i'm out.

6 months

wasted time, energy, effort and money.

all that didn't matter seems to matter now.

i'm pretty glad to have finally woken up.

and i dont think i've ever moved on and out from anyone like this.

just a few days and weeks ago, i was still missing you.

but today, its like.. boomz. sudden realization.

so what if u're capable but dont have a heart?

u've got kindness on ur lips but not in ur actions. 

i dont think i'm even disappointed coz u're just way beyond.

i dont deserve you.
not someone who can just walk out and abandon my heart just bc his short term goal's aren't met.

doesn't make sense if u say u like a person, wanna move further but dun wanna spend time as friends to get to know each other first.

u're full of mind games especially when u say u dont. 

double standards.

honest open conversations?

u've never appreciated them. 

i've been so blinded by the good things when they aren't real.

how did i even trust you.

i guess i should be glad that u decided to walk away b4 i could fall deeper.

and i'm glad the defense was worth it

now knowing that u're a person like this.

well, i still wish u well.
that u'd find someone genuine to jump the gun with u, take risks, ride on adventures and with hope and confidence in a future that everything works out well.
i'm just sorry that i cannot have such confidence in a stranger like you.