pollypockets

haha. was better than we expected.

instead of a 14-0. it was a 4-0. (:

i think, marian should do more.
this is like, a stagnant frog in a well.
haha.


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i love my SIP LO. she's very nice.
she says things that make alot of sense and just makes me feel more encoruaged.
(: i will press on far and wide. even if the whole company hates me, i'll just do what i need to do. hard to bring up a smile, but i'll still do it nicely.




abit tired. mentally.
dance was hard ok. we're like half the song and its on in the first wk of december. alot of brushing up to do.

both the tap items are completed. (: just more style and more 'into' the mood. ahhas. the first tap item is called 'Audition' . music: from the musical thingy called 42nd street. damn fast and leaves u feeling that u're damn week and u need to go run 2.4k under 10mins kinda feeling. ahhahhas. black and white, 1970s. and its IMMEDIATELY after my ballet item.

must train to quick change in 20sec. this includes untieing my double knotted 2 sides pointe shoes, wearing tap shoes and tieing time. change earings. clothes. pants. and hair style if possible. ahahhhaahaha. there will be like 3-4 ppl working on you. they just pluck the earrings off and shooove in the item one.

haha. i feel like lewis hamiliton. ahhas. but i have 20sec thereabout. ahhahs.

ballet's not easy. my first pointe item. to a very arty farty dance that's full of energy speed and precision. seriously. feels like in laselle doing a final year project. cheers to ms shanti. hahas.

and the 2nd tap item, which is the 2nd last item on the night is whoooots.
using 'teach me how to dance' soundtrack. its like hot-sexy kinda thing. AHHAH. can't imagine me right right. lots of cleaning up to do. still not as stylish as ms susan expects. ahhahs.


oh well. really looking forward. 4 more wks. ahhas. nervous but more excited than nervous for now. hahas.


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next.


after all that, went to church. was nice that the whole grp of girls sat and just talk. its been years since we've done that. hahaha. christopher rocks. right right.


i think the whole ministry is caught up with things that dont matter. after all, God wants things that are from the heart. in my perspective, it seems that we're driven by ppl's wants and expectations.
last time, when there's like coffeeshop nite, no auditions. just snip shot rehearsals and sound checks like 5hrs b4 or so. no pressure. just tons of laughter.

and in the end, it turns out hilarious coz its like.. skits are done on the spot and all. haha.
i still rmbr the ah-beng-ish-look-alikes sec sch boys who did the song QING TIAN. ahhahahahs.


as the year progress, there's like.. publicty team. event organiser and so on. i feel, really not needed.


then like. the whole y ministry is like in this committe whereby they have like countless meetings. sometimes, meetings takes away sunday outing times. and its like... we're doing all this in the name of expanding God's kindgom. but then, sundays are just used up for such meetings, at the expense of going out with the people. does it make sense?


in the past, the church had like 2 gates. the side and the main. 2 main locks. thats it. now, there's like doors everywhere. locks everywhere. to lock the church up, aunty violet takes like about 30mins or so. its like. really. WHATS THE POINT MAN. i mean like, yea la. security and so on. but i think in a way, these affects the eeverything about being in a church that's supposed to be called home. or like, a place that gives u a warmth feeling.

it used to be like that last time.


i guess, not only should the church grow in numbers, but more imptly, the quality of ppl. the heart of the ppl. it shouldn't be task led, but God headed. right now, i just feel that ppl are not weary because of serving God with a sincere heart, but at the worldly things that are needed to meet people's expectations. i am no one to judge, but i am guilty that sometimes, i do things to please human, rather than askign God if He's like happy with what i'm doin.


we grow old.
people change.
hearts change.
desire change.



i dunno.
i've nv felt so unsure about my predictions.
i'm usually sure, and right about it. this time, its not exactly a comforting feeling. hmmm...


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oh yea. i did something very tak glam. i was sending this email to sportsclub president and advior, supposedly attaching the draft layout of the notice board. then, because i was blogging at the same time (3days ago), i sent them a pic of zac efron. the one i posted on my blog. EEHHHHWWS. haha. but gd idea ar.
sure bring in big loads of publicity. HAHAs. join BASKETBALL. WAHOAOOAOOAHSHHA.



k. getting high now. gd night