stronger pls.

What doesn't kill you makes you stronger

i hope this phrase does not get overrated.

lets forward the whole busy day to trng. today, syaz and i agreed that we just couldn't do it. its not say cannot-canot, but just can't. had freakin lots of drop balls. wrong gaps. slow reaction. and i think i let a total of 5men go. including drills.
direct inverse of my goals, thanks.
let's just say today's one of the personal boo trng days.

the field seemed to have ropes and holes today. suria, claire and deedee all sprained their ankle. ground was hard. i had a fumbled.

and then, trng ended.usual. and then, it was the moment.
well, i kinda new the results of me. so i prepared for the worst.

once the names were out.
hearts sank.
hearts rosed.
for me, i didn't really know how to react. coz i've successfully psyched up to be stronger. i saw my team mates cried. i saw my team mates rejoiced. i must say its a really mixed feelings. amongst all the names, i'm super proud of syaz. i'm really happy for her. coz she's got the potential, but lacks the opportunity. i just hope that pol-ite is an opportunity to improve treoundously herself, coz i believe in her.
i'm also happy for deedee and izyan. i rmbred last yr. and i know that they've improved alot.
to comfort myself, i knew my back injury wasn't helping much. not to give excuses, but i know its not God's timing yet. and also, i think it isn't fair to others if i do make it this yr, coz the bowling team is rather, 'shaky' i guess.
i really duno. ok.some are just excuses to make myself feel better and be more positive abt things. but ultimately,
i am disappointed.


i had a moment to reflect while waiting for my friends after that. i hope that whatever i say here won't discourage/hurt anyone. honestly, there's one person i wasn't really elated that she got in. i mean like. committment. drive. i really just dun feel it from her. ok, i'm in no position to judge like that, but i just couldn't help to feel so ashmed of myself. i guess if anyone of the team should be reading this post, and if u feel tt it is you, then i guess, work harder. i may not be refering to you, but there should be a cause for your guilt right. i just want Tpiranhas to be stronger, echnoing wad yam said, "to be a stronger team, coz i believe we're one of the strongest". i'm sure we all do know where we stand.

there's a period of time i almost gave up and really had very long and draggy trngs.
i just hope i do not sink into such state in the next few trngs. i know it is going to be tougher and more frustrating for the next few weeks and months up to YMCA Touch. but i do hope to be positive. and i do hope that the rest will not feel disheartened but challenged. i hope we'll all grow stronger as a team and bagg all the golds possible. one cannot do all alone.
the rest really gotta just really learn to take in, and let go,and emerge tougher for the yr1s to follow and learn from. we should make use of all opportunities.


i cannot afford to be emo and slackggish now. i've got tons of things/projects/reports waiting for me. all the best.