convolutions

dysfunctional.
i dont know for how long can my heart eat itself out.
issit coz my heart too big that its gg to be the longest of time?

drastic.
drastic moments and drastic actions.
unnecessary, but necessary.

convolutions.


idk how can i keep this down.
how can u even keep this down.
perhaps, all along it was a misunderstanding.
it was never for the long run but for the short falls.


if this is what u really want,
then i guess i have done all that's necessary.
i didnt want to, neither did i have a choice.


long and gone.
may i find peace in solitude and work again
may my studies engulf my search for solace
or rather, may stillness find my quivering heart

broken battered and tried,
i was never ever up for this.
i've lost so much
and i dont think i'd ever want any of this back


except you
who's never to find me again.
for a friend's that's gone so far away,
this void will never have that closure,

once again.



once again.
its all too familiar.
perhaps all these consistency will be habitual.
may my heart be used to it.

be used, again and again,
but it doesn't matter
nothing else matters,
nothing else matter.