i think CGH hates me.

i've missed 2 appointments already.


haha. my knee is like better. i guess. self recovery. ahahhah. after all that bending during IMF.. hahaha. but today, after a 20min bus journey, had probs walking after sitting for long.

during rugby trng today, my back ached like mad. throughout k. aishya was teaching so much playmakers skills today.. didn't want to rest.

i sorta enjoyed today's trng. it seems that its been long since we've done fitness. sssshhhh. haha.
OKS. ANYWAYS. sat have a last match. haha. against Bucks. i think we can win. i think can. or rather, draw or smth.

till this point. i'm kinda happy that i'm not trng with the 'ntl' grp. coz when i see them train, sometimes i feel the strong pressure.. and its like.. missing the whole essence of rugby? hmmm. but on the other hand, i very much want to be there coz they're learning new things fast.
but on top of that, i'm thankful for aiysha, our coach, for bwing superly encouraging. and not forgetting marli. i tell u ar.. today she gave the team a little keychain with our name on it.
i've been under so many diff coaches.. proabably 10 or more.. and none has given the student smth except for her. i'm reallllllyyy touched and encouraged to keep trying.
thanks marli. and thank u, aiysha.

haha. i sound as if i'm leaving the team. NOT k. haha.

bowling is stilll rocky. i bowled a 161 and a 127 today. i think. 127. bah.
when my ball hits the pins... i dun have that PAH feeling anymore. my timing is wierd. i dun trust my shots. i can't put my thumb all e way it. its like. smths v wrong. my release is superly changing.. not sure if better or worse. .the reaction is like.. blech. i'm playing like 10-10. and its really a straight tight pocket. and it ball doesn't really hook.
abit worrying. coz all over is just wrong. ):
i'm still wroking on it. i hope to 'perfect' it by IP. note the "". yea.


NYAA Residentail proj. the mtngs always fall during my trngs. and i really duno how. maybe i do know how. but i need like support from the team? i'm complaining now coz i feel tired to be accountable. i'm supposed to be like be responsible accountable and all. but at this stage. the hols. fatigue?]

and to top it up. i haven been trng myself. no runs. no long swimgs (besides that day when i lost my everything). and my bike. ic an't cycle yet coz i haven install backlights.. and probably a basket or smth.
and i have abt 2-3 wks ofhols left?

i haven been wokring for jean. hahah. coz i'm lazy. and i really want to R-E-S-T. not that i like to zhuo-bo at home.

smth's stil missing in my life. no. its not IMF.
i think its the studies. i need smth to study? ok. i'm not nerd. but hahaha. ok. shooosh.
i just need to be fair to myself and allow marian to spend time more on socializing. i dun really see myself secluding from friends. but more of erm... i duno how to put it. hahahha.



but if u ask. i'm happy with my life. coz God's with me.
but. (see. there's always this 'BUT'.)
i guess ppl makes it more beautiful, and at the same time, tough.
our personal self plays a humongous role if u don't know.

by why, if u ask, i seem happy and so not my blog. its coz, i have to emphasize, this is my blog. again. a place to rant blah blah blah. a common tagline.
i still share my happy moments and exciting moments that i do want to cherish.
but the emo part always seems long.. coz its smth i have to let it out. more words is needed to try make sense out of it?


BAH. dun worry abt me if u are. not being bhb la. but its the case wad. i'm enjoying myself, somehow. coz challenges seeems to excite me.
i'm still learning and adapting.


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lastly. when i was on the field today, the sky really amazes me. coz i'm on the field at 6 plus. where the sun sets. always, i want to take out my camera to shoot. but again, trng requires discipline. so i can just look up and be distracted. to add on. there was the thin slice of the moon, and and and.. an aeroplane! those that puii out smoke trails in a straight line.


nonetheless. thank u for today. it was a day just with trngs.