gosh. he'd be 72 yrs old today.
that's quite alot of years to go through huh.
guess it'll be a good wk for you when if i told you my new job placement. hahas. can totally imagine u bragging to all ur colleagues about ur daughter on the job :D but then again, at this age, u'd be long retireddd alrdy. yup. so that's the news for now.
really miss him alot.
1 man less to love and be loved.
TGIF.
so tired at work today. the ppl at loyang are busy with their movement.
and guess who i met up for a meal during the wk!
bad lighting but who cares! here's to one of my fav shifu in the field.
:D
while he was sending me back to my office in the van, nostalgic man. i still rmbr how i used to hang my water bottle in the vehicle, cold rainy days with nice radio music and so on. hahahas.
always nice to catch up with him since it's gonna be another period of time before i come back to line maintenance like that. told him about my placement and he reminded me of my path then. previously, the boss of my ojt company did offer me a position as a trainee tech to collect my hours while i do my papers for LAE. perhaps this would be the best option for me now. i mean not only its gonna be faster, but chances of me getting type trngs for my fav 747s are possibly high since that's quite a big part in their market.
haha. imagine that. then again, overall it wouldn't be that great looking at the business outlook for the company now uh.
bahhh.
sooo many things to sayyyyyyy that i just wanna share. esp to you.
i think this is the thing about me; i can't shut up over things that fascinates me. and the good/bad thing is that every little thing seem to amaze/excites me that i can't wait to share it with someone. hahas. i mean like, nice clouds, nice moon, nice motorcycles, i just wanna tell someone about it.
i just need to let them out of my system and hence, this blog is still surviving for.. (omg) 11 yrs now. AHHAHA.
sometimes i do randomly click on the posts back then and it is interesting to read my thoughts/concerns then. HAHHA. #ammature. and whatever photos i post here comes via Picasa. so sometimes it feels super nostalgic to browse through the album and go through the phases in my life. hahahas. wonder if the next few chapters of my life will be as exciting as my younger days. wellwell. no one really knows what's installed uh.
and over the years, there's the spike in social media which has becoming a culture-changing thing and probably having a part to play in how people work/think/act. blogs used to be like the 'in' thing along with friendster which eventually died due to the emergence of Facebook. and there were communicative modes like ICQ, MSN...since SMSes were costly. hahahas. asl. HAHAHS. i still rmbr my sis telling me not to mess with ppl online. hahahas. well, imagine if we sms the way we whatapp now....
"haha" [send]
"ok." [send]
"see you soon" [send]
"take care" [send]
hahahs. that's like 40c already. HAHHAHHAS. those.were.the.days.
now there's and more streams like instagram, twitter, dunowhat chat and so on. and some how, for the different things, we use the different streams like as if it matters. i just find this quite interesting; probably a part of a relation towards sociology and how people function in a community within a culture-set.
i mean, all these saying is within Singapore context / in a county that's so technologically developed.
honestly, though i seem to be
i think people are more responsible/loyal/committed then.
they're i guess, more focused since there's nothing much notifications going on, no beeping or distractions of any other thing. so this frees up alot of time and space for effective thinking for things and people. this makes people more considerate i guess!, paying more attention to relationship building that leveling up in some farm. oops. hahahahs.
i think during that era, i was like in primary school. i rmbr trying to rmbr all my friends' home phone numbers, writing them in my telephone books and sticking nice stickers to it. hahahahs!
omg. i still rmbr this boy, we used to secretly like each other and then we would talk on the phone for 10 over mins. that seemed to be a long time in comparison since we're not supposed to talk over the phone for so long since it was costly anyway. hilarious.
well well. i guess i'm managing controllably fine now; that's what i tell myself.
i really hope that this inner turmoil shall come to pass soon.
really, i dont want to be in this state of needing anything or anyone to replace this almost unbearable feeling, but just to eradicate it all away totally coz it is really very, very uncomfortable.
i mean, since i was in (what i think was a serious) relationship, and then going out of it, life never seemed to be focused or on a manageable line. i think i was about 14 then. so its now its been about 1 decade later since i've felt normal about life. i can't really define nor explain what i mean by 'normal', but i just dont feel quite right. idk if this is the package for growing up, but i really wish to find that kind of peace back then before anything started. and then along the way, when you suddenly came along and it seemed that you became a big part of my life and my world just expanded up to the skies and then down to the concrete ground, and then crushing it back into a paper ball to be thrown into the bin. hahas. idk what i'm saying, but pictorially, it just feels this way for now.
i cant just keep loosing special people in my heart due to whatever reasons just like that. why can't things be managed properly?
i guess i'm a hoarder, but i really treasure all these friendships and i wouldn't want to trade it away with anything in the world.
perhaps this is what it means by having a void in your heart, a scar that can never be removed. once someone creates it, it always stays there. suddenly thought of the time while on the wing when u replaced the light bulb. technically, there are gaps that require sealant to fill up the gaps, but sometimes we just need to take off without it and hope that it survives.
so yep, hope that i'll survive this and stop feeling so uncomfortable.
aiya. there i go again.
okok. i shall stop all these whining.
lastly, nice photo in the gym just before it closes.
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