this Sunday's the once every 2 yrs recital.
been in a struggle these few weeks. the battle between the heart and mind and eventually getting down to doing things right.
last rugby trng, got enlightened by Mun.
first, it was about the timing of the switches. i think everyone was having quite a hard time getting the perfect timing right to do a good switch and break through on a 2v2 situation. everyone was talking abt the technical what to dos. i was thinking. and when i asked Mun.. her advice was "aiya, just take it as game situation,... u're on the wing. u try to break through, cannot, then call for a switch. dun need to think, i'll come". so when i heeded her advice, wahs! i had that one good run. ahhahs.
second,
i couldnt get the kicking technique right. the height and distance for the kicks. something was lacking. been adviced to work on the timing/ placement of ball and so on. and then, Mun came and say "hmm. u can just try stretching ur hand out alittle to drop the ball slightly more forward, give it more space. dun think, just let it flow."
and when i did that, shiooookkkk. had that soundofagoodkick (though it's not likka highly good standard kinda thing), and the ball went higher and further. ahas
talk about advices from a laojiao man. workseverytime.
so, the lesson i took away was: dont think, just do. it'll come.
and for tonight, the last practice in the studio.
i wanted to get everything right.
i rmbr one of those inspirational quotes that say..
"dont practice until you get it right. practice until you can't get it wrong"
hahas we've been on this dance for 5 months now if i rmbr correctly. its definitely not an easy one. probably the most technically challenged tap item as ever attempted in my opinion. hahas.
and.. the song piece title's (Maroon 5's) Moves Like A Jagger.
yea. hahas.
let it all out. dance the night out.
since by now, we should be really familiar with our steps and all, it's a good time to dun think about it, and just whack. and when i did that for the last set tonight, it felt so good. its like a #longlostfeeling.
i never really associate dance with me coz physically, i'm more inclined towards bulky thighs for powering through tackles.. rather than long and slender ones that look good on stage.
but when i give my all with my heart, i can feel it.
dance, its something very amazing.
but this year, it'll be my first ever recital that i've never done a Ballet item. ):
Ballet has been secretly a big part of me. the realization only came when i'm force to part with it along with my MCL-tear (some tear in the right knee ligament). when my physio told me that i should never go back into Ballet, i unknowingly cried! i wasn't sad or emotionally taken aback, but the tears streamed down from idk where. maybe its just the bodily reaction to its immediate withdrawal. hahas.
counting back... if i'm not wrong, this should be my 9th/10th recital! (:
so many memories. each year. as i grew up on stage.
each mistake. each step. each smile.
always rmbred.
Haha. Watched abit of the lyrical jazz piece... Got so inspired for the next time round! Hahahahs
so for this wkend, these 2 days are gg to be good memories.
all the mad rush. the makeup. the kids. the backstage. the photos. everything.
but this yr, i dont have to worry anything about quick change. hahas. usually i'd be doing 2-3 items. but this yr, i just need to do one. hahas.
and i'm abit sad coz the tickets sold out so fast! couldn't get the tickets for the girls especially for ulrica and mother poon. ):
hahas. i still rmbr one year, i had a 5am flight to catch to go Northern Thailand for mission after everything ended at 12am +
the stage as taught me to give all of my best. better than how rugby does it.
because when u do, thats when u start to enjoy what u do.
and before u do that, all that trng, all that effort shall not be in vain.
honestly, i still do have that stage fright with 941343840982 pairs of eyes looking at you. but in that darkness, those lights on ur big smile, letting ur movements flow with the rhythm makes everything in unison and perfect balance for that 3-4 mins.
ur fears become ur strength.
and ur strength becomes to a point, magical. hahas. its really likka fairytale #secretly.
but if u ask me if i love dance, i always answer with hesitation.
for the stage is really a majestic one and my esteem has no match for it.
to shine on the stage. to let ur perspiration, ur tears, ur footmark and scratches. to share hugs and celebrations of all the months of hardwork just throws everything into equilibrium.
so recalling back, while walking back to my bike after practice, with just overflowing joy and satisfaction in me, i found myself on my reflection mode. riding back, i was still happy. singing out songs of joy. giving thanks to God. the ultimate feeling i had was : freedom.
its not the birdoutofthecage kinda simple freedom. its more like the chainsaregone.
i felt that sometimes, i dont need to put so much thought to make things right. u just need to believe it, and go with it. don think. dont be a victim of ur unnecessary thoughts that becomes bars to cage up ur being.
thoughts may sound logical.
thoughts may put things into perspective.
but sometimes, not giving any thought to it gives us that subtle confidence to not only do well, but enjoy ourselves.
it felt like a solution for me right now.
sometimes, no thinking, may just be a thought in a thought.
not trying, is trying in itself.
whatever it is, if its peace, its from God.
when u're ready, u'll know that u're ready.
dun push it.
dun retard it.
let it go.
(:
everything's gonna be alright.
oh wells. tmr!
gonna have a good night's rest and be ready for the wkend!
no pressure. just letting it all go.
and, one more aviation photo using a new app that i downloaded!
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