grrr. its been a while time since marian has blog.

sec 4 liao. lost man. ballet, prefects, studies, bowling. dun seem to go as planned.

ballet. canot rmbr steps. exam coming soon. dun think will be prepared to face the examiner. screw up. pray not.

bowling. mr jega seems to be like obstructing us for trng. objection to trng at victors and pocket bowl. thinks that coach wanted it at those places coz of alliance?! then strongly wants back tampines which is fully book. and touranment is in 2 months. w/o trng. nice eh.
last yr, started trng madly in dec. till nationals. this year. hoho. its like becoming february.

studies. struggling to do juz hw. kao lor. its not even struggling yo do my own revision. when it comes to quiet time, i do till slp. nv absord and no input.

prefects. tomorrow invest. and i dun think i'll make a gd exco. hars. so many probs for Gate and DC. mrs sng seems to be cool about it which make me feel so bad lar. argh. new system seems to be rocky. but it'll be gd. juz dun know how long it'll take. "its the 2nd wk." this is like a reason and excuse for all lar.
i also not sure myself. i'm more of straight forward, and gun-ho. why do ppl be like "oh-no.-its-an-ant!" that kind of attitude. like super girli-fied and alll lar. eeee!. screech*. hars. tml, i'm worried. feels so confirmation-ish. wahha. grrrrrr.... court shoes tmr. prays it dun rain.

mr pang in CGH 29-20. dengue fever. he lives in the bedok estate too. so yea. haha. when he was sick, already was liek jk said.. i think u have dengue. then all the ava ppl say no lar.. adn all. hwha. i'm right. and no, i'm not cursing him.
visited him on tue and today. tues was kinda bad? he was super red and talked very softly, like no energy. feel so sad for him. then today, was better, but he say no appittie. but his blood palates are getting higher. which is gd lar.
hmms. CGH. the memoraies of how i fight with the staff for taking stupid temperatures when everyhting was in a rush. the memoraries of sis and i wondering around till simei mrt when he was slping. the horryifying nightmares lar.

like ppl onthe bed. ppl having hopes. but cgh ppl are so inefficient. to me lars. that's y i wanna be a doc. impliment much new rules and more considersate plans for the welfare for all.

but. there the trng agency busniess in my head. so i'mm still kidna not clear. which is bad.

doctor? trainer?

grrr. this should be my focus now lar. in class, duno why, teacher say smth, i cannot apply. canot learn. canot absorb. horrible feeling.

6 points leh. i so can get lar.