most of the time i guess.
many things i wanted to do
many things i wanted to say
many people i wanted to spend my time with
but sometimes, if your practicality is able to shine through for that few sec before that decision-making process starts to kick in, it can very well, pull you back from a long-term regret.
that is of course, situational based yes.
something quite nice and relevant i saw at the shop ytd. a notebook. but i'm not paying $12.90 for it.
and so...
apart from all those wasted nights, ok, i haven't really done anything regretful
self-control is a skill that can only be harnessed through practicing and a tinge of determination.
all trng's still on-going
touch season is coming up, hence the saturdaydamnhotinthesunfitnessandgame trng at dempsey. but it was good. and felt good to play touch again.
contact trng today. sprained my finger. didnt know that it was so painful until... now. swelling. the usual stuff. getting immune and bored of it. ok #notcomplaining. and i dun mean that i desire anything more. hahas.
then we had our team christmas gift-exchange and relish! hahas.
the theme was redwhitegreen. hahas
(:
just love my girls. though we're all different ppl from different places, backgrounds, history, we all play that one game we all love, for ourselves, and for Blacks.
and since it was the night before christmas eve, i didn't feel like gg home after everything was over.
(too much dunfeellikegoinghomefeeling these few days. ): dun get me wrong. i still love home. hahas)
so, i took a ride down orchard, avoiding the expressways home.
sounds like a metaphor there.
basket. orchard jam. and somehow, i feel that my sparkplug is gg to die or smth. the bike's stalling point is so far into the clutch. stalled once at the filter lane today. then want to turn left, the bike turn right/ feels like its gg to toh anytime. and i honestly dun think its the acquired phobia from the last fall acting up.
anyway, made a detour to rochor tauhuay to get some for mother poon and myself. the standard dropped like mad. not nice now. prefer the tauhuay shop at potong pasir or laoban.
oh yes. mother poon bought me a quiksilver bag for me for my christmas present this yr! hahas. so, no more angpow for the year then. ahahas. she saw that i liked the bag and bought for me sia. its really a good bag. many compartments, the base is really waterproof, got provide some mat to keep dry, inside got dry bag all. ok. i'm not promoting the bag... just telling u how pleased i am. ahhahas. and since it's christmas, its on 15% off! (:
more often than not, sometimes i feel i dont deserve the good things.
u know, i did not put myself down for work for these whole wk coz i just wanted a time out for myself. ok. that sounds alright right. but it's not when i know that my bank's left with (maybe) $11 or smth. HAHHAS.
sometimes, i feel that i've forgotten the meaning to things.
being focused and hardworking seems to be like a bypass valve after all.
then we start to loose its value, its meaning, and its respect.
sigh.
u know i've really got 790840928432 things to do. like packing my room, transferring (at lease 10gb) of stuff to my harddrive or smth. sort the photos out and stuff; clear my desktop so that my wallpaper of sasha digiulian can be justified. but i just haven't got the
sometimes i
sometimes i can't tally. i can't agree. i can't decide.
i set up so many bands for unnecessary protocols.
too many somtimes.
can we really achieve consistency by remaining parallel to our beliefs, principles and experiences and yet, having that sinusoidal curve? that positively labelled curve, often used as a motivational quote like "when u're down there's no where to go up".
but life's all about perspective isn't it?
"when u're up, there's no where but to do down".
it still applies right.
then again, who says that life is a sinusoidal curve anyway. maybe its those tangent curves. its extremities extends far out to its infinity. and the further we are, we get closer to our pre-set boundaries that are always perpendicular to ourselves, and never ever touching it. tmd. so close yet so far right.
omg. i'm actually using mathematics to evaluate out my intangible thoughts. iamnotageek ok. hahas. stephanie sim, if u're reading this, i think u'll feel damn proud of me. hahas. if only i can tag her in this post so that she can get a notification or smth. hahahahas.
maybe i'm versatile.
too adaptable.
not knowing, is knowing.
stay near and be far.
vs
being far and staying near.
gibberish.
and i'm selfishly lazy.
i mean like, u know, my childhood cum neighbour is back to stay at his aunty's place again for a period of time.... and though i do want to keep up the promise to meet up with him over a meal or something i haven't done so. i mean like, he stays just opposite me. and when i mean opposite me, i dont mean the block, but the unit. like less than 10m away kind.
he tells his aunty, whom in turns tells my mum that though we stay so near each other, he's not even able to see me. before they're awake, i'm out of the house. and once they're back and asleep, i come home. i'm sucha goner hurh.
how often do our paths cross with people?
what keeps us.
SIGH.
urgh.
feel like taking my bike down and bash through the streets of singapore right now.
but i dont feel like manually pumping my tyre for a start now.
its christmas eve!
all the festive know-nots.
if only everyone really understands the true meaning and value of christmas.
this statement is probably inclusive of me too.
things that i've just stumbled across tumblr.
yes. all from tonight's wreckage.
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