dedication svc

well. to start things first,
this morng, i was still at the video.

then i rushed for the competition.
doubles event, with samantha.
i think we lost the medal because of me. ): for the 1st game, we're leading ahead coz she had a 213.. 2nd game, she downed to 135 and i uped to 175.. and the last 2 games, i buang. just couldn't get the shot there. the shots made seemed sooo passion-less. its like... just throwing the ball down. there wasn't impact nor speed. plus the dry lane condition, it wasn't doing me good.

i am disappointed. its really letting those medals slip through my fingers. tmr is quartet event. lets see how it goes. pray.



after that. rushed to church for CBC.
i really wanted to see how the video turned out. after many months of freaking out, failed attempts to learn adobe premier pro, the v last wk of madness resulting to TWO days W/O proper sleep... is CAN DIE. i'm alittle disappointed coz i cannot really fully enjoy the fruits of my labour. coz i'm confident that the video can indeed be a beautiful testimony because it's led by God.
i think honestly, i learnt alot through this whole painstaking process.

i committed that 4mins worth of photos to God. i am actually very amazed how i am still able to tahan and not fall sick or being overly cranky. thanks be to God seriously. like through the night, i was frantically searching for verses. didn't know where to start nor end. i stumbled across alot verses, more like words of comfort from God. in the Proverbs and Songs of Songs book. in the end, biblegateway saved my life and when i saw these verses, in my heart.. it was like.. it's the ONE.
and when i look out of my window. to my horror- sunrise. haha. conclusion, if u have the passion and goal, with God, can one.


so yes, was in time for sermon and while busily pushing myself to take gd shots, Bishop John highlighted the verse abt 'the city on the hill... light cannot be hidden'. i was like... Amen.

and i really want to thank God for allowing to pull through and give me strength. ahha. sounds like a big feat right. its because of my trainings, competitions, as well as projects and submissions that makes this whole thing challenging..


so. there's one more church thing left- mission video. *smiles widely.



looking through past photos really deepened alot of my thoughts.
i guess, i nv really thought abt this but; why am i a photographer?
mainly, my dad.
i mean i've been taking alot of photos b4 he passed on, coz its already an interest at a very young age. when my father really physically left, i realised that only photos could 'bring him back'. and i really regretted. coz i was using alot of film in the past (digital cams costed a bomb then) and thus, very limited photo of him. and you know wad... i DO NOT have a video of my dad AT ALL. *SOBS pls. haizzzzzz. and i guess, its only photos that really can bring the heart. glen would understand what i'm trying to say, esp with regards to thailand.
seen alot of old old photos abt Ascension, and it really did reaffirmed some stuff going on in my head.

and i did pass by certain photos.
looking at those photos, it really did feel that i was living in my own little fairy tale with barbed wire. haha. thankfully, i did treasure those moments. i dun think i want it back. i just want a friend back.
comparing the colourful photos of then and now, sigh. indifferent. and just, unwish forth ignorance.

i miss gary! this morng, had a very brief msn chat early in the morng. and i misssss this person. haha. i think its really amazing and by God's grace that we live near each other n can sustain such a friendship till now. i can see this like 50ys down the road.. and we'll be like... 'hey, wanna go blk 51 eat bak chor mee again?' hahha.

ok. i guess i'm getting alittle high.

tonight, i am going to SLEEEEP. got to be at yishun by 930am, and win a medal back.



meanwhile.. some of the photos!








dont ask why. haha.
check out the eye bags! and probably stuff my bowling stuff.
'Afraid of Growing Up'(title)