from the Hunger Games.
before u start thinking this is all fantasy stuff, this picture is not about it all.
She's just hunting; for her family; taking over the role of her late dad since the age of 11.
Katniss Everdeen.
the life she led in poverty doesn't give her all that choice to choose how she wanna live her life ya.
she posseses such great inner strength that she doesn't know of it.
all that survival skills she has from her daily hunting makes her so versatile and independent.
she clings on to the hope she has for others.
when i think of her, i just think of 2 words: 'strength' and 'independent'.
with such great sense of independence, she's yet dependent.
in the book, where its all written first person language, it portrays out all her thoughts and struggles. this is when it starts to get personal and somewhat relatable to me.
whenever there's a guy around, in that strong feministic outer-shell there's probably this inner girl in her that needs some sort of protection, security and assurance. she doesn't ask for it and neither does she reveals any form of clues of that need, not even the slightest micro evidence. i probably think its an inner need that she consciously tries to deny of it; but went presented, there's some sort of acceptance and to an extent, satisfaction.
i think that's how most girls are.
no matter how tom-boyish u are, or even to an extent of being a butch/bunk u seem to be, i still think there's this inner girl. female hormones are still present.
and i think that as much as u deny it, refuse it, even to a point of resentment, when presented out of a good sincere heart, i still think it would melt that metal shield of urs.
and of course, having said that, it's situational based.
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mainly, the direct cause which i think it is, is the age at when people marry.
in the past, generally, its usually a marriage of an older man and a younger male. long long long ago, age differences can be as far as 15 yrs. now, we see the narrowing of the age gap, and even reversing it. i.e now, its common for a girl to marry someone who's like 4-5 yrs younger.
several reasons.
2 yrs of NS? because of that 2 yrs in service of the country at the expense of time for education, women in singapore can get that 2 yrs of headstart in their career. so for example, if a couple since secondary sch moves on, eventually, by right, the girl would be higher in positional rank in the workplace. more seniority, means more money. more money mean good. means, the husband can/ should quit his job and start doing the cooking and kids job. hahhaas.
also, the way how the Singaporean kids are being brought up.
competitive. money. climbing the corporate ladder.
having to have enough first to settle down is probably in the minds of 80% of serious going couples.
ppl always say it takes at least a million dollars before the child finishes secondary school.
source: SGpersonalfinance
people wanna work hard for a better life.
and in the process, more often than not, the goal and purpose gets diluted and forgotten. by the time we realize it, its all too late. and then the govt starts to complain that we're not producing kids.
the govt should start pushing for healthy marriages instead. i see marriage and having kids as 2 separate things. really no point pushing married couples to give birth if they dont have that financial courage to.
with a larger pool and source of happily wedded couples, it makes more sense to then push for the kids.
simple la. bigger pool. more fishes. right?
rather than forcing all the fishes to multiply themselves.
and it then brings to.. how children are being brought up.
the kind of drive that parents and teachers bring to the kids.
what society sees as valuable.
what beliefs and principles do young singaporeans hold.
everything in relation. its all relative.
right now, its not that bad la. hahas. i think its more of a shared responsibility and pushing all the responsibilities of the in-laws masking it with the enjoyment of finally having that grandma/pa status.
i guess its just like many developed countries: low fertility and ageing population.
hahas. since its like that, might as well tap on the aging population to take care of the kids while the father mother slogg themselves out at work and fight for the wkend to spend time with their kids.
really. what's more important? or rather, who relies on what?
kid on parents? parents on money which all goes to the kids? let's just say tt its just a vicious cycle.
and it takes about 30 good years to reverse it when the kid starts to have that ability to pay back their parents and start another vicious cycle themselves.
ok. funny how i can lead The Hunger Games to Katniss Everdeen and then to sg's govt and population control.
so back to Katniss Everdeen, she's the girl that does it all.
i think the themes and issues in the book should be discussed in a literature class at secondary school level. i think it could be more useful over social studies in this area right. hahhas.
and as for me, going through this self-percieved 'tough time', i really should cancel out the option of being pessimistically optimistic. hahas.
the human mind is just one piece of grey matter in contradiction with each other la.
its really the principles that governs the actions that we eventually take.
i see principles as a set and in-built mutual agreement between the heart and mind, like what we call a SOP- Standard Operating Procedures- wont and should go wrong when rightfully set.
can ignorance be a form of strength?
it sounds more like running away right. but one would also need a type of strength to face away the problem and see the major prob as something no bigger than a size of an ant right.
in layman's term, ignore my mcl tear and just treat it as a sprain and continue training; but of course, still taking care of myself.
ok. i also wanna talk abit about leadership. my kind of leadership.
u know when i was younger, i pretty much believed that i was born to lead. HAHAHS.
not much as the kind of leaders that we deem are so when we become adults.
i mean like as a kid, i rmbr i was just being proactive and got really frustrated when no one takes ownership. that wastes time. everybody's time. and to be inefficient means to go home late, means to have lesser play time. hahas. i was pretty driven much by productivity in my context. hahas.
so thus, i really had lotsa opportunities to literally be a leader. class monitor, captain, prefect, and eventually being a exco prefect and a captain at the same time. no, not here to boast, but be thankful for the opportunities that i've been given. that kind of space and room for error that has managable repercussions if things are not dealt properly. and through that, i think i've really gain alot of experiences and moulding to the marian i am today. and sometimes, as confidence level varies, it may be perceived as arrogance or incompetent. really, u can't please everyone. and being ignorant about possess some form of strength and not just purely escapism.
hahas. back to the area of leadership, if i can run away from it, i will.
hahas.
seriously. i dread having everyone's responsibilities on my shoulders. i like be the follower. y put in so much energy and get the complaints from ppl who dont understand. hahas. and i'm usually one of the one who complains. but of course, with much thought process and effort to it ok. i secretly like to challenge leaders for the good of everyone. but also, with politically-correct submission to authority.
i think i'm at this 'should-be' comfortable age, having both mentalities as a youth and adult.
still crafting out my ideologies and beliefs. i guess once i become more mature, principles may be more grounded and shakeable. good or not, it really all depends.
aiya. everything is debatable la. i can really go on. but its 1am and i've not bathe for the day.
and omg. i'm thinking alot right now.
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