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today was up against TP.

i felt that this was a mental game more than anything else for me.

honestly. i was having wierd mixed feeilngs. happy to play with them coz they're ur friends... excitied and alll. but, all the more u want to win them because u've watched them grow into touch players. somemore, we're like a club and they're like a school. it's like a stigma thing whereby a club always seems to be stronger than a school.

the major feeling was more of like apprehension-duno-what's-the-outcome feeling. confident, but anything can happen. but i knew i wanted to win this. then. i was scared that i would be put to centre. coz my defense for centre really cmi. so during warm up. i think i was trying to be focus and urgent abt everything and became abit upset when i started to feel the rest wasn't as urgent as i wanted it to be. then got abit frustrated when i was dropping balls and like no one was talking. perhaps i was too much alone?
but really ar, thank God for jaz who like reminded me alot of things. in her own aunty ways, ahhahas, she was really able to set things right for me. also thank God for puishan, oats and cc who i felt was quite serious abt this. i feel la. ahhahs.


she told me to set a goal that's like 100% passes and catches. i felt comfortable abt it. then i realised.. if i was comfortable abt it.. then i think i can afford to raise the bar a little higher. then again, i just thought that the more i think of it, i think the more pressure i'm putting on myself- learnt from bowling. hah.

so. ultimately, my goal was to play my best. to the right thing to be effective on the field.


then just b4 the start.. i'm put to link. damn happy. my buddy sub was gillian. was gd coz her fitness gd. so can like fast sub each other. nice. u know, i always dislike being first 6. always so timid. but gillian also didn't want so i unwillingly got onto the field.

hahas.

then on our first attack, we did our 44. then near tryline, another move was called. so i made a switch with khairu and i stepped back into e same gap. then the def on my left missed me. i got shocked. then i saw a pair of blue boots coming towards me (ya, i'm that short to only notice the boots), then i stepped again, getting all ready to dump the ball and continue the move... then.. she missed! omg. i got shocked. then ran through and scored.
omg. shocked. on the first attack some more. but was damn delighted coz i finally succeeded in stepping to a try. my prob is always stepping too late, then stop. either i'm alrdy too close to defender to do anything or, if successful, i'll be shocked and stop there to take the dump.

so, on this, i made improvement.


another gd thing today, i rmbr its either jaz made a switch with a centre or with me.. but she was running left into a gap alrdy when i'm on her right link. then i reminded myself to support nearer horizontally coz although i do support, my support can be improved if i'm like lateral with my ball carrier when its near score line. so i did just that and whooolaaa.. jaz passed when the def came in for her and i dive catch to score. was reallly pleasantly surprised when i actually caught the ball. then score. hahas. omg. major inner happiness pls.
reminded me of the pass she made to me at bangkok also... where she dummyhalf break and i ran to support and made an impt score to equalize.


maybe its also coz i'm at the right place at the right time.


2 bad things.. i made one chuck pass to jaz. exact same thing that happened in sunig with shihan. i saw the gap and wanted my player to be there w/o looking or calling for her. hahas. so in the end, drop ball. i guess for this, dont kan choing. see gap then see gap la. so excited for what. hahahs.
another one was marli dummyhalf break through... she did that many times. on the first time when she was near me, i went up to her to make the touch. in the end, she gave touch pass so i felt that yay-ness. then 2nd time, i went up on her again, as marli is marli, she learns fast. the stepped like many many times.. then finally found her free support... and then the score was made by tp. i duno if in this case i should still go up for her and also be prepared to mirror when missed.
sim coach teaches different (from sch and club) defense for this.


i think today's like one of my best plays so far. i think i played slightly better during that bangkok game with bangers but for today, i felt it was the best i could arldy. so i was proud to say that it was my best when boo asked the team individually. abit bhb, but i know i wont say things i dont mean.


after the game, i thought we drew man. then no.. we lost!! 6-5. damn sad. it was like.. shittt! but tp played well together. u can see that they wanted it more tgt as a team than us. i just felt that for our team, as some were new, they didn't have that club pride to fight for. maybe just not cultivated in them yet. haizz.


i duno if its really because that i'm put to link that i can perform.. or.. its just a mental thing that because i'm more comfortable with link, i play better. so i asked boo. she said for my size and all.. centre suits me. but then, my playing style is more suited for link.
for me, all i know is that on the link, when i can see better, talk better, catch my breath better, call the moves better, i get more calm and then play better. maybe i should just learn to step out of my comfort zone and stop giving myself excuses.


so ok.
move on and start improving from here.



then was sunig awards neite at NUS multipurpose sports hall. nice to see all other sports pppl from other schs aand all. only got touch 3rd medal. hahas. i still want a team medal for bowling. heck it.
and guess who i saw! H-E-R. o m g. hahhas. she said hi to me first b4 i could recognise her. (: i'm so gg to talk to her soon. hahas. i'm gg proceed on with my mission. AHHAHA.






WAH. I DIDN'T KNOW THAT CANON PHOTOMARATHON'S TODAY. i wanted to take part this yr. SAD. only found out when i saw the ppl in the event shirt walking around with their big cams when i went to collect my salomon x-trail race pack.