lets do literature..

didn't bowled well again today.

i'm just not prepared. there's so much correction and refinements to be done. i havent got the timing right. havent got the feel. havent got the mind. havent got the heart.


i just feel so argh today.



sometimes, i really dont know wad are God's plans for me. one moment, i can feel that God's with me. and another moment, i feel that i've taken the wrong step.

sometimes, i'm just so tired of being who i am. its not that i'm trying hard or forcing myself. i just dun have that faith and confidence i use to have.

sometimes, i just want to be a zoo keeper and nothing else. let nature be my friends. let nature be my drive.

sometimes, i think that being a quiet, well-reserved and introvet little petit girl would make more ppl happier. thou shall not speak as the other would say fort.

sometimes, i think that its because of two sharp little sentances that changed my life. i rmbred so clearly. one was on bus 69, on a very emo thurs night. 2nd, was at the bowling alley on a thurs night as well.



sometimes, i made it not right. period.


con tra try

an empty heart,
an empty card.
a full head,
and a very sharp blade.

once a black.
never a white.
once a kite,
always out of sight.

words cant describe how i feel,
its probably just me being frail.
but i really have tried,
but it feels that it got bribed.

somestimes i care too much,
so much that it just got smudged.
weakened by the words around me,
surpressed by the voices within me.

who is me, me i asked.
but i guess it's all being masked.
negative connatations is only what i have,
sunshines seems to be just a theft.

neither do i hate nor love myself,
neither can i trust nor belive oneself.
i never seem to belong anywhere,
but all i can do is just to care.

alone is what i may want,
but many is what i may hunt.
i am bottling up all the bits to pieces,
till the day i might see Jesus.

let's all just hope that the bottle cap is tight,
so that i'll may not loose my sight.
all i can really do is to pray,
to pray for you and me, come what may.





why family. why.
why friends. why.
why team. why
why marian. why.