ok. so if i said this post is random, would u believe?

i just 'dun like' ppl who judge. who assumes.

and by saying that i dun like, i'm already judging which would make me a greater sinner.

if ppl just duno where to draw the line. where to stand. wad to say. how to say. would it still matter?

honestly. here am i trying to help. and DUDE. (oh man. i'm starting to get irritated with this word), stop calling me dude in the middle of the night when talking abt serious stuff.

and i mean that i'm darn right serious abt photography. and when it concerns $$ that i can actually use to spend on food, i'm even concerned. so wads with the 'u're changed'. so wad if i am? for worse or better, i know that i'm listening to God up there.

and when it comes to showing love, its been long since i felt this particular struggle. coz i love everyone, inc u and u and u.

i'm not posting this post to vent my anger or create awareness in anybody. coz i dun wish for some person to actually come ans SMS me sayin 'i dun want to be ur brother anymore'. can it be more obvious?

just as i was typing.. "ppl for making my day". lucky for u. i've successfulyl controlled myself not to tell u how i feel and all. i know, it'll be better so that u can be aware of how i feel and so on. but i'm so so sure that u'll take it in a negative way. and i mean, as always.

i'm not trying to be mean here, coz i'll never be mean. but oh wells. often than not, good intentions dun really get paid off at times. and if u're gonna be emo abt it, i dun really care, coz i can't do much. but i hope some reflections (i can't find a not so harsher word to use) are made.


lastly. ppl do change. and for me, i'm learning. but when it comes to u telling me in a way that it seems to be in an attempt to ask me to change (or whatver), i suggest u be more specific and constructive by telling me where and which area in my life. give me an opportunity to defend myself.
and pls. not because of any personal agenda or pride or ego. whatever u call it.


a very gd example is mr. j. lim and steph sim.. ahhahahahaa. yes u again. they tell me i'm blunt and not respectful. i acknowledge that and love them even more for watching over me. aahhaa. (steph. those were the times man. ahhahaha.)


i'm not angry nor sad nor happy now. i'm just.. just... ergh by it. by the whole i-know-it-all-and-pls-dun-tell-me-i-know-what-i'm-doing kinda of ppl.
its up to u how u're gonna respond to this post. in love, i'm not wanting to tear anyone down, but express my feelings. coz i know, by telling u directly, as mentioned, it'll come out to u as negative.
its becoming too frequent. and why why why there's not acknowledgement or wadsoeva. i'm typing wad ever i'm feeling.

this is how it is that it's conveyed/portrayed to me. u can defend/justify or wad. but this is how i got it. get it?
i am harsh. and i know i'll be if i hope the best in ppl and friends around me. this is justifiable especially among the 10 of us. (*points to the pic below)

so i've done my part. and hate to repeat all of this. coz God's children love each other.