i've gained

this new project really is a test of my patience, and to some extent.. resilience.

abit frustrating coz there's always a better way out but people are just so....... ugh.

but ok, at least i'm really learning alottt about the D checks of the A380.

but there's just too many things i wanna share with u! -_-"

was reading about the QF32 accident that had no fatalitites and it landed safely in singapore after engine 2 exploded coz of a misaligned oil pipe that wasn't strong enough or something. and i mean, it was likka massive damage where hydraulics, and several wirings were all severed. but it was interesting that the plane extinguished the fire that was in the engine on its own although the readings in the cockpit were haywirely screwed and did not show a stable fire warning. the pilots managed to land the plane safely though no3 couldn't be shut off even after landing. though i still can't believe that they took 2hrs to go through the checklist before deciding to land, they made some great decisions that saved everyone onboard. they're cool about it. was reading on of the long interviews and the more i read, the more i think that not only did the pilot displayed great airmanship, but the A380 is amazing.

i never liked the A380 since my heart belongs to the Queen of the skies, the 747. i think the A380 is bulky and ugly. it doesn't feel as streamline as the 747 and it just look like a mega huge version of the A320. its nice coz its big. but after reading more about the A380, i'm starting to have subtle feelings for it. ahhas. but 747 still the revolutionary one yow.

yea.

anyway. i've gained weight.

hahas.

and i think thats secretly one of the reason that my coach has fielded me in as a Forward for tmr's game. its my first time playing as a flanker... so its gonna be interesting. 

tmr's the first game of the season. i'm always a winger.. but since my fitness and speed has dropped, i guess i dun think i can be of value when i'm at the wing anymore. hahas. but anway, quite excited.  i hope that in this position, i can be more aggressive in my tackles and make each of them count.

my fear of tackling / getting tackled is always intermittent. i hope that this time as a forward, it'll literally help me be a stronger person.

secretly wish that u're there to watch me at the sidelines for some moral support, but its ok coz i dun wanna malu myself also. hahas. 

anyways. its been coooold these few nights. especially when the cold wind blows. the skies are red. and i think if Singapore has a winter season, it'd be now. i mean like, it hasn't rained alot these few days as how it would in the previous years. so yea, riding it the cold can be quite painful sometimes even when i've got my trusty jacket on. well, on a lighter note, it'd be nice with you around to have some hot chocolate or coffee with me. 

but now as it is, i should be adaptable.

today i was so frustrated that i freaking miss my dad alot.

i took out my phone and scrolled through some photos of him and i and i really really miss him.

imagine he and i, both at the airside now. i mean he'd be a super retireee so chances are almost nil, but its not impossible right. 

i think i'm really a hogger.

if ppl just leave me like that, especially when i'm unwilling and not willing to let go, it seems that i can never learn to let go.

aiya. long day tmr. touch trng in the morng, mission debrief in the afternoon, and the 2 games for the league in the evening. 

may i be safe tmr.

keep focused.