o m g.

hahas. i think i'm just pathetic.
i think i'v just said i'd stop blogging abt this like 5 mins ago right.
ok. i think i'm just entertaining myself. ppl who read my blog, i'm sorry.
i think i'm blogging so much nonsense that it's wasting ur time.
in the past, my post can be so exciting like abt compeitions, tournaments, adventures, and lots of lots of happy photos.
now, (thank God for tumblr), emo graphics are posted there. its like my alter-ego kinda thing i guess.


i rly rly rly rly dunno why i can't get u out of my head.
i've probably gotten u 70% out of my heart, but its still not enough to not bother me.






i dnk why i've fallen so deep.
if only my love for God is like such, i'd be even happier. that's more worthy and deserving. unlike u who's rly wasting my effort and times.


i dnk y.
someone, pls enlighten me.
2 darn yrs passed.
not that i want u back or anything.
probably i'm still waiting for ur answers that would not make a difference or anything, but at least, can u make some effort and attempt to kill my heart, or at least, dampen it till it rots.


seriously, i'd rather be a damn cold and unfeeling person than to go through all these, still.
how how how.


ok, guys, pls pray for me.
like keep me in ur prayers everynight, until u feel like giving up. hahahs. coz when 2 or more are gathered in His Name, it will be answered. i need this urgently.
i'm into the 11th day of my fast and its not easy. each time i walk past cheers/7-11, i'll quicken my pace, afraid to buy a bottle of nice cold gassy drink.



why do i go through all these man.
why.
pointless.
unproductive.





if i really had u as my neighbour, u're doomed man. hahas.
doomed.