high on APU

ok. so after last night, damn high whole day.
think i embarrassed myself in school today, whole day. but through that, accidentally made friends with ppl from other class. hahas. yea. and even talked to the big boss like as if he's my friend. what courage.



also, the first time that i took half day leave off sch just because i woke up late. hahas. my phone was on silent! ahhas. efforts from all the friends who cared about me and my student life and gave me the morng missed calls wasted! hahas. but thanks guys! but sigh. no more perfect record.




and today's practical module on APU. ahhas. quite fun coz we had to remove a number of components out of the APU. and was quite proud of myself coz i was still able to meddle with the small nuts with such a state of mind. and though i think i should technically be the most fatigue one of all in class today, i managed to still attempt to follow the amm and think about everything properly while the other half of the class went back to the classroom to sleep since after lunch time. hahas. but i know i was still super high.

and of course, a very proud self-shot of me, with the APU and the 2 guys were patiently working on the APU with me. ahhas looking #seriouslysane i'm sure. hahas

it felt abit like during those enginechange nights at Shaeco. just that its more small-scaled and in a more comfortable environment with better lighting. hahas

and the finally, the 2 poor planes that's out in the sun and rain for months has finally been towed into the hangar! now the hangar's starting to look more like a hangar.

and so. i owe quite an explanation for my highness right. hahas. high-ness.

as mentioned before, been struggling recently about things and issues that i just want to run away from. its not part of a big escapism plan, but more like an area/issue of life that i just do not want to meet with yet.


and it just keeps coming.
#affairsoftheheart. what pains.





so last night, since its the oh-its-the121212day, decided to (finally) hang out with some of my touch girls at butterfac.... after a notsofriendly day at work.
hahas. well, it was between that and Play on thurs (today). hahahahhahahas.
actually more so, i just needed a night to waste away. a night to drown myself and just abuse alcohol to untangle and reboot my whole emotional system that i want to get rid of.

and finally one of the good reasons for being a girl, its ladies night so its free. and free flow of alcohol. and shots gg at $1 per shot in dozens. hahas. one of my friends got 3 dozens. hahas. mad and potent. i think i downed like 8 over shots. i can't rmbr.


actually, i dont really rmbr the night.
all i know is that my tolerance for alcohol not so fantastic anymore since i've started riding. all i rmbr starting with one vodka and immediately finishing off one glass of asahi. what a lethal combi. halfway through the beer, i was surprise to feel the effect alrdy. then it was the shots and more vodka in jugs.


vividly, i had glimpse of the night. met a few other friends in the club as well. hahas
and i rmbr bumping into ben whom i've worked together with in my poly days and according to my friends, we did pushups outside the club and toliet which of course, i would want to deny it.


music was good.
never liked music that loud or places that made no sense...
but the company was great and we had fun.




and soon i was in a cab with bel home. and i vividly rmbring the cab uncle (who left) u-turning back to ask my friend to make sure that i was able to get up home. hahahahahas. so sweet the uncle.
and of course, all not-sober ppl will be in denial to say that they're fine. at that point, though i felt  my life was so wasted away, wasting precious time sleeping, and STILL dilligently rmbring that she has a apu/gas turbine practical the next morning, i didn't want to go home. i just wanted to soak up in my lost wonder. let everything evaporate into thin air, just like how the alcohol is seeping into my blood vessels by the second.




after much persuasion from the student in me, i made it home. and once through my door, i stumbled and fell flat. heing was mother poon asleep by then. then i let my subconscious self take control of attending to the daily needs of bathing, changing into good clean clothes and then fall into slumber.
but if u'd ask me to recall, honestly, i can't rmbr everything too clearly.
hahas. but looking back at my twits, it was hilarious man. i totally dont rmbr myself tweeting or msging ppl. what a disgrace.




and so. 9am i woke.
still very confident that alcohol was still very much in my blood. but no headache. none of those bad hangover signs.... my body probably has a skill to cope hard and fast. quite good. that's about 5 hrs since all the consumption. i contemplated on riding my bike coz i was even stumbling to put the key into the starter. on my bike i rode and it felt so wobbly. uncontrollably out of my estate, i did some corners and brave maneuvers which idk whr i got that courage and skill from... but i know i shouldnt be proud of it. and so early in the morng, at the first traffic light, there was an accident at the junction... with ambulance all. i was reminded not to be reckless.
so i made it safe to sch.
and didn't feel sleepy!
perhaps the alcohol allowed me to have one good, but short sleep.




what a night.
and what a carried forward day.





drowning ur sorrows with alcohol's not the best way to solve ur probs, but scientifically, it does have some stress-relieving effects or like better cardiovascular effects. ahhas.
somehow, it seems that it has helped me to unveil some uncertainties and the myriad chains of thoughts.
and i just want to thank God for that time i had.