Happy 10th Anniversay TPiranhas!

10 yrs and still growing stronger.

We are...
Ferocious
Committed
United
TPiranhas
WHOOSH.










Ifa's batch should have taken with us! well, i tried to sharpen the image and this is the best already. haha. seriously, my AF on my small camera is quite off already.



i guess somethings will never be the same again, as always.

Freedom Writers

go watch it. not like those v v interesting kind but i know that my eyes were on the screen whole time. coz it was really real, based on a true story. inspiring teacher and horrible husband. hahha.

service was kinda reflective and meditative. i realised myself thinking at the same prob, same issue over and over again. really amazed how God can tahan all my cries for a common plea.

i also found myself liking all but the starting 2-3 hymns. the hymns had beautiful lyrics and melodic tune. hey nigel! lets rock hymns up one day leh.. i'm waiting! :p

so anyways.. after the movie when out with mum. like recently... i feel (: to be with her. not that i'm not last time la. but like.. i think i'm starting to know how to treasure a person.
simply too many losses. too many.

Maundy Thurs

oh yes. b4 i continue, on the way to church on a bus, i saw the Golden Lining shot! hahaa. yea man. i was so excitied. but i couldn't shoot coz too many ppl blocking the mirror. i tell u, that feeling was like... oh man oh man. i could only appreciate the sky in teh bus, from afar. ahhah. horrible.


bowling was tough. was trying to change my release, timing, basically working on my foundation. haha. so far, gerrad, alvin and she-na changed from spinner to hook. ahha. can feel coach's sweat coming out. ahhhaa. (:

after that, had comm mtng. then went to saa for awhile. got some comments from uncle sam which troubled me. spoke to Khartini, this really nice SAA lady. she's like a big sis lars. was talking to Wilson my club advisor also abt this.

thus, i have no conclustion yet. i've yet to seek andrew and wilson for more consultation. haha. (btw, u've realised that i've many friends with the same name. hahah. so for clarification purposes, names used in this para are from tp and respectively.) i dunno if i consider myself to be troubled coz i'm trying to make the best out of my decision, hoping that it's inlined with God's plan for me in TP.

seriouslly. i want to, at the same time, i can feel obligated. its a confusing feeling in all. i'd still prefer my exco position back in kc. stressful, but more assured and trusted. yes.

ANYWAYs. rugby was cancelled last min AGAIN. ): twice in a row can! and both times i can make it lars! ): ): wante to run today, but then i decided to go for today's Service thhough.

so yes, i went for service. took photos. i duuno if its me or wad, the photos i took looks grainy as compared to a 300d on ISO 800. even if i'd push it down to 500, it still has the grainy thing on dark surface. as taking pics of ruizhi (the little girl at home) and i think i'm goona try to do a series kinda thing.

i feeel happy at home. as in like.. the baby makes my mum happy. and when i take photos of them n show the pics to my mum, she feels happy although she keeps saying 'if ur dad was around ar...'. to complete that sentence, if my dad was still around, i can imagine my nonsensical dad playing with her, making little chairs and table for her and all the little gadgets tt would benifit her- just like how he did to me. i duno man.

sometimes, it creeps me. yes, i've realised and accepted that daddy is not gg to be around anymore. but then, when ruizhi is happy and laughs for NO particular reason, i can feel my dad is playing with her. okok, minus the creepy part. but its just, _____. i cannot find the word. its like, smths i still live in denial, thinking that daddy is gonna come home from night shifts in the morng with breakfast from the old A&W / macdonalds and stuff. sometimes i feel that, i'll see him soon at home, just waiting for him to come back. okok. daddy, if u're reading this now, PLS DUN like, come back. coz it'll freak me out. thank u.

ookok. enough enough. i just wished that i was more at home and stop trying to give inputs to a society that doesn't appreciate.

hahha. speaking of which, most probably, i'll approach the SBS HQ tmr to give suggestions to how to signal to passengers waiting for the last bus that IT'LL NEVER COME. i mean its like, yea, some bus stop states wad time the last bus will arrive..eg.. 0027. pls, since when public transport will ever be so so accurate. one minute could mean 30 mins if the poor child waits for the bus that would nv come.
ok, maybe not tmr. will probably write up a formal proposal or smth to show that i'm serious. coz its this mentality that aiya kids, nv la.

hahah. alittle more abit this suggestion if u wish to read on..

at the bus stops, u see the bus signs telling u which services are avaliable..maybe. like it'll be lighted up after 630pm. how the lighting would be- would e similar to those lighted bus no. plates (yea. those kind of lighting). so once, the last bus arrives at the stop, the bus driver can like use a remote control to switch of the lights, indicating that the particular bus service is no longer avaliable for the night.

and for the morning... to indicated if the first bus has arrived, (i think for this its quite redundant though), timing would be abt 6am when the sun havent rise. so the bus driver can switch on the lights. by 7am, the sun has probably risen and thus, to same electricity all the lights can be off coz the services would confirmed be functioning. and then when it comes to 630pm, the island-wide bus stop lights would be auo switch on again.the lights could probably serve as another purpose for those myopic/astigmatic ppl like me who cannot see properly. hahha. ok.



BAH. i feel that my laptop is not calibrated. ok its not calibrated coz its not a MAC. argh. my photos looks underexposed... too much difference from my camera and from my desktop.

Iscariot

Iscariot
Song and Lyrics by: Daniel Lim



Lead me to the mountain Lord
Away from the city of sin
Let me see your wounded hands
And be purified again

Lead me to the river Lord
That flows from the wound at your side
Guilty i see the spear in my hand
Forgiveness is right where i fell

Iscariot
Leave your silver
Beloved Peter
Leave your tears
Come and join me in
The city on a hill
Lead me to that promise land
As i leave my hammer and nails

Lead me to the crimson tree
back on that fateful night
Let me be crucified with you
And smile as i live again


He's my pri sch friend. photo taken in June 2005 where he, nic and nigel came over to jam. hhaah. well, not exactly jam but just to share abt guit. really honour this guy for his passion and talent. ahha. he has confessed that he cant play the piano: practial grade 3 and theory like grade 6 or 8?.. ahaa. usually its the other way round. but yea, i miss the times hearing him sing and nigel and i would stand amazed. haha. dun stop strumming tt string daniel! hhhaah. (: i'm sure that this is the only blog in the world that's playing this song now. HAHA. (*if u'd notice u and i make a difference. ahhaa. word pun, word pun.) ahaha.


some more to share.. (: haha. i dun think i'll have the time when sch starts..





enjoy! ahhaa.oh yea, that's a mannequin. i wanna try fashion photography... i think its quite hot. ahhaha. but i cant get it right. ahhaha.

go http://akosphotography.com/ tian ar!! the photos are just superbly awesome cool and over the top lars....

the number 23

"Be sure that your sin will find you out"
- Numbers 32:23 -

ok. i watched the movie ytd. i found it.. quite round the bush. i liked the concept of the psycho path thing, but i find the who sequence of it really boring. haha. but i think the writer sure did have a fun time trying to figure out usual things to relate to the no. 23. like.. the fav. colour:

PINK = White + Red = 65 + 27 = 92 / 4 (since pink has 4 letters) = 23.

haha. then it talked abt his name adding up to pink, when he met his wife, got married.. like on 10/13 and 11/12... alot of nonsensicals stuff. ahha. 6= 2 x 3.. and why the no. 23? coz 2/3= 0.66666... which is the devils' no. ahhaha

so yea. i guess writer did have a gd time figuring out the plot and how to make sense of everything. hahaha. i wouldn't mind reading the bk. but not the movie though. hahaahhaa.

i had the time ytd coz there wasn' trng again. ahha. there's trng this thurs... there's e Maundy Thurs service gg on. ): coz i think i need to go for trng.
well.its tmr. and i've got LOTS of things to do suddenly coz schs opening.

hahahha. i have been procrastinating stilll. ): hahah. AND. Ballet Exam is in less than 2 wks. freak out. haha.

on the 9th april. there's so many things happening. grr too many.

quicksand

thank u for reading my blog for those who have stumbled acrossed this nearly 4 yr old thing. if u like read back, u'd realised how much i've changed. be it in person myself, my blogging style, my struggles and my life. haha. i must say its been the 'cliche-ish' roller-coaster 4 yrs. hahaha. b4 u think that i'm blogging as if the end of the yr is approaching, i just want to say that thank u all for being my friends who have travelled with me thus far. be it long lost friends or friends who left and haven been 'picked up' on.... well, thank u.


haha. today. i spent the whole day persuading myself to pack my room. *claps head suddenly!* crap. i jsut rmbred at my Project 365 today. argh. ok. looks like i've got to use one of the junk shots that i took of my room. argh.
anyways. yes.
i'm still in the midst of clearing up my room. its reall packed and bags are everywhere, books are everywhere. i only started packing at 8pm. how horrible.
and now that things are everywhere, i've gotta clear them up, hook or by crook, before i sleep. ahha. i've stumbled across some of my old notes and letters and nonsensical certs from someelse where.. it brings be quite a handful of memoraries as i struggle to tell myself to throw throw and throw. i've been too much of a junk collector.

today, i just found out that i've missed the dateline for the RJC photography competiton now. ): nvm. hmm. i just pray and hope that u'll get over urself and stop being so so... petty.

so today's monday.looks like my rugby trngs are gonna be on tuesday now. i'd prefer it to be on a monday though.

anyways.
i wouldn't say this is the toughest phase of my life so far, but i would say that i'm struggling with myself, more on the emotive parts of it. friendships come and go. opportunites come and missed. despite of all the tracks that i'm on, i'm still unable to erase u off my mind.

haha. seriously. last night, i had like millions of dreams. its those that u dream of everyday life, in every aspects. nothing big nor interestion abt it. its just like that until i woke up. u were in it, sadly. haha. i just hope u're not reading this now, haha. besides, i'm proably 80% sure that u wont bother to even read this chuck of my life. haha. (: but seriously... for months and months,.. it still stays. pls tell me u hate me or smth. at least it'll give it a try.

so. abt 4-5yrs since my heart was there. i just hope to pull it out b4 i drown, like quicksand.
the harder u try, the faster u fall.

choices

today is filled with many 'costing' ones. literally.

in the morng, i met up gab for the meeting. supposed to meet at 10. but by 1015, there were only like 5 of us. i somehow got v frustrated. as in like.. very.
so i decided to cab down to church for Palm Sunday. coz i never miss Palm Sunday. in pri sch, although i dun go to church every sunday, Palm sundays, Christmas, Easter are a must. thus, i ended up with a decision to go church.

took some shots in church. sermon was like a repetition. he said smth like that somewhere last yr.
carrot, egg and Olong tea leaves. (the previous one was coffee beans though)
all 3 after boiling in hotwater,
carrot: hard to soft
egg: soft to hard
tea leaves: gives fragrance.
i rmbr clearly that i knew that i was the coffee beans last time. and i was proud of myself for feeling that way.
today, i gave a thought to it, and was a little surprised to find myself not knowing of the answer. i was stucked between carrot and egg in some situations.

i guess really, i seemed to have lost confidence and strength in my given task. i try to be steadfast and efficient, providing ppl with trust and committment. but this time round, most of the times, i feel that i could have done better. no, its not at being ms perfectionist, but really, any tom dick or harry could provide a more splendid result.

anyways. i was concerned over at gab's side. he learnt alot abt the rules, procedures and wadeva nots and i wanted to be there after dance.
howver, i've promised my cell grp to be there with them. so i went for cell. clark quay was big. and i couldn't find time, resorting to repetitative callings to eve. all directions givien dun seem to do any gd. and infact, i was gg further from meeting them.
i was really super duper frustrated. pls. try walking round the river 3 times with ur equipment in the blazing humid sun and only to find urself lost from ur destination. i know i've gone through that 101k la. but this is different can.

anyways. i was really agitatied.. so so frustrated that i was on the verge of saying vulguarities. i ended up sitting my the side of the river and calming myself down and reflecting of my actions.
wads more ironic is that as i was talking over the phone, as frustrated and nonsensical i may be, i was still able to tell myself to be cool but still, it didn't really work and i guessed my tone over to eveleen proved it. i'm trully sorry eve. i dun think this is the 1st time. haha. but i'm glad u didn't cry or anything like that haha. :p


i finally meet them. had games at Settlers. was a nice place though. played many many board games and stuff...


i guess.. overall... today was.. erm. i dunno. my eyes felt heavy and i could feel my black eye bags coming out.. plus all that shooting makes my vision so blurr.

i must be slow to anger. seriouslyy. i duno what's gotten over me. haha. oh well. i'll be nicer and show patience from now.

sometimes it's just plain wierd, ironic, contridictary, you name it

its like looking that the glowing lamppost, stuck at the fork of the road.

u know that song Runaway by Linkin Park?

I wanna run away
Never say goodbye
I wanna know the truth
Instead of wondering why
I wanna know the answers
No more lies
I wanna shut the door
And open up my mind

actually i'm also not sure of myself. perhaps is just listless, lack of 'urgency', lack of the tie? HARS.
Do u really need a shadow to prove a sunshine?
pls'. cuff' me up man.
i just need the Word being so dear.

Life Concert

This is Melanie. AHHA. my ex class chairperson, and 4 yrs classmate and nonsensical friend and caught-in-e-act-of-eating-fried-rice-in-class back in sec2 during chinese lessson. ahhaa. i miss her loudness very loudness.


went Life Concert with glen... sara had to go for music prac in church. ahha.had a gd time. vocals were superb. musicians were as good. was just awesome. i couldn't feel God's presence in the jumpy songs only on the more meditative songs.

how many times have i broken Your heart
But still You forgive,
if only i ask

the speaker spoke abt Love, Self-worth and Significance, again.. i think i've heard this sharing at the Praise and Worship Session at the Suntec Convention Centre a few months ago.

b4 that, i went back to KC to support the bowling girls. its their last time they gonna bowl for Katong Convent. i guess they've fought their best. but i must say that i'm proud that they're able to pull the Bowling team hard in. haha.what's after the next batch is for God to decide and the girls to work extra harder if they want the bowling team to live on in KC.

anyways.. after Life Concert.. i took some photos using my ex-p700. i guess it feels lonely.. have been neglecting it though. hhahaha. its been a good 3 yrs using it. many ups and downs... lost here and there and all the repairs. ahha... but still.. can make me happy. (:

learn learning learnt

i slpt till 4pm today. haha. i was a little taken aback by the time that i saw on the clock. ahaha. and still, i felt sleepy! thats bad. had trng after that. trng today was gd, just that attendance was low. but i felt happy to wear my boots again. ahha.coz have been trng at astro turf and the last time at the field i wore shoes. dun like the feeling. haha. but i felt that theres simply too much thick grass on the field. haha. Marli was disappointed that we took 1 whole hour to 'perfect' 3 simple drills, 10 set each. ahha.


ytd at D&D, i've learnt quite a bit abt flash. haha. i nv liked using flash until i saw the results. hhaa. ok la. i had some shots.. but i really felt tired after that. ahah. was shooting with gab and suanyang and then we went Prata House to eat. i some how like the last shot alot. hhaha. i was supposed to bounce the flash upwards. but i kinda forgot coz i just shot at portrait. so it bounced to the left. haa. be the results is nice. HAHHA. like studio like that.

here's some photos.. (sorry its abit small. forgot to change the setting. click on it to enlarge if u wish. (: )

i sent in these 3 last night for the TNP photo competition. haha. i braved my tired eyes last night and did a few ps here and there coz the deadline is 29th march. they didn't state the time so i was a little worried. i cant rmbr wad i did though. haha. the categories are as follows: action, scenery and ppl.

i guess ppl should just stop being full of urself and start learning. from where i am, be it in bowling, rugby, photography and whatever not, i see many ppl with many talents and interest. but sometimes i feel that once u're 'there'.. u stop learning as much as u started out. not only that, one would complain how at a disadvantage one is and all.

back at it. ahhaha. its been a wk now, and i realise how petty/childish one maybe. age doesn't seem to correspond to maturity after all though. i was reading this sms u sent me a few months back coz i'm using my mum's old phone which i used during IMF and i was quite pleasantly surprised to recall the gd times we had. haha. after 4yrs in a girls sch, i've seen quite a few petty ones, but not as jialat as u. seriously. plus, u're not a girl. ahhhaha. yup.
i'm not here to bring anyone down coz i'll never do such horrible things like that, but to allow myself to say smth at ur consience.

i mean like, i'm not targeting anyone. but if lets say someone reads my blog, feels guilty all over- meaning that after i say smth, u think its u that i'm referring to and all... does that mean that i'm out to wrongly accuse my friend?

anyway. the wks are passin real quick and april is coming. april fools day wont be spent in sch where we can gang up and do smth foolish to our tchrs like wad we did back in KC. ahha. but anyways, i jsut hope to use the remaining of my wks to do gd for society and accomplish some of my short term goals for the year. HAHA. sounds too technical isn't it?

Dinner and Dance

TP's annual event. just came home and i'm v slpy. this morng went to support the KC bowling girls and had a chat in KC after that, followed by the event all the way. long sia. here are some photos.. i'm just goona post those that i'm proud of w/o any kind of photoshop, coz i'm v v tired...


ok. nvm. i'll just post 3. i'm gg to slp.

ahhah. ok. blogger seems to be having a prob. ok. nvm nite.

bah.

sometimes i feel that i'm out of focus.

i realise, after seeing some of the pics my fellow photogs post on deviant art, that i take very consumer pns kinda shots.
dun ask me how to define pns kinda shots.. but its like.. nothing spectacular. its not abt composition, lighting, nor the 'feel'. its like.. all my life i've been using a standard pns... close to 9yrs b4 i start to move into slr. and i dun mean like pns here occassionally and there. i shoot like wkly.. and if i'm free i really anyhow waste $$ coz it was film last time.

like for the HSBC walk. i realised that i was kinda struggling to produce a photo which had a idea behind it. i know how to compose on the spot. but because of this, i fail to think properly b4 i shoot. i think to simply out it... i'm like shooting jsut to rmbr the scence, the stuff here and there, loosing the essence of the power of photojournalism.

i guess i'll be working on this for quite awhile.


couldnt go for any rugby thing today. today was SAS against acsi. acsi won with 8-5 to penalty. its been a long while singsce SA lost. i hope that they'll make it for the finals.
as for trng. couldn't go too. heard they did the same drills and fitness.




something seems to be missing. and it near to a point of disturbance.

some photos to share...

101km Trail

Against Me

Lookout

i've travelled thus far.

ok. i've painstakingly blogged and then. some error had to appear. lucky i was like halfway. i'm just gg to post photos now. >:(

101km. HSBC.
from fri 630am till sat 2pm. went for trng on fri from 12-5pm. sat after that went for tap class. at night, bowled tournament. had 194, 172, 188. abt 184 avg. top female. but nothing.. coz overall with the guys, its a 14thi position, no handicap.
i felt like superwomam for a moment..
i thank God for the very very nice taxi driver who helped me carry my 3ball bag up and down the boot. coz if not, i'd have break my back. thank God for such a comforting saviour. hahaha.

basically, NYAA photgs have rendered our services in the name of Charity. this event is for the Pocket Money School Fund and the Physically Disabled. icant rmbr the name of the 2 org.. but these are the 2.

*captions are below for the respective photos.



the route



the walkers. top management of HSBC.



led by the CEO of HSBC.supposedly 21 of them, but i counted 22.


i actually did a seriess of this..


i drank 2 paxs at 1 shot. they had alot of stops like such. after awhile... there werent anymore MILO. but there's red bull!


hahah.


thats how i felt


really.


ambulance lurking by.


everywhere's pur home.


the video crew from HSBC.


good thing it was in the morning.


the first major rest stop and lunch break. haha. at old chua chu kang, cementry.


they had to emerge their legs into these. for 30sec to reduce muscle strain. could hear their squeals and witness their painful expressions.


well taken care of by SSC. i think i saw one of the physio for SA rugby.


leaving the Sungeh Buloh Nature Reserve.


i think the numbers decreased if i'm not wrong.


the dark threatening clouds. really threating. there wasn't shelther. i was with jianmin. ahha. and then it rained. and we RAN to the nearest shelther. this was taken at 6.30pm.


this photo is actually quite funny. coz i actually ATTEMPTED to take pics of lightning coz there was really quite alot. i ALMOST k. i missed it twice. first, i was abt to press (alreay half pressed) then i felt that my lens had water droplets. so i cleaned it. and then. it strucked. 2nd, i same case.. but this time.. jianmin alerted that the bus came. but was full. ): ): ):. aha. was like... oh man. haha. $1000 shot. HAHAHHA.


the heavy rain did not stop their course.


i somehow like this shot. the colours are nice.. like shadow around it. this was taken at Sembawang at 9.15pm. haha. we've walked with them from b4 marsiling.. it felt v long.


ahhaa. was playing with long exposure. this was the road marshall, Raymond. ahha. he's from SP bowling team. ahhaha. suprised to see him there. he recognised me. haha. i rmrb bowling with him during POL-ITE.

we're already at Seletar. saw alot of bikers. was took tired to take shots. the scenery was nice.. ahha. it was quite a long stretch of road though.


ahaha. this is meisy. haha. we're playing with the light sticks. we're at hougang sports hall. 2.45am.


this is probably my shot of the event. note that i didn't bring flash. if my pics are taken 'with flash' its because other photogs were shooting too. ahha. this pic is just lucky. there was 2 flashes b4 i let go of my shutter. according to andass, the 1st flash was his and the 2nd would probably be yuxin's. HAHHA. (: (: thanks.


they were rewarded with a video presentation by the staff of HSBC. really heart warming. hahaha. seeing businessman doing funnny thigns to spur their bosses on.. reminding them not to give up and all.


0620am.


morning sunrise at mcRitchie


tree top walk.


happy girls.


paradise


meisy. hhahah.


and again.


seriouslyy.


Welcom back HOME! it was really joyous.




Champagne! (:


it was really an experience. ahha.there were a few pronbs here and there, but although its really a long walk, its like blink of any eye and its over.
well done photographers. ahha. u've survived the night. ahah. Sam chin is pro. must be the army trng that he's been gg through. ahhaha. (:

well. the balls of my feet are still aching. hahaha. thank God i have today to rest. (: but i really want to thank God. first day, whole time was cloudy and coolin. besides the heavy rain in the evening, it was really cooling. the 2nd day, the sun came out. thats when the walkers realised that they're really blessed on the 1st day. but 2nd day was much shorter so it was easier.

it was really a mental thing for them. as for me, on a personal ground, it was photogrphy that pushed me on. although we did not cover the whole 101km, i guess we're proud of ourselves. ahhaha. (: