nobody's fool-this song applies to wad i'm feeling now..........

E
Fall back, take a look at me and you'll see
B C#m
I'm for real, I'll feel what only I can feel and if that don't appeal to ya
A
Let me know, and I'll go, cause I flow better when my colours show

E
And that's the way it has to be, honestly
B C#m
Cause creativity could never bloom in my room, I'd throw it all away before I lie
A
So don't call me with the compromise, hang up the phone, I got a backbone
E
Stronger than yours

E
La la la la la la
B
La la la la la la
C#m
La la la la la la
A
Yeah yeah yeah yeah...

E B
If you're trying to turn me into someone else
C#m
It's easy to see I'm not down with that
A
I'm not nobody's fool
E B
If you're trying to turn me into something else
C#m
I've seen it enough that I'm over that
A
I'm not nobody's fool
E B
If you want to bring me down
C#m A
Go ahead and try, go ahead and try

E
You don't know you think you know me like yourself
B C#m
But I fear that you're only telling me what I wanna hear
A
But do you give a damn, understand that I can't not be what I am

E
I'm not the milk and cheerios in your spoon
B C#m
It's not as simple here we go not so soon, I might have fallen for that
A
When I was 14 and a little more green
E
But it's amazing what a couple of years can mean

E B
Ohhhhhhh
C#m
Yeah yeah
A
Yeah yeah yeah

E B
If you're trying to turn me into someone else
C#m
It's easy to see I'm not down with that
A
I'm not nobody's fool
E B
If you're trying to turn me into something else
C#m
I've seen it enough that I'm over that
A
I'm not nobody's fool
E B
If you want to bring me down
C#m A
Go ahead and try, go ahead and try

E B
Ohhhhhh
C#m
Go ahead and try, try to look me in the eye
A E
But you'll never see inside, until you realize

E
Things are trying to settle down
B
Just trying to figure out
C#m
Exactly what I'm about
A
If it's with or without you, I don't need your doubt in me

E B
If you're trying to turn me into someone else
C#m
It's easy to see I'm not down with that
A
I'm not nobody's fool
E B
If you're trying to turn me into something else
C#m
I've seen it enough that I'm over that
A
I'm not nobody's fool
E B
If you want to bring me down
C#m A
Go ahead and try, try

E B C#m A
Yeah yeah, yeah yeah, ohhhhh

E B
But you'll be laughing out loud, if I played to my own crowd
C#m A E
Try

Go ahead and try

had good food today.....all free free free. after that.. went out wif the sec 1 go take picture.. lots of them.. ahha wasted money.. but had a gd time.. finally had a chance to interact wif them.. yup.. hahha. his is my day.. and today no sch... yar.. haah okok

yup.. juz came back from EMDD... its a gd show... i tot it'll be very bad.. but then.. its good. yup. dancers were great... the co ppl played very well for the 2nd piece... yup.. i saw mrs. boey's daughter.. really tall and chio.. yup.. then got alot of guys.. all waiting for the girls after the show... really good drama ppl, choir,.... etc... bian xin acted well... chang jin also.. yup.. today was great.. i worse a skirt and heels... ahha.. shocking.. yup;....

to you
yes, i know u know who u are.. juz read lar k.. i dun want to write to u... anyway.. wad u r experiencing now is how i feel last time... last time u were like this to me..... that's how i feel.. horrible. isn't it.. u called me a childish-immature girl when i restrict u i doing some things at times... well, i guess i shall stop showing u concern and stuff lar k... u say that they are spreading gossips and rumours about u... have u ever thought about wad to did to me now? pls lor... u are spreading gossips about ppl saying that they gossiped about u which is not true... no one is siding anybody here.. its getting alot of drama.. if u think that everybody is shunning away from u, have u thought about urself?... u are not always right.. no ones perfect.. i admit i have faults too... but the main concern is that so long u learn ur mistake and stop poking into matters can liao... k.. i know that u have been talking bad about me to others behind my back. well. this is me. it's ur problem if u dun accept... yes, in ur heart now, u are saying that i'm mean, childish, idiotic, shitty shit and stuff.. but i can't really be bothered.. i've got to tell u all this. but i duno how. i cannot make it a personal one becoz i dun think it will sound serious. i've been trying to accept u.. but... its affecting me because of ur attitude.. dun try to be cool k.. u can tell the whole wide world that i am mean to publish this pathetic blog.... i can't be bothered.. it'll juz affect u. urself and others. hello lor.. spare a thougt for others once can. its not always u and u alone..... i'm mad. really mad and frank. yes. i'm hurting u now. juz like u did once to me. betrayal., disloyalty.. crap.

ahha. today i did not sleep in class!.. ahahha.. yeahokok.. training supposed to start TODAY... but becos we cannot find coach.. so ya... haiz.. i duno when will we start lor.. okok.. so anyway... guess wad. we won the east zone colours award for team event. hahahh.. happy. duh. but theni also duno wad award is that.. ahhahaha.. so thursday. mr. lim treating us to seoul garden for free....the whole KC bowling team! yup. happy... hope to interact wif the sec1s more... haiz.. still as tired... but i guess i'l take time to rest... yup... so i will not be online so often liao....i mean its like evryday i'm online.. so ya.. shall concentrate... if have the ability to.. ahhah... i dun think so.. anyway.. take care.. and hope that we'll find a good coach soon..

tired as usual.. was late for church.. reached there about 845... hhahah.. ok. so anyway. i went out wif my church friends...hahaa. had fun... yup.. spent quality time studying... ahah.. shocked.. yup. ok.. i miss bowling... i think i forget all liao..

hahhaahha .. juz finished eating steamboat for dinner at home.... coz its my sister's birthday today........ and i actually bought her something! blech.... ahah.. okok..... ahhah.. yar... hmmm.. abit tired and sleepy now... these few days have not been sleeping enough.. i really dunno how to get energy. i slp early also tired, slp late also tired, slp juz nice also tired... haiz.. well, i guess i'm active.. ahaha. all da energy wasted.. okok i miss yishun.. i miss the ppl... i miss the place.. i really miss the regulars there... haiz....

wa.... so piengs.. i juz finished my new template.. finally.. after 1.5 h of confusion.. haiz.. now eyes abit blur.. now also dun feel like chatting.. yup. sorry ppl... i going to study at around 10... then dinner now... hiaz.. goash. ........my eyes!..
okok.. gues wad.. mr lim say that he might not be our teacher-in-charge liao le... kaoz.. i very sad lor.. i mean which teacher can replace him?... he very kind one lor... blech.. then not only that.. guess wad... changing coach too!.. wow.... how ar like that?.... i really like uncle ronnie lor.. they've tried asking uncle francis... but then he's too committed to tkgs... alamak.. so how???? how come after c' divisionship all become like that?... then somehow, it has become a recreational sport....wa kao lor.. coachless now.. and wad... supposed to have trng on tue... so how to train without a coach?... =l

hmm.. today is a day when all da teachers scold?.... yup.. mr chao.. is somehow a 'experienced' teacher relieveg mr pang for maths.. i say dun understand then he go and shout at me and nat,, haha he no patience.. finally.. i miss mr. pang.... hha.. shocked?... oh well, i've learnt how to treasure him.. ahha.. yea.. mr. pang.. pls come back.. i tell u ar.. i sure fail for maths lor.. i got no tuition somemore... then later after school.. ms tan lay kwan who thinks she is a gd and responsible teacher, come and find fault wif our class lor..haiz.... last year before the cheating case happen.. all da teachers practically adores our class.. now.. all of them hates our class and are biased... wad to do. haiz.. suffering in silence.. they think that a class cannot change for the better issit?.. pigy pork..anyway, as i was saying.. she everthing also want to nag.. gd aso nag, bad also nag.. not her class also scold.. nothing to do wif her also come and interferr... haiz.. kc teachers got problem one leh... i prefer my primary sch teachers.. i miz primary school.

blech.. starting to loose interest in blogging.. ahha..dun worry. i shall not stop.. haha.. *try.. yup.. been really tired as usual, slpn and slpin and slping... in class, in bus, everywhere.. haiz. gotta work work work....=l

ahha.. today went up on stage wif fafa, sam and joycelyn to get prize.. very weird... okok. anyways.. these few days have been slping in class lor.. not paying attention at all... how to go science stream?... blech.. not even touching my bks and all these.. then hw all lazy to do.. after i become so into bowling, everything seem quite lazy to me... as in.. i'm juz lazy to do anything constructive to my future.. blech.. pray for me k?.wanna have a sense of discipline... a sense of importance to my work and stuff k.. b;ech.. got to take care of myself liao.

ahhaa.ok. let me update...
saturday
was masters... shariffah played 8 games..she got 11th position in the end! cool ar.. then 3rd was clara lim-HIJ. she's so damn cute lor.. i luve her.. feeling like hugging her.. then 2nd was jazreel-MGS... then 1st was ai qing-RGS.. then later step-ladder..first was jazreeland clara.... clara won jazreel 198-138!.. jazreel was so angry lor.. her parents was like idiot lor.. then later clara and ai qing.... clara won... so she played wif her again.. then she won again.. and she became champion... clara is sec 1... she is really a fighter.. she dun care the opponents... she juz bowl her best..that's y she bowled on da wrong lanes and wrong turn.. ahha.. but she realised it b4 she could make her shot...she's really a strong girl..i think she'll me my role-model.. the person i admire most
sunday
after church.. went to st. theresa's convent to see charmain. then went for cosmic bowling.... cool man.. reallly.. at 8pm sharp.. all the lights went off.. then the lumenous lights went on.. it was cool.. too cool. then y skin opatch became ultra violet.. my ball become pink!.. ahha.. the many of us go put stickers, tapes to make our ball look nicer when it spins.. ahha.. cool night.. then bowled with uncle tony.. yup. really exhausted.. my last day at safra yishun....

ahha tornament is like over liao..... its a big day for shariffah tml.. she's going to masters tml.. ahha.. i can't .... shot of 7 more position leh.. ahha.. i've tried my best... for today's quartet events.. our team managed to get 6th...ahha i got a freaking score of 103 on the 1st game lor.. then 158, 178, 162. the in the 3rd game... i told regina.. that guy looks like mr jega... then she was like.. oh ya.. then i said... "like as if he will cum and support bowling"... ahahha.. then later it was my turn to bowl.. so i got a strike.. i yeah then turned and to my horror.. i saw mr jega behind me clapping... i'm like.... wad the... HOD leh...ahha.. he was like observing us... hahah. i was stunned... hahha anyway... my first game was atrosious.... mr lim tell me not to loose faith... so i pull it all through the next 3 games..if i was to get a 163 on the 1st game, i'm able to go into masters... stupid leh... then later... they were waiting for the results.. while the prefects from acs all go and be busy... alll so cute leh. haha... wad the. ok. that's not my point... so anyway.. mr lim say he has the overall schools results... then evrybody say wad wad wad...ahha then he ask every1.. " do uwant to hear the bad news or gd news 1st"... of course, expectedly, everybody said the bad news..then he said.. "u all didn't manage to get 5th".... then everybody was like.. wad...... how can we get 6th or 7th..then we ask.. wads the gd news.. he say.. "u all get 4th".... ahha then every1 screamed and yelled and was so excitied.. so happy lor... yay.. kc... 4th in national.. yay.. hahah so happy.. then later he go and treat us eat KFC.... it was considered as ex. lor.. yar.. so later went back to the pro shop and slack.... talk. haha.. then the sotng and alex become manicurerist?... ahha i duno lar.. but its a good day for me... yup yup... yay.. i'm happy?.. yes... happy... :)

1. HIJ
2. MGS
3. RGS
4. KC
5. SCGS
6. TKGS

finally able to come home at 230pm. aaha. kk.. guess wad.. mr lim said that lane 1 and 2 had diffucult oilings.. then i'm like ... wad the hell.. unfair leh. yesterday i really dunno wad was i playing.. really cannot find my strike point.. i have to get a 173 AVG.... yeep.. i said average... on friday in order to get into masters.. okok.. i wish to have 175, 189, 177, 167 on fri.. i really hope that happens.. oh wells.. hopefully

ok.. shit man.. wad a day for me.. i had doubles today.. and i pulled shariffah all the way down... all the way..we got 11th position wif an avg. of 144.9. she got 150.8 and i got 139.0.. see.. so how?... for some reason, i couldn't seem to find my strike point..... and plus.. there's a big very highly distracting wall... if i was to get 150.8 avg for today.. we would have 8th position.. haiz.. wad to do... the for the overall standings so far... i got 24th position.. (147.5).... still far from masters....... shariffah got 19th (151.1) and samantha got 20th (150.5)...... so now wad?.. i dropped all the way from 15th to 24th .. cool eh?...... today everybody was very bad except for sam and fafa... they were on fire wif da lanes.. sorry fafa.... okok.. today after that... we slacked for awhile.. and see some guys bowl... yar..then went home... if i wan to get into masters... i have to get 173 avg. on fri... yea... 173.. ok.. all the best to my teams mates.. pls dun give up yet... there's stilll a chance for us to get 4th.. and of team.. we try to get 3rd k?......no pressure.. take care.... i really need 173......
173 173 173 173 173 173 173 173 173 173 173 173 173 173 173 173 173 173 173 173 173 173 173 173 173 173 173 173 173 173 173 173 173 173 173 173

yay.. singles is over. ahahha.. i got 15th position.. ahha.. cannot get anything.... but... tml i got doubles at 1pm.. hehe.. my artner is shariffah... i scared i pull her down or my avg. drop..... argh.. i must get avg. of 170 tml.. to was ok.. i got 146 162 171 145... avg. 156........ ahah the last game i got 5 splits lor.. 2 converted.... i got 9 and 10, baby split and 4, 7, 10, split... ahahha shocked?.. yea.. i was too.. i aimed at pin 4 and 7... then later my ball hook too much.. then pin 4 accidentally dropped and slided to pin 10 wif a tap and dropped.. i gave up on that shot.. but then.. ahhah yar... so this is a lesson for me to learn that i muz not give up or lose hope... after that.. went to olivia's house to slack for a while... then later ate pizza... and went home.. ahha.. i'm happy for today's performance... but i'm scared of the next 8 games.. i cannot get below 140 liao... muz get 170 avg. to have a place in the masters man.. go kc.. u can do it one...thanks to all da coaches and supporters... =)

argh.. can u believe it.... in 12h's time, we'll be doing our warm up and cheer... argh.. how how how.. ahha stress-machine.. i duno whether if i still like him,.. i duno... but i think he's a bit of distraction to me when i'm bowling... blech... ahahha.. yar.. okok.. anyway.... pray k... ahha. okok.. hyper me now.. jhaha.. all da best to kc ppl and the guys.. ahha... no offence to my opponents ar.. trallal.. take care... sleep early tonight.

ok.. hmm.. i'm really tired mentally.., abit physically... thanks to all the friends out there for all the encouragements... yea.. feeling abit blech now man.. guess wad... morning night and day, i've been thinking wad board to stand.. ahha so freaky right.. i wonder y i dun get sick of it... i've been pigging wherever i go.. haiz.. this is life... ahha yup.. got to have gd time management...ahah now, i offically announce... i do not like *him anymore.. tralla.. -the end-full stop-

so tired man.. today after sch... went to pp to find omething for the team to represent our teamspirit.. wif sam, fafa and zen. then later took cab to safra yishun. goash,,.. have been going there like almost everyday.. then bowled 4 games.. 1 game i paid. 3 games i used complementary tickets.. wif sam, fafa and zen.. then later no lanes.. so we waited for very long.. then later uncle ronnie talked to aloy and jee yuen.. then later he call us bowl wif them.. ahah.. they all so pro lor.. then later rested for a while.. while zen and fafa rushed off.. then later got personal trng wif uncle francis, sam and abit wif donna and zihua... yup.. my thumb really pain... then my last finger can feel it liao.. blech.. aha okok.. then i going to train after church on sun. yup.. then mon gonna slllep.... then its tue! agrh.. scared so easily.. ahha ok.. work hard.. =)
***the crush is finally broken liao...***ahah. now i do not like anybody.. yea.. shockingly suprising...=)

today in sch.. had to be a chinese cheng yu teacher for a day.. ahah... me.. yes.. me being a teacher.. chinese teacher... ahah.. i *teach the class miraculously.. haha coz teacher call me and marilyn to go... haiz.. ahha yes.. good experience.. =l...=)
ahahah tired... today got trng again.. another match wif tkgs... aahhah they like dun admit defeat... blech.. our avg. like closing to theirs man... that's bad... unclr ronnie also say;" like this how to get into the masters?" i heart broken lor.. blch... today lanes i duno why hook so much.. i duno whether issit my hand or the lanes lor... -changed- i've changed to be worser... but avg. is 150 plus... okok.. masters masters masters... gotta work hard.. tml bowling rom about 230-8.. ahhah whoa.. crazy.. today thumb swollen again and cannot go into my ball... ahha.. okok.. m,on i shall rest, sat abd sun i'll be bowling.. trying hard to get a 200 game.. ahah -trys-

tired. dropped dead. today had 2h of personal trng wif sam and shu. release was gd.. outcome was bad.. okok..anyway... my thumb is swelling again.. wrist is starting to ache.. but.. tml got trng, fri got p.trng. sat and sun going to train.. mon rest i guess. tue.. c division bowling championships.. oh goashh.. so fast... am i prepared? yes, only to win tkgs.... everbody's working really hard..... very, very, mentally nad physically drained.. sch.jega.friends.ppl.parents.rejectment.4th.lim. uncle ronnie.. oh well.. this is our life... aha.. crappy now..dwang.. today so malu lor.. uncle francis, uncle ronnie, uncle tony, jay, sotong, shu, zen all team up and suan lor....... paing leh.. how.. now friendsalso cannot be liao.. so awkard..i paying at the cashier, he down there far far away from me.. blech... -concentrate-
well peeps.. continue to strive hard k? everybody's doing great.. dun give urself pressure k.. =), motivation does miracles.. it really does

ahah.. ok.. today bowled wif tkgs again.. ahha yay.. we won all games again.. avg. was ok but not enough to go masters... 140, 167. avg.153.5.. today i saw jazeeral bowled....ok.. sob sob... i'll work hard man..... really tired..today mr lim talked to us. haha shockingly, it did made a difference, everybody closed the frame.. ahah.. yeep. i hope that all of us will be ok in the tournament... pls block out all ur worries and stuff.. do not let all this slow u down from achieveing ur goal.. spot ur mistake.. feel the mistake.. change it... ask the coach.. pls. smile.. it make a difference, it really does.. motivate.. =)

sad lar........today i cut hair....... didn't like it. somemore its 30 bucks lor. okok.. then later went for guitar.. then for training.. whoa man.. training was horrible, terrible, atrosious, blech. i could like get a score of below 100 lor.. 83?... stupid sucky avg of 123....... then later all the coaches scoled us, broke all our hearts, all our desire, our hopes are dashed. how?.. then later wanted to go home, but we sat outside the alley on teh stairs, coz fafa was sick, i was blech.... then we realised that sotong was also sick, william was also too.. blech. see i told u, sucky sucky dae.. yar.. then took a cab home wif shu and wiliam. wad a day.. then come home, argueed wif mum. y?... about a pathetic wrist guard.... okok.. shit day.. i hate this very day

ahahah ok. today is ascension family and pets day.. yeeps.. i helped out in da games.. realy run... run up and down.. then got a few guys.. younger than me, bombared me wif water bombs lor... they bulley me lor.. nvm... i'll grow tall man.. okok.. anyway.. later, i tried to wash the blue coloured mat... coz it was dirty and soapy.. then eng tat, bernice and adeline helped me.. so we hung it up to dry.. ahaha. then later cleaned up and stuuff lor.... aha.. then while i was resting... it was already dark.. i rested and closed my eyes. ahhaha then i reme,bered about the 2 blue mats which i hung it out to dry.. the placed was already locked.. so later i ran and go find tat to help unlock an bring the mats in.. ahha it was dark,,.. both of us were abit scared.. ahah. oko. one of them is on the ground while the other one is hung high up th fence.. i climbed the fence,,ahahah so happy.. i could actually feel comfortable whie climbing.. ya.. so we brought it back, and folded it,.. ahah yup, had realy a great time of fellowship... yup. ahaha winston was wet, really cold and wet, so sad,..a baahha but anywayes... see u guys tml.. =)

wow... i finalyl bought a guard to replace my spoiled guard..... stupid lor.. $40 lor.... now really broke.. oh man.. then my mama say if she got money she'll buy me those metal ones which i dun think is advisible.. blech. i love my old guard, but then when i bowl, all come out.. haiz.. then one of my routine is to un strap the guard.. ahha.. see la.. now spoil.. okok.. better train hard..

yay. today i ran 2.4km after a long term break and suprisingly managed to improed my timing to 14.58mins. aahha not bad for me.. haiz.... yup.. got cramps again..ok.... today had trng again........ we bowled 3 games.. i suck in all.. avg like 130.... i relly worried lor. how to get into masters... i must beat jazeeral. muahahaha..ok.. got a tight schedule coming up for me... haiz... oh man... hey.. those who know i like *whoever*... pls pretend u dun know k.. i scared we cannot even be friends.. perhaps i should keep more of my feelings to myself.. yup. ahhaha... thanks.


*blech... not being really copyright.. so i took this from zen.. heheh.. u dun mind ar.. =)

i try: to be discipline and excel in sports and acadamic?

i know: that there will be a chance or any hope in everything

i want: to be in Team Singapore

i wish: to bowl for Singapore

i hate: rumours, untruthful friends

i miss: primary sch (st. hilda's). haiz

i fear: to fail anything i do

i hear: encouragements from ppl

i search: for bowling newspaper articles

i believe: in God

i wonder: wad does the coaches have in mind..

i regret: not studying hard enough for PSLE

i love: bowling

i care: for my friends...

i always: feel tired, but want to bowl...

i cry: when i dun achieve wad i strive very very hard for..

i fight: wif myself at times...

i draw:?,,... no, i love to paint.

i win: or suceed when i have a strong mind set

i lose: to JAZEERAL TAN FROM MGS

i confuse: wait. the eng structure abit off right?... aha. erm... i get confuse when i dun trust?

i listen: to wad the Lord says to me

i need: to be more focused on my goals

i breathe: oxygen! wow........

i should: be more considerate for others... perhaps erm. self-sacrifical?

i dream: of getting a perfect game

i feel: lousy at the moment. i really want a 170 avg........

i am not: doing right things wif the right objective at times..

i have: goals to work and strive for, friends to support me, to be discipline

tired again.. ahha... today i went to safra yishun. supposingly to have personal training. but.. acsi guys kidnap him to go for victory dinner.......so we are coachless......... then catholic high boys also taken for a treat by the coach to swensons lor.... wa. if only uncle ronnie is like that. [impossible]..... blech. so ok. first is mgs, then tkgs, then rgs.(i think so). all expected one lor.....then went home wif william and shu.
oh ya.. today the class chinese teacher kanna bang.... she very idiot one. i put tissure paper in my mouth coz my braces cut my lips lor.. then she thoght i eating something... then call me spit it out.haaha.. then she kanna bang,,. so dumb lor... she an idiot lar.. i duno think she can teach lor... i ask her wad is stage fright in chinese. she go say [hai xiu]. harlow lor.... i this kind of standard also know that the meaning of [hai xiu] is shy lor.. wad toking she lar. i boder line pass chinese then she tell me rubblish....... wa.. can't imagine wad she got for her chinese lor..