today is the most horrible day i have in my whole entire life. i hate it. its the cremation. my mum juz could not take it. the sight of 3 strong malays guys pushing my frail, weak old daddy, lying in that wooden box, into flames is juz unbearable. pls. they used force, and sped up the rate of losing my dad phsically. the last sight of my dad is horrible. my dad is a great father, loving husband, and a very great friend. we didn't knew he had many friends. the death of his is juz too sudden. way too sudden. no more lively house, cozy home and everything. no more drilling, no more shouting, no morelaughter, no more knocking, no more jokes, no more happy faces, no more life, no more atmosphere, no more anything. i hate it. i nver want it. too sudden. so tired, so loss. juz like a jiz saw puzzle, so scrwed, so scared. enough. dad.... pls dun go.