that's the realisation of the day for me.
i'm still strugglin on the field.
gossips seem to be inevitable. yea. is this team game really a team game?
hmmm. ever since feb2006, i have been feeling tired. ppl around me can justify that. no mattter how much i sleep, how consistent or whatsoever. i seriously need to see doc for that. not sure ifs its coz of my habits or wad, but i've been sleepin during lectures or rather, fighting to keep awake.
mum's back from malacca. i guess she did had a gd time. projects are due this thurs and fri and sat is psycho test which is 40% (i think).
hmmm. last night. had this another wierd dream.
to cut the long story short..
there were 12 of us.
then.. its like. to 'go heaven' u gotta flush urself down the toilet bowl. literally. so basically all my 10 friends have successfully done that. (i can't rmbr who they were though. well, a mixture of both close friends and friends) left another friend and i. i can't rmbr who he was. but it was a guy. either daniel/jorim/jeremiah?? haha. was very vague. then we tried flushing ourselves down in our different cubcicals. looks like the cubicles in changi airport. (yes, it sounds stupid. and i felt it was quite serious during the dream hahaha.). then we weren't successful, and then came to a conclusion that maybe, we weren't ready yet.
then as we walked out (surroundings like the area outside press center durin IMF), we walked out of wherever we were.. and it lookslike clarkquay plus abit of the old wtc (now, habourfront) and plus abit of sentosa. then i tried to talk. i became dumb. only my friend could hear me. the rest couldn't. i wasn't v v frustrated, just alittle irritated coz i wasn't being understood. my friend also had smth wrong.. but can't rmbr what though.
then next scene, we're on this boat/speedboat/yatch.. then i rmbr looking back at the pier, seeing ALVIN. TPSU PRESIDENT waving the white tp flag and him, wearing his black polo tee. haha. yes.
and the dream ended with me still trying to speak to dunno-who, and my friend, figuring out what iwas trying to say.
image all these dream were significant. scary sia.
ok. maybe dreams make me not have a gd sleep resulting in fatigue.
Beauty From Pain
- Superchick -
The lights go out all around me
One last candle to keep out the night
And then the darkness surrounds me
I know I'm alive
But I feel like I've died
And all that's left is to accept that it's over
My dreams ran like sand through the fists that I made
I try to keep warm but I just grow colder
I feel like I'm slipping away
After all this has passed
I still will remain
After I've cried my last
There'll be beauty from pain
Though it won't be today
Someday I'll hope again
And there'll be beauty from pain
You will bring beauty from my pain
My whole world is the pain inside me
The best I can do is just get through the day
When life before is only a memory
I wonder why God let me walk through this place
And though I can't understand why this happened
I know that I will when I look back someday
And see how You've brought beauty from ashes
And made me as gold purified through these flames
Here and I am at the end of me (at the end of me)
Trying to hold to what I can't see
I forgot how to hope
This night's been so long
I cling to your promise there will be a dawn
haha. i've tried composing a song like that, but i wasn't emo for long to complete it. so its like hangning there. my laptop is not with me still. they promised 3 working days. its like 5 ALREADY. yes. and somemore when projects are due.
mission ppt is still stuck at day 5. hurhur. so many things to do.
no point complainting. coz everyone is feeling the same. so y keep yapping?
any idea y my archive is not working??
ok. i just pray that things gets better on the field though.
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