i somehow discovered alot of stuff during revision. ahhas.
then during the dry run before actual test, surya and i did perfect. like no mistake.
then during the test, we got stupid mistakes. my leg, STRUCKED the curb on crank course. coz i tried to kick up to gear 2 but it stucked on neutral gear. soon enough, the bike stalled in crank course = immediate failure.
was damn sian. that's like the 3rd station for the prac test.
then so like for narrow plank and E brake... i really like heck it. just do normal la.
then i really knew that i failed.
then results came. omg. i passed. ON THE 8TH TIME..
could tell that he unwillingly passed me. but because he said my riding was ok.. just that need more consistency in the figure 8 and crank course and more correct posture when riding then can alrdy. i was stunned man.
the students today in prac 5 was fun. or rather, on monday slot was fun. i had fun. (: when i'm back from bangkok, i'm gg to take revision prac with surya again coz i wanna be a safer and consistent biker. i'll try taking other bikes rather than just no. 42. hahas.
i'm happy.
but felt that i dont deserve it.
so its RTT on 29th, PDL and then my prac 6. yea.
oh yea. saw josias driving car in the circuit. i waved, he didn't see. so his instructor called him look at me while he was trying to make a turn or smth. haahs.
so amanda met up with me after that! (:
she accompanied me to SCDF HQ to make enquiries abt my dream and see if i can get some scholarship.
and u know what, damm it, i missed the deadline all thanks to this SCDF staff at the career fair who told me the wrong information some time back. that's not the point. the bottom line is, SAF offers much better welfare and benefits to sign ons. SCDF has practically limited or not so friendly.
and. THE HEIGHT ISSUE. i'm so going to bash my way in; somehow. really dont want my height to be like a big major issue that really blocks me out from my dream.
honestly, when she said all those facts, my heart was crying. drama emo shit. but i told myself dont be too nonsense so as to teari infront of this nice ofice lady and amanda over something that dont seem so significant in anyone's but my life. hahas. on that moment, i realised that i was dead serious about my goal in life but also realizing that i was keeping my options too closed.
after that, walking out the HQ was actually feeling all defeated and beaten because not only i can't get a scholarship (because its non-existent in my context) and may not even get a job there because of my height. i dont want to be a civillian staff. it's a term for describing office ppl in the SCDF. i really want to save lives because i know i can.
tmd.
so i immediately called Ronald from SAF for more advice.
he's actually one of the more senior and higher rank personal in the SAF. met him when i was in yr 2 helping out in the muzino run. we chatted during e event because we had the same views on the way the event was terribly held and stuff like that. during that time, he was looking for a female fitness specialist so he approached me. i told him that my goal was a fireman and super not interested in SAF at all. he respected my decision but told me to think about it. ahhas.
we've been in contact for the past 2 yrs, occassionally updating each other about our paths in life. more like abt mine because his one's a straight road up alrdy. so, i MAY consider SAF as my choice if only it a job gives me a 100% satisfication and allow me to work in other ppl's life, making a major difference. probably meeting him soon to meet more career ppl and get advices.
honestly, i dont mind being a not paid fireman although i still need money to get along. hahas.
HAIZ. i'm still gonna try and persue my ultimate dream, but rmbring to keep my options open.
after that, amanda accompanied me all the way to her sch, SIM to subit form and make payment which i didn't in the end because the nets card wasn't powerful enough to pay the fees. so, i'm gg to hand in late on wednesday because i'm gg for this orientaion there and then. wasted the trip. hated the premises.
went back tamp area. went to sch, collected my awards... then met sam.
aston's at Cafe @ Jurong- the name of a hawker in tampines. hahahas. yea.
chatted. updated. talk our nonsense. we never fail to laugh at our lame nonsense which will turn out funny.
then went to Marina Barrage. take stupid photos and play daidee.
hahas.suppered. homed.
church campers are back!
read blogs and to me, i feel real happy for ppl who feel God there and everywhere. we need more of such opportunities and not just when u're out of our comfort zone or like Singapore. u know, i only recently got to know that Pastor's ill and needed an op. such a big thing and i didn't know abt it only until recently. :/ . worried for him, but i know he's hin good Hands.
(: to meet them.
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