insomia

omg. last night.. i really couldn't slp. i laid in bed at 4am.
kept looking at the clock. then its 5.15am.
then 6am.
then.... 7am.
then..7.15am.


time to go Safra Tamp.


damn groggy.
then bowled.
managed to get Squad A. 9am.

dammit. bad choice. all the sports sch U14 ppl there. shld have taken squad C.. but because of my physio timing on fri, squad's A the best timing alrdy. dammit.


then. its only today when i was alrdy at the alley that i found out tt today short oil. even more cuii.
didn't bring Wasabi. its the only time for this ball to be put into gd use. AH.


suffered alot during the games. out of 6, i bowled 4 13games. its like. majorly consistently bad. ): i realised tt when i do get my line after a period of time, my bad habits kick in. thus, i need more trng. but oh wells. i've got 12 more games more. anything can happen boy. just gotta close my frames and take it slow.
focus la.




today, no club trng.
happy coz my wed nights are free; sad coz i'll not be running nor playing touch.


slept on and off whole day at home.
felt damn disgustingly lonely and nua.
could actually go for tap class after damn long.... but i didnt- chose to nua at home. felt useless.


haiz.



after so so so long. i still dont understand why i can get affected by the absence of u. its just so irritating. i rly dk what can fill up this void. i rly rly need u to respond to me at least for once; to let me know that everything's alright, honestly.
i dont like that fact that i'm being bugged down by my own trivial affairs of the heart (ohhhs) rather than like my games.



i've got 4 more days b4 i MIA from SG. hahas. go into hiding.
tmr, RESULTS OUT. omgss. scared for MR and DC. AH.





hate to love
love to hate







i feel so uncomfortable.
so not myself.
HOW.