travelled up and down so many times. i think its about like 6 times in and out of the office. and before i knew it, it was 6pm. its funny that its only after office hours that i could finally start doing the office work proper.
i have been pretty much focused today. i guess its really because i had to. and that there are people who needs my attention for real.
the deadline is drawing near. and the deadline doesn't mean an end, but the start of something bigger.
and hence, i do feel very apprehensive and with fear to a certain extend.
in these 2 wks of mad rush, i did sign off for something i which i just briefly checked through.
ok, in relation, its a small sum of money that was loss coz of me. but it still unnecessary losses.
basically, to summarize the story, i produce work X for vendor A to work on it. vendor A amends it and accidentally added on an error. i'm supposed to check and sign for the final work before vendor A had send it back to me to verify and proceed on with the execution. i did check through, but because of the rush, i didnt really take my time to check. just checked on major areas for concern since all the changes weren't obvious kinds.
and hence, because of my oversight, i missed out that error which incurred some losses.
anyway, my boss was understanding enough and since it's relatively a small amount, he's pretty cool about it.
but to me, its a big no no man.
i really dun like to be inefficient and now, its a big boo boo which directly transcends to monetary losses. not to mention the additional time taken to re-do and all. felt really disappointed with myself that i really want to go bang my head against the wall.
but anyway, i just want to be thankful coz its a lesson learnt.
thankfully the price i had (or rather, the company) had to pay isn't that scarily heavy.
so i then think of the Engineers who signs off planes everyday.
if one day i do become an lae, will i sign off blindly also?
i just hope that just because of today, i will rmbr this for life and not be complacent and assume that human error is just a textbook citing. hence the blogging to day to make memo that i've done this error.
the only proud thing is that after jokingly coming up with 1001ways to siam the truth from my boss, i just wanted and needed to let him know of this error. i mean, of course, in every situation, there are many ways to correctionfluid off w/o a noticeable trace. as with this case, i guess i was able to bear the responsibility. but as i go on in the work, am I able to bear the weight of any similar errors being incurred? hahas. but yea, kudos to my integrity. my secondary sch has taught me well (sec sch's values are: Integrity Nobility Teamwork Excellence Graciousness Respect Independence Tolerance Yeomanship ). hahas. my head prefect would be proud of me.
anyway, its quite apt that i was called in for the appraisal today.
i'm actually quite pleasantly surprised because its quite positive. i dun think i'm a fast learner though. i would usually take a substantial amount of time to understand every freakin neccessary/unnecessary detail abt it. visualizing is just 1 part, but i'mma hands on learner. i need to do it to learn it. so in that sense, i dun think i'm a fast learner.
so anyway, it was a super down, to sudden back at equilibrium.
hahas. ok. anyway, thats the 4th 'anyway'... hahas.
i guess i should be proud of myself having being able to survive in a business setting. though its not that business-business in a politically challenging setting, its still a business setting after all. so amen to that.
Haha. And on a random note. My big big boss is freakin observant. I dont always see him, but today, he noticed that I've got new earrings! Haha. Mother poon bought them for me in hope that I can look more feminine. Because of rugby, ive been loosing most of the 1 side of my earrings.. so finally a pair thats the same. But yea. He should go be an inspector. Hahaha. So observant!
so any oh how, the day went moderately well. and its always at such a space that i feel that possibility / risk of going up or down. neither up or down is going to be of any eventual good. so perhaps, just for now, i hope that i'm able to maintain and contain it on this line. i'm treading and i know u are too.
i just duno know how but i know that i cannot afford to take any more risk coz i can't... take it.
honestly, idk how to walk on this path any more. and one day, i hope to burn all these tangled
i probably made a rash decision once again, but i hope in any case, it does provide you with some form of positivity. but since i've done it, i'll just let the clogged up pipe release again. its like a filter that needs to be changed. just thought of a case study.. about the FOHE (fuel oil heat exchanger) accident. ahahs. the airplane flies in super cold atmosphere for awhile, with ice crystals being formed. just one thrust of the engine, the ice crystals gets all pushed to the FOHE, and blocking the fuel line which led to the accident.
and all in all, it only required a simple design change to the FOHE from a flushed surface to something that's jagged and uneven so as to discourage ice from blocking the all the holes at one time.
maybe thats how life is as well. we just need a simple modification to a complex problem.
we try to investigate everything, but just fail to look at the simplicity of things.
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been a great fan of his music and his passion for Him.
his music never fails to speak to me. :D
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