choices

today is filled with many 'costing' ones. literally.

in the morng, i met up gab for the meeting. supposed to meet at 10. but by 1015, there were only like 5 of us. i somehow got v frustrated. as in like.. very.
so i decided to cab down to church for Palm Sunday. coz i never miss Palm Sunday. in pri sch, although i dun go to church every sunday, Palm sundays, Christmas, Easter are a must. thus, i ended up with a decision to go church.

took some shots in church. sermon was like a repetition. he said smth like that somewhere last yr.
carrot, egg and Olong tea leaves. (the previous one was coffee beans though)
all 3 after boiling in hotwater,
carrot: hard to soft
egg: soft to hard
tea leaves: gives fragrance.
i rmbr clearly that i knew that i was the coffee beans last time. and i was proud of myself for feeling that way.
today, i gave a thought to it, and was a little surprised to find myself not knowing of the answer. i was stucked between carrot and egg in some situations.

i guess really, i seemed to have lost confidence and strength in my given task. i try to be steadfast and efficient, providing ppl with trust and committment. but this time round, most of the times, i feel that i could have done better. no, its not at being ms perfectionist, but really, any tom dick or harry could provide a more splendid result.

anyways. i was concerned over at gab's side. he learnt alot abt the rules, procedures and wadeva nots and i wanted to be there after dance.
howver, i've promised my cell grp to be there with them. so i went for cell. clark quay was big. and i couldn't find time, resorting to repetitative callings to eve. all directions givien dun seem to do any gd. and infact, i was gg further from meeting them.
i was really super duper frustrated. pls. try walking round the river 3 times with ur equipment in the blazing humid sun and only to find urself lost from ur destination. i know i've gone through that 101k la. but this is different can.

anyways. i was really agitatied.. so so frustrated that i was on the verge of saying vulguarities. i ended up sitting my the side of the river and calming myself down and reflecting of my actions.
wads more ironic is that as i was talking over the phone, as frustrated and nonsensical i may be, i was still able to tell myself to be cool but still, it didn't really work and i guessed my tone over to eveleen proved it. i'm trully sorry eve. i dun think this is the 1st time. haha. but i'm glad u didn't cry or anything like that haha. :p


i finally meet them. had games at Settlers. was a nice place though. played many many board games and stuff...


i guess.. overall... today was.. erm. i dunno. my eyes felt heavy and i could feel my black eye bags coming out.. plus all that shooting makes my vision so blurr.

i must be slow to anger. seriouslyy. i duno what's gotten over me. haha. oh well. i'll be nicer and show patience from now.