train.

hoho.

10am all the way to 4pm of bowling.

140 111 lunch 171 184 178

today, its like scores are probably there coz of spares. but if u look at how are the strikes shot, not nice. its like.
i'm still finding my release. my consistancy and my routine. its kinda everywhere now. that explains the inconsistant scores.
i need a spare ball. coz my wwith slayR, though its a long ball, i cannot trust it to skidd all the way to pin10. coz my ball is not like freakin fast or anywhere near 'fast'. my 11lb spare ball is quite much usless now..

was alittle shagged already by then.

sportsclub had meeting at 2pm. i cannot ask coach to just let me go like that. i've already set it straight right from day 1 that when tournament comes, trng gets intense and coach expects more. takin a day off can be out of question unless a for a very urgent matter. i guess there's a need for understanding?
but at the same time, i know my place.. and if anyone were to judge me abt my commitment, i'll proabably question who are u to judge me.
u can tell me, be angry with me, shout at me, explain to me, rant at me or whatever, i'll gladly listen and try explain and understand and make adjustments for improvements.
but if teere's speculations, from ppl and not from the creator of the content that meets my ear, i can be annoyed.

coz, transparncy is very very lacking in the committee.

my 05pbexco can testify the importance of having transparncy, to give and take and to understand.
so at the very end of the day, perceptions are created. and thus, more misunderstandings and judgement. how would u expect an efficient committee that produces exceeding results?

for today, i sincerely apologise for my absence. not that i'm real dead repentance, but out of respect for the committee.
in my stand/ or if u call it, arguement, i cannot be repantance for taking my trngs seriously.
coz to add on, today's trng is abt full event stimulation.
as much as i want to get involve in the committee, as much as i want to make TP and of coz, my God, proud. i dont print the 20+++ pages of Camp notes for no reason.
and if u know me enough, i want to make the best out of everything, which can be my flaw in a way. if u think that absenting myself from the meeting is goona give me more space to breathe, u're totally wrong. coz the more i 'step out', the stresser i get, coz i've missed certain stuff out, and at the same time, wanting be on track.
in a way, i'm publically explaining myself coz i've got nothing to be ashamed of for my absence.
perhaps fractions of disappointments.

and lastly, if u think i'm being petty, abt ranting all this stuff on my blog hoping to seek an image of 'perfect' or 'ideal', think again. i have a purspose. not a hidden agenda, but a hopeful solution for better understanding.


so. NAYWAYS. after that. trng from 6pm till 9.
fitness today. did many basic drills. but the level is up as the months passed by.
the game played by our team was gd as commented by marli. but during drills. i think 'm a disappointment coz i had drop balls.
to add on, i think i've sprained my ankle coz there was a little collision, in addition to my weak knees.
i better succumb to health measures soon though.






anyways. today's weather is gd. not much of a haze.
i wanna thank God for the many stuff He's sacrifced and done for sinners like us.