Subcomm camp day 1

well. i'm supposed to be at camp right now. but joel sent me back coz i gotta do alot of stuff at home on the com. if i knew that i was gg to stay till so late, i'd have brought my laptop go along la. i thought i'd be gg home b4 the movie screening.



the bug is really sucking my life out of me.
talking to the crowd in open air was like challenging with my surrondings. i couldn't hear myself coz my ears were blocked. so i hope i dun sound irritating. ahhaha.

well. i was supposed to be i/c of icebreakers with brannon only. but ended up running it all e way till dinner. coz we're really lacking of man power. wanting, syahrul, alicia, peiyong were like running here and there and really working hard behind the scenes.

so i ended up the facil cum photographer cum firstaid. we did db! and i think that really brighten the grps up. yea, there were a few hiccups here and there. but i think within this small grp, we really bonded easily. btw, nice clear skies.









so the last photo. brannon and i. shagged to the max. i totally look buang and off. but i thank God for him. he's also e same believer... so we could work well together. i want to thank God for him alot alot.


the photos were taken today. like day1 know each other kind of thing. some of us know each other b4 this camp. but still i want to thank God for choosing the campers.



just through 1 day. it just needed this one day, to just pull me back.
i guess because the more 'tp oie! ppl' are not avaliable today, it gave me alot of little reasons why i should just start stepping up, once again. i know i used to be those who would take the first bold step out and just be-myself-heck-it attitude. but because of some conflictin reasons, i found myself unable to find that courage, until today.

i think today, its really by God's grace. i did feel any struggling thoughts, just the techincal worries abt the camp. i'm quite glad that i did not dwell abt the negative past but just focused on the welfare of everyone who's around me. i wannt thank God for providing me with ppl.


yes. i cannot deny that at some points of the camp, i was irritated with the camp stuff, but i guess at the end of the day, thank God for this experience. quite encouraged by those SIP ppl who came knocking on SAR's glass doors at past midnight. to me, although its like... huh. but it was encouraging.

this yr's comm, i would say is fun and interesting. we have our differences. like what i've mentioned during the debriefing, the positive thing abt our weaknesses is that we're able to work out a moderately suitable solution to every problem we faced. those problems were indeed preventable, but i guess at the end of the day, it's impt that we're learning and growing as a club.

at the end of the sem, we'lll definitely see how far we'd go as friends.




in my mind, i was giving unfair comparisons with the camps i hold with TP ppl and the camps i held with KC ppl. the way these 2 grps of ppl function is very different. honestly, i work very well the KC ppl way. (btw, KC- as in those i work with b4, not the KC ppl in general; whereas the TP- is the TP ppl in general) everything's under control and all. it all goes smoothly. even if there's inevitable hiccups, it's still smooth sailing. in TP, i guess its because as the ppl we're dealing with gets older, its more difficult to gain 'control' and attention.

we do not expect ppl to like be silent/sit up straight or wad... but ppl just can't seem to abide by rules or even.. respect. in a sense, when we say 12pm. we mean 12pm. and not 130pm. haha. yes.




anyways. for now, just hope that the campers will take something home tmr and that the friendships built will not just end there.
as for the com, i just hope to see more self motivation in each com member, rather than to keep having painstakingly sent emails from our president to keep pushing the comm. i think it really speaks alot of how much we want to contribute? i do believe in serving with physical absence. so if any of us should happen to not be able to come for meetings, do take the effort/initiative to find out wad u've missed- just like how we would if we were to miss our sports trngs.


and yes. pray for the flu bug to go away. my head is really throbbing today. in the car home, my head wasn't really spinning.. but it was shifting to the right. ahahah. really pain. so pray. i do want to be well and carry out all my task well for the rest of this semi-crazy month.


thank you Lord.

flu bug.

hi. i'm proud to say that i've survived today's trngs.

bowling. was abit tough for me. after the 2nd hour, the weight of the ball really daunted upon me. my shoulders were painful.

thank God so much that i managed to get through fitness with my stolen toliet roll from the sch toilet. well, i did pay sch fees u know. haha. yea. i felt my heart was pounding and the liquid that was stucked in my nose became merciful on me. haha.

nxt wk, they're gonna do gaps! and i will be in hk! i waant to improve on my gaps la. i want to be a better playmaker? yea.


and yes, subcomm camp tmr. cant go for the outing with church ppl tmr morn. ): just hope it all goes well tmr. thanks.

hi.

so i went swimming with sx today. was fun! hahahhahaa. (: like to see sx swimming btryfly stroke. very beautiful. like btrfly on water.

and so. 3hrs. and we're burnt.i felt v v tired in the morng.. coz i finished the ppt last night at 530am. big achievement pls.

and morng, swim. ahha. the first lap, i felt good. its been a while since i hit the waters. i wanted to swim more and train stamina. but i think its not a gd time. i was tried from ytd's trng, i have bowling later. and tmr, its bowling and rugby aka. fitness day. hahaa. so i figured that i shouldn't be mad and chiong. ahaha. and i rmbred what *prettygirl wrote to me in that leettter. i was like.... encouraged (x10000000) by tt note lars. so i think i swam abt less than 20laps today.



so today..bowling. its just the 2 of us, again. out of the 17.
changed my footwork.. again.
getting better hands on the ball now. my slayR is really working nicely on dry lanes. but its getting too light and tends to alter my stance.


ok. so i lost my hairband. again. left it at the pool side. i cannot find another similar one. i have one last spare one. and i think its no more in production. bought those in sec3. hahaha.

i feel sick. and been having flu for 2 wks. ahhaha. my immune system is the the powerlife of the streetfighter game, going down.hahha









sometimes i wish someone would understand me; all over again.
do you know that it feels like UHU Glue. up to u to describe it.

right. so now all blacks is leading with 309 pts. with a score diff of 84 from the austs. haha. hoho. looks like they're grounding it.



i think because of God's grace, the ppt is finally into full swing. ate 4hrs of slping straight and its now abt half done. its easier this time round w/o words. let the audience paint their pic of thailand by themselves.

today's trng. i had probs with being steeper. gotta work on my timing for recieving ball at pace and off loading laterally. somehow, i feel my thighs are like big magnets to the ground. i push to run... but its like. not making progress. ahha. like walking up a downward gg esclation kinda feeling. i need more burst. ): i want to be faster faster faster.

oct1st.

happy children's day yow. hahhahah.


had coe trng today. was a pathetic attendance of TWO. out of like.. 17? right. haha. coz of the exams hurh. tried the slayR again. love the reaction, hates the backend. ball too light. hit the pins deflect like mad.



ayes. i'm kinda freaking out. the ppt slides are quite challenging. coz i dun have a focus or like a clear cut direction to work with. dwang. AND. subcomm camp! so i have 2 days now. hows hows!!!!! freaking out.haha.


and yes. complicatinos with subcomm camp awaits.








totally man.
i've been crushing trees mans.




sometimes everytime, i wish to have a higher bp. been getting dizzy when i get up from a resting position. to a point whereby i cant walk straight for 3 secs. ): haha.


in the mess of all the clogged up 29382104973040928 photos, i found these 3 unseen footages. haha :


yows! Poonty Deu Mariano






You are the Music in Me
High School Musical
Na na na na
Na na na na yeah
You are the music in me

You know the words Once Upon A Time
Make you listen.
There's a reason.

When you dream there's a chance you'll find
A little laughter or happy ever after

Your harmony to melody
It's echoing inside my head

A single voice
Above the noise

And like a common friend
Oooh, you're foolin' me

When I hear my favorite song
I know that we belong
Oh, you are the music in me

Yeah it's living in all of us
And it's brought us here because
Because you are the music in me

Na na na na oh
Na na na na na
Yeah yeah yeah (Na na na na)
You are the music in me

It's like I knew you before we met (Before we met)
Can't explain
There's no name for it (No name for this)

I'm saying words I never said
And it was easy (So easy)
'cause you see the real me (I see)
As I am
You understand
And that's more than I've ever known
[You Are The Music In Me lyrics on http://www.metrolyrics.com]


To hear your voice (Hear your voice)
Above the noise (Ohh ohh)

I know, I'm not alone
Oh you're singing to me (Ohh yeah)

When I hear my favorite song
I know that we belong (Yeah ohh)
You are the music in me

It's living in all of us
And it's brought us here because
You are the music in me

Together we're gonna sing (Yeah)
We've got the power to sing what we feel (What we feel)
Connected and real

Can't keep it all inside (Ohh)

Na na na na (Ohh yeah)
Na na na na na (Ohh yeah)
Yeah yeah yeah (Na na na na)
You are the music in me (In me)

Na na na na (Ohh yeah)
Na na na na na (Ohh yeah)
Na na na na
You are the music in me

When I hear my favorite song (Favorite song)
I know that we belong (We belong)
You are the music in me

Yeah it's living in all of us
It's brought us here because (Here because)
You are the music in me

Na na na na (Ohh yeah)
Na na na na (Ohh yeah)
Na na na na
You are the music in me (Yeah)

tsk.

ok. i roughly saw like 8-9 photographers holding SLRs today randomly at bugis.


felt very tired today. got up early to go church with mum to prepare some stuff. can i carried all my sec 4 boooks/notes and everything giveable for some of the church friends. so its cleared! (: that caused backache.
plus. i think i lost my spects! ):

after mission trng, really wanted to go home slp. then mum called me out. so yea.
mum is always so pro in my dressings and thus,ended up shopping for nice cool clothes for caroling/christmas/whatevertheseasons.
i ended up buying a nice cool shirtshirt for $24 and a nice cool tie. haha. mum says its cool. from Bugis street.

msn trip is reduced to $25 to my surprise. so yes indeed, miscommunications and wrong informations. so tadah. finally the $ is settled.
haha. yes. i agreed to join jasper and zheng's bowling team of 4 for the Men's Network outiing. sounds funnn la. i saw the registration list.... so funny! many familes signed up la! so cool can! like all the low, wong, stephens... ahhaa.



anyways. the day seems better when u really want to make-it-better. although i'm feeling tired, i should not be thinking so. okok. bye.

soliloquy

the game Whales and Fiji was like.. whoa! heart racing and thumping. the lead was back and fort every 10 mins la! like freak out. and it sort of ended with nicky little having a bad pull. wah! i saw his body bend backwards with his leg stuck in the scrum.

i rmbr the commentator said smth abt 'i really wonder where does whales go from here..'. oh well. v gd fight whales! hahah. saw the profiles at the rwc web, they've got 5 Jones, 3 Thomas, 2 James and 2 Williams. ahaha.
looks like i'm gonna miss the scotland and italy one.



had the evaluation today. i think was rather up down. 15 17 17 13. the last game was like. let go man. i think for sparing pin 7, instead of using the 25-25 method, i'm gonna use the 2-4-7 method. the i'd be more accurate in my sparings. seriously. i rmbr trng that txtbk system for months la. ahhah

oh yes! congrats to PERRY GOH and TWIN for achieving 2nd and 3rd in the gradedB Singapore Open. (:


today i was at bugis to get something and some food. and i heard nic's shouts. ahahha. then i saw nic and ting! hhaha. for some reason, i felt (: to see them. hahaha. they are just so.... hmmm.... sunshines!! AHHAH.





i realise that i'm speaking in soliloquy most of the time these few days. haha.
sometimes i really wished that i'm a guy. as in- born one. now i'm a girl, i am happy okays. HHAHA. right. anyway. i mean like. if i was a guy. i would probably not be blogging now. i would be like playing cs or smth. i wouldnt be so arty farty. and if i'm a guy, i'd probably be emotionally stronger and really... heck it and not think too much. and i mean really heck it. for a girl to heck it would probably be bottling up faster than a guy and soon, explode. haha. and, if i'm a guy, i'd probably be running faster faster, although i'd be competing with ppl who are stronger x 10000 than me. hhaha.

oh my. and the dressing. so easy lars. the now in this century, it seems like there's a shift in cultural behaviours. ppl tend to expect less from a guy? this is probably an understatement. but whatever it is. i think i'd rather be the guy. hahha. i can imagine finding all sorts of stupid ways to propose to my 'girlfriend' la. hahaha. so funnnny!


today one of my friends asked if i'd ever get into a relationship. period. i was like. hmmmm. heck it. hahahha. waste time la. its probably the nicest feeling u're gonna get, but also the heaviest weight u're gonna bear. i think i shouldnt really bother abt this anymore coz its really unneccessary. God will has planned.
and sometimes. guys just dont appreciate it. hahaha. so yes, forget abt it pls.


ok. b4 u think i'm like a feminist or bunk or anything, i think what i should do now is to really pray and get back the confidence i used to have. i'm just so lacking of this confidence. with this (hahhaa. estee! : with this oie.) , i think it'll probably fill the incomplete me now.
coz now, i'm really feeling incomplete. and its been proabably for. 1yr plus. hoho. yes, go count.


i am struggling inside lehs. so pls pray for me if u happen to read this thing. i dun want to struggle anymore nor be afraid of human beings. (be afraid is not equal to respect for this case). i just want to be happy and keep moving on.
and for the countless favours that i'm contributing to the society, i just pray that the ppl with understand and appreciate. coz it is tiring. after all the hardwork, its like. ok. noted. period.
very very.. ugh.

ok. so i am afraid. coz i have like 5-1-1= 3 quite full days to complete all the stuff b4 i leave. oh man. the ppt!!!!! God, pls like save me.


watched this show that my mum was watching... abt drinking lots of water. the whole programme was just so naggy! i was complaining to my mum like... whoas! super naggy... '(in chines) drink healthy water, it keeps you healthy'. wahs! ahhaa. but they did make sense. just that its overly repeatitative. haha. so i'm gonna drink water lots lots. ahhahaha.

ok. random. hahaha.





haha. ok night. i think Blacks will win this season. they are just so amazingly beautiful. look at their switches la! like water sia. haha.

busy with breathing.

click the photo for the album.


well. havent really got the interest to blog recently.

ppl have been asking me to do so many things! i'm okay with it. but i just hope they're appreciating it.

so now, i've just accepted all the mails to make an account with facebook. HAHAH. indeed, its much more 'happening' than friendster la. haha. but its like... sian. now got 2 such accounts.



today had cell lantern celebration. haha. was fun playing stupid obstacle race on the playground. hahhaa.


today. whole day, thigh muscles were aching like mad. haha. thanks to ytd's trng. because of the rain, we did 3 sets of circuit trng for 2hrs.


ok. i'm just being random. there's so many things to do! the collage, the ppt slides, and another major ppt slides, biathalon proposal, subcomm camp, and more misc stuff which i can't think off hand now. will be in HK for 1 wk, so which means i'm left with just one week to rest. i think gonna have probs to find time to jam with nigel alrdy. haiz.



sometimes i wonder where's my direction.. i cant define that word to you, but yea, somethings just dun seem right. been praying for healing and courage, but all i get is to wait and wait and to take time... sometimes i just feel so helpless but to just wait and wait and wait. i just hope it'll be ok this time.

e missing chocs.

omg. i cannot believe that my sister just ate the whole row of chocs within one day la.
geraldyne gave me 2 rows. its expensive chocs. i think. and i cant' bear to eat more than one per day la.

it really did felt a sense of loss for a moment.
but i guess, by not eating that row, i'll be intaking less sugar.


somemore, i spent 1 day looking for it, thinking that i misplaced it. mum even accused me of forgetting where i put my things.





this wk started off really rough at home.
i cannot blame anyone or anything. its just that things doesn't fall into place at some times and yes. it takes 2 hands to clap. and i'm one of the sticks that started the fire.

i'm glad all's now back to norm only because of God's grace. i thank God this time. when i was younger, i rmbr how i used to terribly blamed God. but now, i just feel that God is really- awesome.

oh yes. i found a more economical way to go to trngs. instead of cabbing, take the mrt at peak hours and squeeze ur way through. its likt 50% faster and 50% more economical. i took the mrt to bedok and then took a cab down to trng.

today trng, coach said that our punchups are awesome. ahha. she said it with affirmation sia. haha. (: that really brighten up my day although my knee and back for no particular reason, was aching. haha.


when i wentt home, i saw a letter with 3 POWERPUFF GIRL COLOUR STICKER ON IT.



thank u so much estee loi qi zhen. really reminds me of how nice i was last time to spend like half a day making a friend's bday card. now as we grow up, we take time for granted. thank u estee. although it came technically late, i think it's at God's timing.



felt like drinking bottled ginger beer today. so there's no Sweeps bottled one. so i got this. this is nice!




and this. got swayed by this co's marketing efforts. i liked the packaging so i bought the mineral water for $1.50. another victim of a successful marketer.



i just thank God for a slow today. keep praying. nothing else would make things better but to pray.

lets do literature..

didn't bowled well again today.

i'm just not prepared. there's so much correction and refinements to be done. i havent got the timing right. havent got the feel. havent got the mind. havent got the heart.


i just feel so argh today.



sometimes, i really dont know wad are God's plans for me. one moment, i can feel that God's with me. and another moment, i feel that i've taken the wrong step.

sometimes, i'm just so tired of being who i am. its not that i'm trying hard or forcing myself. i just dun have that faith and confidence i use to have.

sometimes, i just want to be a zoo keeper and nothing else. let nature be my friends. let nature be my drive.

sometimes, i think that being a quiet, well-reserved and introvet little petit girl would make more ppl happier. thou shall not speak as the other would say fort.

sometimes, i think that its because of two sharp little sentances that changed my life. i rmbred so clearly. one was on bus 69, on a very emo thurs night. 2nd, was at the bowling alley on a thurs night as well.



sometimes, i made it not right. period.


con tra try

an empty heart,
an empty card.
a full head,
and a very sharp blade.

once a black.
never a white.
once a kite,
always out of sight.

words cant describe how i feel,
its probably just me being frail.
but i really have tried,
but it feels that it got bribed.

somestimes i care too much,
so much that it just got smudged.
weakened by the words around me,
surpressed by the voices within me.

who is me, me i asked.
but i guess it's all being masked.
negative connatations is only what i have,
sunshines seems to be just a theft.

neither do i hate nor love myself,
neither can i trust nor belive oneself.
i never seem to belong anywhere,
but all i can do is just to care.

alone is what i may want,
but many is what i may hunt.
i am bottling up all the bits to pieces,
till the day i might see Jesus.

let's all just hope that the bottle cap is tight,
so that i'll may not loose my sight.
all i can really do is to pray,
to pray for you and me, come what may.





why family. why.
why friends. why.
why team. why
why marian. why.

lowed.

sian. night cycling witht eh comm cancelled because our meeting was sooooo long! haha.

ok. initiallly. was really grumpy. i went ALL THE WAY TO ECP MAC. but they were at tampines mac. so i unnecessaryily spent $9 on cab fare there. AND, i thought the meeting started, but they were eating dinner. ): i could have take the bus and save $$. i'm really tight with cash now, with sg open around.


had bowling evaluation today. i think i did farely ok. i'm quite satisfied with my pin 7 and 10.. slightly more confident now. but can be improved. my shots are quite inconsistent though.

b4 that. woke up at 630am to meet gera and sara to go help gloria with her A level art at SRJC. nice nice sch campus man!


was playing with her mirrors. super scary room k i tell u! ahha. gloria's one brave girl. she cna work along in that small dark rm, all black, with black cloths draping all over.



sometimes, i just feel so low in self esteem in terms of leadership. its not that i want a break or smth. but its like when i'm a leader, i feeel so inferior. its quite unlike me. its proably because i dun have anyone to really talk to in that area. like in church. sometimes i feel like.. why me, why? its not the responsibility that i'm avoiding. but its like i feel that if another person can be better leader better in handling ppl, why not her.


i can handle issues, not ppl.
that's my strength, and that's my weakness.

key word: handle.

GSM.

good good time.

so. our plan was to eat at simpang.
so, their plan was..
- sara to oversleep and fall sick
- resulting me to call geraldyne to ask how. ahha. geraldyne how. ahha. (her full name)
- and gave me her house no. to call, after giving her 2 missed calls on her phone.
- sara's sis picked up the phone..- to wake sara up (who was waiting for my call)
- sara sounded as if she just woke up and sounded unwell. must complement her for this. haha.
- so knowing that i would suggest to go sara's house in the end, i suggested that, making them successful.
- ahha. so sara's mum had already prepared dinner for us.
- one flaw: i reached b4 geraldyne did. so i played her piano in her music rm.
- then, blackout.
- i heard chuckles and after 30sec or so, sara: "( 'freaking out' eh! backout )"
- there and then, again. hahah.
- so yes, explained the icecream in the dark and me, surprised; well, acting surprised to be exact. ahahha.
- and let the photos do more explaination.



the cake again. haha. and the blackout

cutting the cake..

designer: geraldyne

we prefer the back to be the front. haha.

look closely, they represent us. haha.

a decent grp shot.

and our dinner. ahhahaha.

fav choc from gera.

my ultra bday card. similar evry yr.

ok. haha

more tak glam shots.

and the act pros. hahaha.

ok. speechles.

sara's sister, the real pro.

final shirt pic.

and final grp pic.



every yr they would do smth.. stupid.. surprising. ahha. should name it the GSM Mission. hahah. next time would be geraldyne's turn. (heeheehee)

i had fun and nice time with these 2 ppl close to my life. ahhaa. awww. yes. we're very diffferent individuals, but we really love each other's lame company. hahahahha.

thank u.

hahah. lets see. i spent my day missing pin 7 and 10, cutting cake, running with glute pain, and nice leparking time with some of the bowlers.. ahhaha.

i love the rugby girls so much. i really regretted missing a period of thurs for e bowling league last yr la. anyway, some of the girls told me that bday ppl are exempted from trng! ahha. how can! i think today's trng was gd. we finally played game!


the nice nice cake.

meet the twin.

and the twin actions. thahha . the candles are those relighted candles. thanks are. i love them. makes me feel that i can keep blowing candles. once a yr only k! hahaa.

haha. those who were there, and jean tryign to take a photo.

in the toilet after r trng.


the field!! )): MONTHS PLS. i heard they're gonna put like smth like carpeted grass. ok la. BUT, with the contact guys around, i think its gonna be high high maintanece.


the group.


ahha. spaming on the webcam. ahhaha. i do not have a webcam, so they can only look at my nice nice dp. haha.

lastly, thank u friends, one and all who smsed, friendstered, huggs, shakeshands, sang and clapped. really appreciated this day for legalisation. ahha. now i'm in for the high court if i were to commit a crime. ahhaha. (applying cds knowledge. haha)



randomly, i thnk the bowlers should train harder. its in 2 months time. so its really time.



lastly. should i bowl MQ tmr or mon??

((: legalised.

ok.
to begin with.

i decided to bowl Singapore Open graded B.
it sucked today. the lanes were really nice to bowl. but i wasn't prepared.
coz i'm still in the midst of changing my release, my sparing is really cannot make it.

148 106 138 124
174 158 126 128

today, 5 board area super shiok to bowl. its like... it'll come back. i rmbr one shot, i totally let go of the ball coz my launch angle is all wronged. and then! with the help of God's hand, it snapped back nicely to a pocket strike. huge relief. 9th frame. ahhha.

i think God is really with alongside with me la. i prayed so hard for corner lanes, coz i was acutally quite freaked out at the scale of this MQ. so the lanes were drawn, lane 34A. ((: that's the last lane to be exact. and the odds are 1:34 kind. i was like.. sia la... God, u're really like amazing cum freaking me out.

i was a one lane bowler. couldn't pull off the shots.

so i decided for the second block. i prayed that it won't be cornered again, but nearer... so ..lane 27A. WHAHHAh.i happy like bird la. hahaha. this is just to help me psychologically.


basically. i wasn't sparing. could strike. could spare.
tmr, i'll secretlly train hard b4 rugby. ahhaha.

so yes. i'm legal now. ahha. time is 0229am.. and i've got 1hr and 4mins to be officaly 18.


tmr. my bday will be spent on doing the things i like. (: bowling and rugby. after that, its geraldyne and sara! and maybe team2! i may have to disappoint team 2 because i've promised the 2 a level takers. and because of singapore open, i maybe disappointing more ppl who want to spend time with me. NOT being bhb la.

but looking at it, its really me to blame. i'm always trng and trng and just doing things. when i go out, its usually a planned one or like allocated time for it. doesn't really apply to sundays though.
i cannot just.. eh, u free? go out? ahahhha. maybe i can.

but i'm lazy. so far, i've been waking up at 12pm. ahhaha.

AND i've been dreaming 2 dreams, REPEATATIVELY. kinda horrifying to be exact.
first one, i rmbr my arms and hands covered with warm blood flowing from above my pyshic. and someone trying to kill me and my family.
in the dream, its very very elaborate. like those hollywood movies whereby u have like the 'special ops' team kind....hahha. i'm really amazed by the depth of the dream.
if i'm able to recall every detail of it and put into black and white, i'll try sending it to hollywood for production la.

second one... erm. is abt... some forest war. it felt very cavemanish era although we're wearing army uniforms. we somehow managed to use an elastic force to swing a bamboo-made-attached-with-jackfruit-and-watermelon bomb over that caused massive village destruction. and the story goes on on how we defended and attacked. ahahhaha.



right.

so there's 2 of my repeatative dreams. twice exact.

probably its because i think of joining th scdf until like that. hahah.


oh well. thank God for tday and tmr. i hope fitness doesn't kill tmr. i wanna bowl v v well on fri pls.

trng.

yep, again, i spent $$ on a 45min long taxi journey. it jammed. causing me to reach trng at abt 7.40pm!!

we did dumpings today. was a little afraid that my back would be pain. but it didn't!! i guess all those ballet strengthening helped. (: again, not much sense of urgency from the team, including myself. i know that i'm trying my best and i'm happy with my effort. but can be improved la. hahha. this is because... i have slow reaction!! i think too much on the field! one of my minor goals is to heck it and go with the flow; to really use my heart to play, rather than so much of the mind.
i think to do that, require really alot of trng in drills so that i can be ultra quick to respond, along with the experience.

i didn't feel v tired tday. its either i didn't train for long, or, fitness really did helped. ahhaa. i dun like playing in the dark though. cannot see my teammates leh! as in expressions la. ahaha. grrr. it'll be like that for long. one day i try taking a photo of the darkness that we play in. aha.


apart from that. i've been painstaking trying to neaten up my room. but it doesnt seem to help. hahaha. my tables are stacked so high up that when i clear the shelves, these piles replaces them and i'm back to square one. i feeel that i'm throwing alot of things already! but its not enough. ahha

i cannot bear to throw my sec sch notes la! haha. i'm keeping the textbook tthough. im into the 2nd day of cleaning already. and my things are spilling out into the hall.

and. i have NO time to swim, nor find ppl to go play sg open. haha. all to bz!.. grr...


was helping aunty jill sort the photos and make a collage at dance sch today. stumbled across some stupid 1990s photos. super funny.

the recent perf at ps... from the old hard copy. haha. talk abt infrindgement man.

photos

Everyday

Everyday
High School Musical 2 Soundtrack

[Troy]
Once in a lifetime
means there’s no second chance
so I believe than you and me
should grab it while we can

[Gabriella]
Make it last forever
and never give it back

[Troy]
It’s our turn, and I’m loving’ where we’re at

[Troy y Gabriella]
Because this moment’s really all we have

[Troy]
Everyday
of our lives,

[Gabriella]
wanna find you there, wanna hold on tight

[Troy]
Gonna run

[Troy y Gabriella]
While we’re young
and keep the faith

[Troy]
Everyday

[Troy y Gabriella]
From right now,
gonna use our voices and scream out loud

[Gabriella]
Take my hand;

[Troy]
together we
will celebrate,

[Gabriella]
celebrate.

[Troy y Gabriella]
Oh, ev’ryday.

[Gabriella]
They say that you should follow

[Troy]
and chase down what you dream,

[Gabriella]
but if you get lost and lose yourself

[Troy]
what does is really mean?

[Gabriella]
No matter where we’re going,

[Troy]
it starts from where we are.

[Gabriella, Troy y Gabriella]
There’s more to life when we listen to our hearts
[Troy y Gabriella]
and because of you, I’ve got the strength to start

Yeah, yeah, yeah!

Everyday
of our lives,
[Troy y Gabriella, Gabriella]
wanna find you there, wanna hold on tight
[Troy y Gabriella]
Gonna run
while we’re young
and keep the faith.

Everyday
[Troy]
from right now,
gonna use our voices and scream out loud
Take my hand;
together we
will celebrate,
[Gabriella]
Oh, ev’ryday

[Troy]
We’re taking it back,
we’re doing it here
together!

[Gabriella]
It’s better like that,
and stronger now
than ever!
[Troy y Gabriella]
We’re not gonna lose.
‘Cause we get to choose.
That’s how it’s gonna be!

[Troy]
Everyday
of our lives,
[Gabriella]
wanna find you there, wanna hold on tight.
[Troy]
Gonna run
while we’re young
[Troy y Gabriella]
And keep the faith
Keep the faith!

[Choir]
Everyday
of our lives,
wanna find you there, wanna hold on tight.
Gonna run
while we’re young
and keep the faith

Everyday
from right now,
gonna use our voices and scream out loud
Take my hand;
together we
will celebrate,

Ev’ryday!
Live ev’ry day!
Love ev’ryday!
Live ev’ryday!
Love ev’ryday!
Ev’ryday!
Ev’ryday!
Ev’ryday!
Ev’ryday!
Ev’ryday!
Ev’ryday!
Ev’ryday!

[Gabriella]
Ev’ryday!

dance and bbq

let the photos do some of the talking... (captions below the photo)


everyone rushing for makeup.. in and out of classed.. up and down funan..


steady leh!


haha. i bet u're like taking a closer look la. haha. eyeopener for many who knows me, with the exceptional of my dancemates. and crap; gabriel was there and he saw me.


meet the tappers and the ms susan. she's like a mother and everything.. and she's really cool and hip! everywk different clothing and funky hairstyle. she's freakinn talented.


and the ballet tchr, ms emi. she's like more of a friend to me now after the painstaking grd 8. hhaha. she's getting married and she's a v nice girl.


meet the 2 ballet pros. on my right and left. one from scgs, one was from. ballet and dance is really like.... their thing kind.


ok.. so is the dinner at Roysth rd. eve's old house and the FINAL bbq dinner b4 the land gets sold away. as usual, high food standards and superb family secret reciepes. i was eating non stop for like 2hrs plus. hahhhahaha. i really must start like loosing unnecessary bulk that adds resistance to my speed.haha. aka. loose weight.


so here's the ppl and the pit. do take note of wad's on the pit.


some of the extended family members b4 we left. auto timer on a nearby dustbin, prone to get hit by an oncoming vechical.

and yes, we had cousin time. ahha. eveleen, my cousing. and selene, the photographer who can really kill my shutter count.yes, more stupid photos.














i did a series, entitled 'Abandoned'. i want to catch beauty slp now, will post them up probably tmr.


i want to thank God. i didn't really screw up the ballet performance nor felt overly nervous. although there were parts that weren't nicely presented, it looked perfectly fine. hahaha. and thank God that i enjoyed myself in tap coz we've done that dance 738304835 times.
yes! and ggoooooooood foood.