NAG07

i guess i'll have to make this a quick one.

great to see long lost bowlers. hahah. esp zen and the SA team.
lots of bowlers have improved tremendously and, lost weight. haha.
i feel so happy being back in the bowling circle. haha. i guess coz bowling for poly is very seggregated due to the cirrculum. haha. but yes, gd to see long lost coaches too. haha. (: (: we must bowl at victors one day b4 it closes k. ahaa.

i wanna thank my team. 4 days together. ahaha. also the NP boys team 4 for being our opponents. MAR-VE-LOUS-SI. hahhaa.

i didn't bowl well enough to get into masters. ahha. both SBF teams managed to get all the places, leaving 4 for MISCELLANEOUS. ahhaha. TODAY, i realised my mistake in my execution. its my followthrough and back swing. my ball placement has been wrong for 2 days. ahha. i realised that on my 1.2 game today. so it was like... hur. by then, i wasn't ready to adapt to the timing again. tsk tsk. so yes, again, i didn't bowl well. ahha.. let the chance go by again.

anyways. i guess its another great experience for me, squeezing in this tournament b4 my exams.

tmr its compulsory chalet. and then, the wedding. grr.
i really have no time to study. its like 2.35am now. and i do have lessons tmr. ): ):

gd nite.
haha.

doubles

hmm. smth's wrong with my excution and launch angle.
but i really duno what is it.


as for the COE thing, i'm still contemplating if i should join coz it'll be a big step forward. today, he took me by surprise and asked me join. i didnt have an answer. but financially, i dun think i can afford it though. 3 days of thinking mans.

grrr.


i wanna be a better bowler.

boo.

SPL___________________________________________________ITS

91. haunts.

puii la.
172 91 168.
like ultra wasted can.
the lanes were pretty oily.. until e 2nd game when it started to change. once ball hits 7 board area, it wont come back. and center is quite dry. like a mini reverse to me.

my 2nd game. its my fault. i was wrong on my timing and footing. my 3rd and 4th didn't excute it properly.


congrats to zen for getting 4th so far. she like all the way at lane 5! ): was hoping same lane la. that will be cool.


well. i hope to make a comeback and CONSTANTLY remind myself that i did bowl a 91 game and its gonna affect my standings severely. i do want to get into masters.


SMAC. aha. great to see astoria, charlyn and sam enjoying their usual crazy conversations during game. ahha.
i'm seriously goona chiong for doubles. like seriously. 3 games only. anything can happen.


anyways.

this wk, no sch till FRI. AMEN. coz tut and lects are all like field wrk and stuff. fri and sat is gonna be a KILLER. i have a compulsory rugby chalet followed by dance prac and pam's wedding. killer. so i have technically, tue, wed and thurs to complete my studies. b4 sunday. i must learn to rely on God's strength again.

Chinese Os is now over. heard the paper is a tough one. just hope that e o level takers will have the motivation to press on and mug like they never mug b4. haha..
so must i.

All That Jazz

yup.
was gd. haha. considering they had planks on stage. was gd to let my mum talk to her old 'dance-mamas' friends. hhaha.

elaine.agnes.kim.eve.jas came to watch. (:
thank you elaine for the ultimate cool necklace from bangkok. haha.




the night shots.. the last one is my personal fav. ahha the stars. reminds me of thailand. i'll probably wanna tray brinign my tripod there if i do get to go this year.




i'm glad this week's over.
1 more heiong wk to go. i really should try and fit in study time. if i fail any subjects, i think i'm goona make myself study as if i'm studying for my A levels.
yes. and well done jeremiah for workin really hard. i'm sure it'll pay off.

gd nite.

childhood

so yes. i sent that in.
my childhood.
haha. oks. todays like travel here and there. submission at NUS, thank God for providing me with ways to get there ON TIME. after class, i waited at the taxi stand. just as i was there, a taxi needed to go jurong. so he said no to all, including me. after that, he turned and asked me to hop on. ahha. and i was like the last in the queue. ahha. he sped at 120km/h and asked me to HOLD ON sia. haha. $9.80, althought i've been warned of a possible $14. haha. (:




the photo below is taken during canon marathon. i've decided to recycle it for The Unforgettable. haha. open category.. just send in lor. ahha. got nothing to lose anyways.



tmr's my performace at PS. 5pm. mum's gg to watch. haha. dun like her watching me dance. its been a few yrs since she'd last saw me dance. /: ok. thank God. i'm goona prolly rest now.

havoc whors.

i just came home. haha.

was shooting. (: with suanyang, serena, gariel and jingyong after the dinner.

dinner rocks totally. love to see my IMF ppl. its like... reunion lars.

oks. so the sun is like out now. and the theme for the photo competiotion is CHILDHOOD. rocks hor.

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Theme Release for Montage 2007
Youth Competition
25th May 2007 1800h

Theme:
Childhood

Everybody has been through the childhood phase. Life was simple yet memorable. Happy or sad, childhood life was full of innocence and trouble-free. What are your childhood memories?

Capture 4 photos of your choice (from 25th May 2007, 1800h to 26th May 2007, 1800h) and submit them at Science Foyer, National University of Singapore (near Lecture Theatre 27), from 1200h to 1800h, 26th May 2007.

Please read the rules and regulations before you start shooting.

Enjoy shooting!

Note: Photo editing is strictly prohibited.



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yea. how now brown cow.
technically i have a few hrs to shoot. dance prac at 11-3. tap from 4-5, class from 5-6. thus, i have NO time to submit my photo. probably gotta meet any photog to help me teleport the photos. oh man. freakys. hahaha.. i seriouslly need CASH. (: (:

and, bye to Haoming. have fun in finland being a cuboid. haha.

i'm goonna slp now. haha. gdmornings.

exclaim-

-nation-mark.


A division girls quartet is a 156 for 2nd position!! freak out.
congrats to SAJC girls for attaining 3rd! and
the boys for regaining the CHAMPION title! (: (:
Mrs Lim better be proud of the DSA ppl ok.



ahha. impromptu public speaking pressentation. "My fav haunt in Sg" is my topic. ahhaa. i think my speech can actually put ppl to slp.

ahhaa.

just now i ran for 25mins b4 it rained! ahaha. my back didn't kill me! ahhaa. yay. should start maintaining it.


my heart is like racing fast now. i guess its coz theres too many things gg on my mind. the shirts, the dinner, the meetings, tutorials, everything...
(: whoo-hoo. heere i come.

Creative

ahha. field trip sia.

was fun. we shopped at the $2 shop and it was fun fun fun.
nice to go out on a weekday.
the OBSERVATIONAL learning thing was so off la.
coz at the Creative store, what we see is old business uncles patronizing the stores, on wkdays-lunch breaks.
and Creative was supposed to be for the young hip and cool. oks. haha. results of marketing efforts only shows on wkends i hope. haha.

after that..went back to sch. ate milo icecream from some minimart! guess who i saw on the milo tin?


jazreel. HAHHAHA. win already lors. haha. i would like tt. can u image the amt of FREE milo i'm able to attain?! oh man. exciting.


anyways. after that, i weent tampines to bowl with alvin and jeremy. calvin was there too. i bowled 7 games! i was trying the the feel. inconsistant scores. like.. 12 14 14 15 16 15 19. plus. i was trying alot on my timing, push off, weight, release. like almost everything. i got confused.
i had afew nice shots. but it was really afew. like too little-ly pathetic.
but i really needed that 7 games.

anyways. i finally broguht home the bowling balls today. haha.
next time i'll be bowling is for Age Group. i really hope to come back in this tournament. u see below.its a fun bowl. and NO HANDICAP FOR WOMANs, no diff poool also. male and female mix together.. so get first for female like nothing... sian.



when u dun need to bowl welll, u bowl well. when u need to, u messed up.


OKS.
its been long since i've rant here abt bowling.
i really really really hope ido well this time. i wasted my luxrious time of being UNDER 17. ahhaha. now its UNDER 22 can. frigtening.
i cannot try to make a comeback. coz i've never once been high up there. ahhaha., i shall spring into action.

okok. whatever.(buay tahan. that advertisement. gd marketing)

i'm reall afraid i dun have time to study. this wkend is the performance. next whole wk is just N. Age Grp. and then theres the wedding. like win lor. and then.. PAH. mon is the exams. freaky can. not for the faint hearted.
i should try studying now. dun think i can find any discipline or drive to run with some of my classmates tmr. haha. i neeed slp. gd nite.

pray for sara parn and geraldyne and mel and steph and sam and andrew and daniel nad shaun and many more ppl. i think the A levels and o levels is freaking each other out. its the MAY. now. ahha. i can imagine myself still in SA, mugging my life away, not knowing what is an SLR, not knowing what is a sidestep. ahahha.
gd nite.

what we see

ahhaa. the days. this was taken sometime in march. late night at macs. haha.


today.
$19 on cab is not joking matter.
i can just starve myself for one wk for that trip.

its the season!
i miss SA. i really miss them.
they're doing well. (:
but i heard they lost to whoever in rugby ): hope they get it back next year.
as for bowling. ahhaha. 160 avg and win is really freaky la. i wanna be there. seriouslly. i guess coz all the sportssch ppl are either still there or poly. tsk tsk. 160 in POL-ITE, u'll be in PAGE 2 of the score sheet. reality check. but well done guys! (: (: uncle adam must be proud of u guys. and uncle henry must be secretly smiling. haha. (: (:


i'm really random today.

sheesh.


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what i see
is just an empty seat.
standing right there,
looking at my feet.

just as i wanted to propose,
you were just there to oppose.
hetrosexual illustrate the theory of magnetism,
but all these agony gives me astigmatism.

i am blind
darkness surrouonds my night.
i am kind
shadows block my sight.

never will i think of getting it ack,
never would i want to see you sad.
just like a tortise without its shell,
just like a snail without its cell.

what you see
is just a happy mask
sitting right there,
holding an empty flask.

apel lesson

today apel was fun.
entrepeunership was fun.
lessons were fun,
all because it was with 2M02. haha.
and we had an awesome FULL attendance today!

haha. and i still rmbr clearly how it was unsual to have someone in class absent back in sec4. haha.

the topic today was 'What is Love'.
i think it was a gd bonding session. hahahaha. we got to know ms reena more and she was graceful enough to share her experiences. ahhaa. super funny.
i love mondays. although its loooong, i'm glad to have the class together. ms reena says they may change class next yr ): ): ):

congrats zen and reg for getting silver for doubles for A div. i'm super sure it's her dream... we've been competing since sec 1. ahahhaha. i'm envious. ahha. but nonetheless, proud of you guys! hahha.

its funny how my mood swings like a looong pendulum. one moment i feel like the world is crashing and on the other, i'm back to norm. speak abt forgetting/supressing. haha.

thank you garyquek and evil twin. haha.



watch out for National age group. i hope to be at peak. now i'm not and i have exactly abt 1 wk to get there.i hope to bag smth home with sam and team. and for the next 2 wkends, i'm fully pack. like no time to slp, really. midnight shooting, performances.... and then, hit the NAG, and then its the chalet! i really duno how to study for midsems. hoho.


i miss penguin tissue papers.

sure thing.

the boots tells alot abt the field huh.

anyways.
happy 55th anniversary COA! (:


after that, cabbed down for the trials. when i went there, they were done.
saw the suan family. ahha. gd to see suanyang and suiying!
abit disappointed. but i heard that this yr got a few strong bowlers and female bowlers! (: (: (:
yay. my batch was like... ahhaa. really. thank God.

gd to have sam liew with me again as teammate! (: 1 yr of bowling w/o my vcapt. haha.

then i bowled fun bowl.
5 games. and i haven been bowling since 1-2months.
totally disgusting. couldn't get that feel. haha.
so the avg was really horrible. plus reverse oiling. so i was like trng my 5-5.
5 games seemed loooong. looking back, i used to bowl like mad, b div 8 games no sweat. now, after the 3.5 games, i start carrying my shot already.

ok.

this is the new year. i mean acad year. i'll make sure it'll be a gd one. i'll make sure i dun proscratinate. i'll make sure i focus. i'll make sure i prioprtise acc to His plan. i'll make sure i do well and enjoy myself.
i'll make sure i'll make Him smile.

wad fixtures

i guess we did whatever we could.
sent 2 teams,
Pool A and Pool B.
both teams emerge 2nd in the respective pools,
closely behind NUS and SP.
AND. the format is just plain wrong and somewhat unfair.

1st of pool A plays with 2nd of Pool B.
2nd of Pool A plays with 1st of Pool B.

so literally its quite dumb. but nvm.
during the semis, one against NUS the other against SP,
both team lost but had a gd fight. esp to Team Temasek who fought until sudden death.

technically, loosers from that match would play for 3rd and 4th. BUT no.
its the 3rd and 4th of the pool who gets to play 3rd and 4th for overall. so yes,
the teams that lost to us eventually brought home at least a 3rd or smth.

whatever la. we've given our best.


basically for me,
az told me that i was playing link last night. so i set my objectives. i wanted to do angling and break though. and on defence, was to communitate with centre during attack and esp on defence. so these are the 2 main ones la. i was like picturing it. ahhaha.
then this morng, some changes, i was made to play wing.
abit uncomfortable. coz i'm afraid that they'll burn wing or do some switch thing. was really afraid to let the team down.
so i had to change my objectives. i just wanted to be a gd supporter and be an excellent defender. coughs.
so today, i was like huh when i realised that i only did a quickie for the whole day. whole day. i was defending all the time. on attack i just help to create man. so i guess i couldn't really hit my goal.
i'll never ever forget what aishya said to me during the NTLs prep. i guess it'll carry with me throughout my whole rugby life. i kept repeating aishya's words in my head and blocking all nonsense stuff. it presses me on. i still do get the same stuff on the field even today.
i'm giving myself 3 more months to see where i want to move to for rugby. i dun think i'm able to keep letting-it-go for 2yrs. i'll just unnecessarilly tire out myself and one day, my passion may be swayed.

anyways. i want to thank God for the not-so-hot-sun-and-not-so-wet weather. RP field its really sucky. sorry. but it feels like in the construction site. u see the bright sun, and u see thick mud. the girls who dive at the try area makes a difference. hahaha. the try area is like to close to the wall. i rmbr one girl almost hit the wall after skidding. but HAH. the white wall is now ALL MUD FILLED.
i think we really dirtied RP's territory. couldn't help it la.

and, thank God for the invent of gauze. i taped 3 gauze to my opened raw blister, from 6am till 2pm! the pain was there but lessen. then my back wasn't a hinderance! (: thank God. after e whole thing, i went to see the medic. he says that if its in the army, they would use a sterilze scissors and cut off from the RAW flesh. crazy can. the slightest touch of the skin area kills alreay la. he couldn't and wouldn't want to coz he doesn't have a sterlize scissors. haha. he bandaged it. HAHA. for a blister. coz lack of resoures so gotta used what's there. haha.

maybe one of my aim is to not be so injury prone.

slowly but surely, i've put away my irritations towards photography and face it. ppl are just gonna get meaner and meaner. so just face it. its gonna be the same everywhere.

happy house.

i guess it was a success and through this project, our class spirit shine through. really glad that we worked well together despite differences.

as for the business debate. i guess we did well just that we didnt have enough voters coz we couldn't be bothered to ask ppl to vote. hahaha. all were too busy with CCN day. however, i think its really a gd experience for me cosidering that it is the 1st formal debate. mr daryl david said like "the 1st speaker from the oppo team had solid and clear points. she's one of the strongest speakers so far". whoa! to me its like a big bonus la. coz its jesse who helped me through the whole process and i really want to thank him for his patient and ongoing attitute to win.
he kept reminding 'the deal to win' . haha. he really wanted to win this thing.

anyways. i think 2M02 is really happy ppl. my day was like cheered up after seeing a few of them. this morning, i was really in pain as i limped to sch with all the shirt. i was really blech abt the whole thing.
but thankfully, i was able to refocus myself again.


well. these few days been a horirble downs and up. but i've learnt smth. i realise that i get really negative quickly and not reasoning out my thoughts. thus, this implict act has caused to much nonsense.
the gd thing is that, i'm able to move on and get over it after a night's slp.
so i guess i know what to take note of. i know God is working in my life. and i know that i must not disappoint him.


ok. so tmr's the game. putting gauze over the blisters helps to cushion it! after abt 1hr of walking, u'll get immuned to the pain. so yes. with that, i will play my best tmr and make sure i spot gaps and hit my goals. hope that my feet and back and last me the whole day. 645am at sch! and it'll end at abt 4-5pm? yes.
i pray for gd weather tmr. thank u.

just because ppl gets better.
ppl think that they're better.
its ok.

but no.
they judge.
they assume.
they simply gossip as if a learner is of no use.
nvm.


i guess i have to make it clear that i'm not upset because of anything that's said on the field. because its on the field.
but, those things said off the field... think abt it.
and ppl assume otherwise. thank u very much.
i dun think this is a team.
i will never voice out ever again. coz i can ever do so w/o inviting bad mouths.


sometimes i really really 100%ly feel like just letting go. but i can't. coz i love the game so much. but if it torments u inside so much, how is it that the passion still can shine.
maybe i should just stop trng with tp. and go elsewhere. i'll have more time more space and everything and be refreshed. i'm just wasting everyone's time.


my feet is filled with big open wound blisters.
as i'm typing this crap, the clear pus is oozing out from my feet. i find it hard to walk. what more carrying a big heavy bag full of class shirts.

i duno how i'm gonna fare on saturday. but i know i'll give my best. just pray that my blisters dun hinder me.
just to switch on my room light, i have to hop on one leg.
i'm trying not to mention anythign abt my back. even if i do, it'll still be the same.



just as everything seem to go against the current, i opened the lock, hoping to find some glimpse of joy at home.
but no. sorry.
my mum just had to do her thing.
the moment i step in.. "you dun treat this house as a home, u should just not come home."
i really had a gd bath. the isloation was just almost perfect.
i cannot really define home at this pt of time.

everything seems everywhere.
touch wood but if a car bangs me down tmr morng, landing me in a hospital, missing ccn day, my oh-so-impt debate, i really dun mind.
i dun really want a break.
but i just want positive feelings.


i'm just lowering myself by wallowing myself up in self pity here.
i dun know who i am already. well, not exactly. but i seem to have lost strength in everything i do.
i seem to jsut loose my cool. unable to thinnk a more positive strength.
yes, and by making such public statements, i'm sure to invite more gossips. thank you.




the election is on. first time in history that sportsclub needs voting. i cant really be bothered to seriously ask ppl to vote for me. everything is like vote-for-me-pls. even the debate! 50% judges and 50% voting.
i mean like why should i vote for you? tell me. i cant simply vote because u are a friend of mine.
and i dun think u guys should vote for me. i dun think i deserve it. just vote for my partner jesse.

i really hope i'll brush off all my nonsense and do my diploma well for the debate. heard that LAW is sending 2 debators.
oh well. we'll see how it goes.

i'm just very ashamed to ask God for anything. i've said enough vulguarites in my heart for today. i've felt enough negativeness for today. i'm sinned enough for today. its like i just feel so unworthy that Jesus died on the crosee for me. i feel so 'judas'.


i should stop being emo and move on.

"what doesn't kills you makes u stronger"

now,

wa. freak out.

i didn't know its like this scale.
Business Arena. i.e. the arena.

i really duno how its gonnna go, but my partner is a yr1 and he's really exprienced like mad.. i thank God for him coz i'm sure he'll do the Diploma in Marketing proud. hahah. seriously. he's gd. he was from acsbr. hahahhaa.

so my motion for the quarter finals.. "Singapore is ready to embrace homosexuality" and our aim is to WIN. hoho. personally, i'm just afraid with ppl from LAW/CMM/HTM. coz i think they have stats. ahhaha. anyways.
we just hope it all goes well.

crazy wk again.
must force myself to be aggressive in my speech. ever since i left KC, i've lost the thing for public speaking. ahaha. simply put it, i think i've lost my confidence? ahaha. i get really nervous if i speak to a crowd. and i'm not in the past. hahaa.
in times like this.. i miss stephanie sim. ahaha. she's splendid everywhere. ahha. i still remember ABIGAL HAN. hahhaa. wining the best speaker award during Book and Music Week. ahahha.


ok. i'm off now. yes.
i do hope things get better.


and pls to you, pls give up hope and brush off all the nonsense. i just want to make my yr2 and 3 the best of the yrs and excel in my acad. thank you.

keep holding on

Keep Holding On-Avril Lavigne
You're not alone
Together we stand
I'll be by your side, you know I'll take your hand
When it gets cold
And it feels like the end
There's no place to go
You know I won't give in
No I won't give in

Keep holding on
'Cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through
Just stay strong
'Cause you know I'm here for you, I'm here for you
There's nothing you could say
Nothing you could do
There's no other way when it comes to the truth
So keep holding on
'Cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through

So far away
I wish you were here
Before it's too late, this could all disappear
Before the doors close
And it comes to an end
With you by my side I will fight and defend
I'll fight and defend
Yeah, yeah

Keep holding on
'Cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through
Just stay strong
'Cause you know I'm here for you, I'm here for you
There's nothing you could say
Nothing you could do
There's no other way when it comes to the truth
So keep holding on
'Cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through

Hear me when I say, when I say I believe
Nothing's gonna change, nothing's gonna change destiny
Whatever's meant to be will work out perfectly
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah

La da da da
La da da da
La da da da da da da da da

Keep holding on
'Cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through
Just stay strong
'Cause you know I'm here for you, I'm here for you
There's nothing you could say
Nothing you could do
There's no other way when it comes to the truth
So keep holding on
'Cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through

Keep holding on
Keep holding on

There's nothing you could say
Nothing you could do
There's no other way when it comes to the truth
So keep holding on
'Cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through

p.m.

whole day felt restless.

pms.
poon marian suxs.


no la. i just need rest and to sort my mind out. its been too.. 'procrastinative'.
and with ppl wanting to squeeze the life out of u,
its gd to have a little encouragements at times.

amen.

forget it

maybe i should just stop shooting seriouslyy.
i should start shooting for MY passion. and to amplify God's creation.
I DO NOT want to shoot for ppl anymore.
seriouslly.
i was so so angry just now. i dun want to talk abt anything.
i might as well sell all my camera stuff away, get a good point and shoot, and take the remaining money and spend it on music.

jsut forget abt photography.
no one appreciates the hard work. complain and complaint, and instruct me what to do in a condesending tone. thanks hur.
i'm sorry. coz i'm only there to shoot FOR MYSELF. not for YOU msperfect.
and sorry, i'm not gonna post the pics up online, coz u wouldn't appreciate it and would further complain.

i should just forget abt everything. just do my sports, studies and music. enough.
i'm goona STOP project 365. although i've eben faithfully taking photos EVERYDAY, forget it. its not gg to work like that.

so for my long term goal as being a photojournalist or gg into NUS to do CNM, forget it. i'll just stick with Marketing. excel in there. get gd pay, have gd family and thats it.


it just feels as if my aeota (forgot spelling)), the largest blood vessel that is from my heart has burst. i just feel like giving everything up.
in a gd way, surrending them all to God
its not goona work it Man keeps putting unnecesary pressure on me.


i duno if God wants me to go mission this year. i thought i was so confident for gg, even to the extent of filling up the form. but no. i do not want to be tied down. why? i just feel in gg there to reach out physically, take a few shots for the villagers and myself and to amplify God's creation, not for fellow luxury.






i'm just so sinful today.

i dun want to go sch tmr.
sch starts at 9AM.
my notes are all at the photoshop downstairs. won't have notes tmr. argh. i'm so irritated. i can't do my tutorials nor anything.
i'm jsut so useless.

i should just stop trying so hard all for nothing. and wads more discouraging, ppl become more demanding rather than appreciative. i'm not asking for any thank u wad. i just want u to appreciate and not treat me as if i'm there to shoot for u.
i think i've said enough. the more words i say, the more it displeases God. i'm sorry.this post was supposed to be dedicated to my mum.but anger overtook all my love.

but on a gd note, it felt gd to be able to play for worship with nigel again.
thank u.

this is Haha. check out her stride man. ahhaha. game today TP vs NANDA (NTU 2). 8-1 to us. tahhha. i was amazed at the paced we played at.



bowling forum was today. out of the 200 over, only abt 80 came for the forum becasue of lessons, and whatevernots.
i've decided to not waste my time and go for it. and by saying that, i shall really go for it. shant empty talk...

constituent clubs elections are up. i'm stil contemplating if i should stay in sportsclub again. i've spoken to wilson my club advisor abt my prioritise. he understands. i told him that if i were to be in the comm again, i DONT WANT to be e h. sectary nor any major positions. i'd like try venture into a diff area. probably like assist Creative Director or smth. at least i'll know more of my purpose, rather than writing countless minutes.


photos taken by aini. ahha. she was playign with my 30d. ahaha.


Go ahead as you waste your days with thinking
When you fall everyone sins
Another day and you've had your fill of sinking
With the life held in your
Hands are shaking cold
These hands are meant to hold

Speak to me, when all you got to keep is strong
Move along, move along like I know you do
And even when your hope is gone
Move along, move along just to make it through
Move along
Move along

So a day when you've lost yourself completely
Could be a night when your life ends
Such a heart that will lead you to deceiving
All the pain held in your
Hands are shaking cold
Your hands are mine to hold

Speak to me, when all you got to keep is strong
Move along, move along like I know you do
And even when your hope is gone
Move along, move along just to make it through
Move along
(Go on, go on, go on, go on)

When everything is wrong we move along
(Go on, go on, go on, go on)
When everything is wrong, we move along
Along, along, along

When all you got to keep is strong
Move along, move along like I know you do
And even when your hope is gone
Move along, move along just to make it through
[x3]

(Move along)
(Go on, go on, go on, go on)
Right back what is wrong
We move along

spiderman 3

pls go watch it. i like the plot, but i think they should have like a to be continued kinda thing. the ending was gd.
so fast la. i was like waiting for spiderman 3, and now, i've watched it! hoho.
the whole thing abt spiderman is cool coz it evolves around sciences and its theories making them logical eventhough supernatural unlike other super heros. ahah.
after the movie,... we're like saying how useless batman is la. robin is much worse. hahahhaa. big supporters of spidey hur. haha. lorraine goes for superman still. ahahhaah.
look at this..



had this after watching spiderman 1. ahhaha. mum got it for me. hahah. totally. rockin mum.

haha.b4 that, i went to arab street with some of my class mates to get stuff for ccn day. ahhaa. we had a gd time. and the mee soto is shiok. (: (:

some photos.







camera is getting OLD. its been almost 2-4yrs now. and censor is getting pok. and it takes 3 WHOLE SECONDS of maybe even longer to just focus. *hint. ahhahah. no la. just sad abt missing the moments.


oh yes, i want to thank God for Joelle. wanted to go and see this tiedayisheng, but it was closed, ON WED only. yes. hahaa. so we went to another pork one.
it was a old guy, not really confortable with him unrolling my shirt to rub my back. ahhaha. i guess it was a gd rub, my back was like.... oh man. i was hitting the mat and wall. and he put the hot towel which kept increasing heat. wah. it was pain.
here's the list of things i cant eat...
highlight the mineral water and kang kong pls.
i just had 2 bottles of mineral water and a whole plate of sambal kangkong ytd. thanks hur. ahahaha.



alrights. i should go see abt my knee soon. so injury prone. gah. dun like this. haha. but thank God for ppl and docs. (: and gd movie makers.


mum just mentioned abt dad in her dreams. super funny. to cut short, they were supposed to watch movie together. he told her to meet at the next bus stop while he's on the scooter. (so retro pls). then at the movies, dad saw someone.. and he ran away. haha. like huh. then mum kept calling him until she woke up. hahaha.
this is one of her many dreams. she had so many la. and it was detailed. there's one she woke up crying. hahaha. hmmmm. abit freaky. his whole image of him in his uniform, al-so-smart-and-clean is still vivid in my memory. hahah.

the start

today's higlight is the new freshies into the touch rugby team. 60 over of them!
kinda excited for them.. coz its like a whole new game play..
some of them learn really fast and have potential.. steady. quite promising. hope everyone inc the seniors and all will work harder.


well for me, i duno wad i'm feeling right now abt this whole thing. dun ask me to define whole thing. i dislke it. as much as i want to excel in my fav sport, its like, i have chains to the other. although i love both, one gives me so much more satisfaction but more disappointment. on the other hand, the one with the chains and literally converted my passion to obligation. so i dun need to explain further.
dun like this.
so end up, i cant realllyy 'gel' with both teams coz ultimately i'm loosing out on the social side. i really envy u guys. i wanna train to be faster. and i want to be better, to get into the polite team. but i know its not possible for this yr. i'll try harder next yr. but i really wanna take part in compeitions now for TP. i want to get the experience. i'm super sure that after i graduate, i'lll continue touch. ahhaha. i'm not so sure for bowling, unless some big achievement might make me feel worth it. (zen! how ar, how?) ahahha.

maybe i should just be contented with my ohsolovely chains hur. as much as i love the other sport, i get so discouraged, left out and just there to be existant. but nvm. thanks to myself.
but i do hope in the Lord. i may sound freakin particular abt things, but thats the why i am, striving for a perfection which will never come. its the process la. at least at the end of the day, i've got smth to be proud of, smth that my mum would be proud of.ahhahahaa. and carry my dad's long-lost-shockingly-eccentric sport; rugby. (yes, laugh pls.) he was in sajs rugby team. ahahhahhaa. super funny. after his p6, he went to study the aircrafts and excel tremendously thanks to Uncle Thomas.
haha.
the old times.

well. so yes, the freshies have now entered this journey. some will stay and some will leave. just hope that they'll really work hard. and as seniors, we gotta work even harder.


hmmm.

today's lectures are the most boring. i feel asleep lar. seriously. 1.5hrs STRAIGHT. w/o break. sorry, i dun work that way. i mean like.. if the students go for lecture with a mindset of ending early, i dun think its goona be productive at the end of the day lars. haha. duh, who doesn't want lecture to end early so that we've got more time. but i think that shouldn't give us a reason to sacrifice the opportunity to learn more during lecture.
hahah. angel student sia. haha.


project 365. is gg on, BUT. pic sucks. just dun feel like carrying on, coz i'm not even putting the slightest effort to learn. hhaha. oh wells.

pray that tmr i can see the tiedayishen! hahahha. joelle's accompanying me!
hope that the doc will use him/her with healing power sia. ahhah. i seriously dun think i can let this injury pass, coz its been ONE WK and the pain is still obivously there, haunting me la. ahhaa. today, when i sat on the grass, OH MY TIAN. it felt as if 10,000 red ants bite my tailbone la. ahhaha. like some old grandma.
thank God trng isn't trng trng today. just some light ball passes, games. haha.

nevertheless, kp on praying for 2M02 and this whole busy week. CCN, plus trials and then the SMU Touch carnival.



this is estee. ahhahaha. she is hilarously HILARIOUS. ahaha. "like totally!" ahhaa.

well...

tired! hahha.

i realised that as the yrs pass by, my kind of leadership is also changing. ahha. i used to be leader-leader. like those who takes the 1st step and stuff... but now... i'm more of a leader-follower kind. i dun feel that urge to wanna take the lead kinda thing.
i guess i'm really tired of all the direction-seeking-thing.
probably give me a break this yr. i'll be back next yr i hope.

bah. i hope its not the age-tired thingy, i'd rather it to be a mindset.

joelle is super caring la. we're goona see the doc on wed. haha. she's my angel-mortal-the-angel. ahhaha. thanks to her, i got a tie da yi shen to see on wed! haha.
i'm not sure if i've recovered or on the road to recovery, coz the pain seems to be amazingly there although it's gonna be a wk now. hahha. hoho. bad fall hur. tsktsk.
and thanks, i have PHOEBIA of wetfloors.. esp in the toilet now, i get freaked out. ahahah. totally.

tmr's the rugby trials. kinda excitied coz estee is coming! (: hope she'll stay through e end man. (: (:

apel lesson today was interesting to me. wad abt the elderly thingy. so ms reena asked any of ur relatives older than 60yrs? hahah. i raised my hand.
i duno why i did.
basically, all my grandparents died b4 i was even born. so, sorry coz i duno anything abt grandmotherly love. ahaha. my mum's hitting 60 soon but that doesn't qualify me to raise that hand of mine.
so i guess it was my dad. if he's still living, he'd probably be hmmm... 65? hoho. old man yound at heart hur. hahhaha.
but luckily ms ng didn't ask me to share with the class or anything.

somehow, i feel that these 2 months are very different from the rest. somehow.
although its gg to be close to A YEAR, ppl still ask. hope?
nah. it'll just end up disappointment.
if given another chance opportunity, i dun think i'll take it. i'm not worthy at at all, not worthy at all.


well. hope in stregth from God and His children. soar on wings. run and not grow tired pls. thanks.

Strangers Like Me

Strangers Like Me- Phill Colins (Tarzan Soundtrack)

Whatever you do, I'll do it too
Show me everything and tell me how
It all means something
And yet nothing to me

I can see there's so much to learn
It's all so close and yet so far
I see myself as people see me
Oh, I just know there's something bigger out there

I wanna know, can you show me
I wanna know about these
strangers like me
Tell me more, please show me
Something's familiar about these strangers like me

Every gesture, every move that she makes
Makes me feel like never before
Why do I have
This growing need to be beside her

Ooo, these emotions I never knew
Of some other world far beyond this place
Beyond the trees, above the clouds
I see before me a new horizon

I wanna know, can you show me
I wanna know about these strangers like me
Tell me more, please show me
Something's familiar about these strangers like me

Come with me now to see my world
Where there's beauty beyond your dreams
Can you feel the things I feel
Right now, with you
Take my hand
There's a world I need to know

I wanna know, can you show me
I wanna know about these strangers like me
Tell me more, please show me
Something's familiar about these strangers like me

...I wanna know


one of the Tarzan's soundtrack. been listening to the soundtrack ever since the movie. philll colins' a gd singer. haha.

the lyrcis mean so much.



slacked at lydia's house today. watch Bridge to Terabethia. it was my 1st lit book back back in SEC 1 if i'm not wrong. hahah. couldn't understand nor picture the book though. haha. i should find the book some day.
i always wished to have a friend like such in the movie. hhaha. i used to or thought to have one though. but NVM. ahhaha. i thought of garyq though. hahhahaa. *slaps head. (:

celebrated Char's bday. and one of the most successful surprises. haha.


Happy early bday!. HARS. result of not doing any embarrassing thing in the restraunt this yr.

my pns focusing is chao laggin. i must do smth.

next up, a bz bz week.

marian.

just some experiements on one photo. i'm trying to make it as studio as possible. haha.




i'm goona perform during the Singapore Arts Festival. HAHAH. to All that Jazz . ahha. the photo below is koped from some friendster. hahahas.



kinda excitied. but i realised HOW pack my wkends for May. with the trials, practices and stuff.. hmm. haha.


and i bought this for......
$5 DOLLARS. HAHA. coz my only other cool watch is spoilt. the one i wore for IMF. also, $5. ahhaah. cheepo. but its nice k. ahhaha. B2B is like wad we learning in biz, business to business. hahahahha.

today, my family had dinner downstairs. (: missed daddy agains. i think the 3 of us really dun feel complete la. like its always 4. when u like fill in those registration form... __ family members.. 3 is just wierd and incomplete. ahhaa.
then its like.. when they ask for Father's Information, hhahaha. i'll always dunno wad to right. ahhahah.

so yes. there's my sis telling me not to tke photos while my mum carries her groceries up the stairs. trust me, u dunno how strong my mama is.
i rmbr when i got beaten by her when i was a kid, it was like.. HARD sia. i get very amazed by her strength. ahha. yes, naughty me gets alot of cannnings, beatings and whatevernots. haha.



i just love this.

tribes

Hope


Searching Hope
The plants that are held in her hands are edible berries. As pampered Singaporeans, comsumption would sent us running for the loo while they would bring the children delight.


Holding onto Hope
Even at such a young age, they know how to take care of their younger brother and sisters, in hope of a healthy growth for the future. Unlike the children in Singapore, these children appreciate their familiy members and happy to live on for another day of their lives.


Glimpse of Hope
The villagers in the hilltribes, in search of medical attention. Any form of technology is pure amazement for them.


this is kinda like my 'Hope' series.
took them last year. its like taking me forever to sort these photos out. i wonder how uncle james sort the ppl out.
i'm amazed by some photographers that captures ur heart and soul. like really. i'm like trying. but i guess it doesn't come with just trying but by sincerity. hahahha. oh well. haha.


well. today was like the amazing race. my team consisted of she-na, valerie and ronald. we came in like 6th. horrible. there were 25 teams lar. hahaha. 1st few mins, when we started to run, i felt the PULL man. ahhaha. like someone pulling me back. ahha. then subsequently, i got used to the pain.. so it was much better. hahaa.
even it was my 1st time knowing ronald and val, i thinkk we did a pretty gd job. ahha. val is pro. hahaa. she's got the stamina las. haha. i guess we;ve got held up at the hunt and pitching tent part. but nvm. ahaha. at least it was kinda friendly-fun kinda thing. haha
but yes, another opportunity wasted for a medal.

anyways. today's like FAOM day. hahah. my class is as hyped up as usual. i'm starting to love to go to sch and i think this is goona make my life in TP so much happier and fruitful. coz everyone's like enjoying working hard. haha. its gd that we're meeting up quite alot to chat and stuff. once we've start to seriously hit the projects, i guess we've less class mtng times.

hahhaa. joelle's gg to the TIE DA E SHEN with me! hahha. sry, i realised that my hanyunpinying is really lousy now. i used to be a PRO in p3 OKS. ahhahahah. yea! (: hope to get things back into place.

on another note, maybe just to be abit over ambitious, i should try to at least aim for pol-ite for rugby. i guess that's proabbly why i'm learning too slow- not having a goal that challenges. so yes. even if i do not make it to the pol-ite team, its ok, at least i know that i've tried and not going at the slow pace that i've been on. yes. ahha. new goal. ahhaa. (:
haha.

hurhur

most dumb lar.

i feel so injury prone.

walk slp sit getup cough sneeze run bend
all so restricted. trng was like....
oks.
the boys used the field; TP vs SP. hahaha. TP won.. but was so so so nice to see zuan, clar, ash, clar and wilson. ahha. victor and pax is now in TP. (:
thus, trng started at around 8pm thanks to the boys. we played a few silly looking but fun games. ahha. marli played with us too. ahhha.
so trng was just game, 10 5 10 5 10. first set, was complaining already. 2nd set.. i couldn't back paddle fast or properly. last set was just.... gave up. coz i think i shouldn't push and aggreviate it. it seemed to be getting worse so i think i should stop trng.

so my perf on e field today its one of the most horibble so far. let men go through, offside, slow actg half.
NVM.
aahha.
oh yes. and i got sting by a small bee. i felt this bite-pain on my right waist area. so i pull up my shirt and found a little bee tha dropped to the ground. i was like. ewww. hahaha. the bee's butt was like vibrating with the yellow and black stripes moving, seemingly up and down.
so i saw the bite as it got redder. ahha. the sting fell off together with the dying bee i guess. ahhaa. but nvm. now its just like a blue-black bite.
hahahha.
i still rmbr clearly back in KC.. how mrs lim got so paraniod with i infromed her that the bee had stung me while i was partolling. hahaha. she was like freaking out, geraldyne was so worried while i was as if, trying to calm her down. ahhahhaa.
and the SJAB girl tried to like.. save the situation in the general office when it was jsut really a small bite la. hahahhahaa. super funny.
i still rmbr the look on mr. juraimi's face. haha.'



ok. so now, i must find time to go and see a sinseh! ahha. coz those western docs will just tell me to rest and give me painkillers after the LONG WAIT. so its a big NO,. probably like wed morn or smth.
argh. i just dun like to waste time and seee docs.


well. today/s the last trng with us seniors only. next wk will be back to basics with the freshmen. i think i'm goona work much harder if i wanna achieve smth out of rugby. if bowling has to stand in the waycome by, er. ahha. according to tp, i have to go with bowling coz of the STARS thing. puii. just pray for strength and faith. i just hope that all timings won't clash. PLS. thank u.
and abt collegiate league. should i join? if i do, that would mean sacrificing trng time. maybe i would, but i dun think i'll stress myself by playing everywwk.
haiz.

bad fall

i had a bad fall today. literally.

ok. the ground was wet and slippery and with my pork sandals, i fell down.

whats more worse is that i fell down at Bedok bus interchange.hard on my butt la. u know the drop off point there? yes. and it was kinda crowded with the morning crowd.

haha.ironically, at the pt when i fell, i was telling myself to be cautious. win already lors.
i fell infront of this middle-aged aunty who was talking on the phone while alighting the bus. she screamed.
hellos. i'm like supposed to be the one screaming la.

and of couse, WITHOUT any doubt, that scream of hers sent stares. this grp of china workers passed by and asked if i needed help la. coz i was sitting on my butt with my palm trying to support myself...so it was like... starting to crowd.

MALU OK. really.
and i was wearing the TP FOC shirt lars.

so i told them... er.. its ok. i stood up and started limping to the bus stop, feeling super super embarrassed and in silent pain.

ahaha.seriously, the woman didn't have to scream. really. hahahha.


so the whole day was around campus with an aching tail bone and blue-blacked palm.
it was really painful, or rather, is still very painful. each time i cough/laugh/sneeze, i feel the pain up to my lower back. even when i'm going into sittig position or standing up, it hurts.
i seriously hope its not serious or anything. the pain is not like excruciating or anything, its just sharp pains.


today i had a 4HR break coz my Law lecture turned out to be online. haha. so was with estee and friends. hahahha. tutorial finally came. ahha. it was one of the MOST FUN TUTORIAL i've ever been in my life in TP. i love my class coz i can be who i am la. no more attempting to be introvert and silent. ahahha. yays. i'm happy. (:
for 2 yrs! hahaha. i think this class can go far if we work together coz we're ppl from diff bgs. hahha.
there's this thailand part-timer! ahahhaa. i beetter take some time to try learn some thai from her b4 i go to thailand this yr. well, maybe. hahha.
(: (:

i'm so blessed with ppl this semester la. God has seen me through the tides. though so often i've disppoint Him, He's not letting go. its this feeling i had 2 yrs ago during my first mission trip, when aunty joanne said 'God has not left us and will nv leave us'.


yes. so tmr i have trng.
pls do pray for 'my safety'. i hope nothing will aggrevate it or anything. thank u.




btw. click.http://youtube.com/watch?v=JsD6uEZsIsU&mode=related&search= from my bowler-guit-photog friend. same combo as me. just tt he's is soccer and mine's rugby. hahha. the guitarist featured is PRO. super clean and his harmonics is just WHOAs. sry, limited vocab. hahaha. super nice and pleasing.

mayday

ahha. i slpt at 6am ytd! was happily tiding some photos till morn. i think i took this labour day for granted. i wanted to run this morn, coz its been so so so long since i've ran long dist. hahaha. i think i'll be shocked by my stamina. hahaha. in a not so gd sense. haha

well, fortunately, i packed the pants side of my cupboard today. i'm goonna pack the shirt side later. hahhhaa. seriously. all organisations' shirts, ahhhaa. no cool and hip shirt.


i found this picture then tried some filters. its beeeeen really long. time flies yet the moment crawls. haha. how 'nice. just hope that everything's gg well on his side. hope to have a gd chat with u soon. (: thank u.



“And without faith it is impossible to please God, because anyone who comes to him must believe that he exists and that he rewards those who earnestly seek him.” - Hebrews 11:6 -

marketing

i love my marketing class. today we sat at jupiter's cafe to sit and plan for CCN day sia.

sch was just ok lar. didn't have tutorials for the core subjects. spent time printing notes with estee and friends. hahha. my class is quite sportsy. haha. have trackers and swimmmers, dancers and so on. haha. estee's from sngs track. haha. and i realllllly wanna thank God. not only i can finally communicate with the class, there are believers too! well, i do miss my old class during the lunch breaks, hearing them laugh nonsensicaly. (: estee was sharing how faith has brought the pain away. b4 her event, her injury was causing so much sharp pains. she says that even with that little faith of hers, she prayed. and that sharp pain was gone when the gun fired. and after her run, it came back again. but that's not the pt. she's really glad that God listened to tt little request of hers.
she wants to join touch rugby!!! (: (: (: yay. imagine my classmate in touch! yays. hope she'll enjoy the game.

after the long day in sch, i went marketing!



eh. i PERSONALL CHOSE the crab oks! hahaha. its a female crab and it was simply too gd. my mama's proud of me. hahha. while i was choosing the crab at NTUC, this old man was like looking at how i choose the crabs. super freaky la. like some kind of examiner. all the crabs weren't really fresh.. and he was like touching the crabs and putting all the 'gd' male crabs infront of me. hahhaa. was so funny lar. then i told him i wanted female one. and he just kept finding for one at his corner. haha. then b4 he took the one that i spotted, I TOOK IT FIRST. HAH. coz the crab was like not so dead and could retaliate. hahah. the base was big and heavy. so i guess its gd. hahahha.

i came home with my new textbooks, vegetables and a crab. i felt a sense of achievement. coz the stuff in total was really heavy.

so my mum disect the crab and kept saying how long it was since she'd see such a gd crab. hahha. look! super fresh and like TREASURE seh. haahhaaa. jealous jealous?



it was like gold star star star for me la. hahaa. i videoed the WHOLE processing of her killing, pulling the crab apart and took some snap shots. hahaah. it was funy. eh. skillful k. one day it'll come in handy. seriously. even with the whole crab all apart, the heart was still beating, the claws and other legs were still moving. and the lung moved till it ceased. i think its really amazing. b4 it got killed, it fought with the knife and scissors la. was really strong. even after the claws were ripped off, it still had its grip to the knife. determined sia.

then we had our romantic steamboat in the dining hall. hahaa. as usual. hahah. (:


the photo is like taken with inbuilt flash, timer and stuff. couldn't really bother to like tripod here and there. so just make do. hahaha.
the crab made the soup super sweet and shiok la. hahaha. and the meat was so sweet and tender. we had a gd time. my mum enjoyed the crab roll and stuff. ahhaha.

(:

well, i thought of dad pretty much today. ahha. last sunday, mum SMSED me smth like 'where are u, i want to go see u'. it was freakyyy k. hahaa. no way my mum says such stuff. i dun really like this kind of words from her, it really resembles my dad last few days. hahahaa. ookok. i'm not thinking too much la. hahaa. i'm super sure that if dad was alive and in the house when i got the crab home, he's sure to make fun of me.. saying that i'm some aunty, being pro-ed in the ntuc area la. haha

OH YEA. speakin of which. the queue was long, and it bent to the right. so i queued accordingly. then this aunty had to queue on the left and after a moment, she looked and me and said "i didn't see u" and looked away, continuing in her stand. puii lar. i was like. ok. haha. i shall not be bullied by this aunty and ruin my youth by voicing out the rightful truth.
so i gracefully walked over to the other queue and looked at her. haha. i think she mistook it for a stare or smth, and she gave that VERY VICTORIOUS face. i was like...hahaha. ok. like that win lor. hahhaa.
it was really funny la. the uncle infront of her knew wad was gg on and smiled at me. i returned with a smile and move along the line. hahahhahahahhahaa.

so that was the experince in the NTUC supermarket at night.


i missed shopping there with my mum at NTUC. when i was young, i would always tagg along after sch, watching how she choose the vegs, meat and all. hahahhaa. now lost touch liao. haahhaha.

i was shocked that its close to 3am now. haha. i better slp. hahaha. LABOUR DAY TMR! (: (: another day for ME. (: