struggle

IP is coming. and this has to happen.

basically. my release is all screwd. coach tells me this, someone tells me this. after drilling this. this' not gd. then 3 balls diff drill. try new drill. doesn work. chang release. so redrill all balls.

u see. its all over. i nv felt so so so irritated and agitated b4 in my whole 6 yrs of bowling. i broke down not becuse i give up, but the frustrations is too overwhelming.

here i am, trying so hard, and i feel that my release is not gd. dropping the ball, no rev no speed. n coach says GOOD. i mean like. i'm not comfortable. nothign to hide but i want to be gd. gd enough to win smth for TP. i dun want to be just gd and thats it. i want to win ok.

seriously. i have 1 mth and less. and now, everythings not right. equippment. and me. hoho. seriously, i'm goona bowl all my allowance and pay this month and more imptly, get it right. coach A tells me this. coach B tells me that. if both complements, fine. but NO. in fact, they contradict. is as gd as A tells u to run to the left while B tells u to run to the right. its really that extreme.

so ok. i've chosen to redrill all my balls. get it done right from scratch, listening to B. but i see A every trng. so we'll see oks. i think gerad also faces this prob.

if u see me secluding from the world, i'll probably be bowling somewhere in sg. HARS.



then for rugby. i dun want to talk abt it. i just want to train my stamina. so that i can run fast and far and bowl well for IP-bowling.


so now. i'm left with my spare ball. all my power balls are under construction and i can probably get by mon. earliest sun. ): and tmr, its full sitmuation trng. and mon's trng wil be at yishun. how exciting can it get. with my one and only ball. a plastic one some more. so tmr i'll be bowling probably 5 games with my spare ball. yes. i so cannot wait to post my scores up here.