the bug is really sucking my life out of me.
talking to the crowd in open air was like challenging with my surrondings. i couldn't hear myself coz my ears were blocked. so i hope i dun sound irritating. ahhaha.
well. i was supposed to be i/c of icebreakers with brannon only. but ended up running it all e way till dinner. coz we're really lacking of man power. wanting, syahrul, alicia, peiyong were like running here and there and really working hard behind the scenes.
so i ended up the facil cum photographer cum firstaid. we did db! and i think that really brighten the grps up. yea, there were a few hiccups here and there. but i think within this small grp, we really bonded easily. btw, nice clear skies.
so the last photo. brannon and i. shagged to the max. i totally look buang and off. but i thank God for him. he's also e same believer... so we could work well together. i want to thank God for him alot alot.
the photos were taken today. like day1 know each other kind of thing. some of us know each other b4 this camp. but still i want to thank God for choosing the campers.
just through 1 day. it just needed this one day, to just pull me back.
i guess because the more 'tp oie! ppl' are not avaliable today, it gave me alot of little reasons why i should just start stepping up, once again. i know i used to be those who would take the first bold step out and just be-myself-heck-it attitude. but because of some conflictin reasons, i found myself unable to find that courage, until today.
i think today, its really by God's grace. i did feel any struggling thoughts, just the techincal worries abt the camp. i'm quite glad that i did not dwell abt the negative past but just focused on the welfare of everyone who's around me. i wannt thank God for providing me with ppl.
yes. i cannot deny that at some points of the camp, i was irritated with the camp stuff, but i guess at the end of the day, thank God for this experience. quite encouraged by those SIP ppl who came knocking on SAR's glass doors at past midnight. to me, although its like... huh. but it was encouraging.
this yr's comm, i would say is fun and interesting. we have our differences. like what i've mentioned during the debriefing, the positive thing abt our weaknesses is that we're able to work out a moderately suitable solution to every problem we faced. those problems were indeed preventable, but i guess at the end of the day, it's impt that we're learning and growing as a club.
at the end of the sem, we'lll definitely see how far we'd go as friends.
in my mind, i was giving unfair comparisons with the camps i hold with TP ppl and the camps i held with KC ppl. the way these 2 grps of ppl function is very different. honestly, i work very well the KC ppl way. (btw, KC- as in those i work with b4, not the KC ppl in general; whereas the TP- is the TP ppl in general) everything's under control and all. it all goes smoothly. even if there's inevitable hiccups, it's still smooth sailing. in TP, i guess its because as the ppl we're dealing with gets older, its more difficult to gain 'control' and attention.
we do not expect ppl to like be silent/sit up straight or wad... but ppl just can't seem to abide by rules or even.. respect. in a sense, when we say 12pm. we mean 12pm. and not 130pm. haha. yes.
anyways. for now, just hope that the campers will take something home tmr and that the friendships built will not just end there.
as for the com, i just hope to see more self motivation in each com member, rather than to keep having painstakingly sent emails from our president to keep pushing the comm. i think it really speaks alot of how much we want to contribute? i do believe in serving with physical absence. so if any of us should happen to not be able to come for meetings, do take the effort/initiative to find out wad u've missed- just like how we would if we were to miss our sports trngs.
and yes. pray for the flu bug to go away. my head is really throbbing today. in the car home, my head wasn't really spinning.. but it was shifting to the right. ahahah. really pain. so pray. i do want to be well and carry out all my task well for the rest of this semi-crazy month.
thank you Lord.
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