heart

sometimes
this yr, i feel that i'm not doing many things with my heart.
maybe its better this yr; at least i'm still enjoying myself.


abit h2h.
today i went down for the singapore rugby 7s; totally abandoning any possible chances of studying.
was sad that i couldn't be on the field at all because of a very minor thing gives me trouble walking.
but, i was happy to see the girls enjoy themselves, fighting with each other, tackling each other, and then saying sorry after the game. ok. not very sorry-sorry, but more of the.. hahas-hope-u-dun-mind kinda feeling.
and and.. guess who i saw... LYNETTE! haven't seen her in agess.
((: great to see her again.


alone times in a rugby, i really can't help but to think the what-if-u're-still-here scenario.
be with on the field, with the team or still with me, i think abt it.
wonder how's life gg on for u now.
but u're the kind of happy-go-lucky kinda, so i'm pretty sure that u deal with situations well.
just pray that u dun fall into ur lazy mode, wanting to stay at home all day long. may army do u good now.
to help u grow stronger as a person and as a leader that i've always been encouraged by.
yea. how nice of me.




so today ends 3 grueling rounds of 3 wks of 2 days hardcore rugby 7s.
9am-4pm each wk end.
didn't really learnt much as i've expected to, but know that i've got to work so much harder. not on physically/ technically, that's secondary. but my mental.
i need to learn to be confident of myself again.
really confident. not arrogant, but confident enough to do my best and help the rest. (omg, it rhymes!) hahas.
yup. (:



ok. i've got exactly 5 days to start and finish gm and finace.
big big.
but i know i'm a v hardworking last min person. so i should use this wk very wisely.
in a way, thank God for the timely injury? though it means sacrificing alot of dance works, it means upp-ing my time to study.
yea, and i'm officially out of bound for trng. even if i want to have a few runs with the team, i can't.
so yes, serves me right, amen.
may i not use the uncomfortable leg as an excuse to not study will; not valid at all.



and ya, with all that, can i just officially end my not-here-not-there/ trng-season-games period of time.
world cup selection results for touch out on tue. i doubt that i will make the team.
if i do, HAHA, i will... stop drinking softdrink for the rest of my life. HAHA. but oh wells. i think i wanna excel in rugby more. that will be for next yr, seriously. this will officially be my last yr for bowling competitively (unless i continue to study in a sch again); no money/ time& effort to go into consistent trngs any more. so yea, yr end, might wanna go milo/penang to just chiong my final moments bowling as a comptitive bowler. HAHA.




gd nite.



i didn't want to take time out to see a doc to get referral for physio to claim insurance (what a mouthful), but at the looks of it now, i think tmr mrng, i will wake up especially early to go see peter moey and get referral.
and i need to rub it down.
its so bad, that when this lady saw me limping to the toliet, she offered me to use the handicapp toliet.
and, otw home with mama, the taxi driver said that he'll speed up so that i can go home earlier as my leg's hurting.
zomgs. ahhahs.

u know, when i walk/limp, i get sudden twitches of sharp pain when the muscle moves slightly.
okok. TMR WILL BE A FRUITFUL DAY I SAY.