Happy Bday Sg!

i love this girl. she's super animated and joyful.



above: this is probably my best shot of the day with regards to the event itself. i've got another one of that girl! ahha. she really makes everything happier.


VC went and camped there at 11am. i met them after trng at around 3. it was super crowded with unreasonable ppl. within our 30-40m radius, were alot of non singaporeans.. mainly workers from China and Blangadash and a handful of Singaporeans.




all i can say is that singaporeans are really not understanding ppl.
fireworks are in the sky right. and the human eye allows us to see it with stereoscope (is this the word we learnt in sec 4 bio?) view. and the camea, being fixed, is at a disadvantage. even with the tripod, the camera has to be somewhat infront. and since we're there first, stop asking us to move just because u want to get 'a gd view of the fireworks'. as photographers, we would really appreiciate if u guys perhaps, let us simply take photos.
i almost gave up and went home coz there weren't space to take any shots. but, everywhere was too conjested and blocked. i cannot make my way out either. so i decided to just stay and see wad i can do.
in the end, i manage to squeeze in between my vc photogs and shoot kneeling down at the waterfront. my knees hurt. u should have seen how much space i had. i felt that i was perfoming some nkf act of squeezing in a small space.

and u see this photo below?


angsted me sia. i was sitting beside my tripod. i couldn't find a place to mount yet so i just left it there to sort of give indication that that place is taken up. u can call it 'chope' or wadeva, but i really wanted my shots of fireworks. that's all. and throughout, this guy was like touching my tripod, feeling it here and there and i was just tooo irritated to do anything but watched him in irritation. i looked at him and shot a pic of him while he looked at me.
in the end, i just took my tripod and retract it and kept it in my bag. heck it. didn't want to shoot anymroe.

so yes. the fireworks. the moment.



the fireworks are ... well. tooo smoky. this one of the 3 nice non smoky shots. they really used low quality fireworks. and it was really.. wasted. so far, this is the 3rd slr fireworks shooting. and this is the more smoky one, with 3 black blotches in it... see photo below.



so after the event, the army guy bump into us. he took a grp photo of us. ahha-to be in the army news. wad the~. and he kinda interviewed us. i took the opportunity to give constuctive critisicms. he asked abt the fireworks. i said it sucked. ahah. he was like... stunned. ahha. so i told him... its really v nice. but such a wasted effort coz it was blocked by black smoke. by right, some really quality fireworks dun produce black smoke. to add on, there wasn't any wind or anything. so the smoke just clogged up there. and perhaps, like wad they did during imf... the gave a v short allowance for the smoke to clear b4 firing the next blast. so yes. pls NOTE.
also. i think crowd control can be improved.
we also suggested to put a big screen on the water next yr so that those who dun have the tickets can view the event. but it must be collapseable or smth. if not block the view of fireworks.


but this yr, i'm really impressed by the SAF. really in awe to see fighter planes and speedboats aroud. those vehicles could break and change direction so efficiently! it was well demostrated, just that our lens kenna the salt water. ahaha.
will post shots up if i've got the time. ahha.

so yes. eventful experience huh.



ok. so this mrng trng. was like. huh. was trying real hard to apply wad i learn ytd. but i think i over did it. and....



awesomes right. tmr for FAOM papper.. i really duno how to write la. THANK GOD its not like essays or smth. pray that it'll be healed by sat1pm. its the evaluation again. its my 2nd last chance to redeem myself.

mind over body.
mind over body.
mind over body.

changes

i swam this morng! so glad. swam with joelle. its like.... 3 months or so since i hit the pool. somehow or rather, my timing consistantly became fast. i have a feeling that its the pool size. i went to Tampines Swimming complex.. i think its diff from TP's pool.. TP's one is competition... i dun this tamp complex is.
anyway. i swam 20 laps and my arms are all aching now. hahha. i felt that i shouldn't go futher coz i had trng today.

i think swimming really strengthens back. my back feels suan now. but if feels that tmr will be better kinda thing. ahha. (:


after that. studied in the library.
had a power nap b4 that.

i recieved a phone call.
(haha. i realised that at this age, reciving phone calls are getting more and more exciting and extreme.)
ms suelou called.
our grp was asked to present our mr and cb project in 10mins during Celebration of Learning. haha. i think i felt happy. its like.. whoas. after all the hardwork and our grp got chosen lars. (: (: thousand smiles pls.
and somemore. b4 that.. joelle estee and i were like somehow talking abt celebration of learning... and like.. confirm got other grps that are better than us. whoas.


anyway.
trng today was like massive changes.
note the changes...
- i changed my toolbox! haha
- timing again
- footwork.
- ******release
- tape insertion.

my tape was wrongly placed for like 4-5 yrs pls. ahhaha. shall go seek uncle ronnie and confront him. AHHA. then i also added tape.
today i had to focus on so many things. was bowling with shena- 2 lanes. so like.. one person one. i almost died. coz there's one time she was talking to coach.. sia la. i bowl and bowl and bowl on alternate lanes.
then towards e end of trng, coach changed my release. objective to create more rev. now, i've to more decent revs now. but lofting. and pulling. and not balance.
so yea.
tmr mrng trng. hoho. hope my skin doesn't tear further.


hahaha.
yes.
and amidst all these, i still have to bear in mind that theere's a test on friday and project submission on mon.

and i'm shooting fireworks tmr!! (: (:

CB; all clear.

found this photo at gab's gallary. haha.
i miss them.




today's paper. i could have done better.ok. i studied too hard of everything rather than studying smart n spot q since the format is 4 essays. i felt myself deliberating if i should use my project's statistics or not. it was wierd.
haha. the 5 dimensions of brand personality are s e c s r, which is respectively sincerity excitement competance sophistication ruggeredness. and i happily wrote speciality, expressive(emotive) competance social status and ruggeredness.*faints.

and for q1, i contradicted myself. i was supposedly to put high purchase involvement.. and gave more elaboration and examples. at the last moment, i realised that we found out a contridiction in the PBL project. so i just the overrated word- However. and continued blabbing. ahha. so the whole questions was just substantial contridiction. haha.
right. i really duno how is she goona mark that.


nvm.


again. had ballet today. point work is killer. blisters are erupting. rach and i are like in pain la. haha. class was so funny today.

anyway. got home and watch the history of sg again. i thought a few things... Mr. LKY said that the seperation from Malaysia "was a moment of anguish and guilt". he was so emotional. i was like touched by his love towards his ppl and nation. he did it the best for the country. ahha. however, i felt that the events Singapore went through was actually long term goals.

ok. let's work backwards.
maybe, in order to gain independence, Sg has to have some form of power and stability. remainining in the British colony isn't goona help Sg progress and work towards that goal. thus, a way is to merge with Malaya to gain 'more power'. and by doing so, several t&c had to be agreed upon. although it seems that we're much of at a disadvantage in terms of the agreements, i think it was a minimal price to pay.
after much unrest in the country, the only way was to break away and be indepedent. so yes. tadah. thats' how we are.
probably, it was just tyco. but yea. mr. LYK is a steady guy. he thinks far and is very.. wise. i guess w/o him, we'll stil be under the British colony.

MR; case closed.

Done.
test was just confusing. alot of application and PBL format.
i think i did fairly ok.
lets wait for Celebration of Learning.

now,
worry for tmr's CB. another of the PBL thing.
i dont worry about tmr,
i just live from day to day.

i dun worry over the future
every golden steps i climb"

haha. its a hymn. nice song.. and it continues...

"many things about tmr,
i dun seem to understand...
but i know who holds tmr,
and i know, who holds my hand"




this yr. national day seems alittle more special to me. now technically equipped with more marketing skills, i tend to note more of the media. haha. Discovery channel also shows Singapore stuff. so far, i've watched Hiroshima, and the History of Singapore. what i've learnt respectively;

1) Nagasaki was actually their tertiary. their secondary target was actually Kokura, and Hiroshima being their successful target.

2) William Farquer, aka. Raffles' friend was really a let down when tasked to take care of the young growing Temasek when Raffles was summoned back to his council. Raffles is really like a father, raising a child up, repremanding Willam F. for his negligance and poor upbringing.


super cool. along with that i learnt alot more. ahha. i was sharing with haoming abt the nuclear bomb, being able to vapourize ppl within close range coz it was like 4000 deg pls. ppl who could somehow manage to survive the blast had to face the post-nuclear widespread illness, due to swallowing radio-active contamined rainwater and large exposure to radiation. the white blood cells simply dies and then the body is not immune to bacterial infection. so hair starts to loss and ppl literally rot to death. its really freaky the way Discovery channel puts in acrosss. ppl where aimlessly walking in all directions. then they interviewed this doc who was in the mountain.. he witness the blast and he covered his eyes from the super bright flash. after that, he saw that mushroom cloud. and within a few secs, he literally saw the shockwave coming towards him and he was thrown off everywhere. and he was like several kilos away.
basically, no where to run. so haoming was like.. the best thing to do is to run towards the blast.haha. i was like.. why? oh yea, u die instantaneously. rather than living on hell literally.

oh yea. and u know the 2nd bomb, fat man, that landed on nagasaki was actually more brutal than little boy who caused more damanges. fat man destructed more than 2 square miles of the city. this contridiction in relations was because nagasaki was filled with ppl and on a bustling morning. the weather plane was mistaken for an air raid and the raid was called off. and soon after, the bomb laned.

nonetheless, Discovery portrayed the Japanese' strength, will and determination. many were trained to be suicide bombers- to go under tanks and plant bombs. *salutes to the war soldiers and civilians of Japan.


ok. i should really get gg with CB for now.haha.
today, there was tutorial at 12pm. 12.02 i was alone in the lab. then haoming came at 1205. then no class, no tchr. so wanted to call the tchr at 1210 when she came in. haha. then later, at 1215, lorraine came, followed by hakim. and michelle was 45mins late. haha.
so yes, the 5 of us, had tutorial. record attendance. 5/24. haha. model student sia. ahha. (:

tsk tsk.

dislike crowds.


ok. firstly, i had a gd slp till 12pm today. really happy to slp till late.
then it was the evaluation. again, i bowled like cow. during trng, can bowl. when it comes to competitions/games, my mental really not there.
really disaapointed in myself and let the opportunity to bowl well go, once again.

for collegiate, i really need to bowl more better games to secure my place in masters. i need like 180 avg for all games; cannot afford any 170 and beloww anymore.
i want to bowl at tampines!!!! i need those games badly. *hear my cries. ahha.
oh well. i'm bowling at yishun, and i hope it all goes well.
i miss donald and his presence. really.
i really wannt him to just bowl alongside again.




then. vincent sent me to kallang for FOP. and i tried to queue. and realised that it wasn't moving. so i decied to call jasmine.
right.
so anyways, i tried all gates to enter the indoor stadium, hoping that the security personals would understand my plight, but to no avail.
heck it.
i felt so rejected coz all the personalls told me to queue. its not that i'm a typical singaporean who doesn't adhere to security rules. the thing is that all my church friends are inside, having a seat for me. but they just refuse to let me in.

i asked one of the usher at the back of the queue why aren't they letting this whole big bunch (of abt 400-500?) ppl waiting outside in. he said that inside is full and unless anyone gets out (like as if anyone of that amt would), he'll let the respective ppl in.
right. so it was already 745pm.
while walking back to where i came from, i told those usher that's guarding the doors my plight and if they could just let me in. haha. so when i met the last guy, i was like feeling so sian already so i really wallow myself in self-pity, making him feel freakin guilty by saying....."alright. since that's the case, i'll guess i'll just go home. no point waiting fot doors that will not open". i didn't say that in a v harsh tone- but in a very ampathetic tone.. he looked at me while i retreated to my journey back home.


i really felt sad and rejected for some reason. haha. i was msging one of my closer friend and he asked if i'm alright over sms. i almost teared on the way home pls. on the bus, i could not believe that i was actually on the bus on the way home.

ok. to explain why such a big letdown could occur; i really want to go badly. not so much for the excitment or big bands, but i just really want to experience God's presence again. its not that i cant experience it elsewhere like in church or anything. like wad uncle vinc always say abt the 'worship team' should be renamed as 'worship facilitators'- FOP's facillitation of God's presence is simply too awesome and renewing.
and i needed that.i just wanted awesome time with the One who's been guiding me throughout this crazy project month and all.

but. heck it.
haha. maybe i'm not the elected one. (haha. quoted from the predestination talk in church ytd.)
well.
i consoled myself that i could go home earlier, for once in 3 wks, i was able to be home by 9pm. and i had dinner downstairs with my mum and sis.

heck it la.

anyway, meet my twin. 20sep literally. haha. we decied to take a pic because we realised that we've got the same hairstyle and parting. hahaha.
pls take note, we agreed that we look weird in the pic. haha. initially, i just wanted to post tthis photo up... but..




he says this is nicer. ahahhaa.


so yes.
smth to be happy abt for today.









i must trainer hard.
both inside out.

done.

CORE PROJECTS OFFICIALLY CLEARED.

now left with endsem tests, CDS projects and presentations.
(:


*yawns.


predestination tsk tsk.

align

today's trng.
ok la. started out ok. in the middle, tiredness got over me and i let my focus go.
my games are really drastic. i can throw gutter ball on the 5th frame and opening 3 frames b4 that nad still get a 140. and b4 that game, i had a 180.
its like. huh.

i realised that my mind really controls too much of my shots. even coach told me "u've planned ur game and on the approach, dun think. just do".

things to note:
- alignment with line
- timing
- no carrying ball and nice followthrough.

still trying out ways to start ball. also learnt more abt e ball tracking also.


ahha.
it seems that i'm back to the marian-and-her-all-bowling-post again.
POL-ITE is TENTATIVEly on the 24th nov. pls pray megaly. as i've mentioned, my flight is on the 25th nov; 2wks gone. and then, the next day i'm back, its the midsem test wk. yea. like freak out. polite was initially on e 1st nov. and still subject to changes. yes. pray pls.


yes. prayer. i believe in God's power really.

get it.

had my first proper bowling trng for the season.
i think did well today. coach changed our timing..."ta ta ti ti ta" ahaha. instead of "ta ta ta ta ta". ahha. those are just illustrations.
anyways.
i bowled a 200 game with 7 strikes in it... today. finally. after so many trying games. had 2 splits in that game. beeen so long since i felt those kind of shots.
for me, my prob is really timinga n weight placement.
i am excitied for this journey. i'm quite sure that gloomy days will falll soon.


this morng, i went for law lect. like 12 ppl in lect pls. law of tort. i think i learnt quite abit. (:
haha. after sch, estee joelle and i were eating and chilling at mensa. joelle left for crusade.. and estee and i were like talking and talking... and we got our excitied points and our volumes naturally increased. ahha.


yea..well. walking on the straight path is nv easy. and nv going to be easy.

anyway.


i would like to thank those who appreicates my works published here and all.
(: great to be able to talk to you today! (: (:

Voice of Truth

Voice Of Truth Lyrics
Artist:Casting Crowns

Oh,what I would do
To have the kind of faith it takes
To climb out of this boat I'm in
Onto the crashing waves
To step out of my comfort zone
Into the realm of the unknown
Where Jesus is,
And he's holding out his hand

But the waves are calling out my name
and they laugh at me
Reminding me of all the times
I've tried before and failed
The waves they keep on telling me
time and time again
"Boy, you'll never win,
you'll never win."

But the voice of truth tells me a different story
the voice of truth says "do not be afraid!"
and the voice of truth says "this is for my glory"
Out of all the voices calling out to me
I will choose to listen and believe the voice of truth

Oh, what I would do
to have the kind of strength it takes
To stand before a giant
with just a sling and a stone
Surrounded by the sound
of a thousand warriors
shaking in their armor
Wishing they'd have had the strength to stand

But the giant's calling out
my name and he laughs at me
Reminding me of all the times
I've tried before and failed
The giant keeps on telling me
time and time again
"Boy you'll never win,
you'll never win."

But the voice of truth tells me a different story
the voice of truth says "do not be afraid!"
and the voice of truth says "this is for my glory"
Out of all the voices calling out to me
I will choose to listen and believe the voice of truth

but the stone was just the right size
to put the giant on the ground
and the waves they don't seem so high
from on top of them looking down
i will soar with the wings of eagles
when i stop and listen to the sound of Jesus
singing over me

But the voice of truth tells me a different story
The voice of truth says do not be afraid
And the voice of truth says this is for my glory
Out of all the voices calling out to me (calling out to me)
I will choose to listen and believe (I will choose to listen and believe)
I will choose to listen and believe the voice of truth

I will listen and believe
I will listen and believe the voice of truth
I will listen and believe
'Causes Jesus you are the voice of truth
And I will listen to you...





meet my mr and cb grp; cohesive and dynamic. noted.*ticks.



MR and CB is CLEARED. hoho. left with faom, law and ps.
had mission trng just now. my ticket is confirmed. full trip; missing 2 full wks of sch. pray. i need to be still. God is trying to speak to me but i'm always not fully focused.

my back mega ached today. got off the bed with my thighs feeling wierd and jellyish. calves felt like as if it was being pulled. haha. its not that i did any straneous activity the day before.. happy that i made it to sch. hakim helped me message my shoulders and felt better..

i just want to thank God for today. although time is not on our side, there is a time for everything.

sportspoon

yea. my new link. coz underscores are giving too much probs. i have yet to re-do the whole template. quite sick of it. probably its been a good 3yrs with the black template.


anyway. today i spent the whole day doing the MR ppt slides. i accomplished such a feat at 1033 in sch, alone can. ahha. super nice. the wind was nice. and the sch was at peace. (:

and for access test, i spend too much time insiting that the total rental cost is caluculated by 'sum', which was actually supposed to be * . i wasted 20mins. so i didn't have time to finish the report. i think i did well. but i couldn't get full marks. 13.5/15. so much for a perfectionist. ahha. puii la. if only we had more time. ): ):


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next wk is END SEM TEST.
and this wk is supposed to be revision wk.
thank God that rugby will continue in sept. bit sad but.. yea. need the time to rest and complete unfinished task. reallly alot of things to do. but i thank God. He really has His plans for all of us. really.

nice weather

after church, went back to slp..

and it was 830. ate dinner and then sort files till now.
that's my day.

well, at least i got to REST.
i dun think i've 'recoverd' today. haha. but gd to see church friends today! (:

2-3 more wks of chionging.

transformers

i finally get to watch it after many days of searching for time!




with my cousins. kinda our 'last gathering' b4 shaun leaves... ):
its kinda like... whoa to see all of us grow up. really. and we're in a way, still e same.



morng was SMU doubles. i pulled sam down. i really couldnt' get the line... on and off. and then, my lanes had 6 bowlers. v disappointed with myself.


anyways. for some reason.. my back really hurt alot today and my thigh muscles are getting very painful. haiz. keep prayin. (:

but i thank God for a whee bit of social life today. (:

CHAMPIONS.

ok. first things first.
CORE PROJECTS ARE CLEARED. *cheers wildly.
was like.. PHEW man.. after submitting FAOM report.

5 days of being late.
late for projects, late of meetings, late lunches. (click on joelle's blog of more insights to our lifestyle). haha.
more nonsense. and more sleepless nights. *camp outside lt19 starts at 9am-10pm. 5d0n. everyday... gg to sch is like the feeling of gg back to camp.
i guess through this whole experience, 2M02 really grew as a class and learnt more abt each other. by far, there isn't any major grp conflicts and i'm really thankful that its only by God's grace that we're able to work well despite our differences.
hiccups here and there.. but... heck it! AHHA. we've put in wadeva we could. so let's just hope and pray for distinctions.

today.
was the match. POL-ITE 07/08- final match.
Tpiranhas defended the title yet again.
i'm in awe at coach's talent and skills. i think she's one of the best coaches around in my heart.












POL-ITE 0708 final match

(only random 50 shots can be previewed i think)
the link for full album.

*to preview the full view of the photo, or to save the image, just click on the image that you want while viewing the slideshow. (a new window will open)



gotta rest. tmr's SMU doubles.
oh yes. thank God. the website's standings are not uptodate... thus.. I'm currently 9th!! (: (: hopefully i'll improve. coz many of the stronger bowlers havent bowled 9 games to reach masters qualifiers. keep praying.

yes. and pray for the 22 south korean hostages.
joelle and i are a little disturbed by the news. keep praying for them and their family members.

zoink.

whole day feeling exhausted.
cds.


but i wannt to THANK GOD. coz presentation is randomly. i'm no. 17. so i was praying hard... i was praying the night b4, in the morng and on the way to class.. coz i didin't prepare anything. so she was like.. "ok.. randomly.. 1.. 3.. 5.. 7.. 9.. 11.. 13.. 15.. (heart pumps)... 18.. 21.. 22..." i was like OVERJOYED with a huge sense of relief. i shouted THANK GOD SIA. and ppl around me was like.. chill man.


seriously.
was telling estee and joelle abt it.
and also was looking back. its really all in God's plan.really.
- sacrificed ps presentation, law project just for MR. and ended up having HEING situations..
- woke up late and failed to attempt to bang on SGH's doors at 8am. and after that, the nurse told me that they open at 2pm...



so tired!

had collegiate league today.
i bowled like crap la. 15 15 13. cow can. not to give excuses, but towards e end of 2nd game, my back was aching, my legs were shaking. i was feeling so drained.
now i'm 8 positions away from masters. super sad can. i really want to make it again this time round. its not that i cant. but i'm just too distracted and wasted my chances.



anyway. today tp played with rp. 0-0.
i'm sure they'll get it back.


last lap 2M02.
i guess tonight's the last night in sch. tmr is the final core submission. not to mention other cds and presentation. but yea. press on.

press on.

wad i've been up to.

it seems like we've camped over outside lt19. near the vending machines and toilet. somehow, i just feel that 2M02 is a special class. God has His purpose for putting me inside.

CB and MR is DONE.
a huge relieve can. after e 5pm submission... we're like.. PHEW.
didn't have the mood to do anything. played orisinal although theres e 5mins public speaking presentation with slides TMR. ant i havent done anything YET. there's also individual law consultation... but i havent found any articles yet.
so i guess its another late night again.

so here's my time table.
9am- sch (but always wakes up late)
10am- project
10pm-home
11pm- dinner
1130pm-project
5/6am- slp
845am- wake up
9am- sch.
and it goes on and on.

so far, thank God for my CB and MR grp, estee, joelle, tiff, royston, and ben.
i guess we're really a strong and cohesive grp. we're really an objective grp.
i feel that our analysis have shown depth.
no matter wad are the results, HECK IT. coz we've put in wad eva we could given that time frame.

haha. we've really grown closer and learnt alot from each other differences, coming out with stupid-nonsensical phrases.. one of which... "JC Students are.... LOSERS!" (with a tune behind it). no offence to jc students, but survey results showed that 55.7% of the jc students' parents decides on their Mobile service provider. v diff from poly students who decides by themselves. yea.


ok.

i've still got
- ps presentation
- FAOM report
- access test
- MR presemtation
- FAOM presentation
- END SEM TESTS!!
- MBS exams.


yea. in poly, we speak acronyms.

one of the typical kinda of conversation in poly.. "hey, today's mbs lect's at lt23... rmt students doin the same MR as us..lets go eat at ITAS."



ok. thank God for today's CB presentation. we had a little prayer b4 that within our grp.. i just hope that it'll reach out to those who have yet to hear of the gospel.



becoz of today's crazy proj dues, couldn't help SC with ilive. plus... i miss my appt for my back at sgh. ): pushed till sept 12. by then, i think i'll be like dead or smth. haiz.

projects

eat.breathe.sleep.projects.

i dreamt tt we're finding a place at business sch's lecture threatre area to do projects, eventually resorting to cutting down the pillar tt blocked our way.

press on,marian. press on.






*copied from Hakim's blog.
30-page report for Marketing Research + Presentation
20-page report for Consumer Behaviour + Presentation+ 2 Individual Journals
15-page report for Financial Aspects of Marketing + Presentation+ 2 Individual Journals
1 database for Managing Business Systems + Presentation


does this explain it all? PBL, yes indeed.

rested.

6am. muzino run.
i was late and felt very weak. reached there at 745am.

anyways.. the whole organization of it was bad. so so bad. i think those experience and competitive runners were annoyed, irritated and frustrated.
no signages, no obvious finishing pt. everyone was crowded everywhere. marshalls were not there, confusion of route, and, the 2nd wave only had an interval of 10mins?!! and then, the waterpt totally sucked. 2 persons there handling out bottles of water. who would drink bottles of water during a run? the cups were there, not used. baggae collection was totally irrespectful and irresponsible.
it was all just so horrible.
the top few runners didn't know where to end the race, there was not clear demarkation of the Finish/Ending point. some even fell down coz the 5k runners were obstucting their way and lost their momentum. to fall after 10k, its just annoying.

met this guy called ronald who sent a team from ns. we're talking abt how bad the organisation of the whole thing was. he asked me to join the ns as a fitness intrustor. i was like wad?! ahhaha. then i told him i want to join the scdf to fight fire. ahhah. he was like... ok. haha, and realised abt the height and weight requirements. i'll consider la.. but most probly no.. ahha.
he's quite an insightful guy and alot of his guys respected him.
for some reason, my leg muscles were really tight today. it literally felt like blocks of wood attached to ur limbs.
after the whole event, got inspired to train my fitness, and more imptly, make sure that the back of mine doesnt get in the way.


i was slping most of the time. even on the way home, i wore my sunglasses so i could close my eyes while walking the familiar stretch of road home. how awesome.
went home, slept.
woke up at 6pm for the meeting.


came home, ate dinner and watched tv. so happy to be able to rest today.
nonetheless.projects are still at stake. but rest it more impt so as to produce more effective and efficiently.


next wk is gg to be killer. yes. x2 pls.

i miss a day of street shooting. the food and the fun.
that's random.




conclusion. guys are egoestic. that's in general- and its getting on my nerves at times. cant they grow up and start thinking for the whole?

ymca

'youth in touch'

8am-4pm.
i just want to make it brief. coz i have to be in sch by 6am. *screams.

i think it was really wasted chance. we were leading until e last 2 games. we managed to get 3rd from the table i guess. then proceed to semi finals.
against NJC.
primarily rounds, we beat them 1-0. and them, the semis, lost, many-0. very frustrating. no focus in the game pls.. we really could have walked away with a medal in a bag. and i think it'll be a huge achievement considering that its e y1s' 1st tournament..

i really duno but, as disappointed as i may be with them for not having sense of urgency during play or even durign trngs, i think i'm proud of them. just 4 trngs and they're able to play like that.. its realy awesome. this batch learns fast. the just gotta keep that composure, have more urgency pls, and focus. they'll get there faster than expected.

overall, other teams were also fresh teams with new players... so its more or less fair although some teams, like us, had seniors inside la. not that we're gd or wad, but its just more experienced.
anyways. i think today my attitude towards my teammates sucked. i kinda spruted neg words off the field as i couldn't tolerated their slaggish behaviour. yea.. its the rain.. but everyone's in it. i really felt tired shouting... not much so of physically tired. i improved on defence, but must work on my runs. my speed seems to be decreasing. everyone can see that. its not that i'm not running.. but its like.. i just can't go forward as fast as i thought i could be. i'm really afraid its due to my back injury. ): mega sad pls.

but all in all. i'm glad to have played alongside with these freshies. makes me want to step out more. i shall not elaborate on that.


i'm tired. really. 14days gg to TP straight.
projects can kill me.

CB was a total letdown and disater. we had a strong and cohesive grp. and really, through this project, i though us the essence of teamwork. so wad it the whole team is on fire...it only takes one person to ruin everything. thats teamwork. 1 die, all die. (minusing marks la). we really finished earlier than expected.

nvm. move on.

2 wks of crazy submissions to go.
and then, mid sem test.
):

tired. really. haven't slpet for more than 3hrs for the last 4 days.
only God's strength will allow me to walk it through.

dead.lines.

lion red carnival. ignore the boys behind.
we played well for the last match. (:
Saints alumni was there. ahha. 3 of my church uncles played too! but in the men's cate. ahhaha. super funny. they offered my team a tumbler of green coloured drinks and stuff.. really nice la. haha. was looking at their game.. v structured. though they kinda at a disadvantage because of their age, their game play really helped them.


randomly.
i think today, the focus grp tt our grp conducted was pro.


happy belated bday gland. (:





i'mm in the midst of all the projects and project deadlines. its really alot. i feel motivated to do well and go all out to get an A. i'm ok. (: i'm just bz to blog. i guess donald's departure is another test to be stronger. its not that his departure is like the removal of a huge pillar.. its just that... things are different. no more quackquak msgs. no more calling me frantically to bowl on thurs. and! no more gg home bowling partner.
on the way home, i had some time to pause and reflect abt my hectic wk. its starting to sink in that i've lost a friend. haha. yes.. that jet-laggged effect. its just.... so wierd. empty is not really a word to describe it. its just... wierd and like a blank microsoft word page.

many things have happened during the wk.
many joyous occasions, hectic moments and weary times.
its like a mutiple choice test. so many choices.
gland's bday, and the lion's red red carnival. combined cell mtng. bowling meeting. sc meeting. project meetings. deadlines. donald's departure. worship wrkshop. all within 5 days.
get it by saying mixed feelings?
and in the midst, we're trng for 'ymca youth in touch' carnival on sat. freshies are excited. jnrs and snrs want to do well.
so yes. haha.
how's that for 5 days? and more days to come?


thank God for everythiing.
trust no one, but Him.

e last night.

haiz. 2days. tmr's his cremation at mundai. i've got to play a match tmr.
even his condition was on today's xing min bao.


today nic went.
so was recalling abt donald's last few moments with me.

i rmbr on the v last visit where he was still consicous.
then i was telling him to treat this whole journey on the way to a perfect game...

me: eh, just treat this as a perfect game ok!
him: ok.. can..
me: ok. so u're now on the 3rd frame. make sure on the next visit.. u'll be at the 5th k!
him: ok la.. but the lane oily....
me: yea la.. u and ur excuses. only u would have flooded by patchy lanes
him: (recalls the times at collegiate and laughs) *starts singing..."oooonnlllyyy uuuu... can make.... "

and he went on and on the chorus. till he hit the high note. laughed, and continued till e end. it really felt wierd. it took him quite alot of energy.
at that time, he was in ICA ward after his op. so only 2 visitors allowed. angeline and shena came b4 me. so they went in together. i went in alone. thus, we could really say wadeva we wanted to say.
until his cousin (i think) came. that was when he was ending the song. i was telling him the glass could break at time and all the machines will be disfunctional.

i think i was abt 15-20mins into the conversation. i told him i had to leave coz a whole bunch of "his fans" were waiting outside. he tried harder to hold my hand even tighter and i really could feel that he wanted me to stay. but i just had to let go.
so we ended off with a joke..

me: perfect 300 ar!
him: yea.. with my new bowling balls stll at uncle walter's.

he looked at me as i walked out of the ICA.


at those moments of time, i was of full hope that he would walk out of the hospital at the max, 3mnths time. we all thought at he could still continue the fight at e collegiate league.


so basically, that call made all hopes crashed into the concrete ground.


i gues the pic above would tell alot. nic pushing him to me during a pic at victors.
that v day at victors. haha. i'll never forget the games u played. with the nonsense boys. although everything waas made so awkwardly, i wouldn't mind it to happen once again with u around.


i thank God that even as our relationship is as such, with all the suaning and all, we're able to communicate so freely as friends. i've always treat u as my bro and u would joke reluctantly that i'm ur little sis. i'll always rmbr u as such.

thank u donald, for making my whole journey in tp bowling by far a memorable one.
w/o u around,
w/o a gg home partner,
things will never be the same in the team.
i'll miss u terribly in times of need in this team. i just hope all things will get better. and on behalf of him, i'd like to thank those that have apologised to him if u've treated him unfairly or anything as such. i'd also like to pray that for those who have not gotten a chance u just say sorry to him, just reflect on ur actions.

thanks for everything.

Donald

thank u for being part of my life.
thank u for sharing cab fare with me.
thank u for being my gg-home partner.
thank u for the countless wierd lines u gave me. eg. 5-6.
thank u for just being there.
thank u for managing team2.
thank u for being donald duck.
thank u for being the QM.
thank u for being a team mate.
and thank u for being my friend.

i'll nv ever forget a friend like u. haha. esp how we stupidly 1st met at the alley when we're in sec schs. i think when i was in sec 3, still in KC, and u're in Bedok View.

u've been a gd QM to the team. even though sometimes the team bully u coz u're the QM, u never fail to press on. thank u for sharing the times u've sturggled with me. thank u for sharing the times u felt stupid with me.

the last time we spent time together, b4 this whole thing happened, was during my first collegiate game for this season at Hougang. u wanted to acc me to take a bus ride home coz u told me u wanted to spend more time with me. thank u for being so direct la. we ended up sharing a cab with yong sherng.
after ys alighted, i really appreciate u for sharing ur struggles in the team with me. when i reached home, i was really shocked that u didn't continued the cab ride home, but instead, u alighted at my house and went home from there. and for that, i'll NEVER forget that donald nah owes me $5.
thus, u're always a special friend.

the times at esplande with the gang. thank u for the understanding and tolerance. i knew u were tryin hard to hold back the things u wanted to say to me. i really understand that. i honour u for having that patience. even on the cold hospital bed, u still tried.
i'm sry for not giving u a chance to say what u want to say to me.
i'm sry for not allowing u to speak.
but i thank u for all those jokes. even when things doesn't seem right, u're still able to joke and be strong for ur family. esp at the hospital with alvin and gang. even though u're in pain, u still requested for female visitors. u vocally expressed ur happiness when "u're so fortunate" by being able to hold girls' hand. n u still complained that u're hungry.


u've still got bowling balls reserved at uncle walter.
u've still got to witness team2 wining a medal.
u've still got to complete ur SIP!
u've yet to be part of the COE bowling trng!

its not going to be the same w/o donald duck in the team. its not going to be the same w/o ur presence. sry for not treasuring u as much as we possibly could. sry for causing regret.

but,
thank u for allowing me to have this special time during my 1.5yrs in the team and many yrs of nonsense. i'll keep our promise and push myself to improve greatly in bowling.i'll make sure u rest well with a smile.


i really cannot accept seeing his passport photo on that frame. it's just so not right. it has yet to be sunk in.
ur name and hp no. will still be in my phone book.
ur bowling video and photos will still remain in my harddrive.
i'll nv forget such a friend like u.

wth.

i just recieved a call from nicholas.


donald just passed away.


i just hate the whole damn thing.



i was just abt to find out the prayer for Him.
i will never ever get a chance to share the gospel with him.

rewind pls.

ok. dun mean to be emo, but the projects are really making me miss my sec sch days.




i miss steph and the board. AHHAH. stupid shot. "like. wadeva". haha.

whole day was like CB and MR projects. when i saw jere in sch today, really just felt nice to see a long term friend kinda thing. i really feel very exhausted with confusion. i'm the grp leader for CB project, and because the direction is so directionless, its so difficult to jsut kp everyone focus on track, i feel myself trying too hard. to a point whereby i feel so so inadequate. i want to have more referent knowledge and lead the grp w/o having to struggle so much. i'm just so afraid. the deadline is... next wk. yes. we're progressing. but not fast enough. joelle's feeling the ughness. and i think out of frustration, i think i almost irritate estee. and with the pounding headaches, literally, its not helping.
it seems that i've lost e ability to lead a grp. probably i'm just too dependant. dependant on wad?; i really duno.


wad u see in the above photo is marian who was once fill with confidence, patience, strong desire and love in her. now, u dun see that very often.



i think wad haoming said today was so so true. poly is not very difficult. its just because the students in majority dun choose to put in effort. i'm sure that if ALL of us put in as much effort as we did for our O levels, getting a perfect 4 for GPA is easy. look at our exam questions. its those that u'd definitely know how to ans if u'd studied. nothing tricky abt it.
probably, we're just too complacent with the fact that poly is sure-to-pass.


during SC mtng today, i really tried my best carry out my personal objectives as a mc member. however, i think i became too sensative inside. coz there's 2 creative directors, one sam and one me. i just feel that i'm not really needed. as in like.. i'm only doing creativedirectory stuff only because sam is bz, and not because i'm suppose to do it. and i've made a promise to myself to be committed to my responsibility so i took initiatives. however, i just didnt like the way JM responded to me with the u-are-always-so-busy attitude. i really dun like it. here am i, trying my best, there is he being whatever and all. and sorry, i dun mean to be rude here, but i just do hope all things are done or said are in the name of sc's welfare and not for any self glorification/clarification purposes.

i mean come on. i dun mean to spite u here in my blog with all the names and stuff. but i just hope that you know the consequences of ur response and action. i do want this board to be encouraging and not a board whereby we judge ppl because of wad we do. yes. i cannot deny that i am bz. but i'm making effort. i'm not pushing any thigns away. i just dun want to get misunderstood.

after the meeting, i really, again, questioned my existance in this position. like really.. am i really needed in the board? or should i just continue to be the sectary, perhaps even the assist sectary since i can't design marvellous posters like sam always do. instead of encouraging the board with my presence, it feels that the vp have created more doubts.

i'm not going to quit this whole thing just like that. i think its freakin unfair to those around. thus i'm going to press on. not because to prove my worthy or innocence because i dun have to, but to just be proud of who i am and keeping to my promises.
this initial decision came with alot of thought process and countless advises and even sacrifices. i dun want to disappoint ppl who believe in me, and those who acutally voted for me on their own account.

i just want to thank sam for sticking with SC for 2 yrs. its nv going to be easy or easier. press on. i belive we all can exceed expectation and produce excellent results that SAA can be proud of.


haha. b4 u guys start thinking i'm super affected by this whole thing, i'm not. its just the spur of the moment. i just do not like being judge by anyone other than God when the time comes.


meanwhile. read the email from Wilson this mrng- 'sportsman in need of help'. first reaction was like.. wah.. who is this so desperate. and when i opened it, i wasn't shock or anything. it just felt as if like a mutual understanding, coz it was abt donald's condition. i havent visited him for a wk. i'm really worried for him la. i jsut dun want to loose anyone now. it's just not a v nice feeling.


lastly, i had a dream last night. i pray b4 i slp la. and i asked God for this specific response from a friend that i care. and the answer i got was so so clear in my dream. it was replied in the form of a SMS-text in my handphone. i could rmbr word for word. it felt so true and so satisfying. i woke up, and frantically hoped to find that sms in my phone.ahha was so sad la! dun have.. duh. ahha.
right. so i'll jsut kp praying.


i think blogging is the only leisure thing i'm doing besides the lunch breaks we have in sch. grr. i find comfort in blogging. HAH.



happy bday dad.



u'd prolly be 65 yrs old now. and we hadnt had a proper family photo. not fair. we're really a happy family. ahhaha. i look darn happy for the camera. haha.
my mum, sis and i taught the little girl in the house to say 'poon chin swee' (my dad's name la)... ahhah. SUPER FUNNY. ahhahaha. it came a long way with those laughter.

patience

i must show patience to ppl who are impatient

argh.
i duno why i'm so affected today.
i jus cannot tolerated ppl who are ineffiencnt.
not that i'm effecient or anything.
but i realised, when i come to poly, i chill too much.
so much so, to an extent where i just loose the drive.
plus. with not understanding ppl, or ppl who doesn't choose to see from ur perspective and kps up with their wrongful assumptions,

life is not getting any better.

angsted man.


i'm ok. ijust need to pray, and breathe. He'll guide.


well. and today's the first official mission trng. thank God for peter who drove jas and i home. and uncle james for giving me WHOLE SET of minolta film camera and filters and many many other stuff.

kicked around.

there's always so many things to do in life.
are u letting them kick you around?
or, otherwise?

your call.

well. today's not exactly the monday blues which i totally experienced it last mon.
its becoming a v slow monday, total contridictory to the upcoming days ahead.

i've got loads of stuff waiting for me to do, but i just need to really take a step back and cool.

i've just recieved the 40day prayer fast bklet from estee! i'm super happy.
i hope this yr will be another life-chaning experience.

after classes, some of us went to design sch to eat and have our usual 'tea time'. the wind was nice today. i slept on the bench while looking into TP's state of e art scenery. it was a very gloomy atmosphere with the dark clouds. but i just needed that kinda naturual fresh air from freedom.
b4 i sink into my literature side, i shall just stop e elaboration here.

i just want my blood to rush more. i've got low blood pressure, and i dun like feel weak after getting up from a resting position. its too contridictory!

today, my dad's genes kicked in again.


see the random kid's PC toy? i found in at the dustbin down stairs at the lift.
after some repair and touch up, tadah! as good as new. ahha. the kid at home is having fun smashing the buttons around, hearing all kinds of sound. and wads best its that its still in gd condition, and FOC! jsut like my dad. collecting all the rubbish, fix them up and produce a WAH-and-useful thing. hahha.



may u rest in peace.

Heal the World

Heal the World- Michael Jackson

There's a place in your heart
And I know that it is love
And this place could be much
Brighter than tomorrow.
And if you really try
You'll find there's no need to cry
In this place you'll feel
There's no hurt or sorrow.
There are ways to get there
If you care enough for the living
Make a little space, make a better place.

Chorus:
Heal the world
Make it a better place
For you and for me and the entire human race
There are people dying
If you care enough for the living
Make a better place for
You and for me.


If you want to know why
There's a love that cannot lie
Love is strong
It only cares for joyful giving.
If we try we shall see
In this bliss we cannot feel
Fear or dread
We stop existing and start living
Then it feels that always
Love's enough for us growing
Make a better world, make a better world.

Chorus:
Heal the world
Make it a better place
For you and for me and the entire human race.
There are people dying
If you care enough for the living
Make a better place for
You and for me.

Bridge:
And the dream we would conceived in
Will reveal a joyful face
And the world we once believed in
Will shine again in grace
Then why do we keep strangling life
Wound this earth, crucify it's soul
Though it's plain to see, this world is heavenly
Be God's glow.


We could fly so high
Let our spirits never die
In my heart I feel
You are all my brothers
Create a world with no fear
Together we'll cry happy tears
See the nations turn
Their swords into plowshares
We could really get there
If you cared enough for the living
Make a little space to make a better place.

Chorus:
Heal the world
Make it a better place
For you and for me and the entire human race
There are people dying
If you care enough for the living
Make a better place for
You and for me.

Refrain (2x)


There are people dying if you care enough for the living
Make a better place for you and for me.
There are people dying if you care enough for the living
Make a better place for you and for me.




yea. in light of LiveEarth.
ironically, we're currently facing the haze now.

if it wasnt for MJ's bad publicityy, i think this song would be very very in now. probably should consider get another singer to do another version of this v nice song.



ok. today, to sum up. i helped sihui took photos for her bball team instead of the church soccer team. coz it was a promise.. ahha. and the guys didn't tell me they had a match until today! haha. too bad. ahhah. cheh.



trust me, bball is not an easy sport to get gd pics.



after watching them play, i rmbred the times during SAJC. with all the bballers. during break, always go play bball. super funny. then zen and i even met up to play bball once. haha. imagine i'm not a bowler but a bballer. reminds me of sheryl- the small one. haha. kc didn't have bball. its too.. bunk-ish. haha. really. that was the reason.


and,
my backached today. ):
the appt. seems to be taking forever.

EMDD

wah. quite touching. didn't know so many ppl read my blog one. ahaha. awww.

anyways.
EMDD was above avg. ahha. the violinists rocks. super darn inspired to go do smth abt it. i've been wanting to learn the violin since p6. but i know my limits. ahaa. ): seriously, i would give up dance for music. but not now. mum says to complete all my dance first. i've hit grade 9 for tap, which is the highest grade i guess. and for ballet, i've officially finised the RAD grade1-8 series. left the majors.
yea. shocking, that i've come a long way hur. nv really to use my 'dance cells'.... more of my music. and i think i learn music way much faster.


anyway. back at emdd. the great thing is to see thcrs. esp mr pang, ms soo, mrs sng, zhuo lao shi, mrs boey!, mrs kee!, mrs veronica (ex vp), mdm shanti.. and still got more... the performance, i felt, this yr's kinda deep. like the malay dance, contempo and drama club, all had deep arty farty touch to it. i like. CO was.. erm.. improving. ahah. i liked the 2nd song more. and yes, the soloist. theresa tseng was solid and effortless. the campus female superstar champ. ahah. yea. and yes, the violinst. the 1st one had more passion. as in... can feel one la. from her body movements and music quality,.. 2nd one had more.. technique? ahha.
contempo dance was really pushing the girls' abilities. coz it was realy a technical dance which requires perfection. every wrong beat would be obvious. and the girls pulled if off well.
as usual, chinse drama was hilarious. ahhaa.
ok.
last but not least, mr juraimi. i knew he had gd technique, but i didn't expect it to be THAT gd. he's an eng tchr in the sch btw. solid.

haha.

after the show, it was the usual disturbing to mr.pang and ms soo. and when mrs sng a.k.a. DM saw me.. she was like messing my hair saying "wah. wad happen to your hair huh.". haha. yes. that prefect. ahha.


happy to be with THE 3 of us again. ahah. i wanna sit in the same old class again.

H3 Paper Code: 627426

to my dear sara parn. HOW CAN U NOT KNOW MY FULL NAME?!. geraldyne, pls go through with her ok. thanks.
oh man. after all these years......... AHHAHAHAh.

i think the test is quite funny. popular wrong ans are the superhero one, fav no, sports (extremely), and global warming. HHAHAHA. ;p not goona reveal ans. aahha. until.. soon? stay tuned! (: ahahaha. maybe should have MODERATION.

estee rocks wORhXxXx. ahhaha. top the board hor. and we know each other for a 3 months or so?
this proves that its not time that draws friends, but time spent. estee's my classmate so we see each other almost everyday. ahaha.

and sara. u cannot escape. after all these yrs. i rmbr during the period b4 o levels.. end july onwards.. we practically see each other everyday. inc sats and suns. that's the study life. m1: One Life, Live it. AHAHHA.


ok, the later part of this post is redundant. read only if u're highly bored.

okok. ytd slpt at 530am. thanks to CBIJ. i duno wad i was doing whole night.
weather was killer today. after sch, planned to visit donald. but i was really tired. so went home to rest b4 printing my certs for APEL portfolio.
fell asleep and woke up in frustration coz i was perspiring madly. then changed from my cargo shorts to FBT shorts. made a big significant difference.

ok. today's blog is abt crap.


i've got nothign much to say.. oh oh..
I SAW MR. JOSEPH LIM today! in sch! we spent close to an hour together. haha. he's my v 1st bowling tchr in kc btw. we went through quite ALOT. hahaha. i wished that sam liew was there. hahaha. within the short time, i tookk him round the sch. haha and we both shared abt our lives.hhha. he was in tp for some tchr's course. ahha. super funny.
and again, he was once an encouragement, and still one.

oh yes. this morng, estee rocks. she waited for me b4 lect start and bought drink for me la!! super touched. coz this whole wk, i've survived on my cerals and $3.60 so far since mon. ahhaha. (: (: its e 40day prayer fast thing. and also partially, coz i really got no money. .haha.
then i'm left with 50c in my wallet. wanted to reward myself with a 50c mac icecream on the way home. THEN. the cashier said it was 60c. i freaked out. i said a super short and fast prayer like..."God, help". so i crossed my fingers and unzipped my wallet.. and.....
i found 2 5c coins left. i thannk God so so much. coz if i were to pay by nets erm. 60c?! ok. nvm. ahhaa.
yes. GST inc .


ok.

anyways. i'm glad tmr i can slp til as an when i want. and the following wk is CHIONG for projects again. 2wks more to submissions. i've got much time to redeem myself. pls pray for understaning sc comm members. i've got nothing much to say to that aldy. all i know is just to give my best. even if they dun physically see it.

haha.

gd nite world.

Beng ar!

Create your own Friend Test here

ahha. do the test for fun. ahahah.



today i had 2 presentations.
first was public speaking.
hahaahaa. i did bad. i had no eye contact and rapport. coz i did the valadictory speech.. so BORING. so i jsut couldn't be myself.

ahha. i love my friend's wedding speeches.. note after wedding:
1) wife is always right
2) husband must know these 3 words, "dear, u're right"
3) husbands must know how to lay tiles, if not the wife will walk all over u.

Marriage is a 3-ring circus - engagement ring, wedding ring and Suffering.


then there's the eurology...(death of a person)
the whole class was so emo la. hahaha.
we had 3 mins to speak to get full marks. my friend was like...aiya.. 1 min for prayer, 1 min to thank and 1 min of silence. HHAHA.

then there was also the best new comer award. AHHAHA
my friend brought his prop- a trophy. and he was lkie.. "wah! i didnt know i'll get this award.. i would like to thank....." and so on... then he reached his mum.. "i'd like to thank my... (look down, pause) *snipps, quick rubs of eye*.. my mum... (look up)" SUPER FARNIE SIA. ahha. then he was like all rapping and all.



it wwas super funny.. if only i could record them all down. ahahhaha.


then was LAW presentation.
i think our grp was gd. thanks to shishia, dawn and nadia.
questionnaire suxed. mr rudy was merciless. ahha. he's a laywer.. and he's really knowledgable. ahha.

then was trng.
hi, my name is ah beng, just call me, Beng. ahhaha
maybe i think it should really be my nick name. coz ma-ri-an is abt long too call for ball. haha.
trained with yr 1s. ahha. was fun la. but i hope they'd be more serious and have more sense of urgency. coz some of them will be playing the YMCA Youth in touch and i hope they'll learn fast fast. chop chop. yes, i can't deny i want to train with the other team... coz i'd definitely learnt faster.
but i'm happy. coz syai and aini have really been good leaders with me in amongst them. i'm happy to know the yr1 more. and i think i should take this opportunity to remind myself of all the basics and reinforce them. really stimulates me to recall every little impt things marli always teaches.


ok.. this wk is coming to an end. i'm glad. i hope to BREAK. take a break. haha. amen.
i think my eng is getting bad bad bad. i should start reading classics.

Special Occasion Speech

my presentation soon. HAHA. it's all being crafted out, some true and some exaggerated. ahha.



Special Occasion Speech (final draft)

Scenario: You are to give the valedictory speech, having been notified that you will be presented with the coveted Dean’s Award for your outstanding academic performance in your college.

To the graduates of the class 2006, friends, family, distinguished guest and all other visitors here tonight, I promise, I will be brief. Good evening! (:
Four years ago, we gathered on this same ground in the name of ‘education’. We have achieved far more than just knowledge, but also learning, growth and very fond memories.

Secondary school has been something different for every one of us -- whether we were involved in academics, music, sports, leadership and clubs or simply struggling to survive. It's been said that secondary school is "the best four years of our lives", but that really isn't right. Well, for some of us, the four years spent in this school was a great experience; some others may feel it’s rather treacherous and for many, I guess it would fall somewhere in between these two extremes. This is not the end of our learning journey- the best years of our lives should lie ahead, to be looked forward to, because now, we are more equipped with the ability to shape what kind of life we would want to lead.

I am honoured to be standing here tonight to give my thanks to the many people who have constantly guided my path towards where I am today- a place where I can look back with a smile. On behalf of my class, I would like to thank in particularly, Ms. Joanne Lee, for being the ever most graceful form teacher our class could ever have. To give a little snapshot of my class, think of a class, having more than 50% as prefects. It may seem to the “perfect class” as the black book records would not be of a problem at all. However, with the many of us holding various leadership roles in school, juggling these commitments and the academics can be a tough one. Ms. Lee has helped us in many ways so that we can manage our time properly. Our subject teachers have given us endless encouragements that we still hold very close to our hearts up to this day.

In addition, I want to thank my sports teachers. They have constantly motivated me to persevere on with my goal in mind. Many a times, hope seems bleak. I will always remember the phrase this sports teacher once told me “Fight your best walk out with a smile with what you’ve done, win or loose, it doesn’t really matter.” It was this statement that turned the tables and allowed me to bring back glory to the school.

Lastly, my class. We were once ‘rocks’ as described by our Geography and Literature teachers, because we were too quiet when class participation was needed. And now, after many rough roads and hills, going to school is like going to a second place where we can call it “home”. Without you guys, days in this school would just be all black and white.

Thank you all who have become the colour paints of my life. The world saw war, the school saw conflict, but today, we come together as a class, as neighbours and ultimately, as friends. It doesn't really matter what our L1R5 is, or how well we do on tests. What matters is that we have learned something about the people around us - whether in school or out - and about how to deal with other people, and that we can never become afraid to learn something new, again.

By: Poon Marian ay07/08

Sports Club AGM

I must say that we did well.
credits to everyone, esp to sam with all the pubicity and stuff

i went for project consultation, and miss project meeting
and tmr, there's law and public speaking presentation.

i dun really like my law grp mates. basically, 2 of the members just did everything, and emailed us the report, and told us which parts to present. abit disappointing. its a grp project, and i hope they understand that.

as for my class projects. i have been failing to do my best. coz with the agm, and all the individual projecctts, i'm really struggling. i promise that next wk, i'll do my grp proud. i'll make sure i live up to my standard.

i rmbr in pri sch and gg to sec sch, i was really a strong individualistic. i nv believed in teamwork, only in self perfection. ahha. until i became an exco in sec3, and i guess thats where i start to learn to let go, and trust my mates more,and cover for each other. this yr, ahha. i think i'm letting go, TOO MUCH. seemingly, loosing my drive and level of expectation.
i must buck up in my life mission statements.

been slping at 3am, waking up at 8am. used to be able to tahan. now as the activites gets more xiong and mind boggling, its not enough slp time. this mrng, went down to national stadium to get the shirt sizes. the office is quite cool. the ppl there are super friendly. at sbf office, Angeline and one lady in the office greeted me by name even though we didn't really know-know each other. abit freaky. like as if they spyed on me or smth.
i took lots of photos at the national stadium though. haha. using my pns. sky was gd.
weather was hot.




i'm tired. God gives ppl strength. Thank God for that. at this point of time i'm reallt glad to have a friend like Jesus. i just gotta try and be stil more to hear Him.

stronger pls.

What doesn't kill you makes you stronger

i hope this phrase does not get overrated.

lets forward the whole busy day to trng. today, syaz and i agreed that we just couldn't do it. its not say cannot-canot, but just can't. had freakin lots of drop balls. wrong gaps. slow reaction. and i think i let a total of 5men go. including drills.
direct inverse of my goals, thanks.
let's just say today's one of the personal boo trng days.

the field seemed to have ropes and holes today. suria, claire and deedee all sprained their ankle. ground was hard. i had a fumbled.

and then, trng ended.usual. and then, it was the moment.
well, i kinda new the results of me. so i prepared for the worst.

once the names were out.
hearts sank.
hearts rosed.
for me, i didn't really know how to react. coz i've successfully psyched up to be stronger. i saw my team mates cried. i saw my team mates rejoiced. i must say its a really mixed feelings. amongst all the names, i'm super proud of syaz. i'm really happy for her. coz she's got the potential, but lacks the opportunity. i just hope that pol-ite is an opportunity to improve treoundously herself, coz i believe in her.
i'm also happy for deedee and izyan. i rmbred last yr. and i know that they've improved alot.
to comfort myself, i knew my back injury wasn't helping much. not to give excuses, but i know its not God's timing yet. and also, i think it isn't fair to others if i do make it this yr, coz the bowling team is rather, 'shaky' i guess.
i really duno. ok.some are just excuses to make myself feel better and be more positive abt things. but ultimately,
i am disappointed.


i had a moment to reflect while waiting for my friends after that. i hope that whatever i say here won't discourage/hurt anyone. honestly, there's one person i wasn't really elated that she got in. i mean like. committment. drive. i really just dun feel it from her. ok, i'm in no position to judge like that, but i just couldn't help to feel so ashmed of myself. i guess if anyone of the team should be reading this post, and if u feel tt it is you, then i guess, work harder. i may not be refering to you, but there should be a cause for your guilt right. i just want Tpiranhas to be stronger, echnoing wad yam said, "to be a stronger team, coz i believe we're one of the strongest". i'm sure we all do know where we stand.

there's a period of time i almost gave up and really had very long and draggy trngs.
i just hope i do not sink into such state in the next few trngs. i know it is going to be tougher and more frustrating for the next few weeks and months up to YMCA Touch. but i do hope to be positive. and i do hope that the rest will not feel disheartened but challenged. i hope we'll all grow stronger as a team and bagg all the golds possible. one cannot do all alone.
the rest really gotta just really learn to take in, and let go,and emerge tougher for the yr1s to follow and learn from. we should make use of all opportunities.


i cannot afford to be emo and slackggish now. i've got tons of things/projects/reports waiting for me. all the best.

Youth Sunday

totally.



her song stucks in my head. *peter moey in bg playing his al-time fav. violin.

had lunch. then went JURONG WEST to support the guy's soccer league. Adonai Soccer League, a church soccer league. cool huh. went there to take photos. click here for more photos. uploading it is a killer. i think webshots is doing quite a gd job.

by then, it was 7pm, back in church.
i was just tired. time flew coz it was the only time in the wk that i had 'leisure' time.

came home, attempted to rush projects, but i dun think it worked out coz of SC's ppt presentation.

not looking forward to at least the next 2 weeks.
i should buck up.
and be more efficient.
and be more gracious.


Too Late


tmr is youth day and we, dear poly students DO NOT have a holiday coz we're NOT considered youths. thanks hur. church had a stayover sesson tonight. just to chill and take a break. i wanted to go, but i needed time to clear up all the work. grrr. dun like this kind of situation.


okok. dun think too much. just do it - the nike way.


webshots is soo cool nowadays...
makes my life as a uploader so much easier....



Adonai Soccer League (01.07.07)

the link for full album.
(only random 50 shots can be previewed i think)

*to preview the full view of the photo, or to save the image, just click on the image that you want while viewing the slideshow. (a new window will open)