canterbury

something made me feel happy today is that outing with some of the rugby girls. wwe all got the same red canterbury shorts. its really comfortable and like durable. might think of investin in more.
and we're all getting the $29 bag which is still gg lower at $24.60.

after that, went to deedee's house, and really, i love her house. like whoa. near town and dah dah dah.
but yea, my house still holds that sentimental value so much more than anything else.



then was rugby trng.
b4 trng, had alot pf drop balls.
i feel freaking slow today. like canot run fast. i'm v v discouraged la.
then today, did drills. i'm so distracted.
i get frustrated coz i only did one set when others did like 3 or 4, when marli called in the girls.
i realise myself kp gg on defense, and also claire.
i'm not saying anything. its just that i myself, also want to try out the new drill k.

then was game.
i tried to stay focus, but i just cannot. not because of anyone on the field. but someone off the field. someone off my life.
very off.


somehow, today. a sudden decline in my emo-graph. right from the morning.
dun ask y.
i feel like locking my blog somehow. like have password or smth. no la. no one's upseeting me abt my blog la. its just some emo thing which i can't explain. but i do know. but i dun want u to know. HARS.


oasis touch is coming.
IP is coming.
All asian schs is coming.

BAH. all asian schs clashes with mission trip.

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i'm irritated la. to an extent, annonyed.
i'm giving up so much for mission trip. like the day i'm back in sg, the next day exams. my trngs, and sch.
and when i finally gotten over and decide to kp fighting on, another thing comes in.

and like. i'm only gg on the 2nd half. after last mission's trng, abt villages profile, i feel that i can't do much. i still can do alot la. but not as much. but i'm just gg there to support the missionaries.

i'm really confused.
maybe not confused. but stirred up.




i wouldn't say i'm stressed now, coz i'm not worthy to say it. but coz i'm procrastinating ALOT. so much that i feel that i'm being chased although i'm not.


in times like this, i really need u. i have to admit defeat. yea. u can say that i'm sprouting nonsense. or positively putting it, i'm emotionally challenged.
i always try to take things by my stride. even not, i try to put things at my advatage even if it's at the very disadvantage. i try to feel positive, to sound positive, to look positive. and often not, i am successful. but this time round, its like, when u play Street Fighter, the enegery level, it keeps gg down. and now its at the red level.

and i'm not tired.
somehow.


bah.
this distance is just to disturbing.
distance of hope. of courage. of strength. of love. or perhaps, even fear.




a rock on rough sand
A huge rock on rough sand,
a big wave with a loud bang.
sturdy and tall,
facing no freaking wall.

strongly, the merciless sun shone,
aching, the painful heart groan.

a huge rock on rough sand,
thinking that one can witstand.
perhaps the clouds would fall in one day,
and thus, grass can happily sway.

but hell no did the clouds come,
instead, there was no fun.
still the sun shone like mad,
how we'd long for the weather to be wet.

dun talk abt the 'splendid' waves that crashed in,
along with it, making us unclean.
all who stood by me seemed to slip away,
all who stood by me seemed to have someting to say.

all the time, there was one little grain of sand,
who is nv percieved to be unglam.
this little grain on this rock,
makes this whole perfect frame rocks.

but with that 'splendid' splash,
it brought my heart to a close slash.
and with that 'spledid' wave,
it did send me to my grave.