million glance

well. to briefly update since the time is 3.28am.

sch was alright. met my classmates. i jsut wanna thank God for my class. this sem i'm goona push myself hard on acad man. there's a gpa 4.0 pter in my class. yea. and my class is cool man.
(:

as for cds, i really wanted colour and composition or maybe freehand drawing.. if not, music. but.. ALL FULL. grrr. in the end, i took Law of Singapore. which is appplicale for photograhy. so yea. (: i dun wanna waste it. ahha. so i'm like taking that and.. yes, public speaking. *shruggs.

after that was the dinner for HSBC. 10th anniversay. ahha
congrats to andass, liji and jianmin.hahaha.
the food was alright la. ahaha. the bread, soup and fish and cake was nice!!! (:





taken by my pns. a little regret for not brining my cam.

i guesss wads rewarding for us as photogs is to have ppl who appreciates us.. esp those ppl from the top managemtn from HSBC... laughing and pointing here and there reminising the grueling 101k they have braved through.

was gd to meet up with the imf ppl again. i miss meisy! she's not feeling well. ): hope everything's alright. yea. did i mention that the emcees were part of the walk and they loook suuperbly gorgeous tonight. was like. COOL. (: (: the guys look diff too... with all their blaziers and stuff.

hope to work with them again. it was a ironically 'pleasant' journey.


oh yes. lastly, i have to mention smth, i saved THE Mark II today. (gab's design sch's) under my hands. muahhahaha.


oh yea. i've finally posted the Temasek Regetta photos on my deviantart. not all.. but thosse i felt worth it. ahahha.

i should slp now.
thank u Lord for answering my small little request. (:

shoot.

morng was shootg for this model..





after that.. was my usual sat and then went for the east zone JC CO concert to support gera with sara!.. at vjc. haha. (: here are some photos.hahha. it took awhile to take a decent photo coz it was on the 10sec timer mode. by 10s, we would end up laughing and all. haha.





i felt really tired after 12mn today. tmr gotta shoot for church's AGM.
oh man. and there's the thailand photos to be sorted out, regetta, church, and i owe so manny ppl photos la...inc KC's one.. i cant rmbr lars. i'm so so so lazy to edit the photos man.

i also heard there's metero showers tonight at 2am?

ANYWAYS. tmr is the last day of hols i think after AGM, i should go home and start packing my room. my closet is like in a big mess. can't even close it tight. my sheleves should all be cleared. arghed. i'm feeling so so... procrastina-tive. haha.

oh yea.. congrats to gary for winning quite a handful of competitions. ahha. well. haha.


i cannot tahan alreaady!! gd ntie!

Temasek Regatta

hot hot blazing sun and i'm burnt just taking photos.
VC borrowed 100-400mm and 10-22 and 20d and 30d. ahhaha.
i'm sure the 5 of us had fun using super cool equippments.

well, for the sec sch women's cup category, KC got champion! (: (: wasted la. if only they had dragonboat during my time. haha. btw. Temasek Regatta is abt dragonboat. so i was a the reservior from 8am till 6pm? but was cool. i helped KC take photos too coz i was the offical photog for the event. haha. so cool so cool. saw mrs sim, ms lam and mr juraimi.

the race was close! and i think Victoria sch should win. they ended up 4th while they got 1st for the trail race and the heats. to cut the story short, this sch which i dun want to mentioned, got into the wrong course and clashed into VS which vs tried to fight back on the course. of course, much precious time is wasted. and the sch who cause the whole mess got 2nd in the end. it was like.. wth la.
very sad.
all the boys cried. coz they couldn't do anything. even the coach cried. coz they trained hard and had all it takes to win, and not a marginal win. tp's ex girls capt trained them too and she got really upset for them. was quite emotional la. haha. then they sang their sch song and cheer with so much conviction and confindence in themselve that they are 1st. which is gd but... jsut really so so sad.
coz if u see the physical differnce, VS is way much stronger than all the other schs who jsut went to try-try.

haha. the photogs were in and out of Cyber Centre though. after the sec sch regatta, went to sports complex to shoot the orientation. after that was back to dragon boat.
everyone was burnt to the core. really. i was a little worried for my camera.. it was hot.

then we took grp pics.. played with the cam and shoot jam&hop.i bet all of them are like filtering their shots now.. haha.

kinda tired. my eye is blur. whole day shoot man. whole day. a total of 813 photos. 2.34 GB. haha. tian ar. everyday like that can spen lunch money on DVD liao.


some shots i found interesting. havent really make it coool though.

my day at SAA

was spent doing this.
i'm not all that gd at photoshop. but last min from the top management.. so they needed urgent help. so yea. the thrid one is not designed by me though.

timetable is OUT!
ahha. i've got PUBLIC SPEAKING as my CDS. *faints. wads there to learnt man. ahahha. as in like. wad's the wrriten content supposed to be?!
but. one gd thing, i've got ms reena ng as my CP. yays. at least is not mr. seah. (:



well. today.. was, like i've said spent in SAA, at uncle Sam's office. so now, i've realised smth abt my most trusted friend in tp bowling currently. to asto, its not you coz u've graduated. ahha. i think u know who i'm talking abt asto. him. asto! ahha. this para is for u. (: hahaha. u know wad. ever since u've left, i cannot talk to him anymore. coz i cant seem to trust him nor believe whatever he has said. its like... thin ice. i'm seriously not goona place any trust on him nor share with him anything already. coz i know i cant. haha. but gd thing to have u through my first year.
for this yr's POL-ITE. i'll make sure i'll work doublely hard. so hard that i can get something out of POL-ITE. and grow from there. i'll make sure i hit this goal. smack that man. HAH.


sch's starting. half half lar huh. hahah.

TMR'S Regetta! whole day in hot sun shooting with a borowed 100-400mm lens. hoho. sch's rich.VC borrowed 10-22, that, 20d and 30d. hoho. i'm so so so goonnna have a splendid time tmr. i dun mind gg to sch at 745am tmr. HARS. haha.



my back aches like mad for 1 wk. every single day ok.

finally went swimming today! after ballet exam so can forget abt trying to not get tann lines. ahhahha. (:

then watched TMNT. somehow, the movie though interesting, lacked essence. so it was kinda boring for me.

yea. then went to cut hair. i think the length is just nice.. but he cut the top part too short so now it is too wierd. i think i'll wear a cap until the top part grows. haha. yea.

3 more days.
to do many more things.

its over! (:

yea.

nic didn't leave her skirt for me. so i went in doing entre polinese w/o a skirt. and the rest of the time was swopping skirts with amanda lim.

well. i think i did well except for one small part in barre work and almost a major slip during demi-character. demi-charc was my fav dannce. BUT. i just had to screw it. ok la. i'm not blaming anyone.. but for me, the pianoist was really slow for demi-charc. i found myself trying hard to lift up to the music. grrrr. so i wasn't a gd performace. was off my mark most of the time coz i couldn't quite catch the rythm.but i think this is one of the best grades.

thank u ms emi for patiently guiding me through this yr. and my wonderful class which is ever so fun to be with.


ok. so today i read the news abt 'acsi regain title by beating Saints'.
i dun like the aricle.
i'm not being biased... BUT.
why does e spotlight have to be always on acsi be it loosing or winning?!
why.
ok.
i just dont agree with the statement- "Ironically, it was the Saints who wrested the crown from the ACSians in 2005, 2005 and 2006." oh yea. btw.... i felt that ball possession was at SA ac's area 1st half lehs and not the other way round.

excuse me. so what.. just because the Saints worked hard and got paid off, ppl say that the crown was taken from acsi. pleaaaase. and then and then.. the article went on saying abt how victorious they are and stuff.
ok. i'm not a sore loser. BUT.
issit just me being too bored to figure some stuff out.

like when SA won, u guys says that acsi didn't play well.. players got banned coz of that incident and all... and thus, the news was abt how acsi didn't get to win the match INSTEAD of SA winning the match.

then. then photos. everytime, its always to acs' favour. even if we win... there's a pic of acsi tackling SA down saying that ac did put on a gd fight dah dah dah.

ok. there are some articles which are either neutral or yea la, to sa's favour. BUT. i would say like 80% of the time is to ac. its like.. distortion lar. they're like trying to portray that as if the title righfully belongs to ac. that's how I percieve it. count the no. of 'acsi' and 'sa' mentioned in any article. u'll realised smth..

anyways. nvm.


after settling sports club stuff... followed the girls to UWC for the match. nice grass. .uwc won 3-2 but it was a gd match after fighting back during 2nd half ahha. it was quite dark.. and i was struggling to take photos w/o flash. like 1S0 1600, f/4, 1/30? hhaha.
but i just hope that the team will remember me as a player, not a photographer. thank you.
i do enjoy taking photos but pls understand that i do not focus my shots on any individual. its not fair. and i only have less than 20 mins to get the shots. and really, i shoot for the team. thank you.


this wk is coming to and end. tmr i'm realy goona set aside my day to go out. coz i haven gone out for the sake of gg out in this whole hols. bye to my long hair! hope to get it cut by tmr! (:

15-3 to them.

it was a gd first half though.
they fought well.
just pray that they'll work it and bring it back next year.

even though i'm not any student from any of the school, i just feel too sad to be frustrated. it was like. oh man. cant they have more time or smth. i cant say anymore. i'm just proud of the Saints.

my photos didn't turn out well. probably too much cloudcover for my max f/5.6 at 300mm. proabably i couldn't really focus on shooting but on the game coz of the tension on the field.

i duno man.
the whole thing is just so... sianz. i can't find a better word to describe.


so.
tmr's my ballet exam. i just hope to do well. i heard from my classmates who've taken theirs today... the pianist was way too slow for enjoyment. oh well. i just hope to erase all the emo-sian feeling and just dance well tmr for that examiner. she's super strict and stern too. oh well.




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and to you.
just continue to be stronger.
i still believe in you.

last lesson.

yea. so today's the last lesson for Grade 8 RAD syllabus.
kinda a little emotional for me... coz its one of the special class that i've been in for almsot a yr. v different from my previous classes. ppl keepin coming and gg.
i'm gg miss dancing with them. i guess my subjective love for ballet was because of them and of course, ms emi. briefly, i joined them only for grade 8.. so i was kidna doing both class- pre-elementary and grade 8... that explains why i'm always at the studio.



everything's been really messy. my room, table, everywhere. i really want to thank God so so much that i've given 1 more wk grace period to do whatever i can. i've been a big procrastinator for this holidays. basically, to reedem myself, i'll just say coz i needa focus on my ballet exam coz i really really want to do well.
tian ar. i have 12 folders of alot of photos that needs to be saved/backuped or wadeva. haha. grrr. from camps and etc. haiyo!



this is taken during SLTC. this is sportsclub maincomm.. well.. part of it.happy birthday mr. all-rounder! ahha. he's graduating this yr. ): i guess this photo is quite significant...


ANYWAYS.

Big day for the Saints tmr!
final showdown against acsi again.
lets have hope and faith in the saints yea. i hope they'll bag the gold medal again. really.
just leave it to God's strength yea. may the game be an offering to God. (:



and as to you,
you've led the team well no matter what happens.

scary

ballet exam is coming. really scaryy.

haha. i can't rmbr wad happened ytd. all i rmbr was gg for trng in the morning.. then shoot all the way till 11pm plus for the Orientation camp thing. was really long for us photographers. ok la. not so bad coz it was kinda exciting.. but was realy tired i duno how the main comm tahan for so long esp the OGLs and suan yang.

i guess TP has one of the best cheers. if only i video's the OGL's cheers. they did a mega remix for the freshies.. and it was close to 5-6mins long. it was really cool.
*claps hands.

ok.

i've recieved an email from Darren, nyaa photog regarding the HSBC walk. happy that a few of my shots are chosen for exhibition. well, at least i'm able to contribute. (:

today was also my first lesson. (: excited. but the tchr's not very experienced i guess.. coz its like there's quite alot of stuff not taught.
ANYWAYS.

jsut pray that i dun get sick these few days. esp b4 my exam. (: hope that i get distinction man. its beeen loong since i've liked dancing.. hhaha.

SLTC 2007

Sports LTC.

to summ up, it was great working with leaders. honestly, the camp flowed well and it is quite an easy camp to manage coz its basically for the sports captians, vc and QM.

the rain ruined the adventure learning part.. but allowed us to finish up our banners and go home early.

ahha. and the whole sch was in camp mode. and i'm talking like TP scale. TPSU was having their camp.. and more camps. haha. and because of that, the sports ppl were to sleep at the SAR room. small enclosed rm w/o aircond with abt 60-70 ppl. ventilators were added but i dun think it helped. ahha. so the touch girls, rugby guys, waterpoloist and floorball ppl slept at the sports hall which was so much better. the wind made the sports hall so cold at night and we had the WHOLE area to ourselves. haha. it was sure nice though the ground was hard.

liked the external talks by mr. chin (on agility trng) and esther tan who inspired me tons- first female navy officer. she trains the guys and all. following news abt her..
http://www.safyc.org.sg/news/xtreme_adventure/report.htm
http://www2.ntu.edu.sg/ClassAct/Mar07/AlumniNews/2.htm
http://www.mindef.gov.sg/imindef/publications/cyberpioneer/features/2006/
she' really humble. i rmbr her holding the mic and i could see all the muscles in her forarm moving! its not those bulging muscles..but those many and long lines kind.



i guess for my team, all i can do is to play my part and work hard to try to do as much as i can rather than wasting my efforts on ppl who have the ability but doesn't have the attitude. sometimes i will nv understand their complaints and super closed and anial mindset. i went for this camp because i'm the vc of the bowling team. however, i felt that i was there for the rugby team. coz i was the only bowling comm there and i just had to go with my rugby team throughout. but i felt nice to be with my teammates.

we did make friends.
funny how we still dunno each otherr's name but by the CCA- "hey u cano-polo one!" and so on.
i hope the journey doesn't end here. may all sports leaders in TP continue to strive on and work towards in building the Team Temask attitude. only you guys have the potential hope. let not others bring you down.

say that to myself again

everyday i'm learning and applying. i just hope that all these will be aligned with the Word of God. i do fear the sub-conscious change of my current useful principles, misleading myself though with the aim for improvement. this may led to being a bad me.
hahha. let's just pray that God will continue to guide all His little children, and pray that some will jsut wake up.

yays

today i consider it a feat.

morning was bowling from 11-130pm.
collected phone at wisma.
then rushed for ballet from 230 till 6pm.
then in the heavy rain i took a cab for rugby at 7pm and trng ended at 9pm today.

gd anot. ahhaa.
i thought it was gonna rain and was prepared for the dirty field.. but the east side showed no signs of rain nor heavy dark clouds.

ok. let me go indepth.
u can stop reading from here coz it'll be basically the same stuff. haha.

bowling. i thinkg today's a gd trng. augustine joined us. i think i've improved in my release and defintely my timing. there's more forward roll now and showing signs of potential rev. ok la.. rev is easy for u guys. but i find it tough. but nonetheless, i hope i dun forget what i've learnt today abt my timing. considering that we spent 1hr on 2 step drill 1-2 person per lane, we'd better show some improvement.

and as if that the bowling alley is my house, i left my socks and fav water bottle at the alley. sad ok. rsn's navy water bottle. my socks... hahha. is my adidas' one.. coz when i took it out of the plastic bag, it was wet and disgustin. so i decided to dry it at the corner.. ): ok. but luckyily asto saved my socks. and guess wad! she gave me chocs again! super nice la. chocs u can't get anywhere but her coz she makes them. pro right- my doubles partner. HAHAH.

anyways. ballet was gd. demicharacter.. i learnt it last month. and i think its already an achievement where i am now for that dance. its our last own trng with xinyan. seriously.. today was super conducsive after video several times to 'perfect' our dance. we really want to get distinction. coz it'll be one of my last RAD ballet exams. ahaha.
seriously. all these ballet thing making me feel happy to do ballet. not that i dun like... but i jsut can't relate to ballet. its so so.. fairy like. but at the same time.. it requires the stamina of play a 7mins touch rugby game 4 subing out.but for dance, u can't sub out.
u can only continue with a smile and confidence or break something if careless.
oh man.
7days from now is the day.
i'm already freakin out. pray that God will be there to watch and calm my nerves and SMILE and look happy to be dancing for the strict examiner.

anyways. the rain was pouring at town area.

at sch. it was dry. very dry. but the grass was really filled with insects and flies. e field is much better now. but i guess coz of the weather.. it got really itchy after awhile.
then there's the camp gg on and music was super loud, almost overpowered coach's instructions.
i think overall, i did well today. but i was quite funny lar. i keena my right eye then left eye and 2 person stepped on my toes today which made me fall eventually. all the repeatitions. but i need alot more improvement.


anyways.
tmr's camp. till thurs.
its like so bz with all the sports awards thing gg on and all. argh. haha. breathe. well, atleast its gd that i'm still on hols.

rough it

alright.. morng trng was at RP. the sch is BIG. too much space. i seriously think they should try and utilise the space more. the buildings look all the same. and..
theres NO TRACK. only field. AND, the toilets have so many redundant walls.. and NO hot water like TP.

okok. haha. but, the sch is nice. nice environment but too agri-food-factory-ish.

trng was little. but i learnt more abt how Peter Bell sees things. He's knowledgeble and explains well. then later.. it started to rain heavily... so he told us to go for water break. and, we stopped from there. so it was like a 40 mins thing.

meanwhile, RP have Contact! they were trng beside us. Ida was trng them. ahhha. then i saw....
SOPHIE GOLLIFHER .. i'm not sure how to spell her last name though. she's from sports sch, track and field and she's freakinn fast. and i mean like really really fast. i rmbr running the marathon with her. i was halfway through and she was like completeing her last quarter kinda thing. freak out.
today... ida got the ball and was running straight at the left wing. then, from the far right wing, she ran in. not only did she caught up with her, she got infront of ida who was the ball carrier. and and and... SHE WAS JOGGING. seriosuly. it was like effortless while ida tried to run straight up. ida's a fast runner k.
i rmbr her as the 'girl with potential' and breaking many records.

so. next yr's big game better watch for her. if she breaks through... dive man, dive. hhaa. and we're like saying only nic and az may have a chance to chance her after seeing her effortlessly running half field.

she's goona inspire to train my speed and stamina.
i'm still v much amazed by her effortless run that was so so fast.

anyways. i heard that more polys and jcs are starting women contact. hoho. tp is not goona start though. ): it'll be fun man. hahha.


after that roamed in toapahyo while waited for chris and mk to arrive to go old PA.
15-6
felt that ball handling was scary. really. they didn't play well though. mrs charles wasn't too happy either. i really hope that this would be a wake up call for them and really show their opponents what they've got.

sports photography is not easy.
today, i realise the gd use of a 300mm f/4 and on a mark II, its like magic. ahhaha.
the dof is there man. as in like... shiok.
well,.. i guess for today, its not that bad. cosidering is my first time shooting a match with my tele and camera.
i'm still thinkin if i should borrow a lens from my friend for the finals.

anyways...

tmr is goona be bz till mad.

Happy Easter!

ahha. well, this is not a v delightful photo to begin with. i took this in the Infant room actually..this kid was looking through the windo panes. just changed the colour and added alittle scribblings here and there. ahha. do enlarge it! (: ahah.

b4 editing.. i think its quite artistic in terms of the angling and all.



this morning, i went for the 8am service. i was really tired. i have to admit that i wasn't v cheerful to be alone up at service. i told God that i was getting really restless and all. and the hymns made it more draggy. it was quite ironic coz on one hand, i kept complaining to God and on the other, i kept apologising.
anyways. God heard my pleas. ahhah. the sermon was quite interesting and all. after sermon, i went out to check on my mum and the food downstairs.. and the sunlight shinning through was beautiful. show u 2 pics that are not editied..




2nd pic looks like a wedding kinda shot. coz of the aircond, my lens fogged up went i went out. ahha. like have soft filter. ahhaha. (:

anyways.

after my usual class, i went home to rest. i played the guitar! hoho. after a few months man. its been loong. there's dust on the guit's body. have yet to try marc's pedal though. haha. coz it was slightly towards evening, i was along at home. haha. so i tried my recording thing on my laptop.. the inbuilt mic is nice.. BUT.. the guit sounds too jerky. it picks up too much of the heavier vibrations. i also tried singing out loud. and for those who know me, i can't sing. ahhaha. (recalls sec sch days: was made to sing 'yue liang dai biao wo de xin' purposedly zhao xhia on stage; steph being my wife. yes. how embarrassing. chinese singing competition. well, it did my the judges laugh and we won ok.)

anyways. it feels good to just spend time with my old songs i've written. ahhah. i realised i can't sing them. hoho. and yes daniel lim, u've been an inspiration. HAh. i know u wont be reading this though. (:

so after that, mum came home. then we went to our estate area the pasar malam. haha. i finally got myself a wallet (which i think is too big) and a hand-carry bag. imitations are catching up these days though. its my first handheld bag with a big Puma name on it. i think the bag would be good coz it has a thin layer of padding on its surface, allowing me to carry my camera inside or whatever electrionic stuff.

i just love pasar malam. i dun mind living back in the old Kampong days. seriously. coz i feel that i belong to that era more than now.

so tmr morn.. its the peterbell's trng. kinda excitied abt it. will be held at RP. ahha. hope that its not like those tiring trngs. (: gd nite!

and..

HAPPY EASTER!

Happy 10th Anniversay TPiranhas!

10 yrs and still growing stronger.

We are...
Ferocious
Committed
United
TPiranhas
WHOOSH.










Ifa's batch should have taken with us! well, i tried to sharpen the image and this is the best already. haha. seriously, my AF on my small camera is quite off already.



i guess somethings will never be the same again, as always.

Freedom Writers

go watch it. not like those v v interesting kind but i know that my eyes were on the screen whole time. coz it was really real, based on a true story. inspiring teacher and horrible husband. hahha.

service was kinda reflective and meditative. i realised myself thinking at the same prob, same issue over and over again. really amazed how God can tahan all my cries for a common plea.

i also found myself liking all but the starting 2-3 hymns. the hymns had beautiful lyrics and melodic tune. hey nigel! lets rock hymns up one day leh.. i'm waiting! :p

so anyways.. after the movie when out with mum. like recently... i feel (: to be with her. not that i'm not last time la. but like.. i think i'm starting to know how to treasure a person.
simply too many losses. too many.

Maundy Thurs

oh yes. b4 i continue, on the way to church on a bus, i saw the Golden Lining shot! hahaa. yea man. i was so excitied. but i couldn't shoot coz too many ppl blocking the mirror. i tell u, that feeling was like... oh man oh man. i could only appreciate the sky in teh bus, from afar. ahhah. horrible.


bowling was tough. was trying to change my release, timing, basically working on my foundation. haha. so far, gerrad, alvin and she-na changed from spinner to hook. ahha. can feel coach's sweat coming out. ahhhaa. (:

after that, had comm mtng. then went to saa for awhile. got some comments from uncle sam which troubled me. spoke to Khartini, this really nice SAA lady. she's like a big sis lars. was talking to Wilson my club advisor also abt this.

thus, i have no conclustion yet. i've yet to seek andrew and wilson for more consultation. haha. (btw, u've realised that i've many friends with the same name. hahah. so for clarification purposes, names used in this para are from tp and respectively.) i dunno if i consider myself to be troubled coz i'm trying to make the best out of my decision, hoping that it's inlined with God's plan for me in TP.

seriouslly. i want to, at the same time, i can feel obligated. its a confusing feeling in all. i'd still prefer my exco position back in kc. stressful, but more assured and trusted. yes.

ANYWAYs. rugby was cancelled last min AGAIN. ): twice in a row can! and both times i can make it lars! ): ): wante to run today, but then i decided to go for today's Service thhough.

so yes, i went for service. took photos. i duuno if its me or wad, the photos i took looks grainy as compared to a 300d on ISO 800. even if i'd push it down to 500, it still has the grainy thing on dark surface. as taking pics of ruizhi (the little girl at home) and i think i'm goona try to do a series kinda thing.

i feeel happy at home. as in like.. the baby makes my mum happy. and when i take photos of them n show the pics to my mum, she feels happy although she keeps saying 'if ur dad was around ar...'. to complete that sentence, if my dad was still around, i can imagine my nonsensical dad playing with her, making little chairs and table for her and all the little gadgets tt would benifit her- just like how he did to me. i duno man.

sometimes, it creeps me. yes, i've realised and accepted that daddy is not gg to be around anymore. but then, when ruizhi is happy and laughs for NO particular reason, i can feel my dad is playing with her. okok, minus the creepy part. but its just, _____. i cannot find the word. its like, smths i still live in denial, thinking that daddy is gonna come home from night shifts in the morng with breakfast from the old A&W / macdonalds and stuff. sometimes i feel that, i'll see him soon at home, just waiting for him to come back. okok. daddy, if u're reading this now, PLS DUN like, come back. coz it'll freak me out. thank u.

ookok. enough enough. i just wished that i was more at home and stop trying to give inputs to a society that doesn't appreciate.

hahha. speaking of which, most probably, i'll approach the SBS HQ tmr to give suggestions to how to signal to passengers waiting for the last bus that IT'LL NEVER COME. i mean its like, yea, some bus stop states wad time the last bus will arrive..eg.. 0027. pls, since when public transport will ever be so so accurate. one minute could mean 30 mins if the poor child waits for the bus that would nv come.
ok, maybe not tmr. will probably write up a formal proposal or smth to show that i'm serious. coz its this mentality that aiya kids, nv la.

hahah. alittle more abit this suggestion if u wish to read on..

at the bus stops, u see the bus signs telling u which services are avaliable..maybe. like it'll be lighted up after 630pm. how the lighting would be- would e similar to those lighted bus no. plates (yea. those kind of lighting). so once, the last bus arrives at the stop, the bus driver can like use a remote control to switch of the lights, indicating that the particular bus service is no longer avaliable for the night.

and for the morning... to indicated if the first bus has arrived, (i think for this its quite redundant though), timing would be abt 6am when the sun havent rise. so the bus driver can switch on the lights. by 7am, the sun has probably risen and thus, to same electricity all the lights can be off coz the services would confirmed be functioning. and then when it comes to 630pm, the island-wide bus stop lights would be auo switch on again.the lights could probably serve as another purpose for those myopic/astigmatic ppl like me who cannot see properly. hahha. ok.



BAH. i feel that my laptop is not calibrated. ok its not calibrated coz its not a MAC. argh. my photos looks underexposed... too much difference from my camera and from my desktop.

Iscariot

Iscariot
Song and Lyrics by: Daniel Lim



Lead me to the mountain Lord
Away from the city of sin
Let me see your wounded hands
And be purified again

Lead me to the river Lord
That flows from the wound at your side
Guilty i see the spear in my hand
Forgiveness is right where i fell

Iscariot
Leave your silver
Beloved Peter
Leave your tears
Come and join me in
The city on a hill
Lead me to that promise land
As i leave my hammer and nails

Lead me to the crimson tree
back on that fateful night
Let me be crucified with you
And smile as i live again


He's my pri sch friend. photo taken in June 2005 where he, nic and nigel came over to jam. hhaah. well, not exactly jam but just to share abt guit. really honour this guy for his passion and talent. ahha. he has confessed that he cant play the piano: practial grade 3 and theory like grade 6 or 8?.. ahaa. usually its the other way round. but yea, i miss the times hearing him sing and nigel and i would stand amazed. haha. dun stop strumming tt string daniel! hhhaah. (: i'm sure that this is the only blog in the world that's playing this song now. HAHA. (*if u'd notice u and i make a difference. ahhaa. word pun, word pun.) ahaha.


some more to share.. (: haha. i dun think i'll have the time when sch starts..





enjoy! ahhaa.oh yea, that's a mannequin. i wanna try fashion photography... i think its quite hot. ahhaha. but i cant get it right. ahhaha.

go http://akosphotography.com/ tian ar!! the photos are just superbly awesome cool and over the top lars....

the number 23

"Be sure that your sin will find you out"
- Numbers 32:23 -

ok. i watched the movie ytd. i found it.. quite round the bush. i liked the concept of the psycho path thing, but i find the who sequence of it really boring. haha. but i think the writer sure did have a fun time trying to figure out usual things to relate to the no. 23. like.. the fav. colour:

PINK = White + Red = 65 + 27 = 92 / 4 (since pink has 4 letters) = 23.

haha. then it talked abt his name adding up to pink, when he met his wife, got married.. like on 10/13 and 11/12... alot of nonsensicals stuff. ahha. 6= 2 x 3.. and why the no. 23? coz 2/3= 0.66666... which is the devils' no. ahhaha

so yea. i guess writer did have a gd time figuring out the plot and how to make sense of everything. hahaha. i wouldn't mind reading the bk. but not the movie though. hahaahhaa.

i had the time ytd coz there wasn' trng again. ahha. there's trng this thurs... there's e Maundy Thurs service gg on. ): coz i think i need to go for trng.
well.its tmr. and i've got LOTS of things to do suddenly coz schs opening.

hahahha. i have been procrastinating stilll. ): hahah. AND. Ballet Exam is in less than 2 wks. freak out. haha.

on the 9th april. there's so many things happening. grr too many.

quicksand

thank u for reading my blog for those who have stumbled acrossed this nearly 4 yr old thing. if u like read back, u'd realised how much i've changed. be it in person myself, my blogging style, my struggles and my life. haha. i must say its been the 'cliche-ish' roller-coaster 4 yrs. hahaha. b4 u think that i'm blogging as if the end of the yr is approaching, i just want to say that thank u all for being my friends who have travelled with me thus far. be it long lost friends or friends who left and haven been 'picked up' on.... well, thank u.


haha. today. i spent the whole day persuading myself to pack my room. *claps head suddenly!* crap. i jsut rmbred at my Project 365 today. argh. ok. looks like i've got to use one of the junk shots that i took of my room. argh.
anyways. yes.
i'm still in the midst of clearing up my room. its reall packed and bags are everywhere, books are everywhere. i only started packing at 8pm. how horrible.
and now that things are everywhere, i've gotta clear them up, hook or by crook, before i sleep. ahha. i've stumbled across some of my old notes and letters and nonsensical certs from someelse where.. it brings be quite a handful of memoraries as i struggle to tell myself to throw throw and throw. i've been too much of a junk collector.

today, i just found out that i've missed the dateline for the RJC photography competiton now. ): nvm. hmm. i just pray and hope that u'll get over urself and stop being so so... petty.

so today's monday.looks like my rugby trngs are gonna be on tuesday now. i'd prefer it to be on a monday though.

anyways.
i wouldn't say this is the toughest phase of my life so far, but i would say that i'm struggling with myself, more on the emotive parts of it. friendships come and go. opportunites come and missed. despite of all the tracks that i'm on, i'm still unable to erase u off my mind.

haha. seriously. last night, i had like millions of dreams. its those that u dream of everyday life, in every aspects. nothing big nor interestion abt it. its just like that until i woke up. u were in it, sadly. haha. i just hope u're not reading this now, haha. besides, i'm proably 80% sure that u wont bother to even read this chuck of my life. haha. (: but seriously... for months and months,.. it still stays. pls tell me u hate me or smth. at least it'll give it a try.

so. abt 4-5yrs since my heart was there. i just hope to pull it out b4 i drown, like quicksand.
the harder u try, the faster u fall.

choices

today is filled with many 'costing' ones. literally.

in the morng, i met up gab for the meeting. supposed to meet at 10. but by 1015, there were only like 5 of us. i somehow got v frustrated. as in like.. very.
so i decided to cab down to church for Palm Sunday. coz i never miss Palm Sunday. in pri sch, although i dun go to church every sunday, Palm sundays, Christmas, Easter are a must. thus, i ended up with a decision to go church.

took some shots in church. sermon was like a repetition. he said smth like that somewhere last yr.
carrot, egg and Olong tea leaves. (the previous one was coffee beans though)
all 3 after boiling in hotwater,
carrot: hard to soft
egg: soft to hard
tea leaves: gives fragrance.
i rmbr clearly that i knew that i was the coffee beans last time. and i was proud of myself for feeling that way.
today, i gave a thought to it, and was a little surprised to find myself not knowing of the answer. i was stucked between carrot and egg in some situations.

i guess really, i seemed to have lost confidence and strength in my given task. i try to be steadfast and efficient, providing ppl with trust and committment. but this time round, most of the times, i feel that i could have done better. no, its not at being ms perfectionist, but really, any tom dick or harry could provide a more splendid result.

anyways. i was concerned over at gab's side. he learnt alot abt the rules, procedures and wadeva nots and i wanted to be there after dance.
howver, i've promised my cell grp to be there with them. so i went for cell. clark quay was big. and i couldn't find time, resorting to repetitative callings to eve. all directions givien dun seem to do any gd. and infact, i was gg further from meeting them.
i was really super duper frustrated. pls. try walking round the river 3 times with ur equipment in the blazing humid sun and only to find urself lost from ur destination. i know i've gone through that 101k la. but this is different can.

anyways. i was really agitatied.. so so frustrated that i was on the verge of saying vulguarities. i ended up sitting my the side of the river and calming myself down and reflecting of my actions.
wads more ironic is that as i was talking over the phone, as frustrated and nonsensical i may be, i was still able to tell myself to be cool but still, it didn't really work and i guessed my tone over to eveleen proved it. i'm trully sorry eve. i dun think this is the 1st time. haha. but i'm glad u didn't cry or anything like that haha. :p


i finally meet them. had games at Settlers. was a nice place though. played many many board games and stuff...


i guess.. overall... today was.. erm. i dunno. my eyes felt heavy and i could feel my black eye bags coming out.. plus all that shooting makes my vision so blurr.

i must be slow to anger. seriouslyy. i duno what's gotten over me. haha. oh well. i'll be nicer and show patience from now.