mum and i are sick.
probably coz of the food we ate.
i'm still gd. just the full and slight sorethroat.
mum's having the fever and sore throat.
she went down to buy baby stuff for the baby at home.
and omg. the bag cry like mad. i almost died.
i.. CHANGED HIS PAPERS.
*pats back.
hahhas. what an achievement. but it was super yellow-ish wet all over. not at ehwss coz afterall its from a baby.. but still. ahhas.
i nua-ed at home today.
just like sun and friday. its been long since i've nua-ed till this stage.
feeling damn tired.
supposed to cycle to tamp to swim. but the weather's bad. and the nose keeps running... so i guess its best to nua at home.
haiz.
1 thing 2 do 3 words 4 you.
Monday, November 30, 2009
Saturday, November 28, 2009
lost.
youth in touch today
we lost..
we felt that the fixtures weren't really fair coz some teams didn't get to play stronger teams... but we all know that it was the best one that one could do alrdy.
drew 2, won 2. and ended up 3rd out of 4th of the table.
but we're really tired. on the contradictory, most of the 'underwadder' players are overseas/ unavaliable.. so today's team made up alot on contact players.
felt gd to see mavis on the field once again.
glad that everyone had fun, getting back with touch again. hahhas.
but our fitness killed us.
personally, i felt damn tired.
i should not be coz its not that i've not been trng. probably the only weds club trng is not enough. somemore.. trngs are so short! like 1hr plus? days in TPs, we trained from like 6-10pm. and like hardcore kind.
i really really really miss trng with TPiranhas.
missed out so so much.
then went to find shoes with mavis. gd catch up with her though i was damn tired and burnt. hahas..
then met up with mum for the evening...
saw this is this wallet shop.
"you picked the best of times,
to drop the worst of lines"
and its event marked on 28th nov. which is today.
and its like majorly pernamently printed on this wallet for no apparent reason.
further more, 28th, which is today, is ur bday.
almost bought this wallet for display coz it was so significant. but didn't want to waste $26.90 on smth like that.
ok. i'm like very randomly having a flu now.
we lost..
we felt that the fixtures weren't really fair coz some teams didn't get to play stronger teams... but we all know that it was the best one that one could do alrdy.
drew 2, won 2. and ended up 3rd out of 4th of the table.
but we're really tired. on the contradictory, most of the 'underwadder' players are overseas/ unavaliable.. so today's team made up alot on contact players.
felt gd to see mavis on the field once again.
glad that everyone had fun, getting back with touch again. hahhas.
but our fitness killed us.
personally, i felt damn tired.
i should not be coz its not that i've not been trng. probably the only weds club trng is not enough. somemore.. trngs are so short! like 1hr plus? days in TPs, we trained from like 6-10pm. and like hardcore kind.
i really really really miss trng with TPiranhas.
missed out so so much.
then went to find shoes with mavis. gd catch up with her though i was damn tired and burnt. hahas..
then met up with mum for the evening...
saw this is this wallet shop.
"you picked the best of times,
to drop the worst of lines"
and its event marked on 28th nov. which is today.
and its like majorly pernamently printed on this wallet for no apparent reason.
further more, 28th, which is today, is ur bday.
almost bought this wallet for display coz it was so significant. but didn't want to waste $26.90 on smth like that.
ok. i'm like very randomly having a flu now.
ransacked
i spent the day at home. mum and i wanted to go out, but the liews came with the kids. so stayed at home.
didn't go fitness coz the pain from ytd's physio killer session still resides in my calf.
digged out old photos. took photos of them. ahahahs. probably spent 2-3hrs? hahas. i can like do this and not pack my room or finish up incomplete stuff. tsk tsk.
so.. here's some of what i found...
for more, go my fb albums. ahhahas.. gd laughs. ahahhahs. (:
lastly, happy birthday poochie.
hope u'd eventually get my wishes.
every yr, i'd like to spend this day with u, specially.
but its either mission trips, exams, tournaments that's 'in the way'. when those are out of the way, we're through alrdy.
and that's very sad for such a great friendship.
didn't go fitness coz the pain from ytd's physio killer session still resides in my calf.
digged out old photos. took photos of them. ahahahs. probably spent 2-3hrs? hahas. i can like do this and not pack my room or finish up incomplete stuff. tsk tsk.
so.. here's some of what i found...
for more, go my fb albums. ahhahas.. gd laughs. ahahhahs. (:
lastly, happy birthday poochie.
hope u'd eventually get my wishes.
every yr, i'd like to spend this day with u, specially.
but its either mission trips, exams, tournaments that's 'in the way'. when those are out of the way, we're through alrdy.
and that's very sad for such a great friendship.
Friday, November 27, 2009
physio
wah.
today's the 1st session of my physio and seriously, i was damn near to having tears in my eyes coz of the pain.
went through alot of 'theory' on the ankle and stuff.
then now.. i'm like supposed to be on 'stage 1'- loosen the muscles.
my calf muscles are damn tight and taut. when he rubbed it.. he felt all the knots and was shocked that the knots are actually so huge... wah. he hit all the spots right pls.
seriously. i tried to act cool by like not showing any pain or what.. but FAIL. hahas. so bloody pain that i grabbed the bed, almost kicked the physio and probably almost destroyed whatever's on the bed.
till now, its feeling damn sore.
he intro me to more excerise. ahhas. and next appt is next wk! since i'm gg off on the 6th dec and he's gg off on the 11th for further studies, he pushed the appt at the earliest b4 we leave. hahas.
he's charming ok. hahas. i tell u. when i got home, i googled his name (although not knowing it full).. tyring to find out more abt him. hhahas. and eventually found his fb. ahhahs. A* for Market Research here. hahas.
for the record, i dont usually do this. maybe on girls. hahahs. nv on guys. hahhas.
my life has... changed.
HAH.
ok la.
after that. sports award night.
happy that bowling won Sports Team of the Year... sad that for contact rugby, despite having Gold for Sunig and Silver for the rp invitationals, it wasn't enough to win a team merit award as there were simply too many contenders. but its only the 2 tournaments we had lor. ahhas. oh wells.
can see that SIM sports is growing. hahas.
after the ceremony, was feeling damn tired and sian. probably the soreness of my calves are just affecting my mood. hahas. wanted to go home.. but too sian to make decisions. so i just followed amanda.
went to friend's hse to slack, watch tv and play majong. i just nua one corner watch tv. damn sian. after like 1am plus.. awake alrdy. aahhahahs.
played very very old sch hand games with tiac. hahahhahs. that majorly woke me up. hahas. nostalgia siol.
then homez.
damn sian.
its probably coz the yr's ending. hol's ending. and ur bdy's coming.
haiz.
today's the 1st session of my physio and seriously, i was damn near to having tears in my eyes coz of the pain.
went through alot of 'theory' on the ankle and stuff.
then now.. i'm like supposed to be on 'stage 1'- loosen the muscles.
my calf muscles are damn tight and taut. when he rubbed it.. he felt all the knots and was shocked that the knots are actually so huge... wah. he hit all the spots right pls.
seriously. i tried to act cool by like not showing any pain or what.. but FAIL. hahas. so bloody pain that i grabbed the bed, almost kicked the physio and probably almost destroyed whatever's on the bed.
till now, its feeling damn sore.
he intro me to more excerise. ahhas. and next appt is next wk! since i'm gg off on the 6th dec and he's gg off on the 11th for further studies, he pushed the appt at the earliest b4 we leave. hahas.
he's charming ok. hahas. i tell u. when i got home, i googled his name (although not knowing it full).. tyring to find out more abt him. hhahas. and eventually found his fb. ahhahs. A* for Market Research here. hahas.
for the record, i dont usually do this. maybe on girls. hahahs. nv on guys. hahhas.
my life has... changed.
HAH.
ok la.
after that. sports award night.
happy that bowling won Sports Team of the Year... sad that for contact rugby, despite having Gold for Sunig and Silver for the rp invitationals, it wasn't enough to win a team merit award as there were simply too many contenders. but its only the 2 tournaments we had lor. ahhas. oh wells.
can see that SIM sports is growing. hahas.
after the ceremony, was feeling damn tired and sian. probably the soreness of my calves are just affecting my mood. hahas. wanted to go home.. but too sian to make decisions. so i just followed amanda.
went to friend's hse to slack, watch tv and play majong. i just nua one corner watch tv. damn sian. after like 1am plus.. awake alrdy. aahhahahs.
played very very old sch hand games with tiac. hahahhahs. that majorly woke me up. hahas. nostalgia siol.
then homez.
damn sian.
its probably coz the yr's ending. hol's ending. and ur bdy's coming.
haiz.
Thursday, November 26, 2009
2 v 1
hahas. no, not some rugby move.
just feel like blogging at this time. 4:39am.
987 just played the song '2 is better than one'.
taylor swift voice is just so... charming.
now playing: Photographs; by Nickleback.
can't slp.
how emo can this night be.
i keep thinking of so many things.
y can't i stop thinking of u; after all these yrs.
ur bday's coming soon. so.
everyline i just so potential FB/twitter status.
ok. slp now marian. slp.
just feel like blogging at this time. 4:39am.
987 just played the song '2 is better than one'.
taylor swift voice is just so... charming.
now playing: Photographs; by Nickleback.
can't slp.
how emo can this night be.
i keep thinking of so many things.
y can't i stop thinking of u; after all these yrs.
ur bday's coming soon. so.
everyline i just so potential FB/twitter status.
ok. slp now marian. slp.
erratic.
dammit.
bowled 2 MQs; 8 games.
top 4 games of the 8 is enough to qualify. but if squad by squad, not enough.
games very erratic. high game can go as high as 237. low as low as 133.
sick.
this one best.
7th frame gutter. and can happily continue with the 4 beggar. the uncle bowling beside me was like... pointing to his head to tell me "mental! mental!"
si beh no mental i tell u.
2nd squad... actually could have qualify. 1st game is the 133 lor. spares was bad.i rmbr the 1st 4 frames of the 1st game...
8/ -8 9/ -9...
its like. might as well dont spare. never have i bowled gutter during tournaments like such. today's the first time i bowled 3 gutter. and some more always after a close frame.
then the 4th game... 5 strikes in game, the rest, open. HAIZZZ.
seriously.
but ok la. in total, i have 4 beggars and 2 turkeys in total. so its an improvement.
was gd coz i'm not like a headless chicken trying to find line like the other time round. found the line and just trying to make shifts. shifts like half board also works. hahas.
somehow, learnt quite abit from myself today.
gotta work more on sparing consistancy. and like for mental game, must improve like max. it doesn't work if i think abt scores and outcomes. best is to keep it cool. take it slow. shot by shot. frame by frame.
for me, today's focus was more on the relax swing. the more i relax, the better i have control. and once that, timing will fall in place. just relax only.
bowling MQs are like gambling. u keep wanting to win. u know u can do it. u pay $$ for one MQ, screw it up, and buy the next one while bowling the current one. its like.. placing a bet, believing u can do it. hahas. seriously. i really want to bowl another MQ coz i finally have a better understanding of the lane condition. just need to relax and have a gd mental game.
if i have the $$, i would.
oh wells.
in bowling, if u dont have $$, u'll be v miserable.
no money bowl MQ.
no money buy balls and equippment for lanes.
no money to have private coaching.
no money for comfortable transport.. maybe like taking taxi instead of lugging 4 balls up 2 buses during peak period, making it look as u're trying to run away from home.
haiiiizzzz. that's y this sport is just so hard to keep up with.
ahhas.
its been long since i've blogged abt bowling like that.
if re-read the post yrs back during days in KC, its really all about bowling. i can have a very very long post just on one bowling trng.
if i had worked harder in my poly days, maybe by today, i could have make some significant achievement. but oh wells, there was touch. w/o touch, life would be v v different now. but yea, i still felt that i should have spent more time on tpiranhas trng though, and really ignore the STARS prog shit or really just heck it.
tmr, PHYSIO! finallly!!!
can't wait to see the physio.
bowled 2 MQs; 8 games.
top 4 games of the 8 is enough to qualify. but if squad by squad, not enough.
games very erratic. high game can go as high as 237. low as low as 133.
sick.
this one best.
7th frame gutter. and can happily continue with the 4 beggar. the uncle bowling beside me was like... pointing to his head to tell me "mental! mental!"
si beh no mental i tell u.
2nd squad... actually could have qualify. 1st game is the 133 lor. spares was bad.i rmbr the 1st 4 frames of the 1st game...
8/ -8 9/ -9...
its like. might as well dont spare. never have i bowled gutter during tournaments like such. today's the first time i bowled 3 gutter. and some more always after a close frame.
then the 4th game... 5 strikes in game, the rest, open. HAIZZZ.
seriously.
but ok la. in total, i have 4 beggars and 2 turkeys in total. so its an improvement.
was gd coz i'm not like a headless chicken trying to find line like the other time round. found the line and just trying to make shifts. shifts like half board also works. hahas.
somehow, learnt quite abit from myself today.
gotta work more on sparing consistancy. and like for mental game, must improve like max. it doesn't work if i think abt scores and outcomes. best is to keep it cool. take it slow. shot by shot. frame by frame.
for me, today's focus was more on the relax swing. the more i relax, the better i have control. and once that, timing will fall in place. just relax only.
bowling MQs are like gambling. u keep wanting to win. u know u can do it. u pay $$ for one MQ, screw it up, and buy the next one while bowling the current one. its like.. placing a bet, believing u can do it. hahas. seriously. i really want to bowl another MQ coz i finally have a better understanding of the lane condition. just need to relax and have a gd mental game.
if i have the $$, i would.
oh wells.
in bowling, if u dont have $$, u'll be v miserable.
no money bowl MQ.
no money buy balls and equippment for lanes.
no money to have private coaching.
no money for comfortable transport.. maybe like taking taxi instead of lugging 4 balls up 2 buses during peak period, making it look as u're trying to run away from home.
haiiiizzzz. that's y this sport is just so hard to keep up with.
ahhas.
its been long since i've blogged abt bowling like that.
if re-read the post yrs back during days in KC, its really all about bowling. i can have a very very long post just on one bowling trng.
if i had worked harder in my poly days, maybe by today, i could have make some significant achievement. but oh wells, there was touch. w/o touch, life would be v v different now. but yea, i still felt that i should have spent more time on tpiranhas trng though, and really ignore the STARS prog shit or really just heck it.
tmr, PHYSIO! finallly!!!
can't wait to see the physio.
Wednesday, November 25, 2009
bad rush.
ankle hurt alot today.
went for trng. rushed.
then almost got lost. i somehow alighted 2 bus stops early. then took a $5 cab in because the 2 balls were killing my ankle and shoulder. almost got lost. hahs. it was just 2 near bus stops away.
then rushed to the alley.
dropped my wallet.
its the wallet with all my money and no identification cards.. the cards are all in my bag. THANK GOD. the staff of spgg found it and was clever enough to all the bowling alley. why?
because of my sg nationals MQ RECIEPT.
**BIG SMILESSS**
the mq reciept had my name, i/c and yea- made known that i'm a bowler. so the receptionist was clever enough to call the alley. lo and behold, i was there trng alrdy. thank God.
yea.
Nebo touch's coming up.
UITM's coming up.
Milo's coming up.
= more $$ away.
i hope to qualify for the graded womens pls!!!
tmr, last 2 chance. i just have enough for these few.
its like.. damn sian. save up so much to bowl ur $$ away.
went for trng. rushed.
then almost got lost. i somehow alighted 2 bus stops early. then took a $5 cab in because the 2 balls were killing my ankle and shoulder. almost got lost. hahs. it was just 2 near bus stops away.
then rushed to the alley.
dropped my wallet.
its the wallet with all my money and no identification cards.. the cards are all in my bag. THANK GOD. the staff of spgg found it and was clever enough to all the bowling alley. why?
because of my sg nationals MQ RECIEPT.
**BIG SMILESSS**
the mq reciept had my name, i/c and yea- made known that i'm a bowler. so the receptionist was clever enough to call the alley. lo and behold, i was there trng alrdy. thank God.
yea.
Nebo touch's coming up.
UITM's coming up.
Milo's coming up.
= more $$ away.
i hope to qualify for the graded womens pls!!!
tmr, last 2 chance. i just have enough for these few.
its like.. damn sian. save up so much to bowl ur $$ away.
Tuesday, November 24, 2009
MQs
travelled 3.5hrs to west coast then to yishun.
bowled the nationals cships at yishun
1st MQ... though i really wanted to qualify this.. it was bad. 3rd squad. oil carried down so much then i couldn't get the line.
2nd MQ. fresh oil.
nice.
but it took me 3 games to understand the lanes and the shot. hahas. so ok la.
not my kind of lanes. its like... attack shots down.
will bowl again to make the last attempts.
hope it'll be enough.
bowled the nationals cships at yishun
1st MQ... though i really wanted to qualify this.. it was bad. 3rd squad. oil carried down so much then i couldn't get the line.
2nd MQ. fresh oil.
nice.
but it took me 3 games to understand the lanes and the shot. hahas. so ok la.
not my kind of lanes. its like... attack shots down.
will bowl again to make the last attempts.
hope it'll be enough.
Sunday, November 22, 2009
73 storeys.
fell short of abt 1.5 mins to get a medal, a swiss watch.
dammit.
14mins 14secs. improved by 50sec from last yr. but i rly think i should make more improvements considering that i've been really working out alot this yr.
ok la. positively, i recovered faster than expected. last yr, i rmbr staying on top, waiting to catch my breath. this yr, i rmbred wanting to go down when i'm done with the enjoying-the-view part. as of typing this my thigh's aren't slowing major signs or fatigue or what la. so... gd job.
right.
gd to be positive.
personally, i think i did ok-ly to not complain so much.
i targeted for 12mins. but i paced well. just that swissotel's stair well's different and complex to a certain extent. it not just constant motion of steps... anti-clockwise... then have like straight flat ground of abt 7m. then continue. then it'll change to clockwise.. all sorts la. ahhas. pacing is like.. u've got to be a veteran la.
i'm proud to overtake ppl of earlier flag off timings. however, they also contribute to breaking ur pace. at around 50 plus storey. got quite a no. of ppl who refuse to give way. wah. i kept telling myself not to slow down not to slow down.
but i think somehow i did la.
as u go higher, ur heart is like machine. just like the feeling in Mt. K. just that more rapid and that u dont have to literally grasp for air kinda thing. ahhhaas.
ok la. can i attribute it to my ankle. it didnt give me probs la. no pain or what. coz i taped well and was really careful to perform well and at the same time, not aggreviate it. (: pats back.
but really la. looking at my watch, watching the secs tick by while its reaching 12mins and i've still got like abt 10 more flrs to go. it was like. heart sank. but i knew i was still trying to keep the timing low.
for the Opens...
top female: 8:29. male: 6:46!!!!
i'm still trying to picture how can a human race up to 73 storeys in 6mins.
he should be a fireman. he can save alot of ppl in the shortest time possible.
seriously man.
while checking out the timings, i heard this veteran competitor said to another younger athelete "sometimes our mind gives up b4 we physically give up... so we need to train. and keep being positive with trng...". i gave some thought at it.. and yea. hahas. very true. the human body is actually far more capable than the mind.
depends on which context u're applying the statement on la.
for eg... i feel that for trng, this applies la.
but if saying.. the mind is more capable than the body... it's more for during e race.
aiya. no end to the debates.
some of the younger national atheletes took part too. saw hui fen.. the bowler. and sherman the sailor. ahhahs. looking at sherman is just so funny. i rmbr when he's p4, i was in p6 and i was the prefect of his class. always very naughty. run around and all. nv fail to force me to write his name down in my oh-so-great-note-bk. HAHHAHA. now, sports sch and just a neat all grown-up sailor. ahhahhhhas.
suan did well. he thought he signed up for the Men's 20-29. hahas. but ended up in the Mens Open. but gd la. he did it in 11mins plus. he train more i think can win a watch from the age grp category. hahas. all that uphill mtb trails help huh. hahahas.
so.. some photos....
i wouldn't say that the view is worth it... plus, i missed the national trng camp today and ytd coz of my coaching..
because honestly, u can get that view while taking a less than 2mins lift ride up. but ok la, nice is the wind and the fact that u're on top of Singapore's tallest hotel in the CBD area. aka the helipad as well.
after that, helped out ms shanti with the girls who had performance at the national library.
this girl cute sia. her eyes had sparkle.but ar. 3 hrs with them is tiring man! kids are highly active and have short attention span. period.
but, cutez.
(:
missed lynette.
on the way home. though i was super sleepy. i wanted to walk around. so i went to the neighbourhood. i bought a shirt and a pair of black jeans. hahas. bossini. free alteration. hahas. cheap gd jeans. ok. its becoming a preferred brand now. HAAH.
AND AND. i am shock (i hope its the cutting or smth) that i bought 4 size smaller than usual. whoots. but clearly, i do know i'm not at all loosing weight. though i may be doing alot, i'm also inputting alot. hahahhas.
coached.
my first time coaching.
was with alvinia.
the best part- SCDF. ahhas. and at st.andrew's field.
ok la. it was really all abt touch and nothing else... like no sharing of work experiences or what so ever. so it didn't really feel anything.
but.
gd to know that the SCDF is trying to come up with an offical touch team. for now, its mixed. and hopefully, it can grow into a guy and girl division. shiok.
hahas. i hope by like next next year, it's waiting for me. HAHAHA.
had fun. lucky there's alv around. (:
saw boon rong! nice to see after damn long. finished his police. when i look at him, knowing that he's done so well in his As and rugby and all, and having his future all planned out, as a friend, u feel like a proud mother. AHHAH.
dropped by church. 1st car to honk and me was aunty violet l. hahas. i was a little surprise. but then found out abt the kfc camp. in church, saw cindy and aunty violet leong. hahas. when i left, the uncle who always cleans the church in a red t-shirt said this in chinese "wah. ah ger ar. hen jiu mei lai le ar". meaning: "wah. girl ar, so long never come alrdy ar". ahhahas. direct translation.
to me, that meant alot.
i mean like. he's not an uncle who speaks alot. just does his stuff here and there. always there, but always quiet. so today, when it said that, wha. it felt like my heart got pulled by a rope. hahas.
so after that. i collected race pack. and met up with gd bikers cum photogs. though it was a short lunch, it felt gd to just catch up and talk nonsense over lunch.
then went for big family dinner... even though didn't feel like it.
sad that i missed trng camp today and gg to miss tmr.
its always like that. impt things always happen on the same day.
tmr, swissotel vm.
this is it.
$$$$$. ka-chiiinggg.
since i've sacrificed so so much, i must win smth or smth. yea. hahas. at least hit my 12min goal. must start psyching up correctly now. wish me luck. pray that my music will just drown me and ignore my ankle. thurs seeing physio alrdy. so tmr, GO ALL OUT AR. hahahahhahas.
was with alvinia.
the best part- SCDF. ahhas. and at st.andrew's field.
ok la. it was really all abt touch and nothing else... like no sharing of work experiences or what so ever. so it didn't really feel anything.
but.
gd to know that the SCDF is trying to come up with an offical touch team. for now, its mixed. and hopefully, it can grow into a guy and girl division. shiok.
hahas. i hope by like next next year, it's waiting for me. HAHAHA.
had fun. lucky there's alv around. (:
saw boon rong! nice to see after damn long. finished his police. when i look at him, knowing that he's done so well in his As and rugby and all, and having his future all planned out, as a friend, u feel like a proud mother. AHHAH.
dropped by church. 1st car to honk and me was aunty violet l. hahas. i was a little surprise. but then found out abt the kfc camp. in church, saw cindy and aunty violet leong. hahas. when i left, the uncle who always cleans the church in a red t-shirt said this in chinese "wah. ah ger ar. hen jiu mei lai le ar". meaning: "wah. girl ar, so long never come alrdy ar". ahhahas. direct translation.
to me, that meant alot.
i mean like. he's not an uncle who speaks alot. just does his stuff here and there. always there, but always quiet. so today, when it said that, wha. it felt like my heart got pulled by a rope. hahas.
so after that. i collected race pack. and met up with gd bikers cum photogs. though it was a short lunch, it felt gd to just catch up and talk nonsense over lunch.
then went for big family dinner... even though didn't feel like it.
sad that i missed trng camp today and gg to miss tmr.
its always like that. impt things always happen on the same day.
tmr, swissotel vm.
this is it.
$$$$$. ka-chiiinggg.
since i've sacrificed so so much, i must win smth or smth. yea. hahas. at least hit my 12min goal. must start psyching up correctly now. wish me luck. pray that my music will just drown me and ignore my ankle. thurs seeing physio alrdy. so tmr, GO ALL OUT AR. hahahahhahas.
Friday, November 20, 2009
o m g. i saw you.
ok apart from the v heavy rain today, the hightlight was that... after trng.. i saw you.
omgomg.
during trng, i saw a grp of hockey boys from sa gg home.
then after MY trng, i waited at the bus stop for my bus. it didn't come soon.
then, i saw a group of hockey girls from sa... then up close, i realised.. it was YOU. omgomgomg.
the timing's like. in-ur-face-marian.
i cannot describe the sudden stoppage of my heart at that sec. ahhahhas. i just kept stealing glances of u as u walked pass to the other side of the bus stop. i even got to hear ur voice.
seriously, if the both of us were alone, i would have gone up to u and asked u out for dinner/supper or smth. HAHS.
i feel like a major and very accomplished stalker.
i read ur blog. now, i saw u after trng. hahahhas. this is just... wierd and ah!
i rly dk what i'm doing now. k. i think i'll just take this as a cheap thrill and NO MORE thinking of doing any more extra things to seek answers.
AHHAH. i think anyone who starts reading my blog from today will just have a very wrong impression of me. ahhahahhaas.
so today, it marks the 6th yr of my dad's MIA. 6 yrs ago, last night, i was a CGH, half dead and totally drained out of energy to accept any hard facts. images still remain hard in my head. how i walked out of the A&E to take a nap at the couch of the visitors lounge or smth.. and like within 30mins or so, my sis came out to tell me that my dad was gone.
i still rmbr those feelings. nothing heavy nor stabbing. just a.. -huh- feeling. its like.. shit. ur dad is gone. but u're curious why u're not feeling damn sad or what.. just feeel very uncomfortable and walking into blank walls.
probably a sigh of relief to a certain extent.
i rmbr those settings. 5am-ish. dim yellow lights. sound or lifts. ppl using the handphones. nurses walking in and out and the sound of beepbeeps.
so at this pt of time 6th yrs ago, i rmbr trying to get gd rest to do much. then i dont rmbr anything until the cremation.
u see 4 black persons pushing ur frail old dad who's in the wooden box into the furnace. 6 yrs ago, u see the flames. no high-tech conveyor belt which makes everything so smooth. 6 yrs ago, u literally see the force that it takes to push one into the flames.
that's when u feel like a thousand of horses trample over u. 10,000 swords pierced into ur heart. they go in. and they get pulled out. and it goes on repeatedly until u walk out of the room. feeling so listless and really all-at-loss. i rmbr crying until my eyes seemed to feel like empty pits. i rmbr my sis trying to be strong or smth. i rmbr mum seemingly to have lost it. literally.
some sick person should have video-ed the whole process everything down so that i can look back at those sickening hours. hahas.
its like. shit. marian-you-have-pernamently-lost-someone. someone who's with u even b4 ur born. someone who buys u A&W breakfast after his night shift. someone who smells like hugo boss cologne mixed with cargo oil. hahas. someone who makes causes so much noise to the neighbourhood with his lame jokes as well as the hammering and drilling sounds cause by his tools. seriously, when he left, the whole neighbourhood felt that loss. we didn't even had to tell everyone. ppl asked where was POON. hahas.
that's the impacted he's made with his humble big heart and rly nonsense lame jokes.
if only i had a digital camera last time to video him. as of now, i still regret not having any video images of him. no voice recording also.
HAIZ. really. imagine if u're still around.
that will be damn cool.
omgomg.
during trng, i saw a grp of hockey boys from sa gg home.
then after MY trng, i waited at the bus stop for my bus. it didn't come soon.
then, i saw a group of hockey girls from sa... then up close, i realised.. it was YOU. omgomgomg.
the timing's like. in-ur-face-marian.
i cannot describe the sudden stoppage of my heart at that sec. ahhahhas. i just kept stealing glances of u as u walked pass to the other side of the bus stop. i even got to hear ur voice.
seriously, if the both of us were alone, i would have gone up to u and asked u out for dinner/supper or smth. HAHS.
i feel like a major and very accomplished stalker.
i read ur blog. now, i saw u after trng. hahahhas. this is just... wierd and ah!
i rly dk what i'm doing now. k. i think i'll just take this as a cheap thrill and NO MORE thinking of doing any more extra things to seek answers.
AHHAH. i think anyone who starts reading my blog from today will just have a very wrong impression of me. ahhahahhaas.
so today, it marks the 6th yr of my dad's MIA. 6 yrs ago, last night, i was a CGH, half dead and totally drained out of energy to accept any hard facts. images still remain hard in my head. how i walked out of the A&E to take a nap at the couch of the visitors lounge or smth.. and like within 30mins or so, my sis came out to tell me that my dad was gone.
i still rmbr those feelings. nothing heavy nor stabbing. just a.. -huh- feeling. its like.. shit. ur dad is gone. but u're curious why u're not feeling damn sad or what.. just feeel very uncomfortable and walking into blank walls.
probably a sigh of relief to a certain extent.
i rmbr those settings. 5am-ish. dim yellow lights. sound or lifts. ppl using the handphones. nurses walking in and out and the sound of beepbeeps.
so at this pt of time 6th yrs ago, i rmbr trying to get gd rest to do much. then i dont rmbr anything until the cremation.
u see 4 black persons pushing ur frail old dad who's in the wooden box into the furnace. 6 yrs ago, u see the flames. no high-tech conveyor belt which makes everything so smooth. 6 yrs ago, u literally see the force that it takes to push one into the flames.
that's when u feel like a thousand of horses trample over u. 10,000 swords pierced into ur heart. they go in. and they get pulled out. and it goes on repeatedly until u walk out of the room. feeling so listless and really all-at-loss. i rmbr crying until my eyes seemed to feel like empty pits. i rmbr my sis trying to be strong or smth. i rmbr mum seemingly to have lost it. literally.
some sick person should have video-ed the whole process everything down so that i can look back at those sickening hours. hahas.
its like. shit. marian-you-have-pernamently-lost-someone. someone who's with u even b4 ur born. someone who buys u A&W breakfast after his night shift. someone who smells like hugo boss cologne mixed with cargo oil. hahas. someone who makes causes so much noise to the neighbourhood with his lame jokes as well as the hammering and drilling sounds cause by his tools. seriously, when he left, the whole neighbourhood felt that loss. we didn't even had to tell everyone. ppl asked where was POON. hahas.
that's the impacted he's made with his humble big heart and rly nonsense lame jokes.
if only i had a digital camera last time to video him. as of now, i still regret not having any video images of him. no voice recording also.
HAIZ. really. imagine if u're still around.
that will be damn cool.
I PASSED PRAC 8
pls congradulate me for passing prac 8 b4 the squres in the book finishes.
after the 4th time. ahhas. did circuit revision. then RAIN like mad. so cuii. during test plank was damn scary. ahhahahhahahs. so slow almost stall. but it felt like 8sec. hahahhas. crank course so fast. just whack only. felt gd.
ahhas.
then at the end of the day, all the instructors were warning us that for this morng's TP session, out of 90 bikes, 41 failed. one of the worst ever. hahas. he says it's coz of everyone's blindspots all anyhow check.
TP's 14TH jan. hahas. sch starts then. but heck. this is more impt. ahhahahahahas. 7AM. hope i can ride safely then. better go for alot of revision. my book expires on 20th jan. if i fail, i've gotta waste $100 over more for lessons and bookings and TP maybe in March. i'll just die. so i need to go alot of road and circuit revision. better passsssss!!!!!
after the 4th time. ahhas. did circuit revision. then RAIN like mad. so cuii. during test plank was damn scary. ahhahahhahahs. so slow almost stall. but it felt like 8sec. hahahhas. crank course so fast. just whack only. felt gd.
ahhas.
then at the end of the day, all the instructors were warning us that for this morng's TP session, out of 90 bikes, 41 failed. one of the worst ever. hahas. he says it's coz of everyone's blindspots all anyhow check.
TP's 14TH jan. hahas. sch starts then. but heck. this is more impt. ahhahahahahas. 7AM. hope i can ride safely then. better go for alot of revision. my book expires on 20th jan. if i fail, i've gotta waste $100 over more for lessons and bookings and TP maybe in March. i'll just die. so i need to go alot of road and circuit revision. better passsssss!!!!!
Wednesday, November 18, 2009
52.
WAH. EH. 540pm left house for a 7pm trng. late coz AYE jammed. abt 730pm reached.. trng cancelled coz field closed. omgzzzzz. then left at 8pm and home at 915pm. felt so so... AHHHHHH. hahahs.
didn't have dinner with the rest coz mummy cooked macroni soup. sup sup.
so when i went home, since i'm gg to watch the 11pm show while eating dinner, i still had time. finally had a day to train for this sunday's vertical marathon. my aim is to maintain 2mins for every 12 floors. so when finishing the 72 storey building i can keep it at 12mins and comfirm a medal. colour depends on competitors. but 12mins should be gd timing. plus mins 10 sec?
i did 4 sets of 12 instead of the targeted 6 today. it was bad. i didn't tape but wore ankle guard. my right ankle felt like it was exploding. the base of it damn pain. so while gg up the 5th set, i stopped at the 6th floor, conveniently opening the gate to go into my house.
i'm not sure if its coz of the impact or not used to wearing an ankle guard. i just knew that if i were to complete my targeted 6, i can forget abt gg all out this sunday. luckily i test water today. so sunday, i'm not gg to wear ankle guard but to tape.
): but gd thing is, timing's gd. 1st 2 sets were under 1min 50sec. 4th set was 1 min 56sec. ahhas. SIANZ. i really hope i do well this sunday. been waiting for a yr to make a comeback. AHAHHAHHAHHAHA.
ok.
mum send me this. wth is this? HAHAHA.she's damn hip.
uploaded a few vids to my ipod. including the 2 ppt slides i did for church. making those vids was alrdy a journey itself- in hope to inspire the congregation. now, its the reverse. watching them bring me back alot of deep thoughts.
just as i was trying to search for an old poem i wrote back in 2004, hahas. i came across my blog posts with regards to church camp. hahas. reading it, i realised that i mentioned ur big name in my one post, no less than 5 times. hahahhaahahahs.
cutezXxXxX worhs.. HAHA
didn't have dinner with the rest coz mummy cooked macroni soup. sup sup.
so when i went home, since i'm gg to watch the 11pm show while eating dinner, i still had time. finally had a day to train for this sunday's vertical marathon. my aim is to maintain 2mins for every 12 floors. so when finishing the 72 storey building i can keep it at 12mins and comfirm a medal. colour depends on competitors. but 12mins should be gd timing. plus mins 10 sec?
i did 4 sets of 12 instead of the targeted 6 today. it was bad. i didn't tape but wore ankle guard. my right ankle felt like it was exploding. the base of it damn pain. so while gg up the 5th set, i stopped at the 6th floor, conveniently opening the gate to go into my house.
i'm not sure if its coz of the impact or not used to wearing an ankle guard. i just knew that if i were to complete my targeted 6, i can forget abt gg all out this sunday. luckily i test water today. so sunday, i'm not gg to wear ankle guard but to tape.
): but gd thing is, timing's gd. 1st 2 sets were under 1min 50sec. 4th set was 1 min 56sec. ahhas. SIANZ. i really hope i do well this sunday. been waiting for a yr to make a comeback. AHAHHAHHAHHAHA.
ok.
mum send me this. wth is this? HAHAHA.she's damn hip.
uploaded a few vids to my ipod. including the 2 ppt slides i did for church. making those vids was alrdy a journey itself- in hope to inspire the congregation. now, its the reverse. watching them bring me back alot of deep thoughts.
just as i was trying to search for an old poem i wrote back in 2004, hahas. i came across my blog posts with regards to church camp. hahas. reading it, i realised that i mentioned ur big name in my one post, no less than 5 times. hahahhaahahahs.
cutezXxXxX worhs.. HAHA
Tuesday, November 17, 2009
tailed.
all hail to mother poon.
"wah. the body damn cold". (while holding on to that red plastic bag.)- mother poon.
she was cleaning the kitchen cupboard.. the one below the oven. found ants nest. found a big fat mother lizard. mom's always the brave one. nv does she get scared. but today. HAH. she shrieked because the lizard was too fat. ahhas. she sprayed alot of times and the lizard refuse to die. so when it settled down, she called me to come and take a look. i thought it died but it came alive when i wanted to like marco-shoot it. hhahahas. its view was magnified by my camera screen. when i wriggled.. ahhas. i screamed and jumped onto the top of the table like as if my life was saved there.
mother poon to the rescue. she took the small red plastic bag and grabbed hold of it and laughed. hahas. brave. hahahs. and made that comment. like omg. grossed out max. its really fat ok. that time i grabbed hold of one was the dead baby one. probably a different species. this one.. huge.
see the tail. its like.. comparison-wise.. the thigh part of a chicken. grossed. hahas. i think if facebook has like a gross-viewership violation rule or smth, i'll be the first one to be charged for it. ahhahs.
along with it, we found 2 eggs.
probably the mother's. i wanted to like keep it and incubate it so that i can like have a personal nat-geo kinda video and see the hatchlings. but mother poon strongly refused to let me have it. so she threw it away. hahas. anyways, even if it's born out, i think i'll just throw it away anyway. hahahs. i dun even know if incubating a cold-blooded animal's egg's gonna help. hahhahas.
so yea. that was the mini drama at home.
sunday's the vertical marathon. still haven't train for it. my ankle's still mysteriously swollen since oct 15, wed. hahas. haiz. i want to win this sunday man. HAIZ. sometimes i wish that i'm having exams. when u're like in the midst of studying period, u can attend to ur 1001 distractions... and even like.. amazingly packing ur room and so on. when u're like majorly free like now, u dun feel like doing anything. super lazy.
need to start swimming soon.
so many things to do,
so much to say.
as much as i want to change this blogskin to user friendly and not so much heavily on html, i'm just happily procrastinating away. gg malaysia for tournaments in dec, and i'm still not doing much.
i miss like playing the guitar. as in like.. feeling it. just whacking and ensuring that all the chords played are from the inside, so much that everyone can feel what u're doing.
i miss walking the path with You. and you.
i read her blog again. and once again, the same struggles. the same cries. the same cycle. reading her blog is like a viewing a mirror of mine. there's nothing much different.
i need to unlock this shit soon, and very very soon. i know i can do it by the end of this yr. i realllly do not want to drag on this shit for the yrs to come.
"wah. the body damn cold". (while holding on to that red plastic bag.)- mother poon.
she was cleaning the kitchen cupboard.. the one below the oven. found ants nest. found a big fat mother lizard. mom's always the brave one. nv does she get scared. but today. HAH. she shrieked because the lizard was too fat. ahhas. she sprayed alot of times and the lizard refuse to die. so when it settled down, she called me to come and take a look. i thought it died but it came alive when i wanted to like marco-shoot it. hhahahas. its view was magnified by my camera screen. when i wriggled.. ahhas. i screamed and jumped onto the top of the table like as if my life was saved there.
mother poon to the rescue. she took the small red plastic bag and grabbed hold of it and laughed. hahas. brave. hahahs. and made that comment. like omg. grossed out max. its really fat ok. that time i grabbed hold of one was the dead baby one. probably a different species. this one.. huge.
see the tail. its like.. comparison-wise.. the thigh part of a chicken. grossed. hahas. i think if facebook has like a gross-viewership violation rule or smth, i'll be the first one to be charged for it. ahhahs.
along with it, we found 2 eggs.
probably the mother's. i wanted to like keep it and incubate it so that i can like have a personal nat-geo kinda video and see the hatchlings. but mother poon strongly refused to let me have it. so she threw it away. hahas. anyways, even if it's born out, i think i'll just throw it away anyway. hahahs. i dun even know if incubating a cold-blooded animal's egg's gonna help. hahhahas.
so yea. that was the mini drama at home.
sunday's the vertical marathon. still haven't train for it. my ankle's still mysteriously swollen since oct 15, wed. hahas. haiz. i want to win this sunday man. HAIZ. sometimes i wish that i'm having exams. when u're like in the midst of studying period, u can attend to ur 1001 distractions... and even like.. amazingly packing ur room and so on. when u're like majorly free like now, u dun feel like doing anything. super lazy.
need to start swimming soon.
so many things to do,
so much to say.
as much as i want to change this blogskin to user friendly and not so much heavily on html, i'm just happily procrastinating away. gg malaysia for tournaments in dec, and i'm still not doing much.
i miss like playing the guitar. as in like.. feeling it. just whacking and ensuring that all the chords played are from the inside, so much that everyone can feel what u're doing.
i miss walking the path with You. and you.
i read her blog again. and once again, the same struggles. the same cries. the same cycle. reading her blog is like a viewing a mirror of mine. there's nothing much different.
i need to unlock this shit soon, and very very soon. i know i can do it by the end of this yr. i realllly do not want to drag on this shit for the yrs to come.
wet wet wet
when i did revision road, i was first biker... instructor say i gd sia. hhaas. he say i confident and all... and "should learn from me". HAHA. omg. i was like. u serious.
then come to the prac 8 test. road was perfect. 0 demerit pts. felt like a pro. BUT. omg. circuit.... 42. 16 to pass. tmd. but no immediate failure- so gd job. haizs.
haiz the circuit.
next one, thurs, circuit then prac 8. die die must pass.
somemore raining. everything wet.
anyway, i watched 2012 today with the 2 friends. ahhahahs. bffs man. AHHAHA. the movie was actually boring for the first part. only gd and excellent thing is abt the effects. other than that, nothing interesting. and too much movie-dramatics. as in like.. too much just-in-times. once or twice is fine. not everytime like at the brink of death, the leading actor will somemore seems to have died but last min, he survived.
i think my fav movie is still the Day After Tmr which i watched it on screen like 3 times. that one is shiok and more satisfying. this is just.. ok. gd to watch... but better off as a fri night channel 5 movie. yea
nov and dec is gg to be crazy months. Christmas.. plus all the bowling tournaments and trngs. crazy. with my ankle still swollen, its no helping. today rainy and cold, my swollen ankle hurts. haiz.
then come to the prac 8 test. road was perfect. 0 demerit pts. felt like a pro. BUT. omg. circuit.... 42. 16 to pass. tmd. but no immediate failure- so gd job. haizs.
haiz the circuit.
next one, thurs, circuit then prac 8. die die must pass.
somemore raining. everything wet.
anyway, i watched 2012 today with the 2 friends. ahhahahs. bffs man. AHHAHA. the movie was actually boring for the first part. only gd and excellent thing is abt the effects. other than that, nothing interesting. and too much movie-dramatics. as in like.. too much just-in-times. once or twice is fine. not everytime like at the brink of death, the leading actor will somemore seems to have died but last min, he survived.
i think my fav movie is still the Day After Tmr which i watched it on screen like 3 times. that one is shiok and more satisfying. this is just.. ok. gd to watch... but better off as a fri night channel 5 movie. yea
nov and dec is gg to be crazy months. Christmas.. plus all the bowling tournaments and trngs. crazy. with my ankle still swollen, its no helping. today rainy and cold, my swollen ankle hurts. haiz.
Sunday, November 15, 2009
traveel
i travelled all the way to OCC at yishun for the prize presentation today which was like for 30mins. total travelling time was like 3hrs.
so. finally i have an individual award for bowling. its a high game award.. 232. ok la. happy coz on that day, the lane conditions were tricky and when i found my line, shiok liao. and when i didn't find my line... it was bad. hahas. oh wells.
my thighs feel as if there are rocks inside.
i am gg to rest. still v tired from ytd! ahhahhas. nua-ster.
Saturday, November 14, 2009
life's too exciting
i refreed 11 games today.
took out my boots after 10hrs and the ankle's swelling. with 3 itchy dots. ahhahas.
the game tt was damn exciting was the tp vs np and np vs rp game. so tight la. np really improved alllott. its like towards e end of the day but refreeing the u20s game makes me wanna push myself to be a better ref coz its so exciting that i dont want to make any bad calls.
the back of my thighs are like damn tight. when i got home, i really did the hot cold bathe thing on my legs. hope they'll be fine tmr.
gd thing to note- i'll be getting $$ soon. HAHs. hard earned money literally.
but i hope today's game really improved my fitness. i learnt alot too. still go so much more to learn.
congrats to TP for retaining the All Asian Schools championships W-20s title. watching them play makes me think of my seniors whom i really miss alot. i really miss being a TPiranha. it gets better yr by yr..
i'm like mentally slow and tired now. i'm gg to slp soon. gd nite. (look at the time!) hahas.
took out my boots after 10hrs and the ankle's swelling. with 3 itchy dots. ahhahas.
the game tt was damn exciting was the tp vs np and np vs rp game. so tight la. np really improved alllott. its like towards e end of the day but refreeing the u20s game makes me wanna push myself to be a better ref coz its so exciting that i dont want to make any bad calls.
the back of my thighs are like damn tight. when i got home, i really did the hot cold bathe thing on my legs. hope they'll be fine tmr.
gd thing to note- i'll be getting $$ soon. HAHs. hard earned money literally.
but i hope today's game really improved my fitness. i learnt alot too. still go so much more to learn.
congrats to TP for retaining the All Asian Schools championships W-20s title. watching them play makes me think of my seniors whom i really miss alot. i really miss being a TPiranha. it gets better yr by yr..
i'm like mentally slow and tired now. i'm gg to slp soon. gd nite. (look at the time!) hahas.
hairdresser
was damn tempted to cut short again. so shiok. but i didn't. just trim it till its just long enough to tie up.
highlighted as well. ahhas. (:
then i ran today. felt gd.
need to run more.
next wk, climb stairs max!! sunday's the race! whoots.
tmr, refree day. may i survive.
highlighted as well. ahhas. (:
then i ran today. felt gd.
need to run more.
next wk, climb stairs max!! sunday's the race! whoots.
tmr, refree day. may i survive.
Friday, November 13, 2009
64 d pts.
beat that.
64 demerit pts and 2 immediate failure.
too much to elaborate.
i actually booked wrongly! i booked 2 lesson 8 back to back instead of 1 revision circuit b4 that. hahas. but ok la. no diference.
the 1st one i did. 16 d pts (which is a pass).. BUT.2 immediate failure.
ahahas. 2nd one's worse.
traffic was bad la. but, no excuses. ahhas. basket. one u-turn can take 20mins. coz damn jammed.
rain wasn't that friendly.
damn tired. 10-6 there pls.
saw ESTEE! ahahhas. and yuanbing. ahhahahahs. so nice la. ahhas.
then went to celebrate seb's bday over dinner. and homed.
damn tired.
went home. emo-drizzling. dim yellow street lights makes everything more emo.
in such situations, i'd always think of u, hoping that one day u'd be downstairs to just surprise me with ur presence.
eheews. totally un-me.
ultimately, i have to rmbr that i'm still girl and stop being in denial that i'm not.
rmbr awhile back, i read her blog and said that i wanted to do smth abt it? blame it on my guts, i haven't send her the 3 pg long letter that i wrote. okok. its more like... because i just didn't feel like gg all out to obtain her email. been thinking... and still reading her blog.. and like seriously, who am i to her to help her? as in like, whatever the right/wrong actions i take, would it even matter? what do i really want out of this?
HAIZ. hate this whole 3 yr shit. and if i still dont wake up now, i'm gg to miss out alot of the gd friends around me. hate to say i need u, but it seems like so.
nothing seems right. nothing seems complete or done. nothing's ever really worth it.
i really dont know what i'm doing.
would someone just ask the whoever to read my blog? or at least read hers.
so frustrating.
wake up ur idea.
wake up my idea.
64 demerit pts and 2 immediate failure.
too much to elaborate.
i actually booked wrongly! i booked 2 lesson 8 back to back instead of 1 revision circuit b4 that. hahas. but ok la. no diference.
the 1st one i did. 16 d pts (which is a pass).. BUT.2 immediate failure.
ahahas. 2nd one's worse.
traffic was bad la. but, no excuses. ahhas. basket. one u-turn can take 20mins. coz damn jammed.
rain wasn't that friendly.
damn tired. 10-6 there pls.
saw ESTEE! ahahhas. and yuanbing. ahhahahahs. so nice la. ahhas.
then went to celebrate seb's bday over dinner. and homed.
damn tired.
went home. emo-drizzling. dim yellow street lights makes everything more emo.
in such situations, i'd always think of u, hoping that one day u'd be downstairs to just surprise me with ur presence.
eheews. totally un-me.
ultimately, i have to rmbr that i'm still girl and stop being in denial that i'm not.
rmbr awhile back, i read her blog and said that i wanted to do smth abt it? blame it on my guts, i haven't send her the 3 pg long letter that i wrote. okok. its more like... because i just didn't feel like gg all out to obtain her email. been thinking... and still reading her blog.. and like seriously, who am i to her to help her? as in like, whatever the right/wrong actions i take, would it even matter? what do i really want out of this?
HAIZ. hate this whole 3 yr shit. and if i still dont wake up now, i'm gg to miss out alot of the gd friends around me. hate to say i need u, but it seems like so.
nothing seems right. nothing seems complete or done. nothing's ever really worth it.
i really dont know what i'm doing.
would someone just ask the whoever to read my blog? or at least read hers.
so frustrating.
wake up ur idea.
wake up my idea.
Thursday, November 12, 2009
cdc
went see physio today.
had abit of time, so went vivo. go to the canon shop and see nice cameras. not tempted. hahas. then... saw JOANNE PEH inside. she was fiddling the 7D with this ang moh... just beside me. i didn't know until the vooice damn familiar. ahhas. so i looked.. omg. ahhahas. shocked. tall, fair and chio max. complexion is like perfect. not a normal kind of gd complexion that u'd see everyday. too gd alrdy. ahhahhas.
yea. then went to walk aroudn diaso. damn shiok. i bought like this makeshift cabinet to put my stuff. $2. ahhas. fav shop alrdy. hahas. also bought a black cap so pin all my badges on it or smth. ahahhas. $2. felt so victorious with my buys. ok.
hahs.
tmr, self declare cdc camp.
1020 till 12pm. road revision
2.34pm till 415pm. circuit revision
4.25pm till 6.05pm, lesson 8. must pass. it'll be my first prac 8. but die die must passssss.
whole day tmr at cdc. wanna kun alrdy.
had abit of time, so went vivo. go to the canon shop and see nice cameras. not tempted. hahas. then... saw JOANNE PEH inside. she was fiddling the 7D with this ang moh... just beside me. i didn't know until the vooice damn familiar. ahhas. so i looked.. omg. ahhahas. shocked. tall, fair and chio max. complexion is like perfect. not a normal kind of gd complexion that u'd see everyday. too gd alrdy. ahhahhas.
yea. then went to walk aroudn diaso. damn shiok. i bought like this makeshift cabinet to put my stuff. $2. ahhas. fav shop alrdy. hahas. also bought a black cap so pin all my badges on it or smth. ahahhas. $2. felt so victorious with my buys. ok.
hahs.
tmr, self declare cdc camp.
1020 till 12pm. road revision
2.34pm till 415pm. circuit revision
4.25pm till 6.05pm, lesson 8. must pass. it'll be my first prac 8. but die die must passssss.
whole day tmr at cdc. wanna kun alrdy.
Tuesday, November 10, 2009
BB.bye bye
hahas. done with the papers.
tdy's paper... nice. i love the tough MCQs. makes me feel that all the studying's worth it. only paper i feel confident.
hahas. later... confident confident... come back like shit. hahas. always like that.
so.
i feel i dont deserve a gd break coz i didn't really study hard. besides, trng and tournaments were still on, full swing.
lots of things i wanna. pack my room, make shelves and all.
excited!
dec's coming. busy busy month.
tdy's paper... nice. i love the tough MCQs. makes me feel that all the studying's worth it. only paper i feel confident.
hahas. later... confident confident... come back like shit. hahas. always like that.
so.
i feel i dont deserve a gd break coz i didn't really study hard. besides, trng and tournaments were still on, full swing.
lots of things i wanna. pack my room, make shelves and all.
excited!
dec's coming. busy busy month.
Sunday, November 08, 2009
new balance run
hahs.
so the 'trail' that everyone's talking abt is just ground and sand.
hahas. Salomon wins la.
first after 2k, my back hurt. i was like.. wth. 8 more to go. so i stopped and streched well. and soon got back on. qutie happy with the performance la. at least i didn't walk this time, apart from the beach part. there's this part.. i think abt 800m run on the beach. most ppl didn't run. i walked damn slowly. as gd as strolling-on-the-beach kinda pace. firstly, the ground was adjacently sloping down left, just nice, its like manking my left ankle underpronate more. walking alone kills it. so i not to run and enjoy the morning sun and fresh sand.
lots of water pts.
didn't like the last 1k. hot tarmac ground. felt like baking from the ground.
overall, i think this is the last 10k for the yr. 2 wks later is swissotel vm. that one i got goal sia. ahhahas. must train. ahhas. for now, its best that i guai-ly go see physio. coz today after abt 5k.. my left knee pain. i'm seriously complaining alot. ahhas.
ok.
TMR LAST PAPER.
u know. i boo-boo-ly wasted 6hrs today. i thought prize presentation's today at OCC. so i travelled all the way there at yishun. i thought i was late. but i saw them still playing game... so i decided to study abit in the alley. didn't realy study alot. then after their 3 games, i then realized its not the inter-con finals, but the national league. TMD. super wasted trip, time, effort and opportunity cost.
shouldn't have make such an error during this period of time.
exams tmr. still like that.
so the 'trail' that everyone's talking abt is just ground and sand.
hahas. Salomon wins la.
first after 2k, my back hurt. i was like.. wth. 8 more to go. so i stopped and streched well. and soon got back on. qutie happy with the performance la. at least i didn't walk this time, apart from the beach part. there's this part.. i think abt 800m run on the beach. most ppl didn't run. i walked damn slowly. as gd as strolling-on-the-beach kinda pace. firstly, the ground was adjacently sloping down left, just nice, its like manking my left ankle underpronate more. walking alone kills it. so i not to run and enjoy the morning sun and fresh sand.
lots of water pts.
didn't like the last 1k. hot tarmac ground. felt like baking from the ground.
overall, i think this is the last 10k for the yr. 2 wks later is swissotel vm. that one i got goal sia. ahhahas. must train. ahhas. for now, its best that i guai-ly go see physio. coz today after abt 5k.. my left knee pain. i'm seriously complaining alot. ahhas.
ok.
TMR LAST PAPER.
u know. i boo-boo-ly wasted 6hrs today. i thought prize presentation's today at OCC. so i travelled all the way there at yishun. i thought i was late. but i saw them still playing game... so i decided to study abit in the alley. didn't realy study alot. then after their 3 games, i then realized its not the inter-con finals, but the national league. TMD. super wasted trip, time, effort and opportunity cost.
shouldn't have make such an error during this period of time.
exams tmr. still like that.
Saturday, November 07, 2009
Q2.
hate it that i studied the pts well, rmbred well.
but,
read question. didn't know what they were asking.
didn't even write down what i knew.
HATE IT. hate it when u know it, u could do it, but just that moment, u just dont.
hope to forget abt it and go wtl and play my hearts out for the last game.
so, overall, we got 3rd.
always like that. games that we should have won, we lost. games that were tight, we won. just felt... damn wasted.
ok la. overall, i'm sure the girls learned and improved along the way.
my game performance sucked today.
i started on the field, abit switched off coz i still can't get over MR paper. its like. if i fail this paper, i'd have to retake even though now, my all my MR assignments are like distinctions. SUCKS LA. somemore i took this module in poly. same txtbk, same slides. SAME.
then after i made my first sub, i told myself to enough. get on. so i did. i wanted to just play all out. but somehow, i just can't perform today. felt damn slow on def. i was trying to get back onside more than anything else. on attack. i felt like... i didn't do much. nvm. can't even identify my gaps. lost is not really to describe it.. just like.. aiya. cannot.
i didn't have the aiya-play-link-better mentality. i wanted to run on gaps, but i just couldn't.
tmd. then monthly friend have come, make my back ache. ankle nua. its really like not on form.
tmr morng, newbalance run 10k. apparently, it's known as the hardest trail route. have yet to go and try tmr. i still think nothing can beat salomon trail's rockyness.
i duno how i'm gg to survive the run tmr. if i can run at least 7k all the way, i should be proud of myself. i'm in no condition to go under hot sun and run.
my brain is filled with MR and all the shits.
so very emo-ly, i went home. needed to rest well for tmr. then can go occ get prize and at the same time, study hard tmr.
decided to open the letter box. now with the new lift, the letter box is so far away. got a whole chunk of it. then i saw a very colour envelope that has my name on it and an australia address behind....
tadah!
from geraldyne. so timely. thank u.
really made my evening.
oh yea. after exams today in sch, 2 christians doing street E came up to me. to keep it short, i felt they abit naggy. sorry but, ahhas. yea.
oh yea. one more thing. ate dinner at home alone today coz mum and sis went out for dinner. and after eating.....
omgomgomgomgomgomg. in the dim lights at home, i picked up an object which i thought it was a mushroom, brownish, crumpled up and small. omg. then i rolled it for awhile, playing with it coz i was watching TV. then then then. omg. when i tried to dispose it into my dinner bowl, i found out... it was a DEAD LIZARD. OMG. i stunned for like 3 secs. then gave out a loud shriek. ewwkwrrrkkkksss. i'm damn grossed out.
that's my fb status. and i'm still damn grossed out by it. like. u can see the eyes, 4 legs and tail still intact. shits man. sick to the max. i feel like washing my fingers with like majorly concentrated alkaline.
thinking back, i would have taken a photo of it given all my photo instincts. but. i think those instincts were killed during that point of time. i'm still damn grossed out by it. like majorly smelling my right thumb and index finger after soaping it for like 5mins.
ok. yes, i'm cheered up by now.
but,
read question. didn't know what they were asking.
didn't even write down what i knew.
HATE IT. hate it when u know it, u could do it, but just that moment, u just dont.
hope to forget abt it and go wtl and play my hearts out for the last game.
so, overall, we got 3rd.
always like that. games that we should have won, we lost. games that were tight, we won. just felt... damn wasted.
ok la. overall, i'm sure the girls learned and improved along the way.
my game performance sucked today.
i started on the field, abit switched off coz i still can't get over MR paper. its like. if i fail this paper, i'd have to retake even though now, my all my MR assignments are like distinctions. SUCKS LA. somemore i took this module in poly. same txtbk, same slides. SAME.
then after i made my first sub, i told myself to enough. get on. so i did. i wanted to just play all out. but somehow, i just can't perform today. felt damn slow on def. i was trying to get back onside more than anything else. on attack. i felt like... i didn't do much. nvm. can't even identify my gaps. lost is not really to describe it.. just like.. aiya. cannot.
i didn't have the aiya-play-link-better mentality. i wanted to run on gaps, but i just couldn't.
tmd. then monthly friend have come, make my back ache. ankle nua. its really like not on form.
tmr morng, newbalance run 10k. apparently, it's known as the hardest trail route. have yet to go and try tmr. i still think nothing can beat salomon trail's rockyness.
i duno how i'm gg to survive the run tmr. if i can run at least 7k all the way, i should be proud of myself. i'm in no condition to go under hot sun and run.
my brain is filled with MR and all the shits.
so very emo-ly, i went home. needed to rest well for tmr. then can go occ get prize and at the same time, study hard tmr.
decided to open the letter box. now with the new lift, the letter box is so far away. got a whole chunk of it. then i saw a very colour envelope that has my name on it and an australia address behind....
tadah!
from geraldyne. so timely. thank u.
really made my evening.
oh yea. after exams today in sch, 2 christians doing street E came up to me. to keep it short, i felt they abit naggy. sorry but, ahhas. yea.
oh yea. one more thing. ate dinner at home alone today coz mum and sis went out for dinner. and after eating.....
omgomgomgomgomgomg. in the dim lights at home, i picked up an object which i thought it was a mushroom, brownish, crumpled up and small. omg. then i rolled it for awhile, playing with it coz i was watching TV. then then then. omg. when i tried to dispose it into my dinner bowl, i found out... it was a DEAD LIZARD. OMG. i stunned for like 3 secs. then gave out a loud shriek. ewwkwrrrkkkksss. i'm damn grossed out.
that's my fb status. and i'm still damn grossed out by it. like. u can see the eyes, 4 legs and tail still intact. shits man. sick to the max. i feel like washing my fingers with like majorly concentrated alkaline.
thinking back, i would have taken a photo of it given all my photo instincts. but. i think those instincts were killed during that point of time. i'm still damn grossed out by it. like majorly smelling my right thumb and index finger after soaping it for like 5mins.
ok. yes, i'm cheered up by now.
Friday, November 06, 2009
fm how!
omg.
i just thought of smth very very very jia lat.
now i've got a history an ankle that's like that.
my fireman dream how.
eh. no joke.
HOW.
:|
-
next. you've got girls missing you, thinking about u, blogging abt how painful life is and all those girly nots..
and u still dont know it... happily gg around in ur own ignorant ways, breaking hearts one at a time. nice one huh.
one day.
one fine day, i hope it'll be ur turn... that it'll be a gd hard lesson for u.
i've read her blog again. and boy, we're in the very same specific boat. its like, whatever she's doing, trying to do and all is the same as what i've been doing and trying to do for the last 3 yrs. too much the same specific actions, places and words described. too much the same to just not blog abt it.
after reading, i really, really really feel like taking certain actions. i dont know her personally and she's having her As as well. maybe not so much of salvaging that what's-gone or the un-mendables, but maybe to help her feel that she's not alone and really, stop hating herself or trying to get back something that doesn't treasure her.
its like. my heart goes all out to her. literally.
i've never understood someone that i do not know at all so much.
this is just, incredible.
i've still been thinking, on and off. but more positively. right now, i've figured out that i nv ever want back a relationship with him coz its really not worth it and too much of a risk to be someone who's constantly been like that. and nv realising he's probably at fault, or learn smth out of a broken relationship- the what-went-wrongs. however, i still want back that friendship. that brothership we shared. how we helped each other in times of needs, how we understood each other. and how we're always ready to be there. we could talk abt anything and everything. walking into that relationship was a bad choice. probably a wrong step. if we hadn't done so, i think we still would be bffs. hahhas.
then again, from that whole chunk of episode and continuing, i've learnt alot. grown alot. experienced alot.
and changed alot.
i hope that she'll read this post. but i'm sure, a definite not. she doesn't know abt me. maybe, yes through him, but not enough to constantly read my posts. i'll probably want to email her. through fb. idk how coz its private profile. neither do i want to add her as a friend to get her email coz its just not ideal. i'll probably try and use my resourcefulness skills again. ahhahahs.
for sure, it'll be after my exams. but, As ends in nov. i'm not sure if approaching her in the midst of this would affect her studies. but since its probably affecting her studies.. oh wait. maybe she's not doing As. according to her posts, shes not really mugging like all other A-lvl ppl are doing now. ahhahs. okok. next wk. after my papers!
may God be with me.
and no, i'm not trying to create smth here.
i'm just trying to make this world a happier place to live in.
a frown into a smile.
i just thought of smth very very very jia lat.
now i've got a history an ankle that's like that.
my fireman dream how.
eh. no joke.
HOW.
:|
-
next. you've got girls missing you, thinking about u, blogging abt how painful life is and all those girly nots..
and u still dont know it... happily gg around in ur own ignorant ways, breaking hearts one at a time. nice one huh.
one day.
one fine day, i hope it'll be ur turn... that it'll be a gd hard lesson for u.
i've read her blog again. and boy, we're in the very same specific boat. its like, whatever she's doing, trying to do and all is the same as what i've been doing and trying to do for the last 3 yrs. too much the same specific actions, places and words described. too much the same to just not blog abt it.
after reading, i really, really really feel like taking certain actions. i dont know her personally and she's having her As as well. maybe not so much of salvaging that what's-gone or the un-mendables, but maybe to help her feel that she's not alone and really, stop hating herself or trying to get back something that doesn't treasure her.
its like. my heart goes all out to her. literally.
i've never understood someone that i do not know at all so much.
this is just, incredible.
i've still been thinking, on and off. but more positively. right now, i've figured out that i nv ever want back a relationship with him coz its really not worth it and too much of a risk to be someone who's constantly been like that. and nv realising he's probably at fault, or learn smth out of a broken relationship- the what-went-wrongs. however, i still want back that friendship. that brothership we shared. how we helped each other in times of needs, how we understood each other. and how we're always ready to be there. we could talk abt anything and everything. walking into that relationship was a bad choice. probably a wrong step. if we hadn't done so, i think we still would be bffs. hahhas.
then again, from that whole chunk of episode and continuing, i've learnt alot. grown alot. experienced alot.
and changed alot.
i hope that she'll read this post. but i'm sure, a definite not. she doesn't know abt me. maybe, yes through him, but not enough to constantly read my posts. i'll probably want to email her. through fb. idk how coz its private profile. neither do i want to add her as a friend to get her email coz its just not ideal. i'll probably try and use my resourcefulness skills again. ahhahahs.
for sure, it'll be after my exams. but, As ends in nov. i'm not sure if approaching her in the midst of this would affect her studies. but since its probably affecting her studies.. oh wait. maybe she's not doing As. according to her posts, shes not really mugging like all other A-lvl ppl are doing now. ahhahs. okok. next wk. after my papers!
may God be with me.
and no, i'm not trying to create smth here.
i'm just trying to make this world a happier place to live in.
a frown into a smile.
rainy
been raining all nights.
always falling short of just this bit.
hahas.
oh wells.
nov dec is gg to be exciting. (:
sat- paper and game.
sun- new balance run and prize presentation at occ.
mon- LAST PAPER.
ok ok. just this last 2 paper. give ur besssttt!!
always falling short of just this bit.
hahas.
oh wells.
nov dec is gg to be exciting. (:
sat- paper and game.
sun- new balance run and prize presentation at occ.
mon- LAST PAPER.
ok ok. just this last 2 paper. give ur besssttt!!
Thursday, November 05, 2009
osteophytes.
went to see peter today.
doc says i'm an old lady. hahas. tmd. my ankle has osteophyte... hahas. and might have hairline. artiritis soon babe.
he says this happens usually in old ppl. then i was like.. "is it common among young ppl who do sports"... and i thought it would be a say or a maybe... he said.. "no". ahahhas. i was like... huh! i drink alot of milk leehss. ahhahas.
basically osteophyte is like when bones rub tgt, then causes wear and tear. effects are pain when cold (si beh aunty) and next time if it gets worse, nerves and ligaments will get affected.
i was like... huh. hahahas. thanks.
HAIZ.
too much impact/weight sports.
maybe i should start serious think abt loosing alot alot of weight to prolong my ankle life. ahhas.
"Osteophytes in the ankle are a common condition known as the ‘anterior kissing lesion’ or ‘footballer’s ankle’. It was O’Donoghue in 1966 who reported a 45% incidence in American football players (74). There is an even higher incidence of 59.3% in dancers (75). Patients with ‘footballer’s ankle- present with pain, catching and restricted joint motion (dorsiflexion) and swelling (76)."
source:http://www.ankle-arthroscopy.co.uk/articular-surface-defects/loose_bodies_and_osteophytes/
hahas ok. i'm both.
physio next wk! HAIZ. $$$$$$.
so i still went trng tday.
felt that my stamina went down alot thanks to exam. did lots of mistakes on the moves. felt damn slow to back.
i want to be faster faster faster.
physcially and mentally pls.
doc says i'm an old lady. hahas. tmd. my ankle has osteophyte... hahas. and might have hairline. artiritis soon babe.
he says this happens usually in old ppl. then i was like.. "is it common among young ppl who do sports"... and i thought it would be a say or a maybe... he said.. "no". ahahhas. i was like... huh! i drink alot of milk leehss. ahhahas.
basically osteophyte is like when bones rub tgt, then causes wear and tear. effects are pain when cold (si beh aunty) and next time if it gets worse, nerves and ligaments will get affected.
i was like... huh. hahahas. thanks.
HAIZ.
too much impact/weight sports.
maybe i should start serious think abt loosing alot alot of weight to prolong my ankle life. ahhas.
"Osteophytes in the ankle are a common condition known as the ‘anterior kissing lesion’ or ‘footballer’s ankle’. It was O’Donoghue in 1966 who reported a 45% incidence in American football players (74). There is an even higher incidence of 59.3% in dancers (75). Patients with ‘footballer’s ankle- present with pain, catching and restricted joint motion (dorsiflexion) and swelling (76)."
source:http://www.ankle-arthroscopy.co.uk/articular-surface-defects/loose_bodies_and_osteophytes/
hahas ok. i'm both.
physio next wk! HAIZ. $$$$$$.
so i still went trng tday.
felt that my stamina went down alot thanks to exam. did lots of mistakes on the moves. felt damn slow to back.
i want to be faster faster faster.
physcially and mentally pls.
Wednesday, November 04, 2009
new love.
been waiting for this day.
saved up just enough for this. (:
i ordered it online on sunday.
and it shocked me when it arrived today. damn fast.
bad thing is... its really stupid to have a video function and not a camera function.
and the lens is put in such a awkward position that ur hand will always get in the way.
gd thing, it took apple 5 yrs to realize that ppl like to have a radio inside an mp3. maybe its just part of the marketing plan.
but nevertheless. i'm happy. no more music that will hang halfway! hahas.
(:
yea, so when u order online, u get free engravings. and the price is same from the retailed. HAH. talk abt sharing pricing. this is DUAL DISTRIBTION, DIRECT SUPPLY CHAIN.
ok.
today. DC IS STUPID.
tmd. i think everyone felt tthey studied too hard wrongly. can't believe the whole paper circulared the whole part of SPM. tmd.
the last question. i actually got it right. then i check check think think.. then... aiya. felt that it was wrong. so change it. in the end, i changed the right to the wrong. >:|
after the paper, everyone was like in shit-mode.
no one knew the answers. everyone's just hoping for moderation and banging on method marks.
haiz.
Monday, November 02, 2009
studyyy
wah. last warning.
hahas.
i really think i'm loosing the drive to study.
its nothing difficult abt studying.
its difficult to get myself down to study.
wah.
this is unexpectedly tough.
from the radio: 1 thing 2 do 3 words 4 you
hahas.
i really think i'm loosing the drive to study.
its nothing difficult abt studying.
its difficult to get myself down to study.
wah.
this is unexpectedly tough.
from the radio: 1 thing 2 do 3 words 4 you
not right
nua-ster max.
today's GE women's 10k. one of the worse timing. so bad that i dare to say.. 1hr 32mins. HAHAHAH.
and u know, trail run.. the 10k... its like.. gravel.. rocky.. hills.. single file.. mud and all... i can clock in 15 mins faster.
so disappointed.
at the 5k mark.. i checked time and realised i was damn slow today. then around the 6k water pt. i stopped. and... lost it. hahas. didn't have any more fighting spirit to do a gd timing. i can blame it on my ankle la k. like for some reason, besides the inner side of my ankle is starting to feel the strain, my lower back and knees and thighs are feeling it. guess i need see someone who knows abt physio and train back my ankle strength. ): and i figured out that if i'm gg to continue to put strain everywhere, i'm gg to develop more injuries.
didn't like the route this yr also.
and i think i hate LD running. its boring. its just rewarding to complete a 10k. but after while. it gets boring, mundane. and for ppl like me who don't travel like 5k/h kind, we see the same things over and over again.
ytd's wtl game with Bedok Kings. we won 6-3. i was put center. felt uncomfortable again. then b told me that center is the same as link.. just that defence move up blah blah blah. that really psyched me abit. but i felt the whole wtl league damn wasted. put in so much time and effort.. the won games that were like 'challenging and tight'.. lost games that meant to be won. just so wasted. that puts us 3/4th of the table, totally out of finals. if we had drew the game with Bank or want the game with TP, we could have been 2nd. really damn it.
HAIZ.
everytime like that.
feel so not worth it.
one injury, affect everthing. i just hope i can achieve smth out of the swissotel vm. i'm gg to start trng for it after exams.
i really hate it when doors are closed.
even though u may have the keys.
ANYWAYS.
after the run, was the inter CSC bowling tournament at OCC.
i bowled well despite the pain in the ankle, off timing and so on. hahas.
146 232 172.
apparently, i've spoken to uncle adam after the games... he was bowling in my squad also... the lanes are difficult. outside bloody dry inside oily. seems nice... BUT. dry are like.. 12 boards out is dry. then the lanes change damn fast. 1st game, (dont talk abt finding line yet ar), finding area also cannot. felt OB everywhere. until one of e uncle confirmed with me the oiling that i felt... then i started striking. whoots. 2nd game had 2 turkeys. clean game. damn shiok. the line was 13 12 if i rmbr correctly.
lanes changed damn fast. after 1 game, it felt like long oiling. hahas. so yea, when uncle adam told me lanes were challenging, i felt gd. HAHA. ((:
1st game i wore guard. 2nd game i took it off coz i wanted a longer shot.
wah.and today, my pin 6/10s confident sia. i like. must rmbr how i bowl today.
and u see, dammit. for bowling an avg of 183, should be top 3 female as of 7pm... and, there's NO FEMALE CATEGORY. thanks ar. no singles event. only team. so u see. whenever bowl well, i get nothing. and i dont bowl well when there's like pol-ite, sunig and whatever nots.
but i think there's a female high game award. but its just cash and no medal. HAH. wasted. gian.
AND AND. out team bowled well. each of us had a 180 +/- avg. we could be top 4 of our squad and go finals... BUT.... THE LAST BOWLER NV COME. tmd. so the blind score is a miserable 30pins for each game. i calculated alrdy, our last bowler just need to bowl a high 18 avg, and we're in the finals. HAIZ. see. everytime like tt...
can... but cannot.
then came home. major family time. dinner and everything. ahhas.
i didn't study for 3 days?
tmr's last day to study... and i've got 2 more big chapts. ):
as u can see, my family is old. the generation is wierd. the old man.. is my mum's bro. aka... uncle. then the next gen is me and the adults = kids of mum and bro. then the last gen is the baby and ruizhi. ahhas.
i bought the pink specs for her for her bday. since she likes pink, everything she sees now is gg to be pink. hahas
top 4 pic.
fav pic.
today's GE women's 10k. one of the worse timing. so bad that i dare to say.. 1hr 32mins. HAHAHAH.
and u know, trail run.. the 10k... its like.. gravel.. rocky.. hills.. single file.. mud and all... i can clock in 15 mins faster.
so disappointed.
at the 5k mark.. i checked time and realised i was damn slow today. then around the 6k water pt. i stopped. and... lost it. hahas. didn't have any more fighting spirit to do a gd timing. i can blame it on my ankle la k. like for some reason, besides the inner side of my ankle is starting to feel the strain, my lower back and knees and thighs are feeling it. guess i need see someone who knows abt physio and train back my ankle strength. ): and i figured out that if i'm gg to continue to put strain everywhere, i'm gg to develop more injuries.
didn't like the route this yr also.
and i think i hate LD running. its boring. its just rewarding to complete a 10k. but after while. it gets boring, mundane. and for ppl like me who don't travel like 5k/h kind, we see the same things over and over again.
ytd's wtl game with Bedok Kings. we won 6-3. i was put center. felt uncomfortable again. then b told me that center is the same as link.. just that defence move up blah blah blah. that really psyched me abit. but i felt the whole wtl league damn wasted. put in so much time and effort.. the won games that were like 'challenging and tight'.. lost games that meant to be won. just so wasted. that puts us 3/4th of the table, totally out of finals. if we had drew the game with Bank or want the game with TP, we could have been 2nd. really damn it.
HAIZ.
everytime like that.
feel so not worth it.
one injury, affect everthing. i just hope i can achieve smth out of the swissotel vm. i'm gg to start trng for it after exams.
i really hate it when doors are closed.
even though u may have the keys.
ANYWAYS.
after the run, was the inter CSC bowling tournament at OCC.
i bowled well despite the pain in the ankle, off timing and so on. hahas.
146 232 172.
apparently, i've spoken to uncle adam after the games... he was bowling in my squad also... the lanes are difficult. outside bloody dry inside oily. seems nice... BUT. dry are like.. 12 boards out is dry. then the lanes change damn fast. 1st game, (dont talk abt finding line yet ar), finding area also cannot. felt OB everywhere. until one of e uncle confirmed with me the oiling that i felt... then i started striking. whoots. 2nd game had 2 turkeys. clean game. damn shiok. the line was 13 12 if i rmbr correctly.
lanes changed damn fast. after 1 game, it felt like long oiling. hahas. so yea, when uncle adam told me lanes were challenging, i felt gd. HAHA. ((:
1st game i wore guard. 2nd game i took it off coz i wanted a longer shot.
wah.and today, my pin 6/10s confident sia. i like. must rmbr how i bowl today.
and u see, dammit. for bowling an avg of 183, should be top 3 female as of 7pm... and, there's NO FEMALE CATEGORY. thanks ar. no singles event. only team. so u see. whenever bowl well, i get nothing. and i dont bowl well when there's like pol-ite, sunig and whatever nots.
but i think there's a female high game award. but its just cash and no medal. HAH. wasted. gian.
AND AND. out team bowled well. each of us had a 180 +/- avg. we could be top 4 of our squad and go finals... BUT.... THE LAST BOWLER NV COME. tmd. so the blind score is a miserable 30pins for each game. i calculated alrdy, our last bowler just need to bowl a high 18 avg, and we're in the finals. HAIZ. see. everytime like tt...
can... but cannot.
then came home. major family time. dinner and everything. ahhas.
i didn't study for 3 days?
tmr's last day to study... and i've got 2 more big chapts. ):
as u can see, my family is old. the generation is wierd. the old man.. is my mum's bro. aka... uncle. then the next gen is me and the adults = kids of mum and bro. then the last gen is the baby and ruizhi. ahhas.
i bought the pink specs for her for her bday. since she likes pink, everything she sees now is gg to be pink. hahas
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