Friday, October 20, 2006
camp
was ok la. it was a time for me to relax and settle down i guess..
guitaring was gd as always. coach plays and sing really well. be amazed.
last night was kinda an 'experience' for me. it'was fun though.
supposed to wach 'sunrise' this morning. but thanks to the haze, we ended up seeing cloudless skies.
after we checked out today, went bowling with asri, asto and ys. darryl joined us later.. i wanna thank asri for being my 'coach'. and also, alvin.. coz i'm still in the midst of fixiing up my probs. IP is in 2 WKS TIME!! freka out. and i'm not prepared. my timing, release is off. past few yrs, i'm usually prepared,..jsut fine tuning.. this time round.. hoho.
hmm.
but today at tamp, i bowled a 219 and a clean game b4 that! that makes 2 clean games todaY! and i've done it 3 times only so far.
i duno why.. but i really want to win IP badly. i've never wanted to win a tournament this much. my past nationals.. we were merely striving for the best for God and sch.. this time.. it seemed to be much much more.
was looking at blogs of the sajc's open house. the photos from the bowling booth looks impressive.. i really wanna be there v much to catch up with ppl whom i really miss alot. i guess there's always another chance i hope. swl partner is doing a great job as a captain. really proud of him. haha. i duno whos the girls capt, but my dearest zen seems to be dooing really well (: . i know she'll go far.
somehow, i miss sam lee. ahha. ok. thanks random.
both gera and sara are gonna get promoted! Hhahaa. feel so happy for them. after all that hardowrk, craziness, and messinup my house, they stil made it. (:
gland! u got promoted too right? (:
i wanna know wad's the legendary steph sim's results. i'd won'bt be surprise if its like A A .. and so on. haa.
oh wells. timetable is out. eeee. ends at 6pm on 3 DAYS. ho ho. and u know wad. 3HRS BREAKS here and there. really wasting my time la. ): but the gd thing is that i'm taking psychology! FINALLY. a factual study. smth that's factual. smth that i'm able to actualyl study hard. something that's science.
haha. i sound nerdy.
hmm. from now till tue, i have the whole house to myself. mum and sis went to taiwan for hols. when i unlocked the gate today... smth's different.
the house is empty. i duno if i feel alone .. but.. it just gets really silent. its like.. slience becoming too deafening. oh wells.
my stuff are still coming in and piling. yea, pray for me.. for strength and independance.
i wanna win that.
guitaring was gd as always. coach plays and sing really well. be amazed.
last night was kinda an 'experience' for me. it'was fun though.
supposed to wach 'sunrise' this morning. but thanks to the haze, we ended up seeing cloudless skies.
after we checked out today, went bowling with asri, asto and ys. darryl joined us later.. i wanna thank asri for being my 'coach'. and also, alvin.. coz i'm still in the midst of fixiing up my probs. IP is in 2 WKS TIME!! freka out. and i'm not prepared. my timing, release is off. past few yrs, i'm usually prepared,..jsut fine tuning.. this time round.. hoho.
hmm.
but today at tamp, i bowled a 219 and a clean game b4 that! that makes 2 clean games todaY! and i've done it 3 times only so far.
i duno why.. but i really want to win IP badly. i've never wanted to win a tournament this much. my past nationals.. we were merely striving for the best for God and sch.. this time.. it seemed to be much much more.
was looking at blogs of the sajc's open house. the photos from the bowling booth looks impressive.. i really wanna be there v much to catch up with ppl whom i really miss alot. i guess there's always another chance i hope. swl partner is doing a great job as a captain. really proud of him. haha. i duno whos the girls capt, but my dearest zen seems to be dooing really well (: . i know she'll go far.
somehow, i miss sam lee. ahha. ok. thanks random.
both gera and sara are gonna get promoted! Hhahaa. feel so happy for them. after all that hardowrk, craziness, and messinup my house, they stil made it. (:
gland! u got promoted too right? (:
i wanna know wad's the legendary steph sim's results. i'd won'bt be surprise if its like A A .. and so on. haa.
oh wells. timetable is out. eeee. ends at 6pm on 3 DAYS. ho ho. and u know wad. 3HRS BREAKS here and there. really wasting my time la. ): but the gd thing is that i'm taking psychology! FINALLY. a factual study. smth that's factual. smth that i'm able to actualyl study hard. something that's science.
haha. i sound nerdy.
hmm. from now till tue, i have the whole house to myself. mum and sis went to taiwan for hols. when i unlocked the gate today... smth's different.
the house is empty. i duno if i feel alone .. but.. it just gets really silent. its like.. slience becoming too deafening. oh wells.
my stuff are still coming in and piling. yea, pray for me.. for strength and independance.
i wanna win that.
Wednesday, October 18, 2006
S2006 Appreciation Dinner
trng at yishun today again. a 1hr 15min bus ride can be shiok to slp in.
hmm. trng. i couldn't find the feel at yishun. timing off, ball drops. dun trust my equpiment. hand not behind the ball. when it hits the pocket and strikes.. its like . not those solid kind. somethings wrong. after trng, bowled 2 games to try work things out. couldn't do much.
i'm maybe stressed abt bowling lehs. previous yrs.. i'm not really... more of exictment and the can't wait for it feeling. this yr is different. perhaps at a higher level?
today coach said smth.it was my first few practice throws. so usually, i'd really put my all to try and get things right.. like figure out e oilling pattern.. routines and stuff like that. i think because of that, i tend to look serious and isolated. so coach talked to me. he said stuff which i can't seem to agree. as in... i agree on the content wise. but i don't agree that i'm like that.
he tells me stuff like.. there's ur team mates.... dun forget and more stuff like that which is not be be publicially disclosed.
its like. what he told me ytd after reading the msg from another person of similar profession.
with regards to ytd's post also. i really think that i'm being misunderstood. really. by all 3 ppl from diff walks of life.
perhaps is the just the complexity of marian.
IRONIC. just the complexity.
sometimes... its just easier to let go and go with the flow.
but. HOW.
i'm pretty much knotted? things are happening. and i'm still procrasting quite abit. sports club events are all piling up. meetings are seemingly so crucial and time is ever so short. yet with the POL-ITE games that are coming up...things can get preetty much tougher without understanding ppl around.
on the sc side. i wanna thank God alot for kaiwen, shafi, jm, andrew and especially sam and wilson.
i can't go for rugby these few day. coz i really wanna focus on bowling and sc. full stop.
sc. hard to catch up. coz everything's moving.. its hard for me to get updated, due to trngs.
the dinner today was so-so. happy to see all the photogs again.! saw zhenq qin as vivo as well. really (: to see him some how. had a gd time chilling out with the photgs at the sky park after that. its really a cool place. but it looks like marina square. literally.. the tiles and all.
oh boy.
in times like this.. really only God can carry you and be that strength. understanding becomes a strong word to me now. me or the ppl around me? external or internal?
i dun think i expect so much from ppl. but of myself. so why like that.
i can't please everybody. i know its not goonna work. but at least i'm trying to..
camp till fri. byes for now..
hmm. trng. i couldn't find the feel at yishun. timing off, ball drops. dun trust my equpiment. hand not behind the ball. when it hits the pocket and strikes.. its like . not those solid kind. somethings wrong. after trng, bowled 2 games to try work things out. couldn't do much.
i'm maybe stressed abt bowling lehs. previous yrs.. i'm not really... more of exictment and the can't wait for it feeling. this yr is different. perhaps at a higher level?
today coach said smth.it was my first few practice throws. so usually, i'd really put my all to try and get things right.. like figure out e oilling pattern.. routines and stuff like that. i think because of that, i tend to look serious and isolated. so coach talked to me. he said stuff which i can't seem to agree. as in... i agree on the content wise. but i don't agree that i'm like that.
he tells me stuff like.. there's ur team mates.... dun forget and more stuff like that which is not be be publicially disclosed.
its like. what he told me ytd after reading the msg from another person of similar profession.
with regards to ytd's post also. i really think that i'm being misunderstood. really. by all 3 ppl from diff walks of life.
perhaps is the just the complexity of marian.
IRONIC. just the complexity.
sometimes... its just easier to let go and go with the flow.
but. HOW.
i'm pretty much knotted? things are happening. and i'm still procrasting quite abit. sports club events are all piling up. meetings are seemingly so crucial and time is ever so short. yet with the POL-ITE games that are coming up...things can get preetty much tougher without understanding ppl around.
on the sc side. i wanna thank God alot for kaiwen, shafi, jm, andrew and especially sam and wilson.
i can't go for rugby these few day. coz i really wanna focus on bowling and sc. full stop.
sc. hard to catch up. coz everything's moving.. its hard for me to get updated, due to trngs.
the dinner today was so-so. happy to see all the photogs again.! saw zhenq qin as vivo as well. really (: to see him some how. had a gd time chilling out with the photgs at the sky park after that. its really a cool place. but it looks like marina square. literally.. the tiles and all.
oh boy.
in times like this.. really only God can carry you and be that strength. understanding becomes a strong word to me now. me or the ppl around me? external or internal?
i dun think i expect so much from ppl. but of myself. so why like that.
i can't please everybody. i know its not goonna work. but at least i'm trying to..
camp till fri. byes for now..
Tuesday, October 17, 2006
toughests
like i've said. this is the toughest year i've gone through and still going through.
3 adults. from everywhere.
all the venting and stuff like that, on a teenage girl.
conflicts among coaches, teachings, methods.
i duno how long i can tahan la. really. maybe i can la. but if i really wanna whack and excel full force, this is not gonna work.
and adults say that we kids are immature. talk abt them. fancy blickering, using us as communicative tools to aid in their professional bickerings.
FINALLY. my bowling balls are done up. hars. today's simulation, bowled with spare ball again can. i really must get used to my balls again. after trng, went to cbc to bowl abt 8 games. my left knee almost gave way i guess. as i was bowling my 6th game.. there was this jerk my right knee while executing my shot.. abit freaky. coz technically, its the left one that's injured.
ytd after church, went out with eve jas drew solo. i duno why but for the whole day, my left knee was exceptionally painful even when i dun bend it.
i'm just worried for mission trip.
its only mon, and i'm feeling the shagged-ness. tmr wake up at 6am. train at yishun, be there by 915am. night- dinner at vivo, the official thank you dinner for imf.
mum and sis will be away on hol. then i'll be in bowling camp. piano will only arrive end of nov. then there's this and that.
and then more of this and unnecessay that.
then this and then that.
and in the end,
who stands to listen a piece of my heartfelt suggestions or comments or improvements or wadsoeva?
Murphy's law: when one goes wrong, all goes wrong.
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3 adults. from everywhere.
all the venting and stuff like that, on a teenage girl.
conflicts among coaches, teachings, methods.
i duno how long i can tahan la. really. maybe i can la. but if i really wanna whack and excel full force, this is not gonna work.
and adults say that we kids are immature. talk abt them. fancy blickering, using us as communicative tools to aid in their professional bickerings.
FINALLY. my bowling balls are done up. hars. today's simulation, bowled with spare ball again can. i really must get used to my balls again. after trng, went to cbc to bowl abt 8 games. my left knee almost gave way i guess. as i was bowling my 6th game.. there was this jerk my right knee while executing my shot.. abit freaky. coz technically, its the left one that's injured.
ytd after church, went out with eve jas drew solo. i duno why but for the whole day, my left knee was exceptionally painful even when i dun bend it.
i'm just worried for mission trip.
its only mon, and i'm feeling the shagged-ness. tmr wake up at 6am. train at yishun, be there by 915am. night- dinner at vivo, the official thank you dinner for imf.
mum and sis will be away on hol. then i'll be in bowling camp. piano will only arrive end of nov. then there's this and that.
and then more of this and unnecessay that.
then this and then that.
and in the end,
who stands to listen a piece of my heartfelt suggestions or comments or improvements or wadsoeva?
Murphy's law: when one goes wrong, all goes wrong.
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Monday, October 16, 2006
Faces
fun shot though. thought of using the file taken by my PNS. but felt that slr can do better. had a hard time positiong this man. btw, this is gab the right side.
Power: Simply Red
also a challenging theme that made me and jisheng run around. 'i love you' can be powerful wad right.. i like melvin's shots for this theme though. as well as his darkness theme.
A Slice of History
not a easy themem. judges probably didn't understood? the crack reps the historical past of nicoll highway. probably my best shot for the day besides being a little over exposed.
Darkness
not my best shot. my last best 7 shots unknowingly disappeared after taking shots at the memoral. i actually went around asking ppl to give me a cigerratte, and lighter to take a pic of it.
Sunday, October 15, 2006
Saturday, October 14, 2006
spareball / momo.
hmm. rmrb abt my spare ball and my o3jhapjija;roja['fa';fm experience?
120 124 lunch 151 200
10am- 330pm. (i always bowl better after meals.)
it was quite a shock. i was aiming for a mesily 100 for the first game. then tried for 140. wait. its with spare ball ok. on my 200 game, i 4 begger and pocket strikes sia! infact, most of it were pocket.
honestly. i felt like a spinner. coz it was so darn straight, i had to be more accurate, taking every board into consideration. i nv bowled so mathematical b4. in a way, it was more an accuracy trng for me.
i wanna thank God for that. full of surprises eh. pleasant ones too. talk abt the so-called 'black friday'
my bowling now is really diff. i duno how will my ball act towards the lanes after the driling. i'm not sure of the reaction. and i really duno how's my routine gonna be like.
i'm goonna work hard.
after that was clubbing. yea right. hhaha. went to Momo with joan and tingting to help willy with his photoshoot. he wasn't there... patricia was, and mike the photographer. it was a company's annual dinner and dance. the 'emcee' is super talented and zai la. he's from Innovative Events i think. then the company is really cool la. we didn't get to shoot shoot much. only could shoot like wine bottles and stuff.
wad excites me most is the food that was provided and the free flow of drinks!! wahhaha. i'm a law abiding kid , so no alcohol for me. dun really like them. so we had 2jugs for coke and ting and joan tried quite a few stuff out. ahh.was cool.
the food is gd.
so far.. all my offical events regardg photog provides me with food. talk abt press centre! haha.
haha. then i was giving our the individual printed photos to them, theres one caucasian vip grabbed both my hands and smiled at me while giving him his card. i got shocked can. i was like.. err.. ar. thanks. then pulled my hand back and zhao. sia la. i know he play play abit. but... err. haha. i understand i guess.. but.. err. its just freaky la.
hmm.
my sports club mtng clashes with my imf appreciation dinner on tue.
and i'm sure its goona stir up mixed feelings due to my absence.
i really pray for understanding hearts.
tmr is the photo competition. 730am-10pm. i hope to show u guys smth worth showing. haha.
meanwhile. i think my tagboard is down. maybe u all wpuld like to comment instead.
120 124 lunch 151 200
10am- 330pm. (i always bowl better after meals.)
it was quite a shock. i was aiming for a mesily 100 for the first game. then tried for 140. wait. its with spare ball ok. on my 200 game, i 4 begger and pocket strikes sia! infact, most of it were pocket.
honestly. i felt like a spinner. coz it was so darn straight, i had to be more accurate, taking every board into consideration. i nv bowled so mathematical b4. in a way, it was more an accuracy trng for me.
i wanna thank God for that. full of surprises eh. pleasant ones too. talk abt the so-called 'black friday'
my bowling now is really diff. i duno how will my ball act towards the lanes after the driling. i'm not sure of the reaction. and i really duno how's my routine gonna be like.
i'm goonna work hard.
after that was clubbing. yea right. hhaha. went to Momo with joan and tingting to help willy with his photoshoot. he wasn't there... patricia was, and mike the photographer. it was a company's annual dinner and dance. the 'emcee' is super talented and zai la. he's from Innovative Events i think. then the company is really cool la. we didn't get to shoot shoot much. only could shoot like wine bottles and stuff.
wad excites me most is the food that was provided and the free flow of drinks!! wahhaha. i'm a law abiding kid , so no alcohol for me. dun really like them. so we had 2jugs for coke and ting and joan tried quite a few stuff out. ahh.was cool.
the food is gd.
so far.. all my offical events regardg photog provides me with food. talk abt press centre! haha.
haha. then i was giving our the individual printed photos to them, theres one caucasian vip grabbed both my hands and smiled at me while giving him his card. i got shocked can. i was like.. err.. ar. thanks. then pulled my hand back and zhao. sia la. i know he play play abit. but... err. haha. i understand i guess.. but.. err. its just freaky la.
hmm.
my sports club mtng clashes with my imf appreciation dinner on tue.
and i'm sure its goona stir up mixed feelings due to my absence.
i really pray for understanding hearts.
tmr is the photo competition. 730am-10pm. i hope to show u guys smth worth showing. haha.
meanwhile. i think my tagboard is down. maybe u all wpuld like to comment instead.
Friday, October 13, 2006
struggle
IP is coming. and this has to happen.
basically. my release is all screwd. coach tells me this, someone tells me this. after drilling this. this' not gd. then 3 balls diff drill. try new drill. doesn work. chang release. so redrill all balls.
u see. its all over. i nv felt so so so irritated and agitated b4 in my whole 6 yrs of bowling. i broke down not becuse i give up, but the frustrations is too overwhelming.
here i am, trying so hard, and i feel that my release is not gd. dropping the ball, no rev no speed. n coach says GOOD. i mean like. i'm not comfortable. nothign to hide but i want to be gd. gd enough to win smth for TP. i dun want to be just gd and thats it. i want to win ok.
seriously. i have 1 mth and less. and now, everythings not right. equippment. and me. hoho. seriously, i'm goona bowl all my allowance and pay this month and more imptly, get it right. coach A tells me this. coach B tells me that. if both complements, fine. but NO. in fact, they contradict. is as gd as A tells u to run to the left while B tells u to run to the right. its really that extreme.
so ok. i've chosen to redrill all my balls. get it done right from scratch, listening to B. but i see A every trng. so we'll see oks. i think gerad also faces this prob.
if u see me secluding from the world, i'll probably be bowling somewhere in sg. HARS.
then for rugby. i dun want to talk abt it. i just want to train my stamina. so that i can run fast and far and bowl well for IP-bowling.
so now. i'm left with my spare ball. all my power balls are under construction and i can probably get by mon. earliest sun. ): and tmr, its full sitmuation trng. and mon's trng wil be at yishun. how exciting can it get. with my one and only ball. a plastic one some more. so tmr i'll be bowling probably 5 games with my spare ball. yes. i so cannot wait to post my scores up here.
basically. my release is all screwd. coach tells me this, someone tells me this. after drilling this. this' not gd. then 3 balls diff drill. try new drill. doesn work. chang release. so redrill all balls.
u see. its all over. i nv felt so so so irritated and agitated b4 in my whole 6 yrs of bowling. i broke down not becuse i give up, but the frustrations is too overwhelming.
here i am, trying so hard, and i feel that my release is not gd. dropping the ball, no rev no speed. n coach says GOOD. i mean like. i'm not comfortable. nothign to hide but i want to be gd. gd enough to win smth for TP. i dun want to be just gd and thats it. i want to win ok.
seriously. i have 1 mth and less. and now, everythings not right. equippment. and me. hoho. seriously, i'm goona bowl all my allowance and pay this month and more imptly, get it right. coach A tells me this. coach B tells me that. if both complements, fine. but NO. in fact, they contradict. is as gd as A tells u to run to the left while B tells u to run to the right. its really that extreme.
so ok. i've chosen to redrill all my balls. get it done right from scratch, listening to B. but i see A every trng. so we'll see oks. i think gerad also faces this prob.
if u see me secluding from the world, i'll probably be bowling somewhere in sg. HARS.
then for rugby. i dun want to talk abt it. i just want to train my stamina. so that i can run fast and far and bowl well for IP-bowling.
so now. i'm left with my spare ball. all my power balls are under construction and i can probably get by mon. earliest sun. ): and tmr, its full sitmuation trng. and mon's trng wil be at yishun. how exciting can it get. with my one and only ball. a plastic one some more. so tmr i'll be bowling probably 5 games with my spare ball. yes. i so cannot wait to post my scores up here.
Thursday, October 12, 2006
my wed.
prodduction crew had this stage management talk.
all the more i wanna join MEDIA. coz i'm like interested in stage managing. and dah dah dah. the lights. the camera!. photography. photojournalism. journalism. all MEDIA.
i reallllyyy wanna do CMM. if i'm able to change course but waste one year, i'd rather do it. coz business is not really.. we.. exilarating. so yea.
then was town with eve and jas. jas went to work. then demi came. had a gd gd dinner. and went to eat ice cream at ben's and jerrys. (: haha. can perform there sia! hahaa. cool. can go evangilise.(:
we had a gd time over dinner. haha.
and. i bought SLIPPERS! from urbal mail. its not cheap ok. finally i got nice cool and funky slippers to go out with.ahhaha. thus, i'm quite broke. i pray that i get my pay ASAP. b4 my hols. haha.
ok. i have 1 more wk after this wk.
tmr is bowling and rugby again.
ii'' be trying out my spare ball tmr. so i'll be like contemplating most of the time tmr. haha. we'll see.
i'm excitied abt the photomarathon
i'm excitied abt Worship nite!! haha.
all the more i wanna join MEDIA. coz i'm like interested in stage managing. and dah dah dah. the lights. the camera!. photography. photojournalism. journalism. all MEDIA.
i reallllyyy wanna do CMM. if i'm able to change course but waste one year, i'd rather do it. coz business is not really.. we.. exilarating. so yea.
then was town with eve and jas. jas went to work. then demi came. had a gd gd dinner. and went to eat ice cream at ben's and jerrys. (: haha. can perform there sia! hahaa. cool. can go evangilise.(:
we had a gd time over dinner. haha.
and. i bought SLIPPERS! from urbal mail. its not cheap ok. finally i got nice cool and funky slippers to go out with.ahhaha. thus, i'm quite broke. i pray that i get my pay ASAP. b4 my hols. haha.
ok. i have 1 more wk after this wk.
tmr is bowling and rugby again.
ii'' be trying out my spare ball tmr. so i'll be like contemplating most of the time tmr. haha. we'll see.
i'm excitied abt the photomarathon
i'm excitied abt Worship nite!! haha.
Wednesday, October 11, 2006
spare ball
ok. i've got a spare ball today, coz i'm in need of one for dry lane conditions.
i don't like the colour.. but i have no choice.. coz uncle jack is left with that for that weight. so yea. i wanted it more plain. haha. gerrrad got PINK. hahah. and like ballet ballet kinda pink. haha.
so after today's trng, i've decided to redrill my 1st ball to be the same as my slayR coz its giving me wrist probs.but uncle jack decided to try another drilling for my spare ball. we'll see. haha.
i haven tried it out.. but it feels gd, thmubhole abit big.. but i'll just go try. yep.
my scorchin' is still with him...
i'll get it sorted by thurs.
hols is ending soon but al my stuff seems to be picking up. ppl tell me stuff to discourage me literally to put to a halt. but really, i keep trying and i know where is my line.
something's still missing. smth part of me.
i don't like the colour.. but i have no choice.. coz uncle jack is left with that for that weight. so yea. i wanted it more plain. haha. gerrrad got PINK. hahah. and like ballet ballet kinda pink. haha.
so after today's trng, i've decided to redrill my 1st ball to be the same as my slayR coz its giving me wrist probs.but uncle jack decided to try another drilling for my spare ball. we'll see. haha.
i haven tried it out.. but it feels gd, thmubhole abit big.. but i'll just go try. yep.
my scorchin' is still with him...
i'll get it sorted by thurs.
hols is ending soon but al my stuff seems to be picking up. ppl tell me stuff to discourage me literally to put to a halt. but really, i keep trying and i know where is my line.
something's still missing. smth part of me.
Tuesday, October 10, 2006
Monday, October 09, 2006
train.
hoho.
10am all the way to 4pm of bowling.
140 111 lunch 171 184 178
today, its like scores are probably there coz of spares. but if u look at how are the strikes shot, not nice. its like.
i'm still finding my release. my consistancy and my routine. its kinda everywhere now. that explains the inconsistant scores.
i need a spare ball. coz my wwith slayR, though its a long ball, i cannot trust it to skidd all the way to pin10. coz my ball is not like freakin fast or anywhere near 'fast'. my 11lb spare ball is quite much usless now..
was alittle shagged already by then.
sportsclub had meeting at 2pm. i cannot ask coach to just let me go like that. i've already set it straight right from day 1 that when tournament comes, trng gets intense and coach expects more. takin a day off can be out of question unless a for a very urgent matter. i guess there's a need for understanding?
but at the same time, i know my place.. and if anyone were to judge me abt my commitment, i'll proabably question who are u to judge me.
u can tell me, be angry with me, shout at me, explain to me, rant at me or whatever, i'll gladly listen and try explain and understand and make adjustments for improvements.
but if teere's speculations, from ppl and not from the creator of the content that meets my ear, i can be annoyed.
coz, transparncy is very very lacking in the committee.
my 05pbexco can testify the importance of having transparncy, to give and take and to understand.
so at the very end of the day, perceptions are created. and thus, more misunderstandings and judgement. how would u expect an efficient committee that produces exceeding results?
for today, i sincerely apologise for my absence. not that i'm real dead repentance, but out of respect for the committee.
in my stand/ or if u call it, arguement, i cannot be repantance for taking my trngs seriously.
coz to add on, today's trng is abt full event stimulation.
as much as i want to get involve in the committee, as much as i want to make TP and of coz, my God, proud. i dont print the 20+++ pages of Camp notes for no reason.
and if u know me enough, i want to make the best out of everything, which can be my flaw in a way. if u think that absenting myself from the meeting is goona give me more space to breathe, u're totally wrong. coz the more i 'step out', the stresser i get, coz i've missed certain stuff out, and at the same time, wanting be on track.
in a way, i'm publically explaining myself coz i've got nothing to be ashamed of for my absence.
perhaps fractions of disappointments.
and lastly, if u think i'm being petty, abt ranting all this stuff on my blog hoping to seek an image of 'perfect' or 'ideal', think again. i have a purspose. not a hidden agenda, but a hopeful solution for better understanding.
so. NAYWAYS. after that. trng from 6pm till 9.
fitness today. did many basic drills. but the level is up as the months passed by.
the game played by our team was gd as commented by marli. but during drills. i think 'm a disappointment coz i had drop balls.
to add on, i think i've sprained my ankle coz there was a little collision, in addition to my weak knees.
i better succumb to health measures soon though.
anyways. today's weather is gd. not much of a haze.
i wanna thank God for the many stuff He's sacrifced and done for sinners like us.
10am all the way to 4pm of bowling.
140 111 lunch 171 184 178
today, its like scores are probably there coz of spares. but if u look at how are the strikes shot, not nice. its like.
i'm still finding my release. my consistancy and my routine. its kinda everywhere now. that explains the inconsistant scores.
i need a spare ball. coz my wwith slayR, though its a long ball, i cannot trust it to skidd all the way to pin10. coz my ball is not like freakin fast or anywhere near 'fast'. my 11lb spare ball is quite much usless now..
was alittle shagged already by then.
sportsclub had meeting at 2pm. i cannot ask coach to just let me go like that. i've already set it straight right from day 1 that when tournament comes, trng gets intense and coach expects more. takin a day off can be out of question unless a for a very urgent matter. i guess there's a need for understanding?
but at the same time, i know my place.. and if anyone were to judge me abt my commitment, i'll proabably question who are u to judge me.
u can tell me, be angry with me, shout at me, explain to me, rant at me or whatever, i'll gladly listen and try explain and understand and make adjustments for improvements.
but if teere's speculations, from ppl and not from the creator of the content that meets my ear, i can be annoyed.
coz, transparncy is very very lacking in the committee.
my 05pbexco can testify the importance of having transparncy, to give and take and to understand.
so at the very end of the day, perceptions are created. and thus, more misunderstandings and judgement. how would u expect an efficient committee that produces exceeding results?
for today, i sincerely apologise for my absence. not that i'm real dead repentance, but out of respect for the committee.
in my stand/ or if u call it, arguement, i cannot be repantance for taking my trngs seriously.
coz to add on, today's trng is abt full event stimulation.
as much as i want to get involve in the committee, as much as i want to make TP and of coz, my God, proud. i dont print the 20+++ pages of Camp notes for no reason.
and if u know me enough, i want to make the best out of everything, which can be my flaw in a way. if u think that absenting myself from the meeting is goona give me more space to breathe, u're totally wrong. coz the more i 'step out', the stresser i get, coz i've missed certain stuff out, and at the same time, wanting be on track.
in a way, i'm publically explaining myself coz i've got nothing to be ashamed of for my absence.
perhaps fractions of disappointments.
and lastly, if u think i'm being petty, abt ranting all this stuff on my blog hoping to seek an image of 'perfect' or 'ideal', think again. i have a purspose. not a hidden agenda, but a hopeful solution for better understanding.
so. NAYWAYS. after that. trng from 6pm till 9.
fitness today. did many basic drills. but the level is up as the months passed by.
the game played by our team was gd as commented by marli. but during drills. i think 'm a disappointment coz i had drop balls.
to add on, i think i've sprained my ankle coz there was a little collision, in addition to my weak knees.
i better succumb to health measures soon though.
anyways. today's weather is gd. not much of a haze.
i wanna thank God for the many stuff He's sacrifced and done for sinners like us.
i nv like photoshop.
my photoshop skills is really suck hard core.
or rather. i do not have any photoshop skills.
wanted to edit 12-14 best shots from ytd.
happy saved.
then realised that its been overwritted.
THANKS.
coz. those were incompleted. AND. with the SHRUNK size. now if i change it back to original size and zoom in.its freaking pixellated. SUCKS CAN.
); i am not happy.
i flitered 240+ shots. to get the 12 shots and now... THANKS AR. THANKS.
or rather. i do not have any photoshop skills.
wanted to edit 12-14 best shots from ytd.
happy saved.
then realised that its been overwritted.
THANKS.
coz. those were incompleted. AND. with the SHRUNK size. now if i change it back to original size and zoom in.its freaking pixellated. SUCKS CAN.
); i am not happy.
i flitered 240+ shots. to get the 12 shots and now... THANKS AR. THANKS.
Sunday, October 08, 2006
Saturday, October 07, 2006
THE HAZE. out of the SMU hall, oh man. smell as if someone is burnign smth. literlally. the PSI in the afternoon is 80. but loook at the NIGHT!!! freaking. this was abt 9.35pm-1030pm. after that.. i think it lessened. HAHAH.
in the van with willy and gang.. he asked "how's the weather man". me, thinking abt the healt aspect "wah.. real bad man".. he was like.. "ITS GOOOOOD. oh man. think abt the shots i can shooot! the one outside suntec! with the big screen... the dust can reflect the blue light and..... dah dah dah." then all the technical bit comes out. HAHHAHA.
that's y photogs are unique ppl. ((: haha
LOST? photography talk @ SMU
hmm.
let's start the day by the morning.
went to sch. spoke to sam.
and yea, got disappointed with myself. and i want to work HARDER. literally.
then bowling. coach annouced the IP team. i guess it was quite a time for some. but yea. i managed to get in..
then...
my waterboottlle.... not closed, SPILL. all 700ML of water. and like my bag is semi-waterproff. so its like swimming inside.
my papers all wet!!!!!!!!!! argh. my 3 shirts that i brought to show leying ALL GOT WET. ):
NVM. but then later. i realised that i cannot find my wallet at city link. ):i guess its goan at the alley. really sad la. there's nothing inside by $20, supposedly backup money, and that $0.50 wallet which lasted me for 1.5yrs.
ANYWAYS.
was the LOST PHOTOGRAPHY talk at smu.
quite hilarious i should say.
some quotes..
"commercial photogs got to hell and press photogs go to heaven. coz commercial photogs 'lie' while press photogs depicts nothing but the truth."
"so he can sue the owner of the picture and the owner owner of the picture. (audience q: then how?).. then we (lawyers) can earn more money (: "
"i may pose a threat to Terence (my husband)"
"photogs should marry photogs.. so there's more understanding due to the inflexibale working hours... (ponders). hmmm. i'm not trying to tell u guys to hook up with each other.. u all still schling right?"
"ok. so u do this (this this this and this. photoshop).. but i tell u ar.. dun tell ppl that i teach u to do this this this this. coz its the wrong way. but its easier la!.. but.. u see ar.. this this this this... its gd! but dun tell ppl that i teach ok.. i use coz i like"
"i feel like a prostitute. u pay me, i shoot."
and ALOT MORE LA. ahaha. if u're a photog, u'll probablly know what i'm talking abt. haha.
i think out of the 5(or 4) speakers.. i personally prefer Mayee and the lawyer (mr. samuel seow). for the lawyer.. alot on the copyright issue. and really there's ALOT to learn abt those. the like.. wad if u take a photo of a photo. issit still infrindging??
and mayee. she's a female. -pregnant. the one that i saw at IMF. she works for AP now and her husband's in ST. so its like. hahahha. if u're a photog/meadia person.. u'll probably know wad are the 'probs' faced. ahha. she shares alot and tells alot.. so yea. haha.
after today. i'll probably wanna work for Straits Times then AP. or smth. i'm quite sure that i wanna do photog as a part of my life in future.. or probably now... yea. its smth i like, but needa put more effort into learning the technical bit of it. then..like wad they say.. sociology then can add depth to the photo.. da da da.
was reading kamun's blog. then like.. the appreciating part to her dad and her happy family thing. really envious la. like if papa still around. i can imagine him wanting to actually pay money for a camera for me and mama will try to say no kinda thing. its not the buying part u know. its that that.. that part where i feel happy not abt the thigns, but the ppl.
like.
i regret. coz i can't appreciate dad anymore. hurhur. EMO . ahaha. no la. just some thoughts..
coz i'm really missing alot of ppl now..
let's start the day by the morning.
went to sch. spoke to sam.
and yea, got disappointed with myself. and i want to work HARDER. literally.
then bowling. coach annouced the IP team. i guess it was quite a time for some. but yea. i managed to get in..
then...
my waterboottlle.... not closed, SPILL. all 700ML of water. and like my bag is semi-waterproff. so its like swimming inside.
my papers all wet!!!!!!!!!! argh. my 3 shirts that i brought to show leying ALL GOT WET. ):
NVM. but then later. i realised that i cannot find my wallet at city link. ):i guess its goan at the alley. really sad la. there's nothing inside by $20, supposedly backup money, and that $0.50 wallet which lasted me for 1.5yrs.
ANYWAYS.
was the LOST PHOTOGRAPHY talk at smu.
quite hilarious i should say.
some quotes..
"commercial photogs got to hell and press photogs go to heaven. coz commercial photogs 'lie' while press photogs depicts nothing but the truth."
"so he can sue the owner of the picture and the owner owner of the picture. (audience q: then how?).. then we (lawyers) can earn more money (: "
"i may pose a threat to Terence (my husband)"
"photogs should marry photogs.. so there's more understanding due to the inflexibale working hours... (ponders). hmmm. i'm not trying to tell u guys to hook up with each other.. u all still schling right?"
"ok. so u do this (this this this and this. photoshop).. but i tell u ar.. dun tell ppl that i teach u to do this this this this. coz its the wrong way. but its easier la!.. but.. u see ar.. this this this this... its gd! but dun tell ppl that i teach ok.. i use coz i like"
"i feel like a prostitute. u pay me, i shoot."
and ALOT MORE LA. ahaha. if u're a photog, u'll probablly know what i'm talking abt. haha.
i think out of the 5(or 4) speakers.. i personally prefer Mayee and the lawyer (mr. samuel seow). for the lawyer.. alot on the copyright issue. and really there's ALOT to learn abt those. the like.. wad if u take a photo of a photo. issit still infrindging??
and mayee. she's a female. -pregnant. the one that i saw at IMF. she works for AP now and her husband's in ST. so its like. hahahha. if u're a photog/meadia person.. u'll probably know wad are the 'probs' faced. ahha. she shares alot and tells alot.. so yea. haha.
after today. i'll probably wanna work for Straits Times then AP. or smth. i'm quite sure that i wanna do photog as a part of my life in future.. or probably now... yea. its smth i like, but needa put more effort into learning the technical bit of it. then..like wad they say.. sociology then can add depth to the photo.. da da da.
was reading kamun's blog. then like.. the appreciating part to her dad and her happy family thing. really envious la. like if papa still around. i can imagine him wanting to actually pay money for a camera for me and mama will try to say no kinda thing. its not the buying part u know. its that that.. that part where i feel happy not abt the thigns, but the ppl.
like.
i regret. coz i can't appreciate dad anymore. hurhur. EMO . ahaha. no la. just some thoughts..
coz i'm really missing alot of ppl now..
Thursday, October 05, 2006
i keep thinking today's wed and tmrs sat.
OKS.
bowling today was much better.
i felt it. but it was inconsistant. i still have to work harder for consistancy. coz with the 3step drill, my release is diff, but better as comparred to my normal step.
Coach is announcing the teams for IP tmr.
duno if there's trng after that.
LOST for photog is at SMU at 6pm tmr.
and i have e camp mtng at 10pm tmr. so yea.
oks. rugby today.
my knee pained b4 i played. i guess coz of bowling. after run run abit.. then ok liao. but i have a feeling its getting worse day by day. and cgh really sucks coz there's no instructions given or wadsoeva... just.. 'if pain, take a rest'.. like DUH.
nvm bt that. today whole day was game. i thinke like 5-6 sets of 10mins?
i think i lost my compsure for a moment. the wing never call. so i was lost for a moment. no one broke through la. but someone like scolded me like y i didn't call my men. coz the link is real quiet and so is the wing? and then, nvm. but i'm ): coz i feel that i'm shouting on the field like almost all the time on defence. testify that.
ok. nvm about that. abt me. to think of it, i'm disappointed with myself for getting so defensive within abt that.then nvm, i think i was chao.
then the last game. i sweared on the field. grrr. coz like i just sub in for like 2-3mins.. and aishya calls me to be her dummyhalf. so wheni got to her, the ppl at the sideline shouted for me to sub out. then when i subbingout, aishya calls me in. then its like. wad? then someone jsut run in to sub and i was lietreally WHHHAAAT. then nvm. so i kept my cool. then there were 6 on the field inc me. so i played wing. then someone from the side line, call me sub out again.
ok.
so the whole pic is just me there and ppl pulling me in and out with their voices. it was uberly irritating and the game was gg on oks. and we're on attack. so i sweared. i really feel ashamed of myself today.can say that i lost my cool on the field.
i guess coz i'm just really upset abt my knee and that i'm becoming slower.
after trng. coach aishya was really encouraging oks. coz it was the usual team talk. and she told us to 'hang on. i'll train u guys up to be much better players' and more la. i tell u. tears literally collected in my eyes can. i told mself not to flood coz its quite dumb, sitting on the ground with a quite cheery climax.
she really really touched my heart. and honestly. the reson why i wanna keep gg on hard and push myself its coz of her.
i really want to thank God for such a coach that motivates and encourages u all the way.
i guess through today, i learn to be much more positive on the field. i seem to have lost my positivity on the field lately. hurhur.
haiz. this wk. quite rough la.
i duno if i shouuld continue the NYAA residentail project with tp. coz its like.. trng for bowling has now increased, and that i can't meet up with them. its not fair to them. but then again.if i jsut back out like that. its goona irritated and annoy them.
i'll prorbably approach Sam tmr. i'm kinda afraid actually. oh wells. we'll see how it goes.
ok.
KILL MELVIN. he has won 3 different luckydraws on 3 consecutive days. GO AND READ HIS BLOG. his link is on the side. aahha.
this is my 'design' for the shirt(back).. hahahaa. haven posted on the forum. coz everyone's like graphiic and all. and i'm like.. mircrosoftWord. ahhaha.
IMF PHOTOGRAPHER
42DSLRs. 16hrs. 8days. #4B-210
PressCentre. Coffee&Tea.
4millionSmiles. BatteryChargers. F/2.8
70-200 AABatteries. Shutter. Delegates.
DLOs. GetYourPhotosNowPhamplets.
PanPac. Hotels. Aparture. Seminars.
Flashes. Pilot. Esplanade. Smile!
OKS.
bowling today was much better.
i felt it. but it was inconsistant. i still have to work harder for consistancy. coz with the 3step drill, my release is diff, but better as comparred to my normal step.
Coach is announcing the teams for IP tmr.
duno if there's trng after that.
LOST for photog is at SMU at 6pm tmr.
and i have e camp mtng at 10pm tmr. so yea.
oks. rugby today.
my knee pained b4 i played. i guess coz of bowling. after run run abit.. then ok liao. but i have a feeling its getting worse day by day. and cgh really sucks coz there's no instructions given or wadsoeva... just.. 'if pain, take a rest'.. like DUH.
nvm bt that. today whole day was game. i thinke like 5-6 sets of 10mins?
i think i lost my compsure for a moment. the wing never call. so i was lost for a moment. no one broke through la. but someone like scolded me like y i didn't call my men. coz the link is real quiet and so is the wing? and then, nvm. but i'm ): coz i feel that i'm shouting on the field like almost all the time on defence. testify that.
ok. nvm about that. abt me. to think of it, i'm disappointed with myself for getting so defensive within abt that.then nvm, i think i was chao.
then the last game. i sweared on the field. grrr. coz like i just sub in for like 2-3mins.. and aishya calls me to be her dummyhalf. so wheni got to her, the ppl at the sideline shouted for me to sub out. then when i subbingout, aishya calls me in. then its like. wad? then someone jsut run in to sub and i was lietreally WHHHAAAT. then nvm. so i kept my cool. then there were 6 on the field inc me. so i played wing. then someone from the side line, call me sub out again.
ok.
so the whole pic is just me there and ppl pulling me in and out with their voices. it was uberly irritating and the game was gg on oks. and we're on attack. so i sweared. i really feel ashamed of myself today.can say that i lost my cool on the field.
i guess coz i'm just really upset abt my knee and that i'm becoming slower.
after trng. coach aishya was really encouraging oks. coz it was the usual team talk. and she told us to 'hang on. i'll train u guys up to be much better players' and more la. i tell u. tears literally collected in my eyes can. i told mself not to flood coz its quite dumb, sitting on the ground with a quite cheery climax.
she really really touched my heart. and honestly. the reson why i wanna keep gg on hard and push myself its coz of her.
i really want to thank God for such a coach that motivates and encourages u all the way.
i guess through today, i learn to be much more positive on the field. i seem to have lost my positivity on the field lately. hurhur.
haiz. this wk. quite rough la.
i duno if i shouuld continue the NYAA residentail project with tp. coz its like.. trng for bowling has now increased, and that i can't meet up with them. its not fair to them. but then again.if i jsut back out like that. its goona irritated and annoy them.
i'll prorbably approach Sam tmr. i'm kinda afraid actually. oh wells. we'll see how it goes.
ok.
KILL MELVIN. he has won 3 different luckydraws on 3 consecutive days. GO AND READ HIS BLOG. his link is on the side. aahha.
this is my 'design' for the shirt(back).. hahahaa. haven posted on the forum. coz everyone's like graphiic and all. and i'm like.. mircrosoftWord. ahhaha.
IMF PHOTOGRAPHER
42DSLRs. 16hrs. 8days. #4B-210
PressCentre. Coffee&Tea.
4millionSmiles. BatteryChargers. F/2.8
70-200 AABatteries. Shutter. Delegates.
DLOs. GetYourPhotosNowPhamplets.
PanPac. Hotels. Aparture. Seminars.
Flashes. Pilot. Esplanade. Smile!
Wednesday, October 04, 2006
should have join the national trials.
wasted this chance.
regreted my thoughts -again.
ANYWAYS
bowling roll offs of IP is CRAPPPP today.
coz i really do not know how to bowl.
and its irritating me. i can't seem to find that feel.
uncle lawerance say give myself time, coz i'm stil undergoing a process called change
BAH.
for how long???????????
then after that, was craving to watch movie. like urge la. wanted to go cathay or smth. but then, eve didn't reply mr msg. till now also. bah.
nvm
so i went home
i am happy ok.
do i sound like so?
i've been changgggin on my guits.
BUT. I CANNOT FIND MY MISSING ADAPTER FOR MY PEDAL.
so no effects but loud noises that scares the baby at home.
Tuesday, October 03, 2006
tuesdays will nv be the same any time soon.
morning, i went to the bike shop to get backllights, front lights, bell, bottle holder and basket. $50 spent in total. my gear wasn't changing v well actually.
come to think of it. the bike is abit.. err.. rough? like not smoooth. ahhaha. i can't that that feel of cycling of leisure. haha. maybe i'm getting weaker. hhaa.
anwyays.
was ballet then. ahah.
knee is still giving me probs. i dun feel like gg to cgh back. perhaps i just want to know my MRI results b4 i do anything? anyone know where to see those one-shot kind of doc?
glad to bump into rach at town. (: its a blessing to have her around.
i'm thinking of cycling to katong tmr. but i'm alittle not seasoned with SG's roads. and mama wouldn't be happy if i cycled on the roads. wad more alone.
also the haze has been bad. the news say it'll go in 2 days. HARS. and also. to add on, i have been usin that as an excuse not to run. so its like. i did not run long long since august or smth. HAHA. pro not? haha.
back at photography. for my 'glasses' pic. i didn't know its that pro-ly shot. honestly, not bhb la. but i'm (: (: to see ppl putting it as favs. that's cool k. haha.
haha. and my phone, haha. 'm still at my C list. haha. so ppl after C, pls msg me with ur name k. HAA. i'm sril typing.. hhaha.
there's smth still in me that i wanna BURST LIKE A BUBBLE.
aha. so many photo comp! so exciting. hahaha.
i still miss u.
- What i miss abt IMF? (my post to the forum)
IMF. everything la!
THANK U ALL FOR THE WONDERFUL BDAY LA.
its the most memorable one. glad to have spent it with u ppl.
and..
i miss PRESS CENTRE.
i miss the FOOD.
i miss the TEA and COFFEE of u-know-where.
i miss walking around and feeling WHOA with that pass.
i miss G6 and
i miss G5
i miss meisy and serena, my crazy partners.
i miss NIC' lesson on aparture.
i miss CHEEYONG n his touch-oad photoshopping in 5mins.
i miss ppl greeting me at the esclators.
i miss DLOs, somehow.
i miss CONSTANTINE telling me to walk faster. ahha.
i miss the not-mine CF cards.
i miss feeling wealthy and being morst wealthy for that MOMENT.
i miss being in a rm snapping away, being ignored. (:
i miss UNCLE JOHN's morning newspaper delivery.
i miss LEYING using her slr to shoot herself.
i miss WILLY and willy's talks, encouragements and sharing.
i miss borrowing lenses and batteries from GARY and CANON GANG.
i miss.. ok la. the NIKON users also, not forgetting JOAN'S flash.
i miss the smiles of JENNY AND YVONNE.
i miss CELINE asking the welfare of us.
i miss the TOILET that is always toilet-paper-sufficient.
i miss SUNTEC being so security-tight and the happy old security guards.
i miss the TI TI TI when i walk through the metal detector with my Batteriers in my pocket.
i miss seeing the moment that JEANETTE actually smiled.
i miss being photographed with photograhers by a non-photographer or tripod.
i miss #4B-209 and #4B-210
I Miss Friends!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
haha. that's long. hha.
Marian. (:
morning, i went to the bike shop to get backllights, front lights, bell, bottle holder and basket. $50 spent in total. my gear wasn't changing v well actually.
come to think of it. the bike is abit.. err.. rough? like not smoooth. ahhaha. i can't that that feel of cycling of leisure. haha. maybe i'm getting weaker. hhaa.
anwyays.
was ballet then. ahah.
knee is still giving me probs. i dun feel like gg to cgh back. perhaps i just want to know my MRI results b4 i do anything? anyone know where to see those one-shot kind of doc?
glad to bump into rach at town. (: its a blessing to have her around.
i'm thinking of cycling to katong tmr. but i'm alittle not seasoned with SG's roads. and mama wouldn't be happy if i cycled on the roads. wad more alone.
also the haze has been bad. the news say it'll go in 2 days. HARS. and also. to add on, i have been usin that as an excuse not to run. so its like. i did not run long long since august or smth. HAHA. pro not? haha.
back at photography. for my 'glasses' pic. i didn't know its that pro-ly shot. honestly, not bhb la. but i'm (: (: to see ppl putting it as favs. that's cool k. haha.
haha. and my phone, haha. 'm still at my C list. haha. so ppl after C, pls msg me with ur name k. HAA. i'm sril typing.. hhaha.
there's smth still in me that i wanna BURST LIKE A BUBBLE.
aha. so many photo comp! so exciting. hahaha.
i still miss u.
- What i miss abt IMF? (my post to the forum)
IMF. everything la!
THANK U ALL FOR THE WONDERFUL BDAY LA.
its the most memorable one. glad to have spent it with u ppl.
and..
i miss PRESS CENTRE.
i miss the FOOD.
i miss the TEA and COFFEE of u-know-where.
i miss walking around and feeling WHOA with that pass.
i miss G6 and
i miss G5
i miss meisy and serena, my crazy partners.
i miss NIC' lesson on aparture.
i miss CHEEYONG n his touch-oad photoshopping in 5mins.
i miss ppl greeting me at the esclators.
i miss DLOs, somehow.
i miss CONSTANTINE telling me to walk faster. ahha.
i miss the not-mine CF cards.
i miss feeling wealthy and being morst wealthy for that MOMENT.
i miss being in a rm snapping away, being ignored. (:
i miss UNCLE JOHN's morning newspaper delivery.
i miss LEYING using her slr to shoot herself.
i miss WILLY and willy's talks, encouragements and sharing.
i miss borrowing lenses and batteries from GARY and CANON GANG.
i miss.. ok la. the NIKON users also, not forgetting JOAN'S flash.
i miss the smiles of JENNY AND YVONNE.
i miss CELINE asking the welfare of us.
i miss the TOILET that is always toilet-paper-sufficient.
i miss SUNTEC being so security-tight and the happy old security guards.
i miss the TI TI TI when i walk through the metal detector with my Batteriers in my pocket.
i miss seeing the moment that JEANETTE actually smiled.
i miss being photographed with photograhers by a non-photographer or tripod.
i miss #4B-209 and #4B-210
I Miss Friends!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
haha. that's long. hha.
Marian. (:
Monday, October 02, 2006
canterbury
something made me feel happy today is that outing with some of the rugby girls. wwe all got the same red canterbury shorts. its really comfortable and like durable. might think of investin in more.
and we're all getting the $29 bag which is still gg lower at $24.60.
after that, went to deedee's house, and really, i love her house. like whoa. near town and dah dah dah.
but yea, my house still holds that sentimental value so much more than anything else.
then was rugby trng.
b4 trng, had alot pf drop balls.
i feel freaking slow today. like canot run fast. i'm v v discouraged la.
then today, did drills. i'm so distracted.
i get frustrated coz i only did one set when others did like 3 or 4, when marli called in the girls.
i realise myself kp gg on defense, and also claire.
i'm not saying anything. its just that i myself, also want to try out the new drill k.
then was game.
i tried to stay focus, but i just cannot. not because of anyone on the field. but someone off the field. someone off my life.
very off.
somehow, today. a sudden decline in my emo-graph. right from the morning.
dun ask y.
i feel like locking my blog somehow. like have password or smth. no la. no one's upseeting me abt my blog la. its just some emo thing which i can't explain. but i do know. but i dun want u to know. HARS.
oasis touch is coming.
IP is coming.
All asian schs is coming.
BAH. all asian schs clashes with mission trip.
ka[09u40909ia-09w\=59wa,rtpwar.
i'm irritated la. to an extent, annonyed.
i'm giving up so much for mission trip. like the day i'm back in sg, the next day exams. my trngs, and sch.
and when i finally gotten over and decide to kp fighting on, another thing comes in.
and like. i'm only gg on the 2nd half. after last mission's trng, abt villages profile, i feel that i can't do much. i still can do alot la. but not as much. but i'm just gg there to support the missionaries.
i'm really confused.
maybe not confused. but stirred up.
i wouldn't say i'm stressed now, coz i'm not worthy to say it. but coz i'm procrastinating ALOT. so much that i feel that i'm being chased although i'm not.
in times like this, i really need u. i have to admit defeat. yea. u can say that i'm sprouting nonsense. or positively putting it, i'm emotionally challenged.
i always try to take things by my stride. even not, i try to put things at my advatage even if it's at the very disadvantage. i try to feel positive, to sound positive, to look positive. and often not, i am successful. but this time round, its like, when u play Street Fighter, the enegery level, it keeps gg down. and now its at the red level.
and i'm not tired.
somehow.
bah.
this distance is just to disturbing.
distance of hope. of courage. of strength. of love. or perhaps, even fear.
a rock on rough sand
A huge rock on rough sand,
a big wave with a loud bang.
sturdy and tall,
facing no freaking wall.
strongly, the merciless sun shone,
aching, the painful heart groan.
a huge rock on rough sand,
thinking that one can witstand.
perhaps the clouds would fall in one day,
and thus, grass can happily sway.
but hell no did the clouds come,
instead, there was no fun.
still the sun shone like mad,
how we'd long for the weather to be wet.
dun talk abt the 'splendid' waves that crashed in,
along with it, making us unclean.
all who stood by me seemed to slip away,
all who stood by me seemed to have someting to say.
all the time, there was one little grain of sand,
who is nv percieved to be unglam.
this little grain on this rock,
makes this whole perfect frame rocks.
but with that 'splendid' splash,
it brought my heart to a close slash.
and with that 'spledid' wave,
it did send me to my grave.
and we're all getting the $29 bag which is still gg lower at $24.60.
after that, went to deedee's house, and really, i love her house. like whoa. near town and dah dah dah.
but yea, my house still holds that sentimental value so much more than anything else.
then was rugby trng.
b4 trng, had alot pf drop balls.
i feel freaking slow today. like canot run fast. i'm v v discouraged la.
then today, did drills. i'm so distracted.
i get frustrated coz i only did one set when others did like 3 or 4, when marli called in the girls.
i realise myself kp gg on defense, and also claire.
i'm not saying anything. its just that i myself, also want to try out the new drill k.
then was game.
i tried to stay focus, but i just cannot. not because of anyone on the field. but someone off the field. someone off my life.
very off.
somehow, today. a sudden decline in my emo-graph. right from the morning.
dun ask y.
i feel like locking my blog somehow. like have password or smth. no la. no one's upseeting me abt my blog la. its just some emo thing which i can't explain. but i do know. but i dun want u to know. HARS.
oasis touch is coming.
IP is coming.
All asian schs is coming.
BAH. all asian schs clashes with mission trip.
ka[09u40909ia-09w\=59wa,rtpwar.
i'm irritated la. to an extent, annonyed.
i'm giving up so much for mission trip. like the day i'm back in sg, the next day exams. my trngs, and sch.
and when i finally gotten over and decide to kp fighting on, another thing comes in.
and like. i'm only gg on the 2nd half. after last mission's trng, abt villages profile, i feel that i can't do much. i still can do alot la. but not as much. but i'm just gg there to support the missionaries.
i'm really confused.
maybe not confused. but stirred up.
i wouldn't say i'm stressed now, coz i'm not worthy to say it. but coz i'm procrastinating ALOT. so much that i feel that i'm being chased although i'm not.
in times like this, i really need u. i have to admit defeat. yea. u can say that i'm sprouting nonsense. or positively putting it, i'm emotionally challenged.
i always try to take things by my stride. even not, i try to put things at my advatage even if it's at the very disadvantage. i try to feel positive, to sound positive, to look positive. and often not, i am successful. but this time round, its like, when u play Street Fighter, the enegery level, it keeps gg down. and now its at the red level.
and i'm not tired.
somehow.
bah.
this distance is just to disturbing.
distance of hope. of courage. of strength. of love. or perhaps, even fear.
a rock on rough sand
A huge rock on rough sand,
a big wave with a loud bang.
sturdy and tall,
facing no freaking wall.
strongly, the merciless sun shone,
aching, the painful heart groan.
a huge rock on rough sand,
thinking that one can witstand.
perhaps the clouds would fall in one day,
and thus, grass can happily sway.
but hell no did the clouds come,
instead, there was no fun.
still the sun shone like mad,
how we'd long for the weather to be wet.
dun talk abt the 'splendid' waves that crashed in,
along with it, making us unclean.
all who stood by me seemed to slip away,
all who stood by me seemed to have someting to say.
all the time, there was one little grain of sand,
who is nv percieved to be unglam.
this little grain on this rock,
makes this whole perfect frame rocks.
but with that 'splendid' splash,
it brought my heart to a close slash.
and with that 'spledid' wave,
it did send me to my grave.
Alan Seminar
about photography was great. inspired and aspired. hahha.
was at SPH. with joan. serena, gab, liji adn chirs. after that, went shooting with aloy, gab and liji. hahah.
FUN SIA.
I REALLY WANT AN SLR.
i'm goona join the canon marathon. http://www.photomarathon.com.sg/ the prizes r really attractive and what i need. an slr or a ipod. aahha.
i'll go with my PnS and wilson's SLR. hoho. 7.30am- 10pm. really a feat. i think it'll be more tiring than milk run. hhaa. i'm excitied.
shot quite a no. of shots today. 211. after filtering, ,...2:11a, i should slp. nite.
was at SPH. with joan. serena, gab, liji adn chirs. after that, went shooting with aloy, gab and liji. hahah.
FUN SIA.
I REALLY WANT AN SLR.
i'm goona join the canon marathon. http://www.photomarathon.com.sg/ the prizes r really attractive and what i need. an slr or a ipod. aahha.
i'll go with my PnS and wilson's SLR. hoho. 7.30am- 10pm. really a feat. i think it'll be more tiring than milk run. hhaa. i'm excitied.
shot quite a no. of shots today. 211. after filtering, ,...2:11a, i should slp. nite.
Sunday, October 01, 2006
against BUCKS
OKS.
wasn't a gd game for 1st half. 2nd half much better with encouragements from coach. the weather wasn't merciful today.
when we got there, it was pouring literally. wet field.
muddy and all. sad thing is that we had quite a no. of drop balls and was difficult to do quick hands. so coach told us to hold on longer..
hmm. since ntl. coach tells me to play centre coz she says i'm gd in punching up and drivin in. all along, i thought tt i was more of a winger.. so yea. also.. over nlt, i realised that my speed for my runs are much slower, compared to my younger days. ya lar. i know i'm not that old. haha. but when we're kids, catching is really gd in trng for sprints.
oks.
NTL has officially ended for Team Teamsek. we've denfinitely mautred alot in terms of rugby over these 8-10wks of games with clubs and all. definitely, we've learn alot, grew alot and also, applied alot.
we did quite a no. of things today, loops, inserts, pinky, and broke through amany times. but Bucks are older, and with longer legs, they take much bigger strides. we run like sia, they just took 3 stides to touch us. BAH. so we're always kenna caught.
wads amazing is that they played the whole 20-5-20 min game with only 6 players. no sub. PRO. we had a miserable 4-5 sub today. so weas quite tiring. considering the heavy rain and the much uncessary load on us.
i felt really SLOW today. i dived todaay! tahha. smth i dun dare try on dry days. coz i wanted to touched bucks la. coz she sidestepped me and i got sucked in, so she broke through. i gave chase and my hands were like.. so close to her shirt la.
so i tried to dive. and i did, but she sped and scored. haiz.
we need to train more on wetter days. coz we're talking less on the field today. and i guess drop balls.. er.. ok la.
haha.
after the game was fun.
haha. had a gd time fighting for that 1 pathetic hose. hahaha. all 8-9 of us? haha.most of us were unprepared for the rain. haha.no towel! hoho. so i bought a pair orf socks from turf city. the girls bought ahem. 3 of $5. hahaha. super farnie la.
but then.
the FIRST AID KIT IS MISSING.
ting and i went back to turf to find it. but gone. ): we'll see..
after that, met mama for dinner.. with my shirt and everything sticking to me. it was freaking cold can. so mama bought me a shirt! ahha. adidas ok. hhaha. acutally, surprisingly, its my first own self bought adidas shirt. ahha. (:
dinner was gd.
went home and had a gd hot scrub. hahaha. (:
well. after NTL is either IP or Oasis Touch. probably in Oasis. hmmm. ting was saying today. that ever since we join rugby, like non stop comepetition. first was Lions Red, then YMCA Youth in touch, then NTL, next is those 2. HAHA. nv ending.
anyways. today is the National Bowling Team trials. heard that the girls highest avg was only like 174. grrr. should have like just go in and whack. but they say got CATZ system coming up, which shocked them. hHAHHA. oh well.
missed the trials this yr again.
hmm.
onto dance. this morng, ahaah. i have to get 3 sexy pose. dun ask y. but i freaking bad in that compared to my class girls. ahha. hilarious. the dance for the recital its H-O-T. ultra. farah is hot. the dance is hot.
note this.
1st dec: full dress rehearsal
2nd dec: the recital
3rd dec: Standard Charted Marathon
4th dec: mission trip starts..
10th dec: back
11: EXAMS STARTS.
cool? i'm not sure if i can go run on the 3rd. reporting time is like either 3am or 4am. and like. the recital dance ends at usually 12am, leaving us tired. hmmmm. then mission trip is always tiring. and when i'm back on the 10th, its usually a nite, and the very next day, i do have exams, for prob 4 consecutive days. HOW FUN?
seemingly like no rest.
and this doesn't inc trainings. hahaha. hmm. prob a wk b4 the exams there is break? haha. oh well. we'll see then.
tmr will be fun. (:
wasn't a gd game for 1st half. 2nd half much better with encouragements from coach. the weather wasn't merciful today.
when we got there, it was pouring literally. wet field.
muddy and all. sad thing is that we had quite a no. of drop balls and was difficult to do quick hands. so coach told us to hold on longer..
hmm. since ntl. coach tells me to play centre coz she says i'm gd in punching up and drivin in. all along, i thought tt i was more of a winger.. so yea. also.. over nlt, i realised that my speed for my runs are much slower, compared to my younger days. ya lar. i know i'm not that old. haha. but when we're kids, catching is really gd in trng for sprints.
oks.
NTL has officially ended for Team Teamsek. we've denfinitely mautred alot in terms of rugby over these 8-10wks of games with clubs and all. definitely, we've learn alot, grew alot and also, applied alot.
we did quite a no. of things today, loops, inserts, pinky, and broke through amany times. but Bucks are older, and with longer legs, they take much bigger strides. we run like sia, they just took 3 stides to touch us. BAH. so we're always kenna caught.
wads amazing is that they played the whole 20-5-20 min game with only 6 players. no sub. PRO. we had a miserable 4-5 sub today. so weas quite tiring. considering the heavy rain and the much uncessary load on us.
i felt really SLOW today. i dived todaay! tahha. smth i dun dare try on dry days. coz i wanted to touched bucks la. coz she sidestepped me and i got sucked in, so she broke through. i gave chase and my hands were like.. so close to her shirt la.
so i tried to dive. and i did, but she sped and scored. haiz.
we need to train more on wetter days. coz we're talking less on the field today. and i guess drop balls.. er.. ok la.
haha.
after the game was fun.
haha. had a gd time fighting for that 1 pathetic hose. hahaha. all 8-9 of us? haha.most of us were unprepared for the rain. haha.no towel! hoho. so i bought a pair orf socks from turf city. the girls bought ahem. 3 of $5. hahaha. super farnie la.
but then.
the FIRST AID KIT IS MISSING.
ting and i went back to turf to find it. but gone. ): we'll see..
after that, met mama for dinner.. with my shirt and everything sticking to me. it was freaking cold can. so mama bought me a shirt! ahha. adidas ok. hhaha. acutally, surprisingly, its my first own self bought adidas shirt. ahha. (:
dinner was gd.
went home and had a gd hot scrub. hahaha. (:
well. after NTL is either IP or Oasis Touch. probably in Oasis. hmmm. ting was saying today. that ever since we join rugby, like non stop comepetition. first was Lions Red, then YMCA Youth in touch, then NTL, next is those 2. HAHA. nv ending.
anyways. today is the National Bowling Team trials. heard that the girls highest avg was only like 174. grrr. should have like just go in and whack. but they say got CATZ system coming up, which shocked them. hHAHHA. oh well.
missed the trials this yr again.
hmm.
onto dance. this morng, ahaah. i have to get 3 sexy pose. dun ask y. but i freaking bad in that compared to my class girls. ahha. hilarious. the dance for the recital its H-O-T. ultra. farah is hot. the dance is hot.
note this.
1st dec: full dress rehearsal
2nd dec: the recital
3rd dec: Standard Charted Marathon
4th dec: mission trip starts..
10th dec: back
11: EXAMS STARTS.
cool? i'm not sure if i can go run on the 3rd. reporting time is like either 3am or 4am. and like. the recital dance ends at usually 12am, leaving us tired. hmmmm. then mission trip is always tiring. and when i'm back on the 10th, its usually a nite, and the very next day, i do have exams, for prob 4 consecutive days. HOW FUN?
seemingly like no rest.
and this doesn't inc trainings. hahaha. hmm. prob a wk b4 the exams there is break? haha. oh well. we'll see then.
tmr will be fun. (:
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