged.. friends from everywhere msged. really touched. super encougragin lar. on the cliff.. then *beep beep*. yay.

ok lar. be thankful. i know that i'll at least pass. hars.


"even the best falls down sometimes...". the current song now. yay.


i love mummy. she hasn't been nagging as much. coz i've been tellign her how i feel in my ah lian ways. somemore, after the day she meet my tchrs due to poor poor-failed avg, she bought me 2 cds. the -look to you by united live- and -rain down by planet shakers- cd. and also, andrew burnt 3 for me, and nigel burnt a cd. all so nice! yay. and also... elizabeth t's 3 world cds and yt's cd is still wif me. ahaa. so happy.

well.. today goona bowl like mad.for tmr,.. have national age group. and i haven been bowling. so yea.


gtg now. byes. thanks God for the world.

i have failed. but have yet to stand and rise.
=>

i have to stand up.
i have to focus.
i have to live stong.
i have to fight hard.
i have to give my best.
i have to do what i used to do.
i have to get back my form.
i have to get back my confidence.
i have to have self-discipline.
i have to do it for God.
i have to plan.
i have to seek.


2 more days. unprepared? scared. scared that i'll blank out. scared that i have no peace to ask for peace.
no point lars.

juz need to rant. and no. i'm not stress. but, there are physical signs! tsk tsk. but i'm not stress. serious.
i can do it.
i must not procrastinate.
i must not think that i own the world.
i must not think that i hvae all the time in the world.
i must not think that there is still time left.
i must not succumb....

gotta have positive thoughts marian. gotta have.
smiles are so distant from the hart. the hart.

God loves you. God loves me. God loves us. We love. People love. that twig, with that leaf and occasional flower- dangling there. waiting....



pls give me answers. pls show me ur ways. direct me in ur path. thou is impatient, thy misses, thy brain leaves no gap.





" Dear LORD, grant me strength, grant me wisdom, grant me courage. To do ur will, your plans, your glory. Guide me in the light. Guide me through that narrow path. Lead me on. May ur peace fill me. May u discipline me, to follow ur ways Lord. Amen."



."v".
'v'


\-

LiveStrong

effects of long hours of chinese. this worth 85 cents k. felt whoa.

yum yum! myuuuuuu

the smaller ones and jap-py ones are sara's. the english one is mine. ahha. cannot help but smile. =)

mine, sara.

at the aiport. i realised that all these are not water k. they are tubes of running water. some filled some not. so they allow water to overflow, appearing that water flows in straight line.

act dead one lor. or maybe its resting. was swimming. the i wanted to go near it mah. thought it was dead. then later it submerged into the water. CHAO AR! and lizard do not submerge into water.

ok right. there was this erm 'lizard' at siloso beach. i think it is a baby saltwater aligator. positive. but the ppl think its a lizaard. but lizard don swim

at palawan beach where zen and i met our church ppl!

zen and i were there at 8 plus am. the first few. b4 ppl poured in. yes. vesaek day. ahha. this pic is all wrong. the flag. the placing of bags and all. haha.

today zen came to church! i was very happy. really man.
and cass is back in action!

aunty christianne selling papa's day gift-mugs, to raise funds for ppl who can't afford church camp. 1 set of 2 is $20. yep. if anyone want, contact me yea. thanks.

hmm.
she said smth. "i think everyone got father right.. anyone without a father?.."..
hoho. slashed.
thanks jo who gave me a pat on my back.. "psst.. he's in ur heart right. (:"
tears vacuumed back into my eyes. (: still, there is still this sense of resentment, negligance, horrifying, terrifying guilt.
i did not treasure him. i did not make his last papa's day a happy one. what more, on his last bday, i had trng. so i chao face all the way coz i was v tired. and yes. he stil smiled happily and blew his last candles.
even best. i didn't even blog about that day. 11 july 2003.


"something has left my life and i don't know where it went...." -first line of current song.-


hoho.

therefore. treasure e ppl around u. serious. we're always taking thigns for granted. even w/o him, i still find difficulties treasuring my mum when she's on her naggy days and all.
the human concept gets too complacent. we have to stop. to think, reflect, learn, grow and go on.
i nv thought that i would live on w/o a man in the house. like.. all seems too proper at home. never -ju an si wei- then i -shu shou wu ce-. there goes the cheng yu agian. but serious man, he wants to see us get married. he wants to literally have fun wif his son-in-laws. he wants to mix around with those young males that are his 'sons'. but he couldn't.
humble in his own ways, he loved his family. he gave his all for us. his all.
and still, ppl like me in the family still exists.

too high of a pride crushes the truth, the sincerity, thy love. why still, do we hold them hard in our faces even at the hour of death? why?

God's love bounds no boundaries, can we too do the same?
He loves His enemies, can we too, do the same?
he is able to transcends all understanding, repel all temptations, can we too do the same?
agnes and zheng shared today, we are all created in His image. y aren't we thinking WWJD? (what would Jesus do?)


i thank God for today. only 1hr of chinese. tmr chiong all the way liao man. no com. hars.



*He planned everything for us. Do we still go against Him without knowing it? carelessly falling into the deep bottomless pit??*

-

time waits for no man. haha. pro shot. actually wanted to take the train only. then forgot about the reflections adn all.. then become so whoa.

principle of clockwise moments. needed an experiment while at bk. so yea. pen cap = force.. the the string is the pivot lor. haha. it worked ok!

“ I appeal to you, brothers, in the name of our Lord Jesus Christ, that all of you agree with one another so that there may be no divisions among you and that you may be perfectly united in mind and thought. ” (1 Corinthians 1:10)

ran on tues and thurs. literally.

had to spend time with myself. nice time.

o levels. 10 days. clogged up wif chinese. i'm starting to like it man. hars! FULL TROTTLE! AWAY AND BEYOND!


well. results. what can i say. L1R5 34. yesh. chem 13/100. the worst sub, obviously. and pls. not more nagging thanks.
mum has been going on and on. i know what to do yea. yes, i have a life.

thank u.


been thinking of wad glen said b4 in his blog. something about refelcting God in ur life through results. hahs. yar.
and grace said this to me. "Let o levels be an opportunity to grow close in ur faith!"
--yes. things that keep me gg.



been hearing the radio alot. they've been playing the songs over and over again. [incomplete, speed of sound, i like the way yo move] , everyday at least 3, 4 times. can rbmr how to sing liao lor.


haiz. reall 6 points far far from it. i believe i can do it. yes. my aim for cheena is A2. shocking but yes. i am.


DSA.
hohos. felt uberly stupid while filling in the form. hars. zen and i all gonna write alot alot. say duno wad wanna get into council and make a difference in the sch.
haha. but ok lar, if seriously get in, wanna make an impact lor. goona really boost the moral, soar even higher.





kc family day, chinese o's, church camp, yishun town pri sch thing, aeiq, twelfth night, structured lessons, aeiq, ETC... fills my june hols.

so yes. less typing here. currenlty, gonna be close to not coming online. yay!. 1st barrier broken. come online to check mail only. ahah. :)
yes, i have to learn. to be more focused. more self-disipline. yi shen zhuo zhe hahas.









byes for now. take care all u ppl . thank u so much for being here. :)

-end

totally.

i ran at night today.
outburst of adreline. that's nice. (:


external pressrues, internal fear.
condescending tone is what i hear.

constructive critisims? fret not,
for thou'st deny thy truth and not want to hear.

as black as coal. my expression, writes it all.
need not ask, need not speak.

for thou's thoughts have been wrongly assumed.
-by others; by one assumed leader.


(:


i'm gd now. thanks to wyl, after sch, ramping my hp, madly typing crap. click [sent]. ahaha. i'm happy now! ;)

hmm. sajc DSA's form is innocently looking at me now, on my table. ahha. ..staring at the [L1R5 (Sec 3 End-of-Year-Examinations) : ] now. tsk tsk. above 20? :p


anyways, lala. sa? vj? hahahhaa. think think think. =). whole day of cheena. see eng abit like seeing han yu pin yin. haha *hits head.



God rocks. Totally lar. wad can u do without Him lor.

?~

“ As you do not know the path of the wind, or how the body is formed in a mother's womb, so you cannot understand the work of God, the Maker of all things. ”
- Ecclesiastes 11:5






reflect leh. tsk tsk. not focus. loosing independence. loosing confidence. ;)










?




still not there yet.





-

i wanna hit that electric. pro-ly.
-

how how how how how how how how

open all the doors. remove that pole. SET ME FREE.

=?



having alot of feelings in me now. hars. the happy; the sad. the pissed; the mad. the love; the wierdness of it. hoho. tons of crap.

morning had chinese. i slept for a few mins tsk tsk. and yar. i failed my cheena paper. feeling blech.
after that. met mum, went to go renew passport. had lunch at bugis.
and went to church. dance prac. yar.



today very neutral lors. like that so like that lor.



but still i feeling like running to pulau ubin and shout and climb and hike and do all sorts of stupid stuff. i feeling like running and swimming instantaneously.

smths on me and i can't get it off. laziness lars. do my work!. and i failed to do so. the lack of discipline. the hunger for freedom. the pangs of love.



sry lar. in my bloggish mmood agains. ahha. anti climax. ytd was really happy. today, plunged down to the oh-dun-come-near-me mode. haha. meanie.
seriously, duno wads bugging me. maybe it's juz that the bottle is reaching its brim? lala. lala. lala.


tempted. tempted. desperate?. not yet. i wanna talk. talk as in normally. haha. like erm. yar. like last time. how fun and free. its now this loss-for-words barrier. eeks. hate it. so not ms crappy loud marian.- to succumb to her feelings.
man.
its the thoughts lar. it must be. i keep thinking of lala. haha right. lala. and i know that i know how to differentiate. right. dy/dx. haha. a maths. but how do i integrate?? lala. stop it. focus.




ROAR ROAR ROAR.



ok. u guys dun have to read all this crap. not gonna tok alot of sense today. toking sensenless crap. ahhaa. i'm happy u c. i'm confused. i'm stuck. okok i know!

KNOTTED ARTERIES


okok. dearest wyl is blogging now. how SWL can we get man! btw, swl is same wavelenght. coz we keep swl-ing. that had to make it a short form for e convinence.

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=)


ok. hhaha. half of it is out now. haha. blogging makes me happy. haha. yay. needa realase pressure. P= Force/Area. => P= Blogin/Words. haha. need someone beside me now. someone to grab me till my fave turn literally blue. someone to hit me real hard. to come back to reality. someone to care for me, not that i'm lacking of it now. juz deprived kid. pathetic. ahhaa.


so literature. ain't u ppl feel like u're reading a crapped lit bk?? ahahahha. so fun. "o thy rose will stii smell as sweet" "O Romeo romeo, where fort art thou romeo? deny thy father refuse thy name, and i shall no longer be a Capulet"aah. {takes hat off} so amazing, sec 2 lit bk, still can rmbr. love that bk lar. hates twelfth night. not much emmotions. so eeiggishs.



bear in mind. after all, u are an executive com mem. u were once a capt. and now. wad am i reflecting man? am i showing God in me? haha. spur of the momoment to feel like this. don't u guys have this kind of feelings too?
mayb its teh tiredness, manupliating to comlicating uproar of the brain. mentally unsound, stirred up brain juices.



ARGH, UGH. BLECH. ROAR. AHAH. SMILES. =)





// stuffing myself with gd o'l avg fairprice icecream. with choc rice!. ;p
and u dont have! hars.
.

OoOoO. SO SO SO BLESSED TODAY.

all is fine. little stuff God has blessed me with
- happy friends
- acceptable weather
- gd fun.
- hp that is loud and working
- camera is very faithful.

all seems soo fine.


sch ended at a super great time today. 8.15am haha. cheena listening.
then headed to sentosa with mel, sara, siewmee, shuneng and zen.
ahha. weather. drizzle here and there, so no tan! ahha. nvm. hard gd time together. really fun mans.
pics are all below.
and i saw char's stc peeps at hf. ahah. totally lar. =). brought much more smiles.

did alot of thigns here and there. and headed for town wif zen, shu and shiewmee. but then... shiewmee and shu left. so lef tme and zen. ahha.

great time man. talk alot. she got her slippers, i got my cap. ahha. all belows.

haha. on the way home, passing the mac arcade, the grp of guys, (those kind wear pink polo stuff and all), was literalyl trying to chase me? "oie! dun go leh! got hp?!" ahhaa. firstly, kinda crap lar. so big still so despo. some more got so many girls flirting round them. then secondly, haha. hellos. wad generation is this man. no hp? i mean not all have lar.. but like 95% of my friends all have. haha. hmms.
felt almighty for that spur of momement. so i superly daoed them and crossed the raod victorously. whaha.s
feels like Mary Turner.


haha.


tmr is the start of 1 wk of hard core chinese in sch. 750am till 12pm. ahha. full blast. hopefully enough to catch up. =)

God really rocks lar. haha. its been smooth sailign so far. for mye, wasn't as stress as those times. only a little. then whoa. hopefull, can sail smoothly till cheena o's. if needa screw up, pls screw after cheena o's and b4 major o's. ahha. i'll be happy. i'm very happy today.



=)

the cap i got!. trucker. personalised. ahha. and its nice nice nice. paid 15 for it though. ahhah. =). last ex thing i'm goona buy b4 cheena o's. =)

"if u see any suspicious looking articles, pls all 999 or infom our staff. thank you for... " ahha.

zen fiannyl got nice slippers!. the black ones are hers. ahha. the ah bengs and the ah lians. ahha. totally lar. ahhahaha.

nice shot. R-E-S-P-E-C-T. trying to give that face. haha.looks like fail.

this is wad i saw at far east!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! totally right. ahha. hoho. hot pink cable and hot pink everything. nigel should see this. ahha.

this is at the NEL station. can't speel the name. dobby ghaut. haha. yar. ahha. so sweet right. aww. i juz love this. alot alot. =)

ok. this is after we bathe. hwhaha. so fun. zen's masterpiece. ahha. she prolly spiked my hair. ahha. still can't get over my short hair. ahah.

nice. b4 crossing the bridge

this is the high one. good pft fun trng. gd for the guy's chin ups. ahha. see the funness!!

young kids again. and this swing spins k!

haha. look like communist soarin high. yea.. we're at sentosa liao.

ahah. zen, mel, exquisite shuneng, sara, siewmee.

nice one. ahah. i juz love my cam.

looks like she's stuck ther. ahhha. coz the wall look like photo frame.

mel jumps!

sweet? ahha. like a big sis man.

haha. the mirror effect again. this is the round pillar.

another nice happy cool bright shot. =)

at harbour front. ahha. construction. nice bg ar.

hmmm. in my i-miss-the-old-times mode now.

today had great fun. ikea with char, eve and jas. haa. gd gd gd food. ;p

looking thoruhg the photos, i realised, the POON FAMILY has not taken a full formal family photo yet!! so saddistic lar. this will never ever happen lor.
that day went to mrs teo's house, duno how many family photos on her wall man. go legend somemore. so envious!. eeks.

hmm. smths i still dont gettit. mayb i do, just that cann accept it. like why did God put that tree in the garden. why did it had to be a snake there? why does He still love us so so much?

and for that, ppl stil rebel Him. ppl still disobey. ppl are not thankful. ppl want more more more. ppl -de chun jing chi-. this is so terrible. y can't ppl be happy with what they have?


y not half filled but half empty?


its that same human concept lar. never satisfied.

DSA. crap. i meam like, yea. its goonna be benificial. but y? is there a need to? why no juz based it on fair acadamic system? y the need for the inclusion of such extra activities. sooner or later, sure have a system whereby ppl tkae up alot of activities, get gd grades, and basing on time management, is able to go to one's preferred institution. it'll then be like based on ur time management skills. hars.

was thinking. the world is changing. the world is round. so if it keeps changing, isn't it juz rotating in its own axis? like y? takign earth's natural resource for granted.


like coals and all which take millions of yrs to form, are form by dead animals. for all u know, those ppl in the bible might be the coals we're using now. well, indirectly.


bought a light from ikea. $19. need it to study.
and it juz brought me memoraries again. papa will install the lights, put brackets, knock knock, drill drill, paint paint, and it'll be flawless. wires wil nto be seen and all. now, the light is dangling for the cupboard, with the wire messily all over my table, to the plug which is heavily loaded. ahha. wonders of a SIA technician in the house.


nothing goes wrong technically. with him that is.



oh wee. exams are over. but this is only the begninning!! cheena battle starts. imagine going thourgh the papers w/o God. i'll just freak out. ahaha.
gtg now. gonna touch my guit once agian. =)

aha. i think 1997 or smth. those sticks are pick up sticks. young that time, watch tv, then those cheena cheena kind of shows, where all the wang di existed, they had alot of colourful stuff on their hair.. so i tried. haha. =)

haha. old and funny lar. kenna bullied by me still laugh.

a nice family photo. hmm.. just realised that the poon family has not taken a formal family photo.

ahha. this pic super chiao. look like that sonic thing givng some power to the cake. haha

like cloud. but its dry ice. sublimination.

cool eh. ahha.

just realised this. i had a promise. hoho.