i didn't have much memoraries in the stadium itself, besides the fact that i went for NDP preview in p5, and it was the 1st time i saw fireworks, live.
apart from that, nothing else much.
but somehow, as a Singaporean, the National Stadium is a national icon, a sports symbol that draws people of different races, different walks of life together.
the phrase 'the national stadium' holds of prestige, glory and honour.
the singapore sevens was held there. many big tournaments were held there. being able to just play on the field is considered an honour.
i'm sure goona miss hearing the phrase 'the kallang wave'.
i dyed my hair today b4 the gst increase tmr. yes, kiasu singaporean. at least i can save a few bucks. i think its ok. but after a while, i think i look super BENG can. the colour gets lighter, and freakier. yes. pray pls. amen.
ytd, i guess i had a miscommunication with some of the sc main com. wilson talked to me. and i guess it really made me ask myself again, why did i join the club. my personal goal was really to help out with more of the arty side. coz with photography and all the arty farty blood in me, i should do smth about in, and contribute to the sch. and that was only e outlet. plus, sam's in yr3, and when the peak starts, i'm afraid she'll be like working madly like last yr, thus i decided to be the assist creative director.
2ndly, was to act as a bridge for the sportsman/women with sports club. i realised last yr, as a main coomm, many sportsman ask me alot of q abt SAA and SC on a personal basis. so i guess i should be helpful in promoting SC's identity to a certain extend.
i dun really like assumptions. no. i strongly dislike assumptions that is highly misconceptions.
argh.
no point explaining here.
anyways. i went to visit donald ytd. his condition was actually getting bettter, until thurs night it got slightly worse and he was moved the the ICA unit. i'm really worried for him as a team mate. i wanna hear his comments abt the lanes being 'flooded but patchy'. haha. yes. the quacks.
i'm afraid to loose a friend physically.
first was diane, 7 yrs old.
and then shaun, 10 yrs all.
all from the brain tumor.
enough man.'
i'm rarely a friend whom u can cry out, pour out, shop, and do all sorts of bestie wadeva nots. ok, an exception is with sara and geraldyne.
ok, thats not the point. i do have alot of friends, and many friends. i'm not saying that i'm nice or popoular or not coz its rubbish to actually consider such stuff practical, but because of the many activities that i'm in and also along with the different schs i've been to.
i think many ppl know me but dun really know me, know me. and again, with the exception of saraparntinghui and initially, you. haha. its not that i'm and introvert or wad, but i guess i really keep things to myself. negatively, i can be conscious of what ppl think of me, even though in mind, i am child of God.
sometimes i dun even know who am i. i strive to make ppl around me happy, explaining my 'cheerfulness' commented from e ppl around me. i try to be strong, because i want to be a pillar for ppl around me; if i dun fall, they-will-not-kinda-thing.
and i guess, also because i dun like ppl to be filled with my sadness, i rarely tell ppl how pain/hurt/sad/agonized i feel on those really bottomless days.
so yes, serves me right.
in poly, w/o sara and all, i can feel lonely. on thurs, b4 e collegiate game, i missed my rugby girls for some reason. i felt that although i like bowling alot, the ppl around me is simply discouraging me all the way. so when my team2 (marc, sam, theo and even asto) came, i felt cheered-up by their presence. plus the ENDLESS RIDDLES from marc and theo, the whole day just lightened up even though deadlines are crashing up on me.
i tell myself not to feel lonely, coz "can one la. sure can tahan one". but ultimately, when u really want to find someone to talk nonsense to, to share your happy times with, to just simply spend time together happily, you really cant find one.
sara was one of them.but yes, because she's in sajc, because she's having exams, because of inconvenice, it wasn't really practical to go seek her. frienship is not abt practicality and all la, however, we're still living in singapore u know.
ok. i'm making sara sound as if she's DA only one and all. but no la k. ahha. just that sara's special to me. *coughs. (eh sara! dun head big after that ar. haha. u're just an EXAMPLE. hars).
for now, with all the activites, i'm also afraid to 'commit' to friends. like in a relationship with someone, as in the case of BGR, commitment is a freakin big thing. w/o understanding from both parties, cant go on man. thus, as DESPERATE i may sound in this post, its all too freaky to just go into a relationship. simply no time, no space, to be accurate. in addition, from my pt of view, the majority of the society agrees that 'the boys are always the one there for the girls', 'the boys are the emotionaly stronger ones'. untrue. it seems as the world evolve, the beam balance seems to be changing. girls are becoming more practical nowadays and guys on the other hand, are getting way too emotional, seemingly defying the biogical science of their hormones.
u know the hormones thingy. to put it in simple layman terms, girls have more emo hormones then guys, also because of the PMS which involves oestrogen and stuff. and also, why the guys can build more muscles technically (even though th girl does the same amt of work out) , its also because of hormoes. (testosterone, i think).
Testosterone is a steroid hormone from the androgen group. Testosterone is primarily secreted in the testes of males and the ovaries of females although small amounts are secreted by the adrenal glands. It is the principal male sex hormone and an anabolic steroid. In both males and females, it plays key roles in health and well-being. Examples include enhanced libido, energy, immune function, and protection against osteoporosis. On average, the adult male body produces about twenty to thirty times the amount of testosterone that an adult female's body does.
- wikipeida
unfair can!
ok. that's my contribution for studying science n bio for 4 yrs plus.
ok. i duno whats this post abt now, consider that the title is 'national stadium closure'.
but yes, insightful to my life hur. okay. its my blog and this how i'm goona write in it. ahha. paiseh for emo paragraphs,
but keep donald in ur prayers yea. i hope God can work smth in His life. i've yet to share the Word with him. pray for courage and the right time. pray for the family and bro as well.
-
super funnycool song.
Let's Call The Whole Thing Off Lyrics
Artist: Fred Astaire
(verse)
Things have come to a pretty pass,
Our romance is growing flat,
For you like this and the other
While I go for this and that.
Goodness knows what the end will be;
Oh, I don't know where I'm at...
It looks as if we two will never be one,
Something must be done.
(refrain)
You say eether and I say eyether,
You say neether and I say nyther;
Eether, eyether, neether, nyther,
Let's call the whole thing off!
You like potato and I like potahto,
You like tomato and I like tomahto;
Potato, potahto, tomato, tomahto!
Let's call the whole thing off!
But oh! If we call the whole thing off,
Then we must part.
And oh! If we ever part,
Then that might break my heart!
So, if you like pajamas and I like pajahmas,
I'll wear pajamas and give up pajahmas.
For we know we need each other,
So we better call the calling off off.
Let's call the whole thing off!
You say laughter and I say lawfter,
You say after and I say awfter;
Laughter, lawfter, after, awfter,
Let's call the whole thing off!
You like vanilla and I like vanella,
You, sa's'parilla and I sa's'parella;
Vanilla, vanella, Choc'late, strawb'ry!
Let's call the whole thing off!
But oh! If we call the whole thing off,
Then we must part.
And oh! If we ever part,
Then that might break my heart!
So, if you go for oysters and I go for ersters
I'll order oysters and cancel the ersters.
For we know we need each other,
So we better call the calling off off!
Let's call the whole thing off!
Saturday, June 30, 2007
Thursday, June 28, 2007
20pts.
yea. round robin, i think we've managed to get all 20 points.
today was theodor, samantha, my twin marc and i. haha.
whole time was talking abt lame riddles. like eg.. 'wad do u call a witch on a beach' = sandwitch.
okok. haha.
for me, i'm quite happy to bowl today coz the lanes were quite suitable for me. semidry. i had alot of cross pockets and nice lines and pin10s though...but i had to miss rugby and that was not gd. coz one of my goals is to make e best out of every trng. heard they did similar to last tue trng!! ): i liked last tues trng.. the gaps and fake thiing.. coz i really need to learn more in those areas.
anyways.
i think its really an encouragement today. i've got a 180 avg! (: and its been like since last year pol-ite selections that i smelt this kind of avg (apart from fun bowl). i hope that i'll gain more confidence in myself and dun backslide again.
haha. marvellloousssi also bowled. ahhaha. it is still fun to bowl along side with them.ahhaa. seriously. didin't know 4 days of 3hrs can bring u far. hahah.
also, tmr i've got like 3 or issit 4 submissions. so i think bowling really helped me to chill man. like bowl all my frustrations out. haha. and plus the lame riddles/jokes, it really felt comforting to a certain extent. haha.
okok. i better go do my projects now. breathe. yes. coz i had sch from 9am-6pm with 11am-12pm break. awesome hur.
today was theodor, samantha, my twin marc and i. haha.
whole time was talking abt lame riddles. like eg.. 'wad do u call a witch on a beach' = sandwitch.
okok. haha.
for me, i'm quite happy to bowl today coz the lanes were quite suitable for me. semidry. i had alot of cross pockets and nice lines and pin10s though...but i had to miss rugby and that was not gd. coz one of my goals is to make e best out of every trng. heard they did similar to last tue trng!! ): i liked last tues trng.. the gaps and fake thiing.. coz i really need to learn more in those areas.
anyways.
i think its really an encouragement today. i've got a 180 avg! (: and its been like since last year pol-ite selections that i smelt this kind of avg (apart from fun bowl). i hope that i'll gain more confidence in myself and dun backslide again.
haha. marvellloousssi also bowled. ahhaha. it is still fun to bowl along side with them.ahhaa. seriously. didin't know 4 days of 3hrs can bring u far. hahah.
also, tmr i've got like 3 or issit 4 submissions. so i think bowling really helped me to chill man. like bowl all my frustrations out. haha. and plus the lame riddles/jokes, it really felt comforting to a certain extent. haha.
okok. i better go do my projects now. breathe. yes. coz i had sch from 9am-6pm with 11am-12pm break. awesome hur.
Wednesday, June 27, 2007
pod.
wah. of all the days.
my ipod got reformatted coz of some software prob.
during such moments, u just need music.
and now, like that!
hurs. i'm looking for to... erm.. (oh man. my wkends are gone too).. next month!!!!!
marian dun like deadlines.
i've spent 5hrs on travelling today. not exaggerated.
11am-2pm: to and fro from sch to brasbasah.
then
4pm-6pm: to and fro again.
with that amt of travelling time, i could have gotten up to genting highlands. talk abt save money and using the bus stamp wisely.
thus, i've finished printing the photos for competition. will share it soon.
my ipod got reformatted coz of some software prob.
during such moments, u just need music.
and now, like that!
hurs. i'm looking for to... erm.. (oh man. my wkends are gone too).. next month!!!!!
marian dun like deadlines.
i've spent 5hrs on travelling today. not exaggerated.
11am-2pm: to and fro from sch to brasbasah.
then
4pm-6pm: to and fro again.
with that amt of travelling time, i could have gotten up to genting highlands. talk abt save money and using the bus stamp wisely.
thus, i've finished printing the photos for competition. will share it soon.
Tuesday, June 26, 2007
pro.... jets
7 of them.
excluding individual journal.
plus.
5 photo deadlines.
countless
i-o-us.
today's trng was gd for me. i wanna thank my secret admirer for the letters and snacks. (:
i think the encouragements from the camp really made a difference in my attitude and drive towards touch. and now with marli and gaps and realignments, i'm beginnning to open up and see the game much much much more more more.
really.
it feels so so good.
i'll make sure i'll make a significance and obvious difference in my speed by september.
well. thank God for the so so refreshing rain. thank God for understanding group memebers. thank God that i have the time to go toilet today. haha. exaggerated abit.
i'm still very much banged by the fact of the thousandandone deadlines crashing over me. but yea.
what doesn't kill u makes u stronger
sick of it? c'mmon.
oh yea. i just got my grade8 results. MERIT. i'm kinda ok and disappointed. coz i think i could have done better. not blaming anyone, but i think as the 'pink' (1st) girl, the pianoist is abit off timing. NVM. but i know i've worked hard n merit is not what xinyan, andrea and i want. ): . aw. last exams b4 the majors. ahaha. that'll will come in a LONG LONG time.
excluding individual journal.
plus.
5 photo deadlines.
countless
i-o-us.
today's trng was gd for me. i wanna thank my secret admirer for the letters and snacks. (:
i think the encouragements from the camp really made a difference in my attitude and drive towards touch. and now with marli and gaps and realignments, i'm beginnning to open up and see the game much much much more more more.
really.
it feels so so good.
i'll make sure i'll make a significance and obvious difference in my speed by september.
well. thank God for the so so refreshing rain. thank God for understanding group memebers. thank God that i have the time to go toilet today. haha. exaggerated abit.
i'm still very much banged by the fact of the thousandandone deadlines crashing over me. but yea.
sick of it? c'mmon.
oh yea. i just got my grade8 results. MERIT. i'm kinda ok and disappointed. coz i think i could have done better. not blaming anyone, but i think as the 'pink' (1st) girl, the pianoist is abit off timing. NVM. but i know i've worked hard n merit is not what xinyan, andrea and i want. ): . aw. last exams b4 the majors. ahaha. that'll will come in a LONG LONG time.
weather forecast
ok. now its raining heavily and the wind is howling literally.
my slinding windows are actually vibrating.
i'm sure there will be news of fallen trees in Singapore.
hope no one gets hurt.
it'll get gd to take the MRT.
my slinding windows are actually vibrating.
i'm sure there will be news of fallen trees in Singapore.
hope no one gets hurt.
it'll get gd to take the MRT.
Monday, June 25, 2007
Sunday, June 24, 2007
too much
ok.
lets start with friday.
had team run. 5k round e reservior. glad that the team made it together with marli! (:
but i was freakin disappointed.
i used to feel the pain at around the 40th minute. now, i feel it at 32nd min. and its more painful. can feel it all over. stiff.
i know i'm not improving.
its like... u can run, u can have the energy to; but u just can't go on.
it used to be like... stamina la, cannot run la. now, its a must to stop.
i duno la. i am stil upset abt it. i duno wad's gonna be like in the future.
for my sports goals and dreams. i just hope that i'm neither gonna be swayed or shaken.
then was the video. learnt to see gaps more. learnt alot more abt the play.
then i rushed to church.
PLUNGE.
was great.
to me personally, i needed that time with God. the sacrifices i had to make did pay off. as in, i felt that i could make God happy by sacrifing time for Him. sacrifce to me, means to give up something that u really want to do for self interest, for smth that u can do for a more positive outcome. with that, i should try to make an effort to take out more time for sportsclub.
anyways.
the night was gd. the dance went on fine. joy's song was awesome, plus pete's violin/cello. n jensheng's voice is awesome. the speaker was great, but i felt that e content was abit too much on drugs though. but he delivered the msg splendidly. hhaha.
however, i didn't like my guit playing part. i felt that i couldn't control my guit. i couldn't hear myself. neither could i hear the outcome. i ccannot seem to trust the logistics ppl because i cannot trust myself first. i think i gave them alot of trouble. i turned the vol up and down. up to hear myself, down so that ppl can't hear my uncertainty. somettimes, when it's at max, i stilll can't hear myself. but our logistics ppl at self zai. really.
i must do smth to our arrangement of musical intruments.
anyway. the event was great. i really hope that it was a special event personally that has brought one closer to God. for some reason, i was glad to see gloria and very happy to see nigel. after all the projects, we really must sit together and jam those strings again. like how we did with ah lim; e all-time pro.
thanks nigel for the encourageents and by ur efforts. i'm really glad.
after the event, rushed home and bathe and went back for camp.
was really totally tired. i missed the trng. they did beep test and fitness. ahha.
and then was sat morning.
friendlies with some of marli's src players and seniors and some men players.
first game was the men's team against us, followed by the women's against us.
had 3 games in total for each player, 6 games in total. 12 mins each.
herngyi was there! ahha. when i was on defense marking him at the link, it was like.. ahha. herng yi! haha.
the guys are really fast.b4 we can back 5, they pressed up on us.
everyone was really tired after that. then was the session.
then homed.
6pm.
finally i could rest. i was reallly exhausted. from church camp till rugby camp, havent had a gd rest. the hols aren't really hols.
and i recieved news abt Donald.
he vommitted blood and was sent to hospital- brain tumor.
i duno how to react.
he's one of my close friends in tp bowling team.
everyone's worried for him.
went to visit him at sgh today after church with alvin, sz and manda. jill and her parents and gerrad wwas there. followed by all his lecturers and then course mates. i heard him crying while i was outside the ward- coz he was happy that so many ppl inc his lecturers came to see him. on the 2nd look, i couldn't take it inside.
i was so badly reminded of my dad.
i walked out of the room for awhile. i wasn't really prepared for him to be on that bed- same goes for my dad. i just cannot hold back that pain, again.
i felt that pain in my heart again, at that corner which seemed to be once again, the same. its that stabbing pain again.
after awhile, got a grip of myself and went back to the ward after his xray.
i am quite taken aback by how fragile i am. but i just can't seem to find the strength to build any wall. i dont want to carry on like this. i have to move on.
he was still able to joke and be the lame donald duck and stuff. i knew that he wanted to say smth to me but i just didn't want to allow that to happen. so i cut in and said "u owed me 6 bucks for the cab fare! i'll wait for u to give me back personally". at that moment, sz, amanda and alvin was there. i knew it wasn't really the wisest thing to say, but i wasn't sure if that was the right thing to do, i jsut felt it wasn't the right time larh.
i really duno how to react.
first, we lost Diane. and then, Shaun. touch wood la. but i just hope donald will pull through tmr's op. pray for gd news.
there's so much things to do. first in mind is my projects. and then the meetings, the trngs and many more. i've asked for it and serves me right. i can do all things through Christ who strengthens me. but, i just cant seem to feel right when i feel so emmotinoally challenged.
at this point, any encouragements doesn't seem to be able to push me like how it always do. wad i need to for u to respond.
i know i'll have to wait after the big o' exams. i'm not sure if i can hold it till then.
and then, mission trip.
full or half? its the exams issue. and when i saw u in that meeting room, i was so confused if i should go. i know that shouldn't be a factor, but, i do know e importance of team synergy and communication. if a relationship is just not right with a friend and a team member, it'll affect the team. and i hope that get this knot untangled. probably, we tangled the knot, and i've tigtened e knot on one side by my unnecessay worries and u've also tightened it on e other side by the countless ignorance.
smth random, i finally had a hair cut today. keyword: finally.
studies/projects
i havent got much to say.
and that why its worrying.
see.
wad doesn't kill u, makes u stronger.
i'm not really stronger yet. but if i dun focus, i know i'll be on the verge of expectancy death. hurhur.
i'm actually fine and immuned to all e black pits when all the pits seem to come together at one point. coz i know God is my helper and comforter. but i should keep pushing myself to focus and put in more effort in ALL my task and responsibilites.
heard that tpdb men got 3rd and the women got 1st. i think its highly disappointing for the men. hope they will cope with it and emerge stronger by the year.
amen.
lets start with friday.
had team run. 5k round e reservior. glad that the team made it together with marli! (:
but i was freakin disappointed.
i used to feel the pain at around the 40th minute. now, i feel it at 32nd min. and its more painful. can feel it all over. stiff.
i know i'm not improving.
its like... u can run, u can have the energy to; but u just can't go on.
it used to be like... stamina la, cannot run la. now, its a must to stop.
i duno la. i am stil upset abt it. i duno wad's gonna be like in the future.
for my sports goals and dreams. i just hope that i'm neither gonna be swayed or shaken.
then was the video. learnt to see gaps more. learnt alot more abt the play.
then i rushed to church.
PLUNGE.
was great.
to me personally, i needed that time with God. the sacrifices i had to make did pay off. as in, i felt that i could make God happy by sacrifing time for Him. sacrifce to me, means to give up something that u really want to do for self interest, for smth that u can do for a more positive outcome. with that, i should try to make an effort to take out more time for sportsclub.
anyways.
the night was gd. the dance went on fine. joy's song was awesome, plus pete's violin/cello. n jensheng's voice is awesome. the speaker was great, but i felt that e content was abit too much on drugs though. but he delivered the msg splendidly. hhaha.
however, i didn't like my guit playing part. i felt that i couldn't control my guit. i couldn't hear myself. neither could i hear the outcome. i ccannot seem to trust the logistics ppl because i cannot trust myself first. i think i gave them alot of trouble. i turned the vol up and down. up to hear myself, down so that ppl can't hear my uncertainty. somettimes, when it's at max, i stilll can't hear myself. but our logistics ppl at self zai. really.
i must do smth to our arrangement of musical intruments.
anyway. the event was great. i really hope that it was a special event personally that has brought one closer to God. for some reason, i was glad to see gloria and very happy to see nigel. after all the projects, we really must sit together and jam those strings again. like how we did with ah lim; e all-time pro.
thanks nigel for the encourageents and by ur efforts. i'm really glad.
after the event, rushed home and bathe and went back for camp.
was really totally tired. i missed the trng. they did beep test and fitness. ahha.
and then was sat morning.
friendlies with some of marli's src players and seniors and some men players.
first game was the men's team against us, followed by the women's against us.
had 3 games in total for each player, 6 games in total. 12 mins each.
herngyi was there! ahha. when i was on defense marking him at the link, it was like.. ahha. herng yi! haha.
the guys are really fast.b4 we can back 5, they pressed up on us.
everyone was really tired after that. then was the session.
then homed.
6pm.
finally i could rest. i was reallly exhausted. from church camp till rugby camp, havent had a gd rest. the hols aren't really hols.
and i recieved news abt Donald.
he vommitted blood and was sent to hospital- brain tumor.
i duno how to react.
he's one of my close friends in tp bowling team.
everyone's worried for him.
went to visit him at sgh today after church with alvin, sz and manda. jill and her parents and gerrad wwas there. followed by all his lecturers and then course mates. i heard him crying while i was outside the ward- coz he was happy that so many ppl inc his lecturers came to see him. on the 2nd look, i couldn't take it inside.
i was so badly reminded of my dad.
i walked out of the room for awhile. i wasn't really prepared for him to be on that bed- same goes for my dad. i just cannot hold back that pain, again.
i felt that pain in my heart again, at that corner which seemed to be once again, the same. its that stabbing pain again.
after awhile, got a grip of myself and went back to the ward after his xray.
i am quite taken aback by how fragile i am. but i just can't seem to find the strength to build any wall. i dont want to carry on like this. i have to move on.
he was still able to joke and be the lame donald duck and stuff. i knew that he wanted to say smth to me but i just didn't want to allow that to happen. so i cut in and said "u owed me 6 bucks for the cab fare! i'll wait for u to give me back personally". at that moment, sz, amanda and alvin was there. i knew it wasn't really the wisest thing to say, but i wasn't sure if that was the right thing to do, i jsut felt it wasn't the right time larh.
i really duno how to react.
first, we lost Diane. and then, Shaun. touch wood la. but i just hope donald will pull through tmr's op. pray for gd news.
there's so much things to do. first in mind is my projects. and then the meetings, the trngs and many more. i've asked for it and serves me right. i can do all things through Christ who strengthens me. but, i just cant seem to feel right when i feel so emmotinoally challenged.
at this point, any encouragements doesn't seem to be able to push me like how it always do. wad i need to for u to respond.
i know i'll have to wait after the big o' exams. i'm not sure if i can hold it till then.
and then, mission trip.
full or half? its the exams issue. and when i saw u in that meeting room, i was so confused if i should go. i know that shouldn't be a factor, but, i do know e importance of team synergy and communication. if a relationship is just not right with a friend and a team member, it'll affect the team. and i hope that get this knot untangled. probably, we tangled the knot, and i've tigtened e knot on one side by my unnecessay worries and u've also tightened it on e other side by the countless ignorance.
smth random, i finally had a hair cut today. keyword: finally.
studies/projects
i havent got much to say.
and that why its worrying.
see.
wad doesn't kill u, makes u stronger.
i'm not really stronger yet. but if i dun focus, i know i'll be on the verge of expectancy death. hurhur.
i'm actually fine and immuned to all e black pits when all the pits seem to come together at one point. coz i know God is my helper and comforter. but i should keep pushing myself to focus and put in more effort in ALL my task and responsibilites.
heard that tpdb men got 3rd and the women got 1st. i think its highly disappointing for the men. hope they will cope with it and emerge stronger by the year.
amen.
Thursday, June 21, 2007
blue
haha. that's my team for the yr1s bonding camp. i think we're a special grp. i see potential in this yr's batch. hope they turn that spark into a fire. i saw that one of them have learnt how to see gaps, playmake and know the timing. haha was amazzed.
haha. (: happy for Tpiranhas' future.
i duno man. i'm not tired tired. but.... like feeling clogged up to do anything from the best of me.
i hope tmr dun kill me.
tmr i the day.
i hope that ppl will be renewed and refreshed. pray for those who are feeeling weary and discouraged right now.
what doesn't kill, u makes you stronger.
i'm soon going to fully comprehend this understatement.
-
David Gray- Best I Ever Had
So you sailed away into a grey sky morning
Now I'm here to stay, love can be so boring
And nothing's quite the same now
I just say your name now.
But it's not so bad
You're only the best I ever had
You don't want me back
You're just the best I ever had.
So you stole my world, now I'm just a phony
Remembering the girl leaves me down and loney
Well send it in a letter
Make yourself feel better.
But it's not so bad
You're only the best I ever had
You dont want me back
You're just the best I ever had.
And it might take some time to patch me up inside
but I cant take it so I, I run away and hide
And I might find in time that you were always right
You're always right.
So you sailed away into a grey sky morning
Now, I'm here to stay, love can be so boring
Was it what you wanted?
Could it be I'm haunted?
But it's not so bad
You're only the best I ever had
You dont want me back
You're just the best I ever had.
You're just the best I ever had
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hahah. no. i'm not emo. just showing appreciation and application. ahhah. ;p
Wednesday, June 20, 2007
700-200
HAH. i'm a happy girl today.
anyways. i went vivo to try shooting some shots. dun really think they work out.
i've just watched the movie 'the pool' on channel 5. scary sia. but quite lame story line. i expected more depth. anyway. CHANNEL 5 has been publictising the wrong info. the movie is "The Pool" and not "Swimming Pool". even the website has the wrong info abt the cast and stuff. haha. i wrote in to mediacorp via the email. haha. cool lehs. ahhaha.
hahah. my calling to do a degree in CNM. hoho.
tmr is camp!
and then camp and plunge.
and then game and camp and lessons.
so thats my thurs to sat for you. hahah.
i dun think i've got time to blog.
NEITHER TO DO PROJECTS!
YES. freak out. funny how when sch's starting, everything seems to come smack at u.
but. i thank God. i tahnk u guys for ur prayers too! i'm getting better and my voice is coming back. ahhaha. (: the back thing, it still hurts after shooting whole day. and! the appointment is on JULY 25TH. like ONE MONTH. ok yes. lets see by then.
i'm kinda excited for tmr's camp. at the same time, stressed. i'm afraid i'll be tired on fri. like not resting b4 battle. i reallly must rely on God's strength.
kp praying pray warriors.. may fri bring a whole new experience to all and the new members to da Kingdom. hoho. (:
anyways. i went vivo to try shooting some shots. dun really think they work out.
i've just watched the movie 'the pool' on channel 5. scary sia. but quite lame story line. i expected more depth. anyway. CHANNEL 5 has been publictising the wrong info. the movie is "The Pool" and not "Swimming Pool". even the website has the wrong info abt the cast and stuff. haha. i wrote in to mediacorp via the email. haha. cool lehs. ahhaha.
hahah. my calling to do a degree in CNM. hoho.
tmr is camp!
and then camp and plunge.
and then game and camp and lessons.
so thats my thurs to sat for you. hahah.
i dun think i've got time to blog.
NEITHER TO DO PROJECTS!
YES. freak out. funny how when sch's starting, everything seems to come smack at u.
but. i thank God. i tahnk u guys for ur prayers too! i'm getting better and my voice is coming back. ahhaha. (: the back thing, it still hurts after shooting whole day. and! the appointment is on JULY 25TH. like ONE MONTH. ok yes. lets see by then.
i'm kinda excited for tmr's camp. at the same time, stressed. i'm afraid i'll be tired on fri. like not resting b4 battle. i reallly must rely on God's strength.
kp praying pray warriors.. may fri bring a whole new experience to all and the new members to da Kingdom. hoho. (:
publicityy: PLUNGE
Dare to take the PLUNGE?
Come for this event. ALL are welcomed! Friends or friends-yet-to-be.... Do u dare to take the PLUNGE?
desserts, spelt opp.
look at the time.
i ate dinner, slept and woke up to send a few impt emails.
arghs. this morng went sch for proj. just realised the no. of projects i have to do.
i think i'm stressed with plunge and camp.
camp's from 21-23. plunge on 22nd.
its an religious evanglisic event, so i think marli and team should understand.
i'm trying hard not to feel stress by comforting myself that there's always time. dangerous resoultion. coz i'm procrastinating half the time.
today had rehearsal. and i forgot almost ALL the impt solo parts. hur. i didn't performed well for dance coz towards e end, my back needed rest. the gd thing was skit. ahhaa. thanks to the devil, my voice complimented the skit. ahahha. so, ur plan BACKFIRED, MR. SA TAN. ahhahahahaha.
i duno.i think life is really abt choices. i can choose to slp and not send the impt mails which i have done for the past few days.
i should work harder.
God, pls grant me strength. allow me to rely on u. coz i'm really feeling the emo fatigueness. and once i'm there, its harder to be more positive and stuff. its good that i'm still lasting. just hope that the battery doesn't die out.
alllow ppl around me to have more understanding. and with that, i should really discipline myself. ahha.
i do not really have a social life at this pt of time. cant even meet up with gary to have MAC breakfast. win lor.
i hope to attempt to catch a movie tmr or smth. i need to do some chilling thing.
rest before the battle. the battle has started. but rest well for the last league. thats the challenge. to rest and to fight on.
i ate dinner, slept and woke up to send a few impt emails.
arghs. this morng went sch for proj. just realised the no. of projects i have to do.
i think i'm stressed with plunge and camp.
camp's from 21-23. plunge on 22nd.
its an religious evanglisic event, so i think marli and team should understand.
i'm trying hard not to feel stress by comforting myself that there's always time. dangerous resoultion. coz i'm procrastinating half the time.
today had rehearsal. and i forgot almost ALL the impt solo parts. hur. i didn't performed well for dance coz towards e end, my back needed rest. the gd thing was skit. ahhaa. thanks to the devil, my voice complimented the skit. ahahha. so, ur plan BACKFIRED, MR. SA TAN. ahhahahahaha.
i duno.i think life is really abt choices. i can choose to slp and not send the impt mails which i have done for the past few days.
i should work harder.
God, pls grant me strength. allow me to rely on u. coz i'm really feeling the emo fatigueness. and once i'm there, its harder to be more positive and stuff. its good that i'm still lasting. just hope that the battery doesn't die out.
alllow ppl around me to have more understanding. and with that, i should really discipline myself. ahha.
i do not really have a social life at this pt of time. cant even meet up with gary to have MAC breakfast. win lor.
i hope to attempt to catch a movie tmr or smth. i need to do some chilling thing.
rest before the battle. the battle has started. but rest well for the last league. thats the challenge. to rest and to fight on.
Monday, June 18, 2007
polyclinc
went to pasirris polyclinc today
to see dr. peter moey. music shifu.
polyclinc is SO MUCH better than CGH (x 100000)
i did blood test and xray.
results all in one day. and also didn't wait for v long relatively.
and like.. happynewyr. ahha
the xray did show smth abt my countless horrible backpains.
a fracture
ahha. right. peter asked his snr doc to confirm it and stuff. ahaa. so i looked at the xray on the computer as he was explaining to me. haha
it was fun.
coz pete's my friend. so he was like teachin me how to read the blood results and all
ahha. then he took my b/p. it was low.
then on the diagonsis paper... he wrote "but its usually as such". so he asked me. "the nurse sure ask me how i know". ahhaah
u know y?? coz during the mission trips, i kept playing with the b/p machine and go aorund taking ppl's b/p. hahaha.
proven. hhaha.
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and the staff there are so much nicer and respectful. seriously, i could hve just burn cgh down, evacuating the patients first. the polyclinic is also so so so much cheaper.
merry christmas. here's the medicine.
i dun think i wanna take all of them. just take those relevant ones.
i duno.
but fracture is abit shocking to me. yes it hurts la. but i didn't expect it to be that bad. haha. i'm being referred to SGH A&E. totally cool huh. hahaa. *slaps head. and the nurse called sgh up but sgh's really bz. so the earliest appt i can get is 25july!!!!! it like. 2 days after touch's pol-ite. the nurse told the doc at SGH to CALL ME and have a chat abt my back on the phone tmr. so that i may be able to see him asap. ahha. how cool.
i dun really dare to tell marli abt my fracture. proabbly after my visist to sgh and confirmation b4 i tell her anything. coz there's the selection and stuff. i dun think i'll get in anyways coz i have pro-lly missed 3 trngs thanks to the virus in me. but still. yes. one step at a time.
i've read up abt lowerback fracture. i duno wad's the degree of it. but major of the sources says to recover is to go for surgery. non-surgical can only do surface strengthening and stuff. ahhaha.
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Treatment
Treatment goals include protecting nerve function and restoring alignment and stability of the spine. The doctor determines the best treatment method based upon fracture type and other factors.
Non-surgical: Doctors usually treat compression and some burst fractures without surgery. If you have a simple compression fracture, you may need to wear a hyperextension brace for sitting and standing activities for 6-12 weeks. You should walk and do other exercises while healing and may take medication for pain. If you have a transverse process fracture, you may need to wear a thoracolumbar corset along with doing an aerobic walking program.
Surgical: Some injuries require more aggressive treatment. You may need steroids if the spinal cord is injured. You may need surgery if you have an unstable burst fracture, flexion-distraction injury or fracture-dislocation. Surgery realigns the spinal column and holds it together using metal plates and screws (internal fixation) and/or spinal fusion.
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well, i'm prepared for anything i guess. coz God's guiding me. but just pray la. i still want to run and do my sports and go around shoooting. i can't imagine myself immobile just for a wk or so. i'll just die on the bed or smth. or, wearing a brace to run? imagine on the field. and it starts to rain. ok. erks. enuogh. ahha.
ahhaha. choy. touch wood la.
for now just pray that i get a gd gd gd specialist who makes the right move and decision. ahha. somehow, i'm not afraid yet though. coz that fall has been 1 month ago, and i can still run and jump. so ya. i dun think its that serious la. ahhaa. chillos. ahhaa.
somehow, its still amazing how the devil can work his way. but sorry lor. battle's won and we're still gg on strong. i believe on that night, God's kingdom will be further expanded. we just have to work harder.
to see dr. peter moey. music shifu.
polyclinc is SO MUCH better than CGH (x 100000)
i did blood test and xray.
results all in one day. and also didn't wait for v long relatively.
and like.. happynewyr. ahha
the xray did show smth abt my countless horrible backpains.
a fracture
ahha. right. peter asked his snr doc to confirm it and stuff. ahaa. so i looked at the xray on the computer as he was explaining to me. haha
it was fun.
coz pete's my friend. so he was like teachin me how to read the blood results and all
ahha. then he took my b/p. it was low.
then on the diagonsis paper... he wrote "but its usually as such". so he asked me. "the nurse sure ask me how i know". ahhaah
u know y?? coz during the mission trips, i kept playing with the b/p machine and go aorund taking ppl's b/p. hahaha.
proven. hhaha.
\and the staff there are so much nicer and respectful. seriously, i could hve just burn cgh down, evacuating the patients first. the polyclinic is also so so so much cheaper.
merry christmas. here's the medicine.
i dun think i wanna take all of them. just take those relevant ones.
i duno.
but fracture is abit shocking to me. yes it hurts la. but i didn't expect it to be that bad. haha. i'm being referred to SGH A&E. totally cool huh. hahaa. *slaps head. and the nurse called sgh up but sgh's really bz. so the earliest appt i can get is 25july!!!!! it like. 2 days after touch's pol-ite. the nurse told the doc at SGH to CALL ME and have a chat abt my back on the phone tmr. so that i may be able to see him asap. ahha. how cool.
i dun really dare to tell marli abt my fracture. proabbly after my visist to sgh and confirmation b4 i tell her anything. coz there's the selection and stuff. i dun think i'll get in anyways coz i have pro-lly missed 3 trngs thanks to the virus in me. but still. yes. one step at a time.
i've read up abt lowerback fracture. i duno wad's the degree of it. but major of the sources says to recover is to go for surgery. non-surgical can only do surface strengthening and stuff. ahhaha.
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Treatment
Treatment goals include protecting nerve function and restoring alignment and stability of the spine. The doctor determines the best treatment method based upon fracture type and other factors.
Non-surgical: Doctors usually treat compression and some burst fractures without surgery. If you have a simple compression fracture, you may need to wear a hyperextension brace for sitting and standing activities for 6-12 weeks. You should walk and do other exercises while healing and may take medication for pain. If you have a transverse process fracture, you may need to wear a thoracolumbar corset along with doing an aerobic walking program.
Surgical: Some injuries require more aggressive treatment. You may need steroids if the spinal cord is injured. You may need surgery if you have an unstable burst fracture, flexion-distraction injury or fracture-dislocation. Surgery realigns the spinal column and holds it together using metal plates and screws (internal fixation) and/or spinal fusion.
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well, i'm prepared for anything i guess. coz God's guiding me. but just pray la. i still want to run and do my sports and go around shoooting. i can't imagine myself immobile just for a wk or so. i'll just die on the bed or smth. or, wearing a brace to run? imagine on the field. and it starts to rain. ok. erks. enuogh. ahha.
ahhaha. choy. touch wood la.
for now just pray that i get a gd gd gd specialist who makes the right move and decision. ahha. somehow, i'm not afraid yet though. coz that fall has been 1 month ago, and i can still run and jump. so ya. i dun think its that serious la. ahhaa. chillos. ahhaa.
somehow, its still amazing how the devil can work his way. but sorry lor. battle's won and we're still gg on strong. i believe on that night, God's kingdom will be further expanded. we just have to work harder.
Sunday, June 17, 2007
mark III
a word of caution: do not use the mark III for more than 15mins if u dun have the finance for it.
its SUPER ADDICTIVE. as a sports photog... u know its abt the momennts. and the 10fps is like.... if u have the lens, u're pretty sure u've got the shot.
400mm 2.8 with mark III is like.... best couple.
after using it for 10 mins there so, when i tried to burst my 30d.. it felt so 300d-ish. HAAHA. so i decided to stop trying the mark III although it was super super shiok.
i printed this for free!
serena and i had shots of the wakeboarders. ahaha, and they too heard abt their photos being shot. ahah. they went to find markers and had their signatures behind our photos. it was real fun.
super shiok.
played with the macro lens too. super fun. i had shots of my camera. it makes quite gd portraiture too.
ok. looks like everyone's getting sick. i went to church with a bad sorethroat.then kenneth was like... 'hahha. u also kenna the attack ar?" i was like... hmmm. ya! hahah. everyone's starting to fall sick. zheng has a sore throat and the list will go on.
gotta pray abt it.
i'm pretty worried abt this coming wk. i've got so many thinngs to shoot, projects to do, rehearsals to go, can of course, camp! and trng! but its like. i'm still sick. and mum is not v happy that i'm doing so many things, prolonging my sick.
super sian.
its been a awhile since i've been sick though. probablyits a cumilative thing.
kping prayign for the ppl whos coming for the event. i believe God is working.
yes. and for now, pls SMS me. calling me will result in miscommunication coz u wont be able to make up wadeva i'm saying. its the sorethroat. ahaa.
nonetheless.
God is faithful
i just pray for understanding. i've sacrificed so much and in the process, offended many who dun really understand where i'm coming from. i mean like... if they're Chrisitians, they would. unfortunately, they're not. i jsut hope that God will give me the courage to carry out my task man.
M1 survey. i LEFT ONE. MUAHAHAHHA. its really making me feel bad everywhere, taking up my friend's precious time. ahhah.
i wanna get healthy and train again!!!!!!!!!! i dun really have much time u know.
its SUPER ADDICTIVE. as a sports photog... u know its abt the momennts. and the 10fps is like.... if u have the lens, u're pretty sure u've got the shot.
400mm 2.8 with mark III is like.... best couple.
after using it for 10 mins there so, when i tried to burst my 30d.. it felt so 300d-ish. HAAHA. so i decided to stop trying the mark III although it was super super shiok.
i printed this for free!
serena and i had shots of the wakeboarders. ahaha, and they too heard abt their photos being shot. ahah. they went to find markers and had their signatures behind our photos. it was real fun.
super shiok.
played with the macro lens too. super fun. i had shots of my camera. it makes quite gd portraiture too.
ok. looks like everyone's getting sick. i went to church with a bad sorethroat.then kenneth was like... 'hahha. u also kenna the attack ar?" i was like... hmmm. ya! hahah. everyone's starting to fall sick. zheng has a sore throat and the list will go on.
gotta pray abt it.
i'm pretty worried abt this coming wk. i've got so many thinngs to shoot, projects to do, rehearsals to go, can of course, camp! and trng! but its like. i'm still sick. and mum is not v happy that i'm doing so many things, prolonging my sick.
super sian.
its been a awhile since i've been sick though. probablyits a cumilative thing.
kping prayign for the ppl whos coming for the event. i believe God is working.
yes. and for now, pls SMS me. calling me will result in miscommunication coz u wont be able to make up wadeva i'm saying. its the sorethroat. ahaa.
nonetheless.
God is faithful
i just pray for understanding. i've sacrificed so much and in the process, offended many who dun really understand where i'm coming from. i mean like... if they're Chrisitians, they would. unfortunately, they're not. i jsut hope that God will give me the courage to carry out my task man.
M1 survey. i LEFT ONE. MUAHAHAHHA. its really making me feel bad everywhere, taking up my friend's precious time. ahhah.
i wanna get healthy and train again!!!!!!!!!! i dun really have much time u know.
yeeaaw?
fact of the day: photos on the LCD ALWAYS looks better then on the desktop.
i feel myself getting better.
now my throat is getting more pain.
and the fever is very on and off.
but its gd, my fever off-s at a right time. (:
ytd. i was tired.
went sch in the morng for LTC. stated 9am. BUT, dilly dailly until 1030am pls. i was really frustrated. hello. i woke up early, MISSED SYMPOSIUM and had to wait for ppl who are late, AND, the progamme didint started.
it was abt income statement and all the financial know nots. its like my THIRD TIME. no way. so i left at 1145am. i reached church at a horrible 1245 like that, and Steve was already closing his talk.
the talk was aby RHYTHM. thanks huh. i was quite affected by the bad LTC throughout.
here i am, being sponsored to go for symposium, and there i am, attending smth quite already-know finical stuff which i dun think i'll be applying.
bah. ):
unhappy.
then.. after that. dance prac. couldn't really dance. was tired, easily out of breath and letargic. now i know why marli told me to rest. like seriously.
then was the planetshakers thing by another church at expo.
i didn't really like it at all.
i couldn't feel the HS.
i felt so... why-am-i-there.
so i asked kim if she feels the same way. i told her that i felt that there weer simply too much self glorification gg on. i didnt even know when did the thing really started coz there wasn't any opening prayer. i thought it was sound check.
haha. but she told me that i should not judge. which is ultimately true. who am i to determine all these? but all that i know its that it wasn't a really focused thing.
i was wrong to judge. but still. i just couldnt focus on God.
then the msg.
i dun want to say anything more.
but during alter call,
after reciviing those who accepted Christ.. i was expecting the guy to welcome them into the Kingdom of God. but no. he said...'welcome you all to NC church!'.
i was like. ok. right.
nvm. then it was their songs. i really felt it very very hard to just be still and praise God or anything like such. it was all too cluttered. i was really afraid that e symposium has caused me to be overly technical. i asked my some of my friends, and i guess i got affiramation. haha heing ar.
so i paid 5 bucks to go there, when i could have gone for the Symposium concert for free at the SAJC CC. ):
anyway. gd experince to hear from NC church though. always heard abt the church, but nv really really heard abt it 1st handedly.
ok.
today.
morng was the txy thing. felt sick. hahhaa. i really duno why i'm still feeling sick. its like the internal heaty thing. its not like sick sick. but smths wrong inside. been having weird headaches.
ANYWAYS. then was the wedding.
i didnt really like the photographer. no offence la. but too paparazzi alrdy. like when cutting the wedd cake. he had to stand there for long moments, check his cam and shoot again... and block ALL the audience. yea, i know its his job and it was to get a gd shot. but it was way too loong to get a shot.
and when the couple walk it. i've seen photogs do it discreetly but still gets the shots. he has to run to and fro. and the attention seemed to be on him. my mum even ask... 'ger ar.. look at the photog... so pro leh'. i was like... hurhur.
i can 100%ly confirm, no doubt that he'll make greater shots than me. but, there's still the etiquette thing right.
nvm.
but i had good food. good prawns. good soup. not so good wine.
haha. yes.
i'm tired.
did i mention?
b4 heading for the wedding, i rushed to peninsular and got a delay pedal. can't wait to try it out for PLUNGE. (:
pretty pretty. not its not very pleasing to my wallet.
i feel myself getting better.
now my throat is getting more pain.
and the fever is very on and off.
but its gd, my fever off-s at a right time. (:
ytd. i was tired.
went sch in the morng for LTC. stated 9am. BUT, dilly dailly until 1030am pls. i was really frustrated. hello. i woke up early, MISSED SYMPOSIUM and had to wait for ppl who are late, AND, the progamme didint started.
it was abt income statement and all the financial know nots. its like my THIRD TIME. no way. so i left at 1145am. i reached church at a horrible 1245 like that, and Steve was already closing his talk.
the talk was aby RHYTHM. thanks huh. i was quite affected by the bad LTC throughout.
here i am, being sponsored to go for symposium, and there i am, attending smth quite already-know finical stuff which i dun think i'll be applying.
bah. ):
unhappy.
then.. after that. dance prac. couldn't really dance. was tired, easily out of breath and letargic. now i know why marli told me to rest. like seriously.
then was the planetshakers thing by another church at expo.
i didn't really like it at all.
i couldn't feel the HS.
i felt so... why-am-i-there.
so i asked kim if she feels the same way. i told her that i felt that there weer simply too much self glorification gg on. i didnt even know when did the thing really started coz there wasn't any opening prayer. i thought it was sound check.
haha. but she told me that i should not judge. which is ultimately true. who am i to determine all these? but all that i know its that it wasn't a really focused thing.
i was wrong to judge. but still. i just couldnt focus on God.
then the msg.
i dun want to say anything more.
but during alter call,
after reciviing those who accepted Christ.. i was expecting the guy to welcome them into the Kingdom of God. but no. he said...'welcome you all to NC church!'.
i was like. ok. right.
nvm. then it was their songs. i really felt it very very hard to just be still and praise God or anything like such. it was all too cluttered. i was really afraid that e symposium has caused me to be overly technical. i asked my some of my friends, and i guess i got affiramation. haha heing ar.
so i paid 5 bucks to go there, when i could have gone for the Symposium concert for free at the SAJC CC. ):
anyway. gd experince to hear from NC church though. always heard abt the church, but nv really really heard abt it 1st handedly.
ok.
today.
morng was the txy thing. felt sick. hahhaa. i really duno why i'm still feeling sick. its like the internal heaty thing. its not like sick sick. but smths wrong inside. been having weird headaches.
ANYWAYS. then was the wedding.
i didnt really like the photographer. no offence la. but too paparazzi alrdy. like when cutting the wedd cake. he had to stand there for long moments, check his cam and shoot again... and block ALL the audience. yea, i know its his job and it was to get a gd shot. but it was way too loong to get a shot.
and when the couple walk it. i've seen photogs do it discreetly but still gets the shots. he has to run to and fro. and the attention seemed to be on him. my mum even ask... 'ger ar.. look at the photog... so pro leh'. i was like... hurhur.
i can 100%ly confirm, no doubt that he'll make greater shots than me. but, there's still the etiquette thing right.
nvm.
but i had good food. good prawns. good soup. not so good wine.
haha. yes.
i'm tired.
did i mention?
b4 heading for the wedding, i rushed to peninsular and got a delay pedal. can't wait to try it out for PLUNGE. (:
pretty pretty. not its not very pleasing to my wallet.
Thursday, June 14, 2007
affirmation
today is.. nice.
i woke up at 7am. feeling sick, but surprisingly awake. ahha
then... i brush my teeth and expelled some HORRIFYING thing.
i coughed out a ball of dunno-wad. its like tissue cells, greenbrownishsticky kinda pleghm. seriously,i stared at it go down the sink. but b4 i allowed it to disappear, i used e end of my toothbrush and stopped the flow so that i can take a closer look.
it was really...erm.... out of the world. hahaha.
ok, enough with the description or i'll be accused of readers discresonary.
honestly, it felt goood.
i was still having that fever.
but it felt good.
i was all ready to go Worship symposium with my one litre water bottle and my rugby stuff, hoping that i'd get better by night. ahha.
Worship Symposium.
honestly, i didn't have any expectation of the symposium. coz i didn't see any publicityy or anything.. its zheng asked a few of us to go for this workshop. i was happy to go to a worship workshop kinda thing.. BUT.. i didn't expect it to be so cool. seriously.
jaws dropped.
we had a super wah talk by this guy.. erm. can't rmbr his name. its abt music arrangement. there's so many aspects we've overlooked. cluttered music and stuff. i'm not able to type all that he's said and i've learnt.. but... i can share they gyst of it at the later part. the whole grp is pretty small, but very condusive and effective. its really alot to learn..
so we had lunch.
then back to th symposium and broke out into our individual grps. oh man. Dave is super duper cool. the guitarist learnt alot from him. like how to modulate same chords, w/o capo. he's a pro. i'm really inspired to get a delay pedal. coz mine delay function doesn't work that effectively. ahhaha.
the was the band 'evaluation'. zheng led with the guit, agnes, jasmine, jasper and jovin were on their instruments.. and so was i. haha. i was so in awe of the MONSTER effects pedal. i didn't dare to use any of them. haha. so Dave helped be put some light distort and soft delay. super cool. the acoustics was there. COR had the thing man. our band was small compared to others.. but i'm sure we did our thing. as in like.. i realised after seeing 3 other bands, different churches had diff style.
i felt that our church, was different. in a gd way, we listened to each other and make sure we're all one sound and stuff and we really just go with the feel abt everything. we dun really plan plan plan. we just feel. most of the time la.
and then, the grp from england evaluated us. i was being affirmed again la. dave really surpriised me by what he said and i think its highly encouraging. it'll go a long long way. i still rmbr so clearly in sec 2 when i had a classical guit tchr. she's one fierce lady and she seldom praises. then one day, out of the blue she said the exact same thing as dave. seriouslyy. i'm like. serious?
ok. its abt me being able to have a ear for music. ahhha. thank u thank u. i still can't read towgays as efficiently though. but really, those 2 comments from unxpected experienced ppl will really go a long long long way.
faith is the opposite of fear
so with faith, no fear.
defn of JAM: JesusAppreciatesMusic.
+
the time really flew. and it was time for trng. i was all ready for trng. i took cab to sch. i reached sch and wanted to train.. but i had a headache. then i used my thermometer which i had it in my bag.. and was like 38.2. super super super disappointed.
i asked marli if i could do light ttrng... she said no.. coz its better to rest and quickly recover. uber sian.
they did fitness. agiilty trng and side step. to count, 80 side steps leh. 10 per set. 2 set of 4 sets. i watched at the side line. i really liked the ladder. i think its fun. ahhaha.
but from the sideline, i learnt alot. i tried to have an objective. so i decided to attempt to try and spot gaps. its soo much easier at the side w/o loops and inserts. i think its really a gd gd gd trng. i hope marli conntinues it.
i went home, feeling tired, as if i had did the trng. but really wasted. i today's trng is really really really helpful for my weak areas and matches with most of my objectives for touch. ): !
ANYWAYS.
tmr theres LTC trng in the morng. means tt i have to miss the symposium in the morng!!! unfair plsss.
my hols have technically ended. due to all the camps, workshops and meetings. yes. i dun reallly have the time to bowl with my dear zen gang at VICTORS. ): ): ): . i also dun have much time left to seiously seek XIAO BAI. i'm still heavily considering a f/4 or f/2.8.
ok. i'm pretty tired. gd nite.
Wednesday, June 13, 2007
award
so today's the award ceremony. i manage to get enough strength to step out of the house. was really a tiring time.. but congrats to andrew, sportsclub, rubgy and bowling team. also to dragonboat. u guys really deserve the team award. this yr's a tough competition. ahha.
well.
glad to be home safely. my fever is like on off kind. and having body aches all over. i really hope its not dengue. let's all doubt so k. haha. jsut now... it was a 38deg. now its like a 37.
haha. yes. althought i've mentioned abt 40days and 40nights, i dun want to be sick for such a period of time. i cannot afford it.
yes.
kp praying k. tmr have this workshop in the mornging till early evenning. then trng. i dun think i can train yet. i'll probably just go and watch. ):
really emotionally tiring.
and pls forgive me if any of u guys feel that i've broken promises with regards to photos. pls REMIND/ASK/TAG/BUG me to send u. i dun have the capacity to rmbr all requests yea. thank u. (:
well.
glad to be home safely. my fever is like on off kind. and having body aches all over. i really hope its not dengue. let's all doubt so k. haha. jsut now... it was a 38deg. now its like a 37.
haha. yes. althought i've mentioned abt 40days and 40nights, i dun want to be sick for such a period of time. i cannot afford it.
yes.
kp praying k. tmr have this workshop in the mornging till early evenning. then trng. i dun think i can train yet. i'll probably just go and watch. ):
really emotionally tiring.
and pls forgive me if any of u guys feel that i've broken promises with regards to photos. pls REMIND/ASK/TAG/BUG me to send u. i dun have the capacity to rmbr all requests yea. thank u. (:
40.
it rained for 40 days and 40 nights and then the rainbow.
so i'm assuming after this 40deg fever, i'll see some rainbow and hope and forgiveness yea.
tsk tsk.
this morng, i woke up at 735am. having the corp prayer timing inbuilt. ahha. whole body was aching... didn't have the energy to walk to my mum's room and asked for help. ahhah. thank God that i put my thermometer on my bedtop table... so i was abit shocked to realise that my fever was high. i prayed a short prayer to sleep.
haha. at around 11am.. my mum came into my room.. so i was trying to ask her for help. ahha. she gave me medicine.
and after the medicine, my fever dropped to 38! felt so much better. but i spent my day slping. my bodyaches seemed to kill me the most though.
i do not have time to vet the camp photos, and i still have yet to tyype the meeting minutes. and, tmr there e award ceremony and stuff.
and. i couldn't go for trng today. ): heard that they did the agility ropes and some drills! hurhur.
bah! everything falls on a day. when u're free, u're really free. and when u're not... u're really not. ):
Monday, June 11, 2007
i'm back
ok. i dun think this is gg to be a very encouraging post.
i guess camp was alright.
i really wanted to have a gd rest and allow myself for a time of refreshment..and at the same time, catch up with some gd friends. but i dun think i really achieved any of those goals.
to start off first.. the poly students went in on sat morng. we reached at 4am around there. it wasn't a really difficult nor easy night. it was the next day that i felt tired. i very much wanted to slp coz i felt myself physically so tired for some reason.. i felt it hard to concentrate on the sessions. i found it challenge to carry my camera around and shoot.
but i needed to do what i needed to do. so i told ulrica abt what i felt. she said a liner and walked off.. "its abt ur attitude, marian". i felt like disappointed of myself, being stumbled so easily by tiredness. so i pressed on for the day.
the sessions were.... honestly... very very hard to apply. its abt family-kids-communication. i felt that the focus was how to have a gd familly and stuff.. and the following day was abt passing on ur heritage. i'm like... huh.
i love ulrica wOrHxXxXXx. haha. (pardon me for the inside joke)
i very much wanted to be with the teens and youth. coz they were learning stuff that i felt i was lacking in. i needed those lessons to wake up from my sinful life.
but i was proud of myself being able to adhere to the rules and discipline myself.
corp. prayer was the killer thing. 7.15am. i really took my whole being to just physically wake up.. the 1st day for me was tough. but... i managed to go for corp prayer, i really benefited from ivan's sharing.
honestly, throughout the whole camp, the only planned spiritual feeding i got was from the corp prayer on sunday morning. it was abt the Living water and cistern water. i missed the sessions abt the staff and rod. basically, its abt Psalms 23.
i really felt good to learn more abt the analogies once again.
so the camp went on. had dance pracs. had music pracs. had to do this and that. i really dun mind at all although i can't deny the fact that i'm really tired. but i just felt very uncomfortable with all those clashed together. like for example.. 1.30pm on sunday, i had music and dance and skit prac. i had to skkip all and go for music, missing out on dance. ok. i didn't even get to see the 'swimming pool' or knew it existed.
but i thank God.
i thank God for uncle vincent and eugene. it was a rather 'new' worship team AND.... WITHOUT chords. but it was great. it reminded me of the time during last yr mission trip.. allowing ourselves to trust wholly to God because we knew fully that we weren't equipped with those technical talents. the pracs were tough and really at a slow pace coz of several repeatitions. and when the time came, we allowed God to use us to the max and marched into battlefield.
God was there. and the congregation and us had His awesome presence. i'm really proud of eugene and glen and yes, marc (the sweet one. hah!)
during camp, i witnessed quite a no. of ppl not adhereing to rules. and i really felt that justice didn't prevailed. here i am, abiding by the rules and going against my physical strength and there they are, breaking those rules which allowed personal satisfaction (subjective word pls.). i mean like... come on la. we paid gd money to go camp... but i dun think they used it to the max. i'm in no position to judge nor attempt to voice out any comments. but, i know i'm being faithful by staying with the rules although i'm getting super tired (x 100) by the moment being disciplined. and, pls honour God and God's people who teaches.
i dun think i should go on anymore.
but i just want to bring across a msg to readers, more so, to those who has not disciplined thyself. i guess y the camp comm is 'lac' with the rules because they have FAITH in us that we should be matured enough to abide by the rules and do wad's right. so i dun see why we should take advantange of this previliage, thinking that its ok's wad.
ok. for me, no offence, but i dread to go sessions. it was in the morning, and i jsut couldn't really relate with the content. the speaker was gd. and i'm sure that the parents really benifited alot. but wad i lookeed forward to being in the 'adult' grp is the grp sharing. i like it when i'm able to talk with the numerically older folks in coa coz i dun think the teens and youth have a chance to do that on normal Sundays. grp discussions with them can be fun. coz almost everyone is able to share n learn. i've learnt a thing or two from their sharing..they have eaten more salt than the rice we eat.
ok. as for the bonding thing. 2.5 days is not say really alot of time to alllowing personal/quiet sharings. everyone's being stretched and tired- to me la. i know grace is being stretched and being tired. but she's steady sia. haha. she's able to fulfill her duties by gg for corp prayer at 7am. during those moments, 15mins is really a big difference. ahha. i'm happier with 15mins more of precious slp.
there were cliques. but its perfectly fine. but it is not fine when these cliques do their stuff together, forgoing ministry time nor attempts to involve others.
no, i'm not feeling left out.
i'm just feeling lonely.
ahha. there is a difference. i was tired most of the time to find time to talk to some friends abt personal issues. ahha. i just needed someone to hear my crap. constructive feedback is not really needed. i mean, i dun expect to get a solution from the person i talk to larh. i must confessed that i could be more lively and be that cheerful marian that i once was, but i jsut didn't want to. actually, i was just emo-ing myself into selfpity but at the same time, trying to make the best of out the hardous situations. so i guess it wasn't really that bad. i do hope that my smiles did brightened those who were feeling the same way i felt.
unlike previous yrs, this yr, i didn't deepened my relationship with anyone. but i'm grateful from my room mates; Faith and Grace. (as in my friends, faith ng and grace ng). ahha. they are sisters. and they nv fail to make me laugh hysterically at their funny bickerings and habits. eg... when we left our room to check out, faith was like.. 'BYE' to the room. she did it natuarally as if for a friend without an intention to make a joke out of it. ahha. but it was hilarious. haha.
i thank God for them really. i think i was with like others (in general), i would have really felt leftout.
basically, i felt that i literally had no free time. it was either to pracs or pracs or preps.
it really motivates me to see the teens and youth growing. like for the younger girls.. i see them laughing so much. esp rachel. oh my. i want to thank God for her. coz i left Jasper's pick in the room... and i had 5mins b4 the prac started. at breakfast, i was asking my table if anyone had a pick. note that i didn't say it out loud, jsut audiable enough. and then, abt 3-4mins later... rachel came from nowhere to ask if i wanted to borrow a pick.
i was like. wah. God's super super effecient and steady.
i also had aunty angela to write down the chords, jasper and zheng to play the guit alongside.
actually, come to blog abt it, there are really many little blessings that i;ve overlooked. blinded by my tirednesss and endless constructive critisicms.
here are some my my inputs:
1) i feel that the decision of whether one belongs to the adults or to the teensandyouth should be based on the camp speaker's topic and not age or wadsoeva.
there maybe other factors and implications, but i feel that apart from fellowshipping, spiritual feeding is v impt. topics that are currently hard to apply in our lives makes the learning process tougher and drier.
2) corporate prayer. i think 7.15 is really killer (for me and many). perhaps make it at 730 or 745.. compensate it with lights out or if necessay, free time.
3) er.. paste a big timetable in the rooms that we use for sessions and have a small footnote below with regards to the camp rules. perhaps a reminder or so.
yea, i know that the booklets have timetable... haha.. but like during freetime.. we dun carry it around. one alternative is to rmbr the timings.. but its not a guranteed solution. we used to have plastic files a few years ago and we can store in all our materials... this yr.. i saw a few sheets of paper lying on the ground, unnoticed.
some personal reflections for now.. i think i could have been a better salt and light. somehow, i wanna thank adults like aunty alicern and Ivan. really and honestly. i pray that they know that i'm superly grateful for their encouragements.
i should be a role model that express my concerns and not keep it inside. there are reasons why i'm now like that la. i use to say wadever i want to say, but at the right time la. but sometimes, the sincere message is not being brought across, but hard words of thorns and misunderstandings. so a better, and not so risky solution is just to shut up and do what is right by being an example.
i really really wanted to learn what the tny were learning, at least i could apply. like for last yr, i was with the tny (i should think so).. and the camp speaker spoke abt faith and gifts and the tny speaker spoke abt smth tt i;ve already heard countless times. i can't rmbr which yr was it.. but lorraine agreed with the way i felt that year.
thus, with reagards to the above objectives mentioned, i didn't nto really meet any of those.
ok la. humans can never be satisfied. but i do want to make the best out of any situations. at least we could try, and ensure that objectives are met and that quality time is being used to the fullest.
and for the grp that i really felt ugh abt or anyone feeling guilty after reading all those words, i'm sorry. i just want to amplify my hard feelings out. i just want u guys to be disclined. rules can be bent. but not break. thats one of the statements i feel for. hahaa. for me, if i read someone else's blog and feel guilty, wondering if the blogger is speaking abt/to you, there must be a reason to this guilt. so pls try and reflect. the blooger may be utterly wrong to judge and stuff, but this is wad he/she felt. he/she had a reason to say all these la. so pls try and understand?
yes. so sorry if u'd expected to come to my blog and see colourful photos and read an exciting post.
thank you for successfully reading the long and aunti-fied post. i'll perhaps post some pics ups a few more days later.
my shots doesn't seemed to be very in focused. and my com screen is very much no caliberated. erkgs.
but i thank God for blessing us with safe journeys and the moments were i got to know the adults more and interact with them. i think the skit with a combination of chinese ministry and tny is super cool. in previous yrs, the dance repsented the tny ministry. but this year, it was really cool to see more tny on stage.
pls pray for me.
haha.
i'm having a fever and sorethroat right now. i thought my back was superly recovered, but during the camp annd even right now, i'm feelings this very wierd pain/strain. my shoulders are like stiffen up and all. signs of showing a very sick marian to behold for the next few days. i dun think i'm able to go for rugby tmr. i'm francticallly drinking loads of water now, and trying to finish my uncompleted task and at the same time, somehow, get gdd rest.
so pls pray k. i dun want to waste these 2 wks of break. i'll be really wasted.
once again. thank you.
i guess camp was alright.
i really wanted to have a gd rest and allow myself for a time of refreshment..and at the same time, catch up with some gd friends. but i dun think i really achieved any of those goals.
to start off first.. the poly students went in on sat morng. we reached at 4am around there. it wasn't a really difficult nor easy night. it was the next day that i felt tired. i very much wanted to slp coz i felt myself physically so tired for some reason.. i felt it hard to concentrate on the sessions. i found it challenge to carry my camera around and shoot.
but i needed to do what i needed to do. so i told ulrica abt what i felt. she said a liner and walked off.. "its abt ur attitude, marian". i felt like disappointed of myself, being stumbled so easily by tiredness. so i pressed on for the day.
the sessions were.... honestly... very very hard to apply. its abt family-kids-communication. i felt that the focus was how to have a gd familly and stuff.. and the following day was abt passing on ur heritage. i'm like... huh.
i love ulrica wOrHxXxXXx. haha. (pardon me for the inside joke)
i very much wanted to be with the teens and youth. coz they were learning stuff that i felt i was lacking in. i needed those lessons to wake up from my sinful life.
but i was proud of myself being able to adhere to the rules and discipline myself.
corp. prayer was the killer thing. 7.15am. i really took my whole being to just physically wake up.. the 1st day for me was tough. but... i managed to go for corp prayer, i really benefited from ivan's sharing.
honestly, throughout the whole camp, the only planned spiritual feeding i got was from the corp prayer on sunday morning. it was abt the Living water and cistern water. i missed the sessions abt the staff and rod. basically, its abt Psalms 23.
i really felt good to learn more abt the analogies once again.
so the camp went on. had dance pracs. had music pracs. had to do this and that. i really dun mind at all although i can't deny the fact that i'm really tired. but i just felt very uncomfortable with all those clashed together. like for example.. 1.30pm on sunday, i had music and dance and skit prac. i had to skkip all and go for music, missing out on dance. ok. i didn't even get to see the 'swimming pool' or knew it existed.
but i thank God.
i thank God for uncle vincent and eugene. it was a rather 'new' worship team AND.... WITHOUT chords. but it was great. it reminded me of the time during last yr mission trip.. allowing ourselves to trust wholly to God because we knew fully that we weren't equipped with those technical talents. the pracs were tough and really at a slow pace coz of several repeatitions. and when the time came, we allowed God to use us to the max and marched into battlefield.
God was there. and the congregation and us had His awesome presence. i'm really proud of eugene and glen and yes, marc (the sweet one. hah!)
during camp, i witnessed quite a no. of ppl not adhereing to rules. and i really felt that justice didn't prevailed. here i am, abiding by the rules and going against my physical strength and there they are, breaking those rules which allowed personal satisfaction (subjective word pls.). i mean like... come on la. we paid gd money to go camp... but i dun think they used it to the max. i'm in no position to judge nor attempt to voice out any comments. but, i know i'm being faithful by staying with the rules although i'm getting super tired (x 100) by the moment being disciplined. and, pls honour God and God's people who teaches.
i dun think i should go on anymore.
but i just want to bring across a msg to readers, more so, to those who has not disciplined thyself. i guess y the camp comm is 'lac' with the rules because they have FAITH in us that we should be matured enough to abide by the rules and do wad's right. so i dun see why we should take advantange of this previliage, thinking that its ok's wad.
ok. for me, no offence, but i dread to go sessions. it was in the morning, and i jsut couldn't really relate with the content. the speaker was gd. and i'm sure that the parents really benifited alot. but wad i lookeed forward to being in the 'adult' grp is the grp sharing. i like it when i'm able to talk with the numerically older folks in coa coz i dun think the teens and youth have a chance to do that on normal Sundays. grp discussions with them can be fun. coz almost everyone is able to share n learn. i've learnt a thing or two from their sharing..they have eaten more salt than the rice we eat.
ok. as for the bonding thing. 2.5 days is not say really alot of time to alllowing personal/quiet sharings. everyone's being stretched and tired- to me la. i know grace is being stretched and being tired. but she's steady sia. haha. she's able to fulfill her duties by gg for corp prayer at 7am. during those moments, 15mins is really a big difference. ahha. i'm happier with 15mins more of precious slp.
there were cliques. but its perfectly fine. but it is not fine when these cliques do their stuff together, forgoing ministry time nor attempts to involve others.
no, i'm not feeling left out.
i'm just feeling lonely.
ahha. there is a difference. i was tired most of the time to find time to talk to some friends abt personal issues. ahha. i just needed someone to hear my crap. constructive feedback is not really needed. i mean, i dun expect to get a solution from the person i talk to larh. i must confessed that i could be more lively and be that cheerful marian that i once was, but i jsut didn't want to. actually, i was just emo-ing myself into selfpity but at the same time, trying to make the best of out the hardous situations. so i guess it wasn't really that bad. i do hope that my smiles did brightened those who were feeling the same way i felt.
unlike previous yrs, this yr, i didn't deepened my relationship with anyone. but i'm grateful from my room mates; Faith and Grace. (as in my friends, faith ng and grace ng). ahha. they are sisters. and they nv fail to make me laugh hysterically at their funny bickerings and habits. eg... when we left our room to check out, faith was like.. 'BYE' to the room. she did it natuarally as if for a friend without an intention to make a joke out of it. ahha. but it was hilarious. haha.
i thank God for them really. i think i was with like others (in general), i would have really felt leftout.
basically, i felt that i literally had no free time. it was either to pracs or pracs or preps.
it really motivates me to see the teens and youth growing. like for the younger girls.. i see them laughing so much. esp rachel. oh my. i want to thank God for her. coz i left Jasper's pick in the room... and i had 5mins b4 the prac started. at breakfast, i was asking my table if anyone had a pick. note that i didn't say it out loud, jsut audiable enough. and then, abt 3-4mins later... rachel came from nowhere to ask if i wanted to borrow a pick.
i was like. wah. God's super super effecient and steady.
i also had aunty angela to write down the chords, jasper and zheng to play the guit alongside.
actually, come to blog abt it, there are really many little blessings that i;ve overlooked. blinded by my tirednesss and endless constructive critisicms.
here are some my my inputs:
1) i feel that the decision of whether one belongs to the adults or to the teensandyouth should be based on the camp speaker's topic and not age or wadsoeva.
there maybe other factors and implications, but i feel that apart from fellowshipping, spiritual feeding is v impt. topics that are currently hard to apply in our lives makes the learning process tougher and drier.
2) corporate prayer. i think 7.15 is really killer (for me and many). perhaps make it at 730 or 745.. compensate it with lights out or if necessay, free time.
3) er.. paste a big timetable in the rooms that we use for sessions and have a small footnote below with regards to the camp rules. perhaps a reminder or so.
yea, i know that the booklets have timetable... haha.. but like during freetime.. we dun carry it around. one alternative is to rmbr the timings.. but its not a guranteed solution. we used to have plastic files a few years ago and we can store in all our materials... this yr.. i saw a few sheets of paper lying on the ground, unnoticed.
some personal reflections for now.. i think i could have been a better salt and light. somehow, i wanna thank adults like aunty alicern and Ivan. really and honestly. i pray that they know that i'm superly grateful for their encouragements.
i should be a role model that express my concerns and not keep it inside. there are reasons why i'm now like that la. i use to say wadever i want to say, but at the right time la. but sometimes, the sincere message is not being brought across, but hard words of thorns and misunderstandings. so a better, and not so risky solution is just to shut up and do what is right by being an example.
i really really wanted to learn what the tny were learning, at least i could apply. like for last yr, i was with the tny (i should think so).. and the camp speaker spoke abt faith and gifts and the tny speaker spoke abt smth tt i;ve already heard countless times. i can't rmbr which yr was it.. but lorraine agreed with the way i felt that year.
thus, with reagards to the above objectives mentioned, i didn't nto really meet any of those.
ok la. humans can never be satisfied. but i do want to make the best out of any situations. at least we could try, and ensure that objectives are met and that quality time is being used to the fullest.
and for the grp that i really felt ugh abt or anyone feeling guilty after reading all those words, i'm sorry. i just want to amplify my hard feelings out. i just want u guys to be disclined. rules can be bent. but not break. thats one of the statements i feel for. hahaa. for me, if i read someone else's blog and feel guilty, wondering if the blogger is speaking abt/to you, there must be a reason to this guilt. so pls try and reflect. the blooger may be utterly wrong to judge and stuff, but this is wad he/she felt. he/she had a reason to say all these la. so pls try and understand?
yes. so sorry if u'd expected to come to my blog and see colourful photos and read an exciting post.
thank you for successfully reading the long and aunti-fied post. i'll perhaps post some pics ups a few more days later.
my shots doesn't seemed to be very in focused. and my com screen is very much no caliberated. erkgs.
but i thank God for blessing us with safe journeys and the moments were i got to know the adults more and interact with them. i think the skit with a combination of chinese ministry and tny is super cool. in previous yrs, the dance repsented the tny ministry. but this year, it was really cool to see more tny on stage.
pls pray for me.
haha.
i'm having a fever and sorethroat right now. i thought my back was superly recovered, but during the camp annd even right now, i'm feelings this very wierd pain/strain. my shoulders are like stiffen up and all. signs of showing a very sick marian to behold for the next few days. i dun think i'm able to go for rugby tmr. i'm francticallly drinking loads of water now, and trying to finish my uncompleted task and at the same time, somehow, get gdd rest.
so pls pray k. i dun want to waste these 2 wks of break. i'll be really wasted.
once again. thank you.
Thursday, June 07, 2007
Caught in the eye.
literally. haha. ok
Collegiate league. First Wk.at Hougang Superbowl. DEJAVU i tell u.
Last yr's post- that was taken from 27th July 2006.
183, 174, 164.
if its not for TP1, we'd gotten 1st for today.
2248 series (with hcp). 4 bowlers 3 games hows that.
break in
break through
break up
break point
break down
i am strong.
u know why.
coz i carry a 13.5 lbs ball and u dont.
never expect.
it'll be smth u'll never get.
great. and i'm supposed to focus during LTC trng for 2 whole days. till sat nite.
thanks.
oh my.and it says that the next day is LTC trng. haha. which i actually have from tmr till sat. BUT. i'll be gg for church camp instead. yes. everything clashes.
no. i didn't bowl as well today. i bowled like cow. i felt the lanes were super reversed and i was playing a 9-7 ?! trust me, i dun usually play that kind of line. i dun have the guts to. ahhaa.
but i felt the tension.
team1 and 2 were out to fight. every frame was being watched and counted. gd from gerrad and calvin. calvin had a 8 in a row... gerrad had a 7. yes. they BURNT us totally. well, at least we won them the first round.
anyways. i hope that this league will be a 'legendary' one. HAHA. i think team2 can win if we really want to and if the line up is the most ideal and accurate one.
so yes. after today, HANDICAPPS PLS. thanks. hahaha. (: (: aim for the 'most improved bowler award'. wasted. should have bowl a 90 smth game today. so easier to win that award. HAHAH.
ahha. today, went i went into the alley.. i saw.. MARVELL-OUS-SI. haha. it felt as if we're long long time friends who didn't see each other for a long long time. ya. and we just bowled NAG as opponets for 4 days. har. talk abt team bonding man.
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well. its goona be a year since things changed.
today was just emo.
i specially took 854 to THAT bus stop today. i walked passed all our hideouts, literally carrying my 2 bowling balls to the alley which seemed to far away.
i didn't want that day to happen leh. if i could just rewind the moment and stand for my 'rights' (if i do have one). as in like.... aiya. i duno. i dun seem to be able to cope with the current situation now. i just hope u're doing well and studying hard.
i shan't be al-too-girly abt it. thanks.
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ok. last post b4 i head to malaysia.
tmr is goona be a LOOOONG day.
and then i'll be back on monday late night .so yes.
i hope i dun tire myself out. i have a feeling that fitness is gg to start on tue.
take care everyone.
Wednesday, June 06, 2007
lye that lor!
WAHS. (note the lang for the next para).
wah. come poly speak like that lor. tmr last paper finally... but i dun feel the exam-is-over of it. i tink not enought effort put into the study.. so feel like nothing lor.
ok. BUAY TAHAN.
seriously. when after 1 yr being in poly, i reaslised the difficulty in constucting grammatically correct sentences when i'm writting an essay. today's paper was Mangaging Business Systems, another subject which the marker aren't so strict abt the grammma. my goodness. looking, i was struggling to find another phrase to replace this - "there wasn't". so my essay went on smth like.. "they wasn't any checks on...." *slaps head. coz i felt that "there was not any checks" sounded wierd. weren't was worse.
oh man. i've failed the Convent image. haha. now i see why mrs teo wanted to STRONGLY HIGHLY STRESS the foundation of english. we were taught to speak and to write, and RARELY taught abt the tenses, structure and the chimology part of the English Language.
hahah. i think if samantha lee supiah or natasha tan was to have a conversation with any tomdickorharry in a poly, they'll have a hard hard hard time.
this is bad.
i think i should do smth abt it. hahahhaa. maybe i shall go buy those 'emergency english book' . HAHAHH. tsk tsk.
ya.
but back at the exam thing. tmr's really the last paper. i dun feel that huge sense of relieve that i used to have. ahha. i think partially its coz i have camp and i didn't put in effort into my work. ): i'll make sure i'll be a successful NERD next sem. ahhaa.
mkt reseach tmr.
i dun see why we should have test on such a subject. projects,, more hands on would be much useful. yes, we should study the subject. but not have pen and paper kinda test for this subject.
wah. come poly speak like that lor. tmr last paper finally... but i dun feel the exam-is-over of it. i tink not enought effort put into the study.. so feel like nothing lor.
ok. BUAY TAHAN.
seriously. when after 1 yr being in poly, i reaslised the difficulty in constucting grammatically correct sentences when i'm writting an essay. today's paper was Mangaging Business Systems, another subject which the marker aren't so strict abt the grammma. my goodness. looking, i was struggling to find another phrase to replace this - "there wasn't". so my essay went on smth like.. "they wasn't any checks on...." *slaps head. coz i felt that "there was not any checks" sounded wierd. weren't was worse.
oh man. i've failed the Convent image. haha. now i see why mrs teo wanted to STRONGLY HIGHLY STRESS the foundation of english. we were taught to speak and to write, and RARELY taught abt the tenses, structure and the chimology part of the English Language.
hahah. i think if samantha lee supiah or natasha tan was to have a conversation with any tomdickorharry in a poly, they'll have a hard hard hard time.
this is bad.
i think i should do smth abt it. hahahhaa. maybe i shall go buy those 'emergency english book' . HAHAHH. tsk tsk.
ya.
but back at the exam thing. tmr's really the last paper. i dun feel that huge sense of relieve that i used to have. ahha. i think partially its coz i have camp and i didn't put in effort into my work. ): i'll make sure i'll be a successful NERD next sem. ahhaa.
mkt reseach tmr.
i dun see why we should have test on such a subject. projects,, more hands on would be much useful. yes, we should study the subject. but not have pen and paper kinda test for this subject.
Tuesday, June 05, 2007
opportunity cost
hoho.
any take on this?
70-200 f/4 + flash
70-200 f/2.8 (2nd hand) + flash
70-200 f/2.8
pros and cons. i saw xiao bai today. and i feel so excitied can. like oh man oh man. think abt nice dof and no more foggy shots! ahah. it excites me. i wana get before the GST rise and it'll probably the only lens i'm getting for the yr b4 i earn more money.. ahaha.. (: (: (: hahah. yay.
i think i'm v nicce to shoot for sch for no returns. haha.hmm.
grrr. 2 more days till mid sem is over! i'm tired.. not because of studyin... but because of trying to study hard. amongst my probably 11yrs of studyiing.. this is the very very first time i'm feelin so so laid back and sian abt the whole study thing.ahhahah.
ok la. i think i'm just distracted and not driven enough by 20% marks. ): ):
God bless.
any take on this?
70-200 f/4 + flash
70-200 f/2.8 (2nd hand) + flash
70-200 f/2.8
pros and cons. i saw xiao bai today. and i feel so excitied can. like oh man oh man. think abt nice dof and no more foggy shots! ahah. it excites me. i wana get before the GST rise and it'll probably the only lens i'm getting for the yr b4 i earn more money.. ahaha.. (: (: (: hahah. yay.
i think i'm v nicce to shoot for sch for no returns. haha.hmm.
grrr. 2 more days till mid sem is over! i'm tired.. not because of studyin... but because of trying to study hard. amongst my probably 11yrs of studyiing.. this is the very very first time i'm feelin so so laid back and sian abt the whole study thing.
ok la. i think i'm just distracted and not driven enough by 20% marks. ): ):
God bless.
Monday, June 04, 2007
calls
every ring i hear today makes my heart pound.
ahha. coz today's the coe results!
i got into the A category. ahha. (: i heard they closed the AAA cate. which means only 30 can get in.
haha. yay. meeting is at SP on wed 7-9pm. HOW FAR is that la. and i have exams.
i really dun have the mood to study... i dun think mood is the right word.. but like.. grrr. too many task to do! ): ):
i hope SAA gives me a break pls. i'm too distracted easily this week.
Sunday, June 03, 2007
My Childhood Bookmark
yea! i won e top prize. (:
BUT
"I understand that you are unable to make it during the seminar.
May I know the reason.
This is because winners must be present during the seminar to receive their prizes, otherwise it will be forfeited."
i'll be in malaysia having church camp.
to go church camp means to forfeit LTC camp, the ceremony and the prize
this is not gd.
Top Prize:
Canon EOS 400D Digital SLR Camera Kit
Lowepro Micro Trekker 200 Backpack
Manfrotto 728B Digi Compact 3W Tripod
2x Canon Photo Paper Plus Glossy PP-101
i think i must go church camp coz the arrangements are made and paid for. but in terms of $$, and opportunity cost, i'm loosing out quite alot.
and, i won because i got an idea from liji's joke abt caning himself and taking a photo of his hand to the theme 'childhood' and not because it was a direct give away.
haha. some are quite unhapppy with the fact that i won. ahha. probably its coz of these few that stands out that demoralises me.
but, nvm. i know my strengths. and i know my weaknesses. to me, wining is a big encouragement to me given the amt of technical know-nots abt photography compared to others. i'll work on that. but meanwhile, i'll use what i have and work harder.
serena, law student rocks.
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serena: ask if is it only life and death will constitute to a valid reason, and not religion
serena: if they still insist that religion is not a valid reason
serena: they are discriminating the religion
me:rockin. hahahah.
serena:they have no respect as to Singapore's values of having a multi race, multi religion society
me: ok. i'll bear that in mind. haha.
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plus, notice was given less then a wk, not even in the website or anything. hmm.
so many things happening during that wkend!!! *screams.
ANYWAYS. today was the COE selections. at yishun. thanks to charlyn's mum for drivin us to and fro. was cool. bowled non stop from 2-4pm with 4ppl on a pair of lanes. coz we came late.. so we had the lanes which had very little ppl. HAHA. i think on the avg, we bowled 5 games. FOR FREE. hoho. it was VERY ddry. i could play a 6-6 and still come back to pocket.
the panal of coaches were cool. ahha. wearing the adidas jacket with the Sg flag on it. ahaha.
i had fun though.
then was studyign!
(: i manage to finish FAOM. i think its a feat. aha. but abit dry on rmbring the formulas. so yea. all the best to all!! (:
Saturday, June 02, 2007
photos
ytd rugby chalet was gd. but i felt tt if it was done not against our bio clock, iy would be better.
8pm till 5am.
and then..
drangonboat trng. NO. i'm not trng. hhaha. its shooting for SAA, again.
then was pam's weddin! i'm so excited for her la. was playing guit for the event so i was infront. ahhah! gd view seh. haha. (: (: its like she's ultimate pretty and cool can. like... whoassss.
they joy of weddings.
i'm really tired. and tmr's sunday already.
the exams. grrr.
guess wad. POL-ITE IS IN 7WKS TIME. how bout that. dun like last min big decisions.
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