haha. today went to church....... was feeling very paiseh coz i slpet throut sermon. and everything... aahha.. goash man.. then got ballet practice coz of the exam that is drawing near.. and finished at 745.. and took a cab to class bbq at mel's house. ahha.. got this gift exchange thing, and me and marilyn got each other's present.. hahaha. very sweet.. mel gave me this letter with a testube and an ice cream stick wif my name.. grrr.. so touching,.. haha.. yup. shu hua did most of the bbqing when i went there.. yup.. was tired... but had fun. tml got prefects bowling. haha.. should be going.. but i think sure malu myself.. ahhaha ya

ahaahha.. today was my usual sat again.. after cba, went to meet mum and sis at bugis.. good time.. then came home, very tired, legs all acheing... back is very pain.. then anyway. later, sort out my dad's photos.. ahha. damn good time laughing, and missing him even more,.. yup... gonna make a video clip,, ya. that's it. still missing this guy in da house

ahhaha.. as usual, my bowling sux.. totally.. tuesday is the youth championship thing and i'm bowling like 130 avg? wth........ i so need to get a new ball.. i think monster slayer.. ya.. wanted a 13... but he say 12.5 gd for me.. haha.. stupid. then must get new spare ball also.. but will be later.. hmm.. i need cash,.. ahha, so.. anyway, zen, fafa and lyn got new reactive ball... all is damn damn damn pro and solid. zen got a raging inferno, lyn got a Danger 5, fafa got a monster slayer... i think i getting a monster slayer.. coz uncle jack say that ball good for me... y? coz toay on oily lanes... ahha.. my ball is liek its so going to hook.. so much rev and every thing... but but but, the ball does not have enough time to come back... although is still a 14 target.. bah. ahaha.. and wad, i'm supposingly a big hooker.. yea right.. ahhaa.. okok.. ytd, i tidied my room the table until 2am.. haha.. coughs... i threw away lots of books. ahha.. all those that gave me knowledge. ahha.. ok. tired,. went trng, uncle jack is a nice person.. really.. hahah.. =).. take care ya

today went bowling wif donna... ahha. coz my bowling kakee all not free. aah.. so.. yar.. was terrible. wasn't feeling very comfortable.. and also.. not happy wif the span.. yup... but today is public holiday. so rates are high.. and they change the pins to some metalice gold colour.. yup. ok.. that's it.. tonigh my dad will come back... it's already 1 week withous him leh... so its like now, if anything that is spoilt in the house which none of us can fix, dead man.. aagaaha.. yar lor.. juz hope miracle will happenn... hmm like wad? his physical self is like burnt... so it's quite scary if u see him physically.. and also spiritually... so i still hope that all of u will treasure ur friends and espically ur family. =)

today went to collect teh ash at casket.. then i kept some bones.. i wanna research.. his bones i like got blue, green and brown spots,,.. i think coz of medications.. yyup.......... then like that.. house is gettong freaky.. but i love my papa... ahha. but then... i still scared... then its still quite empty.. but i think his death has brought my mum, sis and i closer.. ahha.. like the death of romeo and juliet.. haha.. fatal loins.. ahha. i pro at R&J k....... haha. anywya.. i'm back to my happy self liao. juz some times think of him.. and i think that his death is too sudden...alot of things haven do, haven repair, haven experienc... but anyways, he's wif the Lord.. =).. gonna train liao. 8 days no bowling! bah!.. ahhaa.. buck up man. bish. i wanna go for the prefects camp.. in the end nv go.. h,mm

read my sister blog.. hahahaa. i love my daddy.. ahhahaa... we all now like very happy over his jokes,, inherit all these

today is the most horrible day i have in my whole entire life. i hate it. its the cremation. my mum juz could not take it. the sight of 3 strong malays guys pushing my frail, weak old daddy, lying in that wooden box, into flames is juz unbearable. pls. they used force, and sped up the rate of losing my dad phsically. the last sight of my dad is horrible. my dad is a great father, loving husband, and a very great friend. we didn't knew he had many friends. the death of his is juz too sudden. way too sudden. no more lively house, cozy home and everything. no more drilling, no more shouting, no morelaughter, no more knocking, no more jokes, no more happy faces, no more life, no more atmosphere, no more anything. i hate it. i nver want it. too sudden. so tired, so loss. juz like a jiz saw puzzle, so scrwed, so scared. enough. dad.... pls dun go.

juz a fall, juz 5 days to loose a loved one

now, dead. past, live. living a lie.
should i be happy about this? i juz recieve a letter saying that i will be gg to 3/7 nxt yr. yar. oh well. dad.

today, went to prepare for the funerals.. the coffin.. the place.. my dad is resting in Singapore Casket, level 4, crystal room.. and u know wad.... ytd...at the icu ward, there were this indonesian grp... they too lost a family member.. so, it so happenly tt they held their services nt to us. juz like my dad and that desceased, who was very near together,. my dad, room 5, him, room 4. many ppl came today. andrew, church friends, and lots of classmates, and even bowling seniors too.. mr lim also came. had to put on a happpy smile. hope it didn't screwed up and turned fake.. so saw him, service was held my dennis. tml there will be a service at 8pm also.. saturady will have another service at 3.45pm./. then there will be a bus to mount veron for cremation at 5.15pm. i not sure wads gonna happen in between, ok. very tireed. eyes are like swollen. but not as bad as my loving dad.

tue night, had a call, rushed back there.. coz dirty blood went into his brain. his condition worsen. there was nothing te doctor could do. we were asked to be prepared for the worse. wednesday, morning, i saw him. we had a meetin first. a meeting which was wasn't wanted. about my dad's condtion. negative doc says that he has only a few hours to live, trust me, i dun mind murdering them and go to jail for it. mum and sis went home. friends came. long lost friends came. love all these ppl. mum and sis came back. i went out dinner wif my friends, didn't have the appitie though. went back, celebrated one of our relative's birthday. happily. then mum went home to cathc some rest and prepare fot the nxt day. i was too scared to go home. too afraid that i'll recieve a call, from he hospital, again. so i stayed on wif my sis. later. his bp was way too low. very low. 36, 37, 38. doc gave him much medication. he wasn't responding to the medication either. his heart beat was very very irregular and terrible.. 117, 186, 134, 144, 201, 145... u see... we all like wana die seeing all these nos. so they said to wait for 1/2 hrs to see how b4 we trouble our mama.
she finally came. we tok to him and tok and tok till 4am. he's a great fighter. too great. so great tat we ourselves canot handle it alone. we told him to let go... let it all out.... rather then "kake" all the way. so at 0554, his bp was 0. his heart was still fighting at 14, which can be counted as a miracle for a person with bp of 0. so yar. doc checked on him, and certified my father as dead..

this totally sux. monday, after i went out, i juz felt the urge to go to the hospital. i dunno why. so.. on mon night, it was terrible. in the afternoon, he was ok. still quite good.. whe night was drawing near, he keeps slping, his eyes could not open.. it was terrible.. at 12 midnight again, it was at wit's end. dennis, jasper, adrian, aunty christianne, mingfa and winston came until 1am plus...so at 12mn, his heart ateries burst. yes, burst. so... the dc said tt he might not be able to pull through.so.. me, mum and i stayed back to keep him accompany.. i slept in the cupboard.. it was very comfy there.. but had cramps.. so.. in the morning. his condition did not improve at all. instead, it detoriated. the doc gave us 3 choices. one, to leave him in ward 28, bed 5 and let his condition worsen. two, put him in icu, to help him wif his breathing. 3, was to have a big major op, which is 40% risk... to help him feel better. all these 3 choices will not improve him situation but juz prolong his life. it all sucked. so we chose the op one, to relieve him. so around 4pm like tt, he went in... we wait at the icu somewhere there.. joanne, agnes and jeremiah came...then ya.... was feeling quite strong. then later.lorraine, jasmine, lydia, aunty evelyn came. he was out.. at 8pm like that...he was in icu. totally meesy wif all the machines.. me my sis and mum went in first, then my dad started to cry.. as in..his right eye got a big drop of tear came out... so eveything was emmotional and stuff.. my mum wasn't really stable.. but ya.. manage to get home through our kind nieghbour's car... kinda tired now. worried. i think i gg for trng tml. to relieve my stress.. ya... so later, will be gg back there. =l. i hope he'll make it this last time. i dun want him to lve on llike that. the doc say no matter wad, he'll be bed ridden and wadeva probs he have now will be pernament. so ya, i believe in miracles. my mum and sis doesn't but i believe he'll be able to knock and knock again. juz a fall off he bed can cause his life and future.

went to church this morning.. coz coulnd't sleep the whole night. so. most prob. slept for about 2h... very tired. so later... went home to rest first.. then i went to the hospital wif 2 of my neighbours to see him......1st sight. terrible. he tried to turn is head to his left, but it keeps gg right. his left hand and legs all paralysed.. he had probs toking.. his eyes were not normal. it was just diff. it was quite heart breaking to see a person who loves to be and engineer and loves to work, having a stroke. he loves to work. he is always giving me that big smile..he's a joker ma.. he juz loook at me and gimme a big wide smile when he was ok... now, unable to control his facial expressions.. i could not accept it at first,,... i went out to relieve my mind. went back.. and faced reality. it was hard to put on a front. so i was trying to be my usual naughty self. yar.. then later. he still could joke, despite having probs wif vocal expressions..
later.. there was this church member who came.. was very touched, because i dun not really know her well... and aunty ann, margie, my niece and her husbadn all came.. yup. so that's it.. tryig to get use to this empty house. i miss the banging and the drilling sounds

juz came back from changi hospital. i was gg to slp when i heard a thud sound. a loud one which came from my parent's room. time:around 11:45pm.. my mum and sis were watching some horror movie outside in th living room. so they too heard the loud thud sound. usualy, my dad likes to make stuff,... play around wif his work piece, hammer, and all these engineer stuff.. so it's common to hear things drop coz he has butterfingers. so i continued to sleep. so later.. i heard my mum panicky voice.. my sis was on the phone crying.. coz these days, i dun slp wif e air cond, so i leave my door wide open.. i went to my dad's room and saw him on the floor. unable to speak, unable to move. he could make some words.. he tried to talk. but we really could not understand. my mum said that he was breaking out in cold sweat and could not move his mouth and other parts. further more, my dad has high blood pressure and was gg to hav a heart op. soon.... i stared out of the window, waiting for that ever-so-slow ambulance to arrive... my sis was wif me. she said it might be a stroke. so my heart sank. totally deep. hate it. tears started flowing unknowingly..finaly.. at 12am sharp...that ambulance arrived. we waited and waited. no one came. it was so long. too long. i heard foot steps out of my wide open door gates...i rushed. it was my neighbour. he juz came home from work. he stared at me. wondering y was my house doors wide open and he peeked in. finally. they came in wif their so called boots and all their stuff and headed to my dad's room. my dad was juz tring to move. the paramedics, mum and sis told him not to move, and yet, he still defied their orders. i could not stand it. i could tolerate no longer. i screamed at him, telling him to stop all those freakin movements and almost scolded him an idiot and ran to my room and shout into my blanket. it was good. good. later, my mum followed the ambulance to the hospital and my kind neighbour drove us there. meanwhile, my neighbour's mum, who was not asleep yet, took care of the house and everything.... and my sis and i left. upon reaching there... we had to take our temperatures... i was pissed off... my nieghbour said it was an emergency... then she was like "but u need to................" i hate her.... so i was like.." wa lau.. we not say got fever right." and gave her the rolling eyes thing. then she gave us the mask that we had to wear. found mum. was there. so i went to the lobby? carpark? to stone.. to wait for results.. my sis and neighbour went to tok... i go find things to play. called shuneng to tok.. smsed ppl to pray. then later went to the a&e side and waited outside the hospital becoz only 1 person is allowed to go in to prevent further crowding.... idiot. time was aout 1:45am. my niece came wif her husband. my neighbour was still there. my mum tok to all of them and they decided to make me and my sis go home, assuming that we could sleep hell peacefully.. so my neighboiur drove us back, together wif my niece, who is in the house now. therfore, i'm back at home, still in my cba uniform. i am going to bathe and prepare for tml. i hope its not serious. thanks, God. i juz want to be thankful no matter wad.

bowling is good today. thanks to uncle jack. gd speed. gd release. =)) long time nv bowl liek that... although scores not too good.

*ahhaha. kanna addicted to this kind of thign liao..


Name : Poon Marian
Time started: 11:05pm
Birthdate: 20th Sep 1989
Age: 14
Home town: Bedok North
Siblings: elder sis, 24
Righty or lefty: right

~~~~~Your Looks~~~~~
Hair Colour: black. totally
Eye Colour: dark brown lor..
Do you wear contacts or glasses?: none.. sometimes spects..
Do you have any piercings: ears
Do you wear any rings: ahha.. only to gran ocassions i guess..
What shoes do you wear: track, slippers, shoes......

~~~~~Just Lately~~~~~
How are you today: happy. very happy.
What pants are you wearing:ahha.. shorts..?
What shirt are you wearing: shirt? normal shirt?
What does your hair look like at the moment: messy, toot, ugly.. ahha. no lar.. juz let it down w/o combin wif frindge
What song are you listening to right now: msn ringing
What was the last thing you ate: choco cake. wedding one somemore k.. ahha
How is the weather right now: not so bad.. quite cooling..
whos e last person you talked to on the phone: samantha liew.

~~~~~More About You~~~~~
What are the last four digits of your
phone?: 5257
If you were a crayon what color would you be? : black. to outline and make it more outstanding
Have you ever almost died: no.
Best advice anyone's given to you: half filled jug.
What sport do you hate the most: hello. i luv sport. maybe volleyball? veyr pain leh. i dun want hurt my wrist.. one of the most impt psrt of the body k......
How many phones do you have in your house: i dunno leh. i dubnno count.. coz all spoil one
Do you have your own phone line: hp yes..
Animals: dun haf...
Place for a dream house: bowling alley, all free... then got gym, running track, music room, dance studio.
have you ever sprained/broken/fracured a bone: my ankles so many time.. bowing ball bang!>... whoas.. haha. tap dancing too loose.. then sprain ahhahah
Who would you tell your dreams to: to ppl who appreciates jokes.. hahaha no lar. when i feel like toking juz tok lor
Who is the loudest friend: CATHERINE LEE YIN HWA....... a...a.a trallallaa
Who is the quietest friend: hmm.. i duno leh..

~~~~~You and Love~~~~~
Do you believe in love: how to believe? maybe lor. love can do many things and sacrifices..
Do you believe in love at first sight: maybe
Do you have a girlfriend/boyfriend: no.
Did you send this to your crush: i dun have currently lor.. ahaha
What song do you want played at ur funeral: my FUNERAL?!?!play wad? MAKSIM AND AKLL THE TECHNO SONG AR?. bwahhahahahahhaha... crazy.of coz hyms lar..
Lights on/off: on..
Do you like snow, sun, rain: sun!
Summer or winter: bth lah hor...
white or chocolate milk: white milk. i love milf.... i ever drink 1 litre of milk in one day. ahha.. in 3 h...
Mud or Jell-O wrestling: wad in e world is it in e 1st place?!?
Skiing or boarding: boarding..
Day or night: both has its gd and bad points
Cake or pie: both gd food leh
Diamond or pearl: diamonds i guess.. ahha. pearls so ah soh leh
Sunset or sunrise: sunset...

~~~~~~Have You Ever~~~~~
Loved someone so much it made you cry: ahha er.. i dun think so...
Smoked: NEVER
Broke the law: no no no no
Time finished: 11:34pm.. ahha.. i chatting lor... bz bz ahhah

from brendan..

MY
name : Marian Poon
piercings : ears?
tattoos : never.
height : 150 ahha. be thkful tt i hit 150
shoe size : 6
hair color: black
siblings : sistar, 24

LAST
movie you rented : none
movie you bought : whoa.. thats long.. i not stupid... yup
song you listened to : my blog the an jing
song that was stuck in your head : none le..
cd you bought : errr.. the last one... maksim
cd you listened to : dance revolution..
person you've called : err... who ar.. mr lim? i think coz of the web
person that's called you : errr... who... erm erm.. i think zen?
tv show you've watched : channel 8 that 9 pm drama...
person you were thinking of : sara parn ting hui.. hahaa

DO
you have a crush on someone : currently, no.
you wish you could live somewhere else : no. singapore like quite gd liao.. no natural disaters.. then so small and independant.
you think about suicide : not often. but yes. |:
you believe in online dating : no no no no
others find you attractive : how i know.. aha.. shpuld be not lar.
you want more piercings : no.
you like cleaning : of the classroom, yes
you like roller coasters : chicken heart.. ahhha
you write in cursive or print : print

FOR OR AGAINST
long distance relationships : depends
using someone : against
suicide : against
killing people : against.
teenage smoking : against
driving drunk : against
gay/lesbian relationships : against
soap operas : ok lar.. some some
HAVE YOU
ever cried over a girl : for me.... yes.
ever cried over a boy : ahahah. err.. primary 6? aaahha..
ever lied to someone : yes.. white lie.
ever been in a fist fights: nah. so violent
ever been arrested : haha..yea yea.. no.

WHAT
shampoo do you use : VS.. ahaa. so victoria.. ahha. no lar. vidal sessons
shoes do you wear : slippers... nike..
are you scared of : insects. esp. those that fly...

NUMBER
of times I have been in love? : 0
of times I have had my heart broken? : 0
of girls I have kissed? : me?.. ahha.. slaps myself if i do that..
of boys I have kissed? : none
of girls I've slept (in a bed) with? : hahaha. my cousins.. my church friends. haha. slp on bed lar.. that time camp wad
of boys I've slept (in a bed) with? : no lar.. siao..
of people I would classify as true, could trust with my life type friends : 3
of times my name has appeared in the newspaper? : 0
of scars on my body? : lots leh
of things in my past that I regret? : many.. i great one is PSLE.. serious,

DO YOU THINK YOU ARE
pretty : not at all lor
funny : when i'm hyper
hot : no.. ahha. practically speaking, singapore's weather makes ppl hot. =)
friendly : to ppl who is nice
amusing : dumb. blurr sotong
ugly : haha no la. God creation leh
loveable : me? do i know?
caring : at times
sweet : haha.. duuno leh
dorky : ???

FAVORITE
5 letter word : Jesus
actor/actress : none. zoe?,.. ah-ha.. robbie williams and that funny hong kong guy
Candy : chocolate!
Cartoon : dexter
Cereal : coco pops
Chewing gum : -nil-
Color(s) : yellow, blue
Color nail polish : i hate them. coz i feel like as if no air gets into my nails..
Day of week : sat.
Least fave day : i duno. different things happen
Flower : i duno leh.. i dun study them
Jello flavor : ???
Jewelry : i duno
Special skills/talents : tap dancing.. haha
Summer/Winter : summer..? winter for fun
Trampolines or swimming pools : pool.

PERSON WHO LAST.
Slept in your bed : marian poon
Saw you cry : samantha
Made you cry : uncle jack
You went to the movies with : my church friends
Yelled at you : mother lor
Sent you an email : friendster

Have you ever.
Said "I love you" and meant it? : haha.. yes.. but was young too young..
Gone out in public in your pajamas : downstairs...
Kept a secret from everyone : many.. duh
Cried during a movie : yea.. almost...
Ever at anytime owned new kids on the block stuff : no.
Planned your week based on the TV Guide : once. ahhahhahaa
Been on stage : many times
Been to New York : nope
Been to California : nope
Hawaii : nope
China : nope
Canada : nope.
Europe : nope
Asia : hello.. i live here.
South America : no
Wished you were the opposite sex : yes.. haha
What time is it now? : 2301
Apples or bananas? : apples
Blue or red? : blue
Walmart or target? : target
Spring or Fall? : sping
What are you gonna do after you finish this? : some bowling admin
What was the last meal you ate? : dinner... mama cooked food.. damn nice... ahaha
Are you bored? : no. never
Last noise you heard? : mum's nags
Last smell you sniffed? : mama's vegetable soup
Last time you went out of state/province? : primary 6..

FRIENDSHIP/LOVE
Do you believe in love at first sight? : err.r. no?. wait... maybe
Do you want children one day & if so, how? : yar.. wad ya mean by how? married then have kids lar..
Most important thing to you in a friendship is : honesty, trust

Other Info
Criminal record? : no
Do you speak any other languages? : chinese. dielect. aha.. horrible spellig
Last book you read : some friends bk
Name some of your favorite things in your bedroom? : my guitar. my trophy, my notebks, my creations,. my Bible
Thing you dislike about yourself the most : My 'unableness' to be obediant and speak out..
Worst feeling in the world : betrayed
Who you love : God
Who you miss : Catherine

You
Nickname(s) : murex
Initials : pm
How old do you look? : 11?12? bah!
How old do you act? : 13?
Glasses/Contacts : none.. smth times spects
Braces? :yup.
Do you have any pets? : no
You get embarrassed : yes. many times
What makes you happy? : gd grades. gd results
What upsets you? : bowling. bwling bolwing. it's screwed

Finish the sentence
I Love to... bowl
I Miss... catherine
I Wish... i can be who i want to be
I Hope... to hit my goals
I'm Annoyed by... menacing stares and glares
I Am... marian poon.
I Want to Be...myself to the fullest..
I Would Never... break the law
I'd Rather... be anything but ordinary plesesa.. issit enough........... ajahaha
I Am Tired of... being not able ot bowl well
I Will Always be.. cheerful,.ahahha

Have you ever.
Thought you were going to die : no.
Wanted to Run away : yes
Flunked a grade : duh
Skipped a grade :no.





haha...... thats it.. enough play liao..

hhaa. otday went for the prefects meeting. as usual, was very formal.. so. heehe.. shall try to be me! =)))) so..they juz toked about the camp... and stuff.. yup.. so its like on a fri, sat, and sun... so i really gotta plan and plan and plan... alot.. haa.. got to tok to them alot too.. blech.. ahaha. okok.. so. later.. went to hand in my appeal form.. it was ms. chang who tok my appeal form, attached to my results and a self-addressed envelpoe wif a paper clip..so its like she didn't know where to put and looked like as if finding for other forms...... paing.. i damn worried k like that.. aha. wad if she misplaced it? aha,, chill girl. ahaha. darn it. ahaha, so later... went to get files from popular and went to eat wif g-e-r-a-l-d-y-n-e and sara.. (ps: gel. see... full proper name.. ) hahaa,, yup.. got to do lotz of admistraitve stuff now.. ahaa.. coz samantha really did alot liao.. so ya... got to work hard.. toking about work, i haven touch my txtbks yet leh.. ahha. worries..ahah.. teenager.. not easy man.. ahha. k lar. i going to start now. bye ppl. haha.. finally a not so bad and adrupt ending.. hahha.

Marian, u have to be not so lazy can.... wakey girl.. hahha. wait.. i'm juz toking to myself for awhile k.. ya. so... anyway....... you are not doing ur job well enough.. and for goodness sake.. can u use proper english.... you cannot understand urself... wad about others and alll the public toks and announcements?,.... u have to do something about the sec1s bowling team.. they dun give a damn about their future... i mean not so serious lar... but i seriously dun see 80% of the sec1s interested....... okok.. maybe too high expectation........ how about 50%. no, i do not see that effort being put in.wad about ur studies? it is important.. can all of u stop being so playful and wanting to go wif the flow and stuff.. bah!..... why am i so concerned and worried? i duno lar.. but it juz affects me a little... i've becoming more irresponsible....i mean, maybe u all might say that i responsible or some shit lar....but then. compared to now and primary 6.... i think i'm more mature, responsible and sensible in primary six.....my primary 5 prefects-training keeps yaking about responsibility,...so i sahll uphold it... . i'm not taking the initative, i'm not giving a damn abouut my task. now wad. i dun feel like a gd captain or gd leader...from shuhua, the kc prefects "main theme" is duno wad attitude... but i think responsiblity is a more important issue..this is because, by being responsible, u take things into control the way u want it to be, u must be accountable.. kc prefects really dun practice this. i mean some... i even find 1 or 2 of the ex-cos not taking much initative and not being solely responsible and independant. too reliable...... baa baa black sheep have u any wool... ok lar..i'm juz typing wad i'm feeling now.. so about 49% readers wun undertstand wad am i toking. okok.. i'm such a complain queen. i can't stop complaining. *slaps myself real hard. ok. i muz buck up. as for bowling, well, it still sux, i am going to force my ball. i want more rev.. speaking about bowling, i have anther complaint, the sec 1s are really progressing really slowly. too slow.. how can win 4th? *faints... wad about the wrk plan and stuff. enough is enough. i want to represent singapore. i want to show mr jega that kc can excel in bowing.
i shall be a more refined lady and a discipline kid.
crap. negtive side of me again. i promise to type positively for the next few posts.

My radio dropped and spoiled.

the tournament is CANCELLED!! booohhoo.. train so hard then like that

ahaha.. damn fun day today...... first went church.. then later went home. then later went gym... first time leh.. wif ulrica and jasmine.. ahhahaa. then right.. in the gym.. there's this trainer keeps laughing at us.. coz i think almost the whole gym is those big guys one alr.. ahha. so anyway.. i alot of things dunno.. ulrica is pro. too pro. hahah.. then later.. i asked him if i could train my left arm.. then he asked y.. then i show him... ahha. he kanna shocked.. then say do lifts.. so do lor.. then like so sua koo... so anywya.. i finished liao.. thne asked him if i could train my right leg.. then he asked y again.. so i replied... becoz of bowling.. ahha.. he like veyr shock.. coz bowling where got leg inproportionate one.... so he dun believe.. then he compare... hahha.. he say okok.. then introduced me soe kind of excersise.. damn fun.. then later... go running.. haha.. very fun.. he keep increasing the speed and adjusting the slope... speed until 10.3... for jogging..ahaa. so fun.. then right.,ulrica was like running at 10? for jogging? ahha.then he said... amazing.. ahha. so anyway.. later we went swimming.. hahaa. fun.. long time nv go pool liao.. then later go pasar malam... hahah. eat and walk.. gd food k.. haha.. yup. then we sent ulrica all the way back home.. at 815 and reached hiome at 11pm ahha.. touching.. ok.. anyway.. abit tired and hyper now.. gg to bathe later and try to slp. =)

aahah. today ar....... i got posted to 3/6!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! boohoooo/.//.. hmm.. let's do some comparison here.. geraldyne, aka, my best friend..... got 68.3% i got 68%... i won her for maths and science.... yup... the double weightage thing.. hah.a. and then also her level is 43rd, mine 45th............ so close right.. i got 3/6, she, 3/7/......... ahha.. so anywya. will be doing core geog and elec. lit.. yay.. ahaa. okok.. so it ended too early.. so i went for tap class in th end... late for 5mins.. then went for cba.. ahahaha.. today train the line bowling again... i tell u ar... today... was toking about uncle jack and his ways lar.. i think he is a nice person if u know him very well, and his ways of sparing is good. but, he's got an attitude which we cannot handle.... so.. we toked to all the uncles at the yishun alleys.. then all really nv give a definite ans... so say say say until i cannot take it when i hear about uncle jack's attitude..... then i broke down..haha.. weakling..then i ok liao.. happy liao.. then uncle billy say " we gonna miss u girls" and gave a -missing-kind of face, somemore wif mariah words, and 'song dedication', ahha.. cried again.. so irritating right.. ahha.. so anyway.. went to pasr ris to bowl wif shu to try out. shu neng very gd hor.. haha.. so anyway... went home- tired- -injured- i think i over bowled?...... coz my left leg, knee and below, very pain, the ankle, feet, calf, everything,,, cannot walk. then the right leg juz the foot,.. so now feeling quite handicap...ok.. so i'm gona slp now.. i think.. if i cann.. ajja yar


*PS: To all prefects:
Please be informed that there will be a meeting on the 13th of November which is a Thursday. It will be held at the AVA room and will start at 1 p.m. It will last for about an hour. Please remember to bring your writing materials and those who need to pass me their passport size photos please write your name at the back of the photo.

Thank You.

hmm... for once, sch trng was gd today. we learnt spares...... uncle jack say 3-6-9 system only work out for those kind of lanes.... i think he meant the cathay lanes... then the victor's lanes not sure.. haha.. but i think he still dun want us to join extra trngs after selections.. and guess wad.. he say that selections will be nxt wk?.. *faints.......wanna die man like that.... haiz.... hmmm... east zone tournament coming liao... very nervous. muz really win tkgs.. but hor.. my avg now like not even 130?,,.. i not sure lar... damn sad lor.. haha. lost al that c div touch lo\iao. now seriously a lousy bowler.. i not discouraging myself lar... but then its true... yup.. so.. anyway, this morning. i recieved a call.. i thought it was my father.......... so i was like " HARLOW Ar..... (then i cannot hear,,.. so i said again). harolow helo...... Dadi ar?!..."......... ahhaha.then least expected.... "erm.. this is Mrs. Boey, ur form teacher here" ahahaa.. i paused... shit man. hahahhaha.. she wanted to ask me about the geylang old folks.. haha.. damn farnie.. ahhahahhahha/... yar. so... tml i planning ot wear my trng shirt go sch.. ahha.. hopefully... teachers wun scold..coz i meeting sam and shu.. so i think no time to change? haa/ yar. lazy to bring extra clothes too.. =). yup. i confrim going to appeal... ahhaha

twinkle twinkle little pang (remix version)
twinkle twinkle little pang,
how i wonder if you're young.
up upon the pants so high,
like a mooncake in the sky,
twinkle twinkle little pang,
how i wonder if you're a bung.

-ahhaaha... all the fond memoaries man........ grr.. haven even graduate like that liao-

twinkle twinkle little pang (remix version)
twinkle twinkle little pang,
how i wonder if you're young.
up upon the pants so high,
like a mooncake in the sky,
twinkle twinkle little pang,
how i wonder if you're a bung.

yea.. ytd trng was terrible... not that i didn't bowl well.. i didn't had the mind to bowl after wad Uncle Jack has said. shall treat him wif abit of respect lar... so ya.. anyway.. b4 our trng.. he tok to us.. he say that he allows us to have our own personal trngs and stuff including cba la... then he say until quite reluctant lar.. nvm.. then later.. he say...after selection for the b div, we have to stop ALL other trainings beside sch trainings .. so fair right.. *coughs pathetically too loud to hear*. so i really felt like giving up bowling... i mean.. i lost all hopes in the b div which will be held at victors, after he explained the lane conditions and expect us to change according to his ways and nothign esle.. so.. speaking money-wise... me, shu and sam paid for 6 months for cba liao/... so if quit from dec until mar... isn't that like 4 months?/.. so we paid so much for nothing.. i dun care lar.. i'm still going.. for my personal trng.. i shall talk to uncle francis.. and then right, UNCLE JACK expects us to write a report on wad we learn and who is the coach every single lesson we attend for our own trngs from now onwards.. wad the hell la.. i'm damn pissed off wif his behaviour.. if i show that i hate him.... i seriously can forget about joing the b div liao.. so wad? he's the best coach? *pukes... i can't tok to mr lim and uncle ronnie about this liao... they seriously gonna tok to UNCLE jack about thiis lor.. so ya.. shall be discreet about this and do wad i like.. i dun care. i do not care. i do not give a damn. i amm going to train hard. wif my hard wrk, i believe i can make it.. hahaah.. ya ya/.. crap.

1. First Name: Marian

2. Were you named after any anyone? : no...

3. Do you wish on stars? : haha... when i was young

4.Which finger is your favourite? : index finger ar? ahha.. wad a q

5. When did you last cry? : yesterday

6. Do you like your handwritting? : defintely not

7. What is your favourite meat?: chicken haha

8. Any bad habits? : so many lo.. want to do but lazy to do

9. What is your most embarrassing CD on the shelf? : none?

10. If you were another person, would you be friends WITH you? : maybe not... ahaha... *gasp

11. Are you a daredevil? : depends.. erm.. maybe noth...ahah

12. Have you ever told a secret you promise not to tell? yes. haha girls.

13. Do looks matter? : yes.. but i dun really bother.. like i said.. lazy

14. Have you ever misused a word and it sounded absolutely stupid? : ahahha... many times

15. Do you think there is a pot of gold at the end of the rainbow? : never... i tot was a plate of poster paints

16. Do fish have feelings? : hahhahahhaha...... maybe... yes!..

17. Are you trendy? : nah

18. How do you release anger? hahhaa. write and wrtie and scribble and scream

19. Where are your second homes? : sch, church

21. What was your favourite toy as a child? : barbie dolls? ahhahahaa

22. What class in school do you think is totally useless? : class? no calss is uselsess. all still have hope if u have made it to a class

24. Have you ever been on radio or television? tv, yes... some commercial.. ahhha.. got $1200 for running around some fire pit. ahaha

25. Do u keep a journal? yes. lots

26. Do you use sarcasm a lot?: haahaa yar. esp. to my best friend geraldyne.. aahhaa alot...

27. Have you ever been in a mosh pit? : wads that

28. What do you look for in a guy/girl? : of course personality... the ability to open up wif and trust lor

29. What are your nicknames? : murex, poon, toot, idiot

30. Would you bunjee? : scared leh...........

31. Do you un-tie your shoes when you take them off? : no.

32. What are you worried about right now? : bowling, bowling, bowling

33. Do you ever wear overalls? : nopes..

35. What's your favourite ice cream flavor? : vanilla or chocolate!

36. Whats your favourite colour/s? : blue, yellow

37. What is your least fav. thing in the world?: ahhah.err.. got to think..

38. How many wisdom teeth do you have? : none?

39. Are you in love with anyone? : not at the moment

40. How many people have a crush on you right now? : how i know... 4?5? ahhaa bhb liao

41. Who do you miss most right now? : my old coaches, friends for primary sc, and kc sec

42. Do you want everyone you send this to, to send it back? no need.. juz do can liao. =)

-negative, angry, paranoid, hopeless, lifeless, goaless, quit, mad, fuming, sick, hurt, broken, dashed, dead-
marian is going to hate bowling.. very soon. too soon. shocked? yes,very. i'm goaless.. hopeless... no hope no interest... losing all the grip, the fun, the happiness.. losin all that feeling. i hate trngs. totally. i miss old coaches. alot. so much, too much. cried. slashed dashed burnt. i type to relieve all the hate, anger bitterness.. never will i be a winner. negative thought running through. happy marian... give up. no consols or wadeva.pls. enough. dun be alarmed by this post, its juz a habit of crying it out. to myself, not to whom it may concern. cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry-end-dead end

hahhaha. i went to try out the lanes at pasir ris bowl on saturday night. it totally sucked. very very very dry. practically no oil. so i got a very very very high score of 118, 120 and 80... ahha.. power ar.. ahha *pukes immediately... i went wif shu... shu was gd... coz her ball is travel far then break sharply.. my one is big hook. ahahaa. soyar.. kind of worried that i wun make my sch proud on the 14th nov.. i think mr lim should really send shu neng... she much much better now.. better than me also.. very pro.. so ya.. today i went to sch for life sciences,,learnt lots of stuff... feeling damn stupid now.. coz like whole day long is juz computer... and mybe the guitar. and all the ten pins innocently looking at me... so ya.. today after that... went to pp.. then i went to buy the prefect's stuff.. wasted lotz of money k.. then went to meet my parents.. ahaha.. had a really horrible hair cut... i cut to have frindge...... totally horrible.. nat, and surina were the 1st 2 ppl who saw me.. haha.. it was trerrible. then melanie saw me.. *-------... so horrible.. so in the end after my guitar class and everything, mum brought me to my house downstairs to re-cut my hair.. so its like old-long friend.. so its free,,,,.. and now its better,,, i'm so not going to supercuts now.. ahha.. it totally sux after they hire alll those horrible cutters.. o well... gtg now/.. i've got friendster btw,, =)