official photog back.

the crazy confirmed-tees




hooh. since IMF that i've become an official photog. today was church's Confirmation. used uncle Kok Chi's Nikon D50s. ok lar. nikon pics dun look nice on the LCD. but on the com, nice sia. i was like. hey.. the colour is nice after all. haha. i'm still comfortable with canon though.

anyways.

yea. i was a little appprehensive. then b4 service started, unc kw made an annoucement which addded stress. ahha. "later for confirmation, pls refrain from crowding in front. we'll be having someone to take the photos of all the candidates. so dun worry, u'll be able to get the photos". THANKS. haha. i was told of the announcement nor the 'scale' of it. hahaha. i felt more nervous than IMF. at least in IMF, i've got another photog with me. haha.


she looked at me i shoot. haha.


during confirmation, i was taking pics and all lars. i could feel the goosebumps and all. i have to admit that i felt afraid. i know i shouldn't be.. but yea i was shaking.. then i started tearing... while taking the shots. uncle david who was beside me was also crying while taking photos... i told myself to focus. yea, ppl fell, but i was so afraid to take pics of them on the ground, so i kept my head high and carried on with the shots. it was overwhelming. i told myself to focus on my task. hahaa. nv nv cry during photoshoot. it's not gonna be easy to see if ur shots are in focus. ahaha. try.




Rev Rennis was simply connecting to God. its like, when he prayed, it was power to strike through ur heart. like.. he prayed "heal all broken wounds... forgive those who has taken advantage of u, ur business partners.. surrender to God..." i was like.. seriously. i'm so so sure that it all came from the Lord and he knew wad to pray out verbally. it was really overwhelming. i duno how to discribe it.. but eugene was also telling me that the musicians sitting at the side could also feel the power of the Holy Spirit and goosebumps were everywhere.

haha. then the grp shot, i was nervous... afraid that i'tll be over exposed. i duno if its me or the camera.. but when i'm with mr wilson's 300d, its either always over or under.. with nikon.. i feel that its over.. but it look gd on the computer.



congrats to all! (:


overall. i think i did well. haha. not bhb la. but at leat i'm able to cover single candidate.


after that.. mission trng..

haha. happy to learn thai and akha! haha. was fun.



after that was Worship Nite prac.



i dun feel confident enough to push the vol higher? sigh. haha. i really wanna play like as well so that it doesn't become any form of distraction.
its said that they're chaning it to Sanctuary.. technical pros and cons lar.


today i really felt exhausted. after 8hrs of bowling, late night supper and not enough slp, was alittle slow today. OH YES. I SINFULLY SINNED. ok it was Communion. Rev sort of like missed out me to give me the bread.. probably my hands were too low or smth. haha. so he prayed for me.. then the musicians saw and like giggled.. ahha. so ok la.. after much consideration, i went for 2nd round. then i took the bread, and wanted to dip into the wine. and i dropped the bread into it, and my fingers were like, wet. hahha. then uncle kia wang who was the officiant who gave the wine, took out the bread, from the cup and ate it. so technically i didn't take Communion. its reallly like hilarous on the physical part of it. but the spiritual part.. it seemed like.. 'not properly excuted'. i was reflective abt it... coz the communion is one of the most sacred ritual.. and the Bible states smth abt 'fallen asleep'.. which means to die la. hahaha.
no, i'm not afriad of the death part, just afriad that it would upset God.


then went to mac to eat ice cream with jas.. coz indeed on smth tt gives energy.
then cabbed home with my guitar and amplifer. the taxi driver was really talkative. i was so so tired.. he keeps talking n ask my repeated q. like " u play the guitar ar. can teach me anot (6 times)" and on and on and on.. then i give him directions.. he say.. "wah..see uncle so obediant. u say turn right, i turn right.. good ar". *slaps head. i so so so irritatied. and wad's more is that.. it was all in CHINESE. "u 17? so old ar. i thought 12. haha. not angry right (abt 5 times)".
it was a looooooong ride home. suffered. wanted to go and celebrated grace's bday. but really couldn't. btw. "sick, cannot go church but can go out." - wads ur take on this? possible reasons are like felt better so go out. but still. I, marian, is becoming to be more by-the-book.

went home, sinked into the sofa, and watched tv. oh man. i felt like i-am-now-resting. from 730pm till 1030. wanted to do tutorials and like study b4 i leave singapore.. but i think i needed the break. i guess i'll start tmr. and yes. it ahs become a really gd reason to procrastinate.


i wanna go OUT and ENJOY. haha. like sooo long haven done that. i treat my social life as schling, trng, church and stuff. but still. ahaa. NVM. why am i even ranting when i'm not angry or anything? haha. oh well.

i try to look forward to the coming weeks. its goona get tougher instead. the end of POL-ITE marks the start of it all.