alot of things kinda happened today.
i'll go in order of scale.
first.
sc agm.
well. i shall not comment on the technical part of it. coz its being done during debrief. all i can say that is i'm this committee need more exposure. and as for me, kinda disappointed with my own personal performance. coz there was so much to be done and not done. so much things to be improved on.
but well. on a brighter note, the deco com did more than expected. and really, i wana honour samantha and team for that.
i guess it comes to a point, wheere i have to be reminded to be patient. for 2 yrs, i've been working with very very very highly efficient secret-workaholics. my exco of kcpb05. and seriously, i still have to proudly say that the events we planned are just so well done. not bhb. the committee is really like, everything-is-done kind. and on event day, everything is like wah. even with the unexpected, its being accounted for. yes, we do have disagreements and all those. but at the end of the day, we learn so much. and to add on, we hold highly of our sch values, and really, they're like humility humilty humilty, display servant leadership.
i'm lookking forward to this yr's sc maincomm. there's alot to be done. alot to be achieved. and alot to be done.
i hope that we do not stop here but move on. further than expected.
because of that, i had to miss trng.
coz agm was at the squash court.. so could see the girls train.
i so wanted to be there. they did defence adn 3 men punch. and today's performance was gd, accoding to our coach. and really. i wanted to be there. i only went for the team talk after every trng.
lastly, project work.
honestly. if i'm pushing alot,i do hope u guys understand. coz i dun want regrets at the end of the day. and when its grp work, i really hope that we mean group work. and if u feel that i'm pushing u too hard, do not hestiate to let me know.
in poly.
i feel that its so different. i feel so vulnerable. vulnerable through strength, through weakness. my strength causes me to weaken. my weakness, adds on to my vulnerability. God is so distant as compared to elsewhere. all the more i miss my life in sajc in kc, in shps. do i tone down and just simply go with the flow? or do i still dymacially voice out, hoping for either positive or negative responses? are the ppl in poly really prepared for the working world? to move on? to improve? to simply juz work hard?
or issit just plain me, having high expectations.
u know wad. i really miss stephanie sim. i wanna see how'd she'll survive in a polytechnic. somehow the ppl that makes u. if not, its either in ur own world, gg there just to do ur part and get a decent diploma.
even those close to me, i can't seem to be my usual self?
i have many friends. and yet, i hate to admit that i feel alone.
is my stand still firm on conrete ground? or on sinking sand.
sory to have not control my emo today.
things just keep happening.
Do i still hold faith in God to carry me through?
Why in times like such, we dun appreciate God, even though He's done so freakin much for us.
Why issit that i can't let go?
Why issit that my veil is as transparent as water?
thank u justin, jorim, nard, jeremy, chuan, lying and jannah. y? a part of my class that i'm just thankful for.
all in all. i feel that i can't perform my best in poly. just because its grp work, does it mean i take it slow? i'll still pray for strength, and more imprtly, guidance from Him.
just to share with u a really hilarious dream i had last nite:
ok. the highlight is rugby.
picture this scene. at thailand, one of the villages.
i saw my daddy. in SAS' rugby jersey having team talk. LAUGH PLS. then. there were ppl like daniel, nigel, andrew, robert, ash, khairul, kev, abel. and all the familiar rugby ppl. they were having team talk.
meanwhile. i got my rugby jersery, which was red. my team were also having talk.but its those normal conversational kind. haha. then somhow, i need to find a toilet so i walked up the hill of sa village, into sajs. (which seemed like the old ascnesion kindergarden). then in the toilet, i saw uncle sam(current TP SAA staff). dun ask y he's there. but he was talking to this girl i often see in sch... either from dragonboat/netball. he said hi to me.
then the toilet aunty told me i could use the toilet. (and the toilet aunty is the aunty who cleans tp swimming pool toilets).
then then. i went back. and the scene is back at the village kind-sandy sandy kind. by then, at the 'shelter', made with straws, there was daniel and nigel, talking, with all theeir rugby stuff geared up. my team (tpiranhas. hahah) was booting up. then i told my team that we've gotta run this 10km marathon.
then ifa (the capt) was like... "wth! when and where sia?". err.. after our match lor. around the village. some jawed drop. i rmbred ruby clapping her hands in her long black socks, black boots and orange shoe laces.
its just hilarious la.
then all the while the atmoshper for me is that... tournament's gonna start, smth's goona happen. haha. i duno la. then i see my dad. its just hilarious. that like i get the feeling that daniel was my brother, who's watching over me, and like my team's goona fight. as in fight hard for the game.
it was a bright morning. i duno how can a thailand village and sav be like together at one place la. hahah. i rmbred Haha(my teammate) in my dream too.
i duno why the dream is so super darn clear. but i woke up late today though. still having that feeling that i was late for my match. all the faces were rmbred.
i'm quite sure that the story was quite a long one, but can't really rmbr.
okok. finally.
after last wk's league, i'm about 10pins away from being in Masters. now as R1. grrr. thus, to get into masters, i have to bowl atleast a 165 avg. to have a secure positionin masters, a 183 avg. HAHA. RIGHT huh. ok. i'm gonna target my 540 series w/o hcp again. wasted, my hcp dropped. ahha. i need to bowl well and be on form. i was on form for 2 wks only can. bah. i must be back.
btw. haha
check out the boy's masters so far..
14. ALVIN TAN NTU TEAM 2 179
15. ALVIN TAN SINGAPORE POLY 179
16. ALAN TAN TEMASEK POLY TEAM 2 179
17. ANDY TAN TEMASEK POLY TEAM 1 178
haha all the A. Tan. al an at. hahahaha.
exams are coming. train for it man. pls pls pls. get it in.
took a test. and this is what i get. hmmm.
Logical
Patriotic
Ambitious
Not egoistic
Loves praise
Loves to joke
Fun to be with
Not pretending
Loves attention
Short tempered
Hates restrictions
Loves to socialize
Loves to be loved
Loyal and generous
Impatient and hasty
Changing personality
Good sense of humor
Honest and trustworthy
Influential in organizations
Takes high pride in oneself
Active in games and interactions
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