pain

the grc thing made me realised how strong the older singapore bowlers ar.
i rep Kampong Chai Chee. we didn't bowl that well. from 5th to 11th to 12th. haha.
nvm.
but thanks vinc from driving me to church!


then went for mission trng.

my back is sooooooooo painful that i just cannot stil still for more then 5mins. i had to lie down. and whenever i stand, it just feel wierd.


the pain intensifies when the month'y girl's best friend comes. it sucks. i'm probably letting the hormones take over me la. feeling super sian and lifeless.

sometimes i just feel like ripping the whole section of the lower backbone out. its reallly sucking too much of my energy and slowing down the rate of getting things complete.



i dont like this feeeling.
and always, i have the assurance that God is with me. but i just feel so ugh abt things. haha. another plus point to the benefits of being a guy. probably sometimes, i just wish i'm an introvert person who have nothing to care abt in the world and just spending time with God.


to add on. all my documents are on my laptop, and THE internet is at the desktop. i feel so stupid having to use this office chair to move from one com to another. it really slows things down and really making me no mood to do things.


i comfort myself by saying God's probably preparing me for the future. if that doesn't work, probably its the devil's plan to ruin my trip. in any ways, i just hope that i sustain this marathon or pick up pace.

it feels all alone.
all messed up and slackened down.
i need God's grace and peace, thank you for His love.