sometimes. ur heart is so whirlled that u juz duno how to summarise it.
pray for wisdom.
pray for protection.
pray for Grace Ng.
pray for kc's bowling team.
pray for 4/6.
pray for the Poon.s.
pray foy my friends.
pray for guidance.
pray for the world.
pray for o'levels.
pray for all.
hmm. i duno.(?). its all deeply knotted.
tmr is prayer service! pray for God' presence to dwell among us.
use us mightly.
strictly students. so pray for strength.
pray for unity and just You to be there, guiding.
i wanna run run run run.
i wanna bowl bowl bowl bowl.
i wanna screm scream scream scream.
i wanna praise Your Name.
i wanna be bright and salty.
* i just want you.
questions. perseverance. O's. fight. win. silent. fire.
EXTINGUISHER.
May All Races Ignite All Nations.
(?)
we ask a questoin.
we may not find an answer.
four walls.
then three walls.
then a brick wall.
ajar door.
cracked window,
shattered mirror.
torn photographs.
heavy clouds,
dusty floors.
defeaning silence.
slow speed,
comforting pain.
twisted. whirrled. swirrilled. blood.
shatterd shatters brick broke. stop.
four walls.
then three walls.
then a brick wall.
stagnant hands of time.
-i wish.
Thursday, September 29, 2005
Wednesday, September 28, 2005
heavy post.(?)
well well. have many many not so joyful things and issues to 'discuss' ahah.
ok. 1st.>
i'm L-A-T-E for sch today! by one minute. my years of hard work for keepin clean records since P1 TILL SEC 4.. today has to be a day where i have a record.
woke up at 7:05am. ran down at 7:09am. took a taxi at 7:14am. time was ticking away fast. BEdok was jammed. red lights keep flashing.. my mind was all abt the consequances and countles seek-age of refuge from God. my prayers were like answered kinda instantly. the lane to sch.. had abt 6 traffic lights?.. all 6 of them turned green or was green when the taxi was travelling on that road.
reached sch. a dreadful 7:25.. which hit 7:26am. but yes. i juz thank God that although still a prefect, i'm a stepped down one.. so consequencse weren't heavy. infact, there were none. felt wierd and uneasy. jus need punishment? mad.
2nd.>
so anyways.. prelim results are back. shall i say tt its a miserable twentooy SEVEN points? personally, i've made improvements. but they are not that fantastic. tchrs are urging students to DROP DROP DROP. why?- image of sch.
yes. i agree. that to have high percentage of passes or distinctions, the not so gd onees should be elimated.
HOWEVER, is the personal welfare of a student neglected? a convent sch, filled with love, a caring sch that excels... do we show Love and understanding of one's welfare? do we?
pratically, as adults, ppl should not force anyone to drop.. or sometimes even restorting to light threatens.
and as students, we should, and we ought to know where we stand. meaning, if we know that we are not able to fight hard and win victoriously for the sch, then DON'T take the paper and pull the sch down lar. logical thinking right.
therefore, with this push and pull.. the sch, or rather, a caring sch that excels, and literally, statistically, EXCEL.
in another words.. if lets say.. we want a 100% disctinctions, and there are 50 pupils.. but we did not achieve it coz maybe 15 out of 50 students got their A1... the result would be a miserable 30% distinctions. //on the other hand.. if like 45 ppl were made to drop the subject. out of the 5.. all 5 had distictions, making it a BIG 100%... are we at all satisfied with 5 ppl being happy and 45 others feeling disappointed and all? [get the picture?]
so the WHOLE POINT is that, students should know where they stand, knowing how far they can run and win. and on the other hand, tchrs should be encouraging, motivating with a right focus and the welfare of the pupil at heart. and directly, the welfare of the pupil. isn't wad e MOE state that sg tchrs are greatlt encourgaed to have the pupil's welfare at heart?
and at the end of the day, won't everyone be happy and feeling a sense of personal achievement rather than resentment and regret?
ahha. ok. 3rd.>
the flasher is back in the neighbourhood and its not a gd thing for virtous, upright convent girls. to make things worse, now there's an addition of a peeping tom under the bridge. hmmms. these ppl are really sads lar. must think of a way to help these ppl, feeling deprived or wadsoeva.
anyways.. after sch. someo f us went to find ms soo to ask for help to photocopy some stuff. ahha. then we're talking talking... and talked about planning to nab the flasher.. we being the bait.. ms soo and others being the heros. hhaha. had fun though. she brings us so much joy in our lives in kc. ahha. big laughs.
then was talkin to sara... while taking the path of the freq flasshin scenes to the near-by shops.. we're discussing how to react and all. ahha. like get ready camera phone.. condition a reflex to take a pic of the flaser then proceed on to the famous screamings and all.. and attempt to run away. if brave enough, give chase? with weaponds like dictionaries or big files. ahha. was thinking. preferbly bowling balls. that shoulg kill and elimate. i sound evil.
anyways.. girls.. juz be careful lar. pray for a miracle to these ppl so that they will hear of the Word and change for the better. may God bless them.
4th.>
this might stirr up lots of fiery comments? ahha. i duno.
i have been flippin through the newspapers and realised that the word "blogs" have been constantly appearing. well well. the opinons i read has enabled me to see a wider scope of different personalities and scope.and that started me thinking.
should i take a risk and actually blog about all these blog issues? well. maybe i should. but it'll be marian's way and logics.
blogging. my own defination... to share ur daily stuff with ppl, providing ppl with sources of learning outcomes, and a range of stuff where ppl have not exxperieced. gd eg... tournaments.. prefects.. sch.. leadership.. stuff which not all ppl may have experienced. ppl will then read and learn and gain stuff.
on another hand. it is to R-A-N-T. BUT... LEGALLY. vulgarities should be discouraged. this is because. Singapore is after all, a high class global market, AND a cohesive society where many races are living in unity. we ought to be grateful for our forefathers who worked so hard.. to provide a today for us... and now.. with the providence of internets.. so as to even blog and all. vulgarites ain't healthy. wad gd do they do? u mean they are cool? pls. vocabulary.. there's loads of them.. y limit to vulguarties? it its a way to express urself or wadsoeva, all i can say is, all the best. ppl have their means to post, to rant, to vulguar-ate. (ahha. wad...) .. if it becomes a second nature... are u gonna live with it? when u work, ur clients.. if u start a family, ur children.. are we ruinig our image? if it becomes second nature, does the mind still have the choice to say no or not?- theroratically, it becomes a conditioned reflex, a bad habit. they are other healthier ways to express urself. i'm sure of it.
why are ppl still discriminating? judgemental? well, emmotions will tend to make u show e high sides of u.. probably leading u in accidental, indirect and unintentional condemntions. then when ppl read, it stirrs up gossips and the false staements start to shoot, again, unintentionally hurting ppl. but the fact is that, u have hurt someone.
spams. it's everywhere. ppl, somehow loosing a sense of identity in a way or perhaps, wanting to "save face" or nicely put it, to prevent any grudges with ur true identity, kp saying not v constructive stuff. KBE. knowledge based economy, trasparency... are all these neglected? consumers should also learn to adapt, thinkg and grow. rather than sparking hatreds or posessing an inability to open up n LEARN. at the end of the day.. ppl reading, the blogger and the commenter will not be happy. why u want it like that? haha.
the rest.. porns, bad and unhealthy stuff.. need not elaborate. u guys know it and i sure, able to differentaite right and wrong. why hurt anyone?
haha. phew. 5th.>
my mum has been nice and ultraly understanding n is starting to freak me out.
she's been complaining abt her leg.. being v pain. today, she went to see the doc and he say that she has retension.. and can be dangerous.. duno wad too much water.. lungs will fail and all. o. horror.
haven been erm.. reminded?
these few days, images of happy times with dad has been flashin across.. sis fallin sick, me v afraid to loose any of my friends,today ms gammear talked about the moments b4 death while toking about mary turner's feelins and thought process b4 she died. and yes. struck me. my mom? so soft and nice? -shivers-
if dad "wants to take her away".. then i huess.. too bad. haha. like some drama like that. nnono. nightmare. i'm afraid to loose ppl. and mum.. i duno lar. i juz feel uncomfortable at times.. praying that God wil protect the POOn.s
okok. i sudeen;y feel v tired. even resorting to slpin here. anyways..... nite. shall conntune if i have the chance.. but for now.. STUDY HARD!! God bless.
ok. 1st.>
i'm L-A-T-E for sch today! by one minute. my years of hard work for keepin clean records since P1 TILL SEC 4.. today has to be a day where i have a record.
woke up at 7:05am. ran down at 7:09am. took a taxi at 7:14am. time was ticking away fast. BEdok was jammed. red lights keep flashing.. my mind was all abt the consequances and countles seek-age of refuge from God. my prayers were like answered kinda instantly. the lane to sch.. had abt 6 traffic lights?.. all 6 of them turned green or was green when the taxi was travelling on that road.
reached sch. a dreadful 7:25.. which hit 7:26am. but yes. i juz thank God that although still a prefect, i'm a stepped down one.. so consequencse weren't heavy. infact, there were none. felt wierd and uneasy. jus need punishment? mad.
2nd.>
so anyways.. prelim results are back. shall i say tt its a miserable twentooy SEVEN points? personally, i've made improvements. but they are not that fantastic. tchrs are urging students to DROP DROP DROP. why?- image of sch.
yes. i agree. that to have high percentage of passes or distinctions, the not so gd onees should be elimated.
HOWEVER, is the personal welfare of a student neglected? a convent sch, filled with love, a caring sch that excels... do we show Love and understanding of one's welfare? do we?
pratically, as adults, ppl should not force anyone to drop.. or sometimes even restorting to light threatens.
and as students, we should, and we ought to know where we stand. meaning, if we know that we are not able to fight hard and win victoriously for the sch, then DON'T take the paper and pull the sch down lar. logical thinking right.
therefore, with this push and pull.. the sch, or rather, a caring sch that excels, and literally, statistically, EXCEL.
in another words.. if lets say.. we want a 100% disctinctions, and there are 50 pupils.. but we did not achieve it coz maybe 15 out of 50 students got their A1... the result would be a miserable 30% distinctions. //on the other hand.. if like 45 ppl were made to drop the subject. out of the 5.. all 5 had distictions, making it a BIG 100%... are we at all satisfied with 5 ppl being happy and 45 others feeling disappointed and all? [get the picture?]
so the WHOLE POINT is that, students should know where they stand, knowing how far they can run and win. and on the other hand, tchrs should be encouraging, motivating with a right focus and the welfare of the pupil at heart. and directly, the welfare of the pupil. isn't wad e MOE state that sg tchrs are greatlt encourgaed to have the pupil's welfare at heart?
and at the end of the day, won't everyone be happy and feeling a sense of personal achievement rather than resentment and regret?
ahha. ok. 3rd.>
the flasher is back in the neighbourhood and its not a gd thing for virtous, upright convent girls. to make things worse, now there's an addition of a peeping tom under the bridge. hmmms. these ppl are really sads lar. must think of a way to help these ppl, feeling deprived or wadsoeva.
anyways.. after sch. someo f us went to find ms soo to ask for help to photocopy some stuff. ahha. then we're talking talking... and talked about planning to nab the flasher.. we being the bait.. ms soo and others being the heros. hhaha. had fun though. she brings us so much joy in our lives in kc. ahha. big laughs.
then was talkin to sara... while taking the path of the freq flasshin scenes to the near-by shops.. we're discussing how to react and all. ahha. like get ready camera phone.. condition a reflex to take a pic of the flaser then proceed on to the famous screamings and all.. and attempt to run away. if brave enough, give chase? with weaponds like dictionaries or big files. ahha. was thinking. preferbly bowling balls. that shoulg kill and elimate. i sound evil.
anyways.. girls.. juz be careful lar. pray for a miracle to these ppl so that they will hear of the Word and change for the better. may God bless them.
4th.>
this might stirr up lots of fiery comments? ahha. i duno.
i have been flippin through the newspapers and realised that the word "blogs" have been constantly appearing. well well. the opinons i read has enabled me to see a wider scope of different personalities and scope.and that started me thinking.
should i take a risk and actually blog about all these blog issues? well. maybe i should. but it'll be marian's way and logics.
blogging. my own defination... to share ur daily stuff with ppl, providing ppl with sources of learning outcomes, and a range of stuff where ppl have not exxperieced. gd eg... tournaments.. prefects.. sch.. leadership.. stuff which not all ppl may have experienced. ppl will then read and learn and gain stuff.
on another hand. it is to R-A-N-T. BUT... LEGALLY. vulgarities should be discouraged. this is because. Singapore is after all, a high class global market, AND a cohesive society where many races are living in unity. we ought to be grateful for our forefathers who worked so hard.. to provide a today for us... and now.. with the providence of internets.. so as to even blog and all. vulgarites ain't healthy. wad gd do they do? u mean they are cool? pls. vocabulary.. there's loads of them.. y limit to vulguarties? it its a way to express urself or wadsoeva, all i can say is, all the best. ppl have their means to post, to rant, to vulguar-ate. (ahha. wad...) .. if it becomes a second nature... are u gonna live with it? when u work, ur clients.. if u start a family, ur children.. are we ruinig our image? if it becomes second nature, does the mind still have the choice to say no or not?- theroratically, it becomes a conditioned reflex, a bad habit. they are other healthier ways to express urself. i'm sure of it.
why are ppl still discriminating? judgemental? well, emmotions will tend to make u show e high sides of u.. probably leading u in accidental, indirect and unintentional condemntions. then when ppl read, it stirrs up gossips and the false staements start to shoot, again, unintentionally hurting ppl. but the fact is that, u have hurt someone.
spams. it's everywhere. ppl, somehow loosing a sense of identity in a way or perhaps, wanting to "save face" or nicely put it, to prevent any grudges with ur true identity, kp saying not v constructive stuff. KBE. knowledge based economy, trasparency... are all these neglected? consumers should also learn to adapt, thinkg and grow. rather than sparking hatreds or posessing an inability to open up n LEARN. at the end of the day.. ppl reading, the blogger and the commenter will not be happy. why u want it like that? haha.
the rest.. porns, bad and unhealthy stuff.. need not elaborate. u guys know it and i sure, able to differentaite right and wrong. why hurt anyone?
haha. phew. 5th.>
my mum has been nice and ultraly understanding n is starting to freak me out.
she's been complaining abt her leg.. being v pain. today, she went to see the doc and he say that she has retension.. and can be dangerous.. duno wad too much water.. lungs will fail and all. o. horror.
haven been erm.. reminded?
these few days, images of happy times with dad has been flashin across.. sis fallin sick, me v afraid to loose any of my friends,today ms gammear talked about the moments b4 death while toking about mary turner's feelins and thought process b4 she died. and yes. struck me. my mom? so soft and nice? -shivers-
if dad "wants to take her away".. then i huess.. too bad. haha. like some drama like that. nnono. nightmare. i'm afraid to loose ppl. and mum.. i duno lar. i juz feel uncomfortable at times.. praying that God wil protect the POOn.s
okok. i sudeen;y feel v tired. even resorting to slpin here. anyways..... nite. shall conntune if i have the chance.. but for now.. STUDY HARD!! God bless.
Tuesday, September 27, 2005
Monday, September 26, 2005
thousand words. -
a picture paints a thousand words.
so does a word paints a thousand pictures.
neat huh?
anyways. congrats to rachael and darryll!! hahaha. baptism. a practical step closer! =)
the photo the lee family took.. really warm lar.. *scrooll down.. its like man.. i want such a family photo. i want a nice family photo. regret lar. i envy mrs teo alot too lor. tons of family photo flooding the house walls. man. i miss dad. haha. when wil this end ar. buay tahan ar.
so anyways..
after my sunday at mission trng and my usual Mac, headed for tm to mee tiong chuan and joel. p1 and 2 buddies.
tiong chuan left dear shps after his p2 and we did not contact each other since. 8 long yrs! and today we met. =). ahha.
joel. saw him last yr.. but didn't really catch up with him.. he's one of my bestest buuddies in pri sch. he makes my pri sch more stories to tell. haha. (so tempted to black mail him here. ahhaha. jkjk. *hope u're reading this. ahha)
anyways. they've grown alot. and i realised, i did too. yes. hahaa. i just miss the company of my pri sch friends. i guess they're a bunch of ppl who taught me how to be resilient and a stronger person? seriously.. in pri sch.. the boys are rough to girls.. we play and literraly play lar. so at times.. it can be violent. at times. and i guess.. 6 yrs there.. made a change in my life? or rather... groomed me into the Marian i am today. the-no-no-skirt kinda girl.
we watched "one more chance" today. was an avg show lar.. then headed by joel to this pool place. proudly n happily, i showed them my pink little IC. haha. felt so so so victoriously legal. not that i love pool or wad.. its like the feelin of superioty, crap. no. i think its erm.. like whoa. 16. ahha. mad.
played. then tiong chuan left halfway, leaving us a life-less-but-all-powerful $10 bill. joel gave chase.. but he was soon disapeared. soon.. favian came. another pri sch friend. by the time, it was like 1040pm. learned abit of pool. and had fun.
left at a wha time of 1115pm
its been long since i'm out like that. coz i'm always out with church friends.. which is a super good company and really caring lot. so we go home early due to the worrying upcoming sch the nxt day. however, today.. i just felt so .. soo. erm.. (whats that word??).... back?
haha. right. i duno lar. like i really do miss them alot. the company. my 'gang', my gung-ho-carefree-direct brothers. seemingly forever there for ur support.
so anyways. it was juz the 2 or 3 of them that i spent time with.. and really, i felt this long lost feeling. no words can describe the gd ol'days.
today.
it is the last day i'm taking a break. from tmr onwards till o levels. gonna be on fire for work as well as God. must learn how to strike a gd balance. must study hard. dun make this last lap a muddy one. wanna make it spikya n magnficent. with God's help and strength, we're ablt to pull through lar keep on fighting this battle o level peeps. *CHIONG AR........RAH RAH RAH.
so does a word paints a thousand pictures.
neat huh?
anyways. congrats to rachael and darryll!! hahaha. baptism. a practical step closer! =)
the photo the lee family took.. really warm lar.. *scrooll down.. its like man.. i want such a family photo. i want a nice family photo. regret lar. i envy mrs teo alot too lor. tons of family photo flooding the house walls. man. i miss dad. haha. when wil this end ar. buay tahan ar.
so anyways..
after my sunday at mission trng and my usual Mac, headed for tm to mee tiong chuan and joel. p1 and 2 buddies.
tiong chuan left dear shps after his p2 and we did not contact each other since. 8 long yrs! and today we met. =). ahha.
joel. saw him last yr.. but didn't really catch up with him.. he's one of my bestest buuddies in pri sch. he makes my pri sch more stories to tell. haha. (so tempted to black mail him here. ahhaha. jkjk. *hope u're reading this. ahha)
anyways. they've grown alot. and i realised, i did too. yes. hahaa. i just miss the company of my pri sch friends. i guess they're a bunch of ppl who taught me how to be resilient and a stronger person? seriously.. in pri sch.. the boys are rough to girls.. we play and literraly play lar. so at times.. it can be violent. at times. and i guess.. 6 yrs there.. made a change in my life? or rather... groomed me into the Marian i am today. the-no-no-skirt kinda girl.
we watched "one more chance" today. was an avg show lar.. then headed by joel to this pool place. proudly n happily, i showed them my pink little IC. haha. felt so so so victoriously legal. not that i love pool or wad.. its like the feelin of superioty, crap. no. i think its erm.. like whoa. 16. ahha. mad.
played. then tiong chuan left halfway, leaving us a life-less-but-all-powerful $10 bill. joel gave chase.. but he was soon disapeared. soon.. favian came. another pri sch friend. by the time, it was like 1040pm. learned abit of pool. and had fun.
left at a wha time of 1115pm
its been long since i'm out like that. coz i'm always out with church friends.. which is a super good company and really caring lot. so we go home early due to the worrying upcoming sch the nxt day. however, today.. i just felt so .. soo. erm.. (whats that word??).... back?
haha. right. i duno lar. like i really do miss them alot. the company. my 'gang', my gung-ho-carefree-direct brothers. seemingly forever there for ur support.
so anyways. it was juz the 2 or 3 of them that i spent time with.. and really, i felt this long lost feeling. no words can describe the gd ol'days.
today.
it is the last day i'm taking a break. from tmr onwards till o levels. gonna be on fire for work as well as God. must learn how to strike a gd balance. must study hard. dun make this last lap a muddy one. wanna make it spikya n magnficent. with God's help and strength, we're ablt to pull through lar keep on fighting this battle o level peeps. *CHIONG AR........RAH RAH RAH.
i love this pic alot alot alot. its rachael's family!!! and like whoa. all so joyful.. for ur info.. they are sisters and a brother. haha. R,S,T,U,V,W.= rachael, sarah, theresa, ursula, vanessa and err.. wi.. ahhaa. i forgot!.hahhaa. so happy family. taken after rachael's baptism. man. how i wish to have such a family pic lar.
Sunday, September 25, 2005
Friday, September 23, 2005
rest-less
restless?
rest less?
hmm.. less rest= restless... okok. wadeva. tryin to do some word play here. crap.
anyways. today i feel all over. like literally all over. like.. ahhha. i duno how to describe but i juz feel like ermmm. all over. okok poor vocab.
feel as if i'm fallin sick soon..
right. ok. i got back part of lit.. and so far. i've passed.. and all the papers recieved so far, i've made improvements. yay. eng paper 1 sec 1.. on geylang.. mine's moderation marks.. so its 20/30. to me, its a personal high. paper 2 sec 2 i got 23!! i skimmed thorugh the class list and saw tt only 2 ppl got 23! yay.not sure if i missed any moarks higher. well...
personally, i am satisfied and happy.
standard-wise, not there yet.
pray for strength. Pray for health. pray for great commission. pray for discipline and preseverance.
rest less?
hmm.. less rest= restless... okok. wadeva. tryin to do some word play here. crap.
anyways. today i feel all over. like literally all over. like.. ahhha. i duno how to describe but i juz feel like ermmm. all over. okok poor vocab.
feel as if i'm fallin sick soon..
right. ok. i got back part of lit.. and so far. i've passed.. and all the papers recieved so far, i've made improvements. yay. eng paper 1 sec 1.. on geylang.. mine's moderation marks.. so its 20/30. to me, its a personal high. paper 2 sec 2 i got 23!! i skimmed thorugh the class list and saw tt only 2 ppl got 23! yay.not sure if i missed any moarks higher. well...
personally, i am satisfied and happy.
standard-wise, not there yet.
pray for strength. Pray for health. pray for great commission. pray for discipline and preseverance.
Thursday, September 22, 2005
in construction
How Much
Em D Asus
You’re all I need
Cmaj7 A2/C#
When I fall I feel Your hand
Em D Asus
And Your love lights my way
Cmaj7 A2/C#
I’ll trust in You with all my days
Am7 Em
And I’ll sing forever
G Am7
You gave Your life away for me
G Bm
Jesus You are God and You will reign
Em C
Nothing I could do could ever say
Em D C
How much I love You
Em D C
How much I love You
G Bm
And if this world should fall and fade away
Em C
I will trust in You I’ll always say
Em D C
How much I love you
Em D C
How much I love you
Page 2
How Much (page 2)
Em D Asus
You’re all I know
Cmaj7 A2/C#
You are the Truth there’s no one else
Em D Asus
And I’ll stand for You
Cmaj7 A2/C#
Cos you stood for me You set me free
Am7 Em
And I’ll sing forever
G Am7
Your love is everything to me
Words and music by Chad Blondel
©2005 YouthAlive Music
youthalivewa.com
PRELIMS ARE OVER.
ok. that's not really the thing yet.-
O LEVELS IN 6 WKS.
looks like i can't give myself a break liao. seriously. dun advice me to take a break. i've already been breaking. ahha.. the new blog skin! took me long.. coz this time.. was proudly done by myself.. so w/o help, i took over 10hrs to think and figure stuff out. ahha.
ok. yes. prelims.
not v excitied to get my results back upon hearing tchrs' dreadful comments to me again. i really wanna kick those o levels hard k. i wanna score like really colourfully till the kc sign drop or smth. i wanna shock the world. mark my words
ok. apart from this..
i recieved a call juz now.. at around 8.15pm. i so feel irritated.. and partially freaked out now..
man: "hello.. this is johnson.."
marian: "err..hello.. ok.. u are looking for who?"
man: "is this marian's no?"
marian: "errr...ya?"
man: " Oh hi! i'm johnson. i saw ur no. on the newspaper with ur name on it.. so i decided to call u... would u like to make friends?"
marian: "*wth.. err.. NO. my no.? errr where? (juz to confirm that i did not hear wrongly)"
man: "the newspaper. there's this chatline which i appplied for. nice meeting u.."
marian: "no.. i do not want. this is crap can. how did u get my no.?.........[pausse].. hello? harlow? kao.. dun play can..." [ click..]
*sry for the curse. juz sooo soo soo agitated.
freaked out. my no? newsaper? HARS. i've always looked down on chatlines. seriously. catering to desperates. pls lar. i'm sorry i dun emphatise with this whole concept of speed-dating wadsoeva.. PLS LAR. my no. on newspaper.. plus my name. kidding me.
i was paranoid. thats human reaction right. i know its pointles.. but yea.. i was juz paranoid. sads lar.. always this kind of thing happen to me one.. and yes. johnson sounded 50-60 plus. and i'm serious... the voice is as gd as my dad's friends/collegues. old man. and i've juz turned 16.
haha. thinking inbetween the lines.. is this event significant to my entry of a new chpt in my life? HARS. i doubt it.
ANYWAYS..
feel like using public phone to prank him.. coz i have his no.. (thanks to caller-id). ahhaah. should wait for a few months.
okok. randomly...
was toking to swl online. haha. he also changed his blogskin too. AND... he read his bowling archives.. which i did to. hahaha. coz tmr's east zone colours award.. and i felt that i've swooped down tons. haven been recieving awards for bowling nor studies. kinda :(... but well.. at least i made some achievements and gained experiences. miss those days. goona miss walking around in the alley.. seemingly knowing the whole world thinking that they dunno u.... but they do. that's the thing of bowling. u duno know him/her.. but he/she does. that's the bondage that the bowling circle is lacking now.
everything seems on a down hill. bowling. studies. thinking loads of crap reasons to the not-very-satisfying arrangemnets and planning of the system plus education system. ok.. shall blog another time about it.
yes.
back to the point.
do i love exams?
let's just say, yes, i have to, DO love exams. yay :)
it soooo builds me.
hahhaa. i'm mad now. juz hyper.. my blog is unfinished... and i have like no more energy to edit liao. haha. see how lar.
juz wanna thank God for the rain today. somehow. thank God that no one around me have dengue.. erm.... yet? ya. pray for nice protection.
:)
Em D Asus
You’re all I need
Cmaj7 A2/C#
When I fall I feel Your hand
Em D Asus
And Your love lights my way
Cmaj7 A2/C#
I’ll trust in You with all my days
Am7 Em
And I’ll sing forever
G Am7
You gave Your life away for me
G Bm
Jesus You are God and You will reign
Em C
Nothing I could do could ever say
Em D C
How much I love You
Em D C
How much I love You
G Bm
And if this world should fall and fade away
Em C
I will trust in You I’ll always say
Em D C
How much I love you
Em D C
How much I love you
Page 2
How Much (page 2)
Em D Asus
You’re all I know
Cmaj7 A2/C#
You are the Truth there’s no one else
Em D Asus
And I’ll stand for You
Cmaj7 A2/C#
Cos you stood for me You set me free
Am7 Em
And I’ll sing forever
G Am7
Your love is everything to me
Words and music by Chad Blondel
©2005 YouthAlive Music
youthalivewa.com
PRELIMS ARE OVER.
ok. that's not really the thing yet.-
O LEVELS IN 6 WKS.
looks like i can't give myself a break liao. seriously. dun advice me to take a break. i've already been breaking. ahha.. the new blog skin! took me long.. coz this time.. was proudly done by myself.. so w/o help, i took over 10hrs to think and figure stuff out. ahha.
ok. yes. prelims.
not v excitied to get my results back upon hearing tchrs' dreadful comments to me again. i really wanna kick those o levels hard k. i wanna score like really colourfully till the kc sign drop or smth. i wanna shock the world. mark my words
ok. apart from this..
i recieved a call juz now.. at around 8.15pm. i so feel irritated.. and partially freaked out now..
man: "hello.. this is johnson.."
marian: "err..hello.. ok.. u are looking for who?"
man: "is this marian's no?"
marian: "errr...ya?"
man: " Oh hi! i'm johnson. i saw ur no. on the newspaper with ur name on it.. so i decided to call u... would u like to make friends?"
marian: "*wth.. err.. NO. my no.? errr where? (juz to confirm that i did not hear wrongly)"
man: "the newspaper. there's this chatline which i appplied for. nice meeting u.."
marian: "no.. i do not want. this is crap can. how did u get my no.?.........[pausse].. hello? harlow? kao.. dun play can..." [ click..]
*sry for the curse. juz sooo soo soo agitated.
freaked out. my no? newsaper? HARS. i've always looked down on chatlines. seriously. catering to desperates. pls lar. i'm sorry i dun emphatise with this whole concept of speed-dating wadsoeva.. PLS LAR. my no. on newspaper.. plus my name. kidding me.
i was paranoid. thats human reaction right. i know its pointles.. but yea.. i was juz paranoid. sads lar.. always this kind of thing happen to me one.. and yes. johnson sounded 50-60 plus. and i'm serious... the voice is as gd as my dad's friends/collegues. old man. and i've juz turned 16.
haha. thinking inbetween the lines.. is this event significant to my entry of a new chpt in my life? HARS. i doubt it.
ANYWAYS..
feel like using public phone to prank him.. coz i have his no.. (thanks to caller-id). ahhaah. should wait for a few months.
okok. randomly...
was toking to swl online. haha. he also changed his blogskin too. AND... he read his bowling archives.. which i did to. hahaha. coz tmr's east zone colours award.. and i felt that i've swooped down tons. haven been recieving awards for bowling nor studies. kinda :(... but well.. at least i made some achievements and gained experiences. miss those days. goona miss walking around in the alley.. seemingly knowing the whole world thinking that they dunno u.... but they do. that's the thing of bowling. u duno know him/her.. but he/she does. that's the bondage that the bowling circle is lacking now.
everything seems on a down hill. bowling. studies. thinking loads of crap reasons to the not-very-satisfying arrangemnets and planning of the system plus education system. ok.. shall blog another time about it.
yes.
back to the point.
do i love exams?
let's just say, yes, i have to, DO love exams. yay :)
it soooo builds me.
hahhaa. i'm mad now. juz hyper.. my blog is unfinished... and i have like no more energy to edit liao. haha. see how lar.
juz wanna thank God for the rain today. somehow. thank God that no one around me have dengue.. erm.... yet? ya. pray for nice protection.
:)
Wednesday, September 21, 2005
goes beyond my wildest dreams..
wahahhahah. love love love love love.
ahha. i'm lovin it.
u know wad. GOD TOTALLY ROCKS TIME AFTER TIME
today.. i realised that my wallet was lost. yes. lost on my birthday which was ytd... newly 1yr-old i/c and all gone. so in the morning.. a little pancikly.. walked to the bus stop. felt that i left it in the bus..
so went to sch. using mum's ez link.
after sch. whoahahahahha.... I GOT IT BACK! BY GOD'S GRACE.. the bus conductor found it. coz they usually do their routine checks b4 parking. yay.
and when i went to the counter. this old nice aunty call me in upon hearing that i lost my wallet.. i signed some stuff.. and GOT IT BACK! hahaha. yay.. like 17hrs gone? haha.
and in sch....
a group of friends.... got me a NIV STUDY BIBLE.. how cool is that...frm sara, geraldyne, natasha, amanda, melanie, abby, elizabeth s, charissa!, bridget, shuhua, laura, xiaohui!!!!!! and i didn't know abt it lor.. 3rd surprise. cool eh???? yay yay. study bible k.. last yr right.. a big group of ppl shared a mmc card.. this time its a study bible!!! whoa whoa whoa. thank u ppl. =)
whoahahahahaha.
i really duno wad to say.. really thankful for God. i feel so sweet-ed. like ppl kp being so sweet to me.. and wishin me happy SWEET sixteen. whahaha.
this morning was a maths paper. dreadful. well. gotta work on my speed. coz seriously, paper 2 is gooona like pull be down rock bottom. :( but nvm lar. over liao.. too happy to fill sad actually. =)
after sch.. went to eat at this coffee shop. this lady was sitting beside me.. so she started chatting.. so i also chat.. coz i like to talk. ahhah.right.
so its like kinda a big conincidence to meet this kind of lady..
1) singaporean.. here vising her dad. came on mon.. leaving next wed.
2) her dad's bday is tmr. mine's today.
3) she taught in kc.. and was from
4) asked me abt tchrs/ staff esp mrs boey and mrs koh. hahha.
5) she also taugh in sajs b4.
6) ask me about my church. and uncle kia wang and family.
7) gave me her contact to contact her friends in singapore.
hahaha. cool???? hahahah. so cool right. everything's like matched up. haha. singpaore really too small liao. haha.
i feel like a joyful bubble now.. wantin to explode all the joy into the WORLD!!! wheeee... hahahhaa. wonders wads cass doing now.. hahaha. =)
so fun. i love exams. i love God. i love the world. :)
ahha. i'm lovin it.
u know wad. GOD TOTALLY ROCKS TIME AFTER TIME
today.. i realised that my wallet was lost. yes. lost on my birthday which was ytd... newly 1yr-old i/c and all gone. so in the morning.. a little pancikly.. walked to the bus stop. felt that i left it in the bus..
so went to sch. using mum's ez link.
after sch. whoahahahahha.... I GOT IT BACK! BY GOD'S GRACE.. the bus conductor found it. coz they usually do their routine checks b4 parking. yay.
and when i went to the counter. this old nice aunty call me in upon hearing that i lost my wallet.. i signed some stuff.. and GOT IT BACK! hahaha. yay.. like 17hrs gone? haha.
and in sch....
a group of friends.... got me a NIV STUDY BIBLE.. how cool is that...frm sara, geraldyne, natasha, amanda, melanie, abby, elizabeth s, charissa!, bridget, shuhua, laura, xiaohui!!!!!! and i didn't know abt it lor.. 3rd surprise. cool eh???? yay yay. study bible k.. last yr right.. a big group of ppl shared a mmc card.. this time its a study bible!!! whoa whoa whoa. thank u ppl. =)
whoahahahahaha.
i really duno wad to say.. really thankful for God. i feel so sweet-ed. like ppl kp being so sweet to me.. and wishin me happy SWEET sixteen. whahaha.
this morning was a maths paper. dreadful. well. gotta work on my speed. coz seriously, paper 2 is gooona like pull be down rock bottom. :( but nvm lar. over liao.. too happy to fill sad actually. =)
after sch.. went to eat at this coffee shop. this lady was sitting beside me.. so she started chatting.. so i also chat.. coz i like to talk. ahhah.right.
so its like kinda a big conincidence to meet this kind of lady..
1) singaporean.. here vising her dad. came on mon.. leaving next wed.
2) her dad's bday is tmr. mine's today.
3) she taught in kc.. and was from
4) asked me abt tchrs/ staff esp mrs boey and mrs koh. hahha.
5) she also taugh in sajs b4.
6) ask me about my church. and uncle kia wang and family.
7) gave me her contact to contact her friends in singapore.
hahaha. cool???? hahahah. so cool right. everything's like matched up. haha. singpaore really too small liao. haha.
i feel like a joyful bubble now.. wantin to explode all the joy into the WORLD!!! wheeee... hahahhaa. wonders wads cass doing now.. hahaha. =)
so fun. i love exams. i love God. i love the world. :)
Tuesday, September 20, 2005
sweet sweet 16
who-hooo!! 16!! hahaha. an age which breaks most hurdles? haha.
firstly.. i wanna thank all u ppl who rmbred my bday and msged me. really lar.. i think this is enough liao. personally, words are empowering and strong and meaningful... so i'm v v v happy that u ppl have encouraged me so much.
2ndly.. the ppl who sent me stuff and cards. esp an unexpected WONG YEW LIANG, my dearest SWL partner. hahha.. writting friendster testimonials and all. and many other sweet ppl..
3rdly.. ahhahahaha. tuition!!!! today was the best A maths tuition i've every had... 1.24pm till 5pm. ahha. they hide the cake in another room.. then nat dragged me down for break.. then surprised me. hahaha. man. u should see how crafty they ar lar.. every movement i made made them panicky... hahhaha...i had tofu man.. like tofu with choco syyrup and m$ms. ahah. tasted wired.. but very sweet. ahha. yay. and the cake was by mrs yee!!!. ahhaha. yay.. geraldyne, nat, sara, amanda, theresa and mrs yee!! thank u..
i'm v happy.
ahha.. first time.. 2 v successful surprises.. it gets better every yr. haha.
God is soo gd. like everyday. he sends ppl.. then rigth.. God is also super creative lar.. His plans are super solid. haha. if only pb can have such perfect plans..
and guess wad.. I HAVE NO PAPER TODAY.. whole time of prelims.. have paper.. but i dun't have today!! whoo-hoo. ahha. but tmr's a maths lar.. so yar.. haha.
NC-16 movies.. restricted 16 places like pool and all.. ahaha. if i go there. ahhahaha. yay.. whahahahha.
this yr.. somehow..
i wasn't in a mood of festivity.. exams? haha. i dunno..
the best present would be to hold dad's hand again and presing his mouth and plucking his leg hair, curlig his hair, cutting his shirt, playing with his saw, helping him to knock a nail straight in, teaching me d&t stuff... man. dad ar.. y are u so talented?
haaha.
oh yes.. its like thunder and all and massive lightning now.. out side.. thank God that i could took some photos of lightning.. wasn't really that impressive but well,, ahhah... there was light in darkness..
thank u for today everyone. those who acutally could rmbr or noted my bday. :). thank God that my bday is during exams? coz i think helped me to cheer up. ahha. and yes.. thank God that i didn't have chicken pox today!. ahhahaha. yay!
hahaha. i'm off to take more photos!! thank u God and ppl. =D
firstly.. i wanna thank all u ppl who rmbred my bday and msged me. really lar.. i think this is enough liao. personally, words are empowering and strong and meaningful... so i'm v v v happy that u ppl have encouraged me so much.
2ndly.. the ppl who sent me stuff and cards. esp an unexpected WONG YEW LIANG, my dearest SWL partner. hahha.. writting friendster testimonials and all. and many other sweet ppl..
3rdly.. ahhahahaha. tuition!!!! today was the best A maths tuition i've every had... 1.24pm till 5pm. ahha. they hide the cake in another room.. then nat dragged me down for break.. then surprised me. hahaha. man. u should see how crafty they ar lar.. every movement i made made them panicky... hahhaha...i had tofu man.. like tofu with choco syyrup and m$ms. ahah. tasted wired.. but very sweet. ahha. yay. and the cake was by mrs yee!!!. ahhaha. yay.. geraldyne, nat, sara, amanda, theresa and mrs yee!! thank u..
i'm v happy.
ahha.. first time.. 2 v successful surprises.. it gets better every yr. haha.
God is soo gd. like everyday. he sends ppl.. then rigth.. God is also super creative lar.. His plans are super solid. haha. if only pb can have such perfect plans..
and guess wad.. I HAVE NO PAPER TODAY.. whole time of prelims.. have paper.. but i dun't have today!! whoo-hoo. ahha. but tmr's a maths lar.. so yar.. haha.
NC-16 movies.. restricted 16 places like pool and all.. ahaha. if i go there. ahhahaha. yay.. whahahahha.
this yr.. somehow..
i wasn't in a mood of festivity.. exams? haha. i dunno..
the best present would be to hold dad's hand again and presing his mouth and plucking his leg hair, curlig his hair, cutting his shirt, playing with his saw, helping him to knock a nail straight in, teaching me d&t stuff... man. dad ar.. y are u so talented?
haaha.
oh yes.. its like thunder and all and massive lightning now.. out side.. thank God that i could took some photos of lightning.. wasn't really that impressive but well,, ahhah... there was light in darkness..
thank u for today everyone. those who acutally could rmbr or noted my bday. :). thank God that my bday is during exams? coz i think helped me to cheer up. ahha. and yes.. thank God that i didn't have chicken pox today!. ahhahaha. yay!
hahaha. i'm off to take more photos!! thank u God and ppl. =D
Monday, September 19, 2005
.burnt.
inside out.
morning. mum woke me up. apparently.. she comes in and.. "MARIAN!" in that you-are-late-for-sch kinda of tone. so i woke up, vertically straight, with my ventricle muscles pumping like mad. wide awake and irritated.
i told her to wake me up as my 2nd plan for the exams. thank God she doesn't does this everyday.. for the whole day, my heart was literally badly shaken. siaow one can.
physics paper. i felt so so so stupid. i was confused with the units.. wads tonnes in kg?? argh. then all the formula all mixed up. man. i'm gonna buck my physics up like mad. its one of the desired l1r5 sub for me. seriously.. paper 1.. 50% worng. confrim. ans checked with friends all wrong. i think too much. paper 2, needless to say.. dearest tchr said 5mins left.. when it was 10.. and i haven proceed to my last q... freak out. again, my heart was shaken.
.burnt
haha. during th paper.. it started to rain. thought of zen.. u'll see why later.....
officially stepped down?
i guess we are.. ahha. we're fading off silently.. rmbred my dearest juniors n trainees. today.. the new excos are being inroduced to the school. so nice right. ahha. our batch was working in silence from aug till feb lor. haha. anyways.. doesn't matter. i have this feeling, this batch has alot of potential waiting to be used to excel till they rock the sch in a disciplined manner. i hope. was v proud of them of how they carried themselves when they're being intorduced. haha. some of them seemed v scary. gd gd gd. i love it man. let's pray for transparency and love in the board yea.
all the best exco06! continue to bond ties internally n externally as well k. *rmbr to put others b4 urself. to me.. that's the most impt quality apart from being confident and all. and pls.. take passion k. if u have no passion in serving... although u like being an exco, pls dun force k. coz in times of turbalaces.. its the passion and motivation that drives u to keep gg. ahah. (sounding like steph.. ahhaa. jk. ahha. :p) haha.
okok. yes. enough of prefects. gonna miss being one. praying for ans to see if God calls me to b a counscillor in JC if i make it there..
so yes. rained in the morning.. plans for wild wild wet!!! was worrying.hahaha. so zenny and i ate in sch.. then headed to pasir ris. thank God for supa good weather.
had alot of fun rides and spending time together. was actually self procliming that my bday is today.. coz tmr need to study for paper on wed. haha. i'm happy about it.. coz today i'm happy.. apart fromt e dreaded phy. papers.
and we're burnt. hahaa. that's nice. ahhahahhaa. yays. love zen. super great with her lar.. chats are nv endless, somehow. needed today man. so shiok. relax and relax and refreshed.
i thank God for today.
burnt.
pray for sara's piano results.... she kps saying she failed.. and she's kinda disappointed. pray for God's will n excouragement/
lorraine, leticia, lydia, shan hui, gary, john, mervyn, promo's. this time round all really trying v hard not to retain.. coz if retain.. syllabus changed.. abit jia lat. pray for strength.
o levels. a time of serious hardcore i-am-enjoying-it study process. this is to prevent the feelin of regret. and also.. is try too hard.. pray for reminders to take care. coz taking care of ursself is impt as well. many tend to neglect it.
- my friend who has lukemia.
tchr's daughter's classmate. pray for family situations..
thank God for gd governance. weather and strategic location for dearest singpaore.ahhaa. okok. i feel like thanking sang nila utama and raffles and mr lky. w/o them, i dun think i'll be here tying this thing.
lastly, for the sept babies! wheee... esp those who are struggling with exams and somehow forgetting ur birthday.... pray for time of refreshing and joy to flow!!
lastly, thank God for friends.
thank God for ppl who gave me choco cheese cake and sang a v happy bday song to me. felt so touched. this is one of the few successul surprises i've ever had. thank u. haha. yay. thank God for friends.
pray for tmr. and subsequent days. goona be packed with books. need enthuasim and absorbent mind. focus focus focus. hahaha..
morning. mum woke me up. apparently.. she comes in and.. "MARIAN!" in that you-are-late-for-sch kinda of tone. so i woke up, vertically straight, with my ventricle muscles pumping like mad. wide awake and irritated.
i told her to wake me up as my 2nd plan for the exams. thank God she doesn't does this everyday.. for the whole day, my heart was literally badly shaken. siaow one can.
physics paper. i felt so so so stupid. i was confused with the units.. wads tonnes in kg?? argh. then all the formula all mixed up. man. i'm gonna buck my physics up like mad. its one of the desired l1r5 sub for me. seriously.. paper 1.. 50% worng. confrim. ans checked with friends all wrong. i think too much. paper 2, needless to say.. dearest tchr said 5mins left.. when it was 10.. and i haven proceed to my last q... freak out. again, my heart was shaken.
.burnt
haha. during th paper.. it started to rain. thought of zen.. u'll see why later.....
officially stepped down?
i guess we are.. ahha. we're fading off silently.. rmbred my dearest juniors n trainees. today.. the new excos are being inroduced to the school. so nice right. ahha. our batch was working in silence from aug till feb lor. haha. anyways.. doesn't matter. i have this feeling, this batch has alot of potential waiting to be used to excel till they rock the sch in a disciplined manner. i hope. was v proud of them of how they carried themselves when they're being intorduced. haha. some of them seemed v scary. gd gd gd. i love it man. let's pray for transparency and love in the board yea.
all the best exco06! continue to bond ties internally n externally as well k. *rmbr to put others b4 urself. to me.. that's the most impt quality apart from being confident and all. and pls.. take passion k. if u have no passion in serving... although u like being an exco, pls dun force k. coz in times of turbalaces.. its the passion and motivation that drives u to keep gg. ahah. (sounding like steph.. ahhaa. jk. ahha. :p) haha.
okok. yes. enough of prefects. gonna miss being one. praying for ans to see if God calls me to b a counscillor in JC if i make it there..
so yes. rained in the morning.. plans for wild wild wet!!! was worrying.hahaha. so zenny and i ate in sch.. then headed to pasir ris. thank God for supa good weather.
had alot of fun rides and spending time together. was actually self procliming that my bday is today.. coz tmr need to study for paper on wed. haha. i'm happy about it.. coz today i'm happy.. apart fromt e dreaded phy. papers.
and we're burnt. hahaa. that's nice. ahhahahhaa. yays. love zen. super great with her lar.. chats are nv endless, somehow. needed today man. so shiok. relax and relax and refreshed.
i thank God for today.
burnt.
- my friend who has lukemia.
lastly, thank God for friends.
thank God for ppl who gave me choco cheese cake and sang a v happy bday song to me. felt so touched. this is one of the few successul surprises i've ever had. thank u. haha. yay. thank God for friends.
pray for tmr. and subsequent days. goona be packed with books. need enthuasim and absorbent mind. focus focus focus. hahaha..
Saturday, September 17, 2005
sparkling hope
new blog. revamp!! click it click it. aahah.. happily did till a sinful time of 445am. but still some parts not ready and alignment quite screwed. ahha. soon soon. hahah. its more complex and cooler than my blog. hmph. ahhaha. gonna change soon.
so basically.. i'll be back to hard core muggin mode again.. after 1 day of rest. ahha.
a sms.
Dear Prayer Warriors-a prayer request-weekend!.. pray for HsinChing's classmates 2 TJ JC1 boys. 1. ChongMing has lung cancer, out of action 2. KongYu recentlylost his mum suddenly-has 2 help raise younger siblings n clear J1 promo. Ley's pray 4 others tho.they r strangers, 4 when we do so, our own problems tend 2 dissipate.. HC n i wld like 2 garner prayer suppot fr. Sisters-in-Christ. Pray by name, n in faith, total healing...
so. prayer is unites, guides and strengthens. so impt right... its like u see ar.. those big bz ppl out there, take out precious mins juz to sit, be quiet and wait upon Him.
pray for my friend who wishes to be undisclosed. i'll name her friend. ahha. friend has lukemia and has 6 yrs to be stablised which will then deteriote. pray for friend to open up. i really do wish to see friend accept Chirst. friend's an islam person.. and is happy to be one, family also bellieves in it. so yea. pray pray pray.
-Luke 11:9 (New International Version)
9"So I say to you: Ask and it will be given to you; seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened to you.
the world is changing so fast lar..
is there such thing as a gift of dreams.. coz some dreams right.. came true. or tahter.. nigtmares. like the microchip in ppl one.. the exact same image was on the newspaper. freak out. then i dreamt abt smth. can't rmbr. then it happened.. so i mean like. if i dun use this 'gifts' it'll be taken away.. so..
issit a gift? scary can.
oh yea. man. i think i'm really gg crazy. on one of the study days at kfc parkway, i saw this old man, taking out money from his little rugged zipper-wallet.. and a few coins and a coupon to buy food. then he look so ah-pek-y and all.. then i started to cry.
man. siaow boh.
hahha. coz was thinking lar.. when dad was around, we ever thought of the possibiltes of dad buying food home. coz last time.. pri sch right.. afternoon session.. dad would buy A&W breakfast or mac breakfast for me home to eat in the morning after his tiring night shift.. he's aways buying things home for the family. nv fails to be the Bread winner. then back to that old man, was thinking lar.. if dad lives till that old. will he be like that? old ppl look so humble, fragile n peaceful. so sereen. can be freaky lar.. but still... their super fun to be with sharing their experiences. seriously.. books, tapes, radios can't tell u all these..
so.. ahha.. freaklily..
nxt day, studying agian.. then msged dad: "where are u. i miss u.. come back leh..". absoulte craziness. sending a msg to a line, knowingly that its down.
anyways. life. life life.
D-E-S-S-E-R-T-S or.. S-T-R-E-S-S-E-D?
"How would u live ur dash" a poem by someone.. its like.. u know.. when u die.. eg....... 1989- 2005.. the dash.. little line, huge contents. think about it.
how do u live ur dash
[EDITED] // DELETED poem DUE TO COPYRIGHT LAW. (: (14.03.06)
neat huh.
its ur choice lar. would suggest u live it happily..
so basically.. i'll be back to hard core muggin mode again.. after 1 day of rest. ahha.
a sms.
Dear Prayer Warriors-a prayer request-weekend!.. pray for HsinChing's classmates 2 TJ JC1 boys. 1. ChongMing has lung cancer, out of action 2. KongYu recentlylost his mum suddenly-has 2 help raise younger siblings n clear J1 promo. Ley's pray 4 others tho.they r strangers, 4 when we do so, our own problems tend 2 dissipate.. HC n i wld like 2 garner prayer suppot fr. Sisters-in-Christ. Pray by name, n in faith, total healing...
so. prayer is unites, guides and strengthens. so impt right... its like u see ar.. those big bz ppl out there, take out precious mins juz to sit, be quiet and wait upon Him.
pray for my friend who wishes to be undisclosed. i'll name her friend. ahha. friend has lukemia and has 6 yrs to be stablised which will then deteriote. pray for friend to open up. i really do wish to see friend accept Chirst. friend's an islam person.. and is happy to be one, family also bellieves in it. so yea. pray pray pray.
-Luke 11:9 (New International Version)
9"So I say to you: Ask and it will be given to you; seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened to you.
the world is changing so fast lar..
is there such thing as a gift of dreams.. coz some dreams right.. came true. or tahter.. nigtmares. like the microchip in ppl one.. the exact same image was on the newspaper. freak out. then i dreamt abt smth. can't rmbr. then it happened.. so i mean like. if i dun use this 'gifts' it'll be taken away.. so..
issit a gift? scary can.
oh yea. man. i think i'm really gg crazy. on one of the study days at kfc parkway, i saw this old man, taking out money from his little rugged zipper-wallet.. and a few coins and a coupon to buy food. then he look so ah-pek-y and all.. then i started to cry.
man. siaow boh.
hahha. coz was thinking lar.. when dad was around, we ever thought of the possibiltes of dad buying food home. coz last time.. pri sch right.. afternoon session.. dad would buy A&W breakfast or mac breakfast for me home to eat in the morning after his tiring night shift.. he's aways buying things home for the family. nv fails to be the Bread winner. then back to that old man, was thinking lar.. if dad lives till that old. will he be like that? old ppl look so humble, fragile n peaceful. so sereen. can be freaky lar.. but still... their super fun to be with sharing their experiences. seriously.. books, tapes, radios can't tell u all these..
so.. ahha.. freaklily..
nxt day, studying agian.. then msged dad: "where are u. i miss u.. come back leh..". absoulte craziness. sending a msg to a line, knowingly that its down.
anyways. life. life life.
D-E-S-S-E-R-T-S or.. S-T-R-E-S-S-E-D?
"How would u live ur dash" a poem by someone.. its like.. u know.. when u die.. eg....... 1989- 2005.. the dash.. little line, huge contents. think about it.
how do u live ur dash
[EDITED] // DELETED poem DUE TO COPYRIGHT LAW. (: (14.03.06)
neat huh.
its ur choice lar. would suggest u live it happily..
Friday, September 16, 2005
under exam condtions...[Prelims- so far..]
well well.. let's juz say last min studying is a BIG NO-NO.
Day 1- English Paper
was on 2/9/05..so state of mind wasn't at all stressed.. so performed my best.. ahaa.
wrote about Geylang.. and i'm very proud of what i could think of besides the red light district..
juz couldn't tahan the girls screaming in their classes esp adfter recess.
Day 2- Social studies & E maths p1
SS
- Governement became govemnet
- SBQ: spent 20 mins on q1a (what does souce A tells u abt).. 5 marks and wrote 1 whole page. time wasted.
- did essay venice =) studied the day b4. infact, started to read only the day b4 due to absence from sch coz of the poz.. praise God.
maths
- felt stupid. haha. couldn't ans some q lor. argh. thought paper ended at 11:57am.. but it was actually 11:20 am.
Day 3- Bio p1 and 2
- haha. veins from kidney becomes artery.
- thus, saying that vein carry urea.
- uretra became uterus and urethra (frm classmates)
- couldn't even tell the diff of a continous and discontinous reflex.
- trachea became larynx. larynx became pharynx.
- vili present in the trachea. haha.
tell u man.. i think the bio tchrs are gonna jump off the buliding. pray for them.
Day 4- Lit P1 and p2
- P1. hahaha. man. i didnt' study at all. whole essay no strong quotes. ahha.
- girl beside me was really restless.. i was onto my 2nd page.. couldn't help but had a glance of her.. her paper was only like about 5-6 lines. felt so qorried for her.
-i even quoted the word "very", haha. i'm so gonna score points.
- anyways.. mary became maryy.. dick became dic.. "heat became and obsession" became "heart was obession"
- p2.. ahha. even best.
- anyhow go and shoot my own quote from 'malvolio' "You are a good fool!"
- "orb like the sun" became... "orbits round the earth."
- " the more the fool, madonna, to mourn for you brother's soul, being in heaven" became..." you are a fool to mourn for ur brother who is in heaven"
- "it shines everywhere" became.."certainly everywhere"
- Q2) what are the troubles and unnecessary problems that Viola's disguise caused? (smth like that) ... was writting.. then.. hahahaha. i got so confused. ahha. coz it was smth like 4-6 confusion between 6 characters in one scene.. haha. so i was confused...
- therefore, Sebas became Cesario.. Malvolio was somehow in that scene... Fabian said Orsino's line.
ahahaha. so.... in conclusion, pray for the lit tchrs as well
=in total, 7 essays in about 3.75hrs.
Day 5- A maths p1 and Chem p2
- by then.. exam conditions gettin on me. ahaha. 2 heavy papers..
a maths
- skipped an 8 mark q.. upon seeing that its rel vel.
- sec c... wasted.. chose a q that i didn't know. ahhahahaha. man. missed 6 gd o' marks.
- time wasn't enough. since when it is.enough said.
Chem
- for the first time. i answered a few q.. usually.. i score about 13..15/100... for mye.. this time.. i'm confident of a more than 20m.. if lenien... should be about to get 30.
Day 5- E geog and Chem p2
- ok lar.. cou'dn't absorb the day b4.. resultin in crapping all the way..
- lucky e geog can crap.... crapped out a few pts..
chem
- was 40q.. at 27 q.. was almost dying. seriously.. the gym was super hot lar. so stuffy... then was faling asleep... couldn't think logically. haha. bad. bad. bad.
ok. yes. phase 1. zoinked already. and i caused the death of my pen. it gained life on a tue night.. and died this afternoon. *salutes it.* 2 days.
learnt alot these days. my level expection for my quality of work has gone down. gonna push it back up man.
wanna thank God alot alot. he sustained me through lar. coz i really last min study kinda thing.. so its like.. at certain chapts, i feel like studying.. these are the chpts that i came out.. and those that i juz dun feel like reading. didn't..
gd eg.. ss.. i only studied popluation and venice coz charissa asked me to help her.. then couldn't absorb merger.. ahaha. heng heng.. sbq was population.. essay was venice. man. God works wonders.
e geog too. was tryingt to absord agriculture.. couldn't.. and it wasn't one of my spotted topics.. somehow.. i kept trying to read and rread. over and over again.. till i was familar with it.. juz nice for the exam.. coz the manufacturing qs were turft. so i did agri. thanks God. Praise Him.
and also... friends.
there was about 4 msgs, coming in, in times of dryness. like was super saturated.. couldn't thinkg.. then *beep beep*
[ jia you! =) u can do it! rest well.... dun stress yea.. God's with u ]... such msg.. one superly hahahhaa one is by dearest ulrica liang zhirong.
[ go go power mugger! (: (to the tune of power rangers) ] hahhaha. man
one day at airport, died while studying chem. john somehow went to the airport too... with his friend. upon seeing me dead, he msg me.. across the table "jia you =)" ahhahaa. man.
God rocks.
everything is well taken care of. nice right.
have been eating alot.and i did not play my guit for like 11 whole days. ytd couldn't tahan.. haha. so whack ar.. haha. then composed a song in 10 mins. cool eh. hahaha. amazing how human work under examination conditions.
i wana work hard.
i'm gonna attain a surprise soon. i want it bad. gonna soar for it.
:) i'm a survivor!
Day 1- English Paper
was on 2/9/05..so state of mind wasn't at all stressed.. so performed my best.. ahaa.
wrote about Geylang.. and i'm very proud of what i could think of besides the red light district..
juz couldn't tahan the girls screaming in their classes esp adfter recess.
Day 2- Social studies & E maths p1
SS
- Governement became govemnet
- SBQ: spent 20 mins on q1a (what does souce A tells u abt).. 5 marks and wrote 1 whole page. time wasted.
- did essay venice =) studied the day b4. infact, started to read only the day b4 due to absence from sch coz of the poz.. praise God.
maths
- felt stupid. haha. couldn't ans some q lor. argh. thought paper ended at 11:57am.. but it was actually 11:20 am.
Day 3- Bio p1 and 2
- haha. veins from kidney becomes artery.
- thus, saying that vein carry urea.
- uretra became uterus and urethra (frm classmates)
- couldn't even tell the diff of a continous and discontinous reflex.
- trachea became larynx. larynx became pharynx.
- vili present in the trachea. haha.
tell u man.. i think the bio tchrs are gonna jump off the buliding. pray for them.
Day 4- Lit P1 and p2
- P1. hahaha. man. i didnt' study at all. whole essay no strong quotes. ahha.
- girl beside me was really restless.. i was onto my 2nd page.. couldn't help but had a glance of her.. her paper was only like about 5-6 lines. felt so qorried for her.
-i even quoted the word "very", haha. i'm so gonna score points.
- anyways.. mary became maryy.. dick became dic.. "heat became and obsession" became "heart was obession"
- p2.. ahha. even best.
- anyhow go and shoot my own quote from 'malvolio' "You are a good fool!"
- "orb like the sun" became... "orbits round the earth."
- " the more the fool, madonna, to mourn for you brother's soul, being in heaven" became..." you are a fool to mourn for ur brother who is in heaven"
- "it shines everywhere" became.."certainly everywhere"
- Q2) what are the troubles and unnecessary problems that Viola's disguise caused? (smth like that) ... was writting.. then.. hahahaha. i got so confused. ahha. coz it was smth like 4-6 confusion between 6 characters in one scene.. haha. so i was confused...
- therefore, Sebas became Cesario.. Malvolio was somehow in that scene... Fabian said Orsino's line.
ahahaha. so.... in conclusion, pray for the lit tchrs as well
=in total, 7 essays in about 3.75hrs.
Day 5- A maths p1 and Chem p2
- by then.. exam conditions gettin on me. ahaha. 2 heavy papers..
a maths
- skipped an 8 mark q.. upon seeing that its rel vel.
- sec c... wasted.. chose a q that i didn't know. ahhahahaha. man. missed 6 gd o' marks.
- time wasn't enough. since when it is.enough said.
Chem
- for the first time. i answered a few q.. usually.. i score about 13..15/100... for mye.. this time.. i'm confident of a more than 20m.. if lenien... should be about to get 30.
Day 5- E geog and Chem p2
- ok lar.. cou'dn't absorb the day b4.. resultin in crapping all the way..
- lucky e geog can crap.... crapped out a few pts..
chem
- was 40q.. at 27 q.. was almost dying. seriously.. the gym was super hot lar. so stuffy... then was faling asleep... couldn't think logically. haha. bad. bad. bad.
ok. yes. phase 1. zoinked already. and i caused the death of my pen. it gained life on a tue night.. and died this afternoon. *salutes it.* 2 days.
learnt alot these days. my level expection for my quality of work has gone down. gonna push it back up man.
wanna thank God alot alot. he sustained me through lar. coz i really last min study kinda thing.. so its like.. at certain chapts, i feel like studying.. these are the chpts that i came out.. and those that i juz dun feel like reading. didn't..
gd eg.. ss.. i only studied popluation and venice coz charissa asked me to help her.. then couldn't absorb merger.. ahaha. heng heng.. sbq was population.. essay was venice. man. God works wonders.
e geog too. was tryingt to absord agriculture.. couldn't.. and it wasn't one of my spotted topics.. somehow.. i kept trying to read and rread. over and over again.. till i was familar with it.. juz nice for the exam.. coz the manufacturing qs were turft. so i did agri. thanks God. Praise Him.
and also... friends.
there was about 4 msgs, coming in, in times of dryness. like was super saturated.. couldn't thinkg.. then *beep beep*
[ jia you! =) u can do it! rest well.... dun stress yea.. God's with u ]... such msg.. one superly hahahhaa one is by dearest ulrica liang zhirong.
[ go go power mugger! (: (to the tune of power rangers) ] hahhaha. man
one day at airport, died while studying chem. john somehow went to the airport too... with his friend. upon seeing me dead, he msg me.. across the table "jia you =)" ahhahaa. man.
God rocks.
everything is well taken care of. nice right.
have been eating alot.and i did not play my guit for like 11 whole days. ytd couldn't tahan.. haha. so whack ar.. haha. then composed a song in 10 mins. cool eh. hahaha. amazing how human work under examination conditions.
i wana work hard.
i'm gonna attain a surprise soon. i want it bad. gonna soar for it.
:) i'm a survivor!
Thursday, September 15, 2005
Saturated.
synapse will set me to crystallise back.
* incisors are showing :D *
larynx will diffuse more stuff here soon.
* incisors are showing :D *
larynx will diffuse more stuff here soon.
Saturday, September 10, 2005
Study + Adults. wahhahaha. BOOM.
ahhah. ok. today i did not go for teens time as i had to study. didn't even go for dance.
i was woken up by a lovely phone call, by dearest Rachel who came back to sg for hols. she migrated for study. ahha. so sweet. miss her k. kinda regret a little that i didn't go for dance today and missed seeing her. she's gg back on TUESDAY. right. some hols. hahaha. man. miss dancing with her lar.
ok.
so happyily, i wanted to do work. then my block downstairs.. the community ppl start setting up for the nite's karaoke occasion, commerating the mooncake festival. they had sound tests which got me irritated.
ahha.
final decision: immediately packed my stuff, changed and headed to parkway to study. what a relief. record time man. took me only abt 10 mins to get out of the house.
haha. ok. at parkway.... was studying.. but soon, head was tired. so hahah. here comes an interesting msg and conversation after studying loads and tons of happy-bio.: (everything almost the same as msg)
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uncle/dr. peter moey: How's your nail? ok? :-)
me: Hey! haha. Yup. Thanks. Did a read up. Haha. So i did my own incision in a fast food restaurant. Haha. Like some bio prac. haha....
him: That's dangerous acutally. Cos you may be introducing bacteria and cause cellulitis. Watch for redness and warmth and swelling and increasing pain. These are signs of infection. You might as well start learning since you gonna be a dr too :-) the 5th sign is loss of function. But that's the late sign. Next time at least let Kok Chi or me see ok? :( if your finger infected and amputated, who play my song? :P haha. only care about my song. kidding la. But infection and losing finger is not kidding :( See you. :)
me: HAHa.. No worries. my finger is nice now. Haha. it was really horrendous last time. Now it looks nice :) haha. thanks.
him: ok. Be careful then Dun cut too deep next time ok? See ya. Btw... where got people ownself say her finger NICE one? Bu yao liao... haha. :P Glad its fine.
---
ahhah. tell u ar. could have died laughing in silence. haha. if u know uncle peter moey. after reading this, i'm sure u're gonna laugh. Doctor and Uncle. picture it. ahha.
okok. so when i went home. the karaoke is still on.. so i decided to msg mrs teo. ahahha :
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me: Heys Does ur dad like 2 participate in cc stuff? Coz my block downstairs got mass karaoke... so it should be easy for me 2 spy on him from bird's eye view. haha. :)
her: Ya. He is K-poh No. 1. ACS scout- can sing well.
---
ahhaha. another adult who made me laugh at my phone lar. ahhahaha. buay tahan k.. its a little bit of an inside joke lar. but stilll laughable for u guys right. ahhaha.
and then, God rocks man..
aunty angela is fine now!!! the docs are shocked and pleasatly surprised,coz everything's gg back norm. Praise God man. whoaoohhooo.. ahha.
too high liao. sudden tiredneess. nite.
i was woken up by a lovely phone call, by dearest Rachel who came back to sg for hols. she migrated for study. ahha. so sweet. miss her k. kinda regret a little that i didn't go for dance today and missed seeing her. she's gg back on TUESDAY. right. some hols. hahaha. man. miss dancing with her lar.
ok.
so happyily, i wanted to do work. then my block downstairs.. the community ppl start setting up for the nite's karaoke occasion, commerating the mooncake festival. they had sound tests which got me irritated.
ahha.
final decision: immediately packed my stuff, changed and headed to parkway to study. what a relief. record time man. took me only abt 10 mins to get out of the house.
haha. ok. at parkway.... was studying.. but soon, head was tired. so hahah. here comes an interesting msg and conversation after studying loads and tons of happy-bio.: (everything almost the same as msg)
-
uncle/dr. peter moey: How's your nail? ok? :-)
me: Hey! haha. Yup. Thanks. Did a read up. Haha. So i did my own incision in a fast food restaurant. Haha. Like some bio prac. haha....
him: That's dangerous acutally. Cos you may be introducing bacteria and cause cellulitis. Watch for redness and warmth and swelling and increasing pain. These are signs of infection. You might as well start learning since you gonna be a dr too :-) the 5th sign is loss of function. But that's the late sign. Next time at least let Kok Chi or me see ok? :( if your finger infected and amputated, who play my song? :P haha. only care about my song. kidding la. But infection and losing finger is not kidding :( See you. :)
me: HAHa.. No worries. my finger is nice now. Haha. it was really horrendous last time. Now it looks nice :) haha. thanks.
him: ok. Be careful then Dun cut too deep next time ok? See ya. Btw... where got people ownself say her finger NICE one? Bu yao liao... haha. :P Glad its fine.
---
ahhah. tell u ar. could have died laughing in silence. haha. if u know uncle peter moey. after reading this, i'm sure u're gonna laugh. Doctor and Uncle. picture it. ahha.
okok. so when i went home. the karaoke is still on.. so i decided to msg mrs teo. ahahha :
-
me: Heys Does ur dad like 2 participate in cc stuff? Coz my block downstairs got mass karaoke... so it should be easy for me 2 spy on him from bird's eye view. haha. :)
her: Ya. He is K-poh No. 1. ACS scout- can sing well.
---
ahhaha. another adult who made me laugh at my phone lar. ahhahaha. buay tahan k.. its a little bit of an inside joke lar. but stilll laughable for u guys right. ahhaha.
and then, God rocks man..
aunty angela is fine now!!! the docs are shocked and pleasatly surprised,coz everything's gg back norm. Praise God man. whoaoohhooo.. ahha.
too high liao. sudden tiredneess. nite.
Friday, September 09, 2005
Prayer
yep.. juz implented the title. ahaha.assist organisation.
today got banged by 2 very urgent requests... so prayer warriors.. read on..
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"Hi all. Please keep angela lim n prayer. Dengue fever. There are signs of strain on her liver, n bloog count is down to 64. If 50, must ward. Pls pass this on."
-
"
Very urgent!
Just got a call from the travel agent yesterday that TG Office has decided to cancel the TG 422 from SIN to BKK due to low passenger load (which I don't believe).
This will affect those travelling on 23 Nov (Nigel and Eveleen) and on 27 Nov (all the doctors and Marian).
I request the agent to make an appeal because it will affect those travelling on 27 Nov gravely. My plan is that the doctors have to reach Mehmon by 1.30 pm latest to cope with the expected large numbers of patients on 27 Nov as it would be a Sunday cum Thanksgiving service (so the crowd will certainly be large) and also for Kok Chi to brief the incoming doctors beofre he leaves the next day.
Moreover if the doctors now have to take the later flight TG 402, the next connecting flight to Chiangrai, TG 140 will only enable the doctors to reach Mehmon about 7 pm and our three doctors from first half will work extra hard to cope with the crowd.
I have requested the travel agent to appeal to TG HQ on the basis that we have book the TG 422 well ahead of their announcement to cancel the TG 422 flight only recently. The request is that the TG 132 to Chiangrai should be delayed a little while until the TG 402 arrives at Bkk and our doctors can hurry to catch the TG 132 which has only a window of less than 30 mins between departure.
The travel agent will go to TG office to appeal to the management for consideration on Monday, 12 Sep 05
Please ask the team members to pray for this situation will be under control.
James
"
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Mrs. Teo's dad also tio Dengue. so pray for him as well.
Matthew 18:19, (New International Version)
19"Again, I tell you that if two of you on earth agree about anything you ask for, it will be done for you by my Father in heaven.
pray for all o level takers... never to give up coz i guess some of my friends has already did. pray for restoration and health.
pray that as Christians, we won't take God's love for granted and also still spend time with God even though books seem to be our life during this point of time.
just for today, i thank God for abby, steph and mrs teo.
pray also for st.andrew's sec rugby team who's in malaysia. despite unfavourable results, pray for gd experience, team bonding and safe jouney back home.
pray for cassy who's back at NY. pray for diligence and steadfast mind. pray for her to be steady solid testimony of God's joyness. yea.
and finaly. pray for SINGAPORE. coz seriously, i guess the cracks we're all experience is due to the circle line. and my house downstairs, the cracks are like whoa and scary lar. so yea. so i think those cracks might have the potential to accumulate water and breed mosquito, resulting in dengue fever.
juz pray for wise decision and gd governance.
till then! off.
so yes. keep fighting on prayer warriors.
today got banged by 2 very urgent requests... so prayer warriors.. read on..
-
"Hi all. Please keep angela lim n prayer. Dengue fever. There are signs of strain on her liver, n bloog count is down to 64. If 50, must ward. Pls pass this on."
-
"
Very urgent!
Just got a call from the travel agent yesterday that TG Office has decided to cancel the TG 422 from SIN to BKK due to low passenger load (which I don't believe).
This will affect those travelling on 23 Nov (Nigel and Eveleen) and on 27 Nov (all the doctors and Marian).
I request the agent to make an appeal because it will affect those travelling on 27 Nov gravely. My plan is that the doctors have to reach Mehmon by 1.30 pm latest to cope with the expected large numbers of patients on 27 Nov as it would be a Sunday cum Thanksgiving service (so the crowd will certainly be large) and also for Kok Chi to brief the incoming doctors beofre he leaves the next day.
Moreover if the doctors now have to take the later flight TG 402, the next connecting flight to Chiangrai, TG 140 will only enable the doctors to reach Mehmon about 7 pm and our three doctors from first half will work extra hard to cope with the crowd.
I have requested the travel agent to appeal to TG HQ on the basis that we have book the TG 422 well ahead of their announcement to cancel the TG 422 flight only recently. The request is that the TG 132 to Chiangrai should be delayed a little while until the TG 402 arrives at Bkk and our doctors can hurry to catch the TG 132 which has only a window of less than 30 mins between departure.
The travel agent will go to TG office to appeal to the management for consideration on Monday, 12 Sep 05
Please ask the team members to pray for this situation will be under control.
James
"
-
Mrs. Teo's dad also tio Dengue. so pray for him as well.
Matthew 18:19, (New International Version)
19"Again, I tell you that if two of you on earth agree about anything you ask for, it will be done for you by my Father in heaven.
pray for all o level takers... never to give up coz i guess some of my friends has already did. pray for restoration and health.
pray that as Christians, we won't take God's love for granted and also still spend time with God even though books seem to be our life during this point of time.
just for today, i thank God for abby, steph and mrs teo.
pray also for st.andrew's sec rugby team who's in malaysia. despite unfavourable results, pray for gd experience, team bonding and safe jouney back home.
pray for cassy who's back at NY. pray for diligence and steadfast mind. pray for her to be steady solid testimony of God's joyness. yea.
and finaly. pray for SINGAPORE. coz seriously, i guess the cracks we're all experience is due to the circle line. and my house downstairs, the cracks are like whoa and scary lar. so yea. so i think those cracks might have the potential to accumulate water and breed mosquito, resulting in dengue fever.
juz pray for wise decision and gd governance.
till then! off.
so yes. keep fighting on prayer warriors.
Wednesday, September 07, 2005
my testimony
hhhaa. today while suddenly, noticed my right hand the middle finger was again, painful. and it was red, purple and white-ish in the center... so to perform my own treatment in a fast food restaurant, i split open my nail fold to attempt and examine it. lo and behold, while, pal-yellowish pus ooze out literally.
and yes, i was freaked out.
so i msged dr peter.. ahhaha. describing my situation.. ahhaa. and pro-lly replied, "sounds like paronychia. prob infected. need some antibiotics. if caused by ingrown nail, should get it excised. if got fever and unwell, should go hospital. need to xray, if got recent trauma. How? :-)"
haha. i only understood 40% of the msg. ahah. so i was telling him that the pus came out and all... and he replied that its God's grace.. self incision and drainage.. smth like that. haha.
or.......
Definition: Incision and drainage, or I&D, is a common treatment for skin infections and abscesses. An infection with pus, or abscess, does not heal well on its own or even with antibiotics. The pus must be drained to promote healing.
An I&D is performed by first numbing the area with local anesthetic. Unfortunately local anesthetic is not as effective in an abscess as it is in normal skin. Sometimes an I&D is performed without local anesthetic to reduce the number of sticks. A scalpel is inserted into the skin overlying the pus and the pus is drained. Many abscesses have pockets of pus that must be broken up to release all of the pus.
Sometimes a wick, usually a piece of gauze or gauze tape, is placed in the drained abscess to keep the skin from closing. This allows the wound to continue to drain as it heals from the inside out.
wouldn't want to think of it man... ahhah...
seriously. at the back of my head... one thing was PRELIMS!! how how how. painful fingers.. how to write fast?
bowling!??!??!/.. coz for bowling.. ur right middle finger gotta be strong and withstand pressure ahhahaa. right. and guitar. how how. haha.
so i realised that God is like whoa. He so super wise lar. was studying bio.. the heart.. ahha. God is really really wise lar. someone had to create all these to happen.
so back to the fingernail thing. ahha. pray..
http://www.eatonhand.com/img/IMG00039.htm mines the 6th picture. ahah. not my finger but that situation.
so need ur prayers..
God is so faithful. So will we.
holdin on..
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Paronychia (Nail Infection)
What is paronychia?
Paronychia is an infection of the skin next to a fingernail or toenail.
How does it occur?
The cutting or tearing of a hangnail or cuticle, or a splinter or thorn prick, can cause a break in the skin near the nail. Bacteria or a fungus can then get into the skin and infect it.
Paronychia may be acute or chronic. Common skin bacteria such as staphylococcus and streptococcus are the usual causes of acute paronychia, which is a sudden painful infection. Paronychia that develops slowly (chronic paronychia) is usually caused by a fungus, such as Candida, rather than bacteria.
You have a higher risk of having chronic paronychia if:
You have diabetes.
Your job involves a lot of exposure to water or chemical solvents. Examples of such jobs are housecleaning, nursing, food service, and dishwashing.
What are the symptoms?
At first the skin near the nail is:
red
irritated
swollen
painful.
If you have acute paronychia, the redness may get worse over a couple of days and a pocket of cream-colored fluid or pus may form. This pocket of infection is called an abscess.
The symptoms of chronic paronychia are milder than they are for an acute infection but they do not go away. If you have the infection for a long time, the nail may become thick and hard.
How is it diagnosed?
Your health care provider will ask about your symptoms and examine you.
How is it treated?
For an infection caused by bacteria your health care provider may prescribe an antibiotic. For a fungal infection, your provider may prescribe an antifungal cream.
If you have had the infection for a while and an abscess has formed, your health care provider may numb your finger or toe and then cut the pocket open to drain the pus. If the infection is beneath the nail, your provider may remove a section of the nail. Your provider may pack the wound with gauze to allow it to drain and heal.
How long will the effects last?
Usually it takes about a week for acute paronychia to heal. You may need to treat a fungal infection for several weeks with antifungal medicine before it heals.
How can I take care of myself?
The best time to take care of a nail infection is as soon as it starts to develop.
Wash the infected area with soap and water and rinse it thoroughly.
Soak your finger or toe in warm water or put a warm compress on the infected area. (You can use a washcloth that has been soaked with hot water.) This will help speed up healing.
Put an antibiotic ointment on the area and cover it with a bandage.
Once the infection has formed an abscess, then the only effective treatment is to cut open and drain the infection. You should see your health care provider to have this done.
It is safe to take nonprescription pain medicines if you are not allergic to them and have no other reason to avoid them (such as harmful side effects). If you are unsure about which pain medicine you can take, ask your health care provider.
How can I help prevent paronychia?
Do not pick at your nails.
If you want to push the cuticles of your nails back, use clean instruments and be careful not to push too hard.
Wear gloves if your work or daily activities put your hands at risk for getting scratched, poked, or irritated.
If you have nail infections often, be sure to get checked for diabetes.
Written by Tom Richards, MD
Published by McKesson Health Solutions LLC.
Last modified: 2003-03-12
This content is reviewed periodically and is subject to change as new health information becomes available. The information is intended to inform and educate and is not a replacement for medical evaluation, advice, diagnosis or treatment by a healthcare professional.
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hhhaa. today while suddenly, noticed my right hand the middle finger was again, painful. and it was red, purple and white-ish in the center... so to perform my own treatment in a fast food restaurant, i split open my nail fold to attempt and examine it. lo and behold, while, pal-yellowish pus ooze out literally.
and yes, i was freaked out.
so i msged dr peter.. ahhaha. describing my situation.. ahhaa. and pro-lly replied, "sounds like paronychia. prob infected. need some antibiotics. if caused by ingrown nail, should get it excised. if got fever and unwell, should go hospital. need to xray, if got recent trauma. How? :-)"
haha. i only understood 40% of the msg. ahah. so i was telling him that the pus came out and all... and he replied that its God's grace.. self incision and drainage.. smth like that. haha.
or.......
Definition: Incision and drainage, or I&D, is a common treatment for skin infections and abscesses. An infection with pus, or abscess, does not heal well on its own or even with antibiotics. The pus must be drained to promote healing.
An I&D is performed by first numbing the area with local anesthetic. Unfortunately local anesthetic is not as effective in an abscess as it is in normal skin. Sometimes an I&D is performed without local anesthetic to reduce the number of sticks. A scalpel is inserted into the skin overlying the pus and the pus is drained. Many abscesses have pockets of pus that must be broken up to release all of the pus.
Sometimes a wick, usually a piece of gauze or gauze tape, is placed in the drained abscess to keep the skin from closing. This allows the wound to continue to drain as it heals from the inside out.
wouldn't want to think of it man... ahhah...
seriously. at the back of my head... one thing was PRELIMS!! how how how. painful fingers.. how to write fast?
bowling!??!??!/.. coz for bowling.. ur right middle finger gotta be strong and withstand pressure ahhahaa. right. and guitar. how how. haha.
so i realised that God is like whoa. He so super wise lar. was studying bio.. the heart.. ahha. God is really really wise lar. someone had to create all these to happen.
so back to the fingernail thing. ahha. pray..
http://www.eatonhand.com/img/IMG00039.htm mines the 6th picture. ahah. not my finger but that situation.
so need ur prayers..
God is so faithful. So will we.
holdin on..
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Paronychia (Nail Infection)
What is paronychia?
Paronychia is an infection of the skin next to a fingernail or toenail.
How does it occur?
The cutting or tearing of a hangnail or cuticle, or a splinter or thorn prick, can cause a break in the skin near the nail. Bacteria or a fungus can then get into the skin and infect it.
Paronychia may be acute or chronic. Common skin bacteria such as staphylococcus and streptococcus are the usual causes of acute paronychia, which is a sudden painful infection. Paronychia that develops slowly (chronic paronychia) is usually caused by a fungus, such as Candida, rather than bacteria.
You have a higher risk of having chronic paronychia if:
You have diabetes.
Your job involves a lot of exposure to water or chemical solvents. Examples of such jobs are housecleaning, nursing, food service, and dishwashing.
What are the symptoms?
At first the skin near the nail is:
red
irritated
swollen
painful.
If you have acute paronychia, the redness may get worse over a couple of days and a pocket of cream-colored fluid or pus may form. This pocket of infection is called an abscess.
The symptoms of chronic paronychia are milder than they are for an acute infection but they do not go away. If you have the infection for a long time, the nail may become thick and hard.
How is it diagnosed?
Your health care provider will ask about your symptoms and examine you.
How is it treated?
For an infection caused by bacteria your health care provider may prescribe an antibiotic. For a fungal infection, your provider may prescribe an antifungal cream.
If you have had the infection for a while and an abscess has formed, your health care provider may numb your finger or toe and then cut the pocket open to drain the pus. If the infection is beneath the nail, your provider may remove a section of the nail. Your provider may pack the wound with gauze to allow it to drain and heal.
How long will the effects last?
Usually it takes about a week for acute paronychia to heal. You may need to treat a fungal infection for several weeks with antifungal medicine before it heals.
How can I take care of myself?
The best time to take care of a nail infection is as soon as it starts to develop.
Wash the infected area with soap and water and rinse it thoroughly.
Soak your finger or toe in warm water or put a warm compress on the infected area. (You can use a washcloth that has been soaked with hot water.) This will help speed up healing.
Put an antibiotic ointment on the area and cover it with a bandage.
Once the infection has formed an abscess, then the only effective treatment is to cut open and drain the infection. You should see your health care provider to have this done.
It is safe to take nonprescription pain medicines if you are not allergic to them and have no other reason to avoid them (such as harmful side effects). If you are unsure about which pain medicine you can take, ask your health care provider.
How can I help prevent paronychia?
Do not pick at your nails.
If you want to push the cuticles of your nails back, use clean instruments and be careful not to push too hard.
Wear gloves if your work or daily activities put your hands at risk for getting scratched, poked, or irritated.
If you have nail infections often, be sure to get checked for diabetes.
Written by Tom Richards, MD
Published by McKesson Health Solutions LLC.
Last modified: 2003-03-12
This content is reviewed periodically and is subject to change as new health information becomes available. The information is intended to inform and educate and is not a replacement for medical evaluation, advice, diagnosis or treatment by a healthcare professional.
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Tuesday, September 06, 2005
Happy Birthday!!
3rd- Valerie
5th- Jasper
5th- Ray
6th- Eugene
10th- Aloysius
12th- Grace T.
14th- Bernice
16th- Su Zhen
17th- Avriel
17th- Soloman
21st- Ah Huang
22nd- William
23rd- Mr. Lim!
26th- Kimberly
27th- Andrew Lee
yup... if i missed any sept babys, its either that i did not see u when i was holding my phone or that it is very difficult to contact you. haha. ok.
miss the prep for chillin under the stars.. BUT... GUESS WAD!! 6 PPL recieved Christ and either 15 or 16 ppl redicated their lives to Christ! yay!! AMEN.
hmmm... i dunnno wad to blog.. but there's smth i've been thinking about for the past few months..
i realised that i'm not a close-friend kind of a person. i'm a person who brings ppl together.. like sara, zen, yl and all. these 3 are being intro to many ppl and all... love them alots. ya. back to the point. i cannot seem to relate to ppl. girls esp. girls like large masses, no. a few individuals, maybe yes. i duno how to put it.. but friendships that i bear are not like those wah-wah-sacrifical kind.
sometimes, i feel that i get misintrepreted that i like to hang out boys, when its the girls who told me to go with together with the grp, which is like not any of my priorities. anhhaha., honestly, marian does not have priority for friends. and i have to somehow admit, guys seem to understand me better, excluding professionals, literally. basically, to the mass, i might not be able to present myself properly. as many of u might have guessed, i'm like blunt and i do not phrase my words properly.
nicely put it, i'm straighforward. not nicely put it, i dun care about ppl's feelings. haha. which is at times, true. not say dun care but -it did not occur to me-. its smth i've gotta learn. ahha. after being an exco for one 1yr, i've become more of a voice-out person, instead of achieving what i want- to be more caring towards my friends. coz smths they are like so caring to me.. and its difficult for me to be super caring to them. i guess it's not in my nature?
and so.....
sometimes, i'll think that i dun fit in and all, i feel that ppl dislike me and all.. which lowers my self-esteem. and again, get heavily misinterpreted. i got like "reprimanded" at before. its more of a 'warning' with harsher tone? haha. see, i juz can't get my msg across. which eventually results in me, feelin left out and all. coz when i try to go with a grp, i feel out. and when i voice this out, i feel taht e friendship becomes fake. so its neither here nor there.
today was talking to glen while taking a break. we came to a conclusion that ppl have expectation for friends. once the expectation is not met, BA BOOMM.... self-pity flows in and dying to gain attraction, which i do admit, i was once like that.
somehow, being an exco elevates my self esteem again, and i really want to thank God for this opportunity. the 9 members have supported n encouraged each other to keep growing stroonger and stronger as a person. which i did.. which may lead to another negative trait....
i tend to think i dun need friends. hars. complex? when i come to this thought, my guitar comes in. i feel that in life, i juz need a few girl friends, brothers, family, my guit and defintely God, i'm able to survive happily. so its like independent kinda thing. so happily, i was settled.. untill....
my dad passed away. 1 pillar demolished. sunshine gone, more challenging for me to put on a bright cheerful smile. feeling of rejection somehow. then life changed. results drop, less focused and like change lor. its like man.. i didn't expect all these to happen. dad went up to be with bigger Dad. i should rejoice, be a better kid, and shine even brighter. but its seems like slime has covered this light. and yes, the counsellor, who was a tchr who taught me b4, said "marian! where's ur sparkle? i knew i had to see u sometime soon..." when i stepped into the room. hahha. she's cool lar.
so it all voices down to this simple, but yet hard-to-ans q, for me that is. to keep persuing stronger friendships? or to keep persuing my dreams and goals. a model ans would be both and all.. "like friends support u to help u achieve ur goal" and all.. but i find it turft.. with or without. its like neither here nor there kinda thing.
but now, i'm fine with banging hard on o levels, not really gg out wit friends. i'm not trying to say that caring for friends is to spend time with them.. but its more of a supporter encourager? man. complexcitiy man. haha.
i want to take psychology.. but like i wanna be doc. ahah. so i duno man.
but. i'm happy with where i am now. i hope. juz hope that my faith is strong enough to know that God is with me every time and any time when i need Him. that's ultimate and that's confirmed. no friend can replace God lor. don't u think so? omnipresent, omninicient, omnipotent.
and then again.. difficult for human.acutally.. come to think of it.. ahaha. i dun even have any target for friends. i duno how to put it in a not so practical way but.. i know that i have many old time friends which we're still in contact with. when i recieve those sincerely sweet msgs from ppl, my swollen heart smiled. this is something i must learnt to share with others .. the joy through friendship. yes. this is the essence that i'm lacking. the joy through friends. i can show God's joy in dance and many other stuff, but personally, challenging to show joy thourgh ppl.
God will help me. i thank God for stephanie, melanie, abby, sara, geraldyne. the super kc girls supporting me... and also many others. hopefully after we go seperate ways, we'll still be as close.
and in additon.. mrs tang today spend $119 on 8 pizzas for us. move her alot.
and i want to thank mrs teo.
haha. ok. if u read all those.. thank u thank u. ahah. coz i thin if u speed read or jump here and their readin my post, i think u wouldn't understand. ahaha. not ssay all will understand.. but whatever it is.. pray for:
- o level takers. discipline, preseverence is much needed.
- protection over SG for gd governance nad military forces, gd governance.
- church to be on fire and not grow weary,constant;y saving lives n reaching out.
- pray for healing of ppl who is having gengue.
okko. better go now. take care folks.
i'm missing cass already.
3rd- Valerie
5th- Jasper
5th- Ray
6th- Eugene
10th- Aloysius
12th- Grace T.
14th- Bernice
16th- Su Zhen
17th- Avriel
17th- Soloman
21st- Ah Huang
22nd- William
23rd- Mr. Lim!
26th- Kimberly
27th- Andrew Lee
yup... if i missed any sept babys, its either that i did not see u when i was holding my phone or that it is very difficult to contact you. haha. ok.
miss the prep for chillin under the stars.. BUT... GUESS WAD!! 6 PPL recieved Christ and either 15 or 16 ppl redicated their lives to Christ! yay!! AMEN.
hmmm... i dunnno wad to blog.. but there's smth i've been thinking about for the past few months..
i realised that i'm not a close-friend kind of a person. i'm a person who brings ppl together.. like sara, zen, yl and all. these 3 are being intro to many ppl and all... love them alots. ya. back to the point. i cannot seem to relate to ppl. girls esp. girls like large masses, no. a few individuals, maybe yes. i duno how to put it.. but friendships that i bear are not like those wah-wah-sacrifical kind.
sometimes, i feel that i get misintrepreted that i like to hang out boys, when its the girls who told me to go with together with the grp, which is like not any of my priorities. anhhaha., honestly, marian does not have priority for friends. and i have to somehow admit, guys seem to understand me better, excluding professionals, literally. basically, to the mass, i might not be able to present myself properly. as many of u might have guessed, i'm like blunt and i do not phrase my words properly.
nicely put it, i'm straighforward. not nicely put it, i dun care about ppl's feelings. haha. which is at times, true. not say dun care but -it did not occur to me-. its smth i've gotta learn. ahha. after being an exco for one 1yr, i've become more of a voice-out person, instead of achieving what i want- to be more caring towards my friends. coz smths they are like so caring to me.. and its difficult for me to be super caring to them. i guess it's not in my nature?
and so.....
sometimes, i'll think that i dun fit in and all, i feel that ppl dislike me and all.. which lowers my self-esteem. and again, get heavily misinterpreted. i got like "reprimanded" at before. its more of a 'warning' with harsher tone? haha. see, i juz can't get my msg across. which eventually results in me, feelin left out and all. coz when i try to go with a grp, i feel out. and when i voice this out, i feel taht e friendship becomes fake. so its neither here nor there.
today was talking to glen while taking a break. we came to a conclusion that ppl have expectation for friends. once the expectation is not met, BA BOOMM.... self-pity flows in and dying to gain attraction, which i do admit, i was once like that.
somehow, being an exco elevates my self esteem again, and i really want to thank God for this opportunity. the 9 members have supported n encouraged each other to keep growing stroonger and stronger as a person. which i did.. which may lead to another negative trait....
i tend to think i dun need friends. hars. complex? when i come to this thought, my guitar comes in. i feel that in life, i juz need a few girl friends, brothers, family, my guit and defintely God, i'm able to survive happily. so its like independent kinda thing. so happily, i was settled.. untill....
my dad passed away. 1 pillar demolished. sunshine gone, more challenging for me to put on a bright cheerful smile. feeling of rejection somehow. then life changed. results drop, less focused and like change lor. its like man.. i didn't expect all these to happen. dad went up to be with bigger Dad. i should rejoice, be a better kid, and shine even brighter. but its seems like slime has covered this light. and yes, the counsellor, who was a tchr who taught me b4, said "marian! where's ur sparkle? i knew i had to see u sometime soon..." when i stepped into the room. hahha. she's cool lar.
so it all voices down to this simple, but yet hard-to-ans q, for me that is. to keep persuing stronger friendships? or to keep persuing my dreams and goals. a model ans would be both and all.. "like friends support u to help u achieve ur goal" and all.. but i find it turft.. with or without. its like neither here nor there kinda thing.
but now, i'm fine with banging hard on o levels, not really gg out wit friends. i'm not trying to say that caring for friends is to spend time with them.. but its more of a supporter encourager? man. complexcitiy man. haha.
i want to take psychology.. but like i wanna be doc. ahah. so i duno man.
but. i'm happy with where i am now. i hope. juz hope that my faith is strong enough to know that God is with me every time and any time when i need Him. that's ultimate and that's confirmed. no friend can replace God lor. don't u think so? omnipresent, omninicient, omnipotent.
and then again.. difficult for human.acutally.. come to think of it.. ahaha. i dun even have any target for friends. i duno how to put it in a not so practical way but.. i know that i have many old time friends which we're still in contact with. when i recieve those sincerely sweet msgs from ppl, my swollen heart smiled. this is something i must learnt to share with others .. the joy through friendship. yes. this is the essence that i'm lacking. the joy through friends. i can show God's joy in dance and many other stuff, but personally, challenging to show joy thourgh ppl.
God will help me. i thank God for stephanie, melanie, abby, sara, geraldyne. the super kc girls supporting me... and also many others. hopefully after we go seperate ways, we'll still be as close.
and in additon.. mrs tang today spend $119 on 8 pizzas for us. move her alot.
and i want to thank mrs teo.
haha. ok. if u read all those.. thank u thank u. ahah. coz i thin if u speed read or jump here and their readin my post, i think u wouldn't understand. ahaha. not ssay all will understand.. but whatever it is.. pray for:
- o level takers. discipline, preseverence is much needed.
- protection over SG for gd governance nad military forces, gd governance.
- church to be on fire and not grow weary,constant;y saving lives n reaching out.
- pray for healing of ppl who is having gengue.
okko. better go now. take care folks.
i'm missing cass already.
Sunday, September 04, 2005
chillin under the stars..
after long hours and nites of preparation, tonight has finally come.
we're all having butterflies and stuff inside...
firstly, God rocks can.
it was like raining at around 3pm. so yes. panicky but stil having that faith that it is a passing rain.
then it stopped!
but aroun 635pm, it drizzle, big drops. freak out.. but then all was set up, the biamp, speakers, instruments were all up. frantically, we covered them with garbage bags, but still having that faith that it is a passing rain.
true enough, the nite was cool, breezy and chilln-y. yay. God rocks right.
the food. man. its like whoa. such a large spread. really appreciate those mamas and also the food com for being super efficient and busy and all. esp lydia, lynette, lorraine. really amazing how God provides.
then the deco. whoa k. for such a short period of time, limited man power, the results was way beyond expectations. so like 3Rs, conserving enviornment and really well-y decorated.
the logistics. amazing. the lights we in. the basketball lights were on too. everything was lited. table candles and all. the sound was above my expectation... given such limited resources, manpower and knowledge. its like wah lar.
the band. yay.. am happy there there's no makor screw ups.. just alittle prob witht he sounds only. but given the fact that we only had half a practice out therewere, it was like amazing to see such a little of a quality coming from COA.
the ppl. yep. hopefully they are happy and had a nice time chillin out. pray that well, ppl came to know God.. and also feel that there's more to just the end of the road.
but above all. God has kept us. Jasper and Dennis are lookin great today. although Agnes wasn't arond, there were photographers to capture the imgaes for her. and also... God is constantly supporting us today. some were tired out from running here and there. there's dance prac also.. for tmr's ss tchrs day service..so its like whoa. God gives us strength.
i guess this event has brought the church closer as one, and grooming us with the attitude of serving and never expecting to recieve anything. ppl are juz so happy helpin out. everyone has a part to play lor... big or small, its still super significant.
i juz that God for such a 4P DAY. ahha. (Protected, Provided in Potong Pasir) .ahhaha. right.
i've taken home many valuable lessons and experience.
do hope to see more events involving the inro-ing of God to many..
but just something to learn from, today smth was lacking.. couldn't really identify specially.... but like the Word wasn't like fully spread? i dunno how to explain... juz feel that we can do better in making the guests feel more at home and leting God's abundant love to flow more freely through us.
yep. after today. no more all these. tmr my last thing is to do the dance and finish up the pray wall. pray that for dance, coz i only prac the dance 2 times... pray for a miracle tmr. ahaha. and also, the energy and time to finish the pray wall.. and then.. FULL STOP. heading straight to muggin.haha.
starting like 1 wk b4 prelims. freaky.
3rd September 2005. a day i would nv forget.
the food!!!
the night.
the younger band..
they call this the 'old man band' or aka gold 95fm band.
preparation.. yippee... sun sun
refresh. title. ahha.
we're all having butterflies and stuff inside...
firstly, God rocks can.
it was like raining at around 3pm. so yes. panicky but stil having that faith that it is a passing rain.
then it stopped!
but aroun 635pm, it drizzle, big drops. freak out.. but then all was set up, the biamp, speakers, instruments were all up. frantically, we covered them with garbage bags, but still having that faith that it is a passing rain.
true enough, the nite was cool, breezy and chilln-y. yay. God rocks right.
the food. man. its like whoa. such a large spread. really appreciate those mamas and also the food com for being super efficient and busy and all. esp lydia, lynette, lorraine. really amazing how God provides.
then the deco. whoa k. for such a short period of time, limited man power, the results was way beyond expectations. so like 3Rs, conserving enviornment and really well-y decorated.
the logistics. amazing. the lights we in. the basketball lights were on too. everything was lited. table candles and all. the sound was above my expectation... given such limited resources, manpower and knowledge. its like wah lar.
the band. yay.. am happy there there's no makor screw ups.. just alittle prob witht he sounds only. but given the fact that we only had half a practice out therewere, it was like amazing to see such a little of a quality coming from COA.
the ppl. yep. hopefully they are happy and had a nice time chillin out. pray that well, ppl came to know God.. and also feel that there's more to just the end of the road.
but above all. God has kept us. Jasper and Dennis are lookin great today. although Agnes wasn't arond, there were photographers to capture the imgaes for her. and also... God is constantly supporting us today. some were tired out from running here and there. there's dance prac also.. for tmr's ss tchrs day service..so its like whoa. God gives us strength.
i guess this event has brought the church closer as one, and grooming us with the attitude of serving and never expecting to recieve anything. ppl are juz so happy helpin out. everyone has a part to play lor... big or small, its still super significant.
i juz that God for such a 4P DAY. ahha. (Protected, Provided in Potong Pasir) .ahhaha. right.
i've taken home many valuable lessons and experience.
do hope to see more events involving the inro-ing of God to many..
but just something to learn from, today smth was lacking.. couldn't really identify specially.... but like the Word wasn't like fully spread? i dunno how to explain... juz feel that we can do better in making the guests feel more at home and leting God's abundant love to flow more freely through us.
yep. after today. no more all these. tmr my last thing is to do the dance and finish up the pray wall. pray that for dance, coz i only prac the dance 2 times... pray for a miracle tmr. ahaha. and also, the energy and time to finish the pray wall.. and then.. FULL STOP. heading straight to muggin.haha.
starting like 1 wk b4 prelims. freaky.
3rd September 2005. a day i would nv forget.
the food!!!
the night.
the younger band..
they call this the 'old man band' or aka gold 95fm band.
preparation.. yippee... sun sun
refresh. title. ahha.
Saturday, September 03, 2005
music rocks.
things seem to be getting better.. jasper's blood palates are like enough! dennis looks gd.. agnes can be discharge tmr!
har. the devil's being defeated.
and yes. i'm fine now. God helps..
i've found a new way to play my electric w/o amp!. ahha. yay.... using pedal, connect to headphones. cool huh! yay..
guess i'm gonna jam till morning.
haha. i'm excited for tmr. but still not prepared... pray for excellent weather. yes.
pray for gd time of fellowship.
i'm back. after tmr, i'll head straight to books all the way. lockin this com. so that i can't go online. hars.
i am happy again. yay. i shall be that cheerful marian to encourage. if i stumble and fall.... others would be affected. yesh. gonna brush everthing aside and enjoy life till sat.
things seem to be getting better.. jasper's blood palates are like enough! dennis looks gd.. agnes can be discharge tmr!
har. the devil's being defeated.
and yes. i'm fine now. God helps..
i've found a new way to play my electric w/o amp!. ahha. yay.... using pedal, connect to headphones. cool huh! yay..
guess i'm gonna jam till morning.
haha. i'm excited for tmr. but still not prepared... pray for excellent weather. yes.
pray for gd time of fellowship.
i'm back. after tmr, i'll head straight to books all the way. lockin this com. so that i can't go online. hars.
i am happy again. yay. i shall be that cheerful marian to encourage. if i stumble and fall.... others would be affected. yesh. gonna brush everthing aside and enjoy life till sat.
Friday, September 02, 2005
this is my 1000th post. it will not be a good one.
juz finish english paper.. was difficult. but i gave my best. so i dun think i will regret for this paper.
one thing today made me broke down. another tchr,.. told a few of us to drop like all our subjets kinda thing.."its for the sake of the school u see,..." and all. and also added, "u ppl have no right to choose what subjects u want.. coz it'll bring the school down..". to serve the sch does not mean to drop ur sub. i know what ccircumstances are u tchrs facing..however, katong convent. "a caring schhool that excels" how can it be neglected?
must u always do this to me?
its not the first time.
i want to thank Mrs Teo. for juz being a kc mother to me. i love her alot.
i thank God for this gift.
spritiual attacks are juz so 'rai'[ria['5r9i.. agnes broke her leg.. she's one of our singers. thank God the operation was successful... Dennis and Jasper are suuspects of dengue fever... o levels and jc promos ppl are like stress.. including n level ppl.. so which leaves about a small handful of about 20 pppl to do preparation.
and its tmr.
seriosuly, personally,. i'm not at all prepared. i'm fear-ing(if there's such a word). prelims are like nxt nxt wk. big O's are near. and today all these happen.
must i go back to the counsellor again?
and in addition. to all who are tagging regarding a minor issue which is now blown big, SAVE IT. seriosuly. if u want to tag.. i suggest u post a comment. save time space and less abuse will be done.
all u ppl are juz senseless senseless senseless. i feel a'u0[a5ua0 now. who cares man. all i want to do is to play welll for God tmr. nothing will stop me. my faith. its been questioned. and wadeva the reasons 88w is gong to nag/rant/piss me off or wadsoeva... i would say.. forget it..
i really dun want to give up anything. but u pppl.. u. u are just a big pathetic thorn in the flesh. i am gg to discriminate. i am so darn hurt. no one will ever understand me. perhaps. i'll juz go and see her again. and let the world condemn me. who cares. i love God. nothing will take away His love from me.
i hate this whole idea of pride pride pride.
it seems to be pushing me off.. the edge is so darn near. i canot tolerate such behaviour.
let's juz say that my self esteem is lowered. let's juz say i'm not happy with my self. let's juz say that i'm succumbing to my feelings. let's juz say get out.
its my 1000th post. should i juz close this blog. i go out. i ttry to be happy. but i'm not. this is not immature.
if u still can't see.. i'm ranting. i hope u ppl are reading inbetween the lines. i'm not at all, not at all near my norm. at the deep trough in my life. nothing can feel this.
i want my earthly daddy back. all would seem nice and clear. since u've left me, everythign's an upside down. my grades down. my happiness level decreased drastically. i need u back. i dun want to be alone. my heart is physically painful. no one can heal but the love of God. but earthly ppl juz have to question and doubt.no one will undestand me. i'm so low. and to 88w... go and rebut for all i care.get out.
this is a difficult situation for me to show God's love. i know i must show at all circumstances. but we're human. and i'm sry, i'm not a gd one. i juz cannot show love. i juz can't. i shall jzu go and see her again. i juz need someone to understand.
and 88w. ur tags. they are really... ioahr8a3u4p8. seriously. base-less. speak fr urself. if i seem that i'm saving face. so be it. i hate all these issus on pride. i hate it. u ppl. God die for u. and yet.. forget it. forget it forgeit..
i juz want to focus on saving more ppl into His kingdom and neglect all u ppl. if u ppl dislike me. so be it. i'm already shattered. it'll take long to glue it back and once again, be shattered again.
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roar. rah. ugh. argh. forget it. pointless, wasting energry and time.
juz finish english paper.. was difficult. but i gave my best. so i dun think i will regret for this paper.
one thing today made me broke down. another tchr,.. told a few of us to drop like all our subjets kinda thing.."its for the sake of the school u see,..." and all. and also added, "u ppl have no right to choose what subjects u want.. coz it'll bring the school down..". to serve the sch does not mean to drop ur sub. i know what ccircumstances are u tchrs facing..however, katong convent. "a caring schhool that excels" how can it be neglected?
must u always do this to me?
its not the first time.
i want to thank Mrs Teo. for juz being a kc mother to me. i love her alot.
i thank God for this gift.
spritiual attacks are juz so 'rai'[ria['5r9i.. agnes broke her leg.. she's one of our singers. thank God the operation was successful... Dennis and Jasper are suuspects of dengue fever... o levels and jc promos ppl are like stress.. including n level ppl.. so which leaves about a small handful of about 20 pppl to do preparation.
and its tmr.
seriosuly, personally,. i'm not at all prepared. i'm fear-ing(if there's such a word). prelims are like nxt nxt wk. big O's are near. and today all these happen.
must i go back to the counsellor again?
and in addition. to all who are tagging regarding a minor issue which is now blown big, SAVE IT. seriosuly. if u want to tag.. i suggest u post a comment. save time space and less abuse will be done.
all u ppl are juz senseless senseless senseless. i feel a'u0[a5ua0 now. who cares man. all i want to do is to play welll for God tmr. nothing will stop me. my faith. its been questioned. and wadeva the reasons 88w is gong to nag/rant/piss me off or wadsoeva... i would say.. forget it..
i really dun want to give up anything. but u pppl.. u. u are just a big pathetic thorn in the flesh. i am gg to discriminate. i am so darn hurt. no one will ever understand me. perhaps. i'll juz go and see her again. and let the world condemn me. who cares. i love God. nothing will take away His love from me.
i hate this whole idea of pride pride pride.
it seems to be pushing me off.. the edge is so darn near. i canot tolerate such behaviour.
let's juz say that my self esteem is lowered. let's juz say i'm not happy with my self. let's juz say that i'm succumbing to my feelings. let's juz say get out.
its my 1000th post. should i juz close this blog. i go out. i ttry to be happy. but i'm not. this is not immature.
if u still can't see.. i'm ranting. i hope u ppl are reading inbetween the lines. i'm not at all, not at all near my norm. at the deep trough in my life. nothing can feel this.
i want my earthly daddy back. all would seem nice and clear. since u've left me, everythign's an upside down. my grades down. my happiness level decreased drastically. i need u back. i dun want to be alone. my heart is physically painful. no one can heal but the love of God. but earthly ppl juz have to question and doubt.no one will undestand me. i'm so low. and to 88w... go and rebut for all i care.get out.
this is a difficult situation for me to show God's love. i know i must show at all circumstances. but we're human. and i'm sry, i'm not a gd one. i juz cannot show love. i juz can't. i shall jzu go and see her again. i juz need someone to understand.
and 88w. ur tags. they are really... ioahr8a3u4p8. seriously. base-less. speak fr urself. if i seem that i'm saving face. so be it. i hate all these issus on pride. i hate it. u ppl. God die for u. and yet.. forget it. forget it forgeit..
i juz want to focus on saving more ppl into His kingdom and neglect all u ppl. if u ppl dislike me. so be it. i'm already shattered. it'll take long to glue it back and once again, be shattered again.
;lsk fpoaij09rwoerjk;aorkj aorjko9usar098uwr 4owijt,.awjotwjt98w8 4jthu98w4uj;wje48w twaawsws8twsth8wsthj swsw'jo8tjsw8tj sjt'zj'tju 9swutj 8ru89tuer0[tuw09tu0w[rtuwr09tuwr0[9tuwr09tuw0r9tu0r9tu 09ut 09ur 09ut09tu 09rut0eru t09reut 0r ut]0r9u t0ru 0r9u u 0rw9urw09utrw09tu0r9ut[0r9utr09utr09tur[09tur09utr09tur09tur09t u09 rut r]09tu r09ut r]09utr0]9u tr09utr]09ut ]r9uet]09u]aur]0a9ut09urt]9ura]0 9aru]r t9ur ]r9u ]u9 au009ru9urw] 9r0u]rwu ]09urw09ut]0 rw9ut09 uwru0wr9ut0 9wrtu0]wr9 t09uwrt wr9u 09ru 09rwut ]09wru 09rwu9tur0ut90rwut0 09ut 09ut 09ru 09ut 09ruut0rut09r 90ur 90ut 09ur t90ru ]w9 9 90u 09ru 09ur 09ru 09ut]09 ur09turtuwr09tu0rw9utwr09ut0r9ut09wrut]09wrut09rutr09utr]ut 9ut r90u ]09ru ]09rut ]09rt ]9rt 9ru0 9]ur ]r09t 90u 09u ]9t urt90wu ]90u ]09u]09u ]9t]wu ]09u ]09wu t]w0r9ut0]9uw]09uwt 09uwt w]09rutw09u aw09]u t]a09u twa09]r]ua]09u]09ut]w09rut w]0r9ut]a0ut]0r9 u09ru ]09urw09u]r0w9ut0rw]9ut0r9wutwr09u t09rut ]wr09tu ]w09rut]w09ru09ut09ruw09ut 9ur 09ru]a09ur0w9 ]90ur0w u09u09ur]0a 9wu09wu t0r9u 09rut 09ru 0waru90rut 0r9u 09ut 09ru 09ru 09ur 09ur 09ru r9ut 09aurt0a9turjajtu90awu4t0a9w4tu0a9wtju09awtuj049wtuj0w9tuj
roar. rah. ugh. argh. forget it. pointless, wasting energry and time.
Thursday, September 01, 2005
ok. happy things first.
tchrs day.
didnt do any thing for the tchrs this yr. too bz. but.. the juniors and trainees... oh man. the prefects. they trully light up my life lar. they are like games, big cake, flowers, cards and all... for us. on tchrs day. and like some trainees cried..infact, majority of them. juniors also.
i dun want to leave kc.
and yes, had telematch this morning. and lessons. let's skip those in detail.
principal, mrs sng, mrs koh and mrs lim was part of representing our class too. yep. had great fun.
to all prefects. thank u for making my life in kc a more directed and learning process. thank u for reminding me the importance of friendship. thank u for the unteachable teachings. thank u for the love, joy and care. thank u board. kcpb05 have to rock this year.
i'm super duper touched by u guys this yr.
to all tchrs. thank u for tahaning my nonsense. cliche, but its true. thank u for juz giving ur best for our best. love u pppl lots. gonna miss wishing u tchrs a very happy tchrs day as a KCian. whatever it is. all the best yea.
ok.
after that. headed to church for practice. its our first time out there at the basket ball court.
man. its was really turf out there. 1 speaker down, then our amps are like cannot make it... so connected to the house... which we had to change all the modes and settings.
the modes that we keyed in had to be altered. argh. then it was like.. smths too loud.. sometimes cannot hear myself. and also.. as a audience, what u hear will not be what the musicians are hearing and that's a big big big challenge. the biamp ppl are at the side. so its like they're controlling the sounds based on the side.
really coouldn't control out pedal w/o out amps. sometimes.. like full-max vol for both, still couldn't hear. then if the biamp ppl turn up the vol, and i decrease mine, i would have to edit all the settings.
and this might be our last time practising at the basketball court.i duno how to put it in a nice way but.. i duno how to tell them that the electircs will take long to settle down.
fri and sat morng's prac will be at the century and mph respectively. then our settings will be like messed and all.
LORD. I PRAY FOR YOUR GUIDENCE UPON US.
I COMMIT THE BAND INTO YOUR HANDS.
I COMMIT EVERY SINGLE PERSON INTO YOUR MIGHTY HANDS.
in the midst, i wanna thank vinc, grace, eve, jov, char, lyndon, ravi, zhen and xyz. w/o u guys... man.. i dun wanna think abt it.
and lastly. ww8. i'm not in a nice mood now, to be honest. and u. who have to add fuel to the fire is getting irritating and intolerable. seriosusly. u think everything u say is corrrect? u judge n not think? now i call u to..."search ur heart". i am nice by not deleteing ur tags. because tags are meant to voice out opinions annd not condemn. u're juz like the soud system,..."as an audience, what u hear will not be what the musicians are hearing" and that will eventually be noise. noise pollution. and to me, u are abusing ur authority to tag my blog. i am disappointed by ur utmost behaviour and disrespectful behaviour.
i will be harsh. to you. because i feel that u ought to know all these. i've been nice. trying to empathsize. but u took advantage. and keep on going on reubbting.. thinkin that u are always right.
seriously. now u've put on this barrier. because of u, not wanting to disclose ur identity, i have to unwillingly, put on my guard infront of ALL my friends. because of u. u. u. u're giving me additional stress.
i would strongly suggest u to go read up on psychology, and learn how to understand. u need it badly. i'm sinfully judging u here now. because what u've said has added salt to the wound and mentioned.
go and rebutt for all u want. i am just venting all on you. this is because i am tired. and i would like to tell u all these, sincerely. since annonymous, i will juz blog post here.
this is ur wish. this is my say. get out. and i mean it.
argh. devil, i rebuke u in the name of Jesus. flee. All of us will wear that armour to fight against u. haha. and no, we will not give up. nothing will stop us. and never will we succumb to ur evil plans to tire us out. we will rock the earth and God will reign victorously in the end.
tchrs day.
didnt do any thing for the tchrs this yr. too bz. but.. the juniors and trainees... oh man. the prefects. they trully light up my life lar. they are like games, big cake, flowers, cards and all... for us. on tchrs day. and like some trainees cried..infact, majority of them. juniors also.
i dun want to leave kc.
and yes, had telematch this morning. and lessons. let's skip those in detail.
principal, mrs sng, mrs koh and mrs lim was part of representing our class too. yep. had great fun.
to all prefects. thank u for making my life in kc a more directed and learning process. thank u for reminding me the importance of friendship. thank u for the unteachable teachings. thank u for the love, joy and care. thank u board. kcpb05 have to rock this year.
i'm super duper touched by u guys this yr.
to all tchrs. thank u for tahaning my nonsense. cliche, but its true. thank u for juz giving ur best for our best. love u pppl lots. gonna miss wishing u tchrs a very happy tchrs day as a KCian. whatever it is. all the best yea.
ok.
after that. headed to church for practice. its our first time out there at the basket ball court.
man. its was really turf out there. 1 speaker down, then our amps are like cannot make it... so connected to the house... which we had to change all the modes and settings.
the modes that we keyed in had to be altered. argh. then it was like.. smths too loud.. sometimes cannot hear myself. and also.. as a audience, what u hear will not be what the musicians are hearing and that's a big big big challenge. the biamp ppl are at the side. so its like they're controlling the sounds based on the side.
really coouldn't control out pedal w/o out amps. sometimes.. like full-max vol for both, still couldn't hear. then if the biamp ppl turn up the vol, and i decrease mine, i would have to edit all the settings.
and this might be our last time practising at the basketball court.i duno how to put it in a nice way but.. i duno how to tell them that the electircs will take long to settle down.
fri and sat morng's prac will be at the century and mph respectively. then our settings will be like messed and all.
LORD. I PRAY FOR YOUR GUIDENCE UPON US.
I COMMIT THE BAND INTO YOUR HANDS.
I COMMIT EVERY SINGLE PERSON INTO YOUR MIGHTY HANDS.
in the midst, i wanna thank vinc, grace, eve, jov, char, lyndon, ravi, zhen and xyz. w/o u guys... man.. i dun wanna think abt it.
and lastly. ww8. i'm not in a nice mood now, to be honest. and u. who have to add fuel to the fire is getting irritating and intolerable. seriosusly. u think everything u say is corrrect? u judge n not think? now i call u to..."search ur heart". i am nice by not deleteing ur tags. because tags are meant to voice out opinions annd not condemn. u're juz like the soud system,..."as an audience, what u hear will not be what the musicians are hearing" and that will eventually be noise. noise pollution. and to me, u are abusing ur authority to tag my blog. i am disappointed by ur utmost behaviour and disrespectful behaviour.
i will be harsh. to you. because i feel that u ought to know all these. i've been nice. trying to empathsize. but u took advantage. and keep on going on reubbting.. thinkin that u are always right.
seriously. now u've put on this barrier. because of u, not wanting to disclose ur identity, i have to unwillingly, put on my guard infront of ALL my friends. because of u. u. u. u're giving me additional stress.
i would strongly suggest u to go read up on psychology, and learn how to understand. u need it badly. i'm sinfully judging u here now. because what u've said has added salt to the wound and mentioned.
go and rebutt for all u want. i am just venting all on you. this is because i am tired. and i would like to tell u all these, sincerely. since annonymous, i will juz blog post here.
this is ur wish. this is my say. get out. and i mean it.
argh. devil, i rebuke u in the name of Jesus. flee. All of us will wear that armour to fight against u. haha. and no, we will not give up. nothing will stop us. and never will we succumb to ur evil plans to tire us out. we will rock the earth and God will reign victorously in the end.
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