quartet. tko.

well. we didn't play well and lost. but we're kinda glad that nus won. ): that the other ntu team dropped. haha. the 4 of us are ): because they won.
well, i think i had fun bowling with the 3 of them. and i'm sure they did too. hahah
tp didn't win anything. not being bhb.. but quite surprising. i guess coz we lack the seriousness that other team had. haha. but yea la. we alll had fun, and i think that's enough.

after that, watched the boy's squad for awhile.. then sz sent me home all the way from yishun. i was so so so tired that i slpt all the way. and really like deep sleep kind. like T.K.O leh. like T.K.O leh.

i came home, watched tv, eat and reallly force myself to put myself in a resting postition. so i watched mr. and mrs smith on channel 5! haha. i like the movie and i think angelia jolie is hooootttt. but i dun quite like the ending. its like... no tail la.


until 11pm. so now, doing my IJ. and after that, i am going to SLEEEP. b4 gg to sch to hand in my project. haha. darn. its the last day of the year and i dun like how i'm spending it. haha.
hopefully tmr's trng will be a gd one pls. enough of dily dally attitudes.




can u believe it. tmr is like e END Of 2007. oh man. tsk tsk. so not ready la...

dedication svc

well. to start things first,
this morng, i was still at the video.

then i rushed for the competition.
doubles event, with samantha.
i think we lost the medal because of me. ): for the 1st game, we're leading ahead coz she had a 213.. 2nd game, she downed to 135 and i uped to 175.. and the last 2 games, i buang. just couldn't get the shot there. the shots made seemed sooo passion-less. its like... just throwing the ball down. there wasn't impact nor speed. plus the dry lane condition, it wasn't doing me good.

i am disappointed. its really letting those medals slip through my fingers. tmr is quartet event. lets see how it goes. pray.



after that. rushed to church for CBC.
i really wanted to see how the video turned out. after many months of freaking out, failed attempts to learn adobe premier pro, the v last wk of madness resulting to TWO days W/O proper sleep... is CAN DIE. i'm alittle disappointed coz i cannot really fully enjoy the fruits of my labour. coz i'm confident that the video can indeed be a beautiful testimony because it's led by God.
i think honestly, i learnt alot through this whole painstaking process.

i committed that 4mins worth of photos to God. i am actually very amazed how i am still able to tahan and not fall sick or being overly cranky. thanks be to God seriously. like through the night, i was frantically searching for verses. didn't know where to start nor end. i stumbled across alot verses, more like words of comfort from God. in the Proverbs and Songs of Songs book. in the end, biblegateway saved my life and when i saw these verses, in my heart.. it was like.. it's the ONE.
and when i look out of my window. to my horror- sunrise. haha. conclusion, if u have the passion and goal, with God, can one.


so yes, was in time for sermon and while busily pushing myself to take gd shots, Bishop John highlighted the verse abt 'the city on the hill... light cannot be hidden'. i was like... Amen.

and i really want to thank God for allowing to pull through and give me strength. ahha. sounds like a big feat right. its because of my trainings, competitions, as well as projects and submissions that makes this whole thing challenging..


so. there's one more church thing left- mission video. *smiles widely.



looking through past photos really deepened alot of my thoughts.
i guess, i nv really thought abt this but; why am i a photographer?
mainly, my dad.
i mean i've been taking alot of photos b4 he passed on, coz its already an interest at a very young age. when my father really physically left, i realised that only photos could 'bring him back'. and i really regretted. coz i was using alot of film in the past (digital cams costed a bomb then) and thus, very limited photo of him. and you know wad... i DO NOT have a video of my dad AT ALL. *SOBS pls. haizzzzzz. and i guess, its only photos that really can bring the heart. glen would understand what i'm trying to say, esp with regards to thailand.
seen alot of old old photos abt Ascension, and it really did reaffirmed some stuff going on in my head.

and i did pass by certain photos.
looking at those photos, it really did feel that i was living in my own little fairy tale with barbed wire. haha. thankfully, i did treasure those moments. i dun think i want it back. i just want a friend back.
comparing the colourful photos of then and now, sigh. indifferent. and just, unwish forth ignorance.

i miss gary! this morng, had a very brief msn chat early in the morng. and i misssss this person. haha. i think its really amazing and by God's grace that we live near each other n can sustain such a friendship till now. i can see this like 50ys down the road.. and we'll be like... 'hey, wanna go blk 51 eat bak chor mee again?' hahha.

ok. i guess i'm getting alittle high.

tonight, i am going to SLEEEEP. got to be at yishun by 930am, and win a medal back.



meanwhile.. some of the photos!








dont ask why. haha.
check out the eye bags! and probably stuff my bowling stuff.
'Afraid of Growing Up'(title)

burn

omg. i actualy burn the night again coz there's need to a few changes.

e movie maker hanged on me for like 10 times? like every 5mins will hang. and that took up alot of my time.


but thank God for my laptop. its been working hardcorely with me for the past 48hrs. i still need you for the next 3 days straight for the IJs and projects. will let u rest after monday k. ahahhaha. hope it all goes well.

almost there!

for the 100m sprint! haha.


the sun has risen.
and i'm finishing it!!! whoooots.


my com has crashed several times, but thanks to the invention of RECOVERY FILE. ahha. (:

dead-line.

NTU Invitiationals this morng till 6pm. so didn't go for wilson's surprise macdonald bday party. ): i reallllllyyyyyyyyy want to see them so much! esp my fireman.
):


ahha. the tournament was fun, having to see my long lost fellow 'enemies' in the alley. like how last time mgs, tkgs, ijtp, rgs and my sch looked at each other. now we're all grown up and into the tertitary level arldy. ahha.

i didnt bowl exactly v well. managable la. considering that the last time i bowled was pol-ite, the day b4 my departure for mission trip. so i think i did ok-ly well.

looking forward to doubles. hope to grab something back with samantha. dun want to loose any opportunities.



after that we cell dinner! we had a lot of food. was pot luck and really alot of food. was quite fun, but only if there's more time for games and felllowship. i think that'll be great.



after that, homed.
and now, ruushing the vidddeoo.


i'm so so so worrrried. firstly, its PIXELATED on my SCREEEN. so if its like gonna be projected = DIE.
and it IS going to be projected!

and. the sad thing is that. i cant be in church tmr for the prac due to trng.
and, i'll be late for church coz of the NTU invitnal on sat that ends pro-lly at 6pm? thus, missing the dedication service. ):

busy busy 2 days ahead. i see if i can squeeze in IJs tmr! and PRAY and CROSS ALL YOUR FINGERS n in faith, I WILL FINISH THE VIDEO BY THIS VERY NIGHT. amen.

whoots

ohoh. stumbled across this photo in the chunk of old photos i'm gg through right now.
handsome plus charming right. hahahhahaa. ((:

i shoot u.

Christmas Day

Hi all! Merry Blessed Christmas.

church was overwhelmed with ppl and gifts of joy.
thank u friends for the gifts and presents. (: it the message that comes through these gifts that really mean alot.

after church, had lunch with the usual family and friends combination. felt very tired after that, having only 2hrs of slp last night. so when i got home, slept till 6 plus. not a very nice way to spent Christmas hur.

i switched on the tv, chnl 5- Bilzzard. it was like the last half hour of the movie. don't really know wads the movie abt.
but 2 points strucked me.

"The greatest gift is True Friendship"
"When a friend goes away, the friendship doesn't"

and with all the cosy settings, i almost teared coz it was so touching. and considering i dun even know the whole storyline.



but yea, the greatest gift is the Love from Christ. and friendship is a big part of it. and that probably, that's my greatest wish from Santa Christ.


haha.
so there's Peter Pan today. v nice movie. love the whole setting of it. i think the Director is gd. did alitttle read up.. and i realised that there's alot of Literture in it, originated from a play. alot of themes abt grown up. haha. i think it'll be a gd book to read.

Merrrry Christmas folks!

the annual Christmas dinner, always at the old Roysth Road. now, its at Chuan Garden.

feels abit different. probably we're older, plus the fact that this year time flies too quickly.

oh yes. today. trng was cancelled due to poor attendance. and due to some probs with the tree, supi and i went to sch. ): yea. the new field sucks. too much black rubbery stuff. i'd rather prefer mud pls. the black stuff stinks and it goes into ur sports bra alot more. and it causes alot more abrasions. haha. gd luck to the boy's team.


so this is Christmas time of the year again.
2yrs ago, i still rmbr walking into Dennis' office. and in that lift, we're just so nervous, excitied, and yet afraid. haha. and then at the youth room was prayer; full of hope and excitement, just to embrace the road and journey ahead. hahah.
i'll never forget those apprehensive moments. those blessings. those joy.

and now, at this very day, 2 yrs later. haha. i'm really embracing this journey, a U-turn right back. haha.






i've completed the presents!! ((: now. i'm still deciding wad song to use for e video..

Something Beautiful

Something Beautiful- Jars of Clay




Recording: Coffeeshop Nite 2007
Vocals: Daniel & Nigel
Guitars: Marian & Nigel
Bass: Tracy
Percussion: Paul


[verse]
If you put your arms around me
Could it change the way I feel
I guess I let myself believe
That the outside might just
Bleed it's way in
Maybe stir the sleeping past
Lying under glass
Waiting for the kiss
That breaks this awful spell
Pull me out...of this lonely cell

[chorus]
Close my eyes and hold my heart
Cover me and make me something
Change this something normal
Into something beautiful

[verse]
What I get from my reflection
Isn't what I thought I'd see
Give me reason to believe
Never leave me incomplete
Will you untie this loss of mine
It so easily defines me
Do you see it on my face?
And all I can think about
Is how long
I've been waiting to feel you move me

[chorus]
Into something beautiful
Into something beautiful

[bridge]
And I'm still fighting for the
Word to break these chains
And I still pray when I look
In your eyes, you'll stare right
Back down into something beautiful

[chorus]
Into something beautiful
Into something beautiful
Into something beautiful

feelin' in.

Christmas is like here already la.


after yet another rehearsal, went dinner and shopping with the aunties and friends. haha.

came home. tired. but pressed on. and ta-dah! i've done like 80 gifts already! this year is the fastest as compared to previous years. ahhaha. this yr mass gifts are more useful and meaningful and demands not so much time making it. rocks hur. and those that are done, are based purely on memorary. ahah. haven't referred to any listed names or wadsoeva. haha.


hahha.


I can do everything through
Him who gives me strength.
-Philippians 4:13-


haha. i'll rmbr that for life.



presson presson.
i can do this, with Him.

A Glimpse of Heaven

by the publicity team!

cant do w/o them. Man of Steel huur.

Creator King with effects...

food from awesome ppl.

the musicians. first time on the synth.

and with the liangs. haha.

3 shepherds. hahahhaha.

and lovely angels.

hmm... hahaha.


whoohoo. cleannn up time.


the lums plus paul and i... Something Beautiful.. i try to get hold of a nice recording first yea.


for more photos.. click here




well. was a little tired. but, real glad that everyone had fun. again, when eugene led, the HS was ushered again. amen.
and for the song we did, i think we did well! ahha. we had very limited pracs until today. haha. like last min, we did like 8 recordings in the youth rm! hahaha. great to play with them. must train to sing nice nice one day.
oh yea. nigel and daniel sang well. ytd... after the prac.. my mum was like.. "whoa. the lum brothers gd ar". haha.
not forgetting the al-so-cool bassist tracy and our shaker, paul. haha.

and today's, my first time on the syth. super afraid. coz i'm so technically not there. haha. so i had to clear closely to wad i was playing.

as for marc's band.. wasted coz could hear his electric. but on the whole, it sounded good. yea bpy.

and the dance. well, we always had fun when we're on stage and off stage, esp freaking out like a few seconds b4 we hit ths stage. but it went well. (: well done to daniel who learnt the dance in ONE day and had like minimal pracs.

raine and pete is awesome. as usual. hahah.

kim sang with gloria! they gave the goose bumps... coz it was whoohoo! coool.

oh yes. creator king and the angels. haha. well done. really gifted from God.


to me, this year i wanted to like chill yow. like just perform one item with nigel coz last yr we've already wanted to do a chilling-acoustic kinda thing. haha. and within a notice of ONE wk, i found myself in 4 items. well, i wasn't supposed to be in the worship team for tonight. but joanne came late for prac so as i was fiddling, i was called in. hahaa. happy coz i've always wanted to do smth with the keyboard. but worried coz i know full well that i'm not there yet. haha. but yea, with God's grace, it went well.


so yea.thus, i did not go for the Christmas Party with the rugby girls. the theme was retro night. haha. saw the effeciently uploaded pics by rach.. they really looked cool. haha.




oh well. i'm still lacking that courage. haha. but why must it be me? but then again, what's really there to talk abt since there's nothing left.

something beautiful.

be sure to catch A Glimpse of Heaven Tmr!



had practice today. up till this stage, i'm not confident in whatever i do. be it in the music, dance or even sports, still lack that confidence.
tsk tsk.


i think its quite funny how my thoughts abt nonsensical details were right abt you. hhaha. great minds think alike. rmbr 'the ability to feel for each other'? i'm not sure if this still applies. haha.


tonight, it feels that i'm some FIB investigator. going through all the past files and photos, still trying to analyze- what went wrong. hahaha. 'brought to you by national geographic'. haha.


independence vs transparency
i'll figure that out. haha.





give it up man,
just give up.

CF

CF card; like a Ctrl Freak

sometimes i ask myself, what if not being marian, i know marian.
how would i see her as...
not so much of peer esteem, but WWJD.
am i living a life that God is smiling from above.


i guess that explains the mixed feelings i'm feeling these few days; like some reshuffling of issues in life.
hoho.
you can say that again.



you know like how ppl demands so much from you;
and ppl eventually end up changing, for better or worse, your heart feels. and then you ask yourself is it your actions or response or just plain internal factors that cause such a emotion to occur.
and at the end of the day, you get frustrated, resulting to being angry with yourself.

and above all, you choose to deny it all.
lagi best.



seriously, sometimes many a times, i unnecessarily tire myself just by being negative and falling into my selfpity mode. and to make the situation worse, i put myself in a position whereby i'm alone, possibly surronded by 4 walls. and then, i blame question myself- in that mode. haha. like in a police interrogation room.

so you start looking at your Indox SMSes, or resort to scrolling down the names in you phonebook. at the Ds, you're like... forget it. and your're not even a quarter way through.
hmmm. Ds. hahaha.



anyways. for other matter.
maybe i'm glad that things are changing abit, but at a megaultimately slow pace that a snail would win that speed. but i just hope that u're realising that i'm still actually looking out for you, despite telling myself to heck it.

carolling

ok. i'll limit just to 5 photos. the rest can be found at http://ascensiontny.blogspot.com/ the photos section.

b4 we left.


the relatively younger boys.

and i think this is all the girls.

our annual brothers photo. our 3rd yr birthday is TMR!

and yes, meet my CELL and my beautiful cell leaders. (:

ok. this year, the no. of boys really overpowered the girls.
thank God there isn't rain.
and, a gd time of fellowship.


this morng trng was 3hrs and i can feel the muscles aching now. we did the diving thing again, and now, my leg is filled with more itchy rashes and ugly cuts. haha. blech. i dun like tembusu field.


after that, went home b4 heading off for carolling. after carolling, went to watch a movie with some of them. i know i had a gd time. its been ages since i'm out like that.

at home.

i spent the day sorting out the Thailand photos and on the Rubick's cube.
i happily forgot about ballet class today. HAHA. yes.

i'm like... pro-lly into 14hrs on the photos now. once its done, i'll do the dedication vid. and once that's done, i'll finish up my IJs and do hardcore projects.


meanwhile.
tmr, i'll be my rarest timing of 8am rugby trng. hahaha. this morng, i woke up, with my elbows and knees pain. AND, i found out ugly long scratch lines on my knees and elbows. hahaha. coz mon we're practising diving since it was raining. haha.i think we did at like 10 over. tak galm lehs! ahha. tmr night is carolling. ahhha.

i really pray that it'll drizzling tmr morng so the grass can show mercy on us. haha.


back to the photos man. gotta long day tmrs.

through my lens...

Faithful
The Sun will rise every morning. Over there, we really appreciate the warmth after every freezing nights.

Our Locked Out Friend
This is a spider caught near the medical area. There were many of these creepy crawlers in the girls room while we're sleeping. haha. Before we sleep, we ensure that all our bags are zipped up and tighten our sleeping bags. haha. This picture is 7-yrs old John's hand who is very excited about spiders. haha.

The Burden
I can't rmr wad Dr. Heng Hung told me abt this illness. But bascially, what we prescribed her was T.O Balm, MultiVits and Panadol.


Starry Stars
Again, another village w/o light, the stars are very very very visible at night. haha. had a gd time trying not to laugh and keeping still.

Don't worry, didn't use the cloning function. ahha. you can see Orion's Belt! ((:

F/5.6
Exp Time 51 sec! (haha) - w/o tripod, using support of vehicle.
ISO-800


Playful Doc.
F/6.3
Exp Time 16sec
ISO 500

haha.
at one of the village there there wasn't light, we had a gd laugh of time play with our torches. This is one of our 'graffitti', using the torchlight by one of our doctors. Its the little things that keeps us lifely at night. haha.

Fatigue
This is one of the Team Doctor, and his son after a long day seeing patients after patients. On some days, the doctors had to see 100 over patients through the night.

My Future
One of our patients, all ready to serve the country. The tries to put up a strong front when facing the medicines.

As Vast...
as the sky. That's just a fraction of God's love for you.

Almost There...
Two of the vehicles got stucked on several occasions. The boys had to go down and retrieve our baggages and equippment. The skilled drivers had to literally digg their way out with their bare hands.

Its All Worth It
These land filled with smiles makes our arduous journey worth it.

Sanitizer
Very important to sanitize our hands while doing medical!

Wounds
This patient got hurt from his machete while farming. The wound is about 2 weeks old w/o proper treatment.

Village Kids
This is 2 very good friends from the same village.

Playtime
They try to hit wheel to make it go in a direction. Its not easy to keep it steady! But this kids make it look very simple.

The Convoy
This is our convoy. It's about 7 vehicles. All communication is done via the walkie-talkie. The roads can be quite bumpy till it gives many of us the motion sickness.

Warmth
Every morning, this cat would appear at my side of my sleeping bag to get some warmth on the cold mornings in the mountains.

Thanksgiving
When our team went to the villages, every village will serve their best. During that season, it was a good season of harvest and we're glad to be part of the thanksgiving services. The villagers will always try their best to ensure that we had a good stay that their homes.

From her view...
An Akha villager looking through the window during a Religious Service. As the concrete building is small, many of the villages had to follow the Service from the outside.


Curiosity
They never fail to get infront of the lens.

Stepping Up
One of the children in the Akha Hilltribes in Northern Thailand. Many of the children suffer from having worms in their stomachs due to poor hygiene values.

Inaccessible
One of the children in the Akha Hilltribes in Northern Thailand. Many of the children do not go to school because their village are quite inaccessible and distant.

Touch of Life
Love.