through the glass

bah.

i miss ballet.

not my thing. but its my alter ego and something to get away from the world.

went peninsula today to look for safety boots of the upcoming practical.

its really a place that defines me.

basement: all the guitars.

level 1: all the photography

level 2: Canterbury store.

level 3 and above: all my fav sporting stuff.

kinda like my life right. 

lazy to elaborate. go figure if u wish. hahas.

i did something nice to someone a few days ago for his bday.

i think i shouldnt have. but i dont want to overthink. as a friend, i like my friends to be happy.

though i was super duper tired from the exam, i was still (surprisingly) able to find that kind to strength to put in such effort. 

the knee has been good.

the calves are tight.

and the thighs are burnt.

and......

hahas. who needs nail polish when u can have them done naturally? ahahs.

abit gross. hahas. to my future boyfriend, get pass this first yea. HAHAS.

but ok. abit suffering. i guess my once rugged feet, rested from 4 months has become so dainty and too delicate for my rugby boots again.

now its back HARDCORE STYLE YOW. 

hahas. and meanwhile in class, while a commando sits back at 45 deg on the right too this photo. he who's probably buffer than an ordinary singapore rugger, doesn't pay attention in class. owns a pink highlighter, shrieks likka girl when he comes to face with a stretched out rubberband. 

class hasn't been good.

some lecturers just........... forget it.

but i just want to commend mr. wong. probably the top 5 most patient teacher in my life. so old, but he can so patiently teach and explain complicating concepts to the class w/o getting irritated.


and some students......
those who sits right infront of the screen are either sleeping, playing with their phones 24/7 or watching vids with their earpiece on. i think its fine. but i guess, if u've got the other 15 over students on the other side of the classroom who's trying to pay attention coz they can't see the screen, maybe u might want to do some seating arrangement for the benefit of both sides.

and i'm not exaggerating.
really half the class who's infront of the screen are like that and the other half is really trying hard.
really.
forget it.
i'm so tired of trying to make the best out of everyone's situation. and because some ppl really can't really grow up in their thinking, i can only do so much. honestly, i dont feel good about calling ppl childish or immature... but if u're finding difficulties passing ur exam, maybe u might want to take some corrective actions and seek some answers rather than......... doing otherwise. (i wanted to type out the really childish things that ppl do... but then i realized, too much to type. so forget it)
and just fyi, those ppl are older than me.
i mean i'm not all prefect and all. but there's a time to study and time to play. its not like the tchr dont give us frequent tea breaks / random smoke breaks.



but of course, thank God for the minority few who, though may be struggling with those teenager-ish probs, are still understanding and respectful towards each other. u know, i've got a friend who's 20 and he's got a loving wife and a son. if i'm in his shoes, i'd probably be damn bloody stressed and freaking out and maybe too screwed in my life. but if u look and how he manages his stuff, his perspective of life and all, i think its really a lesson to learn for all.


but at the end of the day, i always remind myself to look at the good side of things.
always remember that when one is happy, its easy to take on a brighter outlook.. the challenge comes when one is struggling; how does one find the sunshine in the midst of the storm. the sun is always present, whether we bother to take up that courage and seek some form of strength is all up in the mind.
we can't change what is presented to us. but we can change our view on what's infront of us.





management.
everything is about managing the differences made by (unnecessary) comparisons.