HELLOWEEEN

hello!



kinda like this photo the way it is
interesting wkend.

the WTL touch league ended last sat.
had a good last game.

and my sis and her husband bought me a new bag from her holiday trip to aussie. :D
i've got something simliar, but all bags are <3 .="" p="">

in the evening, went to USS Halloween Night! not a big fan of Halloween coz i dont see the point, but since eveleen jio-ed and plan, just go and have some fun with the friends man. at the rate i'm going at work, i need a social life and practice work-life balance.

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and so, here's the group.. 

it was likka 4 couple date night.... felt abit out-of-place-cum-awkward coz they all had their other half with them. so dickson had to be my 4 hr stand-in bf. hahas. 

good effort to the additional lightings and smoke. i know the smoke thing is not cheap.

looking abit like MBS. (the lighting)

i think she's damn chio.

probably some walt disney princess by day, and a witch by night.

i think in USS context, she's probably the girl from Shriek or something. we stopped and looked at her for quite awhile coz no matter how evil she tried to look, still chio.

and i think the main highlight of the night was the Haunted house - the 2hr queue up for it. 

before that, thanks to my wide circle of friends, saw a friend working at the Transformer station, so instead of waiting for 50mins, she let the 8 of us into the express queue! (: so it was like less than 5 mins waiting time. 

but this one,..... i think the looong wait really killed us. so we're like spamming photos and stuff.

hahas. by the time we're about to go in, we were like... ok.. feeling abit tired to render a response from all the scares. ahhas Jay was like saying to "eh, when we see the zombie, tell it to scare us 1 more time to make our money and time's worth". ahahs. 

but oook la.

it wasn't that scary because of the crowd. the screamings of the girls from the front group probably preempted us of where the 'sudden pop-ups' are going to be. 

you know, i'm damn scared of scary movies, but when it comes to this haunted house, its really ok only. not that i'm brave, but i think my analytical mind takes control when i'm probably in a fight or flight mode. the whole year of engineering study probably also tweeked my mind into becoming more objectively analytical with my surroundings. ahhas. while in the house, i was like analyzing all the deco, the possible blindspots to scare ppl,  the atmospheric effect and all. on top of that, during the HK study trip i went in my poly days, Ocean Park mgmt revealed to us the set-up of their haunted house in daylight. basically, when they switched on the lights, switched off the music and minus all the smoke and fake dead people, it just seemed like dirty walls with cotton wools, threads (to be like spiderwebs), some red paint here and there and yea, that's about it. but when all the effects start to gel up in place, whooots. it was a bigggg difference. ahhas. that Marketing study trip was to highlight how our senses can be deceived.

anyway, another reason why i was in my analytical mode is because i dont have like a boyfriend to be in my scared mode. ok, that sounds childish, but hear me out first!

in all honesty, i believe girls can be mentally strong if they really want to when it comes to reality. its just that we probably have the rights, being cultivated by the society and the media to just be vulnerable and fit the socially-percieved 'right' norms. maybe 'rights' is a wrong noun to use, but its more like... the 'just-because-s'. i do believe that if i had a boy whom i'm willing to spend my life with beside me in that situation, i would be lazy in my thoughts and just live.in.the.moment and enjoy the fact that i can be loved and protected. true that? i mean, i'm saying this in context that we all know that the haunted house in USS is man-made for entertainment purposes. we go in for the thrill and fun of it.... its either with the presence of ego or the absence of ego that we take a stand in the reaction that we want to be compelled to.

i mean like, i can do it in such context. but when watching man-made horrow shows, that's a totally different ball game uh. but i hope i'm making sense to whatever i'm trying to say! hahas.

but yes, my fear still stands as being unable to be alone in a dark room.

i think i can be brave in a darkroom with anyone, and i can be alone in a lited room (ok, this one not too sure actually), but not when the 2 negative atmospheric conditions occur together. so USS was like crowded, so really.. there's no way that u can die or smth.

anyway, didn't manage to take more photos of the haunted house because of the poor lighting and all. but good job and effort. i like the last part when its all mirrors in about 45 dec adjacent with each other. coz i keep bumping into the mirrors. M9 Human Factor teaches us about the photoreceptors in our eyes.. the rods and cones. so in the dark, it was quite obvious that the rods in my eyes are not as good now as compared to the days when i was like 6 or 7, playing catching in the dark.  

ok, and so, is spent $18 on a cup.

hahas. interesting cups and bags are really my weakness. hahas.

and so, my usual busy sunday.
... the usual sunday rain, as if on a planned schedule. muddy and sore from ytd's games...
ending off with sam's damien's 1st bday!
so fast its been 1 year. another of my fav couple. known the both of them since i was 15.
long way more to go for theem.


lastly,
interesting topic during the youth service today. though it was at a very basic level, i guess also because of it's basic level, it really reminded me alot of the commitments and promises i've made to myself when i was younger. promised to keep for myself and to wait. somehow along the way, it seemed so difficult to keep all these promises in check. but after today's sharing, it was like all clear answers to my struggles and difficulty.
i probably want to share with you but i guess you wouldn't want to listen from my perspective. there's just too many daily stuff that i want to share with you, but lets all continue to think that this is the best way out so far. still been thinking. but if its just going to be this way, i guess it can't get any worse or any better. anyway, whatever it is, i'm glad i'm taking more courage to face my fears. somehow, i feel myself becoming more and more objective because of this difficult phase.
i just hope that after this year, i can really let all these go. really. may this be a lesson learnt.
i'lll take it one step at a time. and if caring of someone brings too much hurt to oneself, then i guess its really best to be selfish and start thinking for oneself.






whokay. time to sleep.
i'm probably doomed tmr, coz i'm still working on this plan and its been 2 weeks. i shouldn't be testing his patience like that right. hope i'll be brilliant at work tomorrow and finish up this plan to do my exciting wkend some justice.