there.

its a fact that no matter how hard i work, how much i improve, i'm never going to get there in this.
its the stigma, u get it?

i reallly really really do want to move out of this, and move on else where. but yea, its the team that i still wanna be part of.
its where i started and i dont want it to end like that.


no matter what, i'll still give my best coz that's the only way that'll be good for the team. just need to adjust my expectation of myself to get ready for the blow. HAHA.
and u know what, i might just be magnanimous and foresake bowling nationals, this yr, again. for the same reason.
this is dumb.
but this is for the, team.
ohhhs. angel.



but anyway,
i want to thank my secret 'buddy' who's given me nice hand drawn cards. they're very nicely done and i really appreciate you. (: dont have to spend on candies. just write letter to me and i'm more than happy. (:


i think as a team, it was one of the most saddest trng ever. we've been doing abt the same stuff, but the drop balls still count very much.
c is frustrated. everyone's frustrated.
cool yow.
i think. really.
its time that we, take effort. take initiative to make that change. when someone is talking as a team, to the team, jolly well listen up yow. dont even ATTEMPT to finish ur conversation with any individual WHILE that person is trying to speak.
basic discipline: do not talk when someone is talking.
maybe we all think that we're all grown ups and can do our own things. i guess, a big wrong there. its really abt discipline and inititative more than anything else alrdy.



hah.



again. in the office now. i was the earliest and everything was locked. so i waited outside for half an hour. most of our bosses were on leave today.



i think i hurt my back ytd. i bended forward to catch the ball (almost 90 deg) while running and fell. later on, i stupidly broke another fall by landing on my knees.
u can call it either too focused on catching the ball, or plain dumb with no faster and smarter reaction to fall.