hurt

super injury prone.
sprained left 3rd finger. it's swelling now.
so as i'm typing this with my right hand,
my left hand and my left foot is being iced.

i dont like concrete floor.
i miss the field.



i think my foot is healing. but real slowly.




super ironic. i train hard for rugby and bowling, but i get injured in...netball. haha. did i mention that i'm WD? ahha. super clueless of the rules. but i think i'll just listen and do whatever i know now.


anyways.
God rocks.
as i was mentioning, the biking expedition was like facing probs coz of students' hectic schedule resulting in a need to make special arrangements.
basically, we've come to a point that we're stuck.
and when we're stuck, God came to the rescue coz we kept trying.
ok..
so i decided to take it step by step. i called the changi jetty guy, hoping for him to give me the no. of the Pengarang boat man so that i can make special night arrangements for janice and suan to head back first.
and, he GAVE ME E WRONG NO. and it was blessedly wrong.
the no. he gave was for the boat to Desaru. which was a 1000X better choice.(and i didn't know it existed) so now, dickson, stanely, suan and janice can all come!!! coz of this special-coincidental boat man.
so yes, God's grace. Dickson agreed.


so today, after the briefing i had, we went to waterloo str. to get our bike equipp. i got my pannier and my helmet. ahhaha. whoots.

its quite erm... not so gd condition actually, the things undearneath the helmet are all coming out. but i think its a relatively gd buy.

then we headed off to army market.
bought my compass too! haha.
super Indiana Jones-ish although i did not watch the movie.

so now,
the ppl confirmed are me, suan, dickson, jamin, alvin, janice, stanley, and maybe lionel and jerry. really thank God.
it started with just suan, janice, josias and i. and we're worried coz we only had 3 ppl. and now, we're got more ppl. great. (:
thank God so so much for providing.



tmr
SG schs game. i am going to make the best out of it. i'll not let my foot hinder me. i'm bringing along e rubbing medicine, painkillers and everything- prepared.
i really hope that our team will fight hard together adn really apply all that we've learnt in those 10wks. really. may we put on gd fights tmr.



ok lastly,
recieved the letter alrdy. 4 awards this yr. merit for leadership for SportsClub,
2 merits for sports for touch rugby and bowling. and, sports team of the year for.... bowling. i'm abit half half for it.
my reason...
bowling is technicaly strong and really quite unbeatable last yr. we had our chances. and thus, both the guys and girls cliched the champions, and the overall sch champions. but yea, that's just abt it.

as for touch rugby, i think its really a team game. and like. the things we've gone through tgt, fought tgt and stuff. we've performed generally well and won quite a no. of tournaments. and really, teamwork. its really like... team.
we grow together, fall tgt, and climb tgt. and we're always persuing the gold.

in terms of effort wise, touch would defintely deserve the award more. but in terms of skills wise, bowling luh. they are in relatives.. but generally, i personally feel that touch deserves it more because i'm quite sure to say that we're a team that other teams can learn a thing or 2 from. i'm not bhb-ing. but yea. both teams have their strengths and deserve some credit for it. this is just my opinion. oh well. dun really know how does e management makes their decision.

huh.

ok.

wanted to blog-blog today. but feeling tiredish.

i just feel that at this point in life now,
right at this moment,
i'm just not covering work that i'm much capable of.

in another words,
i'm just giving myself excuses, leeways, self comforts, blah blah blah...
the bottom line is, work is not quite done.

sometimes its done, but not proudly done.
in a way, its not my best.
its not smth that i can be proud of.
maybe its just smth to please a human.

it's been like that for quite some time now.
maybe 3 yrs.
no.
maybe since the day dad left.
since the day that i've decided that i shouldn't push life too hard but enjoy it.
as much as i'm a perfectionist as of now, there are many areas which i just choose not to put in effort.
for the record, my grades the had obvious plunge in sec3.from near straight As, to straight Fs. hoho. way too pro.


anyway.
take for eg, touch.
i think at this point, i'm seeing myself becoming more positive and urgent. which is gd. v recently, i've been negative and just really shoving too much neg thoughts in my mind. so yes, turng pt marian. if not, just don't do it if i just dont want to give in my 100% effort.

bowling.
mundane.
been trying. and been good. just not enough to shine out loud. SG open was just a let down with a 119 game with 3 high flying scores. if that last dreaded game was just a miserable 150, i would have been playing in the finals this morng. thanks.
nvm. National Age Grp coming up.


bah.
i need time.
time for God.
maybe, i dont need time.
i just need a heart to make time.
time to play my music.
time to just spend on the Word.


i wish for time with friends.
to just hang out and really heck it.
i miss thailand. i miss the villagers.


i'm not not happy now.
i'm just v disgusted by my droppy attitude in whatever i do.
i agree that its because of my many other committments that have become distractions.
but i guess if i've taken it, i should push myself harder, rather make excuses out of it. i find it hard to drop them coz i really enjoy doing them, yes, at the expense of exceling in them. its not abt whether i can or not already. its really about me, wanting to put in extra effort.


but in anyways.
i want to give God all glory.
and i want to thank all friends.
as well as much apologies to friends and family for not spending the much time that i could have had.


ok. the biking trip's planning hitting hard waters now.
because of block techings, midsem test, sch hol activities, the DATEs is still NOT confirm. and, what's more scary is, ITS NEXT WK. die die have to be next wk b4 all my trng starts. my head is gg bonkers. i think suan's one have exploded.


random post. just felt that i needed to tell this whole chunck of sewage to someone.

field trip

this is for the highly confidently creative lady. so much to be inspired from.7Ps + Passion.

go visit this restaurant/dinning place/whatesoever. just go visit! it'll really be an experience! (: it's at tanglin mall.
reached there at 8am today! the bus broke down this morng. was so scared that i would be late. but thank God, met Jasmine on e next bus. haha.

the diploma at the Singapore Flyer. touring with sucha big grp is just not condusive-project wise. but yea, the fun part was on the ride... as shown in the next collage.

ok. i took like hundreds of photo. ahha. the landscape is superb. HOWEVER. darkclouds came in. and it rained. super wasted. water droplets on the glass panels... and like.. the shots just look so dull and grey.

and some photos for grabs...

the whole cohort pic again.

2M02 ay07/08! (: really miss such bubbily ppl in class alot.

so this is my services marketing grpmates. hahhaa. we're behind time! for now. ahha. super last min workers.

love this pic. they were like counting down till the highest pt. AHHA. super funny.

so this is 3M01, not all here. these are the ones that took the flyer in the same capsule! haha.


the ppl in the capsule. haha.

plus, our lecturers cum photographers. ahhaha. seriously, if u're a creative and PBL kind of sec sch student and happen to stumble upon this blog, join TP MARKETING. ahhaa. we've lectures who are super oie and just differeniated. haha. the course manager rocks max. so yes. to find out more and really learn alot, also in the name of fun, come tp marketing. hahhaha.



ok. so lastly, i skipped coe trng to bowl the last squad for SG Open. ahha. didn't make it. shots were there, but splits were coming in. ): if not, solid pin 10, 7, 5s. grrr. ahah. so wasted again. ):
my foot hurt on the way back again. ahha. i hope i've not aggrevated it. i dun think i did luh. ahha.
tmr, NO TRAINING at all. i'm FREE AFTER SCH. whoooots. rare. thus, i should STUDY!


so many things to do tonight!!

doc.

cgh today
doc say might have torn my ligament slightly. not a major one. so for now, rest and ice and RICE. nxt 2 wks appt. haha.


but really thank God.
this morng, i woke up and immediately realised that the pain had subside.
i'm still limping abit and walking wierdly putting strain on my left ankle.. but its gd.


rugby trng. i was so obediant to sit and watch luh. was so tempted to just put on my boots and chiong. luckily i had teri's laptop with me. hahaha. but really. it really felt deprieved. i miss the girls alot.
i got disturbed by alot of rainy flies today at e sportscom. coz it was raining.



today was just waste time k. had alot of breaks in between. just felt tt my time could be more efficiently utilised.

disabled

i was on my way to lecture but i realise that the pain was still there.
so i figured that it'll really be the best if i consult e doc today.

went to see peter moey! (: at pasir ris polyclinic. did an x ray, no fracture.. HEING AR!. he referred me to CGH.
so tmr, will be gg to the sports part to do a more detailed checkup.


meanwhile. MC for physical activity- 6 days.
damn. ):
sat's the sg sch's tournament. so, i am GOING TO REST... i'll be gd.
ahah. omgs. missing so much trngs luh. this is so not happening.

today.
went for coe trng. haha. wanted to watch only. but couldnt take it. so joined them. just see 3 step drill so that i would walk so much. had to transfer weight quick if not i'd loose balance and fall. haha.
when played game, then do e whole thing. scores weren't there coz no balance. was quite happy with some of my shots. and i think coach wanted me to get a more reactive ball.


anyways. watched this with geraldyne today. sara couldn't make it.

quite a funny show. quite amazing that such a comedy can have a nice ending and like moral-of-the-story kind. nice to watch a movie with gera. (: haha.



ok. now having probs with in planning of the bikign trip. coz some of the memebers have test and presentations. and schedule is freaking tight. no words or energy left to describe how tight's our schedule now. ): hope it goes well.

endurance.

i'mma winner. haha.
15km. nice flat road- paya lebar air base runway..
it was quite a quick one.. finished e whole event in abt 2hrs time.
the bike is rented, deb's coupon.


i woke up, got out of bed and...
GROAN in freakin pain.

my foot was hurting mad. i almost paralysed by my fear more than anything else. so many things to do this wk!

ok. took bus and took the shutter bus in.
abit cheepo. when there, first thing, went to see e medic abt my leg (hoping to save money on docs). but she wrapped with bandaged and apply deep heat. its like. won't work luh.
she says it might be a serious strain or small ligament tear.
i'm like..omg. this is sooo not the time for such things to happen.


haha. the most difficult thing abt today's cycling is when u're getting ready to paddle and stop. coz u need to put ur weight on ur foot to stablize and to push off also. i was happy cycling the route. the most painful part is usually getting off the bike where my leg would probably scream if it has a voice.

but yes, great time spent with suan and serena. ahha. happily shooting as we road. they brought their fisheye. haha.

ok. some brief photos...
the event itself. they had exhibitions after the ride. saw the BLACK KNIGHT #1 and the 6 pilots. ahhha. we had like posters and asked them all to sign. hahha. i prefer the helicopter apache more. haha.

here's some photos of us...
love the missles and cool pilots. ahha. shuan! u should have been there la. its ur turf. haha.


like this shot. probably my shot of the day. abit lazy to edit the colours and stuff. but today, nice clouds that apparpently, do not really block the sun. haha.

after the event.
wanted to go CGH to check my foot. coz i seriously think there's something wrong. been limping whole day long today. but the polyclics are closed today and all. so i would probably go either tmr or tues.




after that. singapore open.
total let down.
my foot really played with my mind. it was hurting and i just cannot excute a proper excution coz i cannot transfer the weight. i didn't even hit a 600 series. 173 133 111 160. honestly, i was really struggling. the lanes were ok. physically, i wasn'tt.



so tired! reached home at abt 12am plus (changed blog timings so tt the date can be as accurate.)
eyes are closing but many things to do.

-svc mking surveys
-the trip
-emails
-sort out timetable
-list of things to get (coz i've apparently forgotten)


ok. oh yes. lastly, thannk u gary for msging me ahhah!. it came quite timely. i read it after i bowled my horribl series.and yea. hope u're doing well.! (:

i cannot seem to forget the 119 game. if only that's like a 150 or smth... i'm in the masters!! ): ): now, i've currently droppped to R8. HAIZ. maybe its a blessing in disguise. God may not want me to bowl in this condition.


photos from national runway cycling- SUAN YANG.
pro-ed blind shooting. just that the lens cap is abit stupid. ahha.

haha. this photo is now my dp for msn, facebk, friendster, desktop and handphone. love it. hahahhaha.

tsktsk.

so as of now...


SUAY SIA. if i'm not wrong, the 12th person's high game is 205. and i got 204. thats y although we're same for total pinfall, i'm a position lower.

grrrr.
TMR LAST CHANCE. 530pm.
do or die.
4 games. no room for error.



ok.. today morng.. had this chnl U filming thing. helping out under SportsClub. AHHA. said many wierd chinese stuff and i think we're probably be on tv in july. erks. haha.


had fun luh. the director rocks. super quick witted.
its like.. comparing machine made and home made ang ku quay. w/o us knowing which is wad first. the unexpected one won, although i like the red plate one. haha.
ok. the host is super talented. her energy is high, and she rmbr's script so well. her improvision is also whoas.


tp cat. love this.


then was tap. the dance is getting more and more 'sexy' HAHA. val and i are so having a gd time. haha.
after that, was church. our first NETBALL trng. HAHAH. for the Grace Cup League.
as in really, trng.
we had physical conditioning. ahha. run around pp plus sprints and drills.
e drills didn't quite work out maximum but i guess it was getting more feel of the ball. so wierd to pass a round ball now. haha.

i sprained my foot. cant really put weight or push off from the left foot. ): abit worried for tmr. ): super pain till now.


ok. some photos for u guys to kope...














btw! to leelian (i'm not sure spelling!): if u've visited this site alrdy, tell me ur link yea! haha.

plans.

planning e 4D3N Biking trip now.
kinda freaked out, we're aiming to reach Sedili by Day 2. its abt 133km from the jetty of Pengarang.
ok. yes. 2wks time? need to train!

still trying to persuade mum to give green light.


SG open.
wasted $40 again.
was stubborned being a risk taker and tried to bowl e 4pm squad, knowing that the oil is very much still there.
haha.

OK. so i'm bowling LAST CHANCE, on sunday, 530pm squad. have to hit at least 740.
sponsored by greg's DAD!
he took out a $50 bill to ask me to go and bowl the 7pm squad coz he've seen me bowl so much better during trng. i guess its also because i dun have the money to try out another squad.

but yes, i rejected it luh. $40 is no small sum of money.
but later in e end, he gave me greg's MQ ticket- to bowl on sunday. coz greg was kidna injured as his shoulder was aching mad. so yea, i accepted it.
and thus, i'm gg to bowl on sunday. this time, its different. coz its sponsored. and i will HAVE, AND MUST do well.


so yes, from 6th position, i've dropped to 8th. and i think i'll further drop if more ppl starts to try out more squads.
last chance marian.





ok. this wk, PACKED.

Sg Open

ok. i actually set alarm clock to watch 8am American idol.
DAVID COOK WON BY 12 MILLION VOTES. (:

felt really really happy and jusitfied.
i've got a feeling that the judges would have known who won b4 e show.
but yea, both really gd n really, its at the point whereby the winner does not really matter.


ok. then was Singapore Int. Open.
dammnit.
1st MQ. 145 129 122 136. 532. is like.. go die pls.
honestly, with my long skid ball, no idea how to bowl with 43ft oiling. can't feel comfortable, can't find line, can't spare.

then yeyang and yongsherng came. saw coach. had abt 20mins chat and decide to bowl inside line, a line that i rarely bowl. yeyang said smth like 'aiya.. already like that, no harm trying'.
tried. and...
2nd MQ. 204 193 173 119. 689.
dammit.really felt v v v v wasted. if my last game was just a 180 and above, it would have been a 760 smth series. and that would probably put me a comfortable position in the masters.

it was 2 clean games straight.. until i hit a split on a first frame of game 3. it felt really gd coz my pin 10s an 7s were 100%. (:
the 3 game onwards, started to dry up coz there's this male bowler who's like bowling a cranker line. and the lane dried up real fast. last game, didn't know how to make e correct adjustments, and lost it. ): WASTED.

THUS, TMR, I HAVE to make a trip down to MT FABER again, to waste another $40 on the squad fee. this time, i'm gg to make sure that i bowl a 190 avg.

argh.
but today, i learnt.
my mental played a big role again. in tournament, its really abt blocking out ur surroundings, including ur own scores, and focus and making the gd shot each shot.
yes, and be patient.


anyway.
tmr, last try for the 4pm squad. *cross fingers.
it ended around 730pm today. i attempted to go back sch and see the girls. but on the way, it was like around 830 alrdy. by the time i reach sch, it would have been 915pm. so didn't go sch in the end.
met up some of the sc ppl and grads for supper at simpang.
gd time. (:




this whole wk, didn't play touch this whole wk. miss the girls. ):
i just cant wait to start trng and improve fast fast! its my last yr, and my last chance. do it well.

gear

changed my gear,
changed to a longer chain.
added nice cool handles.



i have a LJ acc now.
peer influence.
haha. but i'll still use here alot. (:
there would be friends only. haha.


planning bike trip to malaysia now. route not cfmed.
mum's not really happy.

didn't bowl singapore open today. shall bowl tmr. no $ left in wallet. ):


ok. david archuleta performed well today.. all the best to david cook man!

runs

elections up now.
still thinkg hard, but doubt so.


knee almost killed me today.
now, its both sides! what is happeninggggg!! ):

i went for a run today.
been awhile since i've done long d.
it felt forver. after the 1st round e estate, my back begged me to stop.
so i've concluded. i think, knee = back injury. if u have one 'spoilt', the other will spoil too.


everyone's using LJ.
but i'll still remain to blogspot. haha. just tt the 'friends only' blog cant see! hha. it think blogger will soon make this function.



Singapore Open has started.
havent bowled. heard abt the 43ft oiling!
grrrr. i'll probably bowl thurs and fri or smth. tmr's too rush i guess. we'll see.

cycling

i cycled to ECP with both flat tires.
i lost my sunglasses on e way.

haha.

but. i had a gooood's night rest last nite b4 meeting yang and gang during lunch time.

from ECP to changiVillage to Tampines and home.
stop by to take alot of photos.
salutes to janice for having to cycle back to SEMBAWANG.
also to suanyang and josias back to AMK and Kovan respectively.
(suanyang just reached home... 11pm plus. and i really wonder how is janice doing.).
3 of them started their biking journey at around 645am btw.











so after today,
i went to modify my front gear. super dying can.
thighs and butt are aching.



ok. many things to do.

crashnburn.

photos. taken by my point and shoot...

like this lighting.

like like ScissorsPaperStone. loser takes raincoat and cover. winner takes a cup to splash at opp.




my saturday...
1) the yishun pri camp.
too many comments. but just glad to see some of the 4sixers again.




2) cousin's outing!



3) DJ Nadrix & music


really felt like sleeping. liked the music though. jampacked.
boat quay is a nice chill our place though. make sure the weather not so hot!
gd time spent with shaun actually. haha. (:
NR7 rocks. stops right behind my blk.



my sunday...

played for svc today. was gd! it felt gd.
after that, jammed with nigel and paul. haha. failed to do our initial song. but tried a new song which made us switch back to acoustic mode. gotta work more with rockish songs if we wanna do more with the electrics. haha.



oh yes. saw paul's cousins. and wad shocked me is cheryl, my ballet classmate who is paul's cousin. it was funny how we met in shocked. haha.




so many things happening around the world. the Myammar one. the China one.
it comes in tie with my dream- not v nice.



anyway. many emails to be replied. ! sleepy!
recieved the analysis. really made me reflect. last chance, marian.
do or die.


hmmm.. i think i should blog less and blog things that more either exciting encouraging or like interesting thoughts.
blogging abt day is gg no where. to an extent, pathetic; although my days are usually exciting. haha.