hmm.
to briefly say, sch was gd. OB LECT was 1hr45min with break. and hardcore inflow of knowledge. the lecturer is steady, chop, gd.
then after that, was proj with jorim. then went to collect my running stuff.
was at my uncle's place downstairs la! i though where sia.
then went to queensway, suposedly to get ball. then dun have the size.. so got size5 for justin in e end. i got myself 2 pairs of running shorts. (:
hmm.
was talking to nicholas lum.
his mum also passed away abt a yr ago...
!NIcHo|@S says: well... and u noe what i see in u that i think i have too?
!NIcHo|@S says: we're very strong emotionally
huge load of memoraries.
abt a month ago.. didnt want to be emo and blog abt dad. so i guess, i shall blog today. abt that.
was a ecp. (cant rmbr why) probably bowling or cycling.. then i saw this girl, p4?5? she was holding her dad's hand with her right hand, and her mum's on her left.
they were chatting so so merrily away..
she's was gg on and on abt sch..
then her dad was like.. saying stuff to make her feel whoa. like.. "so u're like the best in sch lor!"
then she said.. "of course!"
then her mum was juz smiling, looking at her and her husband.
yea, those kind of conversation
really stupidly, for duno wad sake, i teared.
goodness.
nv knew that second could send my heart go crumpling up again.
looking back, its hilarious and really drama la.
but then again, this is life. this is human. this is the soul.
i can't seem WHY i can't let go of him.
really irritates me la. not that its like a hindrance, but it gets on to me lar.
maybe i juz dun want to accept that i'm emotional. haha.
yes, missing him is one thing.
but overly missing him, getting all regretful and all, is another.
randomly.
haha.
ex shss head is now, srjc head.
ex ijkc vice head, is now, srjc head.
ex ijkc head, is now, tjc head.
cool.
and there're like more counscillors around. so cool.
ok. i am gona prac guit now. its been long since i've used that instrument to do stuff that brings me high.
Friday, June 30, 2006
league.
blah!
125 137 157.
i realised that i forgot to insert my thumb fully only after 1.5 games.
then then.
i realised that my timing was off, and thus, not able to control my swing to the target.. not really control-control la.. but like.. cannot folllow through to correct target.
thus, super off target today.
then, my pair of lanes, i felt super inferior. after the 1st game, decided to sit behind when its not my turn.. all guys la. and like pro bowlers. buay tahan.
CHAPALANG team (literally, that's their name) are gd man.
VICTORS leh. homeground. dry lanes. yet can't bowl.
ARGH.
sch ended at like 12 today. did proj wrk. then.. i was lonely. then then. I FOUND A PIANO IN MY SCH. happy like mad lar. but need access. thank God there's this girl from CO who has the keys. so yea, used the piano till 4pm. goash.
its been long since i felt like nothing to do and, lonely! haha.
right.
anyways. then left for the game la.
btw, gd news is, i got into Sports Club.
bad news is, i met up with mr. D. today. cmm. a definte NO.
should i still try? but there's not really much help to attain from others though.
ok lar.
i juz got home and have tons to settle. nite. plus, i wanna honour jorim, my proj partner for being online till like now.
yea.
and thankg God fot the gd time of fellowship with asto, nicholas, alvin, donald, yongsherng and daryl after the league. nic's gg to NS soon. he's sure gonna miss bowling.
pls pray. thank u. ur prayers are really much appreciated.
125 137 157.
i realised that i forgot to insert my thumb fully only after 1.5 games.
then then.
i realised that my timing was off, and thus, not able to control my swing to the target.. not really control-control la.. but like.. cannot folllow through to correct target.
thus, super off target today.
then, my pair of lanes, i felt super inferior. after the 1st game, decided to sit behind when its not my turn.. all guys la. and like pro bowlers. buay tahan.
CHAPALANG team (literally, that's their name) are gd man.
VICTORS leh. homeground. dry lanes. yet can't bowl.
ARGH.
sch ended at like 12 today. did proj wrk. then.. i was lonely. then then. I FOUND A PIANO IN MY SCH. happy like mad lar. but need access. thank God there's this girl from CO who has the keys. so yea, used the piano till 4pm. goash.
its been long since i felt like nothing to do and, lonely! haha.
right.
anyways. then left for the game la.
btw, gd news is, i got into Sports Club.
bad news is, i met up with mr. D. today. cmm. a definte NO.
should i still try? but there's not really much help to attain from others though.
ok lar.
i juz got home and have tons to settle. nite. plus, i wanna honour jorim, my proj partner for being online till like now.
yea.
and thankg God fot the gd time of fellowship with asto, nicholas, alvin, donald, yongsherng and daryl after the league. nic's gg to NS soon. he's sure gonna miss bowling.
pls pray. thank u. ur prayers are really much appreciated.
Wednesday, June 28, 2006
guit.
proudly, i swam 40 laps today. with esther. she can realy push la.
and she's a balletrina and all.
CSA presentation. i guess our grp did FINE. the rest were quite impressive though. well. i think i sounded sian abt it. coz ours was the last to present and wanted to make it brief.
dun worry. i'll be a better presenter.
i think i'll see MR. DAVID tmr. *scary. pls pray.
last wk, i was teling jasmine, that i couldn't play the guit.
its one of those irritating/disappointing/shocking moments when i pick up the guit to try strum smth, but just couldn't. not that i forgot. but no rhyttm, no timing. juz flat, and yucks.
then drew send me the link of the chords of this song.
looked at my guit. or rather, stared at it b4 deciding to pick it up.
then yea. i played. and i could play again. (:
i guess its coz i was too into piano? i duno la.
different calling?
does strong passion = a calling?
but nevertheless,
i thank God for reminding me of my passion again. my burnign passion that was smithering down. thank u.
DA CHORDS. thanks to drew. nv thought of searching of it.
CAPO FRET 3.
Am D F
Am
We're soaring
D
flying
F C G Am
there's not a star in heaven that we can't reach
D
if we're trying
F
so we're breaking free
Am D
You know the world can see us
F C G Am
in a way thats different than who we are
D
creating space between us
F C G
'till we're separate hearts
F
But your faith
D
it gives me strength
F
strength to believe
we're breaking free
Am
We're soaring
D
flying
F C G Am
there's not a star in heaven that we can't reach
D
if we're trying
F
yeah we're breaking free
oh we're breaking free
oooh
Am D
Can you feel it building?
F C G
like a wave the ocean just can't control
Am D F C G
connected by a feeling oooh in our very souls
F D
Rising 'till it lifts us up
F
so everyone can see
we're breaking free
Am
We're soaring
D
flying
F C G Am
there's not a star in heaven that we can't reach
D
if we're trying
F
yeah were breaking free
oh we're breaking free
Am
Running
D
climbing
F
get to the place
C G Am
to be all that we can be
D
now's the time
F
so were breaking free
C G
we're breaking free
F
more than hope, more than faith
D
this is truth this is fate
F
and together we see it coming
F
more than you, more than me
D
not a want but a need
F
both of us breaking free...
________________________
KEY CHANGE
Bm
Soaring
E
flying
G D A Bm
there's not a star in heaven that we can't reach
E
if were trying
G
then we're breaking free
breaking free
Bm
running
E
oooh climibing
G D A Bm
to get to the place to be all that we can be
E
now's the time
G
so we're breaking free
Bm E
You know the world can see us
G D A G
in a way thats different than who we are.
and she's a balletrina and all.
CSA presentation. i guess our grp did FINE. the rest were quite impressive though. well. i think i sounded sian abt it. coz ours was the last to present and wanted to make it brief.
dun worry. i'll be a better presenter.
i think i'll see MR. DAVID tmr. *scary. pls pray.
last wk, i was teling jasmine, that i couldn't play the guit.
its one of those irritating/disappointing/shocking moments when i pick up the guit to try strum smth, but just couldn't. not that i forgot. but no rhyttm, no timing. juz flat, and yucks.
then drew send me the link of the chords of this song.
looked at my guit. or rather, stared at it b4 deciding to pick it up.
then yea. i played. and i could play again. (:
i guess its coz i was too into piano? i duno la.
different calling?
does strong passion = a calling?
but nevertheless,
i thank God for reminding me of my passion again. my burnign passion that was smithering down. thank u.
DA CHORDS. thanks to drew. nv thought of searching of it.
CAPO FRET 3.
Am D F
Am
We're soaring
D
flying
F C G Am
there's not a star in heaven that we can't reach
D
if we're trying
F
so we're breaking free
Am D
You know the world can see us
F C G Am
in a way thats different than who we are
D
creating space between us
F C G
'till we're separate hearts
F
But your faith
D
it gives me strength
F
strength to believe
we're breaking free
Am
We're soaring
D
flying
F C G Am
there's not a star in heaven that we can't reach
D
if we're trying
F
yeah we're breaking free
oh we're breaking free
oooh
Am D
Can you feel it building?
F C G
like a wave the ocean just can't control
Am D F C G
connected by a feeling oooh in our very souls
F D
Rising 'till it lifts us up
F
so everyone can see
we're breaking free
Am
We're soaring
D
flying
F C G Am
there's not a star in heaven that we can't reach
D
if we're trying
F
yeah were breaking free
oh we're breaking free
Am
Running
D
climbing
F
get to the place
C G Am
to be all that we can be
D
now's the time
F
so were breaking free
C G
we're breaking free
F
more than hope, more than faith
D
this is truth this is fate
F
and together we see it coming
F
more than you, more than me
D
not a want but a need
F
both of us breaking free...
________________________
KEY CHANGE
Bm
Soaring
E
flying
G D A Bm
there's not a star in heaven that we can't reach
E
if were trying
G
then we're breaking free
breaking free
Bm
running
E
oooh climibing
G D A Bm
to get to the place to be all that we can be
E
now's the time
G
so we're breaking free
Bm E
You know the world can see us
G D A G
in a way thats different than who we are.
Tuesday, June 27, 2006
run.
running the race, in ur head.
today. i guess i hit my snooze alarm like 20 over times from 730 till 9am. its amazing how i didn't smash my alarm clock like i always do.
why 730?
wanted to do some stuff in the morning. HAR. but i didn't.
in sch. acc tut passed real fast today.
oh yes. i had 40.5/50 for my accounting. i thought it was like.. wah so pro. then i realised. the more than half the class is scoring like 41, 42.. even 46.5. so yea.
did proj wrk.
came home to slp.
planned to go bedok reservior to try out the route at 630pm.
so yes, sleeping.
and then. 815.
so yes. ended up running at night.
it was really windy today. cooling. so managed to cover 3 rounds of my estate in 40mins. kinda amazed.
alot went through my head.
i am 16 yrs, gg on to 17yrs.
more was gg into my head.
initially. when i started off, at the 8th min. i was thinking,.. what am i even do this for and all. i even wanted to like stop and go into strength trng rather than endurance. then one thing kept pushing me. goals goals goals.
do u really want it?
are u always giving urself space?
with that, i continued.
let this run be..
for
- God.
- you
- me
- whoever's left in my family
- rugby
- bowling
- tp
- saints.
my ipod was playing all sorts of relevant songs and songs that could help me keep pace. basically, this run is juz a gyst of wads goona happen on sunday.
its gonna be in the afternoon where the sun is shinning brightly. so temperature will kinda be a big factor for me, thus, oxygen level and all kinds.
my aim is juz to complete the race with a decent timing. i'm kinda excitied. coz i know that those more pro-ed ppl will be taking part in the OSIM run at ecp. haha! so i guess it wont be superly competitve.
b4 i knew it, i was 22min into my run. covered about 1.5 rounds. my aim was to run for 30mins. or 2 rounds. but i ran more than i aimed for.
i really want to thank God for that. coz there are a few little roads that i needed to cross.. and all of them, literally, when i run, was open. either the cars went by or was waiting for me to run across. really thank God. so there were no hiccups.
back to my cmm pending thing.
my dearest CP said, "NO."
i'm still gonna try with the guidance of mrs chng. coz i know u.
i want to persue smth that i'll take more joy in.
from glen, an sms which came in so so timely..
Make your life one big habit to be proud of: the habit of always respecting your work, your thoughts, your being, and most of all, your ideas. Inventiveness beginswhen negativity is absent. Replace it with positive habits and that's when your best ideas will reveal themselves.
been talking to esther and heere and there to charms.
i'm gotta change. many may know this, but ppl, hasn't been my priority.
wait, priority is NOT= to care + concern.
its juz a different measure, and expression in my case.
i care for my friends. i'm concerned for their wellbeing.
but. in a way, i dont see social gathering as a need in my life.
its because, what ever i do, i'm already socialising. like rugby, bowling, church, sports... there are freinds around.
ok. i'm really sounding really technical here.
and again, i'm kinda task-orientation and goal-setted (grammatically wierd yes..haha.
and again.. our creative God speaking though the dail verses thing..
"For whoever wants to save his life will lose it, but whoever loses his life for me will find it. ” -Matthew 16:25
lastly,
to my most trusted friend. man. u seem to distant.
i dun want to say that its me. but yes.
u know wad. i really duno. 5 days since a sms. more than a month since we've talked.
should i choose to be tired. cold. hard.
or should i let start being terribly soft.
and u know wad. there are several occasions that we could meet up- to catch-up. but i juz let them go.
pride is making us wait.
should i jzu restart and repharse, asking you, "can we be friends again?"
funny how when u know what to do and u don't do.
u know what u can do and u don't do.
during PACEsetters interview a few days back, i was being asked this q."what irritates u the most?"
instany, my reply was "ppl who are abled to do tasks but chooses not to."
and yes, applying wht i've learnt during mental trngat rugby camp, smths, we choose to fall to a S. (the DISC model: Domineering, Influential, Steadiness, Consicousness)
according to my team, though raising of hadns, i'm a I, S, & C. accordingly, i ahve to work on my D.
but as for those who know me well, i'm actually kind of a D at situations when i chose tt i want to. its complex la. i'm complex by nature.
ok. tmrs like CSA presentation. and i hope to score. so i think i should juz stop typing whatevers on my mind now, coz its not goonna end.
so. with that,
gd nite.
thank God for being a God of Wonders.
today. i guess i hit my snooze alarm like 20 over times from 730 till 9am. its amazing how i didn't smash my alarm clock like i always do.
why 730?
wanted to do some stuff in the morning. HAR. but i didn't.
in sch. acc tut passed real fast today.
oh yes. i had 40.5/50 for my accounting. i thought it was like.. wah so pro. then i realised. the more than half the class is scoring like 41, 42.. even 46.5. so yea.
did proj wrk.
came home to slp.
planned to go bedok reservior to try out the route at 630pm.
so yes, sleeping.
and then. 815.
so yes. ended up running at night.
it was really windy today. cooling. so managed to cover 3 rounds of my estate in 40mins. kinda amazed.
alot went through my head.
i am 16 yrs, gg on to 17yrs.
more was gg into my head.
initially. when i started off, at the 8th min. i was thinking,.. what am i even do this for and all. i even wanted to like stop and go into strength trng rather than endurance. then one thing kept pushing me. goals goals goals.
do u really want it?
are u always giving urself space?
with that, i continued.
let this run be..
for
- God.
- you
- me
- whoever's left in my family
- rugby
- bowling
- tp
- saints.
my ipod was playing all sorts of relevant songs and songs that could help me keep pace. basically, this run is juz a gyst of wads goona happen on sunday.
its gonna be in the afternoon where the sun is shinning brightly. so temperature will kinda be a big factor for me, thus, oxygen level and all kinds.
my aim is juz to complete the race with a decent timing. i'm kinda excitied. coz i know that those more pro-ed ppl will be taking part in the OSIM run at ecp. haha! so i guess it wont be superly competitve.
b4 i knew it, i was 22min into my run. covered about 1.5 rounds. my aim was to run for 30mins. or 2 rounds. but i ran more than i aimed for.
i really want to thank God for that. coz there are a few little roads that i needed to cross.. and all of them, literally, when i run, was open. either the cars went by or was waiting for me to run across. really thank God. so there were no hiccups.
back to my cmm pending thing.
my dearest CP said, "NO."
i'm still gonna try with the guidance of mrs chng. coz i know u.
i want to persue smth that i'll take more joy in.
from glen, an sms which came in so so timely..
Make your life one big habit to be proud of: the habit of always respecting your work, your thoughts, your being, and most of all, your ideas. Inventiveness beginswhen negativity is absent. Replace it with positive habits and that's when your best ideas will reveal themselves.
been talking to esther and heere and there to charms.
i'm gotta change. many may know this, but ppl, hasn't been my priority.
wait, priority is NOT= to care + concern.
its juz a different measure, and expression in my case.
i care for my friends. i'm concerned for their wellbeing.
but. in a way, i dont see social gathering as a need in my life.
its because, what ever i do, i'm already socialising. like rugby, bowling, church, sports... there are freinds around.
ok. i'm really sounding really technical here.
and again, i'm kinda task-orientation and goal-setted (grammatically wierd yes..haha.
and again.. our creative God speaking though the dail verses thing..
"For whoever wants to save his life will lose it, but whoever loses his life for me will find it. ” -Matthew 16:25
lastly,
to my most trusted friend. man. u seem to distant.
i dun want to say that its me. but yes.
u know wad. i really duno. 5 days since a sms. more than a month since we've talked.
should i choose to be tired. cold. hard.
or should i let start being terribly soft.
and u know wad. there are several occasions that we could meet up- to catch-up. but i juz let them go.
pride is making us wait.
should i jzu restart and repharse, asking you, "can we be friends again?"
funny how when u know what to do and u don't do.
u know what u can do and u don't do.
during PACEsetters interview a few days back, i was being asked this q."what irritates u the most?"
instany, my reply was "ppl who are abled to do tasks but chooses not to."
and yes, applying wht i've learnt during mental trngat rugby camp, smths, we choose to fall to a S. (the DISC model: Domineering, Influential, Steadiness, Consicousness)
according to my team, though raising of hadns, i'm a I, S, & C. accordingly, i ahve to work on my D.
but as for those who know me well, i'm actually kind of a D at situations when i chose tt i want to. its complex la. i'm complex by nature.
ok. tmrs like CSA presentation. and i hope to score. so i think i should juz stop typing whatevers on my mind now, coz its not goonna end.
so. with that,
gd nite.
thank God for being a God of Wonders.
bowling evaluation
after ytd trng on the lines and all, today my game was more organised.
lanes were nice to bowl.but i cannot seem to send my shots to my break pt.
had a 139 153 146 132 i think.
i think i'm a little satisfied.. considering that i'm more consistant this time. compared to like 90 then 150 or smth like that.
csa project is finally gone. HAR.
left with econs, ob and comm skills.
oh yes. got back my ob today. 19/30. i duno if its gd or bad. but i think can be improved.
btw. pray for me. i'm trying to fight into cmm. coz its abt media photography video sounds and all. i hope to go there. i like those stuff. pls pray.coz my o level results doesn't allow me to.
thank God for mrs chng i'd love to have her as my careperson.
still.
the song. "Fall to Pieces" by Avril Lavigne keeps playing in my head. during the 4 ultra long games which caused me to reach home at 11pm, the song keep ringing.
i really hope you'd listen. yea. u.
its like a cup of tea.
elaborate no further.
its been really long. sinking. resurfacing only to find ourselves sinking.
lanes were nice to bowl.but i cannot seem to send my shots to my break pt.
had a 139 153 146 132 i think.
i think i'm a little satisfied.. considering that i'm more consistant this time. compared to like 90 then 150 or smth like that.
csa project is finally gone. HAR.
left with econs, ob and comm skills.
oh yes. got back my ob today. 19/30. i duno if its gd or bad. but i think can be improved.
btw. pray for me. i'm trying to fight into cmm. coz its abt media photography video sounds and all. i hope to go there. i like those stuff. pls pray.coz my o level results doesn't allow me to.
thank God for mrs chng i'd love to have her as my careperson.
still.
the song. "Fall to Pieces" by Avril Lavigne keeps playing in my head. during the 4 ultra long games which caused me to reach home at 11pm, the song keep ringing.
i really hope you'd listen. yea. u.
its like a cup of tea.
elaborate no further.
its been really long. sinking. resurfacing only to find ourselves sinking.
Monday, June 26, 2006
Breaking Free
ok. i dun usually comment on lovely stuff.
but while i was eating a lonely dinner at home today, i was watching Disney Channel, High School Musical (oh yea. repeat telecast nxt sunday 6.30pm/7pm.. i think)
didn't quite catch the storyline... but got like the body and ending of it.
it was lovely lar.
then this song. is really like.. gives u encouraging and lift. don't u think so?
plus both the smiling actor and actress, both so lovely and all.
coz i think they're trying to juggle sports and music (for the guy) and the girl.. science and music. i think. so its really applicable to me la.
last wk, also.disney channel showed this movie on this girl,trying to balance her dreams and her struggles and priorties.
i feel like God is speaking through Dsiney Channel Original Movies this time.
both in some sense, talking abt commitment. and really nice la.
this High sch musical one was like. sweet lar. lovely. hahahaha. sry, limited vocab.
yea. so this is my 2 cents' worth. enjoy e song.
Breaking Free
Disney High School Musical (soundtrack)1
Zac Efron and Vanessa Anne Hudgens
[Troy:]
We're soarin', flyin'
There's not a star in Heaven
That we can't reach
[Gabriella:]
If we're trying
So we're breaking free
[Troy:]
You know the world can see us
In a way that's different than who we are
[Gabriella:]
Creating space between us
'Til we're separate hearts
[Both:]
But your faith it gives me strength
Strength to believe
[Troy:]
We're breakin' free
[Gabriella:]
We're soarin'
[Troy:]
Flyin'
[Both:]
There's not a star in Heaven
That we can't reach
[Troy:]
If we're trying
[Both:]
Yeah, we're breaking free
[Troy:]
Oh, we're breakin' free
[Gabriella:]
Oh
[Troy:]
Can you feel it building
Like a wave the ocean just can't control
[Gabriella:]
Connected by a feeling
Ohhh, in our very souls
[Both:]
Rising 'til it lifts us up
So every one can see
[Troy:]
We're breakin' free
[Gabriella:]
We're soarin'
[Troy:] Flyin'
[Both:]
There's not a star in heaven
That we can't reach
[Troy:]
If we're trying
Yeah we're breaking free
[Gabriella:]
Ohhhh runnin'
[Troy:]
Climbin'
To get to that place
[Both:]
To be all that we can be
[Troy:]
Now's the time
[Both:]
So we're breaking free
[Troy:]
We're breaking free
[Gabriella:]
Ohhh, yeah
[Troy:]
More than hope
More than faith
[Gabriella:]
This is true
This is fate
And together
[Both:]
We see it comin'
[Troy:]
More than you
More than me
[Gabriella:]
Not a want, but a need
[Both:]
Both of us breakin' free
[Gabriella:]
Soarin'
[Troy:]
Flyin'
[Both:]
There's not a star in heaven
That we can't reach
If we're trying
[Troy:]
Yeah we're breaking free
[Gabriella:]
Breaking free
Were runnin'
[Troy:]
Ohhhh, climbin'
[Both:]
To get to the place
To be all that we can be
Now's the time
[Troy:]
Now's the time
[Gabriella:]
So we're breaking free
[Troy:]
Ohhh, we're breaking free
[Gabriella:]
Ohhhh
[Both:]
You know the world can see us
In a way that's different than who we are
but while i was eating a lonely dinner at home today, i was watching Disney Channel, High School Musical (oh yea. repeat telecast nxt sunday 6.30pm/7pm.. i think)
didn't quite catch the storyline... but got like the body and ending of it.
it was lovely lar.
then this song. is really like.. gives u encouraging and lift. don't u think so?
plus both the smiling actor and actress, both so lovely and all.
coz i think they're trying to juggle sports and music (for the guy) and the girl.. science and music. i think. so its really applicable to me la.
last wk, also.disney channel showed this movie on this girl,trying to balance her dreams and her struggles and priorties.
i feel like God is speaking through Dsiney Channel Original Movies this time.
both in some sense, talking abt commitment. and really nice la.
this High sch musical one was like. sweet lar. lovely. hahahaha. sry, limited vocab.
yea. so this is my 2 cents' worth. enjoy e song.
Breaking Free
Disney High School Musical (soundtrack)1
Zac Efron and Vanessa Anne Hudgens
[Troy:]
We're soarin', flyin'
There's not a star in Heaven
That we can't reach
[Gabriella:]
If we're trying
So we're breaking free
[Troy:]
You know the world can see us
In a way that's different than who we are
[Gabriella:]
Creating space between us
'Til we're separate hearts
[Both:]
But your faith it gives me strength
Strength to believe
[Troy:]
We're breakin' free
[Gabriella:]
We're soarin'
[Troy:]
Flyin'
[Both:]
There's not a star in Heaven
That we can't reach
[Troy:]
If we're trying
[Both:]
Yeah, we're breaking free
[Troy:]
Oh, we're breakin' free
[Gabriella:]
Oh
[Troy:]
Can you feel it building
Like a wave the ocean just can't control
[Gabriella:]
Connected by a feeling
Ohhh, in our very souls
[Both:]
Rising 'til it lifts us up
So every one can see
[Troy:]
We're breakin' free
[Gabriella:]
We're soarin'
[Troy:] Flyin'
[Both:]
There's not a star in heaven
That we can't reach
[Troy:]
If we're trying
Yeah we're breaking free
[Gabriella:]
Ohhhh runnin'
[Troy:]
Climbin'
To get to that place
[Both:]
To be all that we can be
[Troy:]
Now's the time
[Both:]
So we're breaking free
[Troy:]
We're breaking free
[Gabriella:]
Ohhh, yeah
[Troy:]
More than hope
More than faith
[Gabriella:]
This is true
This is fate
And together
[Both:]
We see it comin'
[Troy:]
More than you
More than me
[Gabriella:]
Not a want, but a need
[Both:]
Both of us breakin' free
[Gabriella:]
Soarin'
[Troy:]
Flyin'
[Both:]
There's not a star in heaven
That we can't reach
If we're trying
[Troy:]
Yeah we're breaking free
[Gabriella:]
Breaking free
Were runnin'
[Troy:]
Ohhhh, climbin'
[Both:]
To get to the place
To be all that we can be
Now's the time
[Troy:]
Now's the time
[Gabriella:]
So we're breaking free
[Troy:]
Ohhh, we're breaking free
[Gabriella:]
Ohhhh
[Both:]
You know the world can see us
In a way that's different than who we are
Sunday, June 25, 2006
today bowling was on personal no. and drifts.
amazingly, given the amt of strength i had.. i felt that trng was fast today. ahha.
so ya. mentally bogging.
ok. mum bought me the crog slippers. the whole world has it kind. she bought it for $5.90. gd la. lets say go swimming.. gd. more presentable than slippers.
ok. better do projs now.
2 are due tmr. csa is like heavy.
btw. nv am i gg to use photo bucket. juz dun like it. HELLO. i want u to function lehs.
amazingly, given the amt of strength i had.. i felt that trng was fast today. ahha.
so ya. mentally bogging.
ok. mum bought me the crog slippers. the whole world has it kind. she bought it for $5.90. gd la. lets say go swimming.. gd. more presentable than slippers.
ok. better do projs now.
2 are due tmr. csa is like heavy.
btw. nv am i gg to use photo bucket. juz dun like it. HELLO. i want u to function lehs.
camp and bbq
i guess for the rugby camp, our objectives are met.
i tell u. haha.
we played a game for 7hrs. (inc of 1hr lunck break)
ultimatelly strict rules. time pressing. stressing.
THUS, in total, we did 1,100 push-ups, individually (abt 1/6 of it is sit ups, after begging to coach)
blue blacks on knees already.
but. its worth it. out team is nv ever gonna be so so physically close.
btw, the game is called Turn Over a New Leaf
ya. its like 20+ ppl on a little mat. abt half the size of a pool table? maybe slightly bigger? and ya. while on that mat, the mat must be flipped over, with us, on it.
ok. sounds like.. "aiya. no prob".
alot of prob. in the end, we didn't manage to do it. but gained tons of mental trng, team bonding. it was satisfaction on the last try.
then at night.
around 7. had my first friendly match ever. against SRC.
seniors did a fablous job and won 3-2.
our first half was kinda bad, lacking all basic techniques. then 2nd half. after a talk-out/thrash out.. we manage to perform much better till coach marlyn was really happy with our performance.
and had bbq at 11 till 2am, stopped coz it rainned. girls talk till 4am. pro. seniors had mtng still 6am.
well. the trngs that i've missed due to camps/bowling has taken its toll. there's alot i've gotta learn and be comfortable and quick with.
thus. i'm goona train hard. on my own. i'll speak to my triathalon coach that i've decided to hold for a time being. coz of my IVP games coming up. i thinks he's gonna get irritated with me, like giving up half way. i'm not giving up. but i think its time i should pause.i dun tink i'll be ready for ivp. but i hope to be gd nxt yr, if coach permits due to attendance.
but whatever it is,
camp, or rather, on the field, as disappointed with myself as i may get, i thank God for my seniors alot. constantly, nv afraid to pt out ur mistakes and giving u feedback and much more encouragement to push u futher.
i think we're a great team. YEA? yea.
this morning.
830 assemble.all were tired sia.
after camp went home, eat, slp.
then went for bbq at tim's house.
another of those bbq at his house.
all my lepark friends. suhaimi nv go.. ahha. wasted. but was fun to see zen and all. thanks to tim for yet again ,opening his house. really glad that i could go today.. took alot of photos and 'formal photos'
tim and i make good firemen. ahha.
my Hello is still not workin. and i'm still lazy to use photo bucket to upload. hmm. haha.
i think my appitite is back. recently, i think e bug made me eat lesser so less energy. this time i think i'm eating like alot. haah. more than my body requires. will try to balance my health la. ahhaha.
tmr is my last day of hols. back to life with work.
tmr, i'm gonna help jeremy with proj wrk. i think he's feeling stressed..
dun worry. we'll make it.
and lastly, most imptly, i wanna thank GOD for this awfully awesome wk. i could train, get reminders, learn, lead, serve, communicate, work all in one wk. so many valuable lessons i've learnt this wk. i'm really gonna make the best out of it. i'm really glad that i have a merciful God who cares so much.
i tell u. haha.
we played a game for 7hrs. (inc of 1hr lunck break)
ultimatelly strict rules. time pressing. stressing.
THUS, in total, we did 1,100 push-ups, individually (abt 1/6 of it is sit ups, after begging to coach)
blue blacks on knees already.
but. its worth it. out team is nv ever gonna be so so physically close.
btw, the game is called Turn Over a New Leaf
ya. its like 20+ ppl on a little mat. abt half the size of a pool table? maybe slightly bigger? and ya. while on that mat, the mat must be flipped over, with us, on it.
ok. sounds like.. "aiya. no prob".
alot of prob. in the end, we didn't manage to do it. but gained tons of mental trng, team bonding. it was satisfaction on the last try.
then at night.
around 7. had my first friendly match ever. against SRC.
seniors did a fablous job and won 3-2.
our first half was kinda bad, lacking all basic techniques. then 2nd half. after a talk-out/thrash out.. we manage to perform much better till coach marlyn was really happy with our performance.
and had bbq at 11 till 2am, stopped coz it rainned. girls talk till 4am. pro. seniors had mtng still 6am.
well. the trngs that i've missed due to camps/bowling has taken its toll. there's alot i've gotta learn and be comfortable and quick with.
thus. i'm goona train hard. on my own. i'll speak to my triathalon coach that i've decided to hold for a time being. coz of my IVP games coming up. i thinks he's gonna get irritated with me, like giving up half way. i'm not giving up. but i think its time i should pause.i dun tink i'll be ready for ivp. but i hope to be gd nxt yr, if coach permits due to attendance.
but whatever it is,
camp, or rather, on the field, as disappointed with myself as i may get, i thank God for my seniors alot. constantly, nv afraid to pt out ur mistakes and giving u feedback and much more encouragement to push u futher.
i think we're a great team. YEA? yea.
this morning.
830 assemble.all were tired sia.
after camp went home, eat, slp.
then went for bbq at tim's house.
another of those bbq at his house.
all my lepark friends. suhaimi nv go.. ahha. wasted. but was fun to see zen and all. thanks to tim for yet again ,opening his house. really glad that i could go today.. took alot of photos and 'formal photos'
tim and i make good firemen. ahha.
my Hello is still not workin. and i'm still lazy to use photo bucket to upload. hmm. haha.
i think my appitite is back. recently, i think e bug made me eat lesser so less energy. this time i think i'm eating like alot. haah. more than my body requires. will try to balance my health la. ahhaha.
tmr is my last day of hols. back to life with work.
tmr, i'm gonna help jeremy with proj wrk. i think he's feeling stressed..
dun worry. we'll make it.
and lastly, most imptly, i wanna thank GOD for this awfully awesome wk. i could train, get reminders, learn, lead, serve, communicate, work all in one wk. so many valuable lessons i've learnt this wk. i'm really gonna make the best out of it. i'm really glad that i have a merciful God who cares so much.
Thursday, June 22, 2006
yishun pri sch camp
a big success i should say.
1. Singapore is our homeland and this is where we belong.
2. We must preseverse racial and religious harmony
3. we must uphold meritrocracy and incorruptibility
4. No one owes Singapore a living.
5. we ourselves must defend singapore.
6. we have confindce in out future.
mrs agnes tan would be awlfully proud of me.
btw. its a NE LEadership camp. that explains.
super duper tired. last night. was most kids' first night out in tents. man. coz it was so humid (thanks to the brillant idea of linearly pitching them..) they couldn't sleep. till like 130.. the tchrs came and gave some logical reason that there was lightning so it is a safety precaution to go into the tents.
yes.drank 3 pacs of my most loved MILO, in 15mins can.
thanks to nightwatching and in an attempt to kp watch for kid's toilet breaks. i slpt at 2 plus. its not like v late la. but from 10am till 11pm u've been shouting with ur tonsilitcs bug still kicking.. 2am plus was like very late.
buay taahan. and the resource ppl can happuily study for their j1s myes till 3am. i really salute the resource ppl. highly efficient. i can proudly say that no one or no committee can ever match up to them in terms of.. erm.. every aspect.
this morning or rather throughout the nite.. there were kids gg toilet. i bunked with gera and sara. my bestest ever friends. thanks to gera, she was able to hear their toilet cries. sara and i were juz offically dead for the nite.
then was today. sentosa.
Images of Singapore
has improved so much. u guys should go. i've learnt alot. its v interactive and all lar.
overall. jzu to sum up. the kids have 'grown' throughout this 2 days. honestly, we couldnn't have done it w/o the resource ppl. jaslin tiff celine ct. the 4 main one..
facils. too. the comm couldn't have done it. its a 13 men thing for a 2D1N camp, and i think its really excellent. rarely i would comment till such.
thanks to ms soo for constantly encouraging us too. she's really supportive and all.. ahha. and takes care of us as we take care of the kids.
personal note.
i think giving up 1 day of rugby camp for touchign more younger kids lives is not so bad after all.
honestly, throughout these 2 days, or rather, months and 3long meetings, i've learn tons that none can teach.
i've learnt so much from the comm. i'm sure gonna miss workign with this great bunch of highly responsible, adaptable and efficient ppl. u name it, they have it. really. not exaggerating. it has really reminded me ALOT of pts to be a leader and how to be one and also, a servant leader.
also, we also like catch up with each other. coz i mean i miss pppl like jaslin, tiff and celine. but i dun like hang out with them... sara and gera. ahaha. forever with me la. (:
OH YES. impt person. w/o sam. i duno wad to do sia. haha. sets things proper for all.
one thing we guys will work on is timing la. coz ytd was like 45min delay. coz the games (proven through feedback), esp the wet games were really fun and the kids juz cannot stop lar. so plus the wet and fun, time flew and more deplays. breaks to ensure that all are provided for also accounted alittle to the breaks. i have to admit that towards the end of ytd, i was really exhausted and didn't want to move. like move as how i should follow the schedule. was afraid that the kids tire out too.
today was juz like satisfying.
to see the kids happy and enjoying the camp, even missing the camp right on the day itself shows alot la. they waved to us and even said bye-s personally to us.
as compared to day 1, it seems that we knew more than juz 2days of camp.
thank God for everything. w/o him, the camp wouldn't be such success and happy.
thank God for holding the weather so that all thigns can go thorugh smoothly.
thank God for protection for all. though a few were sick, thank God for His strength.
had quite a long debrief... and came home, tired but satisfied.
showed mum my cert of appreciation.
she said alot of neg things.heart was slashes straight through
"so u went for the camp for a cert."
i dun wish to type more content.
juz because my cheque from that freakin irritaing eagles award thing, got rebounced, as it was expired for 1 day, she just got so so agitatied and hurt me inside. and had to juz break.
for a moment, i thought that why am i even doing all these. but thanks to the smiles of the kids, forget those rubbish thoughts man.
she kept gg on and on. like having some war.
kept on slashing me inside.
felt that i hated me.
ok ok. enough.
i really dun want to dwell on this kind of little stuff. my family, hasn't been ______. duno wad word. but really, practically, we're not adjusted to dad's absence. its been 3 freakin yrs. i'm really irritated, sick and tired of this. or rather, its juz me as another disobedient one.
and on top of the bottom (cool word pun,)
mum says, "still want to go for mission trip. dun waste time. poly got alot of things to do. juz dun waste time"
-.
ANYOHHOWWAYS, i'm glad that i can get a gd nite's slp tonight. will be away for camp till sat. yes.
i'm goona live life to the fullest. no one's gonna stop me from learning.
1. Singapore is our homeland and this is where we belong.
2. We must preseverse racial and religious harmony
3. we must uphold meritrocracy and incorruptibility
4. No one owes Singapore a living.
5. we ourselves must defend singapore.
6. we have confindce in out future.
mrs agnes tan would be awlfully proud of me.
btw. its a NE LEadership camp. that explains.
super duper tired. last night. was most kids' first night out in tents. man. coz it was so humid (thanks to the brillant idea of linearly pitching them..) they couldn't sleep. till like 130.. the tchrs came and gave some logical reason that there was lightning so it is a safety precaution to go into the tents.
yes.drank 3 pacs of my most loved MILO, in 15mins can.
thanks to nightwatching and in an attempt to kp watch for kid's toilet breaks. i slpt at 2 plus. its not like v late la. but from 10am till 11pm u've been shouting with ur tonsilitcs bug still kicking.. 2am plus was like very late.
buay taahan. and the resource ppl can happuily study for their j1s myes till 3am. i really salute the resource ppl. highly efficient. i can proudly say that no one or no committee can ever match up to them in terms of.. erm.. every aspect.
this morning or rather throughout the nite.. there were kids gg toilet. i bunked with gera and sara. my bestest ever friends. thanks to gera, she was able to hear their toilet cries. sara and i were juz offically dead for the nite.
then was today. sentosa.
Images of Singapore
has improved so much. u guys should go. i've learnt alot. its v interactive and all lar.
overall. jzu to sum up. the kids have 'grown' throughout this 2 days. honestly, we couldnn't have done it w/o the resource ppl. jaslin tiff celine ct. the 4 main one..
facils. too. the comm couldn't have done it. its a 13 men thing for a 2D1N camp, and i think its really excellent. rarely i would comment till such.
thanks to ms soo for constantly encouraging us too. she's really supportive and all.. ahha. and takes care of us as we take care of the kids.
personal note.
i think giving up 1 day of rugby camp for touchign more younger kids lives is not so bad after all.
honestly, throughout these 2 days, or rather, months and 3long meetings, i've learn tons that none can teach.
i've learnt so much from the comm. i'm sure gonna miss workign with this great bunch of highly responsible, adaptable and efficient ppl. u name it, they have it. really. not exaggerating. it has really reminded me ALOT of pts to be a leader and how to be one and also, a servant leader.
also, we also like catch up with each other. coz i mean i miss pppl like jaslin, tiff and celine. but i dun like hang out with them... sara and gera. ahaha. forever with me la. (:
OH YES. impt person. w/o sam. i duno wad to do sia. haha. sets things proper for all.
one thing we guys will work on is timing la. coz ytd was like 45min delay. coz the games (proven through feedback), esp the wet games were really fun and the kids juz cannot stop lar. so plus the wet and fun, time flew and more deplays. breaks to ensure that all are provided for also accounted alittle to the breaks. i have to admit that towards the end of ytd, i was really exhausted and didn't want to move. like move as how i should follow the schedule. was afraid that the kids tire out too.
today was juz like satisfying.
to see the kids happy and enjoying the camp, even missing the camp right on the day itself shows alot la. they waved to us and even said bye-s personally to us.
as compared to day 1, it seems that we knew more than juz 2days of camp.
thank God for everything. w/o him, the camp wouldn't be such success and happy.
thank God for holding the weather so that all thigns can go thorugh smoothly.
thank God for protection for all. though a few were sick, thank God for His strength.
had quite a long debrief... and came home, tired but satisfied.
showed mum my cert of appreciation.
she said alot of neg things.
"so u went for the camp for a cert."
i dun wish to type more content.
juz because my cheque from that freakin irritaing eagles award thing, got rebounced, as it was expired for 1 day, she just got so so agitatied and hurt me inside. and had to juz break.
for a moment, i thought that why am i even doing all these. but thanks to the smiles of the kids, forget those rubbish thoughts man.
she kept gg on and on. like having some war.
kept on slashing me inside.
felt that i hated me.
ok ok. enough.
i really dun want to dwell on this kind of little stuff. my family, hasn't been ______. duno wad word. but really, practically, we're not adjusted to dad's absence. its been 3 freakin yrs. i'm really irritated, sick and tired of this. or rather, its juz me as another disobedient one.
and on top of the bottom (cool word pun,)
mum says, "still want to go for mission trip. dun waste time. poly got alot of things to do. juz dun waste time"
-.
ANYOHHOWWAYS, i'm glad that i can get a gd nite's slp tonight. will be away for camp till sat. yes.
i'm goona live life to the fullest. no one's gonna stop me from learning.
Tuesday, June 20, 2006
well. i did smth proud of myself today.
after that. ahha. went to sara's house again for her piano. ahha.
then home.
i finished my proj. my part of it. so sunday, when i'm done with camps and trng..
i'll try complie with jeremy.
was chatting with gary...
wait.. i publistic this thing first.. http://zenith.jonaize.com
yea. ok. i was chatting with him.. and he asked if i wanna help with orgainisng. execution.
haha. i said execution.
yea. ppl who know me... esp my dear prefects.. would know that i'm both butmore on organising.. ahha. but coz its i've been org stuff till i get to blech abt it
the drive, hunger, and passion is tired. ahha.
so gotta take break.
haha.
same goes to production. "u wan technical or organising" instantly, i said technical. prefer lights n sounds. ahha.
and i also realise. all my trngs are when the sun sets or is setting. be it swimming rugby or bowling.. ahha. all no sun. so sad can. haha.
oh yes.
wil be off for the yishun pri sch camp. from tmr till thurs. after 2 months of hard work. esp for the resources side.. tmr shall be the fruits of our labours. haha.
yep..btw..
was in bus 854.. the tranisland bus.. the had this strip of red light of words flashing across.. tell u the date time and all. so i saw 20/06/06. ahaha. then its like avery familiar no. u know y?
20002006
so i msged gland. coz he's the only friend who appreciates this kind of stuff. sara also.. but gland hahaa. he really likes it, i guesss .right? HAHAHA. so ya.
its the 20th.
after that. ahha. went to sara's house again for her piano. ahha.
then home.
i finished my proj. my part of it. so sunday, when i'm done with camps and trng..
i'll try complie with jeremy.
was chatting with gary...
wait.. i publistic this thing first.. http://zenith.jonaize.com
yea. ok. i was chatting with him.. and he asked if i wanna help with orgainisng. execution.
haha. i said execution.
yea. ppl who know me... esp my dear prefects.. would know that i'm both butmore on organising.. ahha. but coz its i've been org stuff till i get to blech abt it
the drive, hunger, and passion is tired. ahha.
so gotta take break.
haha.
same goes to production. "u wan technical or organising" instantly, i said technical. prefer lights n sounds. ahha.
and i also realise. all my trngs are when the sun sets or is setting. be it swimming rugby or bowling.. ahha. all no sun. so sad can. haha.
oh yes.
wil be off for the yishun pri sch camp. from tmr till thurs. after 2 months of hard work. esp for the resources side.. tmr shall be the fruits of our labours. haha.
yep..btw..
was in bus 854.. the tranisland bus.. the had this strip of red light of words flashing across.. tell u the date time and all. so i saw 20/06/06. ahaha. then its like avery familiar no. u know y?
20002006
so i msged gland. coz he's the only friend who appreciates this kind of stuff. sara also.. but gland hahaa. he really likes it, i guesss .right? HAHAHA. so ya.
its the 20th.
pc and bowling.
has esplanade backstage tour today.
under production crew.
i learnt alot and now, have a greater appreciation for e theatres in Esplande.
i was really marvelled at the wonderful things God created. and to me, the most fantastic is MUSIC.
esplanade is superly equipped. superbly.
this kinda further gives me encouragement to juz try appeal of cmm. coz its really what i like to do. arts. media. photo. writing.
business is juz like-another-thing for me. photography. videography. sounds. oh man. excites me. but......
dun place too high hopes.
then after that was bowling trng. i keep telling myself to trust the coach, trust the coach. not that i dun, it's juz hard to let, go. coz for me, its difficult to 'change' in a way la. i keep thinking of unc henry and unc francis y. but to excel, i have to listen to my one and only current coach to improve. after all he's a much better and experienced bowler.
hmm.
my span is drilled too big. coz the previous driller wants to train my finger lift so its a 'tough ball'. gotta redrill asap, b4 i get injured.
coach also say to change the weight to 13.5 . amazed. he says, "this small girl power big ar. (and does the forcing thing)". honestly, not bhb or wad, but i felt co encouraged. honestly, been trying to train, but most of the time succumbing to fatigue.
thus, i'm trying to hunt for a 13.5 bowling ball that i can play around with, b4 i get a proper ball. my budget is less than $100. grr. should have ordered the $50 ball from the collegiate league. ARGH. i'll see if i can get aliance. horrible.
worse come to worse, i'll juz re-drill my dear SlayR., and, SEE HOW.
i'm juz afraid my rev would change and be slooow and sloow. coz today, he wanted be to swing less on my left hand on the execution. i've been trng to use force. he wants be to cut to 50%. so it'll be in line. which is logical. my then, my right hand will react by pulling the shot to the left, cauing my alignment to go all off and even hittin pin 7 area.
oh well.
and i missed rugby trng today. partially, coz of the MC (laugh pls) and coz of bowling. ill try work it out. czo thurs is tournament. and that'll make me loose 2 r trngs. dun worry.
yes. say me.
but i know what where i'm heading.
will.
with God beside,
i'm sure i know where i'm going.
i've juz gotta listen.
i wanna thank God for drew ytd. he reminded me for listening. listening. be still.
sgporeans are juz moving too fast for nature.(btw. ya. my csa is on environment. so if i become too envrionment friendly, its a gd sign in both ways. haha. )
ok. i'm off to do project. i wanna finish by like TODAY. nite.
under production crew.
i learnt alot and now, have a greater appreciation for e theatres in Esplande.
i was really marvelled at the wonderful things God created. and to me, the most fantastic is MUSIC.
esplanade is superly equipped. superbly.
this kinda further gives me encouragement to juz try appeal of cmm. coz its really what i like to do. arts. media. photo. writing.
business is juz like-another-thing for me. photography. videography. sounds. oh man. excites me. but......
dun place too high hopes.
then after that was bowling trng. i keep telling myself to trust the coach, trust the coach. not that i dun, it's juz hard to let, go. coz for me, its difficult to 'change' in a way la. i keep thinking of unc henry and unc francis y. but to excel, i have to listen to my one and only current coach to improve. after all he's a much better and experienced bowler.
hmm.
my span is drilled too big. coz the previous driller wants to train my finger lift so its a 'tough ball'. gotta redrill asap, b4 i get injured.
coach also say to change the weight to 13.5 . amazed. he says, "this small girl power big ar. (and does the forcing thing)". honestly, not bhb or wad, but i felt co encouraged. honestly, been trying to train, but most of the time succumbing to fatigue.
thus, i'm trying to hunt for a 13.5 bowling ball that i can play around with, b4 i get a proper ball. my budget is less than $100. grr. should have ordered the $50 ball from the collegiate league. ARGH. i'll see if i can get aliance. horrible.
worse come to worse, i'll juz re-drill my dear SlayR., and, SEE HOW.
i'm juz afraid my rev would change and be slooow and sloow. coz today, he wanted be to swing less on my left hand on the execution. i've been trng to use force. he wants be to cut to 50%. so it'll be in line. which is logical. my then, my right hand will react by pulling the shot to the left, cauing my alignment to go all off and even hittin pin 7 area.
oh well.
and i missed rugby trng today. partially, coz of the MC (laugh pls) and coz of bowling. ill try work it out. czo thurs is tournament. and that'll make me loose 2 r trngs. dun worry.
yes. say me.
but i know what where i'm heading.
will.
with God beside,
i'm sure i know where i'm going.
i've juz gotta listen.
i wanna thank God for drew ytd. he reminded me for listening. listening. be still.
sgporeans are juz moving too fast for nature.(btw. ya. my csa is on environment. so if i become too envrionment friendly, its a gd sign in both ways. haha. )
ok. i'm off to do project. i wanna finish by like TODAY. nite.
Monday, June 19, 2006
wad with doc and MCs?
they give it like for free can.
juz because of some bug,
i have 5 DAYS barred from PE.
at this rate ar, will be gg no where la.
last time also mc here and there. now again. forever.
AND.
i want to complain.
clealy, it states Consultation hours from 8.30am-12pm. the nurses come at 9.55am to open the gate, or rather, open the clince. then the doc comes at 10.15am.
TOTAL rubbish and un-discipline. come on lar. 1hr 45mins is wasted like that. think abt those poor old ladies and uncles.
i was in the queue at 9.35am. at 11.55am, then i saw the doc. so much waiting time wasted juz like that.
is taking time off = to what u and i strongly objects?
they give it like for free can.
juz because of some bug,
i have 5 DAYS barred from PE.
at this rate ar, will be gg no where la.
last time also mc here and there. now again. forever.
AND.
i want to complain.
clealy, it states Consultation hours from 8.30am-12pm. the nurses come at 9.55am to open the gate, or rather, open the clince. then the doc comes at 10.15am.
TOTAL rubbish and un-discipline. come on lar. 1hr 45mins is wasted like that. think abt those poor old ladies and uncles.
i was in the queue at 9.35am. at 11.55am, then i saw the doc. so much waiting time wasted juz like that.
is taking time off = to what u and i strongly objects?
Sunday, June 18, 2006
happy Father's day.
yea. right. thanks.
thats for Heavenly Father up there.
today, we could have been out eating a nice big dinner, happily talking nonsense away.
but u know wad. i'm at home. alone with only my rm lights on. sucks
thank God for today's trng.
its my first trng for tp.
i got my tp shirt with my name on it. am proud of it. its for league, officially i think.
wanted to visit him. but i can't. and i dun want to visit him with my mum, coz i can't spend time with dad either.
anyways.
'arjapeworjkepwoai09awmvr90awmi34r'w4r/;awlk4r.
un-coded data in my head.
need a processor to proccess it to information.
but, my processor is already has been used by a screwdriver, nicely put it.
thats for Heavenly Father up there.
today, we could have been out eating a nice big dinner, happily talking nonsense away.
but u know wad. i'm at home. alone with only my rm lights on. sucks
thank God for today's trng.
its my first trng for tp.
i got my tp shirt with my name on it. am proud of it. its for league, officially i think.
wanted to visit him. but i can't. and i dun want to visit him with my mum, coz i can't spend time with dad either.
anyways.
'arjapeworjkepwoai09awmvr90awmi34r'w4r/;awlk4r.
un-coded data in my head.
need a processor to proccess it to information.
but, my processor is already has been used by a screwdriver, nicely put it.
Saturday, June 17, 2006
sentosa
with church.. ministry time.
had gd fellowship.
in gd sun.
u know wad.
we can't meet up the whole of next wk. coz u'll be in wherever and when u're back, i'm gone for camps.
so yea.
things are goona be left as it is.
because...
ANYWAYS. my dance rectial is goona take up 1st and 2nd dec. which means 3rd of dec for mn trip06. i'll still think abt it. considering that tp only allows me to take 1 wk leave.
the screwdriver
to be the screwdriver,
is to create more turns.
and to even go deeper,
is to inflict more burns.
a hole is made,
specially for your sake.
but as the hole is being made,
we still gotta keep awake.
deafening silence is enough to kill,
coz trust me, i'd never will.
but hesitations seem to creep all over me,
can thou art still smile with glee?
why is this like skating on thin ice?
why are we having energy levels seemingly w/o rice?
yes, though the ice is transparent,
any weight would thus make it barren.
nv liked being a screwdriver.
coz like u've said,i've screwed one.
i'm still as tt scrwedriver,
being left without power.
b4 i carry on,
i have so ask for forgiveness for such crude usuage of language.
it seems like i can find no better words to replace 'screw',
because my limited vocab is like stucked with glue.
i nv liked being a screwdriver,
as i am to you now.
i've been a heavy burden,
trying to reduce ur burns.
to bring all to a hault,
i'd be terribly at fault.
i want to let go, to continue being that screwdrvier you,
but we're stil gonna be stuck in this state of blue.
brothers, happily we can be.
but i know, we're sure to flee.
we want a greater depth,
and that's where the screwdriver is heavily in debt.
go think about this.
every line is nv typed with ease.
with the risk of the conecept of perception,
i'm really afraid that it'll be a misconception.
probably this whole thing is juz plain wrong.
i duno how else better to describe but using songs.
you know what i mean,
but, is all taht's seen, seen?
i guess in this battle,
we've got tons to settle.
however, time still holds that barrier,
yet being another of Satan's carrier.
this is nv easy.
i nv thought it'll be so sucky.
but i believe we can make the decsion,
which i'll move on to the next section.
what if really, brothers we're ought to be?
what does our hearts see?
is that screwdriver still as sharp?
that its staring to break u apart?
this poem, i hope, only u can make sense out of it.
i dun want many to have misleading feeds.
only u i hope will grasp the words in between the lines,
which only u, i hope, will find.
had gd fellowship.
in gd sun.
u know wad.
we can't meet up the whole of next wk. coz u'll be in wherever and when u're back, i'm gone for camps.
so yea.
things are goona be left as it is.
because...
ANYWAYS. my dance rectial is goona take up 1st and 2nd dec. which means 3rd of dec for mn trip06. i'll still think abt it. considering that tp only allows me to take 1 wk leave.
the screwdriver
to be the screwdriver,
is to create more turns.
and to even go deeper,
is to inflict more burns.
a hole is made,
specially for your sake.
but as the hole is being made,
we still gotta keep awake.
deafening silence is enough to kill,
coz trust me, i'd never will.
but hesitations seem to creep all over me,
can thou art still smile with glee?
why is this like skating on thin ice?
why are we having energy levels seemingly w/o rice?
yes, though the ice is transparent,
any weight would thus make it barren.
nv liked being a screwdriver.
coz like u've said,i've screwed one.
i'm still as tt scrwedriver,
being left without power.
b4 i carry on,
i have so ask for forgiveness for such crude usuage of language.
it seems like i can find no better words to replace 'screw',
because my limited vocab is like stucked with glue.
i nv liked being a screwdriver,
as i am to you now.
i've been a heavy burden,
trying to reduce ur burns.
to bring all to a hault,
i'd be terribly at fault.
i want to let go, to continue being that screwdrvier you,
but we're stil gonna be stuck in this state of blue.
brothers, happily we can be.
but i know, we're sure to flee.
we want a greater depth,
and that's where the screwdriver is heavily in debt.
go think about this.
every line is nv typed with ease.
with the risk of the conecept of perception,
i'm really afraid that it'll be a misconception.
probably this whole thing is juz plain wrong.
i duno how else better to describe but using songs.
you know what i mean,
but, is all taht's seen, seen?
i guess in this battle,
we've got tons to settle.
however, time still holds that barrier,
yet being another of Satan's carrier.
this is nv easy.
i nv thought it'll be so sucky.
but i believe we can make the decsion,
which i'll move on to the next section.
what if really, brothers we're ought to be?
what does our hearts see?
is that screwdriver still as sharp?
that its staring to break u apart?
this poem, i hope, only u can make sense out of it.
i dun want many to have misleading feeds.
only u i hope will grasp the words in between the lines,
which only u, i hope, will find.
Friday, June 16, 2006
well. got stuff to do. kinda excitied. mission trip 06 schedule is out! now left pending is my dance recital that'll deteremine when i'll go to the trip.
i'm alitttle afraid.
i duno why i am or how i should be. but i guess after all that's happened, i tend to hesitate more.. which can be a gd thing.
hmm. was chatting on msn. interestingly, 2 ppl fronm 2 diff worlds, on 2 diff subject matters ask me the same thing. haha.
jeremy says: we got to meet up next week
jeremy says: are you free on friday or sat ?
timothy says: ohhh
timothy says: next friday or sat ?
had pacesetters intereview in the morning. ahah. the quiz on tp.. ahha. goona fail flat man. ahhah. they ask q like. how many lecture halls are there. ahha. really felt that i duno tp well enough. which is true la. haha.
then was swimming.
no stamina. couldn't catchh my breaths properly. to comfort myself, points to the virus. haha.
ohoh.
I got new earrings today! haha. yes. earrings.
coz i can't wear my loop earrings for trngs.. and certain studs can be dangerous too. so yea. got this 'safe' earring.
btw. thanks for today is juz gd.
Lion Red will be organising their Touch Carnival on 2nd July 2006. Details as below:
Date: July 2, Sunday
Time: 9.00am to 5.00pm
Venue: Petir Road Open Field
Team Fee: $200/team (incl Goodie Bags) - by cash/cheque
Categories: Men's Open, Women's Premiere Open (Club), Women's Novice Open (School/Social group), Mix Open
dun think i'm gg. thinking of the MILK run thing.
i'm so enouraged by my junior, cass' testimonial. so much reminders though a short line. Amen. thank God for friends like her.
Artist: Avril Lavigne Lyrics
Song: Slipped Away Lyrics
Na na, na na na, na na
I miss you, miss you so bad
I don't forget you, oh it's so sad
I hope you can hear me
I remember it clearly
The day you slipped away
Was the day I found it won't be the same
Ooooh
Na na la la la na na
I didn't get around to kiss you
Goodbye on the hand
I wish that I could see you again
I know that I can't
Oooooh
I hope you can hear me cause I remember it clearly
The day you slipped away
Was the day I found it won't be the same
Ooooh
I had my wake up
Won't you wake up
I keep asking why
And I can't take it
It wasn't fake
It happened, you passed by
Now your gone, now your gone
There you go, there you go
Somewhere I can't bring you back
Now your gone, now your gone
There you go, there you go,
Somewhere your not coming back
The day you slipped away
Was the day i found it won't be the same noo..
The day you slipped away
Was the day that i found it won't be the same oooh...
Nah nah, nah nah nah, nah nah
I miss you
i'm alitttle afraid.
i duno why i am or how i should be. but i guess after all that's happened, i tend to hesitate more.. which can be a gd thing.
hmm. was chatting on msn. interestingly, 2 ppl fronm 2 diff worlds, on 2 diff subject matters ask me the same thing. haha.
jeremy says: we got to meet up next week
jeremy says: are you free on friday or sat ?
timothy says: ohhh
timothy says: next friday or sat ?
had pacesetters intereview in the morning. ahah. the quiz on tp.. ahha. goona fail flat man. ahhah. they ask q like. how many lecture halls are there. ahha. really felt that i duno tp well enough. which is true la. haha.
then was swimming.
no stamina. couldn't catchh my breaths properly. to comfort myself, points to the virus. haha.
ohoh.
I got new earrings today! haha. yes. earrings.
coz i can't wear my loop earrings for trngs.. and certain studs can be dangerous too. so yea. got this 'safe' earring.
btw. thanks for today is juz gd.
Lion Red will be organising their Touch Carnival on 2nd July 2006. Details as below:
Date: July 2, Sunday
Time: 9.00am to 5.00pm
Venue: Petir Road Open Field
Team Fee: $200/team (incl Goodie Bags) - by cash/cheque
Categories: Men's Open, Women's Premiere Open (Club), Women's Novice Open (School/Social group), Mix Open
dun think i'm gg. thinking of the MILK run thing.
i'm so enouraged by my junior, cass' testimonial. so much reminders though a short line. Amen. thank God for friends like her.
Artist: Avril Lavigne Lyrics
Song: Slipped Away Lyrics
Na na, na na na, na na
I miss you, miss you so bad
I don't forget you, oh it's so sad
I hope you can hear me
I remember it clearly
The day you slipped away
Was the day I found it won't be the same
Ooooh
Na na la la la na na
I didn't get around to kiss you
Goodbye on the hand
I wish that I could see you again
I know that I can't
Oooooh
I hope you can hear me cause I remember it clearly
The day you slipped away
Was the day I found it won't be the same
Ooooh
I had my wake up
Won't you wake up
I keep asking why
And I can't take it
It wasn't fake
It happened, you passed by
Now your gone, now your gone
There you go, there you go
Somewhere I can't bring you back
Now your gone, now your gone
There you go, there you go,
Somewhere your not coming back
The day you slipped away
Was the day i found it won't be the same noo..
The day you slipped away
Was the day that i found it won't be the same oooh...
Nah nah, nah nah nah, nah nah
I miss you
Thursday, June 15, 2006
i feel like...
believe it anot. superman. haha.
okok. so . today. i settle my photo stuff and took 2hrs to find the place.
its called selegie arts centre.. in total.. i asked abt 8 ppl. none know. until, i found it by MYSELF.
and u know whats the funny think abt it, i walked passed that area upteen times, nv lookin up at the sign. hilarious. NVM.
then. i asked some ladies sitting at the cafe downstairs of the building (yes, the building that i was finding).. they say they duno where's there.!
then then. i went up to this gentle man. facing the direction of the building. to be specific.. he was facing the sign which say "selegie arts centre" then he say he nv hear of it b4.
NVM.
instict.. or rather, thanks to God's prompting,i looked up- i saw the sign.
man. i wasn't delighted as i should be. haha. i felt like. OH MAN. so much wasted time can.
anyways. with that, i said bye to my 6 pics. and then headed off for trng.
today's trng quite tiring. trained quads, dump, pic ups, 3-men. ok lar. i was abit disappointed that i felt tired within the 2nd set of first station of the whole trng. nic said my face was puffy.. so did my mama said to me in the morning.
but i didn't pay attention to it.
but. i thnk today, for me, is the most motivated trng i have had so far.. i felt i've done pretty alright. juz need stamina.. then coach today complimented me. duh. happy lar. not often i get such compliments can. with that, i went on, trying ot put in more that i can.
aha. then in the middle.. i lao sai can. so ran to the toilet. thank God for mud.. coz like no diff. ok. sounds pro-lly disgusting. but yea. aha
thank God for seniors. they really look out and tell u ur mistake. i like it when ppl tell u straight abt ur mistake. rather then gg round and get nowhere.
i'm motivated to train myself. i dun think i'll be running running kind. see how it goes lar. i hope to train more techniques at the same time, build stamina.
monday i can't go trng coz i'll be having bowling, which i must go. so yea.
ok. then. i think i should be a gd girl to go see doc. coz i dun feel right. ahha. i didn't feel sick.. but felt that i was gg to be v sick.
then went to see doc after trng.
he said it was tonsilitis. hmm.. right. and its kinda serious coz its pusing. yes . gross. and and. wads amzing is that he said i got fever. ya lar.. virus.. expected and all.. but i didn't feel feverish! juz felt weak and tired. thinking its probably due to trng. ahha.
felt so so victorious when he showed me a 38.5 and gave me that raising-eye brown thing. haha. (:
he said its probably coz of the old virus, still in me. darn. viruses seem to love me. coz since march. i've been sick due to viruses. like major ones. 2 of which landed me in the hospital. aahah. then the doc was like, "if u dun take care, u'll land up in the hospital again ar" ahha. and i tell u, he was serious abt dat. coz he's like family doc lar.. dr. wee.. so ya. i'll take care. yes.
i guess for a record in my life.. this yr is the yr which i'm so oftenly sick. bah! weak immune system. grr.
anwyays. solo juz told me tt his dad has a minor strokE. PRAY PLS CAN.
seriouslly. thank GOD that he's in ttsh and not cgh. he asked me abt my dad and all.. and then. i just realised. its been coming 3 YRS. and i hapily told him that is was in 2004 that he fell.. but was actualy 2003.
3 yrs.
not an ez 3 yrs.
lookin back. so much changes. both inside out. my family. and my hdb flat.
my life. my emo state. my phy state.
all changes.
ANYWAYS.
thank God that the photo stuff is DONE AND OVER. juz have to wait for results and embrace for the loss of $40 on the preparation, or anticipated $5,000, which i highly doubts.
pray for ppl aroung us.
some are hurt.
some are struggling.
some have fallen.
some have yet to stand up.
btw. to bowlers who's been askin me why i didn't join national age grp. coz i wasn't in sg for singles.(6games) so no lor. ahha. yea.
okok. so . today. i settle my photo stuff and took 2hrs to find the place.
its called selegie arts centre.. in total.. i asked abt 8 ppl. none know. until, i found it by MYSELF.
and u know whats the funny think abt it, i walked passed that area upteen times, nv lookin up at the sign. hilarious. NVM.
then. i asked some ladies sitting at the cafe downstairs of the building (yes, the building that i was finding).. they say they duno where's there.!
then then. i went up to this gentle man. facing the direction of the building. to be specific.. he was facing the sign which say "selegie arts centre" then he say he nv hear of it b4.
NVM.
instict.. or rather, thanks to God's prompting,i looked up- i saw the sign.
man. i wasn't delighted as i should be. haha. i felt like. OH MAN. so much wasted time can.
anyways. with that, i said bye to my 6 pics. and then headed off for trng.
today's trng quite tiring. trained quads, dump, pic ups, 3-men. ok lar. i was abit disappointed that i felt tired within the 2nd set of first station of the whole trng. nic said my face was puffy.. so did my mama said to me in the morning.
but i didn't pay attention to it.
but. i thnk today, for me, is the most motivated trng i have had so far.. i felt i've done pretty alright. juz need stamina.. then coach today complimented me. duh. happy lar. not often i get such compliments can. with that, i went on, trying ot put in more that i can.
aha. then in the middle.. i lao sai can. so ran to the toilet. thank God for mud.. coz like no diff. ok. sounds pro-lly disgusting. but yea. aha
thank God for seniors. they really look out and tell u ur mistake. i like it when ppl tell u straight abt ur mistake. rather then gg round and get nowhere.
i'm motivated to train myself. i dun think i'll be running running kind. see how it goes lar. i hope to train more techniques at the same time, build stamina.
monday i can't go trng coz i'll be having bowling, which i must go. so yea.
ok. then. i think i should be a gd girl to go see doc. coz i dun feel right. ahha. i didn't feel sick.. but felt that i was gg to be v sick.
then went to see doc after trng.
he said it was tonsilitis. hmm.. right. and its kinda serious coz its pusing. yes . gross. and and. wads amzing is that he said i got fever. ya lar.. virus.. expected and all.. but i didn't feel feverish! juz felt weak and tired. thinking its probably due to trng. ahha.
felt so so victorious when he showed me a 38.5 and gave me that raising-eye brown thing. haha. (:
he said its probably coz of the old virus, still in me. darn. viruses seem to love me. coz since march. i've been sick due to viruses. like major ones. 2 of which landed me in the hospital. aahah. then the doc was like, "if u dun take care, u'll land up in the hospital again ar" ahha. and i tell u, he was serious abt dat. coz he's like family doc lar.. dr. wee.. so ya. i'll take care. yes.
i guess for a record in my life.. this yr is the yr which i'm so oftenly sick. bah! weak immune system. grr.
anwyays. solo juz told me tt his dad has a minor strokE. PRAY PLS CAN.
seriouslly. thank GOD that he's in ttsh and not cgh. he asked me abt my dad and all.. and then. i just realised. its been coming 3 YRS. and i hapily told him that is was in 2004 that he fell.. but was actualy 2003.
3 yrs.
not an ez 3 yrs.
lookin back. so much changes. both inside out. my family. and my hdb flat.
my life. my emo state. my phy state.
all changes.
ANYWAYS.
thank God that the photo stuff is DONE AND OVER. juz have to wait for results and embrace for the loss of $40 on the preparation, or anticipated $5,000, which i highly doubts.
pray for ppl aroung us.
some are hurt.
some are struggling.
some have fallen.
some have yet to stand up.
btw. to bowlers who's been askin me why i didn't join national age grp. coz i wasn't in sg for singles.(6games) so no lor. ahha. yea.
Wednesday, June 14, 2006
everything.
hmm. should i close this blog?
no particular reason. maybe i want ppl to know less abt me.
but then again. this blog is another mode of sharing God's promises.
coz its not that often tt u can detailedly share with others abt ur day.
then again, the ranting part. i dun need a blog to rant. i can do it anywhere. but at times, to get attention, which i admit, this blog serves a v public mean.
thus.
i'm gonna say that church camp has been a blessing for me this year.
i wanna thank 3 major earthly men.
- Uncle kok chi
- uncle choon beng
- uncle eugene quek quek.
they've helped me evaluate the photos. the technical bits. they told me a few pointers to edit using photoshop.. can't rmbr all though.. they taugt me abt photography till 12am. yea.
thank God for elaine too. she co-ordinated the dance. heard that it was v v gd and nice. yea.
btw. thank God for kim today. she helped me with the photoshopping til her com batt died on us. yea. so i'm printing TMR. pls pray for sufficient time and gd quality. i really hope that my shots aren't seen so heavily on the technical bit.
i'm nervous.
ok.back at camp. thank God for aunty Chris. coz she's been really tired, all over.but still relying on God's strength to carry on with the enthu stuff with the kids.
my rm mates.. bernice, debbie and rach.. for being find-able for keys.
the drivers who save the 11 sheep up in the cold mountain when we first reached at 4am. AH BENG, unc. eugene, aunty violet, uncle tim. oh yes, on this, my rm mates too who were slping. bernice and debbie...
the kind bus driver on the way up who gave us a bottle of water.
the adults. esp uncle clarence who pointed to ah beng and said. "eh. ur daughter ar?", causing me to almost fall coz of e outburst of sharp laughters. the pray co-ordinaters.. coz faithfully wake up so early. esp uncle vincent who always seem to get enough sleep.
oh yes. and shaun's mum who said this to me (exact words btw..), "whoa marian, u saved the day!".
and yes, i did i once again. coz it was offerty. was suppose to help my mama usher. so yea. was infront with char.. the rest of e ushers were behind.. so i think they didn't expect offerty to be so fast. so i ran there and helped them. amen. haha.
ulrica!, glen, jasper neale and auny siew. my first and last morning run. i got like almost lost in the literally pitch black kind of environment. it was so scary. so dark. can't even see ur hand that's stretched out. high hill on ur right.. on the left is pitch black grass patch from the golf course and more trees. in fear, u turn back. and saw aunty siew.
dr criag. how cool!. yo man. he's so intereerersting. amazed by his expression when he shares. yea. abt spiritual gifts.
lastly, new portrays of ppl:
neale(ex-taxer collector);now tarzan
winston (still superman), now tarzan
uncle vincent (former dr. doom(smth like that)), now, Jane. yes. Jane.
ya. ok. there's still more.but this the outstanding ones.
today's been _____.
ok. gd nite.
thank God for this camp.
Everything- Lifehouse
Find Me Here
Speak To Me
I want to feel you
I need to hear you
You are the light
That's leading me
To the place where I find peace again.
You are the strength, that keeps me walking.
You are the hope, that keeps me trusting.
You are the light to my soul.
You are my purpose...you're everything.
How can I stand here with you and not be moved by you?
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?
You calm the storms, and you give me rest.
You hold me in your hands, you won't let me fall.
You steal my heart, and you take my breath away.
Would you take me in? Take me deeper now?
How can I stand here with you and not be moved by you?
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?
And how can I stand here with you and not be moved by you?
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?
Cause you're all I want, You're all I need
You're everything,everything
You're all I want you're all I need
You're everything, everything.
You're all I want you're all I need.
You're everything, everything
You're all I want you're all I need, you're everything, everything.
And How can I stand here with you and not be moved by you?
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?
How can I stand here with you and not be moved by you?
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?
How can I stand here with you and not be moved by you?
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?
no particular reason. maybe i want ppl to know less abt me.
but then again. this blog is another mode of sharing God's promises.
coz its not that often tt u can detailedly share with others abt ur day.
then again, the ranting part. i dun need a blog to rant. i can do it anywhere. but at times, to get attention, which i admit, this blog serves a v public mean.
thus.
i'm gonna say that church camp has been a blessing for me this year.
i wanna thank 3 major earthly men.
- Uncle kok chi
- uncle choon beng
- uncle eugene quek quek.
they've helped me evaluate the photos. the technical bits. they told me a few pointers to edit using photoshop.. can't rmbr all though.. they taugt me abt photography till 12am. yea.
thank God for elaine too. she co-ordinated the dance. heard that it was v v gd and nice. yea.
btw. thank God for kim today. she helped me with the photoshopping til her com batt died on us. yea. so i'm printing TMR. pls pray for sufficient time and gd quality. i really hope that my shots aren't seen so heavily on the technical bit.
i'm nervous.
ok.back at camp. thank God for aunty Chris. coz she's been really tired, all over.but still relying on God's strength to carry on with the enthu stuff with the kids.
my rm mates.. bernice, debbie and rach.. for being find-able for keys.
the drivers who save the 11 sheep up in the cold mountain when we first reached at 4am. AH BENG, unc. eugene, aunty violet, uncle tim. oh yes, on this, my rm mates too who were slping. bernice and debbie...
the kind bus driver on the way up who gave us a bottle of water.
the adults. esp uncle clarence who pointed to ah beng and said. "eh. ur daughter ar?", causing me to almost fall coz of e outburst of sharp laughters. the pray co-ordinaters.. coz faithfully wake up so early. esp uncle vincent who always seem to get enough sleep.
oh yes. and shaun's mum who said this to me (exact words btw..), "whoa marian, u saved the day!".
and yes, i did i once again. coz it was offerty. was suppose to help my mama usher. so yea. was infront with char.. the rest of e ushers were behind.. so i think they didn't expect offerty to be so fast. so i ran there and helped them. amen. haha.
ulrica!, glen, jasper neale and auny siew. my first and last morning run. i got like almost lost in the literally pitch black kind of environment. it was so scary. so dark. can't even see ur hand that's stretched out. high hill on ur right.. on the left is pitch black grass patch from the golf course and more trees. in fear, u turn back. and saw aunty siew.
dr criag. how cool!. yo man. he's so intereerersting. amazed by his expression when he shares. yea. abt spiritual gifts.
lastly, new portrays of ppl:
neale(ex-taxer collector);now tarzan
winston (still superman), now tarzan
uncle vincent (former dr. doom(smth like that)), now, Jane. yes. Jane.
ya. ok. there's still more.but this the outstanding ones.
today's been _____.
ok. gd nite.
thank God for this camp.
Everything- Lifehouse
Find Me Here
Speak To Me
I want to feel you
I need to hear you
You are the light
That's leading me
To the place where I find peace again.
You are the strength, that keeps me walking.
You are the hope, that keeps me trusting.
You are the light to my soul.
You are my purpose...you're everything.
How can I stand here with you and not be moved by you?
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?
You calm the storms, and you give me rest.
You hold me in your hands, you won't let me fall.
You steal my heart, and you take my breath away.
Would you take me in? Take me deeper now?
How can I stand here with you and not be moved by you?
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?
And how can I stand here with you and not be moved by you?
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?
Cause you're all I want, You're all I need
You're everything,everything
You're all I want you're all I need
You're everything, everything.
You're all I want you're all I need.
You're everything, everything
You're all I want you're all I need, you're everything, everything.
And How can I stand here with you and not be moved by you?
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?
How can I stand here with you and not be moved by you?
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?
How can I stand here with you and not be moved by you?
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?
Thursday, June 08, 2006
whee.
haha.
csa paper.
i have to say. its a breeze.
i told myself when i came to poly, nv to leave an exam hall b4 e allocated time is up (coz we are allowed to). but today. i couldn't help getting up from my seat, and joining the crowd in handing in the paper.
haha. i nv believe in handing in ur paper early, w/o giving up. but i did.
haha. well.
ok lar. for the fact that i read the txtbk and read notes in the morning.
i thank God. coz i said a short plea b4 i studied... like
"God ar, pls help.. my eye closing liao. pray that on the moments that i open, it'll be ans to the qs for tmr's paper."
and God, forever being faithful, has again, been faithful.
went shopping with jannah, liying, jeremy, matthew, leonard, and amanda. haha. for business presentaion clothing. after lunch.. left liying amanda n jeremy. haha. abit interesting to shop for clothes with 3 girls 1 guy. haha.
alright lar. i got my socks! (: so happy can. 3 for $19. ex for socks lar. but its adidas. so yea. then. saw this esprit blouse. smth that's ladylike enough. so i'm still contemplating....
i like this shirt from dorthy perkins. issit that shop? so many shops.. can't really rmbr. but yea. its a male shirt lar. looks huge on me though it says ,s..
thus, left me, contemplating..
then then. at suntech. i saw the results of a photography competion. the nus one.
haha. lo and behold. i know 2 ppl featured in 2 of the art pieces. ahaha.
first. i saw a photo of the soccer match between vjc and sajc. i think. coz if im not wrong, i saw jeremy's face. i was like. ahahha! my OG! haha.
then then. is saw the photo taken by jon leow's bro.. he sent to andrew.. which sent to me. then then.. i saw the same photo on the wall. that photo was prized with merit can!! so pro. ahha. i was like eh! i know all these ppl! i have this is my computer! ahha.
but on the whole. the whole thing juz freaks me out. coz it brings me to a pt whereby i should lower my hopes for the sypa competion. i have afeeling its goona be tough tough tough. its from 13ys-25yrs. so i'm sure there's ppl from photography club and like some freelance photographers competing with me, who uses a digital camera.
ahha. then on the way to sara's house at suntec still..was walking. then i ssaw shaun and zhenxiong (sajc bowling) so said hi and all. then after that i walked abt 3steps, looked right.. and saw my swl WOONG YEW LIANG and cg-mate mabel! ahhaha. i really miss all those ppl. then then. b4 that, i saw mr. __. ahha. i forgot wad's his name.. but its one of those SAJC PE head. man. somehow, i miss the PE tchrs in SAJC. coz they're ultra caring though can me fierce. haha. soo glad that i saw yl. coz its been ages.
then went on my way..
on another note...
i've got gd news! in a way... coz rugby camp is changed to 22-24th! ahha. which means i can go! but i only can on from 23 onwards. yishun pri sch camp on 21 & 22.
hmm. i'm finally able to get into tpiranhas web.. and read alot of their past posts.. like their rugby matches and all.
i really wanna be like there. like able to keep playing matches after matches. unlinke bowling, rugby requires much less $$ and its more active in a way. bowling, on the other hand, is more of challenging and mind bogging at times.
i guess. at the end of the day, i have to really sit down, and ask myself..
bowling /rugby /triathalon ?
coz i have 7days. triathalon is enough to make me sleep like a log after a sesson. (btw.. coach called me ytd asking me abt my absence. coz of exams la. man. feel to lousy lar haha) then as for bowling. i have wadeva i'm having.. like my equip, skills, and of course, still that undying passion.. and so many goals. coz i wanna rep e nation one day. ahha. aspiring anot? haha. but yea. it'll take alot more lar. have no where near there now.
then rugby. its like. oko k shooosh. i'd better settle down in touch and get some skills out of it. ahha. not even able to play a quick proper game now.
and then....
there's still piano. i've been secretly gg to sara's house.. juz to play the piano. i know like her whole family alreayd. like her grandma also. ahha. sara knows that i go to her house lar..but she's not at home. ahha. hilarious can.
coz really. i like music.
come to thnk of it.
all in all.
having undyign passions a abit scary. w/o the right mindset of having to priortise in alignment with God's plan, its not gd. wait. its bad.
i'm glad that i've like woken lar not that i've been asleep. but i have to admint that i've been to self-indulgent. too deluded. to plain emo-ish. its not goona do me or anyone gd. in fact, it literally makes the world go so so dark and dull.
i'm goona 'return' to back to where i was. i'll strive. its still not goona b ez blockin negative bolts of words.
but then again..
how can i not thank God? its like so many opportunites to. nv will He be put at the back of my head. coz i can't. unless, (sinfully, i have to admit) exams seem to be of higher importance its smth that i've really been struggling ever since dunno when. to really prioritise God over evyerhing.
when will we listen?
only after we implement intermitten consequences? (haha. ob, again)
i think i've typed alot already.
coz..
I'M gg church camp tmr night!
haha. be happy abt it. at least i'm able to go! haha. i think they're safe already. ahha.a duh. they left at 6am this morning. haha. its only like 12hrs and i'm missing them?! hahah. and its goona be another 30hrs till i see them. ahah.
when i'm back. i have to get serious with.. haha.
-photography the deadline is 2 days away.
- promised coach to go train. everyday 7pm. swim.
- bowling tournament. on thurs.
- projectwrk. the rare times that i can meet up.
- promised ulrica to go gym with her. its been long since we've done that.
- swim temasek, wed and fri. hafta complete the thing.
- rugby trngs. mon(yes, after reaching back, see if got time to cab to trng)
- yishun pri sch mtng.
ahha.
all in 1 week.
fun eh? haha.
no, i'm not stressed. coz God's with me. i'm learning.. but i'd know when's da brim. dun worry. aha. i'm excitied!
Amen.
God is good, all the time.
to end off, goona post today's daily verse as u can see on ur upper right..
“ The Sovereign LORD is my strength; he makes my feet like the feet of a deer, he enables me to go on the heights. For the director of music. On my stringed instruments. ” (Habakkuk 3:19)
csa paper.
i have to say. its a breeze.
i told myself when i came to poly, nv to leave an exam hall b4 e allocated time is up (coz we are allowed to). but today. i couldn't help getting up from my seat, and joining the crowd in handing in the paper.
haha. i nv believe in handing in ur paper early, w/o giving up. but i did.
haha. well.
ok lar. for the fact that i read the txtbk and read notes in the morning.
i thank God. coz i said a short plea b4 i studied... like
"God ar, pls help.. my eye closing liao. pray that on the moments that i open, it'll be ans to the qs for tmr's paper."
and God, forever being faithful, has again, been faithful.
went shopping with jannah, liying, jeremy, matthew, leonard, and amanda. haha. for business presentaion clothing. after lunch.. left liying amanda n jeremy. haha. abit interesting to shop for clothes with 3 girls 1 guy. haha.
alright lar. i got my socks! (: so happy can. 3 for $19. ex for socks lar. but its adidas. so yea. then. saw this esprit blouse. smth that's ladylike enough. so i'm still contemplating....
i like this shirt from dorthy perkins. issit that shop? so many shops.. can't really rmbr. but yea. its a male shirt lar. looks huge on me though it says ,s..
thus, left me, contemplating..
then then. at suntech. i saw the results of a photography competion. the nus one.
haha. lo and behold. i know 2 ppl featured in 2 of the art pieces. ahaha.
first. i saw a photo of the soccer match between vjc and sajc. i think. coz if im not wrong, i saw jeremy's face. i was like. ahahha! my OG! haha.
then then. is saw the photo taken by jon leow's bro.. he sent to andrew.. which sent to me. then then.. i saw the same photo on the wall. that photo was prized with merit can!! so pro. ahha. i was like eh! i know all these ppl! i have this is my computer! ahha.
but on the whole. the whole thing juz freaks me out. coz it brings me to a pt whereby i should lower my hopes for the sypa competion. i have afeeling its goona be tough tough tough. its from 13ys-25yrs. so i'm sure there's ppl from photography club and like some freelance photographers competing with me, who uses a digital camera.
ahha. then on the way to sara's house at suntec still..was walking. then i ssaw shaun and zhenxiong (sajc bowling) so said hi and all. then after that i walked abt 3steps, looked right.. and saw my swl WOONG YEW LIANG and cg-mate mabel! ahhaha. i really miss all those ppl. then then. b4 that, i saw mr. __. ahha. i forgot wad's his name.. but its one of those SAJC PE head. man. somehow, i miss the PE tchrs in SAJC. coz they're ultra caring though can me fierce. haha. soo glad that i saw yl. coz its been ages.
then went on my way..
on another note...
i've got gd news! in a way... coz rugby camp is changed to 22-24th! ahha. which means i can go! but i only can on from 23 onwards. yishun pri sch camp on 21 & 22.
hmm. i'm finally able to get into tpiranhas web.. and read alot of their past posts.. like their rugby matches and all.
i really wanna be like there. like able to keep playing matches after matches. unlinke bowling, rugby requires much less $$ and its more active in a way. bowling, on the other hand, is more of challenging and mind bogging at times.
i guess. at the end of the day, i have to really sit down, and ask myself..
bowling /rugby /triathalon ?
coz i have 7days. triathalon is enough to make me sleep like a log after a sesson. (btw.. coach called me ytd asking me abt my absence. coz of exams la. man. feel to lousy lar haha) then as for bowling. i have wadeva i'm having.. like my equip, skills, and of course, still that undying passion.. and so many goals. coz i wanna rep e nation one day. ahha. aspiring anot? haha. but yea. it'll take alot more lar. have no where near there now.
then rugby. its like. oko k shooosh. i'd better settle down in touch and get some skills out of it. ahha. not even able to play a quick proper game now.
and then....
there's still piano. i've been secretly gg to sara's house.. juz to play the piano. i know like her whole family alreayd. like her grandma also. ahha. sara knows that i go to her house lar..but she's not at home. ahha. hilarious can.
coz really. i like music.
come to thnk of it.
all in all.
having undyign passions a abit scary. w/o the right mindset of having to priortise in alignment with God's plan, its not gd. wait. its bad.
i'm glad that i've like woken lar not that i've been asleep. but i have to admint that i've been to self-indulgent. too deluded. to plain emo-ish. its not goona do me or anyone gd. in fact, it literally makes the world go so so dark and dull.
i'm goona 'return' to back to where i was. i'll strive. its still not goona b ez blockin negative bolts of words.
but then again..
how can i not thank God? its like so many opportunites to. nv will He be put at the back of my head. coz i can't. unless, (sinfully, i have to admit) exams seem to be of higher importance its smth that i've really been struggling ever since dunno when. to really prioritise God over evyerhing.
when will we listen?
only after we implement intermitten consequences? (haha. ob, again)
i think i've typed alot already.
coz..
I'M gg church camp tmr night!
haha. be happy abt it. at least i'm able to go! haha. i think they're safe already. ahha.a duh. they left at 6am this morning. haha. its only like 12hrs and i'm missing them?! hahah. and its goona be another 30hrs till i see them. ahah.
when i'm back. i have to get serious with.. haha.
-photography the deadline is 2 days away.
- promised coach to go train. everyday 7pm. swim.
- bowling tournament. on thurs.
- projectwrk. the rare times that i can meet up.
- promised ulrica to go gym with her. its been long since we've done that.
- swim temasek, wed and fri. hafta complete the thing.
- rugby trngs. mon(yes, after reaching back, see if got time to cab to trng)
- yishun pri sch mtng.
ahha.
all in 1 week.
fun eh? haha.
no, i'm not stressed. coz God's with me. i'm learning.. but i'd know when's da brim. dun worry. aha. i'm excitied!
Amen.
God is good, all the time.
to end off, goona post today's daily verse as u can see on ur upper right..
“ The Sovereign LORD is my strength; he makes my feet like the feet of a deer, he enables me to go on the heights. For the director of music. On my stringed instruments. ” (Habakkuk 3:19)
Wednesday, June 07, 2006
must do smth abt it.
music.
its like so limited. coz i've been all on chords and that's it. scales wise.. alright lar. but i duno music.
i've played classical guit, with the towgays and all. but its so limited.
thus.
i want to go further.
hahah.
just wait and hear. haha.
but i dun think it'll been soon that i do smth abt my music life..
gotta settle down with my sports life first.
anyways.
hah.
today's ob papers was alright lar. excpet that i forogt wad is personality attribute coz got so mixed up with other points from perception and e attribution theory. ahha. so it took me a gd 15mins to think abt it, and write down the most seemingly correct one, which in the end, turned out to be correct!
AMEN!
haha. oks. tmr's like csa.
really feel that reluctance to study.
after tmr's paper, gg out with classmates to find presentaion clothes! whaha. excitied (: really need their kindest help man. wasted la. jiayuan and mary can't go. anyways. haha. i've been told that be prepared with $150.
no way man!. haha.
we'll see how. no way i'm goona spend that kind of money on cloth. i'd rather get my bike, laptop and piano.
alrights. tmr church will be gg up to GENTING HIGHLANGS. i'm excitied. coz i heard the weather is cold! so exciting! it'll bring back memoraries of thailand. haha. yay. i wanna try running in that kind of climate. cool man. i'm excitied!
i can't wait to see them.
well.
pray for journey mercies. we shall not take God's grace for granted.
hmm.
its been a 14 day of similar struggle. i've decided to put them aside. coz God's da best and He knows what's best for me. i should not be emo possesing such low self-esteem.
i'll be that fighter again. (oh ma. reminds me of my dear tchr, mr. joseph lim.). he said that to me during b div. "where's that fighter marian that i always see?"
i'll nv forget that.
and u know wad.
sec sch tchrs in my life has played a big moulding structurer. not only with their knowledge that we've learnt smth, but with their hearts, we've treasured so much
yes. go ahead and tear. haha.
oh well. i really should go and like study csa.ahha. right. take care!
its like so limited. coz i've been all on chords and that's it. scales wise.. alright lar. but i duno music.
i've played classical guit, with the towgays and all. but its so limited.
thus.
i want to go further.
hahah.
just wait and hear. haha.
but i dun think it'll been soon that i do smth abt my music life..
gotta settle down with my sports life first.
anyways.
hah.
today's ob papers was alright lar. excpet that i forogt wad is personality attribute coz got so mixed up with other points from perception and e attribution theory. ahha. so it took me a gd 15mins to think abt it, and write down the most seemingly correct one, which in the end, turned out to be correct!
AMEN!
haha. oks. tmr's like csa.
really feel that reluctance to study.
after tmr's paper, gg out with classmates to find presentaion clothes! whaha. excitied (: really need their kindest help man. wasted la. jiayuan and mary can't go. anyways. haha. i've been told that be prepared with $150.
no way man!. haha.
we'll see how. no way i'm goona spend that kind of money on cloth. i'd rather get my bike, laptop and piano.
alrights. tmr church will be gg up to GENTING HIGHLANGS. i'm excitied. coz i heard the weather is cold! so exciting! it'll bring back memoraries of thailand. haha. yay. i wanna try running in that kind of climate. cool man. i'm excitied!
i can't wait to see them.
well.
pray for journey mercies. we shall not take God's grace for granted.
hmm.
its been a 14 day of similar struggle. i've decided to put them aside. coz God's da best and He knows what's best for me. i should not be emo possesing such low self-esteem.
i'll be that fighter again. (oh ma. reminds me of my dear tchr, mr. joseph lim.). he said that to me during b div. "where's that fighter marian that i always see?"
i'll nv forget that.
and u know wad.
sec sch tchrs in my life has played a big moulding structurer. not only with their knowledge that we've learnt smth, but with their hearts, we've treasured so much
yes. go ahead and tear. haha.
oh well. i really should go and like study csa.ahha. right. take care!
Tuesday, June 06, 2006
accounts.
waw alirght. but i forgot how to do balance sheet. and thus, couldn't balance.
ironoic that the question was on BOWLING. haha. yes. Coaching Fees Revenue is $2,500. i was like. for a year? ahha.
today, i had hunger pangs.
literally hungry for music. after e exam. was all ready to go sara's house and make noise. but coz no one was at home and thus, not v nice to break in.
so i quickly studies ob from 11-6 at laodifang with sara, grace p, n glen.. and then quickly go her ohuse play piano.
wah. gloria is amazing. tt's sara's sis by the way. she took like only 1wk to figure out laura sullivian's cannon in d which is abt 6mins? *claps. every key was right.
and she's like hmmm. 10? or 11 yrs?
u know wad.
i'm still cooped up in a nutshell.
its not abt by any external (haha. application of OB) factors.. but by 1 who doesn't seem to know.
ya, btw. tmr's Orgainisational Behaviour.
i juz dun seem to agree why must we teenagers study ppl's perception. we should all juz go through e experience. at e most, take up psychology.
i have 5/6? modules this sem. honestly, its abit hard to go from sciences and facts to perception, ideologies and things that are constantly changing.
3 of e modules (ob, computer system applicaiton, econs) keeps changing. i dun feel so so.. erks. hungry for facts facts and facts.
(man. i do sound like some nerd in the making)
but come to thing of it i agree to econs. because of Man's unlimited wants, we have to study econs.. so as to make full use of our scarse resource at a comfortable rate. (not the real defination though) haha.
the dateline for e photo thing is up soon.
and i'm not at all prepared. hohos.
i'm goona miss ppl in the church camp.. and i'm gonna say again. its because of an hr of CSA. bah!
I'm actually tired of thinking and being emo and all lar.
and YOU U WAD.
ahahhaha.
for big laughs, many unglam photos of my team and i are on e bowling website. ahha. she's a pro photographer, i assume. coz her camera is really huge.(halo effect. ahah. ob again) ahah. i'm not gonna tell u where. coz its unglam. thank God she didn't post the seriouly more unglam shots.
ironoic that the question was on BOWLING. haha. yes. Coaching Fees Revenue is $2,500. i was like. for a year? ahha.
today, i had hunger pangs.
literally hungry for music. after e exam. was all ready to go sara's house and make noise. but coz no one was at home and thus, not v nice to break in.
so i quickly studies ob from 11-6 at laodifang with sara, grace p, n glen.. and then quickly go her ohuse play piano.
wah. gloria is amazing. tt's sara's sis by the way. she took like only 1wk to figure out laura sullivian's cannon in d which is abt 6mins? *claps. every key was right.
and she's like hmmm. 10? or 11 yrs?
u know wad.
i'm still cooped up in a nutshell.
its not abt by any external (haha. application of OB) factors.. but by 1 who doesn't seem to know.
ya, btw. tmr's Orgainisational Behaviour.
i juz dun seem to agree why must we teenagers study ppl's perception. we should all juz go through e experience. at e most, take up psychology.
i have 5/6? modules this sem. honestly, its abit hard to go from sciences and facts to perception, ideologies and things that are constantly changing.
3 of e modules (ob, computer system applicaiton, econs) keeps changing. i dun feel so so.. erks. hungry for facts facts and facts.
(man. i do sound like some nerd in the making)
but come to thing of it i agree to econs. because of Man's unlimited wants, we have to study econs.. so as to make full use of our scarse resource at a comfortable rate. (not the real defination though) haha.
the dateline for e photo thing is up soon.
and i'm not at all prepared. hohos.
i'm goona miss ppl in the church camp.. and i'm gonna say again. its because of an hr of CSA. bah!
I'm actually tired of thinking and being emo and all lar.
and YOU U WAD.
ahahhaha.
for big laughs, many unglam photos of my team and i are on e bowling website. ahha. she's a pro photographer, i assume. coz her camera is really huge.(halo effect. ahah. ob again) ahah. i'm not gonna tell u where. coz its unglam. thank God she didn't post the seriouly more unglam shots.
Monday, June 05, 2006
econs exaam.
booo.
i did studied hard. but lacked appilcation.
straigtforward direct questions and put a (10m) there. scary can.
its like..
"write wad sia?!"
hmmm..
i realised that i miss zen's company.
those times we're in the same sch.. running around b4 cca start..
i miss sa.
i miss that team
i miss kc.
i miss that board.
i miss those crests.
those uniforms.
would u classify all these as greed?
then again. i'm gonna cherish everyday that God has given me.
i'll fight hard for gold.
i want it badly.
for the One who's blessed me with so much,
yet i take for granted.
i did studied hard. but lacked appilcation.
straigtforward direct questions and put a (10m) there. scary can.
its like..
"write wad sia?!"
hmmm..
i realised that i miss zen's company.
those times we're in the same sch.. running around b4 cca start..
i miss sa.
i miss that team
i miss kc.
i miss that board.
i miss those crests.
those uniforms.
would u classify all these as greed?
then again. i'm gonna cherish everyday that God has given me.
i'll fight hard for gold.
i want it badly.
for the One who's blessed me with so much,
yet i take for granted.
Saturday, June 03, 2006
horrible.
we came in 2nd and 12th out of 15 teams.
the tournament is so much difficult than i thought.
my 96-game was engough to pull my 20 positions down. hurhr.
we lost to singapore poly can! unforgivable. we use to dorminate and be defending.
we'll fight back next wk. i'm sure we will.
it'll b ours. tough fight.
anyways. last fri. went nite cycling.
had good wonton.
had good fellowship.
reached back church at around 4am.
hmm. using neale's meter.. from ecp tp pp is 6.333km. (: amazing short. compared to wad it seems. shall try after my exams.
i'm tired out
tmr i'm playing. pls pray for me. coz 2 songs are really the hyperly fast. and when i played today during prac, was literally gasping for air.. aunty alicern had to help to keep pace for me. thank God for her to be beside me.
why i'm asking for prayers is simply because the frontline. i mean mistakes are inevitable and all lar. but must try and work up to to the best to lead e cong with mininum distractions.
its like 12am. i'm still looking through photos. glen passed me alot of photos which took up 50% more of my 100GB drive.. lookin through thailand brings so much. so so much.. thanks!
i read ob today.
and have like 4 subjects to start on when exams is like next wk.
low self-esteeem.
sorry tofuman. (bahh. must change this thing coz 'tofuman' sounds wierd)
i'm battling it out now. yes. in the midst of preparations.
we came in 2nd and 12th out of 15 teams.
the tournament is so much difficult than i thought.
my 96-game was engough to pull my 20 positions down. hurhr.
we lost to singapore poly can! unforgivable. we use to dorminate and be defending.
we'll fight back next wk. i'm sure we will.
it'll b ours. tough fight.
anyways. last fri. went nite cycling.
had good wonton.
had good fellowship.
reached back church at around 4am.
hmm. using neale's meter.. from ecp tp pp is 6.333km. (: amazing short. compared to wad it seems. shall try after my exams.
i'm tired out
tmr i'm playing. pls pray for me. coz 2 songs are really the hyperly fast. and when i played today during prac, was literally gasping for air.. aunty alicern had to help to keep pace for me. thank God for her to be beside me.
why i'm asking for prayers is simply because the frontline. i mean mistakes are inevitable and all lar. but must try and work up to to the best to lead e cong with mininum distractions.
its like 12am. i'm still looking through photos. glen passed me alot of photos which took up 50% more of my 100GB drive.. lookin through thailand brings so much. so so much.. thanks!
i read ob today.
and have like 4 subjects to start on when exams is like next wk.
low self-esteeem.
sorry tofuman. (bahh. must change this thing coz 'tofuman' sounds wierd)
i'm battling it out now. yes. in the midst of preparations.
Friday, June 02, 2006
first game
today's the first day that i played for Temasek Poly.
its the 2nd Collegiate league.
quite happy to see all my fellow bowlers from elsewhere.. vj, sp and all.sam was there! and.... KAREN! AND DEAR UNC HENRY! Unc henry was there coz he was coaching the sg team bowlers. really miss his coaching.
hmm. i did fairly today. considering that the last time i bowled was during the trials..
but. i bowled like 96, 160,154.
with donald, larry and jeremy, beside vj t2. initially... was abit scary.
super bit shaky lar. 1st game couldn't get the timing, swing, release, everything. haha. then slowly lar. thank God for that.
the thought of bowling for tp.. defending champs for 2 consec yrs. so eveyone's goona like have high expectations. somemore.. my team.. guys have naturally higher scores lar. so afriad to pull my team down. thank God for daryl and astoria.. they aren't bowling to day. but came down to support. they helped me pick up alot. (: oh ya. thank daryl for treating the team to water!
ahaha. sam. he bowled a 18+, 21+, 23+ today. bonkers lar. he. gd game! gd game!
but i guess today, one thing i learn during a comp is to be focused during ur execution. once upon executing, dun think of anything but follow through ur line and target. give ur best shot.
anyways. really tired. i juz got home like at 11pm. man. thurs' gona be like that. doomed man.
saw karen's baby today. super duper cute. brown hair and eyes. and she keep smilng and playing. super adorable. the no.1 adorable baby man.
gotta see eye doc (issit optimitrian or smth? optimist kps pooping in my head) soon. my right eye seem ultimately blurr..i think its the astigma more than the degree...
well. i was nervous today. shouldn't have.
hmm. i aim la. this league must get into masters, do tp proud and show them wad's worth. today bowled abt 13+ avg. haha. looking positively, i registered for the 'brunswick' thing.. so have this 'most improved bowler' award. hopefully i can hit a 170-180 avg. that's my aim lar to be more realistic.
it'll be tough. as trng hasnt confirm yet.
hmm. on another note.
i've been thinking too much.
i've been over concerned.
i've wasted tears.
i've wasted energy.
i've gotta pull myself together.
to work for what God loves to see me doin.
i am strong.
i will be strong.
if God be my helper,
a shepherd i shall not want.
emo man.
i wanna thank esther this wk. for her sweetness and love and smiles and toilet breaks.
and u know wad.
God has given me so many opportunites to thank Him.
the current one which pride seems to my barrier is that... i thank God for placing me in TP.
i'm sure there's a purppose to it. was looking around during bowling today.looking at schs like sp, np, rp.. what if i'm there?
one of tp core sport is bowling. so its subsidised. we have a strong poool. i really do hope to keep up that legacy.
there's schs like vj, rj, sim, nus, ntu and all. and its like. whoa. i'm old. bowling with ppl hitting abv 20s.
wanted to bowl for national age group coming up. but the sad thing is that it clashes with e last day of church camp. so i guess i won't be joining. thought of playign with zen and all. haiz.
but.
u know wad.
smth to share.. again.. church camp.. i'm so excitied to go for it.
but. there's so many clashes.. like my competition, like my rugby camp.
sacrifices were made. i know they're for His purposes. and i know what i want.
thank God for guiding me though till June.
this 1st 1/2 of e yr hasn't been easy. i would say its the toughest of my life till this point.
i thank God for bringing me thoruhg thus far.
there's x-country on sat. but having nite cycling tmr. haha. see. again the clashes.
all the 'hints' juz keep coming in. i'm gg for the cyclin lar. haha.
well. i'm really beat. nite.
its the 2nd Collegiate league.
quite happy to see all my fellow bowlers from elsewhere.. vj, sp and all.sam was there! and.... KAREN! AND DEAR UNC HENRY! Unc henry was there coz he was coaching the sg team bowlers. really miss his coaching.
hmm. i did fairly today. considering that the last time i bowled was during the trials..
but. i bowled like 96, 160,154.
with donald, larry and jeremy, beside vj t2. initially... was abit scary.
super bit shaky lar. 1st game couldn't get the timing, swing, release, everything. haha. then slowly lar. thank God for that.
the thought of bowling for tp.. defending champs for 2 consec yrs. so eveyone's goona like have high expectations. somemore.. my team.. guys have naturally higher scores lar. so afriad to pull my team down. thank God for daryl and astoria.. they aren't bowling to day. but came down to support. they helped me pick up alot. (: oh ya. thank daryl for treating the team to water!
ahaha. sam. he bowled a 18+, 21+, 23+ today. bonkers lar. he. gd game! gd game!
but i guess today, one thing i learn during a comp is to be focused during ur execution. once upon executing, dun think of anything but follow through ur line and target. give ur best shot.
anyways. really tired. i juz got home like at 11pm. man. thurs' gona be like that. doomed man.
saw karen's baby today. super duper cute. brown hair and eyes. and she keep smilng and playing. super adorable. the no.1 adorable baby man.
gotta see eye doc (issit optimitrian or smth? optimist kps pooping in my head) soon. my right eye seem ultimately blurr..i think its the astigma more than the degree...
well. i was nervous today. shouldn't have.
hmm. i aim la. this league must get into masters, do tp proud and show them wad's worth. today bowled abt 13+ avg. haha. looking positively, i registered for the 'brunswick' thing.. so have this 'most improved bowler' award. hopefully i can hit a 170-180 avg. that's my aim lar to be more realistic.
it'll be tough. as trng hasnt confirm yet.
hmm. on another note.
i've been thinking too much.
i've been over concerned.
i've wasted tears.
i've wasted energy.
i've gotta pull myself together.
to work for what God loves to see me doin.
i am strong.
i will be strong.
if God be my helper,
a shepherd i shall not want.
emo man.
i wanna thank esther this wk. for her sweetness and love and smiles and toilet breaks.
and u know wad.
God has given me so many opportunites to thank Him.
the current one which pride seems to my barrier is that... i thank God for placing me in TP.
i'm sure there's a purppose to it. was looking around during bowling today.looking at schs like sp, np, rp.. what if i'm there?
one of tp core sport is bowling. so its subsidised. we have a strong poool. i really do hope to keep up that legacy.
there's schs like vj, rj, sim, nus, ntu and all. and its like. whoa. i'm old. bowling with ppl hitting abv 20s.
wanted to bowl for national age group coming up. but the sad thing is that it clashes with e last day of church camp. so i guess i won't be joining. thought of playign with zen and all. haiz.
but.
u know wad.
smth to share.. again.. church camp.. i'm so excitied to go for it.
but. there's so many clashes.. like my competition, like my rugby camp.
sacrifices were made. i know they're for His purposes. and i know what i want.
thank God for guiding me though till June.
this 1st 1/2 of e yr hasn't been easy. i would say its the toughest of my life till this point.
i thank God for bringing me thoruhg thus far.
there's x-country on sat. but having nite cycling tmr. haha. see. again the clashes.
all the 'hints' juz keep coming in. i'm gg for the cyclin lar. haha.
well. i'm really beat. nite.
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